#because i am waiting to be home

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#sherlock #it might be the cough medicine but I'm really feeling the bbc sherlock wedding episode today #a good feeling ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #like finding an old block of cheese in the back of the fridge you forgot about and its gotten super hard and chewy #i currently have half a block of gouda curating in the vegetable cupboard #waiting #how are you doing friends!! C: #I'm good! I still have the cough but I also got a new scarf #I'm still thinking about buying window colors as well but I am waiting if that is also just because of the cough medicine #I can't believe it's already been a year since I have moved! last year I was doing everything here for the first time #and now everything is happening for a second time! that year was both very long and also happened very fast #our floor in the “office” my father wanted to install still is not completly done but he threw up last time he tried #he did not threw up because of the floor but because every time he does a home renovation project he drinks 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola #we are trying to not make him drink 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola but he doesn't want anyone else to finish the floor I think so we just do #not mention the hole in the floor #have a nice autumn day friends!! I hope you're doing well! ( ´͈ ◡ `͈ ) #♥

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i think i need a lobotomy

#weee single hued barn because i Couldnt Be Fucked! #also i Do love single hue things. it always looks tasty <3 #and its a fun little exercise in values! or something! am i making excuses! maybe! #anyway im back on my Putting Guys In Outfits bullshit #theres not enough barnaby art.... #theres not enough Handsome barnaby art.... #scribble garnish #welcome home puppet show #welcome home #barnaby b beagle #hes my everythinggggggg #cant wait to see him get Fucked Up 🕺 Fucked Up 💃 Fucked Up 🍻 #every day i wake up and look at the teeny tiny barnaby in the teeny tiny heart shaped locket In My Mind #Also. an aside. a Thought i had while doodling. #a Genuine Curiosity musing. #i wonder what kinda drinks the neighbors would favor... #what would they order at a bar if they could go to one... #im soooo fucking curious guys im. I WANNA KNOW #what drink should i have put in barn's hand. hm. This Question Will Forever Haunt The Depths Of My Skull

[onehundredfallenpetals]

A change of trains, an unexpected companion on the way home

#persona 5 #persona 5 royal #shuake #akeshu #amamiya ren #p5 joker #goro akechi #akechi goro #persona 5 protagonist #p5r #kurusu akira #akira kurusu #I am late on my posting schedule again!! Sorry!! My brain is wanting me to do studies but if I do studies I don't finish the piece on time #but if I don't do studies I also don't finish the piece in time because my stupid brain and ability to analyse is telling me I can improve #Also real glad I added the silhouette person in there #makes the train feel like there are more people than just shuake on board #Story for this one is Akechi catching up with Akira when he has to change trains + wait a bit for the next train to come #He gets on the same train as Akira and looks for him in the train cars #Akira has already fallen asleep cause he's been on a train for hours so Akechi wormed his way in #and is shushing Mona to not wake him so he can surprise Akira when he wakes up at his stop at home! #Also took Akira's glasses off for him so he's not sleeping in them

[ch1zzie]

The original in the bottom

Plus the picture I mainly drew but decided to draw the rest for funny

#thats not my neighbor #milk man #just tried to draw something in my mind to post along with saying some updates #monday the people are gonna give my grandma the keys to the house! while i have to stay at my aunts place for wifi for school #(online school) #my moms gonna be moving things out of storage into the house! AAAA I CANT WAIT #also little welcome home update #im not sure if i said here? wait nevermind i just remembered while typing (it was that i got barnaby and the pins) AAA silly me #also im making a little julie out of clay (if i wake up and their messed up i am NOT redoing that😭) #the legs are a little messed up because julie was gonna be the size of an hatsune miku figure on accident so i chose to shorten her a bit #only because im not sure if im gonna make the others too AND because theres no way hes gonna be THAT tall😭 #also! im making easter art #yes its barnaby and wally again just for fun! but a few changes like keeping their regular outfits because i cant think of anything else!!! #why not the ones in the old easter drawing? welllll a follower said that wallys outfit looked a bit familiar to another not so good thing #it wasnt on purpose just an accident because i hadn't notice BUT im glad i know now so i can be more careful! #im not sureeee if im gonna finish the easter art OR the julie clay thingy but I'd love too! and honestly HOPE to #high chance i will (well maybe the easter art could be late or not) #maaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAA trying to think if theres anything else but cant! ill try posting this hoping my wifi wont hate me... #also i know i said this account was for welcome home posting but i didnt have any cool welcome homey things to put here gahhhhh #ehehehhe once i get my new room and its allllll just me #imma post like crazy (wellll that IS the plan so i hope) #even if its little dumb posts #by the way this post was gonna say on top “i know i said this account is for welcome home posting but TAKE THIS FOR LITTLE UPDATES” #just removed it because i dunnooooo just didded #hehe didded

