#bc i sure as hell dont know

[fizzy-sodacan]

Its such a difference bruh

#my fucking garbage(art) #i miss some of my old friendgrouo but i try not to associate noodle with whatever the hell happened back there no offense to anyone who knew #bc i sure as hell dont know

[thaliasthunder]

cant believe i waited almost two years to finally come to this moment

#i admit i had to look up the mv #bc i never watched it before #i knew the song but not the mv #and honestly? #i dont know what i feel about this being a canon dialogue #but i sure will be funny as hell material for fanarts #nico's gonna poll dance in TARTARUS #nico di angelo #pjo #hoo #percy jackson #pjo/hoo #rick riordan #will solace #solangelo #tsats #the sun and the star #tsats spoilers #mark oshiro

[presiding]

genuinely admire those who were optimistic for dishonored 3 but in this videogame industry climate and [insert a 4hr video essay about arkane's recent history here], honestly, not getting dh3 is good news

#dishonored #arkane studios #i know its silly to meme when the take is nuanced #and i admit that blade is one hell of an aesthetic. but i'm sitting out of this #somewhat being a hater yes. but that is because i am a lover #i dont think its pointless hater-ing though to be critical of something i wish i could love more #my takeaway from arkane is that its better to be not a fan of a company. a company does not make games #a company's staff does. and those staff need to be treated well and given budget and breathing room to make good things #and i have my doubts about that at the moment. very well documented and supported doubts #if arkane is given AAA budget to make a game. it probs wont be another dh. except maybe a remake bc those are 'safe' bets. #ie. dh1 remastered would sell #judging by doto and even dh2 (which i loved even tho its flawed). i dont think arkane really 'get' why dh1 was magical #so im not sure that a third in the series could necessarily recapture it #especially as theyve confirmed they're closing the drawer on the current overarching plotline #this is the hater corner celebration! i am pouring you a drink! [pres why does this look like blood?] we like themes n motifs here! #pres rants in tags #anyway mutuals lets make a fan edition of dh3 for shits n gigs

[bonefall]

Willowpelt sounds SO autistic, it not being funny wraps around into being funny again.

My secret is being so autistic and so surrounded by so many other autistic people that I forget what tismless people even do. Everyone in BB ends up getting a touch of ADHDautism. As a treat.

But yeah when I was jotting it down I realized it too. Like wow, I really hit this one with the autism beam. Me and you, Willy, we will both have adamantine opinions. I cannot condone your hatred of apples but you do have a good point about oak trees.

#Me and Willow are going to have the funniest relationship about those apples #Like wtf girl you haven't had good apples. No i wont force them on you but you're so wrong #It cant even be a texture thing if youre NOT weird about pears #What the hell kind of apples are you eating that are always a little bitter #Fennelposting #My partner has an inverse autism to mine #Which at one point we called dog and cat autism #Because im mr THEY ASKED FOR NO PICKLES #PREPARE FOR 30 MINUTES OF PICKLE RELATED INFODUMPING IN PENANCE #And theyre like If i accidentally make eye contact with a single person in the room i will run away to a monastary and breed pea plants #Which ngl i think would be the funniest way to write Whitewillow #Fire: white is the best choice for deputy! He's so wise and organized and knows exactly how to talk to people #White looks up from his detailed gamefaq guide on How To Win At Talking To Real People which he wrote himself #'I Would Be Honored Thank You.' #Hes organized because if anything is even slightly different he hears The Sirens go off in his brain lmao #Small says 'firestar is still cursed bc he was appointed after moonhigh. I dont respect his deputy either.' #Willow: 'you will join starclan in 7 days but ill make sure ur not late'

