#bc yk I'm scared

[sonicblooms]

c(o)unt(r)y chicken

#we're not so back yet.. but we will be x #just waiting for my arm to feel a lil better but it's taking Forever and Ever #i'm also scared to play the maiavas bc of for rent being buggy asf #idk i think i might just delete it for now? to be on the safe side yk #simblr

[collieii]

idk if this is controversial but i don't think vash is ashamed of his scars. i think vash is mainly concerned abt the picture he presents to the world and other peoples well-being/feelings. so the reason he doesn't like others seeing his scars is because he think it will make them uncomfortable, and it also sort of undermines the image he wants to project of someone who's very sillygoofy/carefree etc. similarly, i don't think vash is ashamed or insecure about being a plant/having those inhuman features, more he's concerned with how other people react to them. (the plant stuff esp makes sense to hide given how people literally stoned him lmao)

but yeah i don't think he's filled with self loathing over the scars and being nonhuman. i feel like vash's self image is fine, he just prioritizes how others feel and reacts based on that. his whole philosophy of covering up how he feels inside (that smile is fake!) is based on this principle, it doesn't matter if he's depressed as hell as long as he can pretend it's ok, because external presentation and how you affect the world is what really matters to him.

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #thinking more of trimax than stampede vash but i think this applies to both? #anyways i've been reading a lot of trigun fic if you couldn't tell #the plant/wings stuff is addressed p well thru meryl in trimax #where it makes sense that ppls immediate reaction to seeing them is fear #(seen in ch 38) #but ofc anyone who knows vash would know he'd never intentionally use his powers to hurt ppl #even if they are terrifying and it's reasonable to be scared #meryl is scared of vash kinda instinctively but she pushes thru it bc he's her friend yk #and there's a whole line where someone just points that out directly i can't remember which chap but yk what im saying #oh when i say his self image is fine i am not referring to the guilt of causing insane tragedies that different #i just mean he's not insecure i feel like it might look like there's overlap w what i'm saying but it's different it's different #only saying this bc i've seen other ppl make him more insecure abt it which is fine but i wanted to add my 2 cents #trigun meta #.lieii #.lieii txt

[theinfinitedivides]

Vishal-Shekhar really saw Sher Khul Gaye and decided 'yeah ykw it's time to go back to 2010s Hrithik Bollywood/Bang Bang (2014) tracks' and they were so right for that

#film: fighter (2024) #fighter #fighter 2024 #hrithik roshan #deepika padukone #anil kapoor #bollywood #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #MV dropped a little under an hour ago. you have two of the best dancers in the industry and you are f*cking UTILIZING THEM. thank God #did i mention the eerily Staying Alive adjacent guitar in the back. it's not a direct copy but the influence is there #i'm actually scared tho like how tf is Hrithik still moving like that at his age. sir can you get your foot off of us pls we need to live #edit: Anil coming in with the whiskey standing on top of the table made me yell they're insane #friends no he does not actually dance. he does maybe three steps and leaves the leg shaking to the hottest people in the room #ty YouTube for giving me the notif for this before i gave in and ran off to Death's Game bc yk we were about to be in SIG lockdown

[irritablepoe]

Why can't I have friends that want to talk to me?🥲

#like it doesn't have to all the time obv just. yk. genuine. #johnny's silly rambles #i feel like they're tip-toeing around me when i just want to *talk* #everything is better than them being idk. scared? #it feels like they're scared and idk why #I may be distant but so are they #at least I'm trying to hold a conversation... #and i don't want to let them go like that #we've been friends for 6-14 years (depending on the friend) they are important to me! #but at this point it feels like I'm begging for their attention #and then i feel guilty bc of it #I don't want to be annoying #and i think they like me like in general. it's just like in school where everyone didn't know how to handle me #and they've turned into those people themselves over the years #I don't know what to do😭 i don't want to be entirely alone #vent #once again #help💀

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[normystical]

idk. some sinner adam concept stuff.

since we're all kinda doing our own designs and stuff, thought i'd do my own as well since i'm interested in the idea

not sure on the details. had like 2 older concepts not shown here. wasn't sure on the hair but i decided and changed some of these. input would be niceee,,,

