#be nostalgic for and make connections i can still have 2 years from now. i hate that i'm there now and i still can't do anything about it bc

[dejwrld]

CHOSOIST KINKTOBER GAMING PLAYLIST — WEEK 2

( GUARDIAN ANGEL ) 🎮 GUARDIAN ANGEL!SEPHIROTH X READER

— game synopsis: he's been your guardian angel since you were sixteen years old. protecting you from danger you didn't see coming, but now that you're slowly wanting space from him—he makes it his mission to remind you who you belong to until you take your final breath.

( cw ) ⸻ fem reader, female anatomy described, slight enemies to fuckers, reader somewhat purposely put herself in danger, possessive!sephiroth, mentions of sephiroth having pretty white wings, mating press position, cream pies, mentions of soul ties,

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀kinktober masterlist / previous playthrough

You’ve known him since you were sixteen years old. The mere memory of him grabbing at your backpack strap to tug you out of the way as you were about to walk into ongoing traffic imprints your brain like a nostalgic TV memory. He was a sixteen-year-old guardian angel who aged through the years as you grew, interfering in your life as if you were the most life-threatening person ever. 

Freshman year of college, he’s taking the red solo cup of whatever mixed potion the older frat guys made out of your hand. This led to practically the whole campus thinking you were chronically insane as you argued with no one because they couldn’t see what you saw. He interfered with your life at moments when you had it all under control, and he didn’t need to baby you as if you didn’t. But you were grateful for him, and the things he did stop when things got bad.

It's like killing a guy who roofied you at a bar. Despite the toxic drugs from drinking your drink, it had you feeling like you were in another world. You remember the crimson-red liquid staining his large, elegant white wings after the deed was done. After that, he’s never left your side, and you grew to feel suffocated. You couldn’t do much in your life if you had your guardian angel down your neck twenty-four-seven commenting on you getting hurt or dying. 

Now an adult, he still was here. Despite you being perfectly fine. No freak accidents, no near-death experiences. He still was here lurking around as if you were a child. 

Right now, watching as you poorly attempted to get laid. Your panties dangle from your ankle as you wait for the guy to insert, but as your horny meter slowly decreases—so does the poor stranger you met at a bar cock. Your eyes averted between your bodies as he aggressively pumped his condom-covered cock; you could hear his laughs as he was sitting on your kitchen counter chewing on an apple. 

Fuckin’ Sephiroth.

“You know what? That’s okay. Just leave.” You pushed the guy off you, limp dick and all while you’re scrambling to tug your panties back on. 

“What? It just takes some time,” The guy’s tugging his pants up in frustration. “Just please…baby.” He’s grasping on you, and you’re swatting his hand away like it’s an annoying fruit fly. 

“Just go. I’m no longer in the mood.” You warned.

This was a warning not only for yourself but for him. You had a 6’1 angel looming around your apartment who didn’t care to kill someone—especially a person who wasn’t following directions. Your eyes darted from him in the kitchen to the guy who kissed his teeth while collecting his belongings.

“Don’t call me anymore! You completely wasted my time.” He sneered at you while leaving your apartment. The door closed with a harsh slam that made you jump. 

As silence drifts over your apartment, and the only thing you can hear is the sound of that annoying clock in your kitchen ticking, you lean back on the couch with a sigh. “You know, you completely ruined the vibe, you know?” Your eyes land on the white-haired male as he finishes the apple he obnoxiously chews on.

“Do not blame it on me.” He tosses the apple in a trash can and stands up to close the space between you.

“I am blaming you because it seems like every romantic connection I attempt to make, you are there to ruin it.” You sneered at him before sitting up. “I don’t think this will work anymore, Sephiroth.” 

“Are you saying you want to release me of my duties of being your guardian angel?” He asks. You can feel he got closer despite shifting your eyes closed to calm yourself down from this talk. 

You two have been together for years. He’s been protecting you for years, and now it felt so suffocating that you couldn’t breathe. Sometimes, you wanted to release him of his duties, but you knew when you did that every memory you’ve shared with him would vanish. It would be like you two have never met. 

The sight of him with his elegant white wings on his back. The sight of blood staining his pale skin after murdering someone that hurt you. The look of worry when you almost walk into traffic, and he was a split second from being too late. 

He was yours just as much as you were his. But you needed space. 

“Yes.” You breathed out, pushing yourself off the couch to enter your room. “You know, I appreciate everything you’ve done for me, but I don’t think we can co-exist in each other’s lives anymore.” You explained you turned around, and he was leaning against your doorframe with the most obnoxious face. 

It was as if your words were going out one ear and the other for him. “We’re not young anymore. I don’t need you being so….so.” You were searching for the word to describe how you felt—frustration riddling your bones as you attempted to express yourself. 

Sephiroth took steps forward, closing the gap between you two. When he was towering over you with such little care at how close he was to you—he fixed your tank top strap and let his slender fingers linger on your shoulder just a little longer to cause goosebumps to garnish your skin immediately. 

“Possessive.” He finishes your sentence as his teeth graze upon his lower lip. “Is that the word you’re searching for, my little ward?” 

And with challenging eyes, you met his and said, “Yes. Possessive, like you own me or something.” 

His chuckles. But this chuckle was different from the one you have heard. It felt more sinister, more agitated. 

“You’re stuck with me, love. If you like it or not. We’re bound together until you die of old age or better yet, I briefly take my eyes off you as fate finally chooses a moment for you to die. Maybe a bus will hit you as you walk into traffic for texting on that silly device of yours, or maybe you’ll accidentally hit your head.” 

Your eyebrows furrow together in frustration and anger at his words. 

“You enjoy my company but don’t want to admit it. You think I didn’t notice the way you bring home little flings to spite me. You think I can’t hear the way your heartbeat quickens at the sight of me watching you get fucked by some man who can’t even make you orgasm. Sephiroth’s eyes glance over your body like he was observing you under a microscope. “So tell me, Y/N.” His finger’s toying with that strap on your tank top that keeps falling off your shoulder. 

“How many times have you imagined me, your sworn protector—your guardian angel fucking you?” His fingers drag alongside your nipples that harden through the thin white fabric of your tank top. “And don’t lie; I know when you’re lying to me.” 

You couldn’t quite remember what you had said after his words for your knees to be pressed upon your stomach and for Sephiroth’s cock to be buried into your throbbing cunt while your moans bounced off the walls. The pornographic sound of heated skin slapping against each other with the sound of your headboard banging against the wall was like music to your ears. But you enjoyed the sight of Sephiroth more. 

His crystal white hair fell in his face so perfectly. Comically enough, you wanted to say he looked like an angel. His eyes kept averting between your fucked out face and in between your body. With each glance down there, it seemed he fucked you into the mattress even harder. Instantly, your legs snake around his waist, completely trapping him from depriving you of what you were so eager for.

Sephiroth chuckles darkly through your pants of desperation, “Seems you’re enjoying this a little too much.” He mumbles. He pulls his cock entirely out of you, leaving you whining for more. 

He guides his cock in between your pussy lips rubbing in the mixture of your essence and pre-cum. Your back arched off the mattress with urgency, and he pushed you back down so you could endure the pleasurable torture of his cock teasing you until you were staining the cotton sheets below your naked body. With each stroke between your puffy lips, you’re squeezing your eyes shut tightly to prevent even the littlest thought of him seeing you like this. You didn’t think you could fathom the mere embarrassment. 

“Come on, you don’t want to see how well you take me?” He questions, his voice rings with a teasing tone that makes your pussy pulse. 

“Fine then.” He mumbles what seems to himself before he hooks his strong arms under your knees, completely trapping you under him and what’s to come.

You wondered if Sephiroth could hear how fast your heart was beating. It felt like it was bouncing around your chest like a small ball in a pinball machine. The feeling of his thick tip brushing against your entrance felt like the world had stopped. Perhaps it did. The idea of a guardian angel fucking his ward into her mattress had to be some form of rule breaker, right? Maybe, just maybe—God had briefly paused the world to give you time to weigh out the pros and cons of this.

But when Sephiroth bottomed down inside you, you felt the world unpause, and a wave of pleasure travel across your body. You even could hear yourself let out a sigh of relief—as if you’ve been waiting for this moment in centuries. The way his cock was inside, you felt like it was a missing piece in a puzzle you need. It fit perfectly, but when he started rotating and thrusting his hips—you couldn’t help but call out his name like it was a scripture.

