When it comes to publishing, many writers will think about big publishers first. However, there are a lot of different publishing options out there to explore. NaNo participant and author, Clara Ward, talks about their experience publishing with a small press and gives you questions to consider while you think through your publishing options!
NaNoWriMo inspired me to write. Signing with a small press gave me the support I needed to publish a book I love.
I’d published books before—starting with NaNoWriMo sponsor deals in the early days of online publishing—but I never had the right skill set to promote those books. As a result, they never truly found their audience.
In November of 2020, I poured my heart into a genre-blurring near-future tale of sailing across the Pacific and building a neurodiverse, queer, and possibly magical chosen family. In 2021, I titled it Be the Sea and asked myself: What am I going to do with that?
1. Are you looking for fame or family?
Small presses are as varied as the people who form them. If you read widely, you may already have a treasured book on your shelf from your publisher-to-be. Try asking NaNoWriMo friends who share your interests if they’ve discovered any surprising or emerging sources for great reads. (At the very least, you may find books you’ll love in unexpected places!)
Admittedly, a small press doesn’t have a fortune to spend on paving your path to fame. But I have never felt as seen as when my soon-to-be publisher, E.D.E. Bell at Atthis Arts, wrote back, “I’m really in love with what you are doing and would like to talk about it.”
2. Do you have the bandwidth for working with others?
Even with the most supportive small press, you may have to push outside your comfort zone. I know authors who love the absolute control and freedom of self-publishing. For a time, I felt very comfortable just posting my NaNoWriMo fanfiction novels on Archive of Our Own. At most, I had one or two beta readers to offer feedback on those works. Whereas E.D.E. told me in one of our earliest conversations that in addition to our three rounds of editing we’d need “a good number of betas” to cover the range of topics we were working on together.
I was delighted! I knew what I’d written was ambitious, and I welcomed all the feedback I could get. But it turns out, each extra person in a process adds new challenges and delays. I had to stretch my empathy as well as my publishing timeline because, to quote E.D.E. again: “It’s a lot of emotion (as well as brain cycles) to go through...” Outside perspectives will only improve your writing if you are willing to work with them, to truly listen and learn.
3. Can you handle the two-way commitment?
No form of publishing is easy. The myth that authors write while others handle business and promotion is not true at the top, and certainly not with small presses. In my experience, working with Atthis Arts was like joining a team or chosen family. Beyond certain paid tasks, such as editing and sensitivity reading, I discovered a community of authors who freely offered coaching before my first public reading, social media boosting, tips for author webpages, and an extra pair of eyes on letters requesting bookshop readings or other events. While not all small presses work the same way, this supportive culture proved to be an excellent fit for me. Naturally, I wanted to give back whenever possible.
Small presses can only succeed with community. This month, as I promote the launch of Be the Sea at bookshops in Mountain View, Davis, and Sacramento, I will be introducing many Californians to my Michigan-based small publisher, Atthis Arts. When I stand up as a panelist at Norwescon in Washington state or at various science, library, or Pride events later in the year, I’ll be promoting more than Be the Sea by Clara Ward. I’ll give back by sharing my appreciation for small presses, the supportive and inclusive practices they can normalize, and the opportunities they open up for future writers and readers.
Clara Ward lives in Silicon Valley on the border between reality and speculative fiction. Their latest novel, Be the Sea, features a near-future ocean voyage, chosen family, and sea creature perspectives, while delving into our oceans, our selves, and how all futures intertwine. Their short fiction has appeared in Strange Horizons, Decoded Pride, Small Wonders, and as a postcard from Thinking Ink Press. When not using words to teach or tell stories, Clara uses wood, fiber, and glass to make practical or completely impractical objects. More of their words along with crafted creations can be found at: https://clarawardauthor.wordpress.com
Shimmering light woke you up from a slumber so deep your head throbbed with pain. And it wasn't only your head. Every part of your body felt heavy and painful. What happened? With still closed eyes you searched your memory.
Solstice. Tamlin decorated your cottage and made a fancy dinner. He gave you a delicate pendant that you felt resting on the sensitive skin between your collar bones now. You cried and then you danced. As lovely memories slowly flooded back you felt your lips stretching into a smile. Behind your eyes a picture of Tamlin playing the fiddle shone brightly and your heart started to race.
And then it all fell down as pieces of shattered mirror. The dark figure invaded your happiness and took it away along with the light. Rhysand. A male who claimed to be your family, your brother. He came, snatched you from Tamlin and winnowed you away. And Tamlin just stood there, unmoving, letting him to take you. Stinging pain of betrayal wiped the smile from your face. He didn't fight for you. He simply gave up on you.
When you stepped out of darkness there was unfamiliar room full of strangers who stared at you. You couldn't make out their faces because as soon as your feet touched the floor, an excruciating pain took over, crushing your body from the inside out.
Were you dead? Certainly no. It wouldn't hurt this much if you were, right? So you were alive then. You knew you had to open eyes at some point, but you were scared to find out where you were. As far as you could say, this definitely wasn't your bed. It was too comfy, too soft, sheets felt too smooth. The scents around you were novel to you, too.
A small rustle of wings sounded on your left, something overshadowed the bright light and rough fingers touched your hand lightly.
"Aury?" The quiet voice was deep, much deeper than Rhysand's. A shiver ran down your spine, hair on your neck stood up. It was so sensual sound that it made your heart beat faster again.
The smell of cedar and early morning mist filled your nose and for a moment it felt like being back home in your cottage. Slowly you cracked your eyes open. You weren't ready for the too bright light to hit your eyes and you had to blink through the pain. But as soon as your eyes got used to it, you saw him.
It was the most beautiful male you'd ever seen in your life. He was even more handsome than Tamlin and his exact opposite in so many ways. His face with full lips and hazel eyes with gold flecks had to be carved by gods, by Mother herself. His hair was dark as night, ears round. He apparently wasn't a High Fae.
Behind him a pair of folded wings rested, visibly bigger than Rhysand's. His body, wrapped in tight black shirt and breeches of same colour, seemed to be another masterpiece, but you didn't want to explore this topic any further. It was too dangerous, too intriguing.
On his wrists two cobalt blue gems shined. Your eyes fell to his hands and you almost gasped. Otherwise smooth looking tanned skin was on his hands marred with deep burn scars. You couldn't even imagine such kind of hell that could mark fast healing Fae like this. You'd never treated burns, but you instantly knew what massages and herbs you could use to prepare oils and ointments to ease the pain and twitching of affected muscles. How could you know something like that, was beyond your understanding. It had to be something that belonged to the forgotten part of your life.
