#bc I wanted to ride w my friends

[divorcetual]

The meower

#Queued... technically March 23rd? #I mean its march 22nd in oregon. but im not there rn lolz #either way im late. SORRY !! i forfor to queue on the 20th then i was on planes for like 21 hrs total #well no 5 of those were a layover @ the airport but #ANYWAYYYYY hi future me !!! #Howww was the trip? im on my first (second actually- its 4am of the second day if u coukd the arrival) day in Hong Kong #Its rlly hot and humid so I think im gonna die. BUT ITS ALSO SUPER COOL !! #Even just from the few hours I had out earlier its amazingggg. The lights and the buildings are so cool and theres such a fun but chaotic #atmosphere - idk if its just bcs its a big city or specific to HK? #I loveee large cities in general. New york. Tokyo. HK. thats all of the ones ive been to ig #I havent seen even close to all of HK. Im in central rn but we're goin to other parts later #Dad says the other parts are totally different- Like theres LOADS of gisnt buildings here (WAY MORE THAN U SEE IN ******!!! u know that tho #and theyre almost all residential of the ones I passed. Im sure theres offices n stuff i just didnt see them in the likd 20 minutes cab #ride lolz. U know all tuis already tho #ig what im getting at is HOW WAS THE TRIP !!!!! How was the rest of HK? WHAT WAS KYOTO LIKE?? #augh soo many cool things..... #Also also !! Have you learned any mire katakana? #ive JUST learned the vowel line so maybe u lesrned the k line now too? #I cant imagine school is any different. OHH DID U FINISH THE M P 10P COMIC?? #I started it and got abt one page done on the plane #I think it should only end up being two or three pages idk #Ohh !! Hows the new meds going !! I think u should have ur blood test done by now so do u know if it helped at all? #I hope soooooooooooo #Mm I think thats all I have to say .... NO WAIT HAVE U HUNG OUT W/ JACKIE?? #i rlly want to b friends with her ^.^ #Alright Thats all !! HAVE A GOOD DAYYYYYY I LOVE U #queue drop #weather report #WAIT EDIT DID THE TRIGUN VOLUME COME. HOW IS IT

[pallases]

#personal #i miss having a best friend like it sounds so pathetic but there’s no other way to put it… i miss having someone to share an earbud w on the #bus and to go driving around town and picking up fast food w and someone to invite over to hang out and play video games and make art w and #spend the night and honestly just text back and forth w without restraint… #i literally have no one to hang out w for the whole summer like 😭 there’s my one roommate i’d feel comfortable w hanging out w one on one #but she’s in another state wrdhdjf and the other one lives really close to me and i love her too but our conversations without the other #roommate can feel so stilted sometimes 🙈 #im sure i’ll meet up w her at some point this summer but i want to give it some time so i’ll actually have things to talk abt LOL #then there’s my old best friend who if i reached out to her im sure she’d find the time to hang out but she also hasn’t really reached out #to me since like november and there was like a solid three months where i would send her posts that reminded me of her and she never replied #to me so. i don’t know #we did end up running into each other on campus before spring break and she offered me a ride without prompting and we listened to into the #woods the way home and sang along and it was FUN it was good and we decided we should try to get back into the swing of things but then we. #did not so. yeah i don’t know! was it bc finals took over our lives or bc we really have moved onto separate paths who knows. anyway

[fischiee]

y’all I am drunk as fuck but i am fed the fuck up. i am like hopelessly into this guy in our friend group bc he is so kind and wonderful and attractive and unfortunately he has decided that i am the one person to trust abt his love life and so i must apparently sit through him explaining his struggles with another girl while i am SUFFERING

like he is just so sweet and kind and YES it is a crush and yes i am putting him on a pedestal but he is nothing but kind and sweet to me and it definitely seems like he is flirting with me sometimes but i definitely cannot tell and he does talk abt this girl that he is very into OFTEN (she is for sure not me) and it’s driving me crazy i am so heart broken

