#bdd

[aloevista]

I wish it was normal to just wear a mask your entire life. Like a full face mask. I’m tired of people being able to witness how grotesque I look. I don’t even want to have to see my face when I look in the mirror because it ruins my entire day. I’d be so much happier if I could just hide it. While I’m at work, when I shower, while I sleep, I don’t want it to be possible for myself or anyone else to end up catching a single glimpse of it. I don’t know how my boyfriend can even stand to look at me, let alone love me, when he’s so pretty and I look like an actual monster 

#bdd #tw bdd #body dysmorphic disorder #i don't actually have a disorder i'm just fucking ugly and its the truth

[goldtearsapollo]

I often think about how I want to die… but I don’t really want to die, I just want to not feel like this. I just want to not be here in this reality where life is painful. I want to go somewhere else where everything is ok. I really want to live actually. I want to live and be happy… but I can’t.

#tw depression #sewercide #body dysmorphia #bdd #depressing life #mental illness #mentally exhausted #mental health #tw depressing stuff #sewer slide #lonelly #hopelessness #sorry for being depressing #body dysmorphic disorder #executive dysfunction #dead inside #self h@te #selfharn #self loathing #existential depression #that funny feeling #sadgirl #sad girl hours

[notdelusionalatall]

i obsess and nitpick and worry to the point where i get physically sick and tired, and not just mentally :))))))

#bdd #body dysmorphia #i still don't know if it is body dysmorphia or i am just ugly #is it body dysmorphia or am i just ugly #self hatred #tw #cw #tw mental health #tw mental illness #actually mentally ill #body dysmorphic disorder #mental illness memes #girl interrupted #girl interrupted syndrome #actually depressed #actually anxious #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #self destructive thoughts #stress #tw bdd #tw tw #personal vent #tw personal #tw personal vent #tw vent #vent #venting #i don't really like myself

[kai-atlantis]

I'm sorry but online data and AI tracking is toxic as FUCK. If you mention you have body dysmorphia or any kind of mental illness surrounding weight, suddenly you are bombarded with weight loss ads on tumblr. Shady pill ads. Corset ads. Shapewear ads. Diet ads. Skinny girls advertising their before and after SHEIN hauls, wearing things I never could. Youtube will spam Eugenia Cooney, despite me not being subscribed or looking up her content. It'll recommend me "how to hide your fat" videos.

All because I mentioned my weight once.

This is so predatory. It's the internet that wants to prove to me every day that I am not the weight and person I want to be. Everyday, I don't just deal with mental illness now. Everyday, I am reminded by tumblr and Youtube and online ads that I am not good enough.

Thanks, internet developers for your data tracking. Even though I reject cookies etc. Thanks for preying on mental illness and women's pressures in society. Feels fucking great.

#tw weight #tw body image #bdd #body dysmorphia #personal #rant #vent #what the fuck

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd + body dysmorphic + ed culture id hating yourself cause you dont have the body you want so you starve yourself but youve gradually lost the self control you had to do that and youve GAINED weight and now you want to die. fuck!!! okay dude!!!!

-🐢

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#npd culture is #npd + ed culture is #npd + body dysmorphia culture is #npd + ed + body dysmorphia culture is #npd #actually narcissistic #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b #body dysmorphia #bdd #eating disorder #ed #-🐢

[synthetic-psychedelic]

Ordered a new dress, too sick to go to the event I bought it for 🥲

#that’s life #ootd #kinda #sick note #selfie #new dress #new coat #pale ass #messy bitch #my knee is non existent apparently #bdd

[dyinginafield]

Fuck body dysmorphia!

#girlblogging #girlblogger #female hysteria #girl interrupted #coquette #female rage #girlblog #girl interrupted syndrome #waifspo #mine #ed not sheeran #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw ed implied #body dysmorphia #body dysmorphic disorder #bdd #tw bdd #@na vent

[taughtsauce]

it’s crazy how these people come into your life and make such a difference. then they just disappear, and you realize you never meant that much to them

#vent post #actually mentally ill #bpd vent #actually bpd #self h@rm #vent #favorite person #fp bpd #emotional abandonment #abandonment like every other day #sewerslidal activities #abandonment issues #borderline problems #bdd #bpd stuff

[ptsd-tiger]

every day i am reminded that my body is fucking disgusting </3 doesn't matter that I'm down to a more normal weight, there's nothing about me that could ever be considered attractive or lovable </3 so it's really bad and wrong for me to have fantasies about being touched and held when it isn't something that's ever going to be in the cards for me </3

