#bc i cant deal

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Bard-aby <3 except he's only loosely a bard bc i don't subscribe to absolutes <3

rambles:

BARNABY WITH PANTS??? BLASPHEMY!!! however this is a (dnd-inspired) fantasy au so. pants! loose pants tucked into modified boots because no one can tell me No!

based off of Clown's pokemon au human Barn, it seems like he might be a bit of a jewelry guy! he was wearing rings! and had an earring! also i think Barn just looks great w/ some extra shinies, yk yk

since ties aren't really a Thing in fantasy settings, i combined the iconic pattern w/ his vest for a two-in-one. then suspenders bc they fuck severely! his belt buckle is a bone both as a nod to the pattern on his tie / house decoration, and to go along with how Wally has an apple buckle! besties stay twinning!

you can't see it but on his other side he has his pack & his smoking pipe holster, which attaches to his belt! it's very high quality leather that he spent so much money on. his pipe is important to him - he carved it himself out of wood from an important tree from his childhood, so he wants it to be properly stored & protected! he has two kinds of tobacco for it - normal, and magic tobacco that essentially allows him to cast minor spells w/ the smoke

the feathers on his hat are from Ms. Beagle! in my mind he left the farm to go adventuring on a bit of a bad note, but his mama made sure to give him a couple feathers to take with so that she'd always be close <3

he keeps his claws blunt so that he doesn't accidentally scratch people/things, and so that he can play stringed instruments without cutting the strings. while i imagine for this au he plays a wide range, he prefers Loud Handheld Instruments that allow him to sing along. so in mind he has an Accordion here! loud! jaunty! but i imagine he also keeps a recorder in his pack for when Frank needs annoying. (he did have a lute, but he broke it over someone's head in the act of defending Wally's honor)

im still trying to pin down the right balance of colors for his outfit, but! for a little au tidbit - all of his spots are the same two blues as his ears. in this im imagining that he, at a young age, learned a very basic cosmetic spell that allowed him to change his spots color to mimic Ms. Beagle's! he wanted to look like his mama! but by the time he's in his late 20s he no longer changes his spots

ohhhh i forgot to add his pockets. Oh Well

#i wanted him to look um.... Put Together? #barn strikes me as a character that likes to look a lil sophisticated in a way! #and i wanted that to come across in this fit... dont know if i succeeded #i still wanted to have Bard-ish / Barnaby Vibes #i can easily imagine him reclined by a tree absentmindedly playin his accordion... smokin... in this outfit hat tipped down over his eyes #barnaby my beloved <3 #and bardaby my beloved <3 #also ill admit!!! #that lute is traced from a real image lmfao there was no way in hell i was scribbling that thing from scratch #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #i lowkey feel bad for barnaby when he finds out about the whole warlock thing #bc hes been traveling with wally for Years #barnaby likes to think that he knows everything about his little buddy #and then wally has to be like 😬 #yeah im actually not technically a real person #also there's this 'demon' i have a pact with & also a weird kinda non-platonic Cant Be Accurately Labeled intimate relationship with #oh and i sometimes sacrifice innocent people to it in a pinch. the rest of the time we eat enemies' souls #and barnaby just has to! deal with that! like oh great! his bestie has been lying to his face since they met! #ands its been Seamless Lying! #suffice to say barnaby has a crisis #and now since wally can be more open about home #there's a sort of... pointless Rivalry for wally's attention/affection #even though barnaby definitely misjudges the situation and how home feels about wally... #oh switching gears back to the instrument thing! #in my mind barnaby also knows how to play the harp really well #and howdy's tavern has a corner for live music - which includes a permanently placed harp <3 #so i think on quiet days barnaby will go play the harp while howdy cleans glasses & the others do their own quiet things #maybe its raining outside! or Snowing! but the tavern is cozy and warm & there is beautiful music <3

[dizzybizz]

captain jasmine "jazz" drake broke into my brain and is now living there rent free help