It wasn’t as if you could do anything else but take his sensual thrusts. The mating press position trapped you from doing anything else but that. The way he was making you feel at the moment had you ignoring all that. Your moans echoed into his ear, and Sephiroth was very responsive because he’d grunt back like a rabid animal in heat. Ensuring that the feeling was mutual. That he was feeling just as good as you were. 

“After this, you’ll be stuck with me forever, right?” Sephiroth asked. His tongue drags alongside the bridge of your right ear, and instantly, your legs snake around his waist, locking your feet together so he won’t let go.

“Mhm, that’s what I thought.” His words send a chill down your spine as he continues to fuck into the mattress.

The pornographic sound of heated flesh echos upon your bedroom, and your eyes seem to squeeze shut in bliss. Savoring the moment between the two of you until you couldn’t anymore. Your pussy pulsed around his cock, and your thighs quivered under your guardian angel’s touch. His grip on you grew tighter, and you knew that he was unraveling right on top of you. His groans that echoed in your ear changed into whines of desperation. If you were being honest with yourself, you haven’t seen him this desperate in your life.

But it was a reason for that because, in just three seconds, he was a coming mess. He didn’t even bother to pull out, either. His nails dug into your heated flesh with each thrust inside of you, ensuring that each droplet of his cum stayed inside of you. With your legs wrapped around his waist, you leaned up to indulge in a heated kiss to seal the deal that you knew was going to follow you for years.

You truly were stuck with him forever until you took your last breath. 

TAGS // @salaciousdoll @syndrlla97 @lilvampirina @msun1c0rn

#sephiroth x reader #sephiroth smut #final fantasy smut #final fantasy x reader #female reader #x female reader smut #video games x reader #video games smut #angelshubnetwork #chosoistkinktober23 #⊹˳⁺ ♡ 𝒻𝒶𝓃𝒻𝒾𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝒸𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃𝓈

[kalki-tarot]

Your first Kiss with them 🎧🍷💕

Pick a picture, my beautiful souls ♡

Pictures are taken from Pinterest.

This may not resonate with everyone. I'll use tarot and my own intuition so take what resonates and leave the rest. Don't force anything and this is just for entertainment purposes. This reading will be very specific </3

Do not steal/copy my work. Strict action(s) would be taken against you.

More pick a pile readings !

Pile 1

Death, the devil, 7 swords, 10 pentacles, the sun, ace of swords, 9 wands, 4 pentacles, queen of swords (bottom of deck)

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

Right off the bat, pile 1. I sense you fear intimacy or being close with anyone in general. Maybe due to past experiences? Someone maybe forced you in the past or took advantage of you. I'm really sorry if that happened to you. So, now you've developed a fear of getting so close or vulnerable with anyone.

Pile 2 also has messages for you.

Your first kiss will happen after you've let go of certain fears. You may hesitate at first, but of course, it'll happen with your consent. You may get flashes of the past but you'll stand strong and let them kiss you or vice versa. This kiss will mark a new beginning as it'll signify the fears finally leaving your soul & mind.

The kiss will feel soft and fresh, like a warm summer breeze. It'll make you both happy. You'll feel content and comfortable while it happens. You will feel as you're in your power, finally. The kiss will be smooth. It can happen during the day or under the sunlight. I'm even getting a beach for some of you. It'll be overall fantastic as per your choice.

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Pile 2

Death rx, page of cups, the star, 9 wands, 2 swords, six of cups, the world, 10 swords rx (bottom of deck)

This feels like a fantasy! The kiss will happen just like the way you imagine it lol. Statight outta your dreams. It'll be wet and sloppy, can use lots of tounge play(?) Idk guys I'm not experienced in these kinda things 💀😭 but It'll definitely give you butterflies in the stomach.

This will be memorable kiss, even after some years you'll still remember every bit of the detail and be nostalgic about it. This can happen outside or even at a place that's far away from your home. Like while traveling or something?

You may be combating an inevitable change while this happens. Like there's a message for you to change, change the way you've been doing things all the time. Change the way you think. Don't resist change.

Let's come back to the moment of yours, the kiss will be very romantic and emotional . A little bit playful also. I'm getting biting the lips and teasing a lot. This feels like a long kiss. This will take place at a place where there aren't many people around.

It will help you release negative thoughts and feelings you've been holding all this time. So good luck with that!

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Pile 3

10 cups, strength, 9 wands, the fool, 4 swords, 5 swords, page of pentacles, 2 of wands.

Cute! Your first kiss may take place in a garden or a forest where you went to travel or camp or smth. I feel like the kiss will be initiated by the feminine energy in the connection. The kiss will make you feel young and vibrant. Your heart will race a lot. It may happen on a risky place like in the public or where someone can watch or catch you.

But the feelings would be so intense and magical. You'll be drawn towards eachother like magnets. I see a height difference between you guys.

You may have a fight before this happens, and suddenly the overwhelming feelings take over and you guys kiss. You both will literally surrender yourselves to one another. Very intimate and passionate energy.

This moment will be shocking or unexpected but you'll definitely like it!

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[oftenwantedafton]

Craving - Vampire Dave Miller/William Afton/Springtrap x Female Urban Explorer Reader

Chapter 2

Rating - Mature

Warnings for blood and violence

Also available on AO3

You awaken in absolute darkness.

Your limbs still feel weak as you struggle to sit upright. The wrist that’s been bitten throbs. Your mouth is dry. Every movement takes extreme effort and concentration through clouded memories. You can’t remember what’s happened or where you are.

“You should rest longer.”

The voice startles you. It’s masculine and slightly calloused, reminiscent of the one that had belonged to the yellow rabbit.

The yellow rabbit.

The memories return sharply and you tense up, feeling around blindly. You’re positioned on a cot of some sort, tucked against a wall.

“I used to use that sometimes when i lost track of the time and was too tired to go home.”

Twin spots of silver-white light softly illuminate the features of the costumed creature, the once cheerful permanent grin now more of a rictus.

“Who are you?”

“Better to ask who I was. I managed this place, once. Many years ago.” The rabbit’s head tips thoughtfully to one side, considering you. “I have not had a visitor in a long time. The last one was looking for items of value. They did not discover any.”

“What happened to them?”

The creature chuckles softly. “I did.”

You swallow nervously, pressing your spine against the wall.

“If I wanted to harm you, trust me, I would have already done so. Even in my weakened state, I could have killed you.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“Because you’re of no use to me dead. One meal will not regenerate myself. I need sustenance over time.”

“You’re keeping me prisoner,” you whisper fearfully.

“I could do that. But it would render the feeding less than satisfactory. It would mar that supply. You need to be healthy. Being trapped here would not be conducive to that end.” The suited figure pauses. “Why did you come here? You’ve disturbed nothing as far as I can tell.”

“I…I explore abandoned places,” you stammer.

“To what end?”

“Curiosity. I enjoy seeing preserved places like this. They’re like snapshots from a different time,” you reply more confidently.

“An appreciation for things of the past? I can respect that. I’ve always been sentimental in that regard. Nostalgic.” Another pause. “I think, with another drink I could get the electricity flowing. It’s all connected, you see. My lifeforce, and everything inside this establishment. It’s transformed me over time and grown into an entity in and of itself.”

You don’t comprehend what the yellow rabbit means save for the part of needing another meal. “You…you want to feed again?”

“Not yet. When you’ve recovered a bit longer. It takes time for volume to replenish, and longer still for cells to regenerate. It will just be a small amount next time.”

“So you are keeping me here.”

“You were not invited here. Yet still you came, of your own volition. I can hardly be responsible for your trespassing.” The rabbit leans closer to you. “After I’ve fed again, you are free to leave.”

“And then what?”

Another low chuckle emanates from the depths of the suit. “And then after several weeks have passed you return and make another…donation.”

“Why would I ever come back?”

“Because you are bound to this place now. And to me.”

You shiver. “What if I refuse?”

“I do not think you want to pursue that line of thinking.”

The implication is clearly threatening and you acquiesce. “Alright. Once more and then I leave.”

“Agreed,” the suited figure says, retreating into the shadows.

***

The yellow rabbit comes to you, startling you from a shallow sleep.

You recoil at his touch, the metal and fabric heavy upon your hand.

“It’s time,” he says.

You have no idea how long you’ve rested. It could be hours; it feels like minutes. Something about the concept of lying down while the creature feeds makes you feel too vulnerable. You struggle against the lethargy, managing to sit upright on the side of the narrow mattress.

