#because it would have pissed me off if I got the color wrong lol

[zankydraws]

You got any Wekiddy headcannons? Especially for MJ?

idk if these count as hcs or not but I might have some!

MJ 182: - he's a shapeshifting alien. idk what his true form would be yet but I want to draw it someday, I'd go with some sort of anthro reptile/shark mix probably - a bit of an asshole, likes to cause problems on purpose (his main goal is pissing off El Cool P) - loves pop-punk (bruh MJ makes me wish there was an actual pop-punk version of Incredibox where he's the main character..) - he thinks Xenomorph is a hottie.. (dfkgjhdfks) - I like to think he's a good artist, specifically good at spray painting (and he uses his talent to destroy public property or El Cool P's belongings) - definitely the most rebellious guy in the group - hates to dress up - can and will bite people (mostly Cool P)

El Cool P: - huge ego. absolutely massive - probably commits crimes (loves arson) - idk there's something wrong with him - would do good stuff for people (like giving money to charity) just to make himself feel better and make people love him more - uses his good looks and charm to his advantage - if he wants something, he WILL get it - probably has tons of merch with his own stupid face on it (he owns an El Cool Shirt and an El Cool Plushie for sure) - owns like millions of suits (and matching bucket hats) - argues with MJ all the time - a terrible driver (don't get into a car with him) (how did he even get a driving license?)

KC Glow: - precious baby boy, an absolute angel - looooong sleeves - does the excited flappy hand thing a lot - can actually glow in the dark, somehow - has freckles! - you could probably pick him up and carry him around and he would be chill about it

ASAP Bee: - looks like a cinnamon roll but could kill you - loves bees, they are his best buddies - probably stores bees in his fanny pack - if you hurt/kill a bee, he will beat the shit out of you - seriously don't mess with him and his bee friends - loves bee memes, puns and everything bee related - owns a machine gun (this one is ridiclous but some people call him a machine gun guy and it made me think that it would be funny if he actually owned a gun. so don't mess with his bees unless you want a bullet in your butt) - absolutely loves honey, he's obsessed with it, always carries a bottle/jar of honey around

Big Duke: - looks like a cinnamon roll and is a cinnamon roll - a very chill and nice guy - always ready to help! - I like to think he's a little chubby - short king

Swingy: - works out a lot, he's very fit and pretty strong - I talked about this some time ago but he gives me the 80's fitness instructor vibes so he can probably teach people how to work out properly and dance - kinda stupid but he's very nice! :D - loves food and eats all the time - likes his hair a lot and doesn't want anyone touching it - generally likes to look pretty

Blue GT: - kind of a bitch - has heterochromia (I drew him with different eye colors once and loved the idea a lot lol) - he's sooo tired of hearing MJ and Cool P argue ("just kill each other already") - he just wants to be left alone - wears turtlenecks and rings - has to look fabulous at all times - loves coffee

Memphis: - doesn't want to get in trouble but somehow always ends up getting in trouble because of MJ or Cool P (because they are assholes) (Mephis still likes to spend time with his buddies tho, even if it doesn't always end up being good for him) - his hair is extremely floofy and soft, it's unbelievable - he seems a little shy to me..

and that's all I guess.. I don't really have any headcanons for the other dudes, but I might come up with something someday

#zankyanswers #sorry it took me a while to respond

[hals-homo-blog]

Ponycard Art Dump

I don't remember *when* exactly I did these. I think like, in the fall of 2023? Maybe? Memory Loss? Help?

I HAD SOOOO MUCH FUN DESIGNING PONYCARD. Is he a changeling? Is he an Alicorn God? Who knows, that's the thing about LuLu, he loves to keep people guessing. I gave him kind of a medium build for the usual Alucard form, then I think Vladcard should be a proper Clydesdale, retaining the bat wings and pointy horn. Would pre-vampirism Vlad be an Earth Pony or something?? I dunno, I feel like one of the more knowledgeable Alucard-loving blogs like @/michi-tala would be better able to answer that kind of thing, but for now, this is all I know lol. Allycard gives me Unicorn vibes, esp with the predominantly white color palette, but I haven't read/watched her stories, so again, I don't *really* know. My expertise is in the base Hellsing Ultimate/Gonzo lore XD

I didn't finish the first one bc it looks so good and I was scare of fucking it up. A good artists knows to quit when they're ahead. /nsrs

I'm gonna put all the self-ship stuff under the cut Because I Am Still Shy About This One 😭

I know I have not shared any Halcyon lore on here, so I'll do like, a brief recap. She was a 'Hal' originally (and she was a dude at that time) then she just sort of?? Took on her own character?? As this sort of tsundere kind of Vitorian Era vampiress. She was a peasant to begin with in a no-name village. The village was torn apart by ghouls and Alucard essentially found her dying after fighting for her home, do you want to be a vampire, sexy bite, you get the idear. Then they've basically been married for 250~ years after that.

I made her too fucking small in the last one and it's Pissing me Off that I got the scaling wrong but I got the anatomy and the expressions so Spot On I couldn't redraw it *bites my arm off bites my arm off bites my arm off bites my arm off.*

Halcyon is smaller than Alucard, I mean, he's an Alicorn and she's an Earth Pony for crying out loud, but still, that's too damn small.

I love the way LuLu looks in these ngl. I need to get back to drawing Hellsing ponies, Ponycard was *really* fun to draw.

#Hal Art #Halcyon #Halcyon x Alucard #Halucard #LULU #Alucard #Alucard Hellsing #Hellsing Alucard #Ponycard #Hellsing Ultimate #MLP #MLP OC #Ponified #Earth Pony #Alicorn #Digital Art #doodles

[leggyre]

hi all! sorry, this is going to be a bit of a sad post.

I just want to share that Nano passed away today. He was a very old bun at 9 years old and we just couldn't keep it up with his increasingly difficult health issues.

As of right now, I'm not asking for consolation or any words of comfort. It's the first time I'm dealing with a loss of this scale, of something I've loved so dearly for so long, that I'll never get back.

I'm still coming to terms about how I feel about it. There were so many times I felt like meeting him was fate. And to be honest, I still do. I set out to adopt a classic white bunny(because honestly that's the only color I had ever seen in the place before) but between all the sleepy or hungry babies there was a little black mischievous boy hoping around and approaching people who gave my finger little kisses and I just couldn't leave him there. We didn't have any boxes or cages to carry him in so he got to pee on my lap on the way home lol

The first time he licked me after that day, something I thought would take ages to happen after lengthy Bunny Research(tm) telling me so, was maybe within a few days or a week, but what made the moment as special as it was for me was the fact I was sitting on the ground, having a breakdown, crying my eyes out. I have a really hard time using the word love to others because I'm never sure of my feelings and I don't want to say it without meaning, but from then on I had never been so sure about how much I loved him.

I have a lot of other stories like that. He helped me learn a lot about myself. He gave me company at my worst. I missed him so much when I had to stop allowing him on the bed to take a nap with me because one day he just decided peeing there was okay. I laid down on the floor on the most uncomfortable positions for the longest time because he had fallen asleep in my arms. I did that this morning, after I was told he might not make it when we went to see the vet today. It didn't even feel like anything was wrong, really. I kinda thought maybe we shouldn't go and I could keep doing that tomorrow. And the day after. And the next. But every time he woke up and shuffled around it was so easy for me to tell he was uncomfortable, trying to find a way to lay down in a way that would ease the pain. He didn't look any different to most people, but I memorized every single kind of motion he ever did.

And it's funny to think that he knew me the same way. He knew exactly what me shutting off the computer sounded like and that it was the perfect time to beg for snacks and attention. He knew when I was hiding something for him. He knew exactly where I walked so he could leave the god damned piss traps in the way when he was mad at me. He knew that if he kept poking his nose out the fence long enough I'd come back eventually to pet him more even if I had already walked all the way to my bed and laid down. And he knew that he could come to me for comfort whenever he felt scared or in pain. He trusted me so much and that meant the world to me.

