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Battling Anxiety: Day 155

"When I can't see, You lead me. When I can't hear, You show me. When I can't stand, You carry me. When I'm lost, You will find me. When I'm weak, You are mighty. You are everything I need."

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[madlymiho]

Could you do X drakes, Ace's, and Basil's reaction to their S/O using their Ancient Zoan in a REALLY tough battle and S/O just, sweeps the field pretty easy in their form? Diplodocus would be preferred but you can decide the dino

I'm doing this!! ☺️ I hope this would be nice!

I'll go for Diplodocus since you prefer! 🥰

X-Drake:

• Even if it might sound a bit old fashion, somehow, Drake has always believed that he’s the man in charge during a battle and he couldn’t share this power. He’s the one who should take all the risks, the one who’s there for his men, or women, defending their honor no matter what

• It’s his job to make sure that everyone is coming back to his ship safe and sound, somehow because as an ancient Zoan himself, he has those instincts of protection ; it’s his duty, the reason why he’s the captain, he would be the one to sacrifice himself, and on the same level, the one who can eradicate his enemies on the battlefield

• Not that he doubts your competences, nor your strength or your will to fight, but he has a hard time to let it go, even if he tries his best to muffle those emotions, and give you the sensation that he trusts you...Since he’s in love with you, he has another duty, your protection is probably the most important mission he has ever had in his life, and he doesn’t want to fail it, and would show a dangerous side if anyone tries to harm you

• He knows that you have an ancient devil fruit yourself, but perhaps you don’t know how to use it probably, that the dinosaur within you is actually too strong, and you wouldn’t be able to use it properly... All those risks, he doesn’t want you to take them, and that’s why he would harshly and roughly yells at you to stay behind him... growling that you’re not in charge there

• But Drake can’t control you, and that’s also why he’s such in a bad mood when he notices that you turn into your ancient zoan form. Though, he didn’t anticipate that you would be so good, using perfectly the shape of your massive lizard body to win the fight, and completely eradicate the enemies there

• Abashed, eyes widened, he doesn’t really know how to react, probably because he’s still under those instincts he can’t fully control as well.. You have been prodigious, and he has to admit that you have some capacities, you can definitely take care of yoursel, and this is somehow a new perspective for him

• Yet as your captain, and a former marine, Drake has to remind you that you have been acting recklessly! He ordered you to stay behind, you could have been injured! For a moment, he only treats you as a subordinate, his intense blue eyes gleaming with both rage, but also fear... he was definitely concerned about you, but doesn’t know how to express it

• A firm kiss is suddenly pressed against your lips, carnal, harsh and dominant, Drake only circling your nape for a moment, just to have the privilege to deepen this contact. Another primal way for him to express many emotions he’s unable to talk about ; his love for you, his fear, his admiration... Words which are so complicated to pronounce

• For sure he will always growl whenever you’ll turn into your zoan form, but Drake is now sure that you’re capable to defend yourself and use your fruit intelligently... Though, you better be certain he wouldn’t show a happy face, and it will take some time for him to mellow this nature of his

Ace:

• Ace wouldn’t discriminate your ability to fight, but he’s a bit young and cocky sometimes, and he’s not the second commander of Whitebeard for nothing. When it comes to fight, usually he’s in charge, because logia fruits tend to be more effective on the battlefield, and he knows how to handle problems since he’s a kid

• Of course you’re more than welcome to join him, but Ace is somehow deeply concerned about that. His loner instincts are often striking whenever you’re around and there’s danger ; it would be easier for him to actually focus on his enemies if he doesn’t have to think about you all the time, nor your protection

• He doesn’t want you to get hurt, even if he’s always teasing you, or messing around with you, you’re his most precious treasure, and the very fact that you might get injured is an unbearable idea. He wouldn’t say it, but through his jokes, you definitely understand that it’s a sensitive topic... Losing you would be such a terrible outcome, he wouldn’t survive it

• He has always been carrying you away when things would turn nasty, pretending that his “little darling” would need a knight to rescue them. Another excuse, a goofy way for him to make sure that you’d be safe and sound, so of course, as soon as your turn into your devil fruit’s form, Ace’s anxiety is reaching its peak, and he will try to snap you away from the battlefield