The suited figure kneels down with a grace that defies the bulk of the costume. The glowing eyes regard you for a moment, then you feel your wrist turned, exposing the damaged skin. This time you do not struggle, surrendering fully. The pain is briefer, more muted as you feel teeth puncture, reopening the previous scabs. He does not linger, taking only what is needed. The sound of a latch being lifted follows and you feel gauze from what must be a first aid kit wrapped around your injured wrist.

Then you find yourself guided back through the darkness to the main entrance. You waver in front of the glass doors, the last barrier between you and the outside world, with its daylight and color, breaking the dark spell of the abandoned pizzeria.

You feel the yellow rabbit’s gaze still watching as you push the door open and exit, gasping in relief when you emerge without further mishap.

You’re free, but only for the moment.

#william afton x reader #william afton x you #dave miller x reader #dave miller x you #springtrap x you #springtrap x reader

[faithfromanewperspective]

these are a few of my favorite things (unfortunately not raindrops on roses and brown paper whatevers)

thanks to @thevagabondexpress and @ibrushmyteeth-donttellanyone (if i remember correctly) for the tag!

movie: i don't know. i don't really watch movies much. last one that made me feel something and still inspires what i do today is hacksaw ridge (saw it last 6 years ago and have to admit this may be Romantic Secondhand Appreciation but. i still think of it when i fight climate change. so it stays)

character: no character exists in a vacuum. i'm nominating all four merry thieves

animal: i know too much ecology to nominate a single one. i love all birds and large herbivorous marsupials as well as echidnas. guinea fowls (current pfp) really do reflect my personality a lot though

drink: smoothies. you can make them as delicious or as gross but healthy as you want. preferably both. no two smoothies are ever the same but rarely is a smoothie bad, they eliminate all the inconsistencies of fruit by simply pooling the sample pool together and averaging it out.

song: technically 2 songs but they're one track on the album so: has to go to outer space/carry on by 5 seconds of summer. creates such an atmosphere that goes perfectly with the story it tells, is terribly nostalgic, and ends in such an optimistic and encouraging way. tells of open ocean (did i once help design a space city with this inspo?) and the loneliness that's as if you're in space, longing for rain (i love rain okay you will see me in a raincoat taking photos of everything because it looks cooler when wet) just to feel something. longing for lost love. and the fact that through anything you can go on and life keeps going and you can survive it all but the way the (double) song sets it up you feel like you've gone on an adventure by the time you get there.

season: i love autumn and spring in equal measure for different reasons. i love brisbane winters when i don't have a 9-5 job but i also love sydney summers.

book: once you see it: 7 temptations of the western church by jeff christopherson. answering @tleeaves question from a while back (finally), have you done one of these? fully fangirled hard enough to message the author on facebook, we're somewhat friends now. but it tells the story of a bunch of different people from different backgrounds and uses narrative to drive its points, ending with them making something (i could talk about it for hours) that i long to emulate. while moving through organisations that embody these 7 temptations/mistakes and fail because of it, except they look exactly like the churches we know and yes. this is why they are failing in many ways if we just open our eyes to it we can do much better.

color: purple of some kind. maybe a darker purple?

hobby: all the things i do that connect me with nature and other people. from building recycled things for a purpose to taking care of birds to arranging poppunkrock songs for my viola and whoever else i play with to analysing the way fictional characters interact and applying it with real life people to canyoning (google it, it's incredibly fun) and hiking and rock climbing and of course designing civilisations for humans as well as other species

tagging (only if you want to of course): @completeanduttermess and @failempires and @what-ho-christopher-put-in

#the chain got me twice this week unfortunately

[chynandri]

New Start GO! 🌸 Epilogue 2 (END)

The second day. After ‘Harenohi Live’

Mitsuru: ♪~

Hajime and Nazuna: ………♪

Tomoya: Hey, what’s up Mitsuru? Why did you suddenly call me here?

If you only say ‘I’ll wait for you in the common room!’, I’m not gonna understand you know~ Can you at least tell me what you want?

Mitsuru: Ah, I’m coming I’m coming! I couldn’t wait!

The Live is over too, so I wanted to watch ‘New Start GO!’ with just the four of us. So I used Hold-hands to contact you~

Tomoya: Oh, I see. Then just say that?

Mitsuru: We were so busy prepping ‘Harenohi Live’, we only had time to watch the VTR.

(Translator’s Note: VTR stands for video tape recording or the pre-recording of a tv program.)

I’ve also been curious about the reactions in the studio and scenes where we didn't appear. So let's take a break while watching the replay.

Nazuna: Over here, there’s an empty seat~ Tomo-chin.

There’s leftover juice and snacks from yesterday’s party too. Let’s eat and watch at the same time♪

Tomoya: T-thanks.

Mitsuru: Do you want a drink? If you say so now, then Hajime-chan will help prepare lots to drink.

I wanted apple juice. It’s really good, I recommend it Tomo-chan~

Tomoya: Then I’ll have one too.

Hajime: Ok. Tomoya-kun wants apple juice too, right? Here, please take it.

Tomoya: Thanks, Hajime.

Speaking of, it’s been almost a month since we shot ‘New Start GO!’

Though it’s still cold outside, it’s starting to feel like spring. It’s also the season to start preparing for a new life.

Hajime: Haha, when shooting and broadcasting happens at different times it always feels strange.

I really can’t believe we’re about to be third years.

Tomoya: Yeah, exactly….. We finally made it to the age Nii~chan was when Ra*bits was formed.

Although we didn’t become seniors as outstanding as Nii~chan, we’ve truly made our way into the entertainment industry - that counts as something done through our own efforts, right…..?

Nazuna: Gosh. I wasn’t even that amazing back then?

I just felt like I couldn’t show my unreliable side to you juniors, so I tried my best to be strong~ Tomo-chin, to be honest you guys are far more reliable than me you know?

I’m really looking forward to seeing you guys become Yumenosaki’s top students!

Mitsuru: Mhm, we’ll become super sparkly third years!

Ah! Speaking of that come look! Mr. New Guy showed up just now!

It’s a scene of that time, right? I’m starting to get nostalgic♪

Tomoya: Ahaha….. actually back then the camera crew also came to the kitchen. When we saw this scene on the VTR afterwards we were so shocked - though I heard Mr. New Guy and the company consented to it. But it's pretty private, so I was still shocked.

Hajime: Haha, it shocked me too. Because they seemed to have recorded the entire thing.

But, that he was willing to publicize his frustrations means Mr. New Guy is happy with his coworkers right? It makes me happy that his situation ended like this.

Nazuna: About that, ‘Ra*bits reignited the new employee’s passion for work’. This subtitle is….?

I know it’s a tv program, but the wording of the subtitles is kinda too much.

Hajime: Mr. New Guy already was passionate about his work. He was just anxious about burdening everyone, so he gave himself too much pressure is all.

Connecting with people his own age, he finally realized his own worth and regained his confidence.

Tomoya: In our generation, there’s so many things that aren’t simple~ Even having confidence in ourselves is hard.

We showed Mr. New Guy’s passion to everyone around him. If we think of it like that, ‘New Start GO!’ was very successful.

Nazuna: You’re right. Good job everyone!

We’re about to reach our third year of being Ra*bits. Let’s keep trying our best to repay everyone who’s supported us.

Mitsuru: Yeah. I’ll do my best! To let Ra*bits’ brilliance reach even further!

Whoooo~! I already feel like I’m raring to go!

Even though we already had a celebration yesterday, I wanna do another one today and get even more pumped!!

Nii~chan, I want to do a toast!

Nazuna: Ahaha, did you want to do a toast just because you have a cup in your hand? That’s so you, Mitsuru-chin♪

But, it’s not a bad idea. Watching the replay of ‘New Start GO!’, I’m feeling a bit nostalgic for when we started the work experience too…..

So to keep up our good vibes, let’s do a toast♪

I hope Ra*bits gets to succeed and perform even more in the future…! Cheers!

Mitsuru and Tomoya: Cheers~!

Hajime: Cheers~…..⭐️

Masterpost

#enstars #ra*bits #hajime shino #nazuna nito #tomoya mashiro #mitsuru tenma #chyna translates too #ITS DONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[amageish]

Posting MCU-adjacent speculation on this blog feels like a dangerous precedent to set, but I gotta get this off my chest: Is Season 2 of What If? setting up, of all things, a MCU-ified take on the Captain Britain Corps?