#ignore this #ignore me #anyway yeah im fucking wasted so sorry pals you get me being emo abt a boy who simply doesn’t care about me #and who i am telling all my friends that i don’t care about #but he sits next to me!!! #and draws doodles on my papers!!!!! #and smiles and looks at me and tilts his body towards me and like ajdbfb #all night he let me loop my arm in him and helped guide me but then he literally told me abt the girl he’s in love with #and he was giving me a ride and being. so kind so I gave him advice about how to like date/get w/ her but it simply hurt my heart so bad #im literally bawling my eyes out AUGH #sorry team this is what happens when you follow a theatre manor who has t even graduated #you get someone so horrendously dramatic and emo #AUGH #i can’t even make up my mind abt him but i do know i want him so bad #we were enemies now we just need to get to the lovers part #it’s just so sad that he had decided that he can tell no one else abt his love life and his secret crush except for me #bc like.. girl i want you to fail (just kidding he’s so wonderful and i want him to be happy) #but it does definitely hurt but also bring me such joy for him to be like “oh i only trust /you/ with this. im attracted to someone else. #he literally let me loop his arm in him and let me touch him all night #but the second he was drawing home he asked abt a situation which her and her inviting friends to a hang out with him #and it just brown my hearT #i just #agony #sorry team im feeling emo

[padfootastic]

So… this ended up longer than I meant for it to be. Sorry. 😁

The way you view James is interesting to me. I always imagined him as being a pretty free spirt who is just so incredibly alive. Most people who meet him probably describe him as the most alive person they’d ever met. He lived every second to the fullest and wanted to go all the way out to the edge and experience everything. Of course him and Sirius are described as “much admired rebels” but his rebellion isn’t the same it’s a freer thing if that makes sense? It’s not born form such darkness as Sirius’ is. James’ is fueled by a lust for life, new experiences, and new people and it’s more him challenging or rebelling against pure blood society (which I think is like just how the Potters roll) and their messed up ideals not his family.  Sirius’ being fueled by a lust for freedom (from his family, their beliefs, abuse, and his demons) and discovery of who he is and wants to be. Thus rebelling against his family, their beliefs, their power, and pure blood society. 

The Potter family where an old and wealthy family, but where mostly content with a comfortable life in the “back waters” of wizarding society and weren’t concerned with blood purity. Even with a history of muggle and muggle born rights activists. I always read this as them being rather different. I kinda felt like we were dealing with a family that just passed down the value of “fuck society we do what we want.” Like I imagine them as eccentric inventors, cures breakers, adventurers, magizooologists, quidditch players, dragon handlers, aurors, and whatever else wild, exciting, fun thing one could think of. I definitely think that doing well (academically, career wise,etc) was important and considered valuable by them but for some reason I just seem like being a rather wild and free bunch. Definitely still approachable, kind, down to earth, kind, accessible, but worldly, fun, exciting, intense, passionate, adventures and excitement on legs.

hello! definitely no sorry needed, i love talking all things jfp 💜💜

i’m gonna be honest, i don’t actually see james as a rebel at all (with or without a cause). i see him as pretty much sticking to what’s expected of him in most cases (esp public) and only really going off the path when he’s with a trusted few. i definitely see where ur going and i love it! he’s definitely full of life and always, always happy to be trying new things. i often call him the sunshine kid and i’ll stick by it. i definitely think a large part of it comes from the confidence & high self esteem his parents instilled in him—he sees something and he goes for it, and this often ends up in him doing all these weird, adventurous, often dangerous things right? (i also think he has a large uhh what’s the word, adrenaline kink? nope, that’s not it. but u know what i mean right? the kind of person who loves extreme sports, for eg)

also lol love the hippie potters vibe you’re drawing here. (i also have this funny mental image of like, ridiculously wacky/eccentric potters and then comes james—a whole buttoned up, proper posh boy kid—and they’re (incl portraits) all just baffled like, how is he like this??? who gave him the stick up the arse?? like everyone else is dressed in the most mismatched, alternative fashion ever and then u have james in sweater vests and shorts and buttons downs)

i’m now also imagining harry learning all this about his family and it’s so !!!! like i’ve read a few fics that super focus on potter family history (one where they were like, military tacticians and super op fighters which was so good) and i love stuff like that! harry finding out that the potters were this bunch of crazy inventors & chose the most ridiculous professions and i feel like that would give him such a sense of freedom and relief and he’d definitely be next in line ykno?

