#because I really enjoy the research

[otaku553]

#genshin impact #albedo #tighnari #I think they’d get along great actually #imagine tighnari being Concerned TM for Albedo bc most of Albedo’s survival knowledge is for the snowy mountains #but Albedo physically can’t really die because of homunculus shenanigans so he’s touched by the unnecessary concern #tighnari thinking albedo’s a practical dumbass but an intellectual marvel #but being glad nonetheless to find someone who shares his views on knowledge being a pursuit of passion #and generally enjoying the presence of someone who is skeptical of the Akademiya and also values hands on and free research environments #I enjoy them haha

[moeblob]

Sorry I forgot Hanneman suggested Byleth undress after they show up with a different hair color. And I miss Hanneman. And also while swapping between Houses and Hopes and seeing Hanneman pop up to help in a Hopes paralogue is just devastating since he doesn't ever actually join you at all and I am denied my old man rights.

So I had to draw this. Thank you for understanding.

#fe three houses #byleth #hanneman von essar #i like that Byleth just kinda stares at him and he realizes WHAT HE SAID and the implications and is like #step back uh forget that I said that #like man so zoned in on research he blurts that out and has to backtrack mentally to AH socially bad to say that my bad #if i need to tag this as anything lemme know even though it is a conversation in game basically (minus the marriage) #also if you have never married hanneman i genuinely enjoyed his s support and was VERY surprised and hes just #honestly one of my favorites overall in 3h ?? and im still bummed i cant play as him in thropes like thats just mean #also i think if byleth was like oh well if its awkward to see someone undress randomly #then marriage would solve the awkwardness this is truly the best deduction #which is really funny that i can see it happening with both leths despite my hc of them #with fyleth as bi and myleth as ace i think both would just be like AH cool we can avoid awkwardness by marriage #and hanneman just wants to go lie down in a ditch because he said something like that #and and byleth doesnt even know about religion while working at church school they dont know about school regulations #that wasnt really on their mind to check ok just saying you could tell byleth no to something #and then they just go oh school policies i understand unfortunately #and the person is like no we just meant its frowned upon to do archery practice in the tea garden its not technically illegal just dont??

[greyhands]

#the wayhaven chronicles #n sewell #nate sewell #nate x detective #twc book 3 spoilers #I personally prefered the combat training scene #because of the dialogues #even if the setting in the research scene was more romantic #I have mixed feelings about this book though #I'm glad to learn new things about N's past and his insecurities #but gods I wish we had the opportunity to comfort him and to talk about the fight issue #I really enjoyed the first half of the book then to me the second kind of feels like... rushed ? idk #on the other hand I like how the romance isn't going to be a smooth and easy road #I've also read M's route and oh boi the feelings... !! #Next is A then F because I will probably need some fluff after A ^^;; #But nope no LT's route I'm a coward #my art #no full colors sorry no time ><

[good-beanswrites]

Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.

Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!

Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...

I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm

Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.

Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.

“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.

She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store. 

Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore. 

“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.

It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”

She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath. 

Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.

She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.

Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her. 

So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death. 

“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno. 

“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying. 

At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”

Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.

“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”

The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.

But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.

Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well? 

At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe. 

“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #amane and fuuta mentioned #i dont know how well this all fits in with your vision of the au but i had a ton of fun with this lmao sorry 😂 #oh hey if anyone knows any japanese superstitions like those in the beginning lmk #i was trying to research them but i kept getting lucky symbols/words - not necessarily actions like that #anyway thank you so much for this!! it was a really interesting moment to capture >:0 #drabbles that take me way too long to combine my three brain cells but im really pleased with the end result #i had a lot of Mahiru Thoughts but it took a bit of fiddling to make them fit together #the superstitiousness - the focus on one's presence - the parallels with his bf - what she's dealing with from the voices #im glad it came together semi-smoothly in the end asdfsd #i didnt mean for mahiru t break the fourth wall or anything -- #i always saw her as a master at picking up on social changes/cues so she can tell when things are most tense/kotoko is fully prepared #but she doesnt consciously know it -- she just knows that things feel Off #not only do the attacks confirm mahirus fear that shes cursed - but yunos involvement confirms her belief that shes extra lucky #i wonder if shed still end up spending all her time with yuno now that she thought she was such a protective person... #i couldnt articulate it right since the end was wrapping up so nicely - but mahiru starts to wonder if most people are fine being left alon #and *shes* the odd one out for craving company #then she feels isolated because by getting what she wants shes dooming someone else #i mean... if everyone you try to get close to starts getting hurt... wouldnt you worry about the same...? #AHAHAHAHA hope you enjoyed 🙃 #*posts this then retreats back into the void for a bit* #drabbles