[yea-baiyi]

i keep thinking about the odyssey i am THINKING about wei wuxian as odysseus. you were dead. its been years since you’ve seen your family. the child you left behind is almost a man. you wear a face they don’t recognise, you sneak in through the back door. the dog gives your identity away. the world knows it’s you when you draw your weapon. the person you love recognises you by the original symbol of your love—a secret that no one else in the world knows about, still, because they kept it safe for all these years. you get the chance to go back and despite everything, you found home waiting for you; he kept your place and raised your son and he was still there waiting for you when you got back. tell me o muse, about a complicated man i am extremely not okay

#cql #mdzs #wangxian #wwx #lwj #meta stuff #greek mythology #i am not fine i am not sane in the slightest #no idea if i’ve posted something similar to this before #i definitely started my odyssey journey thinking about them but then i got sidetracked with. the actual odyssey #i have been on an absolute greek tragedy bender though so there’s. plenty more to come. but also. HHHHH #the dog thing is so silly but i couldn’t help keeping it in because that is SO funny #this is soooo self indulgent i am sorry for subjecting u all to this #thank u to helendamnation my beloved for listening to all my rambling this weekend about this #jesus. home waited. the odyssey is about many things but it is about a man coming home. #and despite everything. he gets to come home. and he gets it because his home waited for him. #despite him being dead. despite the gods. despite the suitors and the pressure and the doubt. #in most stories home moves on without you but this time. this one time. home waited. #homeric hyperfixation haze

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

If a ghost says it, you have to do it.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #If you squint hard enough you can tell when this one was 'supposed' to come out. #comic break aside - It is nice to have a good buffer again! #did anyone else play around with spirits at sleepovers or hangout with your friends/cousins/siblings? #I had many a night in a dark forest with a cloak and flashlight (candles not allowed) #someone always takes the role of 'I am the sensitive spirit medium and you have to do as the ghost says' #in yunmeng sibling terms that was probably wwx. JYL went with it for fun but JC absolutely believed it and *loathed* it #Anyways. When you're the prankster you definitely get sensitive for people trying to pull the same tricks on you. #I think LWJ absolutely would be cheeky enough to pull a 'ghost said so' on WWX or the juniors #But not when he's on the clock. Work comes first and he's not going to play around. #He'd opt to play his guqin on the porch while he waits for wwx to come home and when wwx compliments his song he'd be like: #“Actually it was the spirit haunting the place. It says we have to kiss for it to be appeased” #and of course wwx is like “damn if the ghost says so I gotta.” because they area awful like that

[uselessnbee]

what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.

or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!