#james potter #harry potter #my mom remains the most excitable + ‘bouncy’person i or my extended family know #despite so much shit she hasn’t lost her optimism and zeal for life at all #i kinda see james like that even when he’s older #(none of him parents know where he gets it from bc both of them r more sedate realists) #tell me james potter wouldn’t love extreme ironing #you know he will #it’s perfect #he’ll be so excited too #‘look pads! i ironed this on the giant squid’s back’ #no but anon i really love this view of him! #it’s also exactly what none of the other marauders are #so hilarious juxtaposition #can u imagine james finds out about like. bungee jumping or sky diving and wants all of them to go #and they’re just like ??? r u nuts?? #after finding out about the the moon landing he goes thru a phase where he tries to ride his broom as high as it can go #he’s forced to stop when he falls over one too many times bc of like. icing or lack of o2 or sumn #his friends decide to put an embargo on his interactions w the muggle world bc he gets so many bad ideas #every time he finds out about a new invention or something #and they’re so tired of trying to reign him in #he’s just like ‘guys don’t worry potters r basically indestructible’ #(i’m gonna ignore the low hanging joke here) #pen’s asks

[hakiarleon]

snippet of my oc and izana interacting with a guest appearance from makiri that probably wont make it into the fic im writing for them but i thought was hilarious. also the characterisation is so messy but its all for the joke so its fine

opens and ends abruptly bc well. snippet

“Hey,” Retsu says, breaking the blissful silence. “Hey, is Mitsuhide more your type or Makiri?”

A moment's pause. Before she can repeat herself, because it's an extremely important question that deserves an appropriate reponse, Izana deigns to humour her. Shortly. “We can’t all be in love with our friends,” he replies. “Some of us also have work to be doing.”

There’s a knock at the door. Retsu hums and waits just long enough to be sure of who’s on the other side (one knock, really more of a bang, hard and impatient, definitely Makiri) before continuing. The door creaks open as she says, “How about that guy, uh… black hair, older, got married while I was Viscountess? That… ah, Amakize. Eldest son of Lugis. How about him? He seems like your type.”

The door slams shut.

Izana is unmoved. “And what, pray tell, is that.”

Retsu obliges, always eager to please. “Obviously, bastard under the smile.”

Izana isn’t looking at her, so she compensates by snickering obnoxiously. Still no reaction. Today’s Izana is determined to be a bore, it seems.

“… What are you doing?” Not even a minute since he arrived and Makiri already sounds tired. It’s good to know she hasn’t lost her touch – Izana is just boring.

She looks up and raises one arm in a lazy wave. “Hi, Makiri. His Royal Majesty says you’re ugly.”

Izana sighs but makes no move to deny it.

“What are you doing,” Makiri repeats, staring pointedly at Retsu.

She considers that. “Your King is quizzing me on the male members of upper noble houses and high-ranking officers.”

“I am being harassed,” says Izana.

Makiri sidesteps all that with long-practised ease and asks, “Why only the men?”

“Because he's even worse at remembering the women than I am.”

Izana’s eye twitches. “Name one woman.”

“Haki of Arleon!”

“You’re a woman,” Makiri helpfully adds.

Retsu wrinkles her nose. “Yeah, but Lady Haki’s the most important one.”

Izana, once again, does not attempt to disagree. Makiri closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. “Shameless, the both of you.”

#retsu #pov ur crush bullies u into hiring her knight and its the worst decision of ur life #u being izana #makiri is just along for the ride. while very loudly bitching #theyre so ooc im so sorry... even my oc feels ooc here how did i even manage that #retsu constantly refers to izana by title and makes it sound So annoying she almost maked izana want to abdicate #ohh wait in case it wasnt obvious. izana has a big crush on haki and retsu is hakis knight turned... something #i want her to interact with eisetsu just so he can call her arleons runaway guard dog to her face #letters from viol et al #< fancy writing tag ft terrible pun #rip makiri his only two friends only hang around him bc theyre in love w his sister 😔 #my favourite thing about ans is the banter so 90% of my ideas is also. banter #plot who? idk her #akagami no shirayukihime #snow white with the red hair #queued

[gothwizardmagic]

one thing i can not get enough of in ofmd Content is the whole.... divorced people who are friends angle on stede and mary.... it is so rare in media and makes me feel so at home... my parents separated when i was 3 and it was on shitty terms but they worked SO HARD to sort things through for my sake and 27 years after splitting they are still BEST FUCKING FRIENDS they hang out every friday and have all the same favourite shows and if you asked both of them to list their family members theyd say each others names without a second thought like. separated parents REALLY CAN be absolute ride or die besties and its so so so so so so so rare in media and it feels like Home