[sammisafetypin]

the crazy fucking thing is that i know none of the "supporting palestine is antisemitic!! 'from the river to the sea' is antisemitic!!!" crowd gave a singular solitary shit about jewish people or antisemitism until they could claim that protesting genocide is antisemitic . like i know you motherfuckers were looking away when synagogues were vandalized and shot up , when shitheads with a following on their podcasts went on about "the global elite" , when holocaust denial made its rounds for the hundredth time . but oh , now that you can use "it's antisemitism" to support a genocide , suddenly you have such a vested interest in the jewish people's plight that you never had before . never mind how many jewish people , including people IN israel (who are being arrested and killed for speaking out against their government!) , are actively calling for a ceasefire and for palestine to be freed . those don't exist , because that would challenge the use of the word antisemitism as a 'justify firing people for hating genocide' button and not what it actually fucking means . because that would require actually acknowledging the real antisemitism that pervades the world and that its not just a cool new word to shut up protestors .

#sammisafetypin.txt #im not . good . at using my words in a political(?) context . so ive mostly just been reblogging posts instead of making my Own . #but ive been so pissed off by th people that only started to '''care''' about antisemitism once it could be used to excuse massacring peopl #bc i know they sure as hell dont care when antisemitism actually DOES kill people #whatever gets rid of The Scary People I Don't Like amiright

[kinos-fortress-2]

ok before i continue to do the other 11 stickers... still not sure what you guys think about this...

the theme for the stickers was just like how i explained in my other post, just ugly beheaded heads of the tf2 characters... im just planning to do 14 stickers because hell nah that idead of making all tf2 characters was crazy from my part (still 14 is more insane ha)

and well... uhuh.

oh yeah

DONT REBLOG THANKS.

#when i mean dont reblog is bc hell dont even know if i want to change this designs later #but im gonna leave it open JUST FOR ME TO REBLOG IT if i ever make any announcement about this #this couldve been an idea for halloween tho... #you know this was inspired by those halloween ugly stickers i have found somewhere and well... i like to do this type of style #so idk if i should continue this style buak #also im not sure if i should color this or not... if i should then thats gonna be more difficult buak #i am doing too much to myself i cant finish everything i have... is too much ideas im gonna explode #i just want to draw everything my brain thinks so instead of killing myself drawing i have to write the ideas in my note pad so i dont forg #i feel like a hermit drawing too much sighs... i should take a break is too much ideas #but if i do i will end in an artblock and im afraid of that #sorry ranting over here ha #just lemme know if you do like it or nah still

[baeshijima]

someone needs to take my brain away from me. i beg. this is an sos. a cry for help.

#sophie talks : wounded pride #will the title change? who knows bc i sure as hell dont aha !! #(<- spoiler: i already changed it after posting this 🧍‍♀️) #the amount of emotional pain i went through trying to make a title and rewriting the synopsis 100 times over was not fun #haha anyway thats 2 new wips and i am not okay. pls end me so that i can finally have some self control 😀

[ajdrawshq]

ok. going for round 2.5 of isat instead of doing anything else on the completely normal and uneventful days that are today and tomorrow + however long this takes to accomplish. objectives:

get epilogue part i missed

hit max level with everyone (is there a difference in the event dialogue depending on which act this happens in??)

spend wayyy more time doing things in act 2 bc its too easy to speed thru it and miss stuff that might be different. like im talking ALL of the side quests possible and interact w Everything. apologies in advance to siffrin for this we are hitting loop amounts that should be unthinkable

interact with the leaf while in the room w the globe specifically. not sure if it does anything but i wanna check

sus achievement. need

figure out how to unlock that one house in town w an openphrase?? if possible?? surely theres a way to do that. right

do that mini quest w the bonding earrings pair bc i couldnt find who the other person was for the life of me . need to check epilogue

get all loop conversations ?

keep save of every act for future reference

collect and keep ALL souveniers during the last bit until the end . ive seen what they all do beforehand but some get used up so thats very missable

find the last equipment ?? where could that even be

whatever the rest of the achievements are that i dont know how to unlock. hopefully along the way <3