#go to hell tiger #unloveable #vent #bdd

[lesbianrustcohle]

that wasn't a joke! i did in fact get hypnotized yesterday to help treat my body dysmorphic disorder, and it worked

while i was in a light trance, we implanted these affirmations i drafted in ocd therapy and edited for a few days:

at the end of the session i cried because "all these things are obviously true, so how could i have been so cruel to myself? 😭"

this morning when i looked in the mirror i cried with awe at how beautiful i was! twice (!)

so now we just need to work on my compulsions, but the feelings have already changed and that will make it easier

#bdd #hypnotherapy #actually bdd #ocd #actually ocd #p

[princemoder]

i looove sleeping because it's like. a brief respite from the agony of having an embodied self

#body dysmorphia #gender dysphoria #bdd #dysphoria

[notdelusionalatall]

i am pissed

#fuck beauty standards #beauty standards #bdd #influencers are bullshit #beauty standards are bullshit #influencers #influencers are liars #body image issues #body dysmorphia #tw rant #tw vent #vent #rant #personal #tw personal vent #tw personal rant #girl interrupted #girl interrupted syndrome #i hate influencers #body neutrality #stop promoting unrealistic beauty standards #unrealistic beauty standards #stop #it's time to stop #i should take a break from social media #chronically online #i am struggling #i am pissed

[diaryofbillie]

People don’t understand body dysmorphic disorder is a disorder. I’m not just a little insecure. My brain will tell me I look like I’ve gained 10kg and I will not leave my house for days cause I believe I’m obese. But wait that’s not the best part of this disorder… after believing I’m obese for days suddenly I look in the mirror and I’m skinny and I believe I’ve lost 10kg in matter of seconds. And it’s this cycle over and over and i believe it every.fucking.time.

#ana stuff #anorex14 #tw ana diary #tw ana relapse #tw ana shit #tw ed diet #tw ed rant #disordered eating thoughts #eating diary #tw disordered eating #bdd #bdd tw #bdd things #tw bdd #body dysmorphia #body dismorphic disorder #body disphoria #body dysmorphic disorder

[prettiestgirlintherapy]

BEFORE YOU LET IT GET TO YOU

1. Have you eaten?

2. Have you drunk water?

3. Have you showered? Washed your face?

4. Have you journaled about it?

5. Have you taken deep breaths?

6. Have you tried talking to a friend about it?

7. Have you moved around enough today?

8. Have you gone out in the sunlight?

9. Have you done something fun? Played a video game, played with your cat, watched a comedy, etc.

If all, or many of these are 'no', try at least some (usually, in order) and see how you feel after. If still quite upset, its possible that your problem is deeply troubling and not simply anxiety. However, youll be better equipped to deal with the problem with a more positive outlook.

It's hard to recover, but we need to work with ourselves. We need to meet ourselves where we are at. I know that when I relapse or repeat a trauma response that I lose all rationality. But by setting up reminders of my needs when depression kicks in, I have a game plan for what I must do even under duress.

#positive #positivity #recovery #complex ptsd #bdd recovery #bdd #body dysmorphia #mental health #mental illness #self help #self care #self healing #coping

[desi-daydream]

lashes. eyeliner. elf halo glow foundation. tarte concealer. contour. primer. moisturizer. skincare. bio oil. threading. tea tree oil. olay firming night cream. eyebrow brush. matte lipstick. shiny lipgloss. curled eye lashes. dressed up. casual. street wear. hoodie and sweats. straightened hair. caramel balayage. natural hair colour. it doesn’t matter. bc at the end of it all, a girl like you can’t be looked at as pretty, or even attractive. you can’t even get a lame hello, a match back on a stupid app, an empty conversation, a look in your direction. so forget a relationship, marriage, or a husband for that matter.

#mental health #poems and poetry #mental illness #poemsbyme #mentally exhausted #actually bdd #tw bdd #bdd #bdd recovery #bpd feels #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #bpd #bpd culture is #mental heath support #mentalheathawareness #body dysmorphia #facial dysmorphia #desi girl #poem

[iamabuddha]

My body dysmorphia is getting really bad. The problem is my face is actually ugly and I can't help but be obsessive about it. I hate every picture I take, I don't want to take pictures. I don't want to see myself in the mirror. I wish I could just own my face and live carefree, but my body dysmorphia is getting in the way of everything, I struggle to enjoy anything.

#bdd #body image #body dysmorphic disorder #body dysmorphia #personal