#they literally had a second kid platonically #they didnt wanna be a couple anymore but they did want a second kid bc i was COol #so like.... they planned my sister entirely As Besties #my sister has NEVER existed in a world where her parents were anything other than best friends #Bestie Exes As Parents is so fucking RARE and it makes me so HAPPY #i will take every single stedexed and maryxdoug hangout fic i can find and i will ROLL AROUND IN THEM #as REFLECTIONS OF THE FAMILY ENVIRONMENT I GREW UP IN #my mums ex wife was besties w my dad when they were married too #like.... unusual family dynamics always Get Me but ofmd really hit the nail on the head there #found family but its my parents finding each other AFTER separating u kno #they were an awful couple but theyre ride or die friends

[pepprs]

also.. Like ok not to double post but i can’t stop thinking abt how in one of the trainings someone was talking abt how kids Back Then didn’t hang out w their parents all the time and just kinda had their own lives and it was just understood that once you reach a certain age you’re able to make your own choices and you don’t have to stick w ur family all the time. it’s not that i want my family to disown me or throw me out or anything but i just uhhhhhhh. i think being sheltered like this has fundamentally irreversibly damaged me and i feel like im living in a pit of quicksand. like i want to get out of the house but not with you. ykwim

#purrs #i was supposed to be home alone all evening on friday and i was very selfishly looking forward to that. and then my mom changed plans in par #part bc i think she didn’t feel comfortable not having me there. and now im being dragged there and it’s like.. i have things on my mind and #things i need to do to even GET myself to the point where i can make decisions like most early 20soemthings in entry level positions can do. #and instead im being dragged on a family outing and guilt tripped abt it. and its dumb to complain abt going on a family outing for a lot of #reasons but it’s like.. girl i literally do not want to spend time with you weekends are so short and precious AJD i do not want to spend th #them suffocating in the middle seat and having to act excited and smiley and pose for pictures. i HATE it. and i don’t have to be livingt #this way but it’s so fucking hard to take the first steps to do something different. i feel so trapped and like im Gonna be stuck in thisnho #house forever. like can i skip to the part where i only interact w my parents maybe once every couple of days at most and live a #separate life and get to fully choose and enjoy life’s pleasures in the ways i want to and not have to be beholden to some stupid diet and s #standard and whatever. i want sugar and salt and oil and i want riding on the bus and staying out late with friends and going on adventures #and not always having to come home earlier than i want to and i want a room of my own and a cat and peace when i choose it. pain 😂😂😂😂😂😂 #delete later

[chloe-brennan]

men suck

#love when a guy says that he doesn’t want you to think he’s taking advantage of you / using you and then essentially doing that #like you’re gonna sleep with me and then kick me out right after and you expect me to not feel used…? #especially after we had earlier talked about us watching the sunrise the next morning #like you’re gonna sleep w/ me and then kick me out on the curb and let me sit there for 20+ mins bc you wouldn’t even wait with me to get #my ride home and you knew i had to get a friend to pick me up and knew it would be upwards for 15 mins #shannon rambles

[eversncenewyork]

WOO WEE

#unexpectedly had The Convo w T last night bc he was telling me abt another friend that said she is in love w him #and it was so spot on that i was like ‘hey i can’t pretend to be any different than hee’ #anyway we had a long long talk where i admitted i love him #he said he’s been falling for me for months and isn’t ready to lose me #but when asked he said he doesn’t love me romantically but he wants what’s best for me cares for me and wants to be in my life #i don’t rly see the difference tbh #he said he does think about dating me and wonders if we’d even be a good couple #he said hes imagined me meeting his mom and she’d cook for me and i wouldn’t be able to eat it #he said when he was in canada he imagined teaching me to ride a bike and going around w me #i cannot express how happy those two anecdotes made me bc they are parallel to my own fantasies #but he can’t do monogamy right now and he is having an awful time w his bipolar #so we decided to continue as we have but i’m going to put honest effort into dating again #and if in 2 months i decide it’s not working and i can’t date while i’m seeing him we’ll end it then #if not then we’ll continue until i meet someone that makes me not want to #and we’ll remain friends #and in the meantime i can work on figuring out how to be friends w him outside of sex and flirting #bc if we ended things now i’m not sure we’d be able to be friends #so thems the haps and right now i feel calm and clear and happy #we will see where i go l

[whump-captain]

No. 10 - Poor unfortunate souls

Taser | Whipping | Waterboarding

850 words | OC: Ghost Ambulance

is this a heist au? who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ im also not super happy w/ it esp for a day with such good prompts but once again, and i cannot stress it enough: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ the whump came out good and that's what matters lol

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CN: stun gun use, electrocution, burns

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Three things happen at once:

The electronic lock beeps an approval.