and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes

and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you

#i am not trying to victim blame or anything i love Sally and she did her best and didn't deserve any of the crap life gave her #but there's just something so tragic about the fact that she married a vile man and suffered abuse to protect her son #just for her decision to hurt him anyways just in a different way but the only other option would probably be Percy ending up dead #so she can't really truly regret it but she just wishes those weren't their only options #that she didn't have to do this just so that her child could stay alive #thinking about it makes me go feral #they had no choice but to suffer there was no way for their lives to be without this much hurt and trauma and it's terrible #and they didn't deserve it but there was so much love too #but the horrible thing is that that love just wasn't enough to save them from all that pain and i need to be sedated bye #percy jackson #sally jackson #pjo #hoo #percy and sally #percy jackon and the olympians #whatever you do don't think about a six years old lonely Percy sitting in a corner waiting for his mom to come back home from work #and he knows she loves him but he misses her so much when she spends so much time in work and that hurts #don't think about a ten years old Percy being sent away to a boarding school and he knows his mom loves him #but what if she's sending him away because he's just too much? or not enough? and what if she doesn't want him anymore? #and he knows that's not true but what if? #i'm thinking it #okay i think that's enough

[apple-grass-and-smiles]

Very cool and not heartbreaking at all for the PJO show to emphasize that Percy is an outsider not only because he's new to the whole demigod thing, but also because he doesn't know the rules of being a traumatized kid with all the daddy/mommy issues possible

#Percy all the time: wait I treated them with kindness and didn't do anything bad #why am I not being treated kindly in return #absolutely everyone else: why on earth would you be entitled to basic human decency? #(and for the kids it's 1000% down to trauma and how they've been raised #so many of the foster kiddos I work with do the same thing #they either have to be so good and perfect (Clarisse and annabeth) that they can't be ignored which works until the parent moves #the goalpost and they're left in the dust with a perfect report card that doesn't get them a second glance #or they have to be so bad that their parents have to intervene (Luke) because #and say it with me folks #bad attention is the same as good attention if it's the only kind you ever get!! #watching this and revisiting TLT specifically has been crazy because they're kids who have been removed from home at their core #that's what our main cast of demigods are #all the year-round kids are removed from home and Percy's ability to go back home and love it just as much as he loves camp is something #that separates him throughout the series #he has a safe place to land during the TLO summer and he's using it and no one else seems to have that #Percy has a stupidly hard life but he has a home base to go to and most of those kids can't even comprehend that as an option #Percy's home is his greatest strength and it'll also forever be something that sets him apart from his peers #I just have thoughts on pjo and foster kids guys #silence emily #percy jackson #pjo tv #I'm arguing this isn't even a spoiler because it's been a running theme. fight me

[teachyouhowtodothesponge]

whats ur opinion on Home and Wally? Do you think theyre the "ultimate bad guy duo?" Meaning, do you think theyre the main villains of the story or no?

I am like 40% sure they are evil...but 60% certain they are being controlled by something greater.

I have doodled Wally evil many times! I think Home and Wally could be "evil" , but I wouldn't bet my money on it. He could very well be possessed by something or someone. He is a puppet afterall. Gotta have a puppet master! Right now I am going to say Wally and, possibly Home, are possessed by something greater.

#or you know...Home could be the main big bad #They are always in the backround just staring #And they are responsible for that black stuff that makes people sick so It could very well be Home #But I am still gonna say they are both being possessed because we still dont know much abot Ronald Doralaine #Or really any of the cast for that matter! #Cant wait for this next update though! AAAA #eye contact #welcome home #welcome home arg #wally darling #welcome home home #my art #doodles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ON THE SUBJECT OF A MARCH 1ST UPDATE LIVESTREAM.

so due to newly-employed circumstances, i most likely won't be able to stream my exploration of the update until the Sunday after it drops - March 3rd, likely around 10 am pst.

im not gonna ask anyone to wait because that's unreasonable and absurd, However! I am curious:

#im asking instead of cancelling it outright #because i know how fun it can be to see someone explore/discover/watch something youve already enjoyed #plus. if i may so bold as to say! #who knows! maybe some of you actually Want to hear me speculate and go bonkers On Mic <3 #absolutely unprompted #marked for deletion #welcome home #Why Am I Waiting Until The Third? #it will most likely be my first day off! #i dont wanna explore the update when im exhausted after a 9 hour shift lmfao #and i don't want to explore it in the morning before work when im on a crunch #i want Time! i want Energy! im gonna need all the brainpower i can cobble together! #oh man the upcoming full day of Active Avoidance #i might actually turn off my phone lmfao #bc muscle memory is gonna take me to tumblr & That has burned me so many times... #im not gonna use tumblr im not gonna use discord #im gonna queue up youtube videos so that i dont risk seeing anything on the homepage #babey im Hunkering Down! #i will simply spend my free time after work with myself. crochet. doodle. sit and stare at a wall #sob viciously bc im missing out #its interesting. so much of my life has been Being Late To The Proverbial Party & Missing Out On Experiences. #and by interesting i mean it makes me violent. sigh. but we deal! what else is there to do!