[milkweedman]

The colors of the copper on blackberry dye seem to have shifted from maroon to a very rich milk chocolate brown--which I will hardly complain about, since that's a hard brown to get. I do hope I get something more permanently reddish/purplish with alum--that's what I'll try next. I'm just waiting for the 9 pounds of raw fleece to arrive.

Last night I carded a lot of that blackberry dyed fleece and then put it on the blending board with about half of the white (which was the previous distaff dressing) as a little stripe to one side. Idk, just curious how it'll turn out and seemed more interesting to spin that way. Carding first definitely helps with consistency--both colors were willowed first and put on the blending board, but only the brown was carded as well, and it is much easier to keep smooth and least kind of even.

The one improvement of this phone camera over my old one is that it has a timer setting, so I can actually show where my hands normally are (sometimes anyway). Fairly comfortable although my distaff hand is starting to cramp. Might just be one of those days or might be too heavy for me, but the shape at least is good.

You can probably see that the white is still all over the place, but the brown is pretty even, just with lumps still on occasion. Also, the new height of this spindle means it's perfect for lap spinning rather than impossible to lap spin with, so I'm very happy about that.

#spinning #handspun yarn #distaff #supported spindle #id tag the breed name normally but i dont know what this stuff is (its some of the more aged wool i have in my stash lol) #natural dyeing #blackberry #if you are wondering what is up with the banners its an attempt at anti-radfeming my posts #since they insist on reblogging them and blocking seems to do nothing #hopefully they will be effective bc i love them and my fiance sent them to me ❤️ #if not tho we'll phase into tasteful cock drawings #and if that doesnt work just straight up dick pics #its my blog and i love cock so thats not a problem for me and would actually probably improve morale #not jumping straight to it because im gonna assume most of the people who enjoy my fiber arts posts dont necessarily also want dicks #on their blog #but me not having to see radfem trash reblogging my experiments and research obviously takes priority #i use those terms loosely but hey i am writing it down. and trying to get answers to questions. so im pretty sure technically i am #conducting experiments and research at least on occasion #and now i have to go back to work. if anyone wants to mercy kill me on the way out the door id really appreciate it

[souvenirmp3]

im rewatching killing eve and im like huh so this is really how the west sees us (poland/russia/really anything east of berlin)

#vodka drinking mafia world stuck in the 70s #no the actors are not polish/russian how can you tell #because you cant teach a foreigner 3 polish phrases and expect it to sound okay.. it wont <3 #also im nitpicking but couldnt anyone take like 3 min to research that the letter x doesnt exist in polish? we wouldnt use it in a name??? #also yeah we dont greet people we dont know on the street like thats such an english thing? #anyway ive seen comments that the russian is gibberish too so.. #i really enjoy the show but it takes me out of it when its so blatant that nobody on set gave a shit #yellow mexico filter for eastern europe

[gaytobymeres]

i think the point of a university-level education is a bit lost on some of my course mates...

#things are not going to be spoon fed to you you will have to do your own research #seek out your own education guided by lectures and assignments #relish that freedom instead of lamenting it!! #some of these assignments are actually good and ive been able to tailor them to my interests #like rn im learning about the uses of bracken in ancient scotland! #i just did a whole project on tomato grafting (i love solanaceae - tomato family) and whilst it was hard i did enjoy reading about it #we had some mini essays to research and they were so interesting to research and fun to write because one of them was a comparing two #articles and one of them was really bad so it was fun to rip it to shreds and actually apply the knowledge we've been accumulating in class #but i think the point of doing all this is lost on some of them #which is a real shame #maybe im just a nerd? #i very much have the benefit of doing a degree before this so maybe im being harsh #but saying that assessments suck doesnt make them any more interesting #also we have so much free reign over topic that if it sucks it's kind of on you a lil bit #though i will admit some of the assignments are stupid

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[dropthedemiurge]

Me: seeing someone's analysis of SOTUS

Me: oooh it is so interesting, I watched SOTUS way before Bad Buddy and Not Me entered my life and I enjoyed it a lot, but I know it probably isn't up to "green flag" standards anymore, I'm rly curious to see people's opinions who watch SOTUS nowadays after other BLs!