A voice from behind shouts: "Hands in the air!"

And Cutter spins around to face the security guard, just in time to see her aim.

Then he feels two hits to the chest. He looks down and follows the zig-zagged lines back to the taser gun in the guard's hands. Just in time to see her finger squeeze the trigger.

Every nerve in his body explodes. Muscles lock, wrenching his spine backwards. The current burns through him like a strobe light, pain sizzling away his vision, then hearing, then thoughts. A strangled, guttural groan forces its way out between his clenched teeth that feel like they're going to crack from the strain. Another impact rattles him as his rigid body hits the ground. He's on fire, convulsing, every tendon threatening to snap.

The three seconds stretch to an eternity in Cutter's scorched consciousness. Then the current stops. But his body keeps seizing, his head slams against the ground over and over again as the pain, like an afterimage, remains in his muscles as lethal, excruciating tension. The air cracks like fireworks, the sound of overloading synapses.

He can't tell how long it lasts. It feels like minutes until the blinding fog dissipates and finally he can feel that this battered body is his again. He's gasping, small whimpers escaping his throat with every desperate inhale. His fingers feel slick; he must have clenched his fists hard enough for the nails to draw blood.

Senses return to him like a movie image fading in; it's all there but feels distant, like he's still separated from the lobby by a screen. But he knows there's no time. Pushing through the ache that lingers like a fresh bruise, he turns onto his side. With a groan of effort, he puts a hand underneath him but immediately his head spins. His newly returned vision swims away again and he lays there for a long, painful moment, forcing deep breaths into his lungs. Something stings him right through the ribcage and he realizes the taser's electrodes are still embedded in his chest. They stick out like bizarre insects, framed by rings of dark soot where they have singed his shirt. The thin rigid wires trail down and tangle with each other. The smell of burnt cotton mixes with that of burnt skin.

Cutter winces as another crack pierces through his head, point blank into his eardrum: his comms earpiece, he realizes. The discharge must have fried the electronics. Elaine is going to be so mad.

A gloved hand appears suddenly in front of him. As if summoned, the huntress herself is leaning over him, face haloed by the backlight. Cutter lets her pull him up; everything wobbles around him again but he manages to catch an unsteady balance.

"Are you okay?" Elaine asks, her eyes fixed on the two electrodes sticking out of his chest. That and the gun itself, abandoned on the floor, make the story clear.

"Yeah." It takes him a moment to answer, but it's mostly the truth. His chest aches like he's been punched and his breath comes choppy. He counters Elaine's tense frown with a smile. "How's my hair?"

She raises her eyebrows - and so has to stop frowning. "It's fine. Your shirt is not."

"A good shirt, too," he muses, picking at the charred fabric. From under it shows the angry red of damaged skin which he has no desire to inspect closer. The sight of the electrodes embedded in it makes his head spin again.

When he grabs the first one, Elaine puts a hand on his shoulder blade; bracing. He yanks it out like pulling a tooth, gasps at the sharp pain - but it feels good to toss it away. A tiny ribbon of smoke trails it as it skids across the polished floor.

Cutter's hand wavers when he reaches for the next one. It's instinct, the body refusing to cause itself more pain. The electrode's surface is still hot between his fingers, the sensation blurring together with the burning on his chest. Blood sticks his skin to the barbed metal. Why is this so difficult? He has to close his eyes, slowly exhale so that the dizziness goes away. He grits his teeth and rips the second electrode out with a grunt.

The sudden motion sends him swaying again but Elaine's hands keep him steady. Though any touch feels now like a fresh bruise on his aching body, he leans on her. All he can do is wait until the world stops reeling around him and his vision finally clears. Even then, the ache remains in his limbs like a leaden, sizzling weight. Suddenly, he feels very, very tired.