[plantboiart]

Projection time once again. Kian as a little kid with autism who doesn’t realize people don’t like him. Who gets so excited over everything and shares his interests with everyone and doesn’t get why people always seem to end up finding him annoying. Kian who tries so desperately to make friends but always messes it up somehow. Kian who latches onto every new person he meets because they haven’t gotten the chance to get sick of him yet. Kian who is so desperate for love and attention but never receives it before he moves go Galloway and meets the other guys. Kian who spends ages before finally telling them about his love for music because he doesn’t know how to stop himself from going overboard and he doesn’t want to lose them too. Kian who can never act normal enough to truly feel wanted and loved.

#kian who knows hes annoying but keeps going anyways because he just desperately wishes hell be loved anyways #kian who has rand and rolan tease him about his interests with 0 malice but who still waits for the day they end up getting tired of him #kian who never believes himself to truly be wanted. only tolerated. #kian who plays into the character he’s perceived as because at least that way if hes hated they dont hate who he really is underneath #kian who never says when the teasing hits too close to home because hes terrified of the reaction if he tells them #anyways. uh. pretty sure my irl friends wont read this post but #idk really hope they dont! i am far more comfortable sharing this with strangers on tumblr! #jrwi show #jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi bitb #jrwi blood in the bayou #blood in the bayou #kian stone #jrwi kian #bitb kian #autistic kian stone propaganda once again

[laineystein]

Find the light. Create the light. Be the light. Thank Hashem because it is everywhere.

My trip back to the hellscape that is New York…

The only reason my husband and I were approved to leave the country (while still technically on miluim) is because we a) were asked to speak at our old school about the war and the IDF and other Israeli things and 2) we had a definitive return date. BH we also had two weddings, a bris, and a birthday to celebrate so it worked out. It was (mostly) rainy and windy and grey and cold but it was so nice seeing some of my favorite people. We had a beautiful Shabbos outside of the city and I got alllllll of the doda snuggles. I also spent a good majority of the trip reminding these same people that they should make Aliyah so I could see them more often.

During my trip, I spoke with a group teenagers and, like my MDA students, it mostly turned into a conversation about their fears as young adults in an anti-Jewish world. But they gave me so much hope for the next generation. It was also great to see that my old school is finally encouraging female IDF service — non-combat, of course. I was a pariah when I graduated and now the thing I did is being celebrated. It feels like yesterday that I was graduating but it was actually well over a decade ago so I guess the progress was to be expected at some point. But all of the students were telling me about their upcoming (or recently finished) masa (and similar) trips and how excited they are and how proud they are to be able to give back to this place they call home and to help their fellow Jews.

As lovely as the trip was, I’m so ready to be back home. The older I get, the harder it is to leave Israel. During war, it’s practically unbearable. So I get why, amongst the chaos, diaspora Jews are choosing to travel to Israel. We do not run away from the chaos, we run toward it - especially when it is our people and our land that are suffering. In this past week’s parashah was all about how the Jews gave willingly in a rebuilding of the mishkan. We gave so much that it was also too much. We had to be told to stop. It’s such a metaphor for what we’re going through today and I love this for us. I love it so much. May we never stop giving. May it never be too much. May we continue winning Hashem’s favor while Am Yisrael continues to heal. May Moshiach come and redeem us all, amen. 🙏🏼

#lainey things #my heart my home #because: antisemitism #I am EXHAUSTED and can’t wait to be back in my home in my bed IYH