So, we got a new trailer today and apparently Captain Carter and the Watcher are going to have some sort of unique bond in this season. Watcher is talking about there still being threats to the multiverse itself, he seems worried about that, and Carter and him even have this neat shot of them, together, watching the logo... It seems like it will be the Watcher and Carter specifically leading this charge to same the multiverse or the fabric of reality itself or whatever...

This British-themed-superhero trying to protect the world from multiversal threats reminds me of something...

In the comics, the Captain Britain Corps are a team of Captain Britains from across the multiverse who protect its integrity from universe-ending threats. Their debut in Alan Moore's Brian Braddock Captain Britain run established a lot of basic things that are taken for granted about the Marvel universe now - notably the concept of a Marvel multiverse where every universe has an assigned reality number. Yes, this very important idea comes from a Captain Britain comic of all places... Here's Spider-UK making a joke about it in End of the Spiderverse.

If some rando British dude named Brian getting to number the entire multiverse sounds kind of imperialist to you, then that's partially the point? Alan Moore is a satirist and his cape comics are often varying degrees of autocriticism - most famously with Watchmen, but his feelings about superhero media are kind of embodied in a lot of his work... This probably is a factor in why Brian's sister Betsy has taken the mantle more recently in the comics.

She is a Captain Britain rejected by the nation-state of Britain itself, with her role as a queer mutant woman Captain Britain being used for modern political commentary about how nationalistic symbols are weaponized by fascistic movements. Conservatives in Britain do not like Betsy, a queer female mutant, becoming Captain Britain because she is less easy to use as a fascistic rallying cry then the white British man who saves the multiverse. It's very meta, but well-done IMHO!

Now, Captain Carter is not a member of the Corps in the comics, but she did appear in Betsy's solo series earlier this year where she was briefly mind-controlled and Betsy had to break her out of it... They are still friendly with each other though.

In the MCU, if the Watcher is worried about threats to the multiverse and is going to be working with Carter specifically to solve them... I feel like it isn't too much of a stretch to say that she will be assembling a Captain-Britain-Corps-esque entity that consists of heroes from across the multiverse - though probably not specifically variants of Captain Britain like in the comics books, attempting to side-step the original comic's commentary on imperialism by making the team more diverse from the start.

I also think this could be how X-Men '97 is theoretically in the MCU Multiverse without annoying X-Men fans and disrupting that show's ability to operate as its own nostalgic throwback. What If? Season 2 could end with Captain Carter pitching the Corps to X-Men '97's Captain Britain (whether it is Betsy or Brian - it was Brian in the original show, but there's been a timeskip so I can see Betsy having taken the mantle over) in a cool artstyle-fusion sequence... and then multiverse business can just be a background thing that doesn't have to derail the main story X-Men '97 is wanting to tell. It's comic book accurate to have Captain Britain show up, be like "Sorry, love, I was dealing with multiverse stuff, what exactly is going on here?" and it'd get '97 easy MCU connection points (if being connected to the MCU is something that is good for the reputation of media at this point).

I don't know if any of this would be a good idea, but hey. It's a thought I had, I wanted to write it down to get it out of my head, and I figured I'd say it here in case it was interesting to anyone else... I'll close this post out with Betsy and her girlfriend Rachel... They are very cute.

#x men 97 #x men '97 #captain britain #what if

[koifly]

About James' backstory

So as you can tell, I haven't posted the backstory my OC James yet.

But that will change in a few weeks. I'm currently working on it but school and private problems often gets in the way of it. I'm not quite sure when it will be finished but I wanted to say that the story will have illustrated parts. I mean I gotta use my 'skills' in a way, right?

General information about the story:

The story on its own will not have any type of direct connection to the Slenderman. So no Slenderman showing up outside a window or something like that. Although, it will partly play in my AU of the forest in which the Slenderman resides in. The proxies do exist in that universe, as well as some of the other creeps. While working on James' story I'm also working on my own AU of creepypasta so there will definitely be connections.

This may be a surprise but James does NOT have a canon romantic interest, a bit different than the art I post of him with my version of Toby. I personally think that the romance is a bit unnecessary for his story and non of the proxies will be directly involved in his story for now. Maybe a small, subtle appearance or traces of one of them being near James, but no actual conversation.

I will mention this again when I actually post the story but here is the trigger warning list (for now):

-SA, abusive behaviour of authority

-Mention of SH

-Mention of delusions and hallucinations (I'm not sure if this TW is necessary but just in case)

What even is/does do James post-incident?

James is a sort of vengeful spirit. He is going to murder the man that has assaulted him, but not actively. Using psychological torture is his thing, so he will inflict no direct physical harm to the man. James is NOT a serial killer. He does not lure in people, he does not kill innocent people, he does not hurt wandering humans. His first and last murder will be the one that assaulted him. After that he will wander around the forest, like some sort of ghost. People are able to see him, but only how he WANTS to be perceived. I mentioned this in a post earlier, James has two official appearances.

1. Realistic post death corpse. I think the name sums it up pretty well, he just looks pretty disfigured, rotten and torn in that form.

2. Post death spirit. In this second form, he really just looks like how he did when he was alive. He still has blood running down his body, he still has bruises and wounds but in a way, he still looks alive. He doesn't look disfigured nor rotten. The closest non creepypasta character I can compare him too in that form is the final form of Chandramukhi in the first movie 'Chandramukhi' from the year 2005. (Great, nostalgic horror/comedy Tamil movie btw)

Just to make things clear, in no way whatsoever is James mentally well. He has schizophrenia, social anxiety and body dysmorphia. He is extremely sensitive to his surroundings and empathetic towards others. And no, I don't mean empathic in a healthy way but in a way that other's moods and problems directly affect him. He is a soul that will feel the same amount of fear, stress, anger, sadness, whatever feeling you want as the person he is currently spending time with. This causes him to be stressed and/or overwhelmed most of the time. So yes, he is a really nervous person, yet I don't want him to be perceived as some sort of 'soft boy'. James is a 21 years old male who was in university for a psychology major before he was murdered. I'm currently giving him a slight redesign so that his body and physique actually look appropriate to his lifestyle. He is a bharatanatyam dancer, he helps out in his sister's garage and regularly hits the gym. That guy is athletic af and not some damsel in distress just because his bharatanatyam clothes are pretty.

If you have any questions about James and/or my creepypasta AU, my ask box is open:)

(pls excuse any grammar mistakes, English isn't my first language)

So uhhh, yeah. I hope I'll finish the story and the illustrations soon. I still have some other art WiP's that I need to finish too but it'll come together.

Have a wonderful day/night:D

#artists on tumblr #creepypasta #creepypasta fandom #creepypasta oc #creepypasta au #creeepypasta #creepypasta ocs #creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta blog #james jayachandran #joy talking more than he should #oc backstory #oc #my oc

[firsttarotreader]

OH now I have a question for the cards. (Or other anons maybe 🤣🤣🤣)

Seeing the story about that singing lady in Bogota, could we know the factor that caused him to fall for people first if it's romantically? Like, most likely started with physical appearances?

Hiya! Second reading! Are you ready for the cards being brutally honest?? Because I asked what attracts him the most at first and they weren’t smooth or delicate with their answer. The first pull was the Ace of Hedgehogs, 3 of Spears and 8 of Flowers.

Ace of Hedgehogs in this specific context could point to physical attraction. This card can be about a very grounded, physical pleasure, someone he sees and falls for and he might possibly have 10 positions in his mind in 5 seconds. Then the 3 of Spears. Damn, he will be drawn to the drama. If it’s something he knows will not last, something that will definitely end, and potentially with that guaranteed heartbreak from the last reading. 8 of Flowers shows once again he will be attracted by something intense but fleeting, someone that will turn him on real fast, with whom he has a strong connection from the start. It’s that chemistry thing, you know. But it’s definitely bound to end very quickly. Think about him being drawn to the Bogotá singer and telling her he would stay in town for a couple of days still.

The next pull was The Emperor, 6 of Teacups and King of Teacups. With The Emperor, he will be attracted to people who let him take control of the situation, be the one who chooses the movie later. 6 of Teacups means he might like someone with a playful personality, someone that makes him feel nostalgic, like that feeling he got with his first love, maybe reminding him of his music or movies or book taste from his teen years or something. King of Teacups shows someone being passionate, affectionate, and that’s what he will become real soon when he meets someone he can share good times with.

