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yourmidnightlover · 1 year

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truth or dare... don't lie

pairing: xavier thorpe x fem!reader

summary: during a game of truth or dare, a secret about reader is revealed that xavier offers to help her out with.

warnings: SMUT LMAO, unprotected PIV, fingering, oral (F receiving), virgin!reader, kinda soft sex tbh, reader loses her v-card bc i'm projecting, kent, bianca, and yoko are kinda mean in this i'm not gonna lie, theres a bit of angst at first but then it gets really smutty and comforting

a/n: THIS IS NOT EDITED! i AM working on a part two to my series, but i have finals this week and can't focus enough to develop the plot how i planned so you're getting this instead to tide you over... wooo! enjoy horn-dogs :)

"it's your turn, y/n!" bianca started giggling as she took another sip of whatever alcoholic mixture she decided to deliver this time.

somehow you, enid, wednesday, ajax, xavier, bianca, kent, and yoko were playing a skewed version of truth or dare in xaviers single room. basically, it was the same premise of you choose a truth or a dare, but if you didn't complete the task or answer the truth then you had to strip. so... strip truth or dare.

it's not like anyone really cared, it was a week before winter break, and everyone had already finished their exams for the semester. luckily you were even able to have thing sneak into the teachers' lounge and bag some extra goodies, which was mostly only alcohol and little debbie snacks.

"what'll it be, y/l/n?" bianca continued to ask you. "truth or dare... or strip?"

you see, there was one MORE issue at hand...

you were down to your dress.

having already taken off your jacket, socks, and even your necklace, you were desperate to remain in the game with your integrity intact, although you were sure most of them wouldn't remember a thing because they had drank so much. except for wednesday, something about making sure enid got back to the dorm safely... blah blah blah.

well, and xavier, but you weren't sure why he wasn't drinking much on his end. maybe he was simply uncomfortable with it, or wanted to be the designated walk-er, helping everyone to their respective dorms. that's part of why you like him so much. he's so sweet and thoughtful, even when people choose to inebriate themselves beyond belief with alcohol. it wouldn't happen, and you know that. but a little schoolgirl crush never hurt anyone, right?

regardless, you needed something easy, so you remained covered and not embarrassed, "truth."

"boring!" enid rang out, hands cupping around her mouth to symbolize a megaphone.

"she is down to just her dress and whatever is underneath," wednesday pointed out with a nod. you turned to see xavier simply looking down at his phone, more than uninterested in the game.

"fine," you sighed. "i choose dare," you said smugly, noticing xaviers eyebrows raise as he made eye contact with you before you abruptly looked the other direction.

"there we go!" bianca clapped as the others cheered with her. "that's what i'm talking about y/n," she put her finger to her chin as if she were in deep thought with a quiet 'hmmm,' "i dare you to sit in xavier's lap for the rest of the game!"

"really?" your surprise was practically impossible to hide. "i don't think he'd be very comfortable with that, b."

"i'm cool with it if you are, y/n/n," he gave you a smile, one that you didn't recognize. it wasn't his 'i'm proud of you smile' or his 'you fucked up again' smile, no. this was a new one. this one seemed darker. mysterious. enticing.

you liked it.

"i-i'm cool with it," and with that, you got up and walked in his direction.

he had been sitting at his desk the whole time, in his comfy little chair. he pat his lap three times before you rolled your eyes at him and sat down on his lap, facing the same way as him. you tried not to put much weight on him, so you opted to sit on the very edge of his knees and let your tiptoes hold most of your weight.

"okay that can't be comfortable," xavier pointed out. "here," he carefully lifted you just enough to maneuver you over his lap, now sideways with your back against one armrest and your feet dangling over the other. "better?"

"mhmm, thanks," you smiled as you clasped your hands in your lap, one of xavier's arms still wrapped around your waist comfortably. it felt nice, like it belonged there.

from there on the game got a bit more... risqué. now there were kisses dared on cheeks, first time stories being drawn out, and so much more.

"xavier," ajax pointed at him, slurring his words with a big grin decorating his face. "truth or dare!"

"hmm..." he acted deep in thought. "dare."

"i dare you..." he clearly hadn't thought that far in advance, which is when enid leaned over and whispered something you couldn't make out to him. "oh that's good!," ajax whisper yelled, not being able to properly sense his own volume. "i dare you, xavier, to kiss y/n on the neck until your next turn!"

you turned to face him, your lips pressed into a thin line, praying that he couldn't see the rosy red blush that was surely adorning your cheeks by now.

"are you okay with that?" he asked, whispering in your ear so the others couldn't hear. once he got your quiet, but detectable 'mhmm,' he accepted the dare. "alright," with that, he got to work.

he pressed a feather-light kiss to your neck at first, and you thought you would be fine if this is what he would be doing the entire time. that was, until he began to press slightly open-mouthed kisses to your neck, occasionally gently nipping the area before soothing over it with his tongue.

there was no doubt in your mind that he could tell your heartbeat was racing. between feeling his hair brushing on the sensitive skin, and his tongue soothing his love-bites, you were about to explode. your hips were practically moving on their own at this point, trying to get whatever friction you could.

"hey," you felt xavier's hands grab your hips firmly. "if you don't stop moving your hips like that there's gonna be a mess between us that i really don't wanna clean up."

"what do you-" he shifted your hips up a bit more, hitting something a bit harder than his thighs were. "oh-is-is that...?"

"yea," he got closer to your ear, beginning to suck on the lobe and continuing his ministrations.

"in the school bathroom!" bianca rang out, laughing at whatever story kent was telling this time.

"i think it's y/n's turn again," kent diverted everyone's attention to you, so you tried to ignore xavier sucking on your neck like a leech, albeit a really hot one, to get through this.

"oh, and it's my turn," yoko cheered. "truth or dare, y/n?"

you really didn't think you'd be able to survive whatever dare they would throw your way, not in the slightest, which is why you chose: "truth."

"alright," yoko looked towards bianca and kent before asking, "what was your first time like?"

ajax might as well have ripped his beenie off then and there because you froze. you hadn't done it. you haven't gotten past giving a guy a handjob, let alone sex.

you didn't know how long you were quiet for, but you did notice when xavier stopped his kissing. you could practically feel his stare right on your face. you wanted it to go away. you wanted to disappear. it was humiliating, really. at least you thought it was until...

"you haven't, have you?" kent chuckled as bianca stifled a laugh.

"are you serious?" yoko asked incredulously. "well, i guess it makes sense to me," she shrugged as you tore yourself off of xavier's body, having to pry his hand away from your waist.

"hey," he held onto your hand softly and looked at you with what you thought to be puppy-dog eyes, you didn't have the best view due to the tears blocking your eyes.