Just to add one weird, maybe funny thing that's gonna keep me pondering forever; one day, years ago, I wished that I could be the one to take any pain he'd ever feel. Since then, I kind of took note that we'd have our sickest days together, and often in similar ways. It's most likely confirmation bias, but I do like to think I did manage to take some of his pain from him.

Well. My plan was just to share the news and go on with my day. Think about stuff. Couldn't keep from writing this much, though, so I just decided to let it all out anyway.

Again, I don't want any comfort. I will always love him, the things he taught me, and the memories I'm blessed with. I will be okay.

I want the thought of him to keep bringing joy into my life, because that's the thing he's always been the best at. The second best was destroying specifically videogame related cables.

heres some shenanigans to brighten up the mood :]

and here's a cute pic from years ago as well 🐇💞

#the newfound text tag #cw: death #tbh he singlehandedly made me obsessed with bunnies #i tend to get more attached to things i relate to and #turns out rabbits are Very Autistic

[inkovert]

Find the word tag

Thank you @oh-no-another-idea for the tag. My words are ring, time, notice, and force. Bonus: piano! (I have like 2 excerpts with piano in an old draft of MDE but nothing exciting enough to share lol)

Tagging: @akindofmagictoo @somethingclevermahogony @a-crystallen-author @isherwoodj. Your words are: melody, leaf, smooth, and ache.

R I N G

[Spencer] dug his hand into the front pocket of his jeans, producing a thin fold of cash. “A-plus customer service, by the way. Do you also piss on your customers after they complete a purchase or do I have to join the rewards program for that?”

Jerking my head back, I narrowed my eyes. “Excuse me?”

He threw down a few bills and grabbed his bagged items, a silver ring glinting off the forefinger of his left hand. “Keep the change.” Turning, he walked casually over to the exit and out the door. 

T I M E

“Cami, is it?” Vince eased himself into my periphery. “I finally found out your name, which you so rudely refused to tell me the other day.”

I jerked my padlock. “Unless you’re the US government, you’re not exactly entitled to that information.”

He grinned. “Look, I feel like we got off on the wrong foot. Can we start over?”

I swung my bag off my shoulder and stuffed a book inside. “Sure. I’d be happy to go back to the point in time when neither of us was aware of the other’s existence.”

“I don’t think it’s possible for me to ignore the existence of someone like you.”

“Well, that makes one of us.” I smiled back, shutting my locker and walking off.

N O T I C E

I lingered after class let out, taking my sweet time packing up my belongings. As soon as the last pesky student with a long-winded question for Professor Huynh had left, I bolted up from my seat. 

“So, I couldn’t help but notice that I didn’t hear back from you about the pictures I sent.”

Her pen scratched against paper as she wrote something down. “I figured it was best to discuss this in person.”

“Says every critic who’s on the verge of delivering great news,” I muttered sarcastically. I spread my arms out. “Alright, lay it on me. What was the problem? Were the pieces too amateur? Too colorful? Did I use the wrong drawing utensil?”

Her eyes didn’t leave her paper. “Are you done being cute?” I frowned. 

F O R C E

I slammed my palms on her desk, my fingers curling, nails scratching against the wood. “You have no idea what I want,” I seethed. 

“Finally, something we both agree on. Because if you really wanted this, if I were in your shoes and I really wanted this, I would be throwing everything I had into the ring.” 

We held each other in an unwavering stare. 

“This is just a consultation. I’m not going to hold a gun to your head and force you to use these pieces. You asked for my help and my advice and that’s what I’m giving you. You’re free to decide against it. We can still put together a decent enough portfolio without them.” 

I clenched my jaw. I didn’t come this far, work this hard, for decent enough. I wanted excellence, perfection. I wanted every margin of error, every shadow of doubt to be swallowed up by unequivocal certainty.

#tag game #wip: MDE #writeblr #writing #continuing to make a measly dent in my list of growing tags :')

[suckthatskittlebiiitch]

Get it RIGHT

Pairing: Steven Grant × black Reader (marc and jake make an appearance too!)

Warnings: just lots of cussing

A/N: this is an idea I had about how reader would react to Donna being an asshole to Steven and calling him "Stevie" also i was a little buzzed while typing this up just now so there might be a few run on sentences but honestly who gives a shit lol

"ok girl ill call you tomorrow i just pulled up to steven's job! bye love you!" you hung up with your best friend excited to show your man the new braids you got from your trusted stylist. every 3 months you switch it up and when you do hes always so amazed, sometimes he just stares in awe at how your hair could do so many things, styles, colors it was so cool to him.

After parking you pulled down the mirror to make sure ya makeup was still looking bomb as fuck, baby hairs still swooped to the gods and...ya titties looking damn good in the new shirt that was bought yesterday. thankfully steven didnt see the numerous bags in the back of the closet.

Every other day when your jobs had the same lunch break you and steven would have a lunch break date. Honestly it was the best part of each other's day.

Walking inside you walked straight to the gift shop, waving slightly at the security guard who did a double take at your appearance. "Nope still with steven grant buddy! sorry not sorry!" The man waved back but grumbled something behind the newspaper he was reading and covered his face with it.

Rounding the corner your smile faded slightly as she was standing in front of steven. His boss donna was pointing at him. Being a little ways away you couldnt hear the conversation but moving closer her words started becoming clear.

"i'm telling you all this shit is still unorganized and uncounted for! looks like you'll be on inventory again tonight i dont care if it takes you all night!" "Donna im doing my best but shipment has been coming-" she put a hand up.

"oh no the fuck she didnt shush my baby" you mumbled to yourself

Doing so made steven stop talking immediately and frown deeply.

"i dont care when shipment comes..you get it done! you're so bloody useless Stevie!" Hearing her degrading and calling him by the wrong name set you OFF. Before realizing it you stomped over to where they were, eyes seeing red, curses spewing under your breath. Out the corner of his eye he sees you coming, a first he was relieved then he saw the look on your face which let him know all hell was about to break loose.

"oooh shit ive never seen her that pissed before..." Marc from the reflection of the glass.

"That's the sexiest fucking thing ive ever seen LET HER HAVE IT MI AMOR RIP HER APART!" jake smiled

"oh dear" steven sighed heavily. Donna looked confused but that expression worn off when she noticed you coming over to where they were; it soon turned into fear. "i-uh ill be in my meeting-" you stopped in front of them with a big smile on your face "donna let me tell you this one time and one time only" Steven looked nervous as fuck " love its okay donna was just leaving for a meeting and my break is in 5 so lets just-" you cut him off by grabbing his shirt and planting the deepest, tongue fighting kiss then pushed him back slightly.

steven gained control of his balance, licked his lips and just nodded his head. "Donna let me tell you something..in the nicest way i can. his name is steven, steven grant. says it right there on his name tag and fucking birth certificate. Stop calling him Stevie, stephen, stanely anything with S.T in it that aint fuckin steVEN. That is MY man im tired of him coming home looking damn near doorknob dead because your overworking him .Sometimes he's to tired to even fuck me and that's a goddamn problem." Steven started to turn red but he wasn't embarrassed in the slight.

Donna stood there like a fish out of water; mouth just opening and closing dumbfounded. She looked around making sure customers couldn't hear what's going on but you honestly couldn't give a shit. "well..i mean sometimes he just needs to catch up-"

"Catch up bitch all my man does is catch up! but your lazy ass think just because your the manager ya can do whatever you want but let me get you straight on this donna. Let me find out you've insulted him, degraded or humiliate him in any possible way and bitch i will stuff you in pharaoh's tomb myself. do we have an understanding??" You glared at her with eyes that said dont fucking try me.

She nodded her head, fixed her shirt and cleared her throat "mhm i-i understand..i uh..i apologize steven please take an extra hour lunch on me" She nodded again, turned and quickly turned on her heels to her office.

"Oh my god LOVE!" he laughed "that was amazing i never knew you could get that vulgar or angry!" You just giggled sweetly. "i told you baby nobody can disrespect you in front of me..ever." He leaned over kissing you deeply. "ok ill go clock out then we can go to lunch!"