[arc-digital-art]

Been seeing snippets of @alice-angel12x's Neverland AU on youtube and suddenly needed to draw Tinkerbell Wally more than I needed air

#welcome home #welcome home au #wally darling #ok real TALK #the story of peter pan has been my favorite since i was like 5 #and never fairies were my first special interest so #this au?????? made for me #i love the idea of the lost neighbors #and a y/n pan has my self insert loving ass foaming at the mouth #im for sure planning to draw more from this au #cant wait to see more content from fallen pegasus because i am desprate to see how this version of the story plays out #welcome home neverland au #welcome to neverland au

[whumpfish]

Conditioned whumpees who respond realistically to being on the outside

Whumpees who display appeasement or avoidance or incessantly apologizing or fleeing when they think someone might be upset with them

Whumpees who are afraid of the punishment they've become accustomed to

Whumpees who recreate lesser punishments to reassure themselves that they will not get the worst option

Whumpees who yell and berate themselves loudly when they make a mistake because in their mind, as long as there is yelling, the consequences end there

Whumpees who inflict small violences on themselves, hitting and pulling so that their caretaker won't have to

Whumpees who hide all the knives/potential instruments of torture if they suspect someone will be angry when they come home

Whumpees who take the initiative to try to influence or control how people respond to them and what they do

Whumpees who push boundaries, who test the waters by doing things that the whumper would have punished them for

Whumpees who keep pushing, for whom life becomes about doing the most terrifying thing they can think of just to see if no one will hurt them for it

Whumpees who do this to the point of self-detriment because their concept of what constitutes dangerous behavior is completely fucked

Whumpees who are people thrust into a world with rules they no longer know with people whom they can no longer read

Whumpees whose stories are about them and their journey into that world, not about their caretaker's shock and horror at their condition

#y'all ALL I DID after i got away from my ex was shit she wouldn't let me #i listened to my own music in my own car #i blasted it as loud as i could #i put my purse on the table when i got home #i waited till tomorrow to do all the housework #on the other end i would scream and yell at myself #about how useless and stupid and unreliable and embarrassing i am #if i was late or forgot something #because if she was yelling she wasn't plotting 2 weeks extended punishment #and if i did not hear yelling i assumed the 2 week option #conditioning does not turn you into a sniveling obsequious pile of jello #it just leaves you completely unprepared for life once you're out #whumpblr #whump #whump prompt #whump scenario #whump tropes #whumpee #whumpee should be the focus of whump #do not ever and i mean ever forget that #whump community

[lovesickeros]

Hiii just popping out to say thank you for feeding my sagau reader x furina brainroot by small interactions in "Even the Gods bleed." (Sorry if I wrote it incorrectly, I didn't get proper sleep.)

They way reader tugged at Furina's cheek— hell yeah your Grace I understand you.

i am always down to feed other furina enjoyers. at some point i need to give furi her own solo fic with reader but i know im gonna make it like triple the length of everything else..favoritism at its finest!! and proud of it. furina gets priority in everything.

#asks #anon #stares at my pending package. i bought a $55 furina plush i am Dedicated #if no one else got me i know i do. self indulgent furina/reader is my new specialty #i think abt pre/post archon quest furina all the time like #pre aq shes still very bubbly and dramatic but internally her anxiety is 10x WORSE bc now she has to compete #with ACTUAL archons on earning your favor and shes probably had 16 breakdowns in the span of 3 days over it #please give her a hug and reassure her she is like a cat w seperation anxiety sitting at the door waiting for u to come home #post aq shes a lot more mellowed out but also. once again. worse!!!! #because now she cant even say shes the hydro archon and have an excuse to be allowed to see you whenever she wants #shes just. a human now. so she kinda resigns herself to just never getting to see you again except maybe in passing #once again Please Give Her A Hug SHE DESERVES IT 💔 #sorry i ranted too much um. runs. #never ask me abt furina sagau i think abt it too much #dont know if ill be continuing the series unfortunately so no more furina on that front uhh. oops.