#be awake create

[arctic-bookclub]

i can’t stop thinking about how well bolas rojas has adapted to the conditions of purgatory. they embrace whatever suffering and lack of materials they have, they cheer for certain disasters (mainly the fog), they further embrace their insanity, laugh at their lack of mental wellbeing, they physically fight each other and die for fun. they invite the poor conditions like they weren’t missing luxuries like op backpacks and castles a few days ago. they truly embody the hellscape they’re trapped in because they were so utterly stomped to the ground from the start that they have embraced the mud as their new home.

so actually to correct my first point of this post, they haven’t adapted to the conditions of purgatory, they were reborn, created and molded from the flames of it.

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #bolas rojas #qsmp bolas #qsmp bolas rojas #qsmp red team #correct me if i’m wrong because i mainly just watch red’s pov but #green and blue could exist without the purgatory they could exist on quesadilla #but red couldn’t #they are so tied to the purgatory that in no other conditions could a team like this be created #i kind of hope they are the cursed team because think about how poetic it’d be that the one team fully adapting to this hellscape #completely molded by it #is the one to win it all? #this post is just me spitting out some of my bolas rojas brainrot #that’s all really #going back to being so sick that i can only be awake during qsmp streams god bless #shey rambles

[nyoomkitty]

Drained so good that he turned into one of them alien mummies

#metalocalypse #toki wartooth #skwisgaar skwigelf #skwistok #dethklok #this cursed image kept me awake till I drew it so I’m passing it to you #enjoy #nyoomart #I’m beginning to think I only like drawing funny stuff #created by Kat

[purecalcium66]

guys what if

Portal and Bioshock crossover? Am I the only one that thinks it's cool? That's Tenenbaum and Suchong under GLaDOS btw.

#portal #portal 2 #glados #bioshock #calcite art #crossover fanart #this will keep me awake at night #im thinking either Ryan is Cave Johnson and creates Rapture-Aperture for science #or Fontaine has Aperture Science instead of Fontaine Futuristics that would also be interesting #or something entirely else #the posibilities are literally endless #god damn thats so fun #portalshock #is that even a tag? #i dunno but it sounds cool

[hyperfixationtimego]

korekiyo would lose his absolute goddamn mind over the whole goncharov phenomenon btw. he gives extensive lectures on analyzing why it’s apparently inherent human nature to “yes, and” your way into silly, nonsensical inside jokes like that, and nobody in his class gets any rest for like a solid month after he first finds out about it.

#kiyo sneaks into kokichi’s room at like 1 AM (cuz of boyfriend privileges) and shakes him awake like: kokichi. kokichi they made it all up. #kokichi they made it all up kokichi. they created a plot synopsis and casted the whole thing with well-known actors. #kokichi. hey are you listening #Kokichi: [considers smothering him with a pillow] #‘yes babydoll love of my life of course I am’ #danganronpa #korekiyo shinguji #korekiyo shinguuji #headcanon tag

[cloud-somersault]

(sits down opposite you in a booth at a ice cream parlor) i think a really important point of shadowpeach after reconciliation is the interweaving of all facets of their relationship and them struggling to meld those into some kind of cohesive "friendship" or whatever

and what I mean is that, like, there's always going to be some underlying resentment because wukong did a murder. so on Macaque's part, there's always going to be this anger and resentment and this hate that he has to deal with while also trying to piece their relationship into something that fits.

there's always going to be some guilt on wukong's part because he did a murder. there's going to be some guilt and an understanding that if Macaque, at any point, doesn't want to be friends, wukong understands why because of what happened between them. so he's saddened by the fact that things could end at any point and he doesn't have the right to try and fight for their relationship. i don't think that would stop him, but he'd be aware of it.

and then there's always going to be these echoes of their past haunting them. of what they were. because on some level, they're both still grieving that. they both miss that time in their lives, and that leads to anger, especially on macaque's part, because he lost something he coveted and treasured. and wukong also, because even if he killed macaque accidentally, he's allowed to miss that time also. because he wishes with all his heart that they can return to that past where none of the bad shit happened.

and then there's the threat of what they are now. broken and shattered people, jaded and knowledgeable of the world, they see these crumbled pieces and the feelings dwelling within themselves and look to each other and say, "Hey, can we really fix this? Can this really turn into something tangible and discernible?"

because the whole point -- (moves and sits beside you in the booth) the whole point is that they look at that scattered mess and decide yes, it's a broken mess that can become something worthy of being looked at. and though it's going to take time to put the pieces together and, in so doing, it's possible that we mishandle the pieces and they break further or the glue we're using doesn't work. and one of us may give up for a while, but we have to keep going.

the process of piecing their relationship together is difficult. they can cut themselves, hurt themselves or each other intentionally or unintentionally. it's a messy process. it's tricky and annoying and frustrating but, despite that, they both decide to keep working on it together.

and that's the reconciliation process. because we get to see that ugliness. it's not this pretty thing. it's not perfect and not everything it solved. it's only the beginning because, in reconciling, they both looked at that mess of pieces on the floor and then looked to each other and said, "Yeah, we can fix this."

but the thing also is -- this is wukong and macaque. and they're a little stupid. and they're prone to mistakes. so whatever they make at the end, whatever they piece together...

chances are it's not going to be beautiful at all.