"Okay baby after we eat seeing as you have an extra hour how about you show me the back room?" steven looked at you confused, you've seen the backroom maybe twice now before. "oh okay but what for?" you smiled walking over to him, grabbed the back of his head and licked the side of his face slowly then bit his earlobe.

"So you can tell me a story while deep in this pussy love.." you whispered in his ear

"Oh my god please give me the body steven" marc whined

"AYE No give ME the body!!" jake countered

Steven shuddered at your naughty moves and ignored his alters, he suddenly didn't want to eat the lunch he brought in today but something else vegan friendly.

#steven grant x reader #steven grant x black reader #moon knight fics #moon knight imagine #steven grant x y/n

[omega-floweys]

Guess what, motherfucker? It’s me. Alador. Aka, the best person at asking super useless questions.

1: Can V or anyone else play any instruments, if so, what kinds?

2: I can’t remember if I’ve asked this or not, but what are their favorite music genres?

3: What’s their opinions on cheese? Can they eat cheese?

4: What’s their dream jobs?

5: Is 5 too many questions? … Nah… Does V sleep?

6: I noticed Fancy looks pretty fluffy. How soft is he? Fancy’s a he, right? Please correct me if I’m wrong.

7: Opinions on Rob Zombie? Random, I know, but he’s neato.

8: Favorite colors? Because of course I had to be that bitch-

9: Do any of them like or play DND?? Who’d be the DM?

10: Last question! I have a feeling that V’s eyes glow in the dark… Do his petals?

Sorry if that’s too many, lol😅

~Your pal, Alador, The Idiot In A Suit.

Finally got the time to answer this. You are a lifesaver.

Lots of text below:

1. I would imagine V can play a few instruments, yes! Namely the piano but definitely a good few. You dabble a little in everything if you've been around as long as he has.

Not a traditional instrument, but Roko can play notes and sing if given access to TTS software.

2. You have indeed asked this before so I will not be answering as I don't feel like finding the post

3. V doesn't care all that much about cheese. Fancy is probably a cheese guy. Guy is also a cheese guy. APOLLO is not. Pinky likes it.

4. This one's a really good one actually.

Fancy's dream job was anything low effort that pays well.

Guy would've liked to be an artist that lives off Patreon money.

Pinky would have liked to be a vet.

APOLLO wanted to work in IT.

Roko does not have aspirations.

And V has already experienced his dream "job."

5. He does, rarely. It isn't something he needs to so he prefers not to do it.

6. He's pretty soft! I'd imagine they have a pretty thick coat. [You are correct by the way, Fancy uses he/they.]

7. I do not know anything about Rob Zombie so neither do they.

8. I don't feel like answering the colours question right now SORRY!

9. I don't think any of them have played D&D before, but I feel Roko would DM until they all realise he is making uncomfortably real simulations of their D&D worlds. APOLLO might try after Roko is removed from the position but it would piss everyone off with how strictly it would adhere to rules.

10. His eyes do glow, yeah! His petals don't normally, but he could make them glow if he wanted.

#long post #character ramblings #BPD demons #V #Fancy #APOLLO #Roko #Pinky #Guy

[riddlerosehearts]

The answer is probably obvious given your username but who is your favorite twst character? ❤ Guess I am more asking what you love about Riddle lol

haha, well, i will say that riddle is practically tied with idia as my favorite! idia was a character who i literally decided was my fave at first sight, but then i came to love riddle more and more while i was playing through the story for the first time. the idiashroud url is taken by someone who isn't even using it😔 and this url was, shockingly, not taken when i first got into twst, so i took it the second i found out it was available. but, yeah, i do love riddle a lot!! i've got two plushies of him and two other pieces of adorable fanmade merch i'll share below, and i'd love to get some more riddle merch. i especially really wanna buy his nendoroid when i'm able to afford it.

^ the aforementioned riddle merch plus some other random things i have on a little corkboard in my room, lol.

as for what i love about him... honestly, what drew me to him when i first started twst was that i just thought he was hilarious. one of the first vignettes i ever read was the one where he and floyd are in the library and he gets really pissed about floyd teasing him and making fun of his height. and, well, one of my favorite fictional characters of all time just happens to be another short little nerd with a red color scheme and a hot temper who would have to be held back from kicking my ass if he knew i was calling him a short little nerd (it's edward elric from fullmetal alchemist, lol). so i got attached to him based on that and also because i thought the way he acted during book 1 was just really funny and entertaining to watch. i also figured there must be some sort of Reason behind it that i couldn't wait to find out, and then the reason we got really tugged at my heartstrings and, again, reminded me of some of my favorite characters in other media.

beyond that, i really love his design, for one thing. especially his heart-shaped ahoge which has got to be one of the cutest character design choices i've ever seen in my life. i love that he's an animal lover who goes out of his way to check on the hedgehogs even when he doesn't have to, and how excited he gets about discovering the joys of puzzle solving in the endless halloween event. i love how protective he is of his dormmates and how much faith he shows in them after book 1. like, he has such sweet interactions with ace in fairy gala remix and with deuce in glorious masquerade. and i love the development he goes through!! i made a post on this a while back, but riddle along with vil is one of the only overblotters who really apologized and took immediate steps to make up for what he'd done, which shows a lot of genuine maturity and responsibility on his part. there's also a chapter of the twst anthology manga where he's really anxious and frustrated with himself for still instinctively getting so angry at rule violations, and ace ultimately convinces him that he doesn't have to be so hard on himself and helps him relax. i love that. i love that he's still struggling with unlearning what he was taught all his life, because recovery and growth aren't always linear, but he's trying the best that he can now that he knows he was wrong.

so yeah this got longer than i originally planned lol but basically i just think riddle is really cute and funny and has a great character arc. to end this off here's an image of two riddle plushies i wish i had because i absolutely adore this style.

#thank you for this ask btw!! 💖 #hope you don't mind getting a bit of an essay in response #but i'd also love to know who your favorite twst chara is and why you like them if you feel like sharing!! #asks #batlokilove #twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts

[vaguely-concerned]

a snippet from a Lupin III fic I doubt I’ll ever finish writing but thought I’d salvage some pieces from!

Lupin idly observes: “If you ask me, the god of thieves should be Prometheus.”

Knowing a Lupin set-up line when he hears one, Jigen obliges. “Yeah? How so?”

“He stole only one thing,” Lupin says, and something in his eyes burns brighter than that first flame, however wrought by the hands of gods, ever could have. “But that one thing set the entire world alight. Who else can say they did that?”

Understanding, as always, the plight of the moth, Jigen moves a little closer to him on the bed, thinking not for the first time that the sun has got nothing on whatever’s gone wrong inside this guy somewhere along the way.  

“You do know how that story ends, right?” Jigen asks anyway, as if in a token gesture towards defending the honor of sanity. “Chains, rock, eternity, eagle gets an unlimited supply of Prometheus liver tartare? This ringin’ any bells?”

Lupin shrugs an unworried shoulder. “But don’t you think it would be worth it, looking down at the earth every night while you were waiting for the eagle and seeing the fires being lit all around the world?” 

With a deep sigh Jigen wraps an arm around him and presses his lips to Lupin’s throat, then again, small pecks soft as snowflakes landing all along the course of his carotid artery, like the simple act might put down wards there, make some invisible armor under the skin that would keep out all harm. Lupin shivers appreciatively and tilts his head to the side to bare more of his neck, fingers playing idly with Jigen’s hair. There’s a bit of lipstick on his collar, the same color Fujiko’s been favoring lately. After trailing the kisses all the way up to the edge of Lupin’s jaw, Jigen murmurs: “See, it’s ‘cause you keep saying shit like that I can’t let you go anywhere on your own. I let you out of my sight for five minutes and bam, you’re plotting to piss off the gods themselves.”

“Oh, don’t even pretend to grumble, you love it,” Lupin coos. 

Jigen brushes the tip of his nose back and forth over the soft patch of skin right below Lupin’s ear and smiles. “Eh, I live with it.”

He lives with it, he lives by it; it’s the first thing that’s ever given him the certainty that to live could be preferable to the alternative. Hell, he does love it. He’s loved nothing and no one more in his entire tattered  sorry scotch-soaked excuse for an existence, and he can only hope he never will, because he’s pretty sure that would destroy him.