"just..." you sighed as you took your hand out of his and ran out of his room, dorm, and the building as a whole. you just wanted to walk around, feel comfortable. then it hit you that there was always one place where you felt comfortable.

after around 15 minutes of walking around to clear your head, you got to xavier's paint shed. you had gone there nearly every time you needed help with homework, needed some advice, or if you simply missed him. it's amazing that even though he wasn't there, you could still smell his presence, the mahogany and woods scent that felt like home to you now.

you had made several forts in the place before, having secret sleepovers with each other countless times just because you wanted to. so, you brought out the mattress that was set up against the wall, put the fitted sheet on it and set up the bed as usual before plopping down on it.

you didn't even want to cry anymore. you just wanted to disappear. you felt like such a loser. i mean, why is that such a big deal anyway? it's just sex. but then again, if it's 'just sex' then why haven't you just done it?

"y/n/n?" xaviers voice called out as he knocked on the door of the shed. "look, i know you're in there. just wanted you to know that i kicked everyone out, okay?" you stayed quiet. "y/n," he sighed. "you know that just because you haven't... yknow, doesn't mean anything right? what yoko was saying... she doesn't make sense. because anyone would be so lucky to have you. you're unbelievably kind, and generous, witty, hilarious... and beautiful. you're beautiful, y/n. please just let me in? i wanna talk to your face, not some door."

you sniffled with a laugh, "it's been unlocked the whole time, idiot."

"hey, now," he called as he walked through the door, ducking down a little as to not hit his head on the low hanging fixtures. "why'd you run like that?" he as beside you on the bed, placing your long-forgotten items of clothing on one of the tables.

"why wouldn't i?" you turned the question on him. "i was humiliated," you began to pick at your nails. "i mean, you saw what happened. i was already flustered because you were kissing my neck and then i felt your boner because i couldn't just sit fucking still, which was embarrassing enough, but then the guy i like finds out i'm a virgin too! it was just too much. and then they were laughing at me and.... yea," you took a deep breath once you were done rambling.

"the guy you like?"

"you can't tell me you still don't know," you rolled your eyes once more before xavier grabbed onto your hands to stop you from picking at them like he normally does. "you. you know. it's you."

he didn't even say anything. it wasn't until you mustered up the courage to look at him that you saw a smile gracing his face.

"then you should know why ajax and enid dared me to do that to you in the first place," xavier scooted closer to you on the bed. placing one of his hands on your thigh. "i told them a couple weeks ago that i was starting to really, really like you-as more than friends. they went crazy, telling me you felt the same and everything, but i couldn't believe it. i mean, you're just... you're everything, y'know?

"i meant everything i said when i was outside. you're so sweet, and smart, and god, it takes everything in me not to kiss you when you look at me. because when you look at me, you really see me," xavier finished.

"kiss me," you told him in a soft tone.

"what?" his brows furrowed before you, with a shocking wave of confidence, swung one leg over his lap, now facing him and straddling his lap. his hands went to your waist

"i said kiss me," you leaned in closer to him. "please."

it didn't take anything else for him to bring one hand up to cup your face before finally connecting your lips. it wasn't like fireworks went off, or cannons bursted. it was more like a sense of belonging, welcomeness, and home. your lips had been craving him for so long, it was a sweet, cold treat in the summer as your tongues began to glide with one another.

once again, your hips couldn't contain themselves as they began to rock back and forth on his lap, this time successfully getting the desired friction exactly where you wanted it. you sighed into his mouth, your hands dragging through his hair as he began to nurse the same neck he was kissing nearly 45 minutes ago.

"i thought that would be the only time i'd have you to myself," xavier droned on. "i might've gone a bit overboard..." he laughed as he traced circles on your neck.

"what...?" you backed away from him before he picked up his phone, showing you with the selfie side of the camera how he had littered your neck with deep hickeys. "xavier!" you playfully shoved his shoulder.

"you better get used to it," he shrugged with a sly grin. "i can be territorial at times."

"god, as if you couldn't get any hotter," you began to peel off your dress, reaching for the hem before xavier swatted your hands away.

"let me," he ordered, you listened immediately, retracting your hands and placing them on his shoulders as he helped you rid yourself of your dress. "i don't even understand why you wore this since it's freezing outside."

"hmm," you mockingly acted like you were thinking. "well, when the guy i like is going to be in a place with booze, there might be certain possibilities and i wanted to look nice."

"you look better than nice," he pressed your lips together once more. "i was hard long before you even sat on my lap, y/n/n."

"please fuck me?" your voice was soft and whiny. "please? i want you, i just need you to-to y'know... please, xay?"

"you sound so pretty when you beg for me," he let his hand trace your neck before he buried his hand in your hair, gently tugging it back before admiring you in your nearly naked state.

"xay, please?" you were holding onto the hem of his t-shirt, nearly stretching it out with your begging.

"okay, love," he chuckled before swiftly tossing his shirt over his head, letting it land somewhere he wasn't concerned with. "now we're a bit more even, yea?"

"i just... i need you..." you were a squirming mess in his lap, to think an hour and a half ago you were pleading with yourself to keep your dignity and now you were begging for xavier...

"what do you need from me?" he teased, letting one of his hands trail down your front, hovering over your center. "i need to hear you say it for me. tell me."

"i need you," you sighed as you buried your head in his neck. "i need you to make me... make me cum?"

he chuckled maniacally, "is that a question? i thought i told you to tell me what you want?"

"please just make me cum xavier!" your frustration showed as you began to lazily press kisses to his neck. "please?"

he swiftly turned over so you were laying on the pillow at the top of the bed, him hovering over you with his hair falling to your face. he began pressing kisses down your body, gently squeezing your breasts and sucking on your nipples. eventually, after a few minutes of teasing, he reached your center. he moved your panties down your legs and began pressing kisses to your thighs, alternating between each one.

"has anyone ever done this for you before?" you shook your head 'no.' "is it alright if i do?"

"anything, xay, anything, please," you nodded as your hands tangled into his hair.

he pressed gentle kisses around your clit before licking one line through your slit, lapping up your juices like a man starved. you heard him moan into your pussy, the vibrations shooting through your core shocking you more than you thought possible. you reactively tugged on his hair, tossing your head back as he continued, now sucking gently, very softly, on your clit.