However beautiful he was, he didn't belong to this light coloured room. Even surrounded by bright light, his presence was attracting the darkness that gathered and swirled around him in thick tendrils.
You probably looked like an idiot staring at him with open mouth, because he smirked and a faint blush tinted his cheeks. "You are looking at me as if it was the first time we met," he cooed amused, leaning forward. "How do you feel?"
You didn't answer, still too stunned by his appearance. The amount of emotions invading your simple life lately, was so confusing, making your headache even worse. You closed your eyes, hoping it would help.
The male raised an eyebrow and then frowned. With a rustle his wings spread out to shade the bright light. "Better?"
You nodded. That helped a lot and you immediately felt better.
He cleared his throat. "Rhys had some urgent High Lord obligations, but he should return soon," the stranger seemed to be disappointed. He straightened in the armchair, his eyes giving you a pleading gaze.
Why? What did that mean? You felt uneasy. You looked up at the ceiling, hoping to find the answers written there. You didn't understand a thing and you had enough of this.
As if he heard the stranger, Rhysand rushed through the door. "Aury," he smiled as soon as he saw your eyes were open.
"Don't call me that," you snapped at him angrily as you pushed all the pain deep down and sat up. You'd never lost it, but this entire situation crossed all limits. There was only one thing you wanted. You desperately needed it. "Take me back! I want to go home!" You blinked away the tears stinging your eyes.
Rhysand halted in the middle of the room, his eyes meeting with the other male's. They both stilled, an absent look on their faces. Whatever it was, Rhysand soon looked back at you, giving you the exactly same sad gaze as the stranger did moments ago. You frowned at him, letting him see all the anger and displeasure you felt.
"Would you leave us alone for a while, Az?" Rhysand said to the other male quietly. The other male shot a longing look your way, but nodded and left.
When the door closed behind him, Rhysand stalked closer and sat down on the edge of mattress next to you. You moved as far from him as you could. He gave you a sad smile.
He sighed. "I'm so sorry for how I behaved before. I should have heard you out. The pain you suffered.. it shouldn't have happened. I sincerely apologise."
Was he talking about what happened after you winnowed? "What do you mean by that?"
"You were trying to say you can't leave that place because they cast a spell on you, but I- I was too angry to pay attention. I'm sor-"
"I don't know what are you talking about," you shouted at him, tears stinging your eyes once again.
"Aury, you-"
"Stop calling me that!" you sobbed, pushing hands to your ears. It was too much.
"Okay, sweetie," he raised his hands, trying to calm you down as if you were a frightened animal. "It's okay. Everything is okay. I won't call you that if you don't like it." Slowly he moved closer and reaching for you he tried to pull you to his chest.
"Don't even try that!"
His mouth opened and closed, but he backed, putting a space between you. "Fine, I won't. Don't be..scared. I won't hurt you."
"I want to go home," you sobbed. You couldn't care less if you sounded as some brat. You needed to be in your cottage, go to the forest to sort out your confused thoughts and feelings and pull yourself together.
"But," Rhysand said gently, "you are at home."
You shook your head. "No, I'm not. How could this be my home. I don't even know this place."
"A-.. sweetie, you are in Velaris. Don't you remember it? Velaris is your home."
"I've never heard of such place," you sobbed pulling knees to your chest.
Some emotion flashed through his face too fast for you to recognise it. His violet-blue eyes darkened. "Do you know who I am?"
You again shook your head. "Tamlin called you Rhysand, so you must be High Lord of the Night Court."
His eyes narrowed at you for a second. "Well, that's correct," he said gently. "But except of that, do you know who I am to you."
"You told Tamlin that you are my brother, but I. Don't. Know. You," you said through gritted teeth.
He watched you silently, thinking, his face blank. "You don't remember me." You shook head. "Do you remember what happened that night? When you lost your wings."
"I don't remember having any wings. I don't know this place. I don't know who you are. I just want to go back home," you cried.
Rhysand reached for you, pulling you closer and this time you allowed that. "Nobody will hurt you again," he whispered as he caressed your head and back. "I promise you. We will solve this together. Just give me a chance."
You cried so hard you didn't notice the other male returned. He handed Rhysand a cup of tea. Giving you a worried look, he silently left again.
"Here, sweetie, drink this tea. It'll help."
You strongly doubted it could help solve the confusion, the amount of feelings that made it all even worse or piercing pain stabbing into your heart, but you accepted the cup anyway. After drinking the strange smelling tea, you became sleepy and before you knew you again fell asleep.
Fanfic writers, please show Jason and Dick’s turmoil towards Bruce. It doesn’t matter if the writings fluff or angst, I just want to see realistic repercussions of their time with Bruce.
Obviously, he was not the best father by a long shot. Hell, he never even knew how to parent, teach or take care of children, he just wanted to help. But the road to hell is usually paved by good intentions.
Bruce would’ve fucked up a LOT with Dick, never knowing when to be cautious or straightforward, kind or angry, especially to someone who’s suffered almost exactly like he had. Someone who’s seen his parents die, his world shatter and now is filled with vengeance and trauma. Someone who needs his attention, even on stupid matters while he’s going through his own battles of staring out as batman.
With Jason, he must’ve had a whole NEW problem. Jason’s experience on the streets, his niche triggers and responses to some mundane activities or phrases, Dick’s hatred towards him and Jason while also trying to make sure this one doesn’t get himself killed. With fear and frustration comes anger, and cold logic so I’m pretty sure there must’ve been a few instances to say the least where Bruce retorts with something out of anger or trying to get Jason to realise just how serious things are, only realising too late how much it affected him.
I want their hesitation and fear portrayed. How Dick hesitates to tell Bruce something about a topic that was sensitive when he was younger. The way he holds his breath, waiting for the onslaught of lectures and scoldings, or how he laments on something like “God I’m so careless how could I have missed that?” Which would have previously been met with “You are no detective, you need to do better, this could cost you your life.” But instead hears “it’s okay, we all make mistakes. You’ll get it next time, maybe a few practice rounds would help.”