• Surely, he admires your zoan form, mesmerized by the elegance of your shape, the massive paws you have, and all this feral aura surrounding you like a second skin, while you’re rushing and your enemies to finish the battle. He feels his heart aching, the very thought of losing you setting on fire, even more, his own wish to protect you

• You find within him the best fighting partner, Ace thoroughly having your back whenever you’re entering the fight, flying all around, but leaving you enough space to use your power, encouraging you loudly, with that huge smug smile on his lips when he understands that you’re okay and wouldn’t get hurt so easily

• You better be sure that as soon as the battle is over, he would be there to circle your waist - once you’d be back to your human for - his digits brushing your spine, and rear, that same smile plastered on his lips while he showers you under compliments, bragging about your skills

• He kisses you, hugs you, rubs his nose against yours, whispering how incredible you have been. Of course he has to joke that he’s pleased you’re not turning into your zoan form in more intimate situations, pulling you closer to hug you tightly

• Then, when he’s certain you’d be the only one to hear it, Ace gently tells you that he made him worried, and he’s releaved you’re not injured... A more intimate confession for such an intense moment

Hawkins:

• For Hawkins, you’re more than capable to defend yourself, especially since you have decided to follow him around the world. For sure, he’s in love with you, but love doesn’t have its place on the battlefield and there’s no reason for him to actually forbid you to have your own fights, it’s ridiculous

• He dissociates himself between his duty to protect you as a captain, and his duty to love you as your lover. Sure, you grew intimate together, but using that bond to restrain your freedom? He’s not that kind of captain, woman or man, you’re absolutely able to handle things by yourself without him to enter your business

• Though, as he always does before a fight, you better be sure that Hawkins thoroughly studies his deck of cards, looking at every single possibility before dragging you into a battle. He does that for every of his man, but you’re different, and he wouldn’t admit that he’s more concerned when it comes about you

• So his confidence in your capacities comes from his meticulous looks on his cards. You have zero percent of chance of dying today, and the injuries would be minimal, so you can definitely enleash your nature, he wouldn’t try to stop you

• He appreciates your zoan form, but can’t help but be slightly anxious about your sudden ability to change his pronostics. He often looks back at his cards to be sure that you’re not taking some unwelcome risks, somehow using his own power to help you in the process, without being too much noticed

• His role as a captain isn’t to only protect one person, but he finds a good balance between your power and his own, making sure that you’re safe and sound during the entire battle, while he’s also deeply amazed by your skills, even his those thoughts woudn’t be expressed

• He always checks on you after such an intense fight, but Hawkins is hard to read, and most of the time, he only passes by in total silence, cold stare watching at your body to see if you have any injuries. He doesn’t compliment you - because he couldn’t encourage too much violence either - and simply expose the rest of the plan

• Somehow it’s his own way to respect you ; giving you too much unecessary attention could only prove that he doesn’t trust you enough to take care of yourself, and this is something he can’t accept. He has to treat you as an equal, even more if you’re intimate with him... It would be degrading to pretend that you could be weaker than him

• Perhaps he might scold you if you have taken some dangerous risks during the batttle, but his silence is somehow his only form of compliment. You did your job perfectly, and maybe a single brush of his thumb over your shoulder would make you understand his deepest thoughts. Hawkins will always wait to be far from any curious eyes to make you feel his real emotions anyway...

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DON’T SMOKE MEDICAL MARIJUANA DAILY OR....