"oh my fuck," you breathed out, looking down at xavier to find his eyes fixated on you and your reaction. "god, you look so pretty, xay."

you felt him smile against your pussy, not letting himself get distracted by little compliments that he was sure melted his heart completely. one of his hands was gripping your thigh so hard you were sure there would be marks the next morning, the other hand was placed on your lower stomach, pressing down just slightly. he used the hand that was rasping your thigh and gently pushed a single finger in.

your mouth formed in an 'o' shape at the intrusion. his fingers were much longer than your own, and when he curled it inside of you, you swore you could see stars in his eyes as he continued to suck and kiss your clit. he gently thrusted his finger in and out a few times before adding a second finger.

"please don't stop," you were gripping his hair so tight you were surprised it hadn't ripped out. "'m so close, xay."

he stopped sucking your clit momentarily to say: "be sure to look at me when you cum."

you nodded dumbly as he got back to work, and it wasn't long until you were at that edge that no other man has ever been successful in bringing you to. at first you threw your head back before you remembered what you had promised him. with a few more thrusts of his fingers, you saw the look of pride on his face when he felt you squeezing his fingers in a vice grip, your mouth dropped open completely as pornographic moans left your mouth.

"fuck, yes, xavier!" you ground against his mouth as he worked you down from your high. "holy shit," your chest was heaving as he kissed his way back up your body.

he hovered over you as he sucked on the same two fingers that were just inside you, groaning, "did i tell you how amazing you taste?"

"will you fuck me now?" you reached down between the two of you to palm him through his sweatpants. "i really, really want you."

"i don't want you to just want to do this because you want to get it over with," you could sense the sincerity in his tone. "i want this to be more than just a hookup."

"it's not, xavier," you cupped his face with one hand. "i assure you, it's not," you smiled as he pressed your foreheads together. "you mean so much more to me than just one amazing night, xay."

"are you sure you want to do this?"

"yes."

"wait, i don't have anything..." xavier hinted with a worried look on his face.

"well, i'm obviously clean, and i've been on the pill since the eighth grade," you shrugged. "if you want..."

"really?" his eyes widened at the thought, you nodded. "i've never... shit. this'll be a new experience for the both of us."

after a bit of shuffling, xavier lined himself up at your entrance, looking at you one more time for confirmation. as he entered you, it was like the wind was knocked out of you. your arms wrapped around his neck as he continued to push himself into you. at a certain point, you thought it was never-ending.

"god, you're so tight," he breathed into your neck, pressing a kiss to one of your hickeys as he continued.

your head was thrown back as he finally bottomed out in you, one of your arms wrapped around his waist while the other was around his neck with your hand buried in his hair.

"so deep," you closed your eyes at the sensation. "'s like you're in my stomach, holy fuck."

he pressed down on that same spot he had earlier, very gentle, but you felt it so, so much. "is that where?" you nodded fervently.

"please move, xay, please," your hand was practically clawing at his back.

"i'm gonna go slow, okay?" you nodded at his words. "if you change your mind about anything at all, say the word and i'll stop, alright?"

"okay," you agreed with a smile as he slowly pulled back out before reentering at the exact same pace.

with each thrust, his pace increased. your moans' volume increased too. it was as if each whimper, moan, and plea was simply egging him on and bringing him to the end of that wonderful precipice of pleasure.

"you look fucking perfect," his own groans and huffs of pleasure rang out. "such pretty tits," he messily grabbed one of them. when he brought his hand down to play with your clit, you knew you weren't going to last much longer. "and such a pretty pussy for me. all mine, y/n/n. all mine."

"god, it's-i'm..." you were cut off by a guttural moan. "i need to cum. i'm gonna cum! xavier, please don't stop! please!"

"where do you want it?"

"inside, please!" you huffed out, clawing at his back as you whimpered in his ear. "need it so bad."

"say you're mine," he ordered. you could feel his dick pulsing inside of you.

"i'm-oh god," you cried out once more, tears forming at your lash line. "i'm yours! i've always been yours, xay, please! fuck!" for the second time, xavier was able to bring you off that cliff, this time he followed suit.

"so fucking pretty when you cum," xavier added before with a few more thrusts, his thick cum coated your walls. "oh fuck."

"oh my god," you sighed out as xavier slumped against your body, laying completely on top of you.

"you got that right," you could feel his smile against your shoulder before he began to press kisses against your warm skin. "here," he reluctantly got up from his position after carefully pulling out of you, tucking himself back into his sweats, and reached for one of his recently cleaned towels (he had a rotation for them, alright?). he began to wipe up your thighs, being very gentle at your center.

"xavier?" you called before he laid back down.

"yea?" he looked at your worriedly before you smiled, simply asking: "can i wear your shirt to sleep?"

a bright smile made its way to his face, "of course, yea," he helped you poke your arms and head through the shirt before he stepped back, admiring you in it. "i almost like this on you more than nothing on you. almost."

"xavier!" you called before shoving him to the side. "you perv."

"you like this 'perv,' as you call it," he rolled his eyes as he began to cuddle with you on the mattress.

"i wanna lay on you," you tried to get onto your knees to maneuver your way on top before he had to catch your arm.

"let me help you a bit," he tried to hide his smug smile while he rolled the two of you over.

"i'm never gonna live this down," you shook your head as he raked his fingers through your hair.

"nope," you laid in the most comfortable silence for a few minutes before he spoke again: "y/n?"

"mhmm?"

"i might've lied earlier when i said that i told ajax and enid that i liked you," you could sense a bit of restriction in his tone.

"what do you mean?" you held your breath.

"i told them the truth," he pressed a kiss to your forehead, getting your attention so you were looking in his eyes. "that i'm in love with you."

#xavier thorpe fic #xavier thorpe #xavier thorpe x reader #xavier thorpe fluff #xavier thorpe smut #xavier thorpe imagine #xavier thorpe angst #xavier thorpe oneshot #xavier thorpe blurb #xavier thorpe wednesday #wednesday netflix

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jackals-ships · 1 year

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2, 3, 8, 11, 14, 29, 34, 37, 38, 41. tell me about your ldb i Want to Know

[skywim ask game]

LDB JACKAL MY BELOVED,,,, having the time of their life being gay in-between running away from many things while screaming <3

under a cut both bc platonically blows u a kiss for the questions and bc i RAMBLE…..many thinks. head full of Skyrim

2: Do they worship any deities, be it aedra or daedra?

worship hircine, got scruffed by him bodily and shoved into his pocket, same thing :}

hircine is the only one they Officially worship (ie leave him offerings + pray to him + occasionally throw rocks at his window asking for boons bc they are His MOST Special Little Guy Come On They Deserve It!!!) but the rest of the daedra have a kind of? working agreement with them? jackal is more used to worshiping gods that don't have. Such A Presence so they take extra steps to be polite half from awe half from Fear™

i could write a ten page tangent tho on their vibes wrt the aedra and Especially akatosh and kyne i have SO many opinions-

