#bc i experience this show thru lena

[lena-in-a-red-dress]

Lena walks into the Tower, her thoughts still with the book she left locked in the safe of her home office. All heads turn to face her, and her eyes go straight to Kara, whose shoulders sag slightly at the sight of her.

"Lena..."

Kara envelops her in a hug. Lena squeezes her back, unable to keep the smile from tugging at her lips. "I came as soon as I saw the news," she says quickly. "Is everyone okay?"

"Yeah," Kara murmurs.  "But let's just say it's been a crazy couple of weeks."

Nia greets her as well, but Alex is withdrawn, and when Lena eventually follows Kara out onto the balcony, she presses a little harder.

"Everyone seems... quiet. Is everything really okay? Tell me the truth."

Kara sighs. "A lot has happened since you've been gone. And today Kelly reminded us that we'd lost sight of something important."

"Oh." Come to think of it, Kelly was the only one not at the Tower. "Where is Kelly?"

"At home?" Kara guesses with a shrug. A moment passes, as Kara gazes thoughtfully at the skyline. "Maybe... you should go see her."

"Me?" Lena doesn't dislike Kelly, but they aren't the closest. "Why me?"

"I get the feeling she isn't ready to see the rest of us yet. And I think..."

"Think what?"

"You two might be able to find some common ground."

Lena scoffs. "No offense, Kara, but me dating her brother doesn't mean I know what she's going through."

"No," Kara agrees. "But-- once upon a time, you took over your family's company. Reclaiming the Luthor legacy as your own, as a force for good..."

Brow furrowing, Lena frowns. "I don't follow..."

Kara smiles. "It was a thankless, insurmountable task... and you took it on anyway."

----

And so Lena finds herself knocking on Kelly's door. She hears a rustle on the far side, and then a pause as Kelly looks through the peephole. When the door opens, Lena offers a smile.

"Lena, hi! You're back!"

"I am," Lena affirms. She steps inside when Kelly opens the door wider.

"How was your trip?"

Lena pauses, searching for the right words. "Enlightening," she settles on. "But I hear things have gotten exciting since I left."

Closing the door, Kelly's features settle in a grim line. "So, they sent you, huh?"

"Neutral party?" Lena means it as a joke, but it falls flat. She sighs, letting her shoulders relax. "Kara told me a little about what happened."

"So you're the Kelly whisperer now?"

Kelly's gaze cuts through the air, sharp as a razor. Lena can only shake her head. "No. I won't pretend to know what you've lived through. James-- James shared some of his experience with me, and I can't even imagine what it must be like. But..."

Kelly's entire body tenses, waiting for the other shoe to fall. Lena takes a moment to gather herself, to choose the right words before she made an already tenuous situation worse.

"I can't deny my privilege, and I have no intention of doing so. We come from two very different backgrounds. But I've been on the outside of Kara's decisions before...  decisions that made me wonder if they even saw me at all."

Kelly doesn't snap, but she doesn't soften, either. Lena continues.

"I can only imagine that they've already offered all the support you can probably stand by now," she smiles, "but I want you to know that you have me too. You know... if you ever need someone a little less super."

Finally Kelly relents, just a little. "Thank you. I appreciate that."

Lena nods. Quiet stretches between them, until Lena sense she's overstayed her welcome. "I should get going," she says.

Kelly opens the door for her, not protesting her departure. It's the least congenial Lena's ever seen her, and Lena wonders if maybe she's seeing a new layer of Kelly. She wonders if this makes them closer, or more distant than before.

On her way out, Kelly catches one of Lena's wrists. "Thank you," she says. "Really."

Lena nods. She gives Kelly's hand a squeeze, then moves to pull away, only to turn back at the last moment.

"You know, Kara reminded me of something tonight," she blurts. Her cheeks heat with a slight flush when Kelly's brow arches. "Once upon a time, I wanted to do good."

An idea starts forming in her mind, miniscule at first, but quickly snowballing as her thoughts connected into a cohesive, executable plan. She could do it.

She would.

"I think I'm going to start a charity foundation," Lena continues, her lips pulling into a smile. "Maybe at some point I could get this new Guardian's input on where we could be the most help."

This time, Kelly rewards her with a warm smile.

"Oh, I'm sure she's got some ideas."