The post: *hates on Krist because people told them to*

Me: ah ffs *closes it right away*

#no but for real #how people can dive into understanding the origins of Thai BLa and think about all the tropes and write metas and discussions.... #yet not even doing research about actors and base their opinion by headlines and baseless hate people parrotted over the internet #like?? it doesnt take much time?? to form your own opinion?? #also Krist really doesnt deserve the slander of intl fans and erasure of all his good qualities #and say what you want but Arthit is such a fascinating character and I enjoyed SOTUS mostly because of Krist's portrayal of him #sotus #thai bls #of course Singto is great too #but hisbcharacter was also flawed so what #shoutout to Rips who actually watched SOTUS unbiased and found it lovely

[otaku553]

An alt design (redesign?) for my demon slayer oc, koharu

Wanted to incorporate the little clouds inside the cape for more coherence with the other two Ebisu siblings, and figured that since they’re the main “researcher” of the family, and the one with the least physical strength to offer, their design should lean slightly more into academia with the cape and the hat! Was thinking of making it a tonbi (overcoat with shoulder-cape down to sleeve length and inner jacket) but I think the single long cape makes the design overall easier to read :)

#kimetsu no yaiba #kny oc #demon slayer oc #I am. in love with the outfits of the meiji to showa eras #i honestly can’t say much because I’m not Japanese and all I know is from rudimentary amounts of research on the internet but #I really enjoy the way capes and hats from western designs combined with more traditional looking clothes like kimono looks #I think koharu would wear the cap and cape in cities and surrounding areas where it’s more common to see a student around #whereas the haori is saved for mostly rural missions where looking like a student is impractical #the cape has the added benefit of making it very easy to hide their sword in broad daylight #they don’t put it through the belt because the way that the sword tilts forward is pretty obvious and could get them arrested #so the string on the belt loops lets it dangle more vertically to follow the legs more and be inconspicuous

[catsniffer420]

and i literally know that i’m in this situation because my reasons for signing up for this degree were not Authentic Reasons Of The Heart.

i didn’t sign up for a masters degree out of Passion, Excitement, or Hopefulness. i signed up because it was convenient to, because of my pride, because covid was happening and i didn’t know what else to do with myself after undergrad, because i wanted the external approval/validation of Having A Master’s Degree (i was younger and prideful/insecure ojay people grow up a lot between 22-25). like none of those reasons are actually relevant or genuine tho

those were the wrong reasons and thus my motivation and courage to complete the task have been forced. difficult to sustain. etc.

#thankfully i feel no shame or regret about my choice #because if i never tried this i would probably always wonder if i Could #and it turns out i Can but i just really dont fucking want to #i am intellectually capable of learning and executing a large number of scientific research shit but do i enjoy it? sadly no

[kurohaai]

Das & Ofi for Mermay 2022 AU

Das is based on an oarfish and probably think of Ofi as strange fish or seal. Figured out he's actually touch starved and followed this strange seal to shallow water.

Eventually becomes a concern for the local marine researchers and they ended up taking him to their facility to treat him for whatever ailment he got.

Das & Ofi - me

Eti - @heuristicallyinclined

Pavnis - @theartisticapparition

#Daseer Wanlyn #Ofelia Asvini #Etivor Petris #Pavnis Madron #Mermay 2022 #Mermaid AU #Kuroha Ai #Oarfish because nothing really known about them so I can BS my stuff #also long long boi #Ofi got jumpscared by aquatic sadako #ended up with sea puppers #majestic sea creature (lol) #also first time drawing human Ofi and I really enjoy it #also Ofi is a freelance diver who both part timing with the researchers and her dad's seaside restaurant #enjoys some thrill of extreme freediving and then met this mofo #yes I'm fashionably late but in my defense the sketches were done on May

[hylianengineer]

After two weeks of having almost nothing to do at work except read scientific papers, I think I've finally gotten over being scared of them. Actually, I think I'm starting to have fun.