3: What factions are they a part of?

okay so this one ive actually been on and off biting at,,,

officially they're with the companions (they rolled up with lucien and inigo, having been blessed/cursed by hircine himself like a few months ago, and everyone went "....oh. new child??? new child.") and thieves guild (kinda a similar thing, area doggy looks SO pathetic brynjolf had to take pity on them otherwise he's pretty sure they would just. fall into the water and die??)

but they also did. yknow murder grelod a little. like not even as part of the quest just as a I Went Out Of My Way Because FUCK This Lady!!! so i'm undecided yet if they're officially part of the brotherhood or if they just. awkwardly hang around. have that connection. roll back up a year later like SO DRAGONS HUH

same with the volkihar vampires i had a whole thing in my head of Plot but i can't quite seem to finagle it into the plot points and >:0! (it's also why jackal is both doggy AND vampire. i have LORE i just can't dot the dots) (altho i do think it would be funny having them vanish for a year or so bc of the alduin thing, and roll back up to them as well like "where the FUCK have you been you were supposed to be finding the elder scroll" "........so. dragons-")

also the dragon cult this is so important + where most of their story is todd had to not make them part of the official game or id be too powerful-

8: What is their combat style?

crying and looking pathetic <3

no but rlly while that is their tactic for the first….like several months (when they got isekaid into Skyrim they had 0 muscle mass and it's a miracle they've lived this long) eventually they settle on a combination of destruction magic+short swords, it's easier to stab someone if they're more focused on the fact part of them is frozen and or on fire

also using their werewolf form. tho that's usually less on purpose more when a fight is going Bad and they freak out

11: From a story standpoint, what is the general opinion of your character amongst the people of Skyrim?

the ppl of Skyrim, slapping the top of their head: this little guy can fit SO many weird words in em (jackal stop trying to explain to the people what a "meme" is. jackal no-)

NO BUT…..i love the idea that. jackal honestly isn't that recognizable as The Dragonborn™™ at least up until the whole alduin thing

so their idea of jackal as Dragonborn is this grand hero..so brave…mysterious little guy…kills some dragons tho so nice there, doesn't seem to get involved in politics which good for them it's kinda a mess

but jackal as a Person is just! little guy energy! recognizable as "that skittish Breton/Nord (??) who's pretty polite, doesn't talk a lot, but helps out the local farmers a bunch, plays with the kids, seems generally chill? so we let em be. also they bit ulfric once SO. good for them."

14: What's their morality like?

yes <3

ough but no jackal is sooo. gnaws on them like a chewtoy. morally grey is probably the best label that fits? they're able to rationalize a LOT of what they do, at least to themself as a coping mechanism but also some of their actions are Objectively Not Great! (murdering grelod, stealing from ppl, the whole eating people while in dog mode, making out with an immortal dragon god who kinda wants to rule Skyrim. y'know)

this is also compounded by the dragon souls thing because of hc's i have for them, especially after mirmulnir initially. they got a bit of internal "im a Dragon, morals don't apply because im built Better <3" going on they have to shove down hard (esp when alduin enters the scene and goes 👀? oh??? i could make them WORSE??)

29: What do they think of Skyrim politics? (Jarls, Thanes, empire, high kings, etc)

jackal voice wow! i respect literally none of you guys! :D

no but rlly it's SO. gnawing on them again. since jackal is my little me that got isekaid they came into Skyrim with so, so many opinions. but interacting with everyone got all of what they knew/thought they knew smashed onto rocks, where they get it they know politics and decisions are Hard but

they were given like. a Lot of reasons to eventually do a heel turn and slap Skyrim onto a silver platter to shove into alduin like "no im done. fuckin take it before I change my mind and realize you're the worse option here" :0!

34: What is their most preferred weapon type? (Ex: Glass dagger, dwarven bow, etc)

KHOPESH KHOPESH !! i don't know. which mod it's from. but i got it in game and i like it and jackal uses it frequently

they're also a fan of crossbows :} not very good at them tho bc their depth perception is shit rip

37: Did you make this character with a certain love interest in mind?

funny fact no actually?? jackal came about iirc when i was dragging myself back into Skyrim after an annual Depression Slump™ and while i think id tossed about the idea of getting together with Farkas (my first husband when Skyrim came out hfj) i don't think it was Officially Planned

38: Is there a certain mod that is very important to this character's playthrough?

all of them……

okay but rlly i have a bunch that add on little bits that are pleasing to Me For Lore (ie adding on more werewolves + werewolf disease, making animals NOT immediately hostile, cloaks + bags etc etc)

but in actuality i am holding both Lucien and Inigo over my head i don't entirely have ALL the dots dotted but they are my FRIENDS…..my lil guys :}

41: Do they wear war paint and if so, is it significant to them in any particular way?

pop cat noises bc yes but also no? at least not any of the base game ones

but i Have tossed around the idea unofficially in my head that the dragon priests wore specific paints when out of their masks? an jackal would wear one of their designs

at least in the time period of "sort of alduins unofficial/quasi official priest and link to the rest of Skyrim" that happens before they're on equal level/technically not equal and jackals kinda dragging around the world eater on a leash while he goes

and then sometimes after bc alduin likes it but he won't say it gay ass-

#jackals barks #tai tag #long post #ask games #comes back into awareness with skyrim thoughts lets gooooo-#anyways theyre my special little guy who is allowed to do a couple crimes just for funsies #whos story details are subject to change only in so far as whatever is sexiest/funniest at the time :}#and or what makes my friends threaten me fastest <3

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randomositycat · 3 months

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Artist/animator brain telling me to pick apart each episode for subtle differences in comparison to the show as a whole

What seems like it could be on model and what feels like it was pushing boundaries to developing a semi-new style for the anime

Rant under cut bc hi I do this a lot in my head,, and I could go through each episode and pick them apart but I've got e 17 on the brain so we'll stick with that for now and maybe I'll check out the older ones later

I only bring it up now bc,, well I didn't want to before

In e 17 (since it's the one freshest in my brain) the art differences I notice are purely in the chibi style, and minorly in the closer shots of characters

This shot specifically feels like it belongs to a different show! But still suuper super cute all the same!

And we go back to something more fitting with the other similar style shots from previous episodes! Not to say that it's all and all the same style every time, but again the differences are subtle and you have to look very closely to even say "huh, that's a bit different!"

I also noticed that usually they don't skip out of drawing fingernails? which sure most animes dont but it feels different here? If that makes sense,,

They really upped their detail game compared to other episodes! all the little things that pain me to even think about doing as an animator! The work put into some of these shots is super impressive! They even shaded the fake mole?? Come on!! The idea of doing what they've down with these shots makes me tired,, kudos to the artists for having the nerve

The fingernails stand out the most to me bc there is so much detail in them!