#i uhm i uhhh i i i #queen too. i was introduced to queen and uh i uhuhm i yeahgh huhuhu #those two get me all giggly kicking my feet yknow #ep91 killed me three times im triple dead can s omeone help im so deep in my riptide fixation istg if i pick up any vocal stims bc of this #istg if i start going lalala. well idk what id do but smth.. #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #jrwi jazz #jasmine drake #chip jrwi #jay ferin #gillion tidestrider #i got to their big revamped designs yiippeeee #N JAYS MAGI C WING S IM SO HYPE #my art #oki now i need to learn how to draw queen uhm i was scared for their debut bc i knew i would be insane but yeah ok i nee d to go like i nee #to leave i cant hes literally perfect i cant deal with it im gonna cry i l ove her sm istg theyer evertyhtinnhg

[whaliiwatching]

in a queer way, right??

—

sunny brown belongs of course to @brown-spider <3

#spider man: into the spider verse #spider man: across the spider verse #spidersona #spider scrawl #sunny brown #damn drawing skates is harder than i remember #such good colors tho……. #halloween core >:) #hope i got the details right i always seem to miss a few when drawing ur concepts lol #ill finish the rp thing eventually i will i will #just occurred to me theyre totally at odds bc sunny cant deal w multiverse/meta shit and scrawl is All About That #but in my heart of hearts they will become friends. eventually #after scrawl learns to dial back their constant deadpoolian references to The Story #…… next we put our noirs on a playdate

[jemmo]

Making sense of love for love's sake: the game

Despite all the things i absolutely adore about how the plot unravels and expands in love by love's sake, upon first watch, there's some things i couldn't piece together, which @lurkingshan echoes in their post:

'The way the author was messing with Myungha and forcing cruel choices on him really does not track with a desire to help him find happiness.'

And to preface, this is not something i fully get yet either. I think i'll need a good month and a sizeable reading list of relevant resources to understand just what/who this author/sunbae is and what his role is and how he is associated with myungha. But as always with the best shows for meta (aka bad buddy), as a plot unfolds, you can always find a better understanding by looking backwards and re-contextualising what you've already seen. so i watched ep 1, specifically the scene between myungha and his sunbae at the bar. And i will talk about how everything said in this scene has a whole new meaning now we know the full story, but for now i wanna focus on that question that they keep coming back to; "Then... will you change it for him?".

When you watch the show for the first time, your brain follows the simplest, most obvious version of the story you're being told, one where myungha has been pulled into the world of his sunbae's novel that's being turned into a game and given the opportunity to fix the thing he didn't like about it; making yeowoon happy, and thus you just think the rules of the game are imposed by the author, and so when these cruel choices first come up, you see them as the difficult roadblocks that are nevertheless necessary to any kind of game, forcing the player to make an impossible choice so that the game can continue in a certain direction and its only after that you learn whether it was the right choice or not, or there is no right choice, it simply changes the game you are playing.

And when its revealed what this game actually is, at first i tried to interpret these cruel choices, namely the choice between yeonwoon and myungha's grandma, and at best i could come up with the concept of this being a choice between staying stuck to the past aka choosing his grandma, even though he knows that choice doesn't mean she's safe bc he knows the future where he loses here, its an inevitability, but thats the small happiness he knew before it was taken away and thus that happiness is known and safe, theres no risk, versus choosing to pursue a new happiness, a love of yeowoon and thus himself, which he doesn't know, he hasn't experienced yet, and could be risky. Its a happiness that isn't guaranteed like his grandma, but its a happiness that looks to the future and has hope in it that he can find a new happiness to pursue despite what has happened in his past.

And that fits nice, okayish. But then i watched ep 1 and heard that question "Then... will you change it for him?" And watching through the rest of the eps, we come back to this scene at the bar and each time we get a new run up to the author asking this question, either new dialogue is added or we hear a different piece of the conversation entirely. It starts at the beginning of ep 1 as:

"Because Cha Yeowoon is the only one who's miserable." "It can't be helped that some people's lives are like that" "The fact that some people are destined to live that kind of life is what's vile."

Then a bit later in ep 1 we go back and its expanded.

"It can't be helped that some people's lives are like that" "The fact that some people are destined to live that kind of life is what's vile." "Why? Do you think you'd write it differently?" "Yes, definately. Someone like Cha Yeowoon, or someone like me with an awful life, can also be happy."