Unless you want Cannabanoid Hyperemesis Syndrome which will come to your house too after 3-5 years on average of daily MM smoking. It’s so much stronger than what used to be, that ER docs kept telling me I had CHS but I didn’t want to believe them. After having to take 5 nausea drugs, the ones they give to cancer patients, a couple few times a week but ending up in the hospital when my meds wouldn’t work, about 1 time per month. After 18 visits I finally bit the bullet. After a horrible visit to the ER where I was treated like a drug seeker since Ativan is the only thing that stopped the dry heaves, vomiting, and nausea, I decided to listen. It’s day 5 after FORTY years of daily use, i am terrified. So far, I have my appetite back and I LOVE how food tastes. It had gotten to the point that I barely could tolerate food, once a day i was somewhat hungry, and ate a decent meal. The other meal a pancake forcedly swallowed with water! So my best friend of 40 years became my enemy and I just couldn’t face it. Now I am. I haven’t been tired earlyish in a long time insomnia kept me up till 5-7 am!! I fell asleep early so far, and yesterday I think I finally sort of had a complete break down and slept all day for like 9 hours. Too tired to do anything. It was so nice to feel sleepy and hungry and my head is SO CLEAR like that said. It was amazing. I am going to a MA meeting today, quite excited. Yay. Be careful, I have lived  2 years with this syndrome and I can’t wait to live life without nausea, cold and hot sweats, weakness, cancelled plans one after another, ER visits that are embarrassing, and the inability to enjoy the high I was getting what was the point. I probably felt high maybe once every few days. Tolerance came in waves, sometimes it was constant, sometimes I had no tolerance and didn’t have to smoke more to enjoy. I thought ok, only 4 puffs at night will do the trick, and I won’t get sick any longer. Nope. I have to quit for at least 90 days to confirm this diagnosis, but I read that once a person with CHS returns to pot, the symptoms come right back. Other people with this illness, in fact most, shower constantly to help symptoms.I get so hot and sweaty that I can’t imagine a hot shower doing anything but make me more sick. Some people shower like all the whole time they are up with exhorbitant electric and water bills. In the ER many patients beg for the shower, saying thier hot water ran out. I don’t have that symptom, nor the pain in my stomach, and most people with CHS do have those symptoms, so I didn’t want to believe I have it. However, at day 5 I feel amazing. AMAZING. Thank you God for helping me get sober from pot. All these months I just kept telling myself “ok, some other thing will show up as what caused this problem I had so many expensive tests done but the ER docs all told me they know what I have. The last experience in the ER made me realize, hey they aren’t gonna keep helping me and they will start thinking I am an ativan addict. Two of them asked that in the last month. Also, when I bouht a vape pen last month instead  of my once a month Er visit, where I can’t get un nauseated with my 5 nausea drugs (what they give cancer patients) and then instead of my monthly visit i had 3 visits in one month!! That was the bottom and proof  for me. That proved I am poisoning my body with marijuana and I have to quit. I have cancelled so much in life due to this constant batttle with nausea and anxiety. Sometimes the anxiety brought on nausea. And vice versa. I know anxiety comes from bud too, but I didn’t want to believe it. I kept telling the ER docs, but I don’t have the shower thing, I don’t have pain in my abdomen. They replied “it can just be nausea and vomiting.” one doc offered to give me capsaisan cream for my belly. I’m like ok, i’m pouring sweat here. Why would I put on something that adds heat? When I got in the room my last visit 4 nights ago the nurse said first thing “if you are here for ativan you aren’t getting it.” I told her it’s the only thing that works when my nausea meds won’t work, and that that is what they have given me in the past. in fact 2 weeks ago at this hospital. She said, “not this doctor!” I had gone to a diff hospital for it 2 weeks prior (trying to avoid being treated like a drug seeker but it didn’t work) so she said that WE just saw you, and now you are back for more ativan? No. It isn’t a nausea drug anyway. I asked for the doc telling her that I forgot to ask him for the Ativan. When he came in and told me let’s start with an IV and some nausea drugs.  She said i will tell him but he’s not giving it to you. For 4 hours I sat in that room with only an IV fluid and half dose of one of the drugs I’d already maxed out on before i came in!! Finally after I’d already rippped out my iv to go to another Er, they said ok, we are gonna give you the ativan. I know it’s because my tests showed my metabolic panel was all out of whack, my heart rate only 45. i was dehydrated too. So I guess since the tests showed i’d taken all the meds i told them, and no drugs in my system but pot, they must have needed that info in order to give me the ativan. Then the other nurse said the doc was going to give it to you but since you ripped out your iv you must feel better. I said no, i just wanted to get started on my wait at ANOTHER ER. I begged to see the doc, told him I’d never ripped out an iv, please help me, i am so sick and I have to wait all over again and drive dangerously to get there, as it had been 17 hours since i was able to eat. He finally gave me a pill form of it, and told security to follow me to make sure I get into a cab so do not drive your car home! It cost 40 bucks for the cab!! Then I had to take 3 buses to get to that hospital next day to get my car in the heat I live in Arizona. I’m sure almost no one read this, but if you did I hope it helps someone else who may be going through the same thing. That visit scared the pot out of me. I will keep getting treated this way if i don’t quit. I realized I’d been lucky I got so much help for this long and NOT treated like a benzo drug seeker but I can’t press my luck. If I am causing my own sickness the empathy is gonna go out the door eventually. I played dumb about CHS every time I was seen, and told them, but i don’t shower for hours and i don’t get stomach or abdomen pain, it cant’ be the pot!! Day 5 and I am SO ALIVE. I hope this helped anyone who may not know why they are so sick. Love you all please pray for me my gorgeous followers. xoxooxoxo The good life is the one without drugs. AT 52 I may finally be able to exercise, sleep, eat and love life. Some things I haven’t been able to do enough, too sick. Not to mention my friends and family and I having to cancel so many plans over and over to where they stopped trying!! Plus since pot tells us, it’s ok to live in my own little world my little bubble no one can come into because it will kill my high and since I am sick all the time i don’t even bother to try to hang out with friends. I am going to a meeting today MA, marijuana anonyomous, finally to be around a group of people with something in common with me, and I cant wait. BTW it usually takes a good 3-5 years of daily use to get this, and if I return to using it will come right back. God Bless You