How Jason gives up hopes of communicating with Bruce at all after the arguments they’d had in his childhood over everything and nothing. How nowadays he doesn’t speak much at all, and always answers in curt sentences, thinking Bruce would not have the time, care about unimportant details or not approve of activities. It’s why he hesitates on the edge of a panic attack or needs help to call Bruce, always keeping it as the last resort. But instead of hearing “I always told you to be careful” or “You could’ve avoided this..” he hears “How does it feel chum? I know it hurts, but how can I help?”
Because when Tim came, let’s be honest he saw Robin as a job. He didn’t give a flying fuck and thus remained relatively unaffected by Bruce. Not to mention with two robins, and Tim being Tim, Bruce could never really pick on things to actually hurt him. In time, sure he gradually saw Bruce as a father figure and they got closer, he still has a lesser fear and knowledge of Bruce’s behaviour.
Just a fic which shows Bruce trying, changing and not realising just how some things he did or said fucked up his children. How he tries to understand why, for the life of him, Dick never really talks about what’s really bothering him, or how he can help, or really anything about his life that he genuinely enjoys. Bruce lives for conversations with Jason, and keeps trying to remain upbeat and patient while he prompts conversations every time because he doesn’t understand why Jason has become just as quiet, if not more than how talkative and expressive he was as Robin.
Shit happened, and there’s nothing he can do to fix that, he knows that. But he doesn’t know what actions or words of his are actually ingrained in their minds. He doesn’t remember the emotional extent of how bad some things seemed. He might remember being strict with Dick, but he doesn’t remember how he had once told Dick that he would never feel the happiness like he did with his parents before when the kid had come crying to him on the anniversary of his parents shooting saying how much it hurts. He recalls being harsh with Jason when he had done incredibly reckless things trying to find his biological mother. He doesn’t remember telling Jason that maybe it’s a good thing that his mother doesn’t want to see him.
All I’m saying- Give me a fic in which through something, supervillain, mental breakdown - something that makes Bruce have that moment of realisation of how, no matter his intentions, feelings or context, he’s responsible for their fear of him. I want to see how he reacts to this revelation, his moments of panic, guilt and horror when he realises just how badly he fucked up. How he desperate starts trying to change himself, how he slowly tries to start building relations and starts being more patient, caring and considerate..because he truly loves his children, and he misses them.
[ CW | Talks of breeding and pregnancy, Kitty is sadistic asshole, and reader deals with their shit, Degradation, praise, Brats, animalistic behaviors, not proofread, biting, Heat cycle, brief mention of periods, overstimulation, might make a full post out of some of these ]
Bunny! Hybrid
Fluffy little bastard.
Biggest brat, will stomp around if you say no over the stupidest of things.
Like, No sweetie you can't tear up the new couch I just got, you can't throw plates out the window just because you like watching people getting hit, and no you can't chew on the cables.
Gives you the silent treatment for a couple of minutes, before realizing how much he loves your attention and ends up completely forgetting whatever he was pissy about.
Depending on the type of rabbit this mf is either tall as hell or tiny. So imagining a 6'0 Flemish Giant rabbit throw the equivalent of a toddlers tantrum because you told him to NOT bite your fingers off is just funny.
On the topic of biting, this mf bites EVERYTHING including you.
The first week you had him you had to use the lemon trick because everything that was chewable was in fact chewed upon, he'd probably eat insulation if possible
His ears are so... Cute??? Depending on the type of rabbit they can be floppy or straight up but it's adorable on em' anyways,
I can just imagine ears turning in your direction anytime you catch his attention, pink nose slightly twitching as he watches you in vague interest.
Steals everything, he probably doesn't even mean to because he just has this attitude of "Everything you have is mine, and everything I have is only mine." So he just subconsciously steals your clothes and what not.
When he's not being an annoying little shit he's the best cuddler, all that fluff isn't just for the cold. He'll feel like the softest plushie in the world
— NSFW
Oh your first time dealing with a Rabbit in heat was hell, and he was trying so hard not to snap with you around.
He's all but confused why you haven't cracked yet, it's not like keeping Hybrids as pets is considered acceptable anyways. You'd just be fitting out your role if you let him fuck.
Taking the term fucking like bunnies to the max.
Every day, on any surface— you actually probably would be pregnant if not for the fact that you are two different species
I think his favorite position is missionary, not only does he get to watch how you react— Eating up every little emotion but he gets perfect access to your tits
And this may be my barely disguised fetish sneaking in but I feel like he'd be a titty man. A cups, C cups D cups doesn't matter— he just fucking love tits, using any excuse he can to be buried in between them.
Thinkin' about how sensitive his ears and little fluffy tail becomes, almost Cumming in his pants (or in you) from just the feeling of you tugging on them.
On the days you couldn't too sore n' tired to go another round he resorts to thigh fucking, shaky hands trying so desperately not to accidentally claw into your thighs— Tapered tip grinding against your clit perfectly with each needy thrust
High pitched whines escapes him, his hips mindlessly rutting against you in his chase for pleasure. "Pleasepleaseplease let me fuck you." He pleaded, grinding his cock against your hole— whimpering at the resistance the damp fabric separating you two provided.
"'M sorry for bein such a brat— I'll be such a good bunny f' you." He slurred leaning down and burying his face into your chest. Nibbling and licking the supple skin covering your harden nipples in spit and saliva. "So please please let me in."
Puppy! Hybrid
Oh, baby is so sweet its insane
He's so expressive— Visibly lighting up when you enter the room, all smiles and giggles with his tail wagging aggressively
Fully domesticated boy wife. Cleans the house while your gone, packing you homemade lunch with the cutest little designs, has dinner and a bath prepared by the time your back home
Husky Hybrids are so fucking???? They're loud, they WILL team up on you, and shed every.fucking.where.
Guiltrips you with puppy eyes any time he does something bad, he does it even without the mistake- If he wants extra treats or if he's trying to convince you to stay home a little longer
He accidentally breaks a glass vase? Puppy eyes.
Vet visits are fucking horrible, cause at first he'll be so happy because he thinks you're going to the park, but the moment he realizes you took the wrong turn he's a whining mess
Refused to talk to you for a few days after because he had to wear the cone of shame
— NSFW
I think he'd actually be in more control during heat season, probably waiting for your own mating season to come before acting on any urges
Early on in your relationship he was so confused why you never go through heat. Literally would spend months watching you waiting for it to come just for it to never. And baby boy was so confused.
that was until he did research, pup was so worried about you— Genuinely wondering how your species grew to the size it did when apparently your 'heat' cycle was all year.