#constellations fic #idk do you guys ever lie awake at night thinking about this kind of stuff #i think the inherent thought of “wukong and macaque will create something beautiful together” is fundamentally flawed #beauty is what they were in the past. and even then it was an imperfect lie. they didn't know each other. not truly #now that they're here #they get to see the ugly truths of themselves. and while looking at that #they can't help but make something fucked up. just like they are #but maybe. to them. that is beautiful #constellations shadowpeach

[seawing-vibes]

Wahoo Tide Time oh yeah Tide updated ref . Look at my beast <3

#art #Seawing #hihi its 1:30 am and im very sleepy . I am vert exited to finally post some art though <3 #I havent been able to finish anything in like . months . but nowthe weather is warming back up and im getting more motivation to create and #finish art. #and this bastard has been in the making for a while . #just a silly guy. . <3!!!!!!!! I will rewrite the alts when im more. awake . prbh #Tide #Oc #Ref #lil outfit funfact . tides gloves are worn because their talons are webbed and used to the water so walking around can easily get super #painful for them as a Seawing so they bought and then refined some gloves ! #TideArt #Designin

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

'tis me, very specific anon with yet another question(yes i have no schedule for this)

question #2: did you ever have a dream regarding this blog? if so, what was it about?

-very specific anon

hello very specific anon!!

so unfortunately I have not ever had a dream about this blog, or about Tumblr in general (that I can remember at least)

but! I sincerely wish I had…. so i’m creating one :)

(tbh this dream legitimately could’ve happened and i’m just so bad at remembering them it moved from my subconscious to my conscious and that’s how i’m making it now…?idk)

anyways, enjoy :)

-

i’m on my phone scrolling, checking notifications, etc. when I notice an ask, that’s simply a youtube link. I obviously open the link, excitedly expecting a rickroll of some sort and I am correct!

the “never gonna give you up” music video starts playing! but as I go to start to exit the app, something changes…

the music starts to fade away while rick’s voice slowly begins to get louder…more life like.

I try to close the app but it’s frozen, and the screen starts to fade to black…. expect for rick’s face.

when the song finally ends, my entire phone crashes. as i’m anxiously trying to turn it back on, the song starts again…except for the voice sounds like it’s directly behind me.

I turn around….. and a tiny phone sized rick astley is on the ground, dancing his heart out.

turns out- I had now acquired a genie/loyal companion for life in rick astley form, that i’m now stuck with…because he’s never gonna give me up :)

#this wasn’t an actual dream… but I think it’s still @one-time-I-dreamt worthy #…maybe? #anyways #i’m sorry I had to :) #i’m actually really proud of my brain for creating this while awake lmao #like I wish I had this dream?!?? #but alas I remember almost no dreams :/ #also ​if I need to tag this as something pls let me know #very specific anon #ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #horror tw #slight horror #creepypasta #? #idk #rickroll #rick astley #never gonna give you up

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose #I'm just. I'm tired man. #I've been putting off a phone call for two months #i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious #I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much #I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make #I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again #and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign #and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens! #take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff #please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“ #there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship #I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours #mr. bees speaks

[seawherethesunsets]

This is me worshipping you.

#my liberation notes #kdramaedit #kdramadaily #asiandramanet #dailynetflix #dailyasiandramas #asiancentral #kdrama #son seok koo #bysya #mlnedit #sooo i wanted to do the midyr drama set and of course mln is part of it but i got distracted and did this instead #gu smiling while looking at mijeong #i will never get over them #so yeah i didnt create anything else aside from this lolol #trying to stay awake so i can reach airport by 5am and not oversleep lolol

[peskyvinot]

it's still so funny to me that I came into hermitcraft with no shipping intentions, left the phase of shipping cubitos in the past I thought. will touch the fanficion only for my cartoons I thought. and then I became friends with an ethubs enjoyer and vibed with it (very much). and then I joined hermitblr.

and I STILL wasn't shipping anyone.

and then there's this whole thing happened where I do enjoy xbralis platonically but. I'm just watxhing them flirt and what am I supposed to do about it. they literally kissed with their cube little heads what I'm. huh.

and then secret life happened and the line is not thin anymore its non existant. I'm literally scrolling through the ethubs tag every day. I'm like this 👌 close to actually opening ao3, and not to reread my favorit ex&x family fics but to see what's cooking in the ethubs tag. (minecraft achievement font) how did we get here