#i think i know how to do most of this. i think. probably #no idea what most of the hidden game achievements are tho.. #maybe ill hit em by accident #isat #this is just me making sure i remember what im doing for this playthrough . but really does the dialogue for that event change at all #i would think so but do i really wanna get them to that level so early in the game without that one memory.... #either way thats definitely an act 4ish thing. i cant remember if getting that memory is when u enter act 4 or not #sure as hell would be funny to try it in act 2 tho .. #actually is there a way to open that one house. dont tell me how just tell me if there is bc im genuinely unsure #the current lack of guides makes this a bit rough but its fun to find things on my own :3

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

theres a turn of phrase i use that im pretty sure is neither english nor dutch and also warps the function of the word 'right' in both languages at the same time but i keep using it bc it's just quicker than any other way and im a writer of shortcuts

#p sure ive turned 'right' into a noun here which. it is not? #at least not in the sense that im using it here #when someone is right. thats not a noun. #in iemand gelijk geven it does sort of sound like it could be a noun but im not sure #i think i went. 'iemand gelijk geven' (lit. give someone right. 'admit someone IS right') -> #'haar gelijk geven' (lit. give HER right. 'admit SHE'S right') -> #this #i just fudged the verb and 'right' went wobbly prob bc it has a different function in english and dutch but im not sure #either way i dont think this is parseable to an english reader #nonetheless i will keep using it #'who cares if they know what i mean i like these words in this way' #it's just you need a gelijk geven in english and i dont know what else it would be #now i need to find out if french has a gelijk geven #DONNER RAISON hahahah hell yeah 🤝

[imperiuswrecked]

"We should call out Egypt & Jordan for not accepting Palestinian Refugees"

Baby girl you can't even call out genocide that's happening live on your screens in full color. Sit down.

#if the Palestinians leave then its 1948 all over again and they will never be able to come back #we learned the first time that if we leave then we have no rights to return #we dont want to leave #we want them to stop killing us #its not that hard to understand but sure blame others blame everyone except the ones killing us let me know how that works out for you #tw: genocide #palestine #current events #sometimes I actually feel insane bc you do know thats what they want right? thats exactly what they want #they want us to leave #they want to make it hell for us to ever set foot on our land #did you know that if you are Palestinian and anytime you travel even with legal documents in or out of the country #they can stop and harass you? #did you know anytime I travel I have to account for at least 4 hours of interrogation at an airport? and I have legal documents #I account 4 hours bc thats the longest time they've held me in a windowless room #anyways im so done with people who do not understand the history every fucking year its the same thing: just go somewhere else #we dont want to go somewhere else

[doctorwhoisadhd]

there are many ways nardole interacting with the torchwood team could potentially go but i think in every timeline owen would be so mad about who in the team nardole has sex with. including in any situation where nardole has Only fucked owen he would still find a way to be mad about it

#nardole #doctor who #owen harper #dw #torchwood #see i CANT imagine it but like. thats nardole though. like. i feel like nardole DOES NOT WANT bitches in s10 at any point. and so we do not #see the version of nardole that allows him to actually Get bitches. #him in torchwood all bets are off. tosh jack suzie owen gwen ianto hell even rhys honestly i feel like if theres ONE non-gwen who could pul #that off and seduce RHYS of all people its fucking nardole. For some reason. #the one character i dont think nardole would fuck is probably martha. mostly bc martha is too loyal to ever cheat unlike every other #character in the entirety of the show #and dont even get me started on what john hart and nardole would do to each other. cause i dont really want to talk about that i think it #would be. bad to witness in many ways and im not sure i need to consider how and why that could be the case #just know that they WOULD know each other carnally #ari opinion hour

[silenthillbunni]

5 million male chicks per year are brutally murdered right after birth bc they're "worthless" to the egg industry yet im supposed to believe that humans arent inherently evil lmao shut the fuck up