The last pull was the 2 of Flowers reversed, Ace of Flowers reversed and 10 of Teacups reversed. Well, with the 2 of Flowers reversed, this man is gonna be attracted to someone he doesn’t have to make plans with, with no long term goals for them, no elaborated ideas, just living in the present. Ace of Wands reversed, in this context, might be pointing to someone with whom he has a strong spark with, but that he knows will fade quickly. They are not really open to new beginnings, so people with whom he can have one night stands, quick flings, would be very appealing to him. Then we have the 10 of Teacups reversed, showing us he will be drawn to people he knows he CANNOT have a happy ending with. He will love trouble, he will love passing flings, unavailable people and people who will be as commitment-phobes as he is.

So in the end, the man is gonna be attracted to hot people with whom he knows it will be a quick and intense thing, no strings attached, no “happy ending” in sight, even though he will love to be with people that connect with him in a deeper level. It’s gonna be deep, not superficial, but it shall not last, and in this case, the Bogotá singer makes a lot of sense.

#relationship #s*xual attraction #commitment phobe #Readings

[kevinsreviewcatalogue]

Review: Seed of Chucky (2004)

Seed of Chucky (2004)

Rated R for strong horror violence/gore, sexual content and language

<Originally posted at https://kevinsreviewcatalogue.blogspot.com/2023/07/review-seed-of-chucky-2004.html>

Score: 2 out of 5

Seed of Chucky is, without a doubt, the most overtly comedic entry in the Child's Play franchise, specifically serving as writer and now director Don Mancini's take on a John Waters movie, right down to casting Waters himself as a sleazy paparazzo. It's a film full of one-liners, broad gags, gory kills that are often played as the punchlines to jokes, and most importantly, sexual humor, particularly in its depiction of its non-binary main character that is admittedly of its time in some ways but also a lot more well-intentioned than its peers, and holds up better than you might think for a movie made in 2004. This was really the point where Mancini being an openly gay man was no longer merely incidental to the series, but started to directly inform its central themes. In a movie as violent and mean-spirited as a slasher movie about killer dolls, this was the one thing it needed to handle tastefully, and it more or less pulled it off, elevating the film in such a manner that, for all its other faults, I couldn't bring myself to really dislike it.

Unfortunately, it's also a movie that I wished I liked more than I did. It's better than Child's Play 3, I'll give it that, but it's also a movie where you can tell that Mancini, who until this point had only written the films, was a first-time director who was still green around the ears in that position, and that he was far more interested in the doll characters than the human ones. The jokes tend to be hit-or-miss and rely too much on either shock value or self-aware meta humor, its satire of Hollywood was incredibly shallow and made me nostalgic for Scream 3, and most of the human cast was completely forgettable and one-note. Everything connected to the dolls, from the animatronic work to the voice acting to the kills, was top-notch, but they were islands of goodness surrounded by a painfully mediocre horror-comedy.

Set six years after Bride of Chucky, our protagonist is a doll named... well, they go by both "Glen" and "Glenda" (a shout-out to an Ed Wood camp classic) throughout the film and variously use male and female pronouns. I'm gonna go ahead and go with "Glen" and "they/them", since a big part of their arc concerns them figuring out their gender identity, and just as I've used gender-neutral pronouns in past reviews for situations where a character's gender identity is a twist (for instance, in movies where the villain's identity isn't revealed until the end), so too will I use them here. Anyway, we start the film with an English comedian using Glen as part of an "edgy" ventriloquist routine, fully aware that they're actually a living doll and abusing them backstage. When Glen, who knows nothing about where they came from except that they're Japanese (or at least have "Made in Japan" stamped on their wrist), sees a sneak preview on TV for the new horror film Chucky Goes Psycho, based on an urban legend surrounding a pair of dolls that was found around the scene of multiple murders, they think that Chucky and Tiffany are their parents, run off from their abusive owner, and hop on a flight to Hollywood to meet them. There, Glen discovers the Chucky and Tiffany animatronics used in the film and, by reading from the mysterious amulet they've always carried around, imbues the souls of Charles Lee Ray and Tiffany Valentine into them. Brought back to life, Chucky and Tiffany seek to claim human bodies, with Tiffany setting her eyes on the real Jennifer Tilly, who's starring in Chucky Goes Psycho, and Chucky setting his on the musician and aspiring filmmaker Redman, who's making a Biblical epic that Tilly wants the lead role in.

More than any prior film in the series, this is one in which the human characters are almost entirely peripheral. Chucky and Tiffany are credited as themselves on the poster, the latter above the actress who voices her, and they get the most screen time and development out of anybody by far, a job that Brad Dourif and Jennifer Tilly proved before that they can do and which they pull off once again here. Specifically, their plot, in addition to the usual quest to become human by transferring their souls into others' bodies, concerns their attempts to mold Glen/Glenda in their respective images. Chucky wants them to be his son, specifically one who's as ruthless a killer as he is, while Tiffany, who's trying not to kill anyone anymore (even if she... occasionally relapses), hopes to make them her perfect daughter. Their arguments over their child's gender identity are a proxy for the divide between them overall as people, building on a thread from Bride of Chucky implying that maybe theirs wasn't the true love it seemed at first glance but a toxic relationship that was never going to end well, especially since they never bothered to ask Glen what they thought about the matter. Glen is the closest thing the film has to a real hero, somebody who doesn't fit into the binary boxes that Chucky and Tiffany, both deeply flawed individuals in their own right, try to force them into, and series newcomer Billy Boyd did a great job keeping up with both Dourif and Tilly at conveying a very unusual character. Whenever the dolls are on screen, the film is on fire.

I found myself wishing the film could've just been entirely about them, because when it came to the humans, it absolutely dragged. As good as Tilly was as the voice of Tiffany, her live-action self here feels far more one-dimensional. We're told that she's a diva who mistreats her staff and sleeps with directors for parts, but this only comes through on screen in a few moments, as otherwise Tilly plays "Jennifer Tilly" as just too ditzy to come off as a real asshole. As for Redman, it's clear that he is not an actor by trade outside of making cameo appearances, as he absolutely flounders when he's asked to actually carry scenes as a sleazy filmmaker parody of himself. Supporting characters like Jennifer's beleaguered assistant Joan and her chauffeur Stan are completely wasted, there simply to pad the body count even when it's indicated (in Joan's case especially) that they were shaping up to be more important characters. There was barely any actual horror, to the point that it detracted from the dolls' menace. The satire of showbiz mostly amounts to cheap jabs at Julia Roberts, Britney Spears, and the casting couch, and barely connects to the main plot with the dolls, even though there was a wealth of ideas the filmmakers could've drawn on connecting Glen's quest to figure out their identity with the manner in which sexual minorities and other societal outcasts have historically gravitated to the arts. This was a movie that could've taken place anywhere, with any set of main human characters, and it wouldn't have changed a single important thing about it, such was how they faded into the background. At least the kills were fun, creative, and bloody, including everything from razor-wire decapitations to people's faces getting melted off with both acid and fire, and the fact that I didn't care about the characters made it easier to just appreciate the special effects work and the quality of the doll animatronics.

The Bottom Line

Seed of Chucky is half of a good movie and half of a very forgettable one, and one that I can only recommend to diehard Chucky fans and fans of queer horror, in both cases for the stuff involving the dolls. It's not the worst Chucky movie, but it's not particularly good either.

#seed of chucky #chucky #2004 #2004 movies #horror #horror comedy #comedy #horror movies #comedy movies #slasher #slasher movies #supernatural horror #queer horror #brad dourif #jennifer tilly #billy boyd #hannah spearritt #don mancini #john waters #redman

[animekpop15]

Cos I like you

Prologue

Edit: watch the latest 2 kids room of bangchan x changbin and felix x changbin to understand some references.

Chapter 1

Hyunjin got back to the dorm after long hours of practicing. He grabbed a bottle of water and sat down on the sofa. Next to him, Bang Chan was excitedly texting someone.

Hyunjin smirked a bit and asked, "Hyung why are you looking at your phone like you're in love?"

Bang chan looked at hyunjin with shocked eyes and said "no no noo it's not like that. It's just I got in touch with an old friend after a long time. We sort of lost contact when I moved to Korea which was maaaany years ago so.."

"Ohhh wow that's nice. What's he like?" Hyunjin continued the conversation

"Well SHE's still just the same as before. She was always pretty sweet and kind. I'm glad we're talking again."