“Well, I guess it’s not the same thing anyway, at the end of the day, so I shouldn’t worry about it,” Jigen says.

“Yeah? How so?” There’s a grin in his voice. Lupin plays ball too sometimes, when it suits him.

Jigen grunts. “Prometheus never had a partner. I’d shoot that goddamn eagle clean out of the sky before it even got its first beakful of liver, and Goemon could do the whole slice and dice routine with the chains, and then we’d be out of there before anyone was any the wiser.” 

Lupin is quiet for a while — long enough that Jigen pauses in kissing his way along his throat and pulls back to get a look at his face. 

and that’s where it stops, I’m afraid, but it ends in

“Hey, Jigen?” he says finally. 

“Hm?” 

“I love you so fucking much.”

some odds and ends from the same wip that still make me smile under the cut

“Who would you want to be in that particular pantheon?”

“Dionysus.”

“Damn, that was quick.” 

“Free drinks, man.” 

Lupin snickers. “Hey, good point.”  

. . .

“Fujiko would be Aphrodite, obviously,” Lupin says, piously. “The goddess of love, and the most beautiful woman who ever lived.” 

Jigen gives a derisive huff. “As if. She’d be that bitch who threw the apple of disaster or whatever it was.”

Lupin snickers. “That’d be Eris with the Apple of Discord. And I’m so telling Fujiko you said that next time we see her.” 

“Go right ahead. I’ll tell her myself.”

(I have no idea who Goemon could be in this thought experiment; I feel like he’s Too Japanese For This lol. Zenigata is the eagle, obviously.)

#lupin iii #daisuke jigen #arsene lupin iii #jiglup #jigen x lupin #my writing #I... really miss writing so I struggled to cobble together this mostly-finished thing and y'know it was okay lol

[polyamorouspunk]

Hello friend you invited the chaos

So so so. Recap: friends for years, he dumped his toxic ex, started therapy, we start actually talking.

OKAY. So we were officially dating like *last week*. Monday I was over his house and things were good. Tuesday night/Wednesday morning I legit thought he died cause he wasn’t answering his phone (he did not die he just broke his phone, but the worry was there cause I know he deals with depression).

But while thinking he was possibly dead, I had a job interview at the really cool lab and Im gonna be calibrating gas detectors and doing titrations every monday!! (Spoiler I got the job).

And then I had a second one later in the day after he got his new phone but this one was in some sketchy basement lab with two other employees that are both grown men and Im honestly surprised I didnt die down there.

And then thursday I went to my first therapy session to help deal with anxiety and some other shit right. (It will be so fun showing up after my intake appointment with an entirely new set of issues). Oh also this entire week is happening while my autoimmune disorder is flaring too. Thats also a thing. But also. At this point, things are still fine with the guy. Like he was talking about introducing me to his friends and shit.

BUT OKAY THEN FRIDAY HAPPENS. AND THIS IS THE DAY THAT ALL THINGS WENT TO HELL. *He* invited me over his house during the day while most of his family was gone. And I went cause I was off work and also like. At that point why wouldnt I? But uuuhhhhh while I was there, some *things* happened that *he* initiated (fully consensual) but also that boy was fucking *rough* and I have bruises all over where he was grabbing and I’m sure more I cant see. But like. Genuinely kinda a fun time.

Until. Out of no where he like kinda rushed me out of his house. And I was very confused and concerned about that, because obviously I just put a hell of a lot of trust into someone I had considered a good friend. And so after I got home I asked him if I did something wrong, AND GOES ‘We’ve been very close friends for 5 years so dating just feels not right.’ Which like. Was a whiplash moment for me. So I responded with ‘So. You just want to be friends is what youre telling me?’. AND THIS ASSHOLE GOES ‘Yeah, for now at least’.

BOY THERE IS NO FOR NOW AT LEAST. YOU JUST BASICALLY USED ME AND TOSSED ME TO THE SIDE. LIKE. NO??????

So yeah after that I was sad for a little bit but then ya know I started to be able to see the bruises and I just got so fucking pissed off from that, that I was no longer sad. The sad is gone. I was instead petty and went to the county fair with Mountain Boy and told him what was up and yeah. Thats what that insta post was about lol. I was just being petty because I could be.

OH BUT ALSO. I have to see him in early september for a chemistry meeting and I have every intention of looking hot as fuck when I show up just because I can and I refuse to let a boy get in my head about my own self confidence.

And really in the end he was evidently lacking in both braincells and inches, so it was no real loss on my part lmao

Anyways thats been my week, how are youuu??????

Daaaamn he really strung you along huh well man I feel that about people doing a complete 180 on you and showing their true colors out of literally nowhere. I’m sorry it all went down like that, yikes. Yeah, no, I don’t think I would want to be “friends” with someone like that either. Fuck that guy frrrr. Especially right after that.

Damn what a shitty week but I so hope a new job is exactly the kind of reset you need to take your mind off things.

My week has been alright. I’m feeling really burnt out and emotionally exhausted but I’m healing from the bullshit that I went through. I start school tomorrow which I’m not exactly looking forward to but not dreading either but next week I’m going on vacation (also to Myrtle Beach, finally) since I have 3 days in a row off and my birthday is coming up.

#punk gets mail #yikesola

[suicidemousesquad]

Lost in Ink.

A Ink! Sammy Lawrence x reader

Y/n Your first name

L/N your last name

S/O your age

H/l Hair length

H/C hair color

Reader is Gender Neutral

Contains:Fluff, Blood, Violence, Worshipping, Fighting. Curssing.

Chapter One.

Y/N was a S/O aged girl with H/L, H, C hair. Y/N has abusive step parents. Y/N's Dad was killed in a car accident. Y/N's mom was not able to take care of Y/N. Y/N's new parents always hurt her or him. Y/N's Step dad would always get drunk and yell at Y/N. Y/N's step mom would just stand back laughing.

(Y/N's Pov).

Why is it always me? (Sobs) first my dad dies in a car accident and then my mother wasn't able to take care of me with the little amount of money she has. (Cries harder) now I'm stuck with my new step parents because they had adopted me. I wish my dad never died in the car crash.

(End of Y/N's Pov)

(Y/N's Step mother Pov)

That damn kid is the worst kid anyone could have.I always let my husband beat on her/him. If Y/N's previous care takers would have been more responsible then this would have never happened.

(End of Y/N's step mother Pov).

Y/N's step parents were going out on a date today at 3:00pm so Y/N is exited for them to leave. You texted your uncle Henery to see how he was doing but he never responded. Your step parents said that Joey had sent him a letter and asked Henery to celebrate back to the old animation studio. You used to know Sammy back when Henery took you to work with him. You would always hand out with Norman. Norman treated you very well he even showed you how to work a projector. One day a Ink pipe bursted in the music department.

(Sammy's Pov)

These Damn pipes I'm going to lose it. That's the third time this week I've had an ink pipe burst in the music department. I slammed the door to the music department open and Norman and a girl/boy was with him by the projector. Norman came down to see what was wrong and I had explained to him that another Ink pipe bursted in my music department. I'm on my way to Joey's office right now.

(End of Sammy's Pov).

(Normans Pov).

I was teaching Y/N more about how to work a projector and the next thing I know Sammy slams open the door to the music room and he looks super pissed. He started to stomp out of the music department and I asked him what happened and he told me that another ink pipe had bursted in his department.

(End of Normans Pov).

(This is a picture of Sammy's human version. I do not own the image all credit to the original creator. 😁)

(Y/N's Pov)

I saw a tall muscular man with blond hair come storming out of the music department covered in Ink. You looked at the man he seemed to notice you staring at hi because he returned the favor. Why are you staring at me asked Sammy. "Well I'm sorry sir I just got off guard plus I couldn't help but notice you have ink all over you". *Sammy then rolled his eyes and continued to look directly at you*. Uhmm what exactly is your name? The tall man looked at you and gave off a small smile even though he was really pissed off. *My name is Sammy Lawrence Band director I run the music department*. "Ohh cool my names Y/N L/N.