#btw he always has scar lines on the last “rib” marking. you just don't see it cuz it's always the third one #the one with colors is to show my concept for. yk. colors. that's as far as i got with my ideas there though #sinner adam #sinner!adam #drawings #my art #traditional drawing #<- bc i am NOT used to digital anymore + my wacom isn't set up yet + i get bored in school #plsss gimme input even tho i'm scared of criticism lmao i can take it probably just do it #hazbin hotel

[ambreiiigns]

9 fave movies i watched in 2023 as tagged by my beloved @skelerobo 🥰 thank youuu

ok sorry that's a joke. here's the real top 9 but truth is i haven't seen as many movies that i was OBSESSED with this year :-( i've been mad at and/or enjoyed bc they suck ass half of what i've seen :-( but it's ok. honorable mention tristamp fr tbh

tagging: @brainjuicey @fagjolras @justablix @besweetordietrying and whoever else??? the girlies who watch a lot of stuff pls let me know what's good

#tagged #this was tbf the year of me watching all the hostels and fookin malignant and one from the vomit gore series #so. you can tell it's been kinda rough . #but i also watched a bunch of old underrated slashers this summer which was soooo good..... shout out to tourist trap 1979 & intruder 1989 #they almost made it #also i put terrifier 2 bc the cover is cooler lmao but 1 & 2 are kinda interchangeable tbh could be either. same w jeepers creepers #these type of games. always scare me to death. bc 1. what if i'm misremembering on what year i saw these movies #and 2. what if i'm forgetting something that was actually my most favorite thing in the world #that would be ichi the killer and i did not forget but what if something else is slipping.... #yk i complained but there's a few others that i would have liked to put in ackshually :-(

[mikacynth]

also my friends and i went to a mini haunted house thing yesterday things were crazy

#everyone thought i'd be the one scared shitless bc yk i'm the biggest scaredy cat ever #but nope i was clown-ing the whole way #like i straight up went what's up bhabhi (sister-in-law) to one of the scary lady mannequins #and jokingly went off on a guy for smacking me in the face with his broom thing #i was like uncle what is this uncle why'd you hit my face uncle :(( do you realize what you could've done to my face uncle :(( #it was another friend who had to cling to two people jsdsjdh

[myersesque]

don't wanna change my twt handle bc it's a banger but it also kinda hinges on being bisexual and erm. tugs nervously at collar. kinda had a few realisations about myself between then n now

#was kinda waiting for someone else to say it yk #then my bf hit me w the 'babe it's ok if you only like girls platonically' and it was like. welp. #guess the cat's out the bag. guess we're saying it out loud now. #which is fucking scary bc i came out as bi when i was like 9 and am still vaguely scared i'm wrong and just have a preference #but i am. pretty sure i'm not. at this point #augh. idk #i've also been debating just flat out abandoning/deleting my twt since it p much only brings me anxiety #but then where would i rt all the hoffstrahm art my friend sends me??? #og

[starheirxero]

I just came back from the laes episode-

That is it, that's where my heartstrings have enough, I will never fucking recover from it-

They fed us, by God, the angst is is too much, but it's so addictingly delicious-

The way Solar tried so hard to get them to communicate, yet how he let them talk and didn't push them, didn't try to force them.

And Earth and Lunar, God Earth and Lunar…

The way Earth is beating herself up, feeling like she can't talk about her problems, because "Lunar had it worse". The way she feels as though she's not allowed to talk about it, not meant to, because she's supposed to be the caretaker, the therapist, the golden child. The way she desperately tries to keep herself together as her world crumbles around her…

I don't even know where to start about Lunar- They finally reached the edge. They finally reached their limit. The question is, will they run? Will they take the leap? Or will they be pushed off? They are on their witts end, unable to control their powers, and slowly succumbing to their trauma.

They don't understand the world, nor themself anymore… They never asked for any of this, so how is this fair?

My goodness, this was too much for my poor heart-

Both of them are suffering so much, both of them can't see the end of the tunnel anymore!

There's so much more, but I can't even put it into words! I am gonna go insane-

-Stardust

I KNOWWWWW IT FUCKED ME UP SO BADDD AUAGAHAGAHHHH!!!!!!