But looking down at Elaine's questioning, still worried face, he can't help but grin at her. They'll both be fine. How could they not be, when they're here together? A small hitch like this could never be enough to throw them off track. Not them.

He crooks his head towards the newly unlocked door.

"Shall we?"

#whumptober2022 #no.10 #taser #oc #writing #stun gun #electrocution #captain's stuff #captain's ocs #ghost ambulance #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #<- don't know if i mentioned that #idk if i want this to be an au bc the dynamic between them seems to be 'we've been through so much shit together and we're ride or die #which fits w/ the main canon #but to be frank it would be Very Funny if it was the heist au and they had literally just met #and elaine is like gotta help my fellow heist crew member so we can carry out the plan #but at the same time cutter's like 'f is for friends who steal things together :)' #complete vibe mismatch #for comedy

[queridaz]

tryna plan my birthday dinner and just realized i can't afford it 😔😔

#ik i'm inviting everyone over but what if i made them pay for their food absjsks #i could make empanadas instead and that'd be way cheaper and i'd have enough for everyone #but that also means i'd have to spend my birthday making empanadas and the whole point of ordering food was not having to do work #also i really wanted thai food :/ #maybe i can afford it if i get the job i interviewed for this week #but def not at the moment #also mini rant since i'm on the topic of finances but man is it depressing to be here working two jobs to pay for groceries #meanwhile my roommate is on a full scholarship w/ free meal plan and rich parents and she eats the food i make or uses my ingredients #like she v def is not in the wrong bc i told her she could but it is depressing to know that i'm struggling to pay for college and survival #while she gets to be blissfully unaware of how much she has in her savings and bills are paid for her #she literally said that the other day she was like #''i don't know how much i have in my college savings. i just ask my mom to withdraw from it whenever a bill comes'' #(she has a full ride but she's out of state so there's like a fee or smth she has to pay but it's still essentially a full ride) #and i just sat there flabbergasted bc i know exactly how much i have in my college savings. $417.37. #and every penny will be gone by next sem to pay for those classes. and my 529 is v low bc of the stock market being bad rn #so i'm trying to avoid going into it until the stock market's up again but i had to dip into it anyway bc of my required arts class #aaaaaanyway the thought of her not even knowing what she has bc she doesn't have to worry abt it cause she's rich is so..... yeah 😔😔 #and then i turn around and like three of my friends get a monthly allowance from their parents meanwhile i treat them to boba #i can't ask my parents for financial help cause they're in a really bad spot right now #my brother called me the other day and said he was having waffles for dinner cause they didn't have any food #so like....... i think my friends should pay for my laundry #tea talks #tea vents

[sadie-wolfdawn]

ok ik ive said similar before and will say similar again but the way in which a) its not surprising I latched onto alex, b) im happy that her retcon/expansion lore wise has only made her hit closer to home for me.

#personal stuff lowkey in the tags but #like her im a masc of center wlw (i id as a butch lesbian but obvi we dont know how she ids specifically) #i also had a shitty childhood. her mothers similarities to mine... oh boy (altho obvi like bc sso is kid targeted its not as uh #extreme as my situation. parallels are still obvi enough that my friend saw her mom and was like. why is ur mom in the game) #and the way in which we share like. idk if i can say rejection sensitivity? #i dont want to psychoanalyze an sso character that hard but we do see shes like #really insecure about her relationships and friendships and has low self esteem and feels like a burden / not good enough a lot #(wow shes just like me fr) #not to mention the vague hinting at her being dyslexic / having issues spelling AND neurodivergency in general #or even her riding experience? or the tack she uses? like no joke my irl horses saddle looks like tin cans #and i am a very novice rider whos just having fun w it

[strawbabycowboy]

.