From the cuticle to the beautiful lighting and shading when she was applying make up to his face (I don't have a gift sorryyy 😣)

And we already know the eyes are beautiful, but my favorite attention to detail is Jinshi's eyes. Maomao never fails to comment on his beauty, and artistically it shows as much, emphasizing it to no end really, but he's so subtly feminine that I find myself studying his eyes quite a bit! His long eyelashes really draw you in...

You can see they dulled it down a little, for his Jinka disguise, but even then he's got such gentle eyes that could easily be mistaken for a woman's if he were to hide his face :) (looking at you Hunting arc, missed a chance! I'll tell you!)

Maomao's expressions in this episode really take the cake too LOL

There's no shortage of good maomao faces, especially not here >:)

As each new episode releases I'm just soooo enamored with how steady the improvement is! Artists finding their rhythm with the characters and sprinkling little things here and there that can go unnoticed but definitely enhance a shot! It's amazing!

And it brings me to talk about e4 which yes I agree is gorgeous animated, but im someone who prefers consistency rather than quality in my animated shows

(quality is good yes but to go from very fluid to standard fluid is jarring to say in the least)

I adore the fluidity in e4, obsessed with it. I was under the impression that an entirely different director + team was in charge (I wasn't wrong abt the director)

My favorite bits have to be the expressions,

And how each movement feels less like a show and more like a movie, like we got a spontaneous budget increase for this episode alone!

Lip syncing too, REALLY on point! I love angry Maomao and I'm a sucker for lip syncing any time!! When she was scolding Lihua's lady in waiting, the animators really hit every keyframe on the nose! (generally makes e4 dub a bit of a hassle for me to watch) I rewatch the sequence again and again because of how well done it is :) a spectacular moment indeed

Another episode with really fluid moments is episode 10, I think 🤔 when she confronts Lady Lishu about Fengming. The entire scene is wonderfully done, with Lishu's expressions and her ladies-in-waiting being excited to talk to Jinshi :) all things I gladly pay attention to

All in all the show has a gorgeous art direction 😊 I hope they continue to enhance it little by little with subtle things like everything i mentioned above

Makes an artist's heart flutter thinking about the dedication and care put into its production

#im just talking about art styles #and the visuals in knh #cant help myself #animation makes neuron activate #its a ramble really #coherency is not my specialty!!

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Pokémon annon here

Honestly I would love to hear your thoughts about the game since I don’t know anyone who likes Pokémon.

I feel like they’ve really stepped up since sword and shield with games like arcues and (hopefully) scarlet and violet.However sometimes I feel like certain Pokémon don’t feel like Pokémon anymore if get what im saying lol.

Also the characters designs are soo freaking good like they all so beautiful?! Like the colors schemes and vibes are great.however this is probs just me but I kinda don’t like how young we look.it just highlights the fact grown arse adults leave the Fate of the world in a 11 years old which I’m not a fan of lol.

Also I LOVE how the game story seems to be a break of the same stuff from previous games.

Getting badges oh no a team with a world ending goal bamm lost to kid now I’m the champion.

I love would to hear any other thoughts you have feel free to spam the world with your Pokémon love.

man I really getcha,, for most of my life, I didn't have anyone else willing to listen to me talk about the series I love, so it's always exciting to have someone who's interested lmao

but yeah!! they've definitely taken a lot of steps away from the traditional games, so it's definitely an adjustment. stuff like terrastalizing? doesn't quite feel like what I'd expect out of Pokémon either. I really do think Mega Evolution was suuuper cool, and I doubt that any of the new gimmicks will ever top that, although I don't dislike z-moves or dynamaxing.

I'm also not sure how I feel about a completely open world? I know it's something a lot of people have been waiting for, but I don't play many open-world games bc I do like some linearity or I tend to get overwhelmed. I'm definitely super interested in the three stories though!! being able to challenge gyms in any order sounds awesome, especially since other media has let its characters do that. I know Ash typically follows the game gym orders, but some of the other characters he meets DON'T do that, and was it. Origins? has Brock mentioning that gym leaders choose their teams based on their challenger,, I'm really interested in that whole thing lmao.

and the fact that the gyms and the evil team are separate storylines?? I'm pretty excited about that, bc maybe we'll get a much stronger evil team story this time around, since they get their own focus path. I loved Team Skull bc they're cute and goofy, and the Aether Foundation using them was definitely cool for the story. I think that was all done well, especially after the messy pacing of XY. but then Team Yell,,,, disappointed me, ngl. these games don't seem like they'll have someone as evil as Ghetsis, but I'd love more focus on the evil team, it's been too long dfghgfd

but also I totally agree with you on the main characters explicitly being kids yet again. I assume we all do that thing where we write our journeys in our heads, right? at this point, my trainersona is a young adult who's been traveling for years— I'd prefer a story where the main characters are a bit more vague age-wise, like the XY protags. bc I really don't wanna do a lot of mental rewriting just to make room for my personal main character lmao

BUT ANYWAYS I'M RAMBLING DFGHJKJHGFD

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you watch the punisher 👀 because if you do platonic!yandere frank castle is a really good idea

if you don't its fine you can ignore this ask :)

I'm still in the first season but it's a start... lets go... also headcannons bc I haven't done them in a while... if a fic is needed, the requests are somehow still open o(￣┰￣*)ゞ

platonic frank castle headcannons

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warnings: kidnapping, stalking, at the end frank tried to basically tell you that your life was a lie, bar/alcohol mention, lmk if I missed any!

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Frank probably found you while wandering around. whether because he was trying to find a lead, or just walking to think, it doesn't matter.

it's not even a big meeting, you just walked by him and he just stopped and stared. you obviously didn't notice, too busy thinking- about what?- and continued on to wherever you were heading.

he didn't stop staring until you had left, but it didn't leave his mind. you didn't leave his mind.

At first, he thought it was because you reminded him of something, his family, an old friend, he couldn't tell. so he mostly ignored it. but it kept coming back to him, and he was almost annoyed on how nagging it was in his mind. you were such a distraction to him, a burden almost, and yet you were something he wanted to find.

and so, almost like a side mission, he started to also patrol for you. he didn't outright try to look for you, as he almost knew that wouldn't help his curiosity, but it was something to help ease his mind.

of course he either a) found you and his almost obsession like curiosity turned sicko mode quick, or b) he couldn't find you and ended up just going to find you himself.

he started watching you whenever he had spare time. he kept notes on how you behaved, who you were, what you liked, what you disliked. it was almost a game for him: each time he would spy on you, he would bet himself on how many new things he could learn about you.

soon enough, he no longer felt guilt or an aberration to his schedule for these feelings. he did take a step back to try and figure out why. however, those few days of thinking made him...bored, almost. he wasn't finding out new things about you. he wasn't looking for you everywhere. he wasn't watching you.

so he started to watch you again. and it almost became a problem, had it not been for his obsession hitting its limit of no contact.

he started making himself known by appearing randomly, only for a second, before disappearing again. it was almost normal for you now: to see a man out of the corner of your eye for a split moment, but when you turn to look, there's nothing there.

