So. I love this. The way Yuri snickers at Flynn showing his real self. The way he, without hesitation, says "yeah" to the idea that he would die in Flynn's place.
But the most important part of this entire thing, which was changed in the dub, is how Yuri specifically jokes that Flynn is trying to abandon him, and Flynn returns and tells Don he had no intention of abandoning Yuri.
Yuri does not hear this. Flynn knows that. But Flynn uses the exact same term Yuri used earlier, as if it's his answer to Yuri and saying no, I would never abandon you.
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Personally I just... love the weight of it. How Flynn will say something about Yuri that Yuri won't hear, but he still speaks it out into existence because it's how he really feels.
Just because Yuri won't hear it doesn't mean he won't say it, and in a way that's even more powerful. He's not looking for the credit of saying it. He's not looking to be recognized for saying it. He's not only expressing how he feels about Yuri somewhere that Yuri himself will hear him.
They're just his real, honest feelings, and he'll admit them even if Yuri's not within earshot.
I find it very interesting the contrast in how kinnporsche look at eo during intimacy. They each have moments of these, so it's not like it's exclusive to one or the other, but I think in general, Kinn tends to look at Porsche like it's the happiest he's ever been, whereas Porsche looks at Kinn like he can't believe something this precious is his.
Kinn seems to err on the side of lovestruck and Porsche seems to be more awestruck.
It's interesting to see how their adoration manifests in different ways of how they look at each other, but I think it also gives some insight of deeper feelings.
second favorite episode of nbc constantine after feast of friends is a whole world out there, partially bc we get more time with love of my life ritchie simpson but also because i adore how earnest and unpretentious constantine is throughout the episode. we get that secret, sneaky glimpse into what constantine's like when he's not putting on a show for other people: pantsless pity party, talking to himself in cemeteries, non-flashy ritual casting, his fidgeting, the sharp bursts of anger, impulsive self-destructive behavior.
it's also nice to see the way that genuine, long-term companionship draws out a different side of him that's more mellow and more authentic! the low and intimate tone of voice without affectation or bravado; the little hehehe giggle when he gets ritchie to engage with him in speculation, the absolute delight on his face when ritchie tells him something he'd never heard about before, the sincere smile when he sees ritchie's fascination with the mill house, the fidgety impatience that he tamps down long enough to genuinely listen to and address ritchie's misgivings, how openly he expresses his confidence in ritchie's abilities and how impressed he is by their use. his frenetic, open, undisguised panic and grief when he thinks ritchie's not coming back.
Not me using the wayback machine to try to find your old panic fics (yikesssss for that fandom) 💀
In all seriousness though, much respect to you for taking charge over YOUR work. People can be so gross sometimes. Like why plagiarize when you can just leave a nice comment for the author saying you love their work??
pretty crazy how this ask is acknowledging that it's my work and my decision and I should be able to take ownership of it while simultaneously saying that you went actively against those wishes to try and use other means to find said work after I took it down.
it's almost like you're saying "not me being disrespectful lmao! sorry abt everyone else who is also disrespectful!! they suck."
how to stop thinking any good thing someone says to you (like compliments or being proud of you or other positive expressions such as these) is a lie just to be polite or bc they're biased and thus can't judge you work and your being objectively bc they love you. asking for a friend
It doesn't matter how many times I do certain tasks, as long as others are around I'll have such bad anxiety about it. Laundry, cooking, cleaning at any capacity, sweeping, moping, washing dishes, literally any cleaning. The moment I'm alone? Deep cleaning things with absolute confidence, enjoying it as I think to myself. I know I'm capable of these things, and I do these things well, but what if I'm not? What if I'm making a bigger mess than I originally started with. What if I somehow contaminated everything in sight and I make people sick? The last one I know is my whole thing with things that aren't contaminated are now contaminated, like closed drinks that are left too long untouched. Or even leaving food alone out of sight. It's tied into other things besides anxiety, but still. It's not ideal having these feelings about basic mundane chores when you are constantly around others.
every time i need to explain my feelings to someone i get brought back to every single time my ex fought with me over expressing my feelings and all i do is shake and cry