Cause how are you supposed to tell who's ready to breed and when??
It didn't take long for him to find out about a magical thing that exists before your period there's this magical thing called ovulation
And now you deal with a doggy who keeps track of everything in your menstruation cycle— in three different calendars + you get sniffed because he's slowly realizing that during ovulation your scent slightly changes
The biggest switch ever, sometimes you'll be riding him into a mattress while he's crying from overstimulation— Begging you to fuck him till he can only shoot out blanks
Or he's fucking you into the mattress, holding your hips firmly against his so he's able to reach and fuck with those spots in you that have you so needy beneath him
When he knotted you for the first time it was a little bit of a surprise— Like you seen the base of his cock swell up before but it was never in you
So the feeling of all that cum being trapped inside, a fat knot just keeping you plugged up was definitely a new and welcomed one
That experience probably unlocked something in him, because after that day he begs to breed you 24/7
He's some level of delusional cause he thinks that if he tries hard enough he can actually get you pregnant
Will spend hours on foreplay, especially if he's the Dom. Will forcefully hold your legs wide open, eagerly lapping and sucking your pussy. Fingers pumpin' in and outta you despite the fact you already came three times earlier
Thinking about a tall 6'3 doberman melting at the simplest of your touch— Crying and begging for your attention to be directed to the twitching dick in his pants
Or a tiny 5'2 Chihuahua somehow tying you up, and has your legs spread, arms behind your back, overstimulated as all hell because of the dildo squirming and vibrating inside of you— A cute pastel pink vibrator taped down to your sensitive, overwhelmed clit
Just so many possibilities...
The loving yet lust hazed eyes looking down on you almost made you wanna forgive him, but that thought is thrown out the window when you remember it was those same pretty eyes that put you in this situation— Pussy clenching around nothing, desperate to be filled up with something anything. "You're so pretty— Can you cum like that f' me one more time?" He asked, but by the way his eyes flickered down to your twitching cunt you doubt he' cares for an actual answer
Not that you can form any, mind too stupid and fucked out to fully register the weight behind his words. More focused on the way his thumb draws sticky shapes all over your clit, two fingers finally sinking into the warmth of your cunt and pumping in and out of you.
"Just one more and I'll stuff you full of my cum, gonna make you my baby mama... you'd look so pretty with swollen breasts and a stomach round with my kids in ya"
Kitty! Hybrid
Meanest little shit to you
Not even in a bratty way, he's like an actually asshole— Conveniently bumping into vases and glasses 'on accident'
You have too many scars to count, you don't think he even does it in purpose. His claws are just naturally sharp, and any attempt at cutting them ends with him awkwardly apologizing while tending to the now bleeding scratch marks on your forearms
I think he's probably the only one who in general has a consistent height excluding the big boy breeds. Maybe a bit taller than you but no major height differences.
You have so many nicknames you're 90% sure he forgot your real one. But his most favorite ones to use are 'Peasant' and 'Slave'
He can't cook for shit.
Tried making you something as an apology but ended up almost burning the kitchen
And don't get me started on the dead rodents
A annoying asshole yet wants you to praise and focus all your attention on him
Scents you as well but it's a little more obvious
Nuzzling himself into your neck, wears all your clothes to make sure his scent sticks
Gets actually offended when you wash your clothes because of that.
— NSFW
The scratches and bite marks aren't limited to outside the bedroom
It's not even on purpose at this point, he is so overwhelmed that he can't help it that his claws dig into your skin.
Orgasm
A choked gasp spilled from your lips, the pressure on your throat as your cunt was being abused was enough to have your eyes Rolling back, Tears sticking to your eyelashes.
"God you're disgusting, to get off being treated like trash—" He panted, his nails digging into the fat of your hips the stinging sensation mixing with the overwhelming pleasure.
"Do you even deserve my cum?" He mocked, leaning down to bite and suck at the nape of your neck adding to the collection of bruises and bite marks that decorated on your skin.
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMY7U9dBE/ :: This tt gave me so much thoughts. Emily x Reader recently got engaged and started sending out invitations. But the only people who they haven’t sent it to is Reader’s mum because Reader’s mum isn’t exactly happy with Reader being liking girls, nvm dating one. On the day of the wedding, Reader’s waiting in the dressing room for her mum but she never comes.
(because I related so hard to the tt. we love hate h*mophobic parents)
- 🐦
Waiting for nothing
*Authors note~ this is a sensitive topic for so many people so I hope I handle it in a way that resonates with you all*
Trigger warnings~ homophonic parents
Prompt~see ask^^^^^^
When Emily popped the question you couldn't have been happier, it was the perfect proposal. Emily had asked Hotch and JJ to keep you distracted on paperwork from the last case while the other BAU members help set up a little romantic scene in the round table room. It was stunning, red rose petals and very lights in the very room you sneakily stole your first kiss. You were completely unsuspecting of it when JJ led you to the room. You couldn't help but burst into tears when Emily knelt down on one knee, "sweetheart I never wanted to settle down or let my anyone hold my heart incase it was broken again, but with you it's all changed. I want you to hold my heart and keep it safe and I want to build a life and family with my perfect girl. Marry me darling?"
You remember how you whimpered out a yes through streams of happy tears. The rest of your BAU family congratulated you both and you before celebrating the night with you. You and Emily went home and celebrated even further. Your little bubble of bliss didn't last too long as the harsh truth dawned on you, you'd have to tell your parents.
The invites were the hardest thing to write. You had to work out if you wanted to even attempt to send your parents one. Would your dad even want to walk you down the isle? You knew how they felt about your sexuality, your mother had willingly told you that you disappointed her as she had dreams of you with a nice house, husband car and kids. Personally you didn't understand the difference you could have all of that and more with your Emily.
To: my parents
Invite to
Y/N and Emily's wedding
Date: 12/10/24
************** photo of you both******************
You decided to risk it, giving them the choice to turn up. Unbeknownst to you, the invite landed upon their doorstep and your mother inspected it, you and your other bride which caused her to immediately crumple the invite up and tossed it into the fire to watch it burn. They wouldn't be attending so your desperate attempt to reach out was so badly ignored.