You almost feel stupid for a while: have you been staying up too late? is it your work load? or is there actually someone following you?

you start second guessing yourself, especially when other people seem to not find what you're talking about.

but oh boy, were you in for a ride.

I think frank would definitely kidnap you after a point, but he would also do so earlier than expected, if he feels like your getting away from him, bring in someone who actually knows him (daredevil would be one where he would just up and take you), or you are, god forbid, doing adult things.

and by adult things, you could go to a bar and he would be the most paranoid fuck there. he knows what people can do, and you're young, you don't know whats good for you!

when he does kidnap you, I think he would try and come up with a safe house for you. like anywhere where he thinks no one could get you.

but that's also if he decided that beforehand, and not when he was in a paranoid bout of his.

if he did kidnap you in a paranoid bout, he would just keep you in his bedroom, whether that be just his whole house, or if he decides to actually get a house.

by either standards, it’s gonna be tough.

with the pre-planned kidnappings, he's just gonna be awkward for the first few weeks. he'll sometimes just stare into the room with food for a few seconds, walk up, give it to you, and then leave.

with the sudden kidnappings, he does the same thing, but he will take the L and sleep on the floor with a blanket and a pillow so you can be comfortable. or a couch, if he has one at that moment.

he's also very paranoid about you leaving either way, so he definitely installs cameras into your area of the place. or, any area where you're able to access.

another thing he would definitely do is hide his weapons. all of them. he is, again, a paranoid man and is worried you'll use them to escape and leave him.

does not get into the father stuff until months after. from his own kids' experience or just awkwardness, he just flops everytime he tries, and your screaming/crying/curing at him is not helping him.

when he does open up, though, it's almost refreshing. for the past few months, its just been this huge fucking dude who gives you food, lets you live in his house, and lets you have (semi) privacy, which was all against your will, and you were wondering what he was planning on doing to you. horrible scenarios would go through your mind every day, wondering if he was just trying to gain your trust. maybe to break it once his stupid game was over?

accepting the fact that you're never going to leave was a hard pill to swallow, but it went down either way. even if you did, frank would know. oh boy, would he know.

and he wouldn't be pleased. he knows exactly who you are, what you would do, as those notes from beforehand? they come in handy when trying to find his darling, as they run. to where? will it be their old home? their fake, fraudulent family? their friends?

did you even have any? actually, he'll also try to make it so that you believe everything in your old life is dead, or never existed. brenda was never your friend, she wanted to use you. your parents never existed, I am your father, are you ok.

that last one would be a last resort, but still.

frank wouldn't realize how bad his obsession was until the last minute, or until the last minute. and even then, he couldn't deny himself of just this: he knows what's best for you, right? even if you couldn't see it, he would show you.

#yandere frank castle #yandere frank castle imagine #yandere frank castle x reader #yandere punisher #yandere punisher imagine #yandere punisher x reader #yandere marvel #yandere marvel imagine #yandere marvel x reader

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hello, i'm back to ask for a grishaverse and lotr matchup if that's alright!! i got curious 👀

i don't wanna reveal too much abt my looks but ig my notable feature is i'm short. even my hands and feet are tiny 🥲 some also say i have a resting b*tch face that makes me seem unapproachable and serious at first but depending on how close we are, i'm actually either the one making the jokes or the one laughing at the jokes. around new ppl, i can be shy but i sorta just try to blend in and mirror their personalities. on a good day, i'm passionate, amiable, creative, and altruistic. on a bad day, i'm distant, stubborn, quick-tempered, and self-deprecating.

my hobbies are writing and playing video games. i'm pretty much interested in any form of art bcs of my passion for people and psychology, especially the stories every person has to tell. my love language is quality time; i'm the type to want to do even the mundane daily things together in the same space with my loved ones. i'm bisexual with a slight preference for men i think. if i have ideal types, they're probably the "golden retriever himbo" types ngl 🤣 but also ppl who fight for justice, freedom, authenticity, and just a better world in general, both for themselves and others.

that's it!! i'm excited hahsjdjds but just take your time with this, thank you so much again and have a good day 💖

Not me reading Riordanverse instead of Grishaverse and writing a whole ass thing about Jason, whoops😗✌️

low key couldn’t decide for a grishaverse ship because I went from Jesper to Wylan to Nikolai to Wylan to Jesper to Nikolai etc. Something told me to pick Jesper, so here you go

Grishaverse, Jesper Fahey:

- This man might not be that observant, but the minute something is wrong with you; he knows. It is as if some switch flips and a lightbulb starts to light in his head. Whenever you’re having a bad day, he’s trying his best to cheer you up. But Jesper is very much a sunshine person, so often he’ll step on your toes unconsciously. It is all in good nature of course, but he can get caught up in cheering others up.

- You write???? This man will do anything to get his hands on your writings, whether you want it or not. He’s so interested in what goes on in that brain of yours and he simply loves to see what you write down, regardless on your works being published or not. He won’t show it to others, surprisingly. He respects your work an privacy and though he violates it, he won’t let anyone else do so. He’s very protective of it. It’s something special to him.

- Jesper would never make jokes about Inej’ height because he’s scared she’ll do something, no matter how close friends they are, but with you….won’t shut up. All kinds of stupid nicknames etc. What did you expect from him?

- He has the best laughs with you. The two of you have your special kind of humor, filled with inside jokes and everything. During heists, he’s always mentioning them, distracting the both of you, much to the annoyance of Kaz. He learned to live with it eventually. It became inevitable when Nina joined in as well. Both of them will do anything just to laugh together. All of your laughs are simply so contagious, and you love sharing it with each other. Jesper cries very quickly when he laughs, with only makes the situation funnier.

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Lord of the Rings, Peregrin Took:

- Golden Retriever Himbo you said? Who else could it be but Pippin (or Merry)? He is the literal personification of a himbo. It doesn’t get better than this. He is absolutely clueless at points, even as he is relatively clever for his being. He just tends to get confused often, but in adorable ways. You could tell him a story and he’d be like “yes, no I completely agree.”, where you answer with; “but Pip, it’s not good.”, and the poor guy will just sit there with wide eyes, having no idea what just happened.