#hermitshipping #trafficshipping #ethubs #xbralis #its not to the point where i want to create my own content #yet #but like #after Some secret life episodes i laid awake at night thinking about those mfs #why did bdubs say he would kill and die for etho #why did etho not recepticate but then made a whole ep praising bdubs and enjoyed making him embarrassed #why did #whay

[writhe]

#TAGS TLDR YOU CAN NEVER TRULY GO HOME BUT DO YOU WANT TO? #writing a little for d&d and having feelings about this #it was really interesting jasper and i were working on some game mechanics and we kept getting stuck at weird parts and it developed into #this conversation where we realized we experience the world #in such fundamentally different ways. like specifically talking about how paranoia #manifests and stuff but even later in a broader sense like our experiences of time and everything is so different #and they'd be like 'well what if this is something that happened to lock' and id be like 'how could that be something that anyone would #experience' and they were like 'oh because i do' #(example here was my character not realizing he had been magically transported and filling in the blank with vague memories of travel but i #was like. are you not acutely aware of every single moment you are awake and in motion even if it is excruciatingly boring. and jasper #was like. 'oh...no. i could be transported from one place to another and if time passed i wouldnt even think about having traveled or not' #which was WILD to me but then we were like 'okay i guess this cannot be something that happened to lock' because i couldnt even fathom that #but like anyway idk we got weirdly deep dive-y about d&d stuff and personal lives and i had big feelings on it bc genuinely i feel like #there are facets and caverns in myself i have only ever touched in storytelling but particularly in this campaign #and i've joked a lot about Lock and other chars in this game being self inserts #but i mean it in a good way #like the ways we tell stories or experience a world we created together is going to be through an extension of ourselves etc #but it's interesting to me to consider the limitations that brings yknow? we all live by such vastly different sets of rules and #understandings #and im writing out some stuff now and im like. yknow. #lock can never truly go home. i can never truly go home. none of us can ever truly go home #home as shifting impermanence home as transience etc #2017 levi is back apparently but hes always been right

[kakyogay]

What if you wanted to enjyo a nice long break but god said woe perdiod be upon ye

#woke up at 6 am again and just imediatly sclorped #making me go all the way upstairs with no pants no nothing trying to get a replacement pair because no one else is awake #I also have a headache making it hella worse #great thanksgiving so far I'm totally thankful for being biologically created with a pain machine yeah great job #haha sorry for all of this haha *kapow explosion* #anyways finished something yesterday uhhh I'll try to post it soon after I pain no more prolly

[lhrry]

harry styles really wrote an album about long-term relationship which is overflowing with love in all its diverse forms, with domesticity, with assurance, with softness, and with profound emotions including a declaration of the deepest lifelong love, steady through the good and the bad, always choosing to keep going (driving), he really did that

#first of all from the pov of me ten years ago.. wild #also now these tags are going to be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster read at your own risk #but GOD this album does things to me making me feel so much and reminding me that art is what I want to do in life nothing else #even reading other’s reactions and stuff (and I experience this a lot with seeing people’s reactions to music #movies or literature #just in general when something excites people #I want to do that for people make them feel something and feel good and entertained and i feel i really understand harry on that level ahah #anyway it’s just so important to me to be able to create something that awakes feeling and thoughts and Harry’s house is such a perfect #example of that I am so in love with the album #and as someone whose mother tongue is not English although I now consider it my first language in a weird way #I’m getting two pieces of prose published in American journals soon and !!!! I truly cannot believe that and #this is leading absolutely nowhere #but the album is really making me thing about what I want to do in life and it’s this #might write a song or two next time I write ahaha

[too0bsessedformyowngood]

Sometimes it’s not about doing anything, sometimes it’s just about staring off into space while creating silly little scenarios with silly little guys in your head

#batman #batfamily #dc comics #I lay awake at night creating scenes with my favorite characters #elaborate plots and story lines #as a silly little treat #should I be sleeping #probably #but this is much more fun

[windwardstar]

you know it might just be that my tendency to overwrite might have something to do with the fact my chapters end up being 15k even after undergoing mitosis

#like obviously im at the point where im throwing in the kitchen sink bc well the point of this fic is if i wanna write it i do #but also like .. i once had very very short scenes and chapters like 90% were under 1k short #and i know a lot of it was that necessary detail got left out #i was underwriting then #but now i have def swung too far this way #fortunately i just write for fun so like i dont actually have to address the overwriting issue #but it is 3am and im awake so it is ponder things time #like the fact the current chapter is at like 15k and i still have at least three scenes left if not more #because the first four chapters are essentially fics in their own right #but also the chapters after the first four would feel weird if the first four chapters were to declare independence and create a series

[ankhisms]

oh boy we are spiralling suddenly

#at least my parents arent awake to hear me cry. god i feel pathetic #the universe created me to laugh at me and hurt me and laugh at me as i whine in pain and ask it why not me why #does no one ever want me and the universe sneers at me and says because youre not a person youre a thing