You received no reply, but yet on your special day, you still sat in your dressing room waiting. You sat in your silk bride housecoat that Penelope insist on you having one alongside Emily. JJ was with your wife and Penelope with you, Rossi agreed to walk you down the isle incase your dad never showed and Hotch for Emily. But you'd be lying if you said it didn't hurt when Penelope hinted it was time to change into your dress.
"Oh honey, don't cry! You'll ruin your makeup" Pen tried to hopefully lighten the mood."I don't even know why I thought she'd turn up, Garcia it hurts why can't she love me for me" you whimpered as she helped you adorn the beautiful dress you'd chosen. "You my darling are beautiful" Garcia whispered all emotional at the sight, you had to to admit you looked stunning.
Rossi entered the room while you took in your appearance for the day. "You look beautiful Bella" her murmured and kissed your cheek, "ready to make prentiss and honest woman?" He teased and managed to pull a genuine smile from you. "Yes let's make me Mrs Prentiss" you murmured back before squeezing Penelope's hand. You headed off to marry the woman of your dreams, the absence of your birth parents wasn't felt too much due to you and Emily having your chosen family to be with you both and celebrate the true love you found.
The joy of a big family indeed! I’m actually the second oldest(though everyone assumes me ‘n my big bro are twins).
My big bro usually just chills in his room on his laptop until we make him get out, to eat and have some time off his screens.
Going down from there(and skipping me), the middle bro plays video games & builds in his room. If he ain’t doin that, he’s causin chaos.
The little two run around yelling all the time. Unless they’re on screens or one of gem is absent of course.
I just kinda hide in my room ‘n do art most of the time.
It’s absolute chaos when we’re all there together, constantly jumping between topics and talking over each other, runnin round, aaaaand getting hurt sometimes. I swear, we have at least 3 fights a day here(help me T-T).
‘N I’d love ta exchange stories with ya Big Red! I think I’d be fun!
(Sorry, that was kinda long- I hope I didn’t bore ya)
*pats you gently on your back*
Raph is proud of ya!
That mess you talk about sounds a lot like what is happening in our household, too.
When we were younger, Donnie & Leon cried at LEAST ten times a day because the other one was bothering him (Donnie) or was mean to him (Leon). Leon had a hard time controlling his temper, so his instinctive reaction to anything negative was to hit, bite or kick, mostly Donnie.
Donnie, on the other hand, just started screeching unbearably loud when Leon did anything until someone took him away.
I think Mikey was the easiest to co-parent, although he is very sensitive to emotions. He was mostly on his own, painting by himself. He is hyperactive, but in a much more... gentle way than how Leon acted (& still does).
I'm always glad when a day goes by & there was no explosion or fire & no one hurt themselves.
Saw @givereadersahug do this and I wanna play, too!
Since there's talk of stats and I know that can be a sensitive topic for some, I'm putting everything below the cut, for easy avoidance!
Works Published: 19! Which is lower than previous years but I'm not gonna think about that, I'm NOT.
Word Count: 77,545
Hits: 65,886
Bookmarks: 1,153
Most Popular by Kudos: Obscene...the people do like their filth.
Most Hits: Also Obscene.
Longest: Contempt
Shortest: I managed a few "perfect" drabbles this year! So: Partygoers, Caged, Fool, and Yes all tie for this one!
Most Comments: Contempt, and I'm OVERJOYED. My beloved precious shard of my soul. 🥹 Every (nice) comment it gets is literally the best gift ever. I'm still stupidly emotional about this fic oh god. I'm gonna sob about and chat about this fic forever, sorry 'bout it.
Fic that made me cry: Oh lordy. I'm a big ole crier. The ones I remember distinctly would be A Matter of Time for the gorgeous tragedy, and In My Veins (In My Blood) for the...y'know...big dark whumping and dead dove-ness.
Fic that made me smile: Definitely Welcome to the Family for the silliness and humor, and Orange Blossoms for the L O V E.
Gifts: 9 January 2022 for my friend Shera; The Alchymist II for my beloved Nina (@vulnerasanenturmyprince); Obscene for Lila my love (@liladiurne); Fool, a Tumblr drabble prompt for dear Pahn (@bluesundaycake); In My Veins (In My Blood) for Lila and Viran (@mrviran), my fabulous filth friends; and A Chain Reaction of Countermoves for the ever-amazing Ephie (@fleetingdesires-ao3), who gave me all the encouragement I needed (and more!) to finish! Also this probably doesn't count but I wrote Orange Blossoms as a gift for MYSELF for my birthday. Because I deserve nice things, too, dang it!!!!
Events: Omgg let's see. Events that were posted this year were: Rare Pair Fest (2021/2022), Snarry Adopt a Prompt, Kinkuary, Blackcest Fest, HP Flowers - Spring Round, Snarry-a-Thon, Kinktober...is that it? I think that's it. And I wrote for Hoggywartyxmas but it's not going on AO3 until 2023!
Collaborations: None! But maybe next year 😉
Coming in 2023: I make no promises 🙈 Actually WAIT. My Hoggywartyxmas fic is definitely going up in January! (Reveals go up January 9th so...definitely then!) I hope to get a third chapter of smile with sweet surprise out. A fic for Snarry Bang hopefully. A sequel to Obscene (tentatively titled Beatific) is a plan. Finishing and posting Devotion would be nice. But I'm aiming for 2023 to be as low stress as humanly possible. Oh! But also! I'll be archiving some of my meta works on AO3 next year under my danniperson pseud. 🙌
Tagging: Tag yourself, baby! (And me, tag me, I wanna see!!!!)
Can I ask for a level three ship for Stranger Things (male), Harry Potter and Disney Descendants (female)?
My pronouns are she/they and I'm bisexual.
5'11, curvy, I have pale skin, round shaped face with a small double chin, potato nose, mid-lenght straight black hair with undercut and bangs, hazelnut brown eyes and my style is a mix of grunge and dollcore/angelcore.
INFP, Ravenclaw, Lawful Good, gemini sun with moon gemini, rising pisces and venus virgo.
I have ADHD and I describe myself as stubborn, intelligent, discerning, conceited, aggressive, honest, emotional, creative, empathic and sensitive.
I like writing songs and poems, listening to music, drawing/painting, junk food, makeup, staying in bed all day, rainy days, comfy clothes, shopping, cats. I dislikes raspberry kisses, injustices, fireworks and firecrackers, balloons, snakes, school.