Solar was doing his best and I feel a little bad for him too because I know he just wants everything to be okay between them but he doesn't really know How to navigate that </3

AND EARTH AND LUNAR,,, YEAH. YEAH. EVERYTHING YOU SAID EXACTLY 💔💔💔

It breaks my heart to see them interact like this because Earth is scared of Lunar and Lunar is scared to hurt Earth and their wounds are still too fresh to actually begin any communication or healing and it's like AUGH. EXPLOSIONS EVERYWHERE ☹️

So much yet so little was communicated to each other and I am being SO dramatically woeful about it. Exactly like u said, they can't even see the end of the tunnel anymore </3

#asks #anon #stardust anon #I UNDERSTAND BOTH OF THEM SO BAD ITS . AUAAGAGHHHH #especially with Lunar bc now that I'm properly processing how they cope and how they act w/ treatment #I can see that they just have /no/ idea how to cope with the fact that they're part of the problem in this situation!! they don't know- #-how to deal with the fact that healing and recovery isn't a two-week program!! #sometimes that shit's for life!!! #but he seems so /shaken/ by this that he's turning all his questions inwards to such a point he isn't even fully seeing other people anymore #yk??? like they understand earth is scared of them but he focuses too much on how to not be scary rather than how to help earth- #-not feel so scared. their every piece of /self/ is crumbling so they're too busy focusing on hot glueing themselves back together to- #-maintain their usual mask that they don't realize they could be helping Earth pick up the pieces of herself and that can help her pick up- #Lunar's pieces too. if that makes any sense. they are both so flawed and fleshed out its gut wrenching and i want to swaddle them and- #-give em a big ol' kiss on the forehead :((( #lunar and earth show #the lunar and earth show #tlaes

[froggieknight]

i do one mean thing and feel sick ajdkfk she was just there AGHHHHH SOMEONE TELL ME ITS GONNA BE OKAY BC I LIVE WOTH HER AND IM SCARED IM NOT SUPPOSED TO :(

#i was having an intense conversation with my ex litteraly crying bc yk THATS HOW IT GOES #and she can obviously hear this and bounds up the stairs all happy so i say 'piss off name wait no please leave i'm begging you i'm #emotional right now' or something like that and she was all 'that's not very nice bla bla' but in a bitchy way and oooooooh boy i said ' #'i'm not very nice' and she was all 'ha (cruelly) i gathered bla bla' and i just wanted to talk to my ex but ajdkfkfk I FEEL BAD / SCARED I #UPSET HER #this doesn't seem like a big thing but i promise it is bc im fragile and feel like the whole world will collapse

[prismaticutie]

I've been watching a lot of Omega Strikers guide videos lately and the one thing all of them have in common is that every single one of them highlights the importance of "just have fun".

That's something people say all the time, about any game. But there was one guide I watched yesterday, and in addition to giving that tip, also mentioned the importance of not being toxic and blaming your losses on your teammates.

This is genuinely the most helpful tip of all time. Like this guide really grilled into me just how horrible having that toxic mentality is. The full first minute of the video was dedicated to that. He also talked about how being toxic and playing w that mentality actively makes you worse at the game, period. Full stop. And he explained the reasoning for that as well.

I've heard this said and yeah I believe it as well, but this was the first time I'd ever had it thoroughly explained to me. It really put things into perspective for me.

Hoping I can improve at both Omega Strikers and Splatoon by keeping this in mind 👍

#The whole 'just have fun' + 'stop blaming others' is smth I've needed heavily reinforced for a while #I'm very bad at just having fun bc I want!!!!! To rank up!!!! So badly!!!! #And my Rasmus is horrible!!!!! #But. These guides have put a lot into perspective #It's so weird for me to actually follow anyone else's advice bc I've never had tk do that when I play splat yk? #Like I've been playing that game for years. I have a good grasp on it and I'm comfortable at the level I play (X rank/Egg vp) #I don't needa get crazy highwr than that #But Omega Strikers? Bro I'm stuck in FUCKING BRONZE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I don't play too much tbh...but it's honestly cuz I'm super scared of ranking down #I also...don't practice...like if I'm playing I only play comp... #Why would I play without stakes...it's less fun to me that way... #But gahhhh maybe I should practice a little bit #Mostly need to work on fundamentals rn #Striking the core; dribbling; learning Rasmus' fucking hitbox + delay on his primary #Reaction time as well #I suck at striking the core bro 😭😭😭 But I will get better... #Mmmight do some practice later...but I wanna practice in quickplay... #Nah...I oughta play normal since it emulates the style of comp