"So it is a girl. Hmm....waaait, did you tell her that you're a kpop idol? or does she already know?" Hyunjin got curious.

"Nope. Not a single clue. We were friends when we were 10 year olds and she only knew my Christian name, Chris. So I doubt it." Chan smiled to himself

Hyunjin chucked a bit and replied "She's gonnabe so shocked. I wonder how she'll react. What's her name?"

"Y/N"

"That doesn't sound Korean or Christian." Hyunjin stated. "Yeah I know. She's from India. But her parents moved to Australia. I used to have a lot of Indian friends in Australia. I feel so nostalgic now that I'm talking to her after a looong time."

"Oh wow hyung, you have friends from all over the  world. I wish I was like you." Hyunjin smiled.

"You want to see her pic?"

"Yeah sure."

They waited for y/n's selfie to upload.

After 5 minutes, bang chan rolled his eyes and said "The wi-fi is always so slow. I guess I'll have to show once the pic loads.." Chan sighed.

"Ahh it's okay don't worry. I can see the pic later. I'm sure she's pretty. Happy for you" Hyunjin replied in a teasing manner. Before Chan could reply, Hyunjin went off into his room with his bottle of water.

"I don't even know how she looks. Come on Hyunjin." Chan whined to himself but was still curious about how you've been and what you've been up to.

A new message popped up

Y/N: Am I so ugly that you won't even respond to my messages anymore? T^T

Chan: NOOOOO! it's the damn Wi-Fi. Your pic won't load. Wait...for the time being I'll send you my selfie and you can reply.

Y/N: will your WiFi let you send pics if the connection is so poor?

Chan sent the pic and the downloading circle kept on revolving.

Chan: I guess not :( we'll see each later I suppose.

Y/N: hmm okay. anyways how have u been? what's it like in Korea?

Chan thought for a minute before replying

Chan: pretty good! I'm pursuing higher studies. I live in a dorm. Other than that, I've been working on making my music. What about you?

Y/N: that sounds so exciting! I hope your dreams come true one day.

Chan chuckled at the message and thought little does she know.

Y/N: I'm also pursing my higher studies but all the classes are online so I'm at home haha. I'm actually coming to Korea for vacation soon. I thought if I'm going to Korea I could at least find the one friend who I knew also went there.

Chan: I'm really glad you did. It's so lovely to talk to you again. I hope you come to Korea soon so we can meet.

Y/N: same bro. I'll let you know the dates soon. Oh well g2g. TTYS?

Chan: Sure take care bye!

Chan switched off his phone and thought that he'll probably have to tell his members to pretend to be students for a while. He knows y/n will know the truth soon but it could be shocking to give y/n such a huge news abruptly.

Changbin came out of his room and in his most aegyo and high pitched voice said: Channiiiee hyung~ let's cuddle nowww pleaseeeee"

With a gleam in his eyes, Chan suddenly got up replied in a similar voice "Changbinniieeee~ I'll hold youuuu."

And they went off in his room to cuddle. Despite being older than the '00 liners, these 2 were way more playful and loved to act silly. Hyunjin heard their voices and rolled his eyes. 2 peas in a pod Hyunjin thought and smirked. Hyunjin's phone rang and he picked up. "Felix what's up?"

"Changbin again left me on read. Not that it bothers me though. Anyways what's up?"

"He's having a cuddle session with chan right now so I doubt he's gonna check his phone" Hyunjin said with a laugh.

"Ahhh I remember we used to do that too when we were roommates" felix said while looking at his changbin plushie and slightly pouting.

Hyunjin started laughing "you sound upset?? What is this? A love triangle? Want me to go tell Chan hyung to back off?"

"Hey hey hey it's not like that okay?" Felix replied in defence. Hyunjin was still laughing and replied "Sure sure, also you don't have to worry about Chan taking changbin hyung any-" Hyunjin stopped mid sentence. He didn't know if he should talk about y/n to Felix without Chan's permission.

"Huuuh? And why is that?" Felix asked playfully.

Hyunjin took a minute and replied

"Because he's mr steal your girl, not steal your boy."

And they both started laughing. After a few moments, felix replied "ok well the reason I was calling was because I wanted to come by and work on our unit song. Is that okay?

Hyunjin replied that it's okay and he can come anytime. Felix packed some food and left his dorm.

#felix x reader #lee felix x y/n #felix x you #felix fluff #felix imagine #felix x yn #felix x y/n #Felix lee #felix lee x you #felix #skz felix #felix imagines

[nekrophoria]

Music asks for @drawing-way-outside-the-lines

Thank you so much 💙

(Sorry for the weird format. Started writing this in my drafts and copying everything over on mobile is annoying as shit)

Mel

6. a song from before you were born

"I think this one...?"

The Cure - The Same Deep Water As You

"Don't quote me on that though. "

7. a song that reminds you of yourself

Emery - Churches and Serial Killers

14. a song you didn’t like at first but warmed up to

Good Charlotte - I just wanna live

"Funny...i didn't like the song when it came out...and now it's the only Good Charlotte song I can still listen to without cringing like hell. "

15. a song from one of your favorite artists

"Uhh...not really sure if I have a favourite at this point...

Probably... Keith Flint - Laughs"

19. some of your favorite lyrics (explain why if you want to)

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

"Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?

I'm gettin' old, and I need something to rely on

So, tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm gettin' tired, and I need somewhere to begin"

"Pretty...self explanatory."

22. a song from this year

(although Volatile technically plays in 2016 imma break the fourth walk here and pick a song from 2022 that I know he would like)

Korn - Lost in the Grandieur

Mabon

2. an all-time favorite song of yours

"Don't have one."

("The Legend Of Zelda Majora's Mask OST - Song Of Healing" he listens to it to calm down/drown out noise)

4. a song in your native language (if english, choose a song from your country)

"These guys are English, least they kinda sound English I dunno."

Kasabian - Reason is Treason

7. a song that reminds you of yourself

"No."

(Slipknot - Dead Memories)

11. a song that makes you wanna dance

"For fuck's sake..."

(actually none that I can think of)

18. a song from a genre you usually don’t enjoy

"...why do people even give a crap about the genre?

If I like something I like it, if I don't...I don't. Simple."

(He hates pop music but Madonna - Devil Wouldn't Recognize You he strangely enough doesn't mind at all. Maybe it's the piano, or a positive memory connected to it he can't quite pinpoint....You didn't hear that from me though. )

Simon

3. a song from your childhood

Tasmin Archer - Sleeping Satellite

"I think it was one of my sister's favourite songs for...quite a while actually. It was on pretty often and...I've just grown to subconsciously connect a lot of childhood memories with it."

7. a song that reminds you of yourself

Highly Supect - My Name Is Human

10. a song that makes you tear up

"Okay this one was hard. There are a lot of songs I absolutely adore but they don't really make me visibly emotional.

There was this one time. My dumb ass decided to do dxm on my own which was a damn bad idea because I was in a pretty vulnerable mental state all around. I was teetering at the edge of a bad trip throughout most of it, constantly trying to kinda pull myself back so...at some point I put on some music and got stuck on this one: IAMX - This Will Make You Love Again and the flood gates opened. I wasn't even really registering it, but it helped."

11. a song that makes you wanna dance

"Depends on the mood...Grendel - Harsh Generation is a pretty safe bet though."

21. a song that makes you nostalgic

Tool - Parabola

"That was the first Tool song I ever heard. Tool was the first band I really got into and...listening to this song really makes me miss this feeling of discovering a style of music you never quite heard before and this euphoric rush that comes with it.