(End of Y/N's Pov)

Sammy then marched out of the music department and the projector room past his sanctuary and continued to storm down the halfway to Joey Drew's office. (After Sammy and Joey fought lol because I hate Joey and I'm running out of time to write this.)

End of flashback.

You then Noticed that your stepbparents are getting ready to leave and they told you you have to stay home.

Stay tuned for the next chapter see you guys, girls and non-Bionary readers later. Love you all no homo though.

#Sammy Lawrence #Sammy Lawrence x reader #Fluff #agnst

[roseriot2191]

Entry 1/Introductions

hey!

so i really havent used tumblr before really so im not sure if this is the best place for what im doing but regardless im posting it here

~welcome to my blog~

the purpose is to document my life as a whole but its also my senior year so even more reason to record it!

this blog will be my safe space to spill anything, the good and the bad, of my upcoming life. in all honesty im not sure how well ill keep up with posts or how much effort ill end up putting into them but i will try to update at least once a week for sure.

ok so now onto me :)

hello again! im rose, i use he/they pronouns and i am 17. for anyone wonder, which i dont know why but i guess i can just state it to get it out of the way, im a cis queer guy. i use queer as my label because i very much dislike labels for myself lmao. im attracted to men way more often than not but if the right person for me isnt a guy the im not going to let gender/sex get in the way of love and im not sure pansexual really fits the way i feel. queerness ill say is a part of me but not something i identify with as much as i did in middle school. ill make a separate post about this perhaps. (ill mention that my name isnt actually rose irl and its just my pen name for the blog. i have no reason to be secretive really besides to hide my identity from friends, family and people who think they might know me, especially with the topics i might write about, but also i didnt put too much effort into disconnection rose and myself so if youre one of my irl friends, hi :p ) i am a high school student, but i am mostly taking college classes at a community college. im a photo major! photography is a recent thing that i started basically the same time i started college. i sorta took a leap into photo classes and decided that i might as well major in it since ive always been a creative person and since my high school was paying for my tuition. honestly college has been really fun but its school and sometimes i get burnt out really easily which sucks. ill probably talk about this more some other time. i havent really decided on a style of photography that i prefer yet but this fall ill start a portraiture lighting class as well as a color theory class, both im really excited for.

recently ive found myself changing or perhaps growing into a more typical "teenager" recently. this growth is a drastic change from who i was as a kid and that sort of scares me but i think i like the idea of who i can become. i started taking an interest in cars which sort of came out of know where. it might be because i got my license last december and have been driving a lot more but its also rooted in my ex too. (at the begging of this summer i got into a relationship with this guy who was my first everything, and we also ended it in july which hurt hella but again this is a topic for another post later) he was a total car guy and it was something we were bonding over. he would teach/talk about cars and i listened and started to take an actual interest. we went to a few car shows and it was honestly a prefect date/hangout for us because he liked cars of course but i also got to bring my camera and take photos. definitely something i miss doing. my first car was a 2004 honda pilot. it was a manual and i tried learning how to drive it and i got the gist but ended up selling it and getting an automatic 2006 honda pilot lol. this car ive had since february and its lowkey dying now which pisses me. my grandpa was the one who ended up buying it for me which i appreciate very much dont get me wrong but he bought it off these sketchy guys and didnt get it checked out right away for any problems and now im paying extra money in repairs. currently im trying to save for something more "extra" like a mustang or a bmw or honestly an older honda like a prelude or accord, though on my salary as a host in a small restaurant i have barely $4.5k saved and i started work about the same time i got the 06 pilot. i know these cars are a bit on the pricey side but im giving myself till new years to save for something and if i dont find anything by then, ill keep my money in savings for college after i graduate. (that is with the hopes my 06 pilot lasts me through that long :,) )

so yeah. i work as a host at a restaurant. its my first job and i honestly really like it. i get paid $16.50 an hour and i get tipped out by the waitresses on top of that. on average i make about $500 in a pay period which is two weeks. i wish i had more hours but also i dont. i usually use work as an excuse to procrastinate or completely ignore school work which is really self destructive because i convince myself that im productive but in reality i need to be more focused on school. my work ethic is pretty good though i think. i always say yes if someone needs a cover or if i need to come in ealry/on a day off. after the break up i took a bunch of extra shifts and started taking caterings for longer hours and to keep me busy. in the past 2 pay periods i clocked about 50 hours each and made $850 each. this has again been really nice for savings but not for my summer classes. this pay period i had a double catering and i should clock in about 40 ish hours. ill have one more pay period after this one before i will talk to my manager about scheduling me only friday-sunday and see about scheduling me caterings more rather than hosting since i make more that way. theyre pretty good about accommodating hours/days which is really cool but my manager always complains. i feel bad but also i really shouldnt because i need to do better in school first and i already do so much more than what i get paid for honestly so she really doesnt have any reason to say anything. (especially since we just hired 3 new girls after the summer hires left) all my coworkers love me but also everyone shit talks eachother behind their backs so i always wonder if they say anything about me lol. if they are then they should put that energy somewhere else because how are you guys gonna shit talk a 17 year old when you all are 25+???

my music taste is the opposite in regards to changing drastically. i find myself returning to the music i grew up with and even expanding with similar artists. for a quick family overview my step dad who raised me since i was three was/is a tattoo artist and very much in the punk scene. my mom was in the artistic performance and alternative scene. both these adults raised a very punk baby with all the classics and now like i said, after not really interested or listening to music often for awhile, im back to my roots. this is very comforting however when me and my ex were dating he was a big influence in the reintroduction. so do i corrilate some music to him? yes. does it hurt? im not sure. its very confusing but i listen to it on blast regardless and will most likely have hearing problems by the time im 30 T~T a lot of what ive been listening to on repeat is radiohead which was "our band" and i still think it is. im a very sentimental person and cant/wont diconnect these feelings probably ever. i do this a lot. this time though i havent had the urge to stop listening which is a reliefe because i enjoy the music but also because i think itd hurt me if i found hate or sadness in the music rather than the love and bond we once shared through these songs. something ive been considering is posting a song with every post or at the very least at the end of the week. maybe even a playlist at the end of the month? not sure yet. i think music tatse is something that changes with me all the time so its something worth recording here. oh also i def will post cd hauls here too! i have a small collection started but definetely wanna get more.

lets see i dont read often but my favorite books are alice in wonderland, the warden's daughter, they both die at the end, coraline and currently i am reading solitaire by alice oseman. ive read her heartstopper series and have taken a serious interest in tori's story. for my favorite shows i binge watch shows so often and then forget about them just as fast as i watch them lol. i really like soul eater, downtown, daria, the midnight gospel, the walking dead, initial d, madoka magica, and some others i cant think of right now.

hmm~ i cant really think about anything else to write at the moment, plus ive been typing for awhile and should get to bed, so i think ill end it here.

i dont really expect anyone to read this blog in all honesty but its something i wanna do for myself and if a few people take interest or relate to anything i talk about i think thats enough :)

#my blog #blog #my journal #journal #my post #post #school #senior year #student #student life #high school #college #art student #photography #working #honda #bmw #mustang #solitaire #heartstopper #midnight gospel #downtown #daria #the walking dead #madoka magica #soul eater #safe space #queer community #queer teen #lgbtq

[poisonouswritings]

Sage in those trendy tiktok leggings (that you bought for him and now he unironically loves how comfy they are) and a beautiful braid standing at the grocery store. Somehow some person thinks he's a hot girl and asks for his attention to flirt with him. He turns around, in his pretty boy (lol i say boy but he's in his 30's) glory and the person goes "😳 o-oh....". Sage is like, "🤨 what?"

Sage has so much cake 🎂

GN!Reader, definitely suggestive but not really NSFW, Reg whenever you read this I wanna see Remi in these. For science.

What color leggings would you buy Sage? Personally I'd get him the neon lime but that's just me.

Anyways you got a pair of these for Sage's dumpy and yeah, you did get them as a joke. And Sage put them on as a joke. And then he just,, continues wearing them because they're comfy. And then you just,,, buy him some more in a few other pairs because he likes them and he looks good.