#5 million only in sweden #imagine the number in the entire world #imagine all the other animals that are being slaughtered #god i wanna throw up humanity is so so so evil #we play god #we think we have the right to first make sure animals get raped (breeding at an unnatural rate is rape) #then have these animals in HORRIBLE 'living' conditions (ppl liken their conditions to actual hell!!) #and not only that the human workers more often than not sadistically torture nd abuse them before slaughtering them #on top of that... humans are so fucking useless they throw away most of meat and animal products #they like buy a package of meat then theyre too braindead to cook w it so it goes bad nd they throw it out #i dont know #all of this is unnatural and unholy. none of this is how its suplosed to be #we didnt get life just to put ourselves on top and then abuse and torture every other living being like this #no humanity is a sickness. humans are a cancer. a parasite. the more i think abt it the more im cemented in that belief #ppl act like 1% of 'goodness' weighs up for the profound harm and cruelty humans have set loose on this earth. thats a fucking joke! #god what the fuck is wrong with humanity. it's like everything went wrong .. well from the start rlly #humans (mostly men if we're being honest. women dont have nor act on such depraved desires) been fucking insane #animals arent cruel or sadistic. they follow their nature. the eating and killing isnt more than that #sure some animals like cats have sadistic behaviors. but that is nowhere near the scale humans act on it #like cats dont lock mice in a facility nd force them to breed nd then torture them in insane amounts nd so on so forth #humans are wrong. im certain that we were never meant to live like this. it's all insanity. the worst part it. 99.99% of ppl are part of it #it's so hard to find anyone who's intelligent enough to comprehend this. theyre all braindead megalomaniac sheep w a superiority complex #i cant connect w anyone bc of it #i just get so disappointed when i realize someone's just as braindead as everyone else nd then i stop caring abt them. everyone r this way. #idk how to live with these humans. theyre all fucking insane

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[fourteenthz]

LOVE AND PEACE ON FUCKING PLANET EARTH

#kelly plays ykz #yakuza 0 spoilers #I'm stopping now its like 7am I prefer to believe they are going to have a dinner and plan a trip to Europe and never come back actually #IM SO OBSESSES WITH THEM IT'S MAKING ME SICK IN THE HEAD #i didn't start this game expecting anything other than brother^tm but you know what. IF #they every single one of majima's old boss can say tell this guy has feelings maybe i can too. yeah. YEAH. #OBSESSED SO BAD with chapter 16 first cutscene... he has absolutely NO hesitation in running up to her. #and the second she goes past him he immediately refuses to let her go. #ITS SO INSANE how he has been so lifeless the last chapter and accepting his fate as a pawn for the next one #to show that fucking face he makes while looking at her. ITS SO WEIRD IN A FANTASTIC WAY my man is having too many feelings he can't #she** can't even see it and it KILLS ME bc he is making the world's puppiest eyes at her IM SO AUAAGAHHAHH SLAMMING MY HEAD ON THE TABLE #I NEED THEM. TO BE. SO NORMAL RN. I NEED THEM TO HAVE SUCH NORMAL DINNER RN. #I'm stopping playing bc i'm not sure that's going to happen so enough tears for today but I JUST. REALLY NEED THEM. #TO HAVE DINNER. HOLDING HANDS. AND THAT'S IS. CAN SOMEONE HEAR ME. #she really is like my top3 favorite characters in this damn game I adore this woman to death. #feeling so majima by his sigh in realief as soon as she stopped walking away when she tripped. the way his damn face changes from pained to #'IDEA!' and imediatelly offers to take her out........................... i'm so unwell at this momento. #I thought if they met again I wouldn't be able to trust majima bc he was so set in being a damn pawn in the previous chapter but man..... #the amount of thoughts behind his eye everytime he looked at her. if they end up playing that as him bring in pain #bc he has to win her over im going to kll a guy. there's no way NO WAY U HEARD ME #thry are literally my everything. there is NO way she is going to survive this game and I'm trying sk damn hard to get #used to that idea but it just sucks i love her so much. and thw worst part i have no idea what's up with majima on the other games #is her dying being his villain storie??? his hero redemption? HELL IF I KNOW. IS SHE EVEN DYING FR?? #i truly think they could get away wih shipping her to another country. and it would make sense for majima to insist her to go. #but oh I doubt so hard they are giving me anything but pain with my favorite relationships in this game. i really do. #until then..... lying down in bed.... thoughts abt majima soft expression at her.... abt the weight her voice #carries rn.... abt the way he said 'hey' and she said 'you think I'm emotional because I'm hungry again'..... they. are. so. #the way they dont even give a choice to walk faster when she is accompanying majima. #I have such low standards at this point. if they don't at least hold hands again i will cry. #he doesn't need to guide her around anymore so... u see my vision? him asking for her hand bc he wants to... hello?