Want one? Here be the rules 🦋🌈
𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬
𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛
𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝑱𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝑩𝒚𝒆𝒓𝒔! It was a hard toss up between him, Steve and Eddie, so I'll give you the reasons -
𝑺𝒕𝒆𝒗𝒆; I think he suits someone that has a naturally motherly side. You remind me of Robin A LOT. Both honest, strive for the truth and have a no nonsense attitude to certain things. I think what got me the most is the Lawful Good. Steve is more of a Chaotic Good, and I think you would clash heads a lot with 'what's right and wrong.'
𝑬𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒆; He would do your head in. I'm sorry to say, but he would annoy you a lot. I don't think you would appreciate his messy lifestyle and sometimes erratic behaviour.
So I ship you with 𝑱𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏! He's the most emotionally mature and sensitive of the bunch. He thinks about how his actions can hurt others, and he's very intelligent. You would have a lot of philosophical discussions, always out of the blue.
𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠
・His MBTI is ISFP, paired with your INFP, you both have a gentle relationship. Neither of you get aggressive with each other, as the other never gets annoying.
・He loves when you remember important information about him. His birthday, Will's birthday etc. Oh and he LOVES when you hang out with Will!!! He loves seeing you two together, like a little family <3
・Is shy with pet names, but in private he's getting used to calling you 'honey'
𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐏𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫
𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛
𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝑪𝒉𝒐 𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈! She would be so delicate with you, and would love when you get revved up about your favourite topic. She's very intelligent - that's how you got to know each other, you were both studying for an exam and she didn't want to sit by herself.
She's a very kind girl, who has a soft demeaour. She isn't loud, and actually hates sudden loud noises. She doesn't like surprises but does like sweets.
I think in the book Rowling portrayed her in a very awful light. Cho is a young girl who has experienced a terrible loss. So she definitely has an issue with abandonment because of Cedric.
𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠
・If there's a gossip or a rumour going around school about you, she will shut it down immediately. Although she isn't a confrontational person, she is very smart and can easily get underneath someone's skin.
・Likes to sit by the fire and read with you. Although the Ravenclaw common room doesn't have a fire, the students have created a makeshift one. It's actually very creative and out-of-the box. The fire is blue and instead of smoke, sparks of stars drift from the flames.
・Takes you out to look at the stars. She'll pull you to the astronomy tower and lay next to you, watching shooting stars
𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐧𝐞𝐲 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬
𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛
𝑰 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝑼𝒎𝒂! I'm basing this off of her character development in movie three. Uma is a very passionate person who hates injustice. Her whole character revolves around "why not me, why not all of us," when only the four VK's are chosen.
𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠
・Makes all the moves in the relationship. She initiates the first kiss, asks you out, etc. Either you're too oblivious to see her flirting with you, or you're too intimidated.
・Gives you sea-themed jewellery all the time. Aquamarine gemstones in sterling silver encasing, so that you can wear them as necklaces. Or sea shells as earrings.
・Even though you've earned your respect from everyone. It's like you have extra ... protection? extra respect? I just mean everyone knows not to cross you, because Uma will
Cute and captivating webtoon to warm you up in autumn evenings (^∀^●)ノシ
THAT AWKWARD MAGIC (Fantasy/Romance/School life) 2017 (ongoing) - 136 episodes
SomeBunny
Rating: 10/10
We are all absolutely sure of certain things in this world that we would never think of questioning. The earth revolves around the sun, we're all going to die one day, witches don't exist... And if one day you discovered that these certainties were not so sure, what would you do? If one day you found yourself in front of a witch, what would your reaction be? Would you run away screaming? Or would you be so fascinated that you would be drawn to this creature like a magnet?
Evan will opt for the second option. When he discovers that Ansel has extraordinary powers, he gives in to curiosity rather than fear. And when all of this gets mixed up and he uses the situation to get out of a relationship that is becoming an obsession, Ansel finds himself unwillingly embroiled in a world he doesn't know very well: that of the popular, sociable, and charming high school boy. The exact opposite of him.
Behind his big round glasses and hair that deliberately hide the freckles that eat away his face, Ansel does everything he can to remain unnoticed. Because Ansel doesn't have any self-confidence. And what's more, he didn't know he was a witch either... Plunging into unbridled high school life, discovering new emotions he thought were forbidden to him, and learning to love himself as he is, and into a new and much scarier world - that of witches - Ansel is going to have a hard time keeping his feet on the ground and his head above water. Nothing is worse than an already complicated situation that becomes even more so when feelings get involved...
Between touches of humor and a mature and sensitive exploration of feelings, That Awkward Magic is as easy as it is transcendent. You will be ruthlessly tossed around at the pace of a fast-paced, thrilling plot, but also capable of pausing to lose yourself in a labyrinth of emotions that will grab you by the throat. Add to this an approach to sexuality that is as educational as it is straightforward, and you have a webtoon that can be read at any age and at any time! You'll be surprised how much you can learn with just a few chapters on topics you may never have explored before...
Let your curiosity get the better of you, and like Evan and Ansel, set out to discover the magic and witches of the twenty-first century for the duration of these one hundred and sixty-three breathtaking episodes. Get on the high-speed train of That awkward magic to enjoy a neat and very sensitive graphic style as well as quality writing, as emotional as well constructed! Something to liven up your autumn evenings by giving you a change of scenery and making you forget the dreariness...
"I fell for you faster than I fell on the elevator" Evan
How is someone's mental health even impacted by people not liking kids I'm actually dying, people are ridiculous. you're too kind!
I don't want to make assumptions, and to be clear I don't need that anon to clarify why, but the topic of children/childbirth etc is highly personal and emotional for a lot of reasons.
Without knowing, it's possible that person recently experienced a miscarriage or is going through their umpteenth round of fertility drugs trying to get pregnant or literally any possible reason and so the topic is sensitive and harrowing.
I don't need reasons for why a topic might be triggering for someone because if all I need to do for their day to be even slightly less shitty is to add a tag to a post - I'm happy to do that one small act if it means they can pass through their day just a little bit easier.
The overwhelming discovery of how much the lack of justice has weighed during the last few years.
I had to endure PTSD after someone who was way too powerful, compared to me, diminished my dignity as a human being. I was mistreated for years, questioned every time I was out of the mood and isolated from that community every now and then, but the ending to that experience was awful. According to him, I was incapable of taking my decisions. No phone, no talking, no civilization.
How did that happen to me?-I still wonder from time to time, but I was too naive, scared and respectful for religion.