And then all the way on in ep 6, we get this new dialogue.

"I don't like talking about destiny." "Why?" "Because it means everything is predestined." "Then do you not believe in fate?" "Fate and destiny are the same. My grandma likes to say that. She said life is like a written book, and how you'll live and die are written in it. (...)I don't like things like this. Even if fate is already destined, I think it can still be changed. Otherwise, there's no point in trying." "Really? Then Myungha..."

And while we don't hear the author ask the same question, I feel like him getting cut off like that insinuates that the conversation leads to that same ending point. All that is to say, every time we hear this question being asked, its like we learn more and more about what this whole thing is, what the game is, what myungha is saying he will do by agreeing to do what the author asks. And every time, we see myungha being more defiant against the idea of yeowoon being resigned to his miserable ending. He starts off thinking that kind of life is destined, and while it's miserable, its not something he can fight. Then he says he'd want to write the story differently, bc yeowoon, or even him, could be happy. He challenges the idea that yeowoon, and thus himself, is fated to be miserable, and opens up the possibility for happiness for them both, but doesn't yet have the means or resolve to do it, its like he knows its possible on a fundamental level, but doesn't see it as something he can actually achieve. But then we circle back to the idea of destiny and books, both of which came up in the previous quote, and seems incredibly pertinent seen as this whole thing is about a novel this author has written. Myungha talks about how he hates the idea that life is a book where everything written is predestined to happen, from the moment you live to the moment you die. He says "Even if fate is already destined, I think it can still be changed. Otherwise, there's no point in trying." That vile way of life he described before that he said was destined, he is now saying it can be changed, and that possibility is now something he's holding onto, its what he sees hope in so that he can keep trying, bc now he finally is trying, he has the resolve, he's trying to realise this thing, this impossibility of rewriting the life he thought was destined through the way he loves yeowoon.

And coming back to those cruel choices, given this fresh context, it made me think. bc this isn't actually a game that myungha has been put into where the rules are dictated by an author completely separate from him. He said himself, he'd rewrite it, he'd change things for yeowoon. And when you start to think of it less as him fighting against a rigid, removed system and more like him being a character in a story he is trying to rewrite himself, that has both the author and his own limitations, or just his own if you're in the school of thought that the author is some figment or part of myungha himself or his conciousness, then you can start to see where these cruel choices might come from. They could be myungha, the author making edits to this new story, imposing his own doubts and limitations on himself. When he says he has to pick between Yeowoon and his grandma, what if that's the new author myungha seeing this story unfold and thinking no this isn't right, he can't have it all, i'm not deserving of this much happiness.

And what makes me like this idea even more is that when we get that second choice between ending after 14 days or getting 100 days back at the cost of resetting Yeowoon's affection to 0, that whole conversation happens in what I think the bar actually is which is this frozen moment in time where myungha is in the water with this extension of a voice in his head that is talking through these things. That conversation in itself needs its own post, but when you look at it both as a decision to break up or not or a decision to hold onto life or not, you can see how the author is just this soundboard relaying the decisions myungha is going through in his head. The author's voice is his own, weighing up his decisions. And if he is the author here, it only reinforces that the person making the rules of this game is him. You can even extend it further to the idea of the debuffs, where he puts in place this thing that makes it so he causes harm to yeowoon when he's around, and its only by garnering affection that he can prevent it. He gives himself a reason from the get go to stay away from yeowoon and reason it as him doing it for yeowoon's safety, when in fact the only way to make yeowoon safe is to increase his affection, which he can only do by being near him. Its a system that at first gives myungha a reason to stay away aka not like himself, but ultimately says the only way you're going to make yeowoon like you, or the only way you can like yourself, is if you accept risk. And that in itself screams to me of a myungha writing in these game systems that are trying to encourage his own-self love while falling at the hurdle of his own lack of self-worth.