#sg spoliers #missing scene #episode tag #kelly and lena #bc i experience this show thru lena #and i would have loved to see her interact with kelly #not bc lena would be any less disconnected in terms of race and privilege #but because lena has been on the outside of the supefriends #and bc shes been the person that kara's overlooked in her decision making #this is just me processing #idk #loved the ep #wouldnt change a thing #except to remove lenas bits #wasnt really necessary #will post more thoughts tomorrow

[hazelcallahan]

i just want to say. kara doesn't get a whole lot of material gifts for lena because she likes to show her love thru other ways (food, experiences, etc) but when she does they're the WORST GAG GIFTS EVER except when she proposes and it's a beautiful rose gold diamond ring bc she's a millennial and gay

😭😭😭😭

[tvnners-blog]

GUESS WHO’S BACK WITH A BRAND NEW RAP 30 mins earlier than expected? that’s right, urs truly~ ok first thing’s first hello!!!! i’m caitlin and i’m v v excited to be here like hot dog u have no idea the thrill high i’m buzzing on, like 13rw???? i can't evEN talk abt it ok i'm going thru the season for the 3rd time and, i’m just a mess rn o k anyways onto the person ur actually here to read about aka the one and only tanner eugene prescott…. the third……

( trigger warnings: mentions of abortion, drugs, suicide )

so in regards to lena?? at first, he hardly knew she existed, other than whatever rando rumours were flying around (which he didn’t normally pay any mind to anyway bc he was too busy dealing with his own shit to care about what or who anyone else was supposedly doing). he never went out of his way to acknowledge her tbh unTIL he started seeting her at whichever parties she showed up to (bc i mean he was at aLL of them since parties were where he made most of his profit u know.....which i'll touch on more later here). tanner honestly didn't even know that this girl had a single party-hardy bone in her body so to see her livin it up with the best of them???? he loved it and so obvi he started talking to her, mainly 'are you going to so-and-so's tonight? his parents are out for the whole WEEKEND' and 'remember when so-and-so hooked up with so-and-so and then projectile vomited all over the kitchen floor? WILD'. the only time they ever really hung out or seemed to be pretty close pals was in the midst of a raging party. otherwise? tanner never really saw the point in hanging out sober because they seemed to live two completely opposite lives. now that she’s gone, he feels kind of connected to her in the sense that he thinks he understands? like he empathizes a little with the girl bc life’s rough, he knows it, and he’d be lying if he said HE had never had suicidal thoughts.

ANYWAYS ONTO THE BORING BACKSTORY STUFF: my boy here has had a pretty rough upbringing. he was born a bastard to a single mom working two to three jobs at a time, and with no knowledge of who his father was(is). of course he was an unwanted / unexpected / surprise baby or however u wanna call it but instead of getting an abortion, his mom decided to keep him for the child support tax from the good ol’ government. so yeah .... his mom was pretty neglectful and would leave him like cans of beans or leftover fishsticks or whatevER in the kitchen to keep him fed but he basically had to take care of himself for the better part of his childhood.

when he was old enough to start bringing in money himself to help out, however, his mom suddenly grew incredibly attached to him, dishing out the nurturing love only a mother can give that tanner had craved his whole life, as long as he kept bringing in money. so obviously he’d been completely oblivious to the fact that she’d been using him, blinded by love, and it was just a gargantuan toxic MESS that eventually ended up with him heartbroken once he finally saw the truth for himself.

so obviously, at some point during his freshman year of high school, tanner mixed in with the “bad crowd”, which is ultimately how he was introduced to the dark underworld of drugs. at first, he just experimented, giving into classic peer pressure, but then he got in on the trafficking part. it started off with him just making small deliveries on behalf of one of the dealers whenever they were “too busy” and went on about how much trust and respect they had for tanner to do these favours. then he eventually was offered a permanent role, and with the amount of cash he’d be pocketing, he didn’t have the heart to say no, especially with his struggling mother in the back of his mind. so yeAH tanner prescott was ur friendly neighbourhood dealer during those high school years (and even after....), there for all party needs or whatever other extra curricular activities those wild kids had planned.

as for personality, he basically acts like he doesn’t give a shit about anything other than having a good time and enjoying the moment. he doesn’t like talking serious issues (esp not lena) bc he just finds it depressing and a buzzkill like any other asshole waltzing around. but deep down, it’s bc partying and whatnot numbs all the bad feelings that otherwise eat away at him. so on the outside: loud, rowdy, ready to party at all times, speaks his mind 100% even when it makes.....no sense, cracks jokes at every opportunity, and laughs at everything he can get away with. on the inside: sad mad boy, doesn’t wanna think abt the future bc he doesn’t think he has one, and avoids deep authentic bonds with other ppl like the plague.

the end...?? i suck at writing the closing part of intros l m a o but again if anyone has any ideas/suggestions for connections, i’m 100% down and i'm finally gonna get to IMs as well as replying to ur starters, cuties B)

#i just.....ate sm turkey #i feel like a whole turks gna tear out of my gut in all its gobble gobble glory..... #o K BUT hey ;))) i'm here & half alive #ooc #thats it thats my tag lmao #suicide tw #abortion tw #drugs tw