I never got an apology while I was learning to speak again after the utter shock. No one out of mom recognised what was wrong. That man was protected and even "promoted". The first person ever came to hate.
All the blame was put on me. It was my fault cause I was too sensitive. God didn't want me to be that smart, academically ambitious and outspoken. I needed "to be fixed", so it took a few days completely ignored by everyone around, a nanny and a prohibition about talking while the main topic was how to please the Lord with a good and fruitful marriage with at least 10 kids.
Grad school didn't matter, the fact that I never thought about marriage or even dating didn't matter. My concern about eventually getting a PhD was out of the table, because a "Nice girl" should be limited to think about getting a husband and being a Doctor was not acceptable. Why would a girl need that degree? Even better, it was awesome to keep everyone silenced given the fact that "women just talk too much".
I cried for 5 days, almost non-stop. I couldn't swallow any food, so each small bite was lost after throwing out of anxiety. I was measuring time with the occurrences of panic attacks. No electronics were allowed and the feeling of reality was numb. I disassociated right after the second round of timeless tachycardia...
It was 2 and a half years ago. I learnt to speak, sleep and eat after almost six months. I could not feel my body at all at the time. It took me a whole year to stop coming back to the trauma moment and losing my fear to the darkness and the silence. After two years, I stopped having nightmares about it, periodically.
I am way too different to the girl I was before that, and, even if I have tried to feel hope and emotion for living again, I'm still not there. I am working on it yet, but there are too many issues left. Although, I get easily angered, today I got to know now how much the injustice feeling influences it. Such an epiphany...
IK you said you weren't disclosing detail unless in private, but what exactly happened???
tbh, I'm gonna say it, but I'm gonna put it under cut and properly tag it. The biggest sensitive topic on this answered ask is suicide and self-harm.
On Wednesday night, past a bit after 9 pm, my neighbor (who was in his 80's) committed suicide. He did it with a gun. He blew out his glass window and also one of the bullets shot through my bathroom wall and into the ceiling of said bathroom. I thought, at first, it was loud fireworks--but fireworks don't do that. I went into the bathroom, and I only took maybe three or four steps in? And I heard a loud boom and saw shrapnel scattered and dusted all over the bathroom.
I immediately told my mom and we both thought he was going senile, so we went and drove to a friend's house 3 blocks down for safety. My mom called the landlord to check on the neighbor (and also to call police), and when the landlord called back, she (the landlord) told my mom that she walked in with her son, and that my neighbor killed himself. He did it on the bed.
I broke down, crying and sobbing and just a general mess because I was traumatized and upset of learning that a man shot himself. Apparently he was depressed and had been watching and reading some conspiracies and whatnot of current war, plus he was dealing with some personal stuff. It felt surreal bc we all saw him that morning, just smiling, and that we didn't know it would be our last. All of us didn't know he was capable of doing that.
During which, from what my mom and her friend told me because they went down there a couple of times to get a statement and for my mom to grab some stuff, there were a bunch of police cars, main investigators, and crime scene crew. And someone was going down there to pick up our neighbor's body. I spent the night at her friend's house, but I was pretty restless cuz I had a long night, I was upset and shook, and only had 5 hours of sleep. I was pretty dull and full of emotion the next day, and I also decided to skip school for the rest of the week because I was too messed up to go. I emailed all my teachers telling them I wasn't going, but I didn't fully explain WHY, just told them that a tragedy happened and I wasn't going and hopefully I got excused.
The only person I DID tell, in full detail, was my Spanish 1 teacher (I am in Spanish 3) and we were close inside of school. I am gonna file in a request for counseling because I am still processing something emotional, to which I told her. And she fully understand on what was happening and gave me her empathy and sympathy.
I spent Friday and today being at a hotel to which my mom's boss paid for because she told her (mom's boss) about the situation and paid for two nights just to get out of the house. I will say, it was decent to say the least, but now that I am back home it kinda just feels a bit weird. My house is connected to my (now late) neighbor's home, which is why and how the bullet went through the bathroom. When I went back on Thursday from staying the night at my mom's friend's place there was already a black tarp covering my neighbor's window because he blew it out. He did three rounds of bullets--one blasting his window and the other to get him to his resting place.
Otherwise, I am not harmed in either way, however, my mental state is a bit fucked. I hope everyone now understood what happened now that I have given the full context.
My name is Kenji and I use he/him pronouns. I often play a bottom but I do make exceptions occasionally. I usually am busy with work and other things so I might not always be active. I prefer a roleplay partner who is fine with playing background characters to cause some complications and mishaps in the relationship. My writing style is somewhat semi literate, first person and I enjoy going into slight depth on the character’s feelings and emotions to give more insight and add on to the progression of the roleplay. I would mainly like to do a Kavetham where I play a bottom bratty/reluctant Alhaitham and someone else plays a top dominant Kaveh.
I would like to do a slice of life rp with slight angst/slow burn and nsfw. We can decide together whether to include background ships and if we should use a different au to suit the plot. I like the idea of them being roommates, eventually falling inlove but then dramatically breaking up over a misunderstanding and then settling for fwb as a way for Kaveh to pay his rent but deep down they both agreed because of their attachment to each other
My requirements are:
* Over the age of 18+
* Preferably plays top/dominant characters
* Friendly OOC (absolutely no flirting and I don’t really engage much in OOC talk unless its about the rp)
* Patient (I sometimes take days to respond)
* Can contribute to the story and push it forward, don't just react
* Okay with discussing sensitive topics.
* Please tell me if you're not able to respond for a week
* Able to write at least 5-6 sentences and a little literate (I’m not particularly very literate since I’m not use to roleplaying but I will try)
* Can brainstorm together
* Willing to negotiate and contribute to plot ideas so they fit both our personal preferences
**NOT requirements but are heavily preferred**
* Has a plot/prompt you wish to use in the rp
* Has and uses headcanons
* Be able to play background characters (Use them to cause drama or resolve drama)
* Consistent replies
**OTHERS**
Please give me your name/pronouns/timezone, your kinks and limits as well as headcanons if you have any and all your preferences
Kinks: degrading, multiple rounds, toys, slight bdsm, public/risky sex, non-con (to an extent), dub-con, clothed sex, spanking, hair pulling, teasing, edging, toys/vibrators, edging, marking, biting, rough sex, voyeurism, sadism/masochism, humiliation (to an extent depending on the context), manhandling and brat taming the bottom. I don’t mind double penetration but it depends on who.