That feeling's gotten rare these days. "

#Music asks #drawing way outside the lines #drugs tw

[rinion-b]

since we're about to hit the end of the year soon, and since i've been too busy with dev work to draw much recently, i've been putting some of my thoughts together on my relationship with art, social media, and all that.

like a lot of kids, i did some drawing and painting during my middle and highschool years. unlike a lot of kids, i was homeschooled. not having a social circle to pick up interests from meant two things: i rarely had to deal with people on a day-to-day basis unless they were my family (yay), and my life felt very boring (not yay). the art subjects, and being forced into a dichotomy of acrylic and watercolor as my main options, did not help.

it took me until the middle of college to start drawing for real. that year was the start of a lot of things for me, and tbh a big part of it was simply having other people that i didn't mind being around, even if i never truly connected with them. anyway, i made some assets for a tabletop game, and at that point i was following enough artists to know at least vaguely the kinds of things that i wanted to draw.

if i look at my files, i've been drawing for a bit over 2 years now. and there's undoubtedly a lot of improvement from when i started (i can only stand to look at like 2-3 drawings from back then, aside from the studies).

i do still want to go back to painting things like this eventually, but for the life of me i cannot figure out how to render a character or a full scene like this.

anyway, that's year 1. i started posting some stuff to twitter, and did mostly fanart or studies where i could find the time. i definitely noticed that i had a bit of an unhealthy relationship forming already with social media (i may not be diagnosed with ADHD, but the way notification indicators make me behave is a big reason i suspect i have it). i also started to fall off of drawing fanart of large, popular vtubers because, well... i'm not sure actually. the artificial interaction inflation from a vtuber fanart is definitely one part of it, but i also started to make friends within an indie vtuber's fanbase/friend circle which made me realize i was being a bit parasocial about one or two larger vtubers and hit the brakes there.

also, this was from an event from an art server where we did blind/telephone style chara design iteration off a picture of jewelry, and that opened my eyes to how much fun having an OC can be compared to being constrained by an existing design. (i do still have issues with fanart because i don't entirely understand how to adapt an existing design to my style the first few times i draw it.)

now, to take a slight detour, all this was happening on twitter or discord. i had used tumblr back in the day, but i barely posted anything and never really kept up with the popular stuff happening. until recently it was also still sort of weird memories because i never the friend group i had from back then... not going into detail, but there are some interesting types out there, and we all kind of grew apart until the group fractured and just sort of fell apart.

coming back here to start posting, even if all i have at the moment is reposting older art, is super comfortable and a bit nostalgic. that return also fell at a time where i had time and a proper idea for updating my personal site, and i do think that i'll be implementing a bit of a blog there as well. i don't mind getting personal on social media, but it's impossible to do easily on twitter and even here i'd prefer to never get notified that people i don't know interact with my more personal posts.

so that sort of brings the story to the current year. having a job makes it pretty hard to keep up with the friends i've made the way i want to, but i don't see myself ever going fully freelance because of how easily i burn out from outside pressure to create. i have a few OCs that i want to continue to flesh out, and i think my main goal for the near future is to evolve my art more with their designs until i can really say i like my ability to render a character and a scene at the same time (i have some ideas, but i need the time to tackle them, and to do a lot of studies).

next year, i want to focus on streaming at least a couple times a month after i get some graphics finished (or even before, and just work on those on stream). i want to just get a lot better at art. illustration is a lot of fun once i can get out of the sketch phase, and i also have dabbled a bit in animation, but 3D is also on the table for game dev purposes and also just character modeling (it's really cool i want models of my OCs and i'm a very DIY kind of person). oh and VR too.

basically, i guess next year is my year to push for being a little more "self-sufficient" and also self-indulgent, i suppose. also been picking up the guitar again recently, and might be buying a bass soon. the more time i spend having fun/working on things and the less time i spend looking at socmed notifications, the better it is for me.

#personal #very long post #sort of a thoughts dump/ramble

[stuckinakillingjar]

31 and 46 for the jjba ask game >:)

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31. RANK YOUR ORDER JOJO PARTSSSS

1. LOOK LOOK LOOK. STARDUST CRUSADERS IS THE BEST PART IN MY HUMBLE OPINION. the team dynamic, the characters, the relationships, the VILLAINS, the fights, FUCKINF DIOOO it's literally so good. dude i literally rushed through the anime in like 4 days it was sooo exciting. i know many people criticise part 3 for its repetitiveness but to be honest, i didn't feel like it was repetitive at all, i found it really entertaining and wasn't bored for a single episode. the last fight is inarguably the most iconic jojo fight ever and IT DESERVES THAT PLACE. sc is so fucking good i could talk about it all day long but i don't wanna pick apart every single thing rn 💀 all i wanna say is that we're never going to get another part that feels like stardust crusaders. i watched it in like the middle of march and it's already nostalgic to me 😭 there's just this immediate connection that i formed with the characters that made their deaths even sadder for me

2. golden wind. the team dynamic is really good too in this part. tbh for golden wind i'll talk about anime only because i didn't like the manga as much as the anime, and the main reason for that is that the anime adds a lot more to the characters backstories and relationships imo. do you fucking know how shocked i was when i found out that fugo's backstory and that scene of bucciarati and abbacchio meeting isn't manga canon. like wtf?? also the relationship between trish and bucciarati which literally makes me want to violently throw up and cry myself to sleep is shown way better in the anime. giorno as a jojo isn't exactly my favorite tbh, but the side cast balances it out, they're all very interesting characters. also this part really established the fucking ass pull stands that araki made up they're so funny. cioccolata's stand for example, or melone's like how the fuck do you come up with that. oh since we're talking about the villians, i liked la squadra, they were cool but a bit underused (is that even a word??). it would've been sick as fuck if la squadra and team bucciarati would have collaborated, they basically had the same goal of finding out diavolo's real identity. diavolo is bad villain imo, i already explained why in the last ask. changing the topic real quick i also find it cool how you can see how in this part araki made like, a bigger deal out of the whole fashion thing, i love the character design in gw. also fighting gold is the best jojo op

3. dude i'm slowly losing motivation i'm just gonna punch out the rest. third place goes to battle tendency because caesar is my poor little meow meow and joseph is my favorite dumbass bitch

4. diamond is unbreakable because kira

5. phantom blood mainly because dio is literally the funniest motherfucker in this part and erina and jonathan make my heart bleed

i won't rate part 6, 7 and 8 because i didn't really pay much attention during the stone ocean anime and i'm reading the manga for it right now, and i haven't read 7 and 8 yet

46. moment you wish never happened

tbh narancia's death was lowkey useless to the plot like what was the reason 😭

also the thing with yukako kidnapping koichi? like i still lowkey ship them because of the stuff that happens later in the cinderella arc but like,,, thinking about how crazy yukako really is makes it lowkey weird.

i'm trying to think of more stuff wait. ig kakyoin getting wounded so often in part 3 is kinda sad because he got less screentime because of it and also ABDUL DYING?? TWICE?? omg and the stardust crusaders hiding the fact that abdul was still alive after hol horse shot him from polnareff, it just made me so upset WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT 😭

bruh another part 5 thing; why in god's name is giorno 15 years old PLSSS. this dude deadass became a mafia boss at almost 16 years old. also, why did they make the golden wind timeline so fucking short? the entire plot went on for like what? 4 days?? they could've given them some damn time when you consider that they had to fight like 3 villains a day while mista shot himself like 60 times and everyone had to be healed by giorno over and over again like CHILL

ok this lowkey doesn't have anything to do with the original question anymore so let's just stop at this point 😭

thank you so much for the ask anon!

#asks #anon #jjba #ask game

[shawnjacksonsbs]

A personal revolution (?)

Maybe that's why. 2-17-24

"I believe we would be happier to have a personal revolution in our individual lives and go back to simpler living and more direct thinking.

It is the simple things of life that make living worthwhile, the sweet fundamental things such as love and duty, work and rest . . .

~The true way to live, is to enjoy every moment as it passes and surely it is in the everyday things around us that beauty of life lies" - Laura Ingalls Wilder

Some people aren't here, and some will never make it.

Although, I'll never give up on "them", I need never lose my place in the world, and in this life.

I worked hard to get here. "Hard" being relative to how I went through things more than what I went through.

I still have vague recollections of the old me's way of thinking.

Some ugly, some innocent, all naive. I understand how the ones that never find their way out . . .can't, more than don't or won't.

Examples are key for any following . . .even the plantings of seeds will never take hold properly without it.

Examples of right living in concert with love, patience, and boundaries are still our best way.

I'm all ears for any other rational approaches.

But the whole point is to not lose my focus along the way.

My journey can include outside offers, but they'll be nil and void if I lose sight of my peace.

Knock on wood, that hasn't happened. And don't see that being a thing, like a real thing ever.

It's always, and forever, just this moment. Stop stringing extra days with ya. Yesterdays and tomorrow are away from today for a reason. Let them be in their own place.

I feel a weird connection, not just because of the morality of the show Little House on the Prairie, but also because of her little farmhouse museum in Mansfield that we visited.

I have childhood memories of family having similar family farm houses, same style, decor, even the same smell.

It's weird how nostalgic it feels. I don't know if I even know a better word to describe it.