[prestonmonterey]

i refuse to

color theory

>:(

#marble draws #felt like doin somethin silly #i have so many hugo doodles i stg #showed my art teacher my vat7k folder and she went #:OOO #anyway #have a really banger piece i think #but im holdin that one hostage for a bit #s a secret for now sooooo #shhhhhh #anyway get excited or something bc ill prolly post about my varian cosplay on tuesday #...not sure. how. exactly #bc i sure as hell am not gonna post my face on this hellsite #..no im not gonna tag this one properly #its a secret for all my silly moots #heres your super secretive secret of the day #since youre readin all the tags #um #i turned in an assignment late on accident and i dont know how it happened #like i for sure submitted it already #but the teachers prolly gonna ignore any reasoning i have and fail me anyway :\ #aww and it was summative work too :( #idk what shes gonna do #like #that was the rough draft i already got 100 on the final blueprint #ok ill shut up now

[craycraybluejay]

Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.

#i am apathetic to whatever monstrosities lie within my mindscape #or rather i enjoy them and am apathetic to the idea that they are evil #unfortunately the fact that I'm excited ab them makes me rly rly rly want to talk ab them #which would be bad #but if it gets bad enough i think its time i let my therapist in on the next circle of anouther hell #i know she will be kind no matter what i spring on her #but this. i dont know how to feel or what to think about all this #its pathological. i can fix it about as well as i can fix the fact that i adore music or get turned on by fear or am consistently- #-platonically or otherwise pulled to murderers and the like #i know its some psychosexual nonsense-- some fixation rooted in some perverse symbolism that i cant fully grasp #its so difficult to be a BadWrong thoughts and desires person #bc even tho i have like. some level of control and ethicsband whatnot. even tho im not doing the guilt ocd thing. #even though i know im ok the way i am #i also know i cant talk ab it. cant be excited about it. cant vent or happy rant about it. stay quiet. let it eat ya #cause ppl cant accept some things cant like. come to terms with things. again and again #i find myself relating more to 'good people' but being able to talk more openly and honestly with 'bad people' #like im too far from either side to ever be fully myself but i must let it out #and so i find i cant trust the people i love most with some of the most personal things more than i can trust a complete stranger #because at least that stranger has no spare room to judge. and i cant give af about losing a strangers high esteem of me #i share something truly heinous and sure i may be threatened but. disappointment from ppl u love is worse than murderous rage from strangers #which came first- the fixation or the corruption? i think it was the fixation #i was like that before. whatever false indulgences i have given myself will always sate the beast and not create it #i am not a bad person. but i will always have a monster inside me. a balancing act between #being a somewhat polite functioning member of society and completely losing myself to the dark #i dont hate myself. i wish i did sometimes so i wouldnt have the urge to vomit it all out #i wish i hated myself and felt such guilt over all that so i could be happy with being quiet. i wish it was only good that excited me proper #or rather i wish i knew someone like me in the right ways. irl. no phones no danger. who i could share with excitedly and not feel like ill #be told that im a freak who deserves to die. someone who will share equally horrific things with me and will keep me in check #i want talk therapy but with someone that has something SO wrong with them. a friendship that is nasty and fun and grossly honest #someone to say 'i know what ur talking ab/how u feel' when i say something pitch dark