The idea is still messy in my head even for me, but i just really like the idea that myungha could be trying to fix this thing both as a character and game master, and that both these versions of him have these flaws that manifest in their different ways to cause the events we see. It kinda is the definition of being your own worst enemy, the idea that in order to work towards loving yourself, the biggest obstacle you have to encounter is yourself, bc we are the ones holding ourselves back, making all these rules that make it harder to like ourselves and pursue our own happiness. The voices in our head telling us that we aren't good enough and aren't deserving are our own, and while the things that happen to us can inform what they say, we're the one's reinforcing those words. And what this show teaches us is that, if we're the one holding that pen all along, we can choose to change what those words are. If we make the rules, you don't have to create a game with concrete ultimatums, you can create a game where rules don't control you. Instead, you make the decisions, and you can make the ones that make you happy.

#wow look at me writing actual kinda thought out meta #also something something about how the pen being in his pocket wasnt a pen given to him by the author its a pen that was his the whole time #look even if this isnt the right interpretation as intended by the author i just kinda adore this headcanon ive come up with and i cant wai #to rewatch the show again through this lens and see if it holds up #i just adore the idea of this whole thing being this manifestation of a flawed doubtful person trying to navigate through their own messy #nonsensical thoughts to find their own happiness #bc yes thats what triggered me thinking of this whole thing. me seeing that post and thinking yeah that doesnt make sense7 #but then again when you tell yourself things an put your own mental blocks in the way they dont make sense either but you still have to fin #the ways to work around them in order to find happiness #like those things dont go away we just find the loopholes or the ways to overcome them that mean we can be happy #the game is your own mind - deal with your own existential crisis as you wish #anyway this is only part 1 in what i hope will be a very extensive meta analysis of this show - stay tuned #love for love's sake

[redrobin-detective]

I’ve never seen this talked about but I found this a truly interesting bit of Skull lore. When he was alive it was a good century before the Problem started and ghosts were generally thought as fanciful.

But Skull could clearly see them, enough to be able to ward them off while making the bone glass. It gives so much context as to how and why Skull ended up with Bickerstaff and possibly explains how he’s able to communicate in the modern day.

I think Skull had been another ‘once in a generation’ psychic talent like Marissa and Lucy had been. Hell, Marissa has proven that with enough talent one could see spirits pre-problem. Skull’s innate talent from when he was alive is the reason he’s able to talk to Lucy, another talented Listener. Does Skull even know how incredible it was to see spirits before it was a nation wide problem???

#lockwood and co #lockwood & co #skull in the jar #I cant believe no one is talking about this #Skull is probably THE reason the bone glass was made bc he's the onyl one who could see and interact with ghosts #its implied pre-problem no one believed in ghosts so it was like a Big Deal #I dont think its just bc Skull was young #he had immense psychic talent like Marissa and Lucy #and THAT is the reason he's a type 3 and able to talk #I think there are ghosts who maintain intelligence #but to speak to the living you had to have had talent upon death

[orpheustra]

havent posted patho in a minute hey dudes

tried learning to paint more, but then idk i got tired i wanna bed bye guyd

i KNOW he has straight hair but im habing FUN ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#daniil pathologic #the bachelor pathologic #pathologic #daniil dankovsky #pathologic daniil #pathologic fanart #pathologic classic hd #except the fit is actually more of an amalgamation of whatever bc i cant deal with those polygons this is easier

[opens-up-4-nobody]

:-P

#how long ago did i watch pacific rim? i feel like it might have been last year but i finally drew this lmao #sometimes it just takes a while. newt specifically gets under my skin tho bc i think his research interests r kinda similar to mine #at least in a broad sense. but im dealing with cyanobacteria which is less exciting to most ppl lol but any fanfic i read thats like: newt #has 6 phds im like fucking what? what r they in? they have to be literature based right?! when would u have time to independently design. #carry out. write and defend for 6 independent projects in different topics by his age? #what as waste of time. i say as a person who would happily fuck around and collect degrees without ever having to get a real job #idk characters i relate to make me a little unhinged bc i do not like to relate to characters lol #pacific rim #herman gottlieb #newt geiszler #newton geiszler #tw blood #tw gore #also i agree with herman abt the numbers quote. physics is like literally understanding the fabric of the universe so like yeah #also i cant draw hermann and i cant see his face without thinking of owen from torchwood who i hated lol #pacrim