You gotta cut a little hole for his tail

Anyways obviously he wants to show off his ass when he's in them so one time you guys go out and he's wearing these and a tank top and boots. After you have a bit of fun making him bend over and walk in front of you (get a few smacks and spanks in there, he likes it) you two get on with your day.

At the store, you have the list! And Sage pushes the cart and oh my goooooods he's so bored. Don't get him wrong, he loves following you around like a lovesick puppy and sneaking peeks at your ass (no matter what you're wearing), but the store is boring. So he kinda slumps down over the cart when he walks, making him seem shorter and also making his ass stick out that much more.

He's in such a pose as you're going down the cereal aisle, talking about,,, uh,,,, something about a tiger creating furies or something?? He's not really sure he zoned out a while ago tbh.

Anyways someone comes down the back of the aisle and sees these double-decker cheeks fitting snuggly in some eye-catching leggings and a long silver braid of hair and uh

Yeah. They assume it's a hot TikTok girl or yoga teacher or something.

And since you're halfway down the aisle, they don't even realize you and Sage are together. So they take a second to adjust their clothes, put a bit of swagger in their step, and stroll over. Confidence is key. They lean against the cart like "oh hey gor- OHSHITYOUREADUDE"

They practically fall over as they scramble to stand up and take a step back because Sage Is Clearly A Very Big Very Muscular Dude. And when he stands up to his full height they just about piss themselves

Meanwhile Sage is just going ??? and like

Yeah

Yeah he's really fucking pretty but he's also really fucking big and intimidating

The person is both flustered at how badly they misread this situation and flustered at how hot Sage is. Bonus points if they didn't realize they were attracted to men and are currently having An Awakening™

Now the person is stammering and trying to leave the aisle without looking like a freak and Sage is still just 'uh you alright there? Do you need help or something?'

You come back over and toss something into the cart and smooch Sage's cheek and now the person is realizing Not Only Is Sage A Buff Dude He Also Has A Partner and they finally just stammer something about cake and leave

And Sage is like 'what in hells bells was that about???' and you give his butt a little squeeze because You Fucking Know

Bonus points if Sage gets you a pair and you wear them out together,,, and he's looking at your ass and Suddenly He Understands.

#last legacy #fictif last legacy #sage lesath #sage lesath x reader #fictif sage #last legacy sage #fren asks #ozzy answers #ozzy daydreams

[noro-noro-noro]

long dream but i realized my alarms didn't go off & jumped out of bed really fast, so all i have is like the last scene, which is mostly about getting our truck that can drive on water crushed to death in a machine & then talking the guy that controlled the machine out of it. i'm really hungry for pizza.

- in some kind of small museum area with 4 ir 5 disply boxes. the museum is either run by or just featuring some relatively young for that position guy i think early 30s. anyway he kind of seemed like a dick.

- people "in my party" included me, my friend (real), & my other friend (not real, but a somewhat timetraveller). anyway the museum curator/owner guy was secretly kind of a dick. he'd hired us to investigate something - when we looked too closely at some of the artifacts it pulled us to the bay where it was a 2d minigame of a guy driving a truck around on top of & below the water, mostly interacting with a couple different nodes that had color coded icons (i think 7 of them?), & a central cruise or storange ship.

- brief interlude in this scene that was like i was doing a creepy dungeon level of a puzzle where you'd need to control 2 people & my ex was like the character they'd placed in the dungeon for me to also have to use & it was unpleasant & uncomfortable & he was doing this whole thing where he was being like really sanctimonius about the fact i told him to go to hell on an instagram post in 2020 & like "well i never told you to kill yourself" & i was like jesus christ if i didn't need you to stand on that button to free this crate i'd fucking eradicate you. you dumped me because you wanted to fuck my roommate man & were, in fact, doing that a week later, and refused to admit your behavior was wrong. like just admit it to yourself you're delusional if you think i'm not justified. anyway at the end of the level he like went into his house or whatever & i thougght about blwoing it up but i also remembered i wanted to get a perfect score on this level & killing him would detract points.

- anyway! my friend (not time traveller) was controlling the truck. there was supposed to be a more robust series of choices & doing them in a certain order would unlock a more personal ending since hte other ones were just allying with one of the 7 shpes. they each required the ocean to be terraformed in some way - one was like a barren ocean with a lot of bubbles, one had a dark blue icon tht implied a super lush ocean, i think the mental image was fontaine ocean at sunset so everything was kind of greenish. like subnautica kelp forest but less scary/more visibility. there were a lot of icons. they were done in a bold vector style with a slight gradient in like..jewel tones lol.

- as previously said! the choices weren't working out so well so my friend was just locked into supporting one of the icons & he was complaining about it because none of the icon endings were hte "true" ending. Because the millinoaire museum man was actuallly evil and would try to crush us to death with his cruise ship mecha - it'd surround us with its limbs & then start pushing inwards. i assume there was a puzzle to be freed before the boat got too cramped since there was a magnet block that we could hide under and around to prevent the worst of the damage, but in the end the final area was a weird shape and the block wouldnt save us. my friend was getting pissed off at the bugginess of the choice system. i could feel physical pain whenever the truck was crushed in the cutesy 2D interface.

- the time traveller ended up having the right idea - he took us back to the museum's opening, where we saw the museum curator guy doing his first exhibition. he had the power to draw anything & within this room grant the audience aspects of that power. his art wasn't super great, but with some encouragement, maybe he could flourish! the power also might have been from the most central display case in that room. i'm not otally sure i know it was related somehow.

- in the timetraveler's vision he could see the flow of what normally happened sort of vaguely, like if he grabbed a rope and unspooled it, all the details were in the fibers. and he saw that the curator was pushed into displying osmething that granted the audience like a magic wand with projectile powers & they all had soo much fun with that blasting things and breaking shit rather than looking at his other pieces. this led him down the path to evil.

- instead of having him display that, the time traveller secretly swapped out the magic wand one in favor of showing his other (medicore but with spirit!) drawings. curator recognized him as a time traveller & asked eagerly if he was famous & well known for his art in the future. the time traveller told him that people aren't allowed to ask about that kind of stuff (which is a true rule of time traveller society though they don't tell their rules to outsiders much) & instead asked him questions about the art pieces. curator took the bait t& eagerly started talking about llike...his weird alien oc. the fact that someone encouraged him now not for his power or ability but just out of curiosity seemed to eradicate hte bad timeline where it felt like my fingers were getting crushed to death. yay!

woke up then

#dreams

[purplesurveys]

1773

When was the last time you had blood drawn?  I want to say 2020 when I had that very very very very horrible fever that went on for too long that I ultimately just got taken to a hospital for a blood sample and see what the hell was wrong with me.

Does it bother you to have blood drawn or not so much? It bothered me in the past and it will most definitely bother me over and over again in this lifetime, lol. I'm horrified by needles and the idea of any sharp thing poking through my skin.

What show do you miss coming on television?  I don't like watching shows as they are ongoing because I don't enjoy the suspense and cliffhangers much. That's why most of my favorites are already-concluded series.

What color is your toothbrush?  It's white with blue accents.

Who would you say is your best friend at the moment?  Angela.

How long have you two been best friends? 2005.

What would you say is one word to describe your personality?  Uptight.

Do you have mood swings?  They were much worse when I was younger, but while I still have them now they happen a lot less frequently and the dips and highs are not as bad. Like, the worst that could happen is me going silent and losing my appetite because I got a work message or something.

When was the last time you cried?  A few days ago.

Are you an impatient person?  This is again one of the things I used to be bad with but I've softened up over the last few years.

Do you ever wish on 11:11 or do you think it’s a sham?  If I catch it then I would as just some kind of innocent/playful gesture I do for myself; but I don't actively wait for 11:11.

Are you the kind of person who has headaches a lot?  Yes, usually by the end of the day because I spent 8 hours straight looking into a screen and often on max brightness too.

What color are your nails painted right now, if any?  I never have my nails painted because I know I'd spend more time chipping it off.