#my friend I haven’t rlly spoken to in awhile and actually stopped sharing location w her a month ago ish #messaged me tonight to ask if I’m still in town and like talked about how she wants to catch up #and it’s just like …… #very hard for me to believe she actually cares bc I see her constantly doing stuff w her gf and gf’s friends #and I dunno #I have mixed feelings like severely mixed #I miss her but at the same time I feel like I just got. dropped and like left behind because she got a gf and then I moved #i dunno it’s just like #i dont wanna open the door for her to see me bc it’s like #I don’t wanna drive to la and she cannot get a ride to lb #AND her n her brother talk shit on lb all the time anyway so it’s like …… why I wanna hang w someone who isn’t willing to drive to where Il #i live and hang w me #legit for years I been driving to noho and she’s had someone drive her down here maybe twice #I DUNNO it’s just it mf hurts and sucks to barely be acknowledged ever and then ignored on my bday and then. hitting me up w me last two day #days in town #like :///// #i waNna see you and I don’t at the same time bc I just feel hurt #and it’s hard to not feel hurt when i don’t know what’s going on in your life that has you not talking to me #bc you always out w ***** and her friends #i just feel Bad #personal

[steampunkedparm]

im so fuckin.gsy oh.ymmgods

#their so pretty dude i just want to kiss their stupid handsome.face its djdndnfncnc #i literally tell them these things all the time indont know why i hide on Tumblr djdjdnf #i miss theemmm :( #i miss my partner dude it sucks.long distance can suck my dicm actually #wjats worse is they aren't even that far i jist dont have a car or much time w work and school </3 #inget to ride a train to see them though!! which is fun!! but also blargh >:P #i just wanna seeeee m boyfriend bluhhhhhh </3 #bein t4t is so silly #were each other's partners boygirlfriends #yk what i mean #or dont actually bc whi cares lol genders stupid and labels are just suggestions rly #m glad my friends aren't questioning me whenever i call it my bf >:P #im still a dyke lol #fjdjd this got so oit of hand m very like. mushy and just dhdjdndnd #this happens everytime they send a picture of itself its kidna silly of me j #but their just. HES SO PRETTY IM GONNA.CRY :( #i get?? to date that?? i get to love that and hold that and??? what do you mean?? inget that honour??? #gods didjdh im very gay and very much a mess and very much in 'i miss mt wife tails' mode :( #rigs your gay

[caelcstis]

brushed aurora out a lil bit and now letting her have her freedom on the balcony bc people are at work and school, and it's 66 here so it's fuckin' nice

#they don't get to do a lot rn bc i don't have my license yet #and my friend p much said it without actually saying that she doesn't want my dogs in her car #which like fair they're huskies i get they shed a lot #but at the same time she was always the one whining about wanting to take them out #so they haven't been to the park or gone on a ride since like january maybe #so nice weather and i will take advantage of it before my neighbor comes home #and lets her frenchie out and they start war #my dogs are v friendly they're just reactive and i think that just scares others esp w smaller dogs #like aurora just wants to play w their bup but ik she's loud and obnoxious and it worries people #local neighborhood idiot ⸢ ooc. ⸥

[silverislander]

we've had three snowstorms in the past week so we're essentially snowed in rn and i'm starting to lose my mind abt it a little

#doesnt help that i havent been able to get out in a while to begin with bc ive been busy w school #or that bc of the way schedules have worked out i havent been home alone for over a week now (which helps me relax) #and it def doesnt help that valentines was last week bc that always fucks w my mental health ngl #i know i need to get out of the house Soon but like. idk when ill be able to #levi.txt #theres also the issue of driving. the snow is piled up way above the cars so its really hard to see around turns #which makes my parents nervous so they dont want to let me drive #which means i have to either ask my friends for rides (anxiety inducing) or ask my parents to go w them (doesnt help my anxiety at all) #the whole POINT is being mostly alone when i do these things and being able to do it /on my own time/. my parents dont allow that #if i go out w my mom she wants to go do the thing were 'there for' (there Has to be a purpose for the trip) and IMMEDIATELY leave #if i go w dad hes better for it but hell get tired and make jokes abt not wanting to be there the whole time #im supposed to be getting out once a week to learn to cope w my anxiety and im lucky if i make it once a month anymore #i want to go to the mall i want to go to the thrift store i want to go to the bookstore and the craft store and just fucking Go Out #not even to buy anything just to see smth different idk #just like. SOMETHING other than home -> school -> home again where nothing ever changes #and my parents suggestion to fix this is 'why dont you go for a walk' #theres One trail nearby. weve lived here my entire life. it never fucking changes. im bored out of my fucking mind #what is there even to see? more snow? the exact same trees there are anywhere else? crows and gulls MAYBE? #also im just not a big outside person esp when its cold. sue me