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[searchingwardrobes]

Battling Anxiety: Day 160

"Lord, I've been told to be ashamed. Lord, I've been told I don't measure up. Lord, I've been told I'm not good enough, but You're here with me. And I reach out, and You find me in the dust. You say no amount of untruths can separate us."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #simple gospel #united pursuit #batttling anxiety #day 160 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 116

"I just want to be close to Your heart. This is where my healing finds its start. Here is where I find my peace, where my soul is finally free."

Tagging @jonirobinson64 @snowbellewells

#faith #encouragement #song of the day #lost in your love #brandon lake #feat sarah reaves #batttling anxiety #day 115 #Youtube

[searchingwardrobes]

I can't believe I've never posted this one in this series before!

Battling Anxiety: Day 163

"Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, oh, it chases me down, fights till I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine. I couldn't earn it. I don't deserve it. Still You give Yourself away. Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #reckless love #cory asbury #batttling anxiety #day 163 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 125

"I come to You with the weight of all my stress. You pick me up, and You let me catch my breath. Lord, You never condemn, never make a list of my wrongs. In the light of Your goodness, all the fear I've known is gone."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #safe in your arms #josh baldwin #feat kalley #batttling anxiety #day 125 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety Day 156

"You've never left my side, and I know You never will."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #i always will #vineyard anaheim #batttling anxiety #day 156 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 154

"When all I see is the battle, You see my victory. When all I see is the mountain, You see a mountain moved. And as I walk through the shadow, Your love surrounds me. There's nothing to fear now for I am safe with You."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #battle belongs #phil whickam #batttling anxiety #day 154 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 153

"Do you feel the world is broken? Do you feel the shadows deepen? Do you know that all the dark won't stop the light from getting through?"

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #is He worthy #maverick city music #batttling anxiety #day 153 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 127

"How I love to hear the voice that speaks my name. You give me faith to stand and sing with hope again."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #speak to me #kathryn scott #feat martin smith #batttling anxiety #day 127 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 149

"There is power. There is a presence holding all heaven, watching the earth. It can part troubled waters, quench every thirst, heal what is broken, and break every curse."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #there is power #rita springer #feat dante bowe #batttling anxiety #day 149 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 137

"We're rising up with courage in our hearts."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #take courage #lindy conant #batttling anxiety #day 137 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 165

"In the middle of the chaos when I can barely keep my head up, the road ahead is looking so dark, You light my way. Just when I'm losing all my faith, I'm at the end of all my strength, and I'm just looking for an exit, You lift my gaze."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #i see you #jeremy riddle #batttling anxiety #day 165 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 148

"My favorite thing about You is Your peace resting like a dove upon me. Painting every promise, chasing every fear, my favorite thing to know is that You're here."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #my favorite #songlab #ft gideon roberts #ft abbie simmons #batttling anxiety #day 148 #Youtube

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Battling Anxiety: Day 135

"I see the face of the Father. I feel the love in His eyes, and everything in my heart knows that I'm His joy and His pride. I feel the peace in His whisper, that His intentions are pure, and never have I felt more safe and secure."

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#faith #encouragement #song of the day #never leave #maverick city music #batttling anxiety #day 135 #Youtube