[kkujo]

did not see that coming tbh but it actually makes so much sense bc i was thinking how tf are they gonna cover part 1 in s2 without it feeling super rushed. like if they do reze's arc as a movie and cover international assassins and gun devil arc in s2 that kinda makes sense

#like yeah it's less content immediately and i would have probably been happier abt a s2 announcement but . #it'll probably also be less horrible on the animators to not have to rush s2 yk #and honestly i'm just happy to hear csm news i've been waiting for the event all month like are they gonna announce smth 😭😭 #I WAS SO SCARED IT WOULD JUST BE SILENT ON CSM LIKE #also in a way i'm glad s2 isn't coming too soon bc i don't wanna see volume 9 and 10 animated i can't handle it . #it is just those 3 arcs left in part 1 right. i feel like i'm forgetting smth

[cinna-bunnie]

bleh

#having a bad morning tbhhhh #i envy the ppl who grew up here :| it's so much easier to make friends when u went to school w ppl and grew up with them #i have been here since 2016 and was just trying to get stability the first 3 years financially/housing-wise. #and when i was Finally ready to start making friends the pandemic happened. #the closest thing I've had to friends were made thru my ex and when we broke up they ghosted me. #to this day i have not made a single genuine friend and i can't articulate how hurtful that is to think about. #and i get excited when i might have a new friend but do the audhd balancing act where i tone myself down so i don't scare them away #but then idk. maybe i just come off as uninteresting or indifferent. idk what the perception of me is bc no one ever tells me anything lol. #i just get ghosted a lot 😭 it's Literally so much easier to find ppl to fuck than it is to find friends. idk why this is so hard but it's #frustrating. everyone has lukewarm interest in me at best and i have so much to offer when I've opened up to someone. #and i can't rly talk w ppl about how I'm feeling. and i can't do anything but keep trying over and over or else i WILL fr have no friends. #it's just. like. I'm not a normal person w normal circumstances and interacting w people who already have a ton of friends and stuff #going on is hard. there's like this burning desire for companionship in u as the person NEEDING it that no one else has #bc they already have it yk? ur just kind of a footnote on everyone's day/week. u don't have that kind of relationship where #u can Just Go Over or just have ppl over. ppl can hang like once a month maybe. i hate it here but also don't want to leave :| #everything is great except trying to make friends. idk i just wanted to vent lol I'm done ranting and might just delete #but this feeling wells up inside me and some days is so hard to ignore 😭 #'i have been here since 2016 and don't have a single genuine Friend' what the fuck 😭😭 #ik that wfh doesn't Help but i wouldn't be able to get anything done in person in my position lol. plus it's less about where ppl are #and more about how relationships (dont) develop past a certain point. #i have someone I've been talking with probs longest out of everyone so far and we're gonna hang this weekend #but I'm also perpetually afraid I'm gonna scare them away or something and be back at square 1 😭 #and idk im afraid that might translate into seeming shy or something and I'd hate for them to lose interest anyways ._. #but idk how much of that is valid vs my brain just being mean to me and paranoid over my other experiences. #anyways... yea thnx for reading if u did. i feel crazy 😮‍💨

[astrxealis]

hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅 #i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors #IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch #in school anyway but... urgh... #so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!) #i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay. #i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular) #my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation #needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%... #i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know. #both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore #LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others #but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there) #feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS. #but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w #smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh. #i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now #will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun! #the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!

[princemick]

also. we found like lumps on my dog so. thats uh fun, we're gonna go to the vet but yea its like, they're big so yea, we're hoping they're nothing but I'm not very optimistic. just wanted to share that ig.

#my mom isn't either so yea that sucks #its like under his shoulder like armpit area #he doesn't seem to like it doesn't seem to bother him yk #he had a tumour before but it was like not harmful but we still got ut removed but yea I'm scared #we're not able to go to the vet for a lil bc both me n my mom r busy w shit times but we're gonna try in the next week or so #kyle.txt