I do appreciate that part of me that reads, or watches something new and can connect . . .with its goodness(es). That is definitely a character trait I grew into these last 10 years or so.

I wouldn't trade what's in my heart now for just about anything. Unless, it was a trade from my heart to that of every other person to know and accept the same...parts that connect us, for real.

It's super early in the week, and of course, a little day time reading brought it out in me again, so . . .remember to share your love and your laughter with the world around you. Giving kindness is a gift for all parties involved, maybe even some not involved.

Until next week;

"Right seems to be obscured and truth is difficult to find but if the difficulty of finding the truth has increased our appreciation of its value, if the beauty of truth is plainer to us and more desired, then we have gathered treasure for the future.

~We lay away the gleanings of our years in edifice of our character, where nothing is ever lost. What have we stored away in this safe place during the season that is past?

Is it something that will keep sound and pure and sweet or something that is faulty and not worth storing?" - Laura Ingalls Wilder

[ilaiyayaya]

I wrote most of this like, several months ago but didn't feel comfortable posting for a lot of reasons, but most those reasons are kinda irrational tbh and it's Fuck It We Ball Friday so I'm finishing it. I'm probably gonna want to private it at some point but like I refuse to, I will not do it, if I do I'm yelling at myself.

I miss my old friends :'(

I mean I technically can, and sometimes do still talk to a lot of them, I haven't completely lost contact with all of them but like, I still don't talk to them nearly as much as I used to. To be fair a lot of the reason for that is entirely my fault, I'm literally in a Discord server with a majority of my old friends from RFCK but like, I rarely talk there because I (completely irrationally) feel weird trying to reconnect with them again after such a long period of going pretty much completely silent for like 2+ years.

I have WAY too many detailed memories of really specific moments and things from RFCK, like the time when I yelled at Happy for gambling and then got smited by god (Callum) after a nearly 2 hour long standoff. Or the 6.6 Lunchatons which were the biggest, most impactful events to ever happen in the entire server of course of course. Also I'm still the most based judge (I would NEVER be biased) and I would still gladly send any wretched bean enjoyers to prison for eternity (ew gross). Downtown bombing... ngl it was kinda overblown like it was kinda epic and funny. Kevin Race... :)

It's crazy because I don't really remember a lot of my life beyond a few years ago (for several reasons, likely little of which is due to actually having poor memory), so while I do have some memories from my early life, they're pretty sparse and vague. At this point a majority of my older memories that I've actually still retained are from RFCK, so despite it really only being like, a 2 year period of my life, it feels like one of the biggest, most impactful parts of my life.

I don't really have any plans to use my old OC for anything again, I feel like it's too connected with RFCK in my memories to ever use it for anything outside of Endless War, which tbh is kinda a shame because I still really like it, but like, I can just design a new OC :).

Hey guys, DigiGurren MLP here, uhhh I forgot the rest of my own copypasta but hey guys it's me DigiGurren MLP!

I-I-I missed, I missed Cool Duck's Bible Study session, I'm so sorry Cool Duck I'll never make it into Cool Duck heaven now 😢

Slime-Jim my beloved <3

I could probably make like 50 more posts of me just rambling on about random shit from RFCK because it's genuinely some of my best memories of my entire life and I remember way too many random obscure details and moments. But like, I probably won't, I may at some point make another post if I'm feeling particularly nostalgic over something specific from RFCK, but I think in general I'd prefer to keep it relatively separated from this blog, and I also don't want to constantly dwell on my memories of it, I already did that enough a few years ago.

Yea I make a background cameo in an official Chris-Chan comic, yea that fact does make me want to rot in a hole.

Discord based text based mmorpg playable entirely within your discord browser or whatever the marketing line was i kinda forgot it. I didn't forget the server link tho, I don't think mtSRXek will ever leave my head at this point, those letters have just melded with my subconscious.

Honestly if I had been the person I am now when I had joined the server 5 years ago, I probably wouldn't really like it that much, in hindsight there's a lot of stuff that went on that I was not really the biggest fan of, but I think it was overall balanced out by all the fun stuff, and I am 100% certain that I would be a significantly worse person today without it, assuming I would even be alive still had I not had such a great community at that time.

ALSO YOU FUCKERS (partially) MADE ME TRANS IT'S YOUR FAULTS (and also Umineko's fault)!!! FRICK YOU I HATE YOU ALL LICHERALLY DIE! got hit by one too many trans-beams and caught 3 too many trans breams le sigh 😔

#I fucking hate chris-chan #I refuse to ever actually tag something as RFCK or Endless War because I don't want anyone from there to see my schizoposts lol #If anyone I knew from RFCK ever sees this uhhh don't tell me lol #Our little secret okay? #i really hope nobody from rfck ever actually sees this #I would melt into a small green stain out of embarrassment and shame #!dab!dab!dab!dab!dab!dab!dab!dab!dab #:GWEsesWave: #:111: #This is me when when I have to teach my grandpa a lesson again. #@OOF #I LOVE SLIME!!!!!

[linettefox]

How to watch Sally Bollywood in the 2020s?

TL;DR: I wanted to watch an obscure childhood favorite of mine but struggled to find it. Eventually found it right there on YouTube.

RAMBLING INTRO:

During my kid to early teen years, I was obsessed with a show called Sally Bollywood: Super Detectives. I made YTPs, wrote her into a butt ton of fanfiction, and made my PfP on Sonic Amino and Wattpad an image of her. But like most things for some reason I stopped watching it, this has happened a lot with my interests as a child I would make up an excuse like me growing up, worry people would judge me for it, or deem the series as being the devil? (I still don't know how that last one got into my child-brain, it was about Yokai Watch btw). But in the past few years starting from late 2020 onwards, I have started revisiting these things. Some I still have little interest in for actually valid reasons but the important ones have all stuck around. (I.e Yokai Watch, MySims, etc) So my next move is to let Sally back in. But without Quobo the channel it was most known for being on how was I supposed to watch it?

SENSICAL:

Sally Bollywood's first season is streamable in full on what claims to be "the safest free streaming service for kids" Sensical. At first, the layout of this site confused me but once I found the search bar I was good.

This is all well and good but how do I watch season 2? Sensical excludes the second season entirely and Wikipedia has little information on it besides episode names and a few air dates. At first, I thought this meant season 2 was lost media but I have actually seen episode 11 Night At The Museum on YouTube. How did they get the episode?

EDIT: The one I found on YouTube is actually season 1 episode 7 Trouble At the Museum not Night At the Museum. Still, there are season 2 episodes reuploaded onto YouTube so still, how did they get the episode?

PRIME VIDEO:

Likely this is how. In some parts of the world, I'm not sure where the series is available on Prime Video. If you have a VPN and know exactly where it can be found then you can watch it there, I unfortunately cannot. For some reason, they do appear to be missing episode 1 and likely a few others. This will not do.

🏴‍☠️:

The full series is available on a site, just out of order... For the most part, there is very loose continuity so I suppose it doesn't matter which order it is watched but I personally hate this! Everything I watch I strive to watch in chronological order oldest to newest so for me there is no way in hell I'm watching it on this site.

Episode 1 is supposed to be Cockroach Capers.

YOUTUBE:

Finally, after much searching, I found it where I should have gone in the first place, YouTube. The official Sally Bollywood channel has every single episode in both English and French separated in playlists but also combined into hour-long videos and mixed around into compilations. All the Sally you could ever want is right here.

Another thing I found particularly interesting is their affiliation with LoliRock. This is another nostalgic show I have always loved, never in my life would I have imagined Iris, Talia, and Aurianna being friends with Sally and Doowee. The category is translated via Google Translate to: "Other friends for more adventures!". They are also both now connected to Totally Spies which I have not seen but know some people may find that interesting.

IN CONCLUSION:

If you want to watch this obscure children's show after the death of Qubo, here it is! Qubo had a very diverse catalog of shows and when it ended these shows belonged to so many different people who know what happened to them! I hope that all of them at least found a home somewhere whether it's YouTube or a free streaming service. I was so worried this would be partially lost now but glad it is alive. This is off-topic but there are four Sally Flash games I'm not sure of the origins of, I'm not sure how to get them working so that is actually lost media right there.

I do have a plugin that can make some Flash games playable again but it only works for games that have been archived. Anyway, enough rambling I have a show to watch bye!

#sally bollywood #doowee mcadam #finding nostalgic kid's shows #rip Qubo #where did Qubo shows go? #How to watch #My journey #Thank you for reading #obscure media