- Canonically, he and Merry are the tallest hobbits, thanks to the water they drank in Fangorn. Would you be a hobbit, in the Tolkien universe, he won’t ever let you forget it. Not necessarily because you are shorter, but because he is taller. He loves to boast about it. He also really likes hiding things up high, just so you can ask him to get them. You know he hides them just so he can do it, but you act oblivious to it, just to see his smile when you mention your book has landed above the chandelier again.

- First day he met you, he cracked that resting bitch face right off. He already seemed entranced by you, marched up in confidence and tripped over his own feet. Tough to not laugh at that. Even though you can’t really help it, he’ll nudge your side occasionally when you are out, silently letting you know you are resting your face again. Not because he doesn’t like it, but because other hobbits tend to get intimated by it. And Pippin loves to show you off. And that can only be done when you are laughing with (or at) him.

#1000 followers celebration!#matchup requests closed!#tolkien #lord of the rings #LOTR #pippin took x reader #peregrin took #pippin x reader #grishaverse #soc #six of crows #shadow and bone #jesper fahey #jesper fahey x reader

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I’d love to hear your thoughts on the malex scene if you don’t mind! I am completely obsessed with it and I have this thing where I love to read people and blog’s I respect opinions on stuff and sometimes I see different moments through a different lense and realize something I didn’t pick up on before. Did you have a favorite moment or facial expression or anything like that??

"Obsessed" is putting it mildly, IT'S SO GOOD!!!

Okay, lemme see. [this got LONG, sorry]

So, Michael is convinced that he's the one who's going to be killed, and since he's learned that he's likely the offspring of a "genocidal maniac", he's probably convinced himself that he actually deserves to die, bc his life's been a shit show most of the time anyway, and better get rid of him before he can hurt anyone, right? But since he's Michael, he has to make it a joke, and pretend like it doesn't actually bother him all that much. COWBOY SWAGGER

And instead of being devastated about the news, or confirming that yes, Michael is indeed an awful person and deserves to be murdered, Alex laughs!

He knows Michael so well, and he's like "dude, you're not even trying, that's not the Michael Guerin I know."

Oh, but two can play that game, right? "Well, you always did see the violence in me, didn't you," Michael throws at Alex. And while, yes, Alex struggled with Michael getting in fights all the time after the shed incident, I don't believe for a second that he ever thought of Michael as a violent person.

So, Alex is like "WTF are you talking about???"

Ohhhh, now Michael's firing (ha!) on all cylinders, he's serving Alex a double-whammy:

"I could never do the right thing" (i.e. 1x03 "Guess you're still the guy just looking for any excuse to walk away, huh?")

"Turns out neither could my father." THE DADDY CARD! Bc if anyone would know about having a shitty dad, it would be Alex.

Alex is mildly irritated about how Michael would know about his father, but Michael won't go into how he found out, all it matters is that Alex gets it. Fast. "He was a killer. Genocidal maniac, actually." That should do the trick of shocking Alex, right? It should make him stop being amused and so fucking nonchalant about Michael's struggles.

And what does Alex do? He laughs. Again! How does he not take Michael seriously? How dare he? Michael's so full of rage, and he wants to fight now, but Alex doesn't do what he's supposed to do, and Michael doesn't know how to handle it.

Alex sees right through Michael. And he's clapping back.

"Wow, you must've loved that." Hitting the bullseye with that one.

"You've been looking for proof that you were worthless your whole life." BAM, this one's also spot-on!

But Michael still has a lot of fight left in him. Self-deprecation FTW! "What can I say? I had a hunch."

Michael "I'VE BEEN TERRIBLE ALL ALONG" Guerin

Surely, now Alex has to understand what Michael's telling him, and show some goddamn compassion, or leave (which would give Michael the ultimate excuse to explode and be even more mad).

Alex is just setting up the ultimate trap tho. "Look, if you're your father, then I'm mine. Which means I have a lot of torturing to do before the end of the night, so excuse me."

Even a genius like Michael will get the ~logic of this argument.

And Michael's like

"It's not, it's not the same," Michael says, because, HELL NO, of course, Alex is NOT his father.

"No, it is. I hate to break it to you, Guerin, but there's not some special set of rules that applies just to you. You decide who you are. If you give up, it is on you." Alex beats Michael with logic (and also tells him to stop with the self-loathing and self-pity), and damn if that isn't the most beautiful thing.

🤯 << Michael's brain after this. All the anger that had been fueling him mere moments ago, seems to have left his body in that moment.

He looks at Alex, who's getting into his car to drive off while mulling over what Alex just said. He turns around to leave and...

Alex tells him to wait, and Michael's curls are getting whiplash from how fast Michael turns back around to Alex. He's ready and willing to let Alex continue with hammering home some truths to him.

A "Wait. In Maria's vision, I say that I am covering up a murder, right?" M "Yeah." A "It's not you." M "You can't know that."

Uhm, hello, have you met Alex Manes? He wouldn't say that it's not Michael if he wasn't sure of it. But Michael's certain that there's no way it isn't him, so really, what proof could Alex possibly have?

"Yes, I can. If it were you, I would not cover it up."

The face of a man who can't believe what Alex just said, trying to swallow around a huge lump in his throat. 🥺

And then.

AND THEN

"I would burn the entire world down first."

🥺😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺😭🥺😭

HE'S CRYING OMGGGGGG 😭😭😭😭 (Damn you, Vlamis for acting with your face like that 😭😭😭)

That's as close to Alex saying I LOVE YOU (present tense) as they've ever come [on screen], and Michael knows it. And fuck, if that doesn't hit him deep down, to the very core of him. (It's also a signal that there's probably still hope for them, and maybe, just maybe their time has finally come)

And the other thing is: Alex just made a point in telling him that A/ children are NOT their parents (unless they want to), and B/ there's actually a good chance that it's really not Michael getting murdered.

So, yeah. I want a gravestone that can play videos, and I want it to play this scene on repeat for all of eternity. Please and thank you!