[sorrelpaws]

the codependency is mutual btw pr*ship dni

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #morty smith #i realize i draw a lot of angry morty pathetic rick so idk #not exactly an angry rick he just doesnt know how to deal with any complex emotions #hes like ok. bring it in buddy. and then considers his job done #im a sucker for mortys inevitable emotional outburst and like. obvs i want him to be angry and whateva #but then hed be like aw rick im sorry for yelling. aw man this sucks im kinda terrible for this. even tho hes completely justified #UGHHHHH THEYRE SO FUCKED UPPPPPPPP I HATE THEMMEMMMMMMM #added tha dni bcs god knows i cant draw these two hugging or whatever without a certain group of ppl misinterpreting it

[200llbun]

Au where Dipper is deadass blind (working at the library) and cannot see the tall lanky monster thingy in front of him and just kinda assumes it's a human - he knows somethings a bit off about the guy, but he stops his assumptions there bc it's rude and he got over his paranormal phase years ago. (He didn't)

#billdip #digital art #dipper pines #gravity falls #author #fanfic #art #mlm #bill cipher #au #fanart #inspo from frankinsteins monster (idk if i spelled that right) bc the og book had a blind dad talk to the monster #of course the guys family walked in on them talking and screamed bloody fuck and kinda shoo'ed the monster away #except in this au Bill wasnt really created he just kinda always lived and lurked to stalk humans and make deals since thats his food #kinda? #might change that though idk if I'll ever actually write it since I've been unmotivated w billdip for awhile #also dippers family doesnt shoo Bill away bc he lives alone #Pacifica tries to. But. Well that doesn't rlly work out that well #she tells Dipper that the guys a literal fucking illuminati monster taller than his door #dipper just kinda shrugs her off bc shes joked about shit he cant see being a monster and hes kinda over it by then #the girl cries wolf on her end #dip secretely wishes it to be true bc its been his sick fantasy ever since he was a teen #call him dorky or sick. he wont care #fanfics about monster fuckung had drilled into his mind #hes corrupted #in a good way #join the dark side dipper🤲 #k bye

[snakeoid]

i got a growing solomon and barbatos ex husband collection

#obey me spoilers #i cant wait until its revealed what tf solomon did bc its either gonna be something sooo silly #or something thats a big deal making it even funnier that solomon just shrug forgot #obey me

[screechingcheesecakecheesecake]

It's pretty funny. I didn't think much of it the first time because he was just recovering from his failed pursuit of Gwennie but Leopold was already catching feeling EARLY on.

Like, he even unintentionally confessed too. But Jamie didn't think much about it because Jamie's opinion of him wasn't even that high at the time.

Good for him for succeeding this time! (I was rolling in bed from joy)

#cursed princess club #cursed princess club webtoon #but seriously #leopold catches feelings very early lmao #so he gets more time to deal with it #i cant believe i missed that detail before #this is the the best “i dont like sweets x sweets lover” trope for me methinks bc of the art aspect of it too

[potatobugz]

I think about the implications of Syntax being a human turned spider demon forever, ok ?

#lego monkie kid #lmk #syntax #huntsman #goliath #potatart #lmk syntax #syntax lmk #lmk huntsman #huntsman lmk #lmk goliath #goliath lmk #strong spider #I HAD TO. MAKE THIS POST ON DESKTOP. AND AS MOBILE USER NUMERO UNO #IT WAS HELL AND PAIN !!!! #thatsa what i get for making an eleven page comic u_u #anyways. did you know? syntax mental turmoil #i dont know how 2 describe it but its like... youve gotta wonder jow hes dealing with the whole spider thing yes #i have a million thoughts on it. i cant type them bc im doing this on my dinky laptop thats not really a laptop

[gunsatthaphan]

"let's take it slow."