Do you like dressing up for Halloween and other festivities?  It's fun when there are plans for Halloween but, like, I also don't get FOMO when I'm not invited to any Halloween parties. That said the last time I dressed up for it was a year ago – I had to miss out on all the stuff this year because I got Covid.

Has your cell phone ever rung in class?  It might have had, but very rarely. I always made sure it was on silent but I'm sure there were days where I simply forgot.

Do you sometimes think you aren’t as fortunate as others?  Not a day. Especially in the context of where I live I'm very aware of my privilege.

Do you think any of your friends are whores?  No.

Have you ever tried opening your eyes under water?  I don't try, it's just something I've always done; the only time I don't is if I'm swimming at the beach because that shit stings.

How much do you text on your phone, on average?  I wanna say it's an average of like 40-50 a week since I often have to text certain contacts for work-related reasons.

Do you think you have a good relationship with your parents? It's healthy, but I wouldn't call them confidantes or best friends.

Would you rather have a cat or a dog?  Dog.

Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?  Yes, but just once.

Are you better at grammar or math?  Grammar.

Are you a paranoid person?  A little bit, yeah. I'm a habitual overthinker.

Look out the nearest window. What do you see? The sky, a few trees, a couple of houses.

Has someone betrayed you lately?  It certainly felt that way, lol. My sister and I made plans to watch Seventeen together but then we weren't able to secure tickets during the sale, and then she suddenly sprung on me that she wasn't willing to try getting tickets from resellers anymore. I've been feeling pretty pissed with how fast she was willing to flake on me.

What would you say is your favorite type of flower?  Peonies.

Is there anyone who constantly compliments you?  Not really.

Are you good at expressing your feelings?  Yes I'm generally very honest when it comes to what I'm feeling.

Is there anything you wish you could be doing right now?  Not so much 'what I'm doing,' but I wish I can be in the middle of a long break and not have to worry about going to work soon.

What color are your bed sheets?  Blue.

What are you asking for, for Christmas this year? I would love to get a bunch of reed diffusers and a phone stand for my car this year, hahaha.

When was the last time you went out to eat?  We had lunch outside today.

Do you normally fall asleep fast or slow?  Fast, because I tend to turn in by watching stuff until I feel to sleepy to continue.

Does the majority of your wardrobe consist of jeans or sweatpants?  Jeans. I have like one pair of sweatpants and even that I got as a freebie from work; it's not something I get a lot of.

How many times a day do you brush your teeth?  Twice - start and end of the day.

Do you have a hint of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?  I definitely have a few tendencies. Like going up and down the stairs five times in a row to make sure all the lights downstairs are turned off and all the doors are locked, before going to bed.

Who do you text the most? Work contacts.

What exactly was the last text you sent?  It was thanking a media for joining us for our event yesterday.

Do you ever feel like just laying down and giving up?  Usually on the weekdays if I'm having a difficult time at work. 

Have you ever lied about your age?  LOL once when I was 17 and wanted to try a drink. Then they asked for my ID and couldn't keep up the lie so I ultimately did not get said drink. I don't really have reasons to lie about my age at this point.

Lied about your name? Yeah but it's always just for innocent situations, like wanting to be called a different name for my Starbucks order.

[the25thviolence]

Little mentally deranged right now because I forced myself to play a game 6 hours straight and gained nothing from it besides prestige levels in a battle pass.  

I knew heading into this weekend I was going to be super depressed so my mental state isn’t shocking to me.  Whenever I get extra lonely I get pissed off that I have to live life this way.  Part of me gets a little angry that I never told them to stay away from my friends but I knew it was wrong than and I know its still wrong now.  Its wrong to tell people who there allowed to talk to.  

In the middle of my 6 hours of pain I got super angry and cut my palm and bled over my video game controller thing. 

I have this sad feeling in my gut this weekend.  A sad little bit of knowing.  That the happiest I ever was is when we were all friends.  In the end it made me delusional thinking I could be even happier but still.  It was all so.....  uncommunicated.  So many things left assumed incorrectly.  Just because I knew what was going to happen the whole time didn’t mean I was any more ready for it to happen than I was.  Just because I told you once a week she secretly loved you.  Didn’t mean it hurt any less when it all happened.  I don’t know why you thought I would just drop it all like it never mattered.  Feelings are heavy and suddenly mine were in the trash and I needed to come to terms that they weren’t valued.  You even got upset that it upset me to see you with that happiness.  Like why my own feelings even matter.  God it hurt so fucking much every time you got angry with me for just fucking hanging out with her when you weren’t around.  Cool cool I left you fucking alone.  And you would fucking drag me back like why the fuck wouldn’t I be sad?  My friends decided they loved each other and didn’t want me around and were too fucking scared to say it.  You can blame me all you want but to think I would just blink my eyes and go “lol jk not even attracted anymore it was a prank anyways bro.”.   I saw it coming.  I wanted to leave.   You made me stay just so you could hurt me more.  I said word for word this is what would happen.  I told you.  But you so desperately wanted every bit of happiness you could get your hands on.  When I stopped making you happy you let go.  Suddenly I wasn’t worth anything to you.  

Now I sit here alone for days.  I wish it would of went smoother.  I wish I would of left on my terms.  It was never going to end any differently.  I’m not sure the wording or phrasing here.  Or even the concept.  But the raw stupidity that you felt anger towards another human because they had emotions that didn’t line up with yours.  That they dared exist in your life.  A deep deep soul crushing pain that yourself will always be more important than the ones around you.  

I’m not sure what these words are supposed to accomplish tonight.  Sometimes, a lot of the time, I feel like I need to acknowledge the words inside me before they eat at my existence and it kills me.  

I feel like too many people involved in this situation need therapy now.  

Fuck if I had to say all the rancid crazy things in my head about this. 

I feel like you were touch starved.  

I feel like he felt like he did something wrong with dating you after you dated his friends.  

The longer I know people the more I seem to understand them and everything seemed so obvious all along.  I wish it mattered that I knew all along. 

I wish I didn’t think I was worth it.  

I wish I was like Jon and thought I was an empty bit of nothing that only existed in theory.  

I really wish I didn’t think I was worth it.  Than I would of never tried to be happy.  If I never tried to be happy my friend would still love me.  Like someone likes a cool lamp or that sweet poster on there wall.  Would of been an amazing lava lamp in the background of his life.  Never infringing on the things he owned.  Just another colorful part of the background in his life.  

I know its true.  I know the world lies when it speaks and tells the truth when it acts.  The world will never love me as I am.  And will love me much more when I’m gone.  I’m mean to be read on an overcast day and forgotten by tomorrow.  

I’m meant to be weightless.  

I’m meant to be empty.  

I’m meant to be left alone till needed.  

Not like a break glass in case of fire situation. 

More like when your mop or broom breaks and you remember you have an old spare in the garage from 10 years ago.  

I survived when I shouldn’t and it left a gnarled bit of self inside my chest.  Weeds seem to survive in places they shouldn’t.  Sadly I don’t have flowers inside my chest.  More like dandelions.  

All in all I still find it kind of funny.  That when you get sad it pisses me off.  You took all that happiness for yourself.  But you still get sad.  Buried me so deep I can’t see the sun anymore.  But even I still find time to smile.  

I don’t think I’m better than you. 

I know I’m worse. 

I just think its a sick joke that you can’t keep it together when you have the whole world in the palm of your hand.  

Like all you have to do is show up with some flowers and suddenly your the worlds greatest most beloved person.  

All you have to do is be happy.  

I bet you are.  

Maybe its some remnants of your humanity that feel a little disheartened when you think about all the dumb shit you’ve done to others to make yourself happy. 

Meanwhile I’m going to go lay down in the dark till I forget I exist in a weak attempt to forget I’m extremely lonely, sad, and want to die on a daily basis. 

Should you feel bad? 

It would be nice if I said “no” wouldn’t it. 

[glilboy]

Ateez reactions to finding you reading smut about them: Hyung line

ive had this idea for awhile and even requested it a few times from other writers but..i felt it was time to write it lol

tws under the cut

warning, this piece of fiction contains mentions of somnophilia, slight dom and sub dynamics, and general explicit topics.