#malex #rnm 3x03 #rnm spoilers #nonnie asks

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how hot - duke of york, perseus, surtr, and pramanix? ty for the food though, its so hard finding even semi-sfw azur lane pics, you truly do us all a service - azurlaneimagines

Mmm Mmm yes comf ship ladies are the best :3 Duke of York Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD MERCY Powerful vampire lady with the firepower and drive to obliterate anything you put in front of her? *Chefs Kiss* i haven't 120'd her yet but i do appreciate how her voice lines change after oath. While not one of my top KGV ships def one of my favorites. just don't tell her i also oathed Howe

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Finished bofuri today, I feel like it’s just optimal storytelling to just let the animation team just dick around and then write a story based off of that, as that is the only way I can rationalize what transpired

The sheer amount of fun everyone is having from the author to the animators is just palpable and I am 100000% here for it

Like I know New Game’s author wrote NG to fall in love with game design again (iirc) so I would LOVE to learn why Bofuri’s author decides to make it bc everything is just an absolute joy to experience

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Destiel Chronicles

Vol. CXI

It was a love story from the very beginning.

My Dearest Friend

(14x04)

Hi again! I'm bringing another meta to this collection, this time I will only talk about 14x04 because it was full of subtext we need to disect slowly.

Link to my metas from this episode X; X; X; X.

What if...?

This episode was written by Perez. This writer is always exploring the possibility of Dean coming out from the closet.

The dumb excuse given by Sam about why he hates Halloween, is a symbolic description of Dean's inner fears. Pay attention to it:

SAM: When I was in sixth grade we were living in Bismarck and I had a huge crush on her.

DEAN: Aw, that’s adorable. Continue.

SAM: So, she invited me to her Halloween party. I said yes and I went over and at first everything was great, um, and then we started to play games.

DEAN: Spin the bottle.

SAM: Bobbing for apples. Like I said, I had a crush so the entire night my stomach was in knots and when it was my turn I bent down and… (...) …hurled, everywhere. Lunch, dinner it all came up, on Andrea mostly. People ran and screamed and it was so bad.

DEAN: Ah that’s great.

SAM: I ended up hiding out in the woods till you finally came and got me.

"If Dean would confess all that makes him sick inside, all the trauma, all his fears (and I'm gonna include here the "getting out the closet" bc it seems like Perez begins to explore this item in this chapter) if Dean would do that, barfing everything out, how would people react? How Sam would react? Would be disgusting? Scandalous? If he confess his fears, if he confess he is in love of Cas, an angel in a man vessel, would Sam be ok with that?"

I wrote all of this about that symbolism, and this is also connected to some episode at the second half of the season 15 in which we will see Dean gagging and characters vomiting. I remember back then I was sure it had to do with Dean confessing his feelings to Castiel. I must say it was related to Dean trying to do it but writers and CW silencing him.

After that we had Dean naming queer couples to his brother Sam, this scene had the same target that Sam's excuse about Halloween. Dean was tasting waters with his brother if he would decide to come out from the closet.

Gif credit @itsokaysammy

Now, let's explore why Dean was missing his angel in this episode.

So Handsome, So Angry

This entire episode was a reflection of Dean's mind and it brought an important foreshadow: SAM AND CAS GETTING INSIDE DEAN'S HEAD HELPING HIM TO RELASE HIMSELF FROM AU! MICHAEL.

That's why the whole episode was color coded and full of symbolism.

If you don't know about my color coded meta, please check at the beginning of this analysis, where I put all the links. Blue represents Castiel, Green and Red represents Dean (healing!Dean and toxic!Dean) and yellow is Sam. The colors had their meaning, like blue is related to protection and wisdom, green is new life and red anger, yellow is knowledge and insightful mind.

Now, let's check Stewart first apparition in the episode. He has a Panthro in his hands...

STUART: Whoa, 15 inch megascale Panthro. So handsome, so angry.

This is screaming CASTIEL. Foreshadowing their break up and how angry will be Castiel with Dean.

Because we are inside Dean's mind, we have STEWART (Toxic!Dean) DIRK (Healing!Dean) and Sam is Sam, Dean's reason.

Now... Keep in mind Pantro sending Stewart to the hospital (a fight between Toxic!Dean and Castiel coming up) and also this entire scene at the beginning of the episode...

Dean had been in his room for two weeks, Sam goes to see him, worried. Dean is depressed after the Possession, but he will name a couple of things that are bothering him...

DEAN: Well, since when is okay part of this job, huh? Yeah, Cas is you know, showing Jack the ropes and Dark Kaia and her spear are in the wind and we have no clue where Michael is or what he’s up to. And not that I’m complaining, but the house is full of strangers, so.

These insights are from my metas. As I put above, Mint Condition had a lot of what I like to call Indirect Castiel representation.

Mostly because Dean mentioned him at the beginning letting us know he is horribly missing his angel.

So, the whole episode will bi him Castiel as memories.

Including the colors. When Dirk is talking about Stuart, how they eat pizza and watch movies and how special their friendship is, Dean has this fond expression on his face and the whole scene is showered in blue color.

Guess in who's Dean thinking about?

Inside of Dean's mind

Always based on the colors, is very important to understand all the monsters that will appear throughout the season are representing Dean's toxicity and AUMichael (which is the symbolic icon of Dean's fears and toxicity).

Remember episode 13x05 in which i pointed at a picture in the kid's room (Advanced Thanatology) well, that pic was foreshadowing this season, and mostly, this monster:

Of course is in red because red is Dean's toxic behavior.

We also had Stuart dressed with a red t-shirt with a Godzilla Squirrel. Because is Toxic Dean, who sees himself as a monster.

Also, the morgue scene...

We can see in the first picture, the fear in Dirk when this "world" starts to tremble, at the inevitable arriving from the "monster". This is Dean's mind, he has so much fear of his own thoughts, guilty and negative feelings, and he doesn't feel secure in his own raped mind.

The second one is more about it... We see corpses, representing two things: beloveds who died, trauma (I'm including the resent Castiel's death) and the second is all the death he thinks he provoked when he was possessed by Michael.

Then we have color yellow, representing wisdom , honesty and Sam too. Then the horror... The "monster" is still in there. He must to win this battle.

All of this represents Dean's emotional prison, his inner fight to break free from AUMichael, and we will see it in 14x10.

So the war Dean fights inside of him is between his inner fears and toxicity. Also, Sam and Sam, Dean's reason, will be locked by the monster. (The fears caging Dean's ability to think) but they will be break free successfully thanks to a mix of colored liquids (yellow, green, red an blue) TFW working together to help Dean to release himself. And also using this...

Scooby Doo box is representing Dean's innocence, healing!Dean.

Miscellaneous: A very colorful visual elements was the figures of Superman and Lois Lane in the background in the comic store protected by a glass. When the monster arrived the glass began to freeze. This was a foreshadow of the Destiel fight and break up.

To Conclude:

This episode had a lot of elements that talked about Castiel, because it was a symbolic representation of Dean's mind. And Castiel is centric in Dean's life.

Also, this episode it's connected to 14x10 and Dean's emotional prison.

Hope you liked this meta, see you in the next one.

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