#hidden agenda #hidden agenda ep6 #joongdunk #jokezo #joke x zo #joong archen #dunk natachai #gmmtv #thai bl #bl drama #LITERALLY that scene had me running in circles #I just.---- #the softness 😩 #Im a weak bitch bc I simply cannot deal with joong's charisma I just cant #hes so........🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️ #good god. #this show is giving me what only friends wont #which is softness and romance kjdhgf

[transmasccofee]

thinking yet again about Saiki‘s’s final choice in the series being “I’d rather live with my powers than die without them” bc that is seriously the single best ending of a disability narrative I’ve seen. Fuck.

#The thing people don’t tell u about being physically disabled #Is that you’ll see the physically abled people in your life start to view you as something tragic #And while they rarely say it when it comes down to things #They think you’re better dead than disabled. That you’d be happier put out of your misery. #Even with stories involving disabled characters (If we’re anything beyond a background diversity shot which is… rare) #It’s about “curing” or “overcoming” your disability which is I guess a nice sentiment but most of us won’t ever do that #Saiki doesn’t do either of those things #He wants to be cured and briefly thinks he is but then it’s discovered that he Cant be cured bc his powers are part of the whole of him #He doesn’t ever overcome them either #He just puts his glasses back on and decides that if it means he can live another day then he’ll continue to deal with them #And his powers are progressive #And that’s a thing weighing on him but it’s never treated like a death sentence #It’s just something he has to and will deal with #And it sucks but what else is he gonna do #It’s just. Aughhhhh. Aaaaaauuuuughhhhhhhhh…….. #This post was brought to u by a man grieving his own mobility #physically disabled #physical disability #saiki k

[shortnotsweet]

Pearl of the Realm [2, 1.5, 1]

Lucerys returns from his travels with new confidence and clothing that shocks nobility and the commonwealth. Fashionable members of the court swamp their tailors with demands, and the constant buzz around Lucerys the Lovely makes him Prince of the People. Coincidentally, Aemond develops chronic nosebleeds that plague him whenever his nephew is in the room.

The corset above is based off of a gold and white pearl set. This evolved into an AU about Luke gaining a sense of self + allies for Rhaenyra through scandalous clothing. He also incapacitates his Uncle Aemond, who probably has an iron deficiency from all the nosebleeds the maesters can’t explain.

A memorable incident: After offending Lucerys by insinuating his clothing is “inappropriate for a Prince”, and “looks like it was stolen from a Dornish whore”, Aemond attempts to apologize with a string of pearls. His timing is, of course, awful, and he stumbles into his chambers right when Lucerys is bathing. Misunderstandings ensue when he tries to shove the gift at him but ends up flinging it across the room; Luke assumes it’s an elaborate assassination attempt and leaps out of the bath, sprinting down the halls of the Red Keep with Aemond in hot pursuit. Aegon laughs so hard he cries.

#lucemond #aemond x lucerys #lucerys valeryon #house of the dragon #aemond targaryen #my art #Aemond must have a degregadtion kink or smt bc he is always getting humiliated in this #he is EXTREMELY obvious. that eye contact is not going anywhere and Alicent is at her wits end #i think lucerys is oblivious about some things but mostly just enjoying himself #also i used a lot of Pinterest references for this and there are so many other outfits not in this post #i think Luke in this specific shade of blue is just super pretty #and of course he has red and black accents. it just makes sense ya know #anyway if you ask Aemond the devil wears not Prada but the most delicate and intricate of outfits the Westeros cant deal with #I am very pro Aemond w a man bun btw

[tianhai03]

saw a pic of a piece of pizza with bones in it on twitter today and i was very inspired to make a dumb little comic about it ft. the dmc gang. just a very normal gang of people finding out that there’s bones in their pizza 🍕

#wasnt gonna post this on here bc its a bit long and i cant just copy and paste it into a post like i can with twitter #but i think its really funny and a lot of people found it funny too so i figured why not lmao #devil may cry #nero(dmc) #lady(dmc) #trish(dmc) #vergil(dmc) #dante(dmc) #long post #the ladies are gone halfway through bc they simply chose to not deal with the twin's bullshit #theyre at the side slowly picking out the bones in the pizza so they can eat it. yknow. like a reasonable human being #so nero's left to deal with the twins on his own <///3 #allyart