Hongjoong:

You had attempted to stay up waiting for Hongjoong, deciding to reread one of your favorite stories in the mean time. Unfortunately that wasnt enough to keep you awake, you ultimately passing out and your phone tumbling onto the floor.

Hongjoong had a feeling you'd passed out since you didnt message him any "i miss you :(" texts after 11pm so seeing you knocked out on the couch was no surprise. He slowly padded over to you smiling softly, then noticing your phone on the floor and went to pick it up for you. He was never the kind to go through your phone but your smart self had no shut down timer which left the fan fiction on display for him.

He couldnt help but be curious seeing paragraphs of text and decided a little reading would do no harm. As he began to read though he felt his gut sweep, in a good way. He was honestly a little upset until he saw his name but when he read his name it was like all of exhaustion disappeared. Luckily he didn't have work the next day he thought to himself.

Sitting down on the couch with a plan he slowly nudged you awake. "Hi dear," he spoked softly with a smirk.

You rubbed at your bleary eyes and looked up at him, "Oh hi Joongie. Sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep." He smiled even bigger at you.

"Thats fine, it helped me find out something fun," he tucked your hair behind your ear. Still waking up you made a small "huh?" before seeing the phone in his hand.

"Oh..." you mumbled, starting to be awake enough to get it. You finally looked at him straight on and saw his signature devilish grin.

He moved his hand to slowly move up your thigh, giving it a small squeeze which elicted a sigh out of you. "Didn't think you'd read stuff like that Y/N, but I guess you're just full of surprises huh doll," the pet name made you shiver, Hongjoong never having used that one before.

"I'm sorry Joongie," you mumbled into your arm, face now red. His hand moving up to cup your core and grind his hand into it making you whimper softly.

"Oh dont be sorry dolly, just shows me that you really miss me."

Seonghwa:

Saying Seonghwa was caring was an understatement in a way. Despite his busy schedule he made it a point to showed he cared in different ways. One thing he always did was if you left your phone out at all he would put it on the charger for you. Small things!

Today though he had come home earlier than usual while you were taking a quick shower. Seeing your phone on the counter he waltzed over setting his stuff down to throw it on the charger even if it wasn't that low. He noticed you left it on, open to a book he assumed enough.Him being the lovely man he is he wanted to read a bit to see what you liked and possibly buy you a physical copy. Written porn with his name in it though was not what he was expecting.

Seonghwa gulped, setting down your phone with his hands shaking and his face now flushed pink. He took a deep breath and set down his bag, running his fingers through his hair now being surprisingly worked up. A part of him felt embarrassed for being turned on by the writing but at the same time he knew you didn't read it for no reason.

"Hwa! You're home early hello!" You ran up to him giggling, now clean and dressed in some sweats.

"Hey babe, yeah we got let out early cause we learned the new choreography fast enough. They asked us if we wanted to do more vocal practice but none of us did," He laughed, trying to shift his legs to hide his slight erection.

"None of you stay late ever," you giggled sarcastically up at him. "Well, I was gonna take a nap. Do you want to? I'm sure you're tired."

He nodded softly and took your hand walking to your guys bedroom talking about your day. He changed himself into more comfortable clothing then joined you in bed, you curling into him quickly. Once you settled Seonghwa felt he could actually breathe, feeling like a middle schooler just for getting more worked up from having you close. He heard your breath settle which is when he shifted away a bit from you.

"Fuck..." He mumbled, having the space now laying on his back to palm himself over his erection. Looking over at your sleeping face made it worse, the piece you had opened having involved somnophilia. One thing he never had the guts to suggest to you despite having such an open relationship.

He didn't notice your eyes flutter open at the movement. You only just fell asleep so you were in no means in too deep. You decided to play it though, closing your eyes and throwing a leg over his waist as if you were just adjusting in your sleep.

He inhaled a sharp breath and bit his lip now mildly frustrated at the whole situation. Mumbling a fake sleepy "Hwa" you moved to straddle the man hearing a childish sigh escape his lips.

"If you keep moving, I swear to god," He mumbled out loud thinking youre still asleep since you had always been a chaotic sleeper.

"And what will you do about it horny kid," you giggled against his neck. You could feel his body tense.

"Go back to sleep and I'll fuck you like your sick little fantasy, how about that hm?"

yunho:

Rain was beating against the window as you cuddled up on the couch with your phone in hand. Yunho was on the other side of his personal office playing video games. It was a chill day but something in the air was setting you slightly off the edge.

Besides the sweet glances and cheesy smiles thrown at each other, your screen was very much the opposite of innocent pure love. Getting indulged in the story you started to zone in, missing some of his looks making Yunho curious as to what your interest was delved into currently.

"Be right back guys," he said into the mic mischievously. Quickly making his way over he slipped the phone out of your hand, this behavior wouldve typically been fine but because of the contents on your screen you gasped and reached out for your phone. "You doing something naughty or do you just like acting suspicious?" he grinned before looking at your phone.

His face feel reading the paragraph of a particularly nsfw scene. You were now sitting up staring at him wide eyed, "yuyu please oh god its not what you think, i think." Silence filled the room, the only noises being the sound of his running pc and the dull chatter of the other boys.

"Do you read this often?" he said out of hesitation and pure curiosity, almost feeling that he violated your private space. He kind of got the gist of it all right away, thankfully for your sake.

"Not all the time but i mean, you are busy yunho," you tried to softly explain knowing this was odd territory.

"Do you...ever want to try it," he says, getting to the end of the page and looking at you.

"I can't say that..none of them aren't, nice," the air was filled with an awkward energy that could suffocate another person if they came in at such a weird time.

The two of you stood there for a second, until he moved towards you and took your hand. He placed it on his bulge and you sucked a breathe in.

"Take off my pants," he ordered, a strange harsh tone to his voice. For you guys there was never set roles, not any dom or sub dynamic but it wasnt vanilla per say so him speaking like this was new. Besides that, you did as he said and pushed your thumbs under the waistband of his sweats, pulling them down his legs.

Silently he took your hand then sat down on his gaming chair, pulling out his large cock. He slipped on his headphones before looking up at you with a shit eating grin.

"Sit down, i can tell youve been dying too babe."

yeosang:

You were waiting for yeosang to come home after a shorter than usual practice, deciding to pass the time by indulging in your secret world. In the midst of browsing your favorite blogs you didn't hear the door open, this event made you learn not to have headphones in when participating in such activities.

Walking in, Yeosang looked around for you and spotted your figure on the couch. He slowly moved near with a secret motive of scaring you when he glanced at your phone seeing a photo of him paired with a lot of writing. Tilting his head curiously he squinted to read the text, reading along with you until his face flushed.

Sucking in a breath slightly he moved back to the door, playing off him just entering. You noticed his figure walking towards you and sneakily turned off your phone and got up to greet him.

"Hey babe, it's nice to see you in the sunlight," you giggled and wrapped your hands around his waist. You noticed him hesitantly wrapping his arms around you, causing you to pull away.

"Hey, whats up? you seem a bit off?" you pouted and brushed the hair out of his eyes, not catching the little blush.

"Yeah yeah babe, I'm fine. promise," he cleared his throat and pulled away, making your heart sink a bit. He practically completely ignored what you actually said.

"No Yeo, I- did I do something wrong? Or just a long day?" you pried knowing something was up.

Shifting awkwardly on his feet he looked up at you, his hair back in his face. "I um, saw what you were reading."

The color drained from your face, mouth slightly hanging not knowing what to say. You thought he was pissed, was going to leave and break up with you but right when you were about to talk he spoke again.

"C-can we do that?"

A moment of silence passed and you looked up at him, your boyfriend who was typically very soft and gentle in bed. Knowing what you were reading was likely pretty heavy in his book, you became worried. "Yeo, I just read it. It means nothing I don't want to make you uncomforta-"

His lips cut yours off and one hand entangled in your hair, his other guiding you to the wall by your hip. Back flush against the way you pulled away after a moment to see his eyes wide and sweat already beading down his temple.

"I've wanted to do that, just didn't want to scare you dear."

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