And then I was doing writing research on a totally different topic and I went wait a second. I can read scientific papers on this. I'm not intimidated by them anymore - well, not much. Maybe a tiny bit, for the ones outside my field, because last week I tried to read a botany paper and oh dear god the jargon.

But I read a medical journal about chronic widespread pain, which I probably have, and it felt very empowering. I understood most of the important bits, googled the vocab when I needed to, and I learned some things that might be important. I read a paper where actual doctors were saying 'people can have mental illnesses and also pain disorders. this does not mean their pain isn't real.'

And it feels very revolutionary that I can just... do that. I can have access to the same information as experts in these fields, and I may not understand it as well or have all the context but it's something. Something I didn't have before.

#i never thought i'd say this but i'm enjoying a literature review god help me #and it does feel really important that i can read about my chronic health issues in the same journals as doctors might read #like the information is out there and i can find it and i may not understand all of it but i can get some things #it feels like evening out the imbalance of power that is doctor patient relationships. i know where the peer reviewed literature is and #that means i can fact check #i don't have to just assume/hope my doctors are competent. i can check what their colleagues are saying. #and i know it's kind of risky having information and not all the context to understand it but i feel so powerless and i need something #i read this paper that was basically saying 'just because someone has chronic pain and a mental illness does not mean #that the mental illness is the cause of the pain.' and god. that's such a big deal. #that's huge #and now if a doctor tries to pull that shit on me i'll know they're wrong because the peer reviewed research says so #i knew it anyway but now i can back it up #hylian rambles

[doritofalls]

so pumped up on loving kiyo juice this day!!

#edit: anon who wrote me about kiyo music taste hcs i gotcha i'll just need time to do research #because i only listen to three songs #i read one of the shinsai doujinshi i got a While back today #and it got me so pumped up!!!! #i really enjoy the different portrayals of kiyo he can be read in so many ways.... #mcfly.txt

[iamthepulta]

I'm inserting all my sources into Obsidian's Loom/Excel feature and I feel like such a baby newb.... I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to keep my sources straight and I have a really bad memory and I don't know how else to do it.

(If anyone has suggestions, please suggest. <3 )

#ptxt #possibly to delete #I hope this works well enough #I have 25+ relevant sources at this point and an Obsidian note document on each one. Summarizing this feels really daunting #I searched youtube videos and they were all about writing structure for your paragraphs and thesis; I feel okay with that. #The hardest part for me is assigning the source to each idea.... :( I have such a bad memory. Flipping back and forth is awful. #Having 'archaeometallurgy' in every single title probably doesn't help haha. #this feels shameful?? I know I shouldn't feel bad because this is my first time tackling such a large research presentation... #But I enjoy the process and the writing so much; not being able to remember which fact goes where is embarrassing.

[the-busy-ghost]

There are some books that are just BETTER if you go through them with a pencil and underline the shit out of tiny details, and honestly if anyone found Hogg's 'Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner' difficult to get into, I highly encourage you to give it another go and give yourself a license to extensively research & annotate every little bit

#I mean I'm biased I already liked it #But my reread was just ten times more enjoyable because I scribbled all over it #Marking in historical details and double-checking what looked like subtle references and thinking over things like faith humour gender etc #And above all NAMES my god that man likes playing with names #At least I think so #And how Hogg puts himself into the story and then doesn't and then does again?? #Classics aren't necessarily all going to be books that sweep you off your feet #Sometimes they're classics because you get to gnaw away at them like a worm with an apple #And you know I'm highly HIGHLY biased but I really enjoyed doing that with this book #It fits perfectly into some of my favourite literary pigeonholes #Ticks a lot of different boxes #And I doubt I will make any converts but as I'm aware taste in particular books is very personal #And unlike say Wuthering Heights the particular reasons I liked Hogg's confessions aren't necessarily common #But also this website has analysed the hell out of Dracula for the last two years #And I grant you Confessions doesn't have as much action but takin just a little bit of that annotating and research energy into it #Really improves the whole experience of reading this book #reading log