My only limits are scat, gore, watersports, beastility, inflation, heavy gore, feet, musk, armpits, toilet stuff, etc.
I have a few plots and ideas in mind for them as well as au ideas. Interact with this post if you’re interested. My discord is xhen27 so feel free to contact me if you’re interested
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Meilu isn’t afraid to admit to being ‘horny’ all year round when she meets someone she finds incredibly attractive - some time its as easy as visual aesthetics and tone of voice - but that is mostly because Meilu openly admits to being bisexual and open to developing relationships ( emotional or sexual/physical ) with anyone doesn’t matter gender or species as Meilu is a DRAGON ADEPTI.
HOWEVER she does understand that not everyone is the same as not everyone can/is interested in physical or emotional relationships and Meilu will not push them into anything they aren’t comfortable with just PLEASE communicate/get on the same page as her if she has any interest in you!
Meilu’s ‘official’ mating season is the start of December until the end of February - some times due to weather it can start and end earlier or later.
Ever since becoming completely independent from her former male selves ( Morax/Rex Lapis/Zhongli ) she has found it hard to keep in control especially around mortals as does not trust herself in the heat of intimacy to not accidentally harm/kill her mortal partner. How does she deal with that? Hibernation or covering herself completely in dragon scales on more sensitive parts of her body in an attention to keep in control if a partner tries to be ‘brave’ and think they can safely have sex with her in that state.
Meilu at Mortal Partners:
“Once I claim you with my mark... that is it. You are mine and I am yours, but I refuse to put you at risk of serious harm just because my body wants to make a baby... it would be smart to try during any other part of the year at least that way I will know we can become partners without putting your life at risk because when I start... I can last on and off for months until I become pregnant, please do not make me choose between your life or a babies.”
In regards to those who full into the in-human/immortal/longevity category of being--
She has ZERO fear or hesitation to be physically/sexually intimate with you HOWEVER due to her being a dragon she mates for life and is incredibly loyal and would prefer to die then even consider cheating.
Bonus?
Meilu has FULL control over her physical body so it doesn’t matter what gender her partner is she can and will adapt to satisfy them 100% but obviously before anything ‘happens’ Meilu will communicate to her partner what she is capable... with a female partner, that wishes to have a baby ~ Meilu can give herself male genitalia if that is what they truly desire.
Now will you excuse Meilu as she goes into hibernation because dragon lady sees many attractive people on the dash that she doesn’t wish to pressure into anything because her body just won’t shut the hell up! ~
These types of posts seem to be very popular and they’re fun to make, so here's round two. Read part 1 here . Enjoy!
· Saturn opposite Venus creates the dynamic of “I work so I can have/do what I want but I work so I never get to have/do what I want”.
· Saturn conjunct Venus creates the dynamic of “I work because it’s the only time I feel worthwhile and somewhat satisfied”.
· Libra Mars people tend to keep their anger in because they don’t want to upset people but it has to come out at some point.
· Pluto conjunct Mercury people tend to share very powerful messages and their words are extremely impactful. They tend to like talking about deep and transformative experiences, life and death, all of the heavier topics. Some people might want to censor their voices because they’re communicating about taboo things. Their words can trigger strong emotions in people.
· Having Jupiter conjunct Saturn can be a promise of an abundance of work opportunities. These people usually work a lot but it also brings them joy and expansion. They can be prone to take on too much but they have so much that they want to accomplish. They usually maximize their capacity because they know that their luck is going to come in equal proportion to their effort.
· Jupiter square Saturn is not very nice to see in a chart. It usually makes the person work in the hope of a lot of rewards but the big dreams never fully actualize. Optimism is cancelled by pessimism and vice versa. The person alters between “this could be a good idea” and “this is never going to work”. Might stay stuck in the same place because of fear to take chances.
· Jupiter opposite Saturn is similarly difficult for the native. It creates the dynamic of “I work so I can have fun but I work so I never get to have fun”.
· People with Lilith (True Black Moon) conjunct Mercury often make people upset with what they say. They can be inconsiderate, insensitive and provocative. They do it instinctually; they’re not intentionally trying to hurt people. Don’t take them too seriously and you’ll be fine. Expect them to be unpredictable and out of control with their comments.
· People with Chiron in the 7th house are very sensitive to the behavior of other people and tend to take it personally.
· Chiron conjunct Mars makes a person hurt by their own anger. They’re sad that they would ever have to assert themselves.
· Having Saturn sextile Uranus makes a person very independent. Uranus positively stimulates Saturn to work on his own terms and structure his own life in a way that isn’t necessarily following the norm/convention.
· Saturn opposite Uranus makes a person work within preexisting structures in order to facilitate change but by doing this one is only perpetuating and supporting the very thing that one would like to break out of.
· Having Neptune conjunct Uranus makes a person want to shatter illusions and break out of the fog that surrounds them. They might be stubborn believers in change and would find it romantic notion to rebel and break out of the limits that have been imposed on them (real or imagined).
· People with Uranus in the 7th house will have people cut them off and cut people off with no explanation or justification.
· People with Mercury square Neptune will always feel like they have too much feeling but not enough words to express them with. The have trouble describing in concrete terms what they are experiencing which is frustrating for them.
· People with Moon square Saturn will have trouble getting to work and once they’re at it they will feel discontent, like they’re being deprived of their needs. It’s awful.
· Having Mars square Pluto makes the native feel disempowered through their actions. They try to assert themselves but they become afraid and enraged. This is a very difficult aspect to deal with. When they try to go their own way and stand up for themselves or show anger they feel powerless so they might snap and become really threatening all of a sudden.
· Moon conjunct Neptune sometimes tend to make people concerned and empathetic in all the wrong ways – they latch onto sob stories and dwell on them as if they were their own. It’s true, in some sense that things that happen to one person happen to everyone because there’s universality reflected in the individual experience but it’s necessary to have boundaries in order to not drown in the sorrows of the world.
· Saturn is a planet of karma in the sense that that which is not learned and carried out will not bear any fruits – internally or externally. If the asteroid Karma is conjunct Saturn consider this to be the case in a very literal sense. Karma is a slippery and tricky thing to grasp but I believe it has to do with keeping your conscience clear and clean. In other words, in order to not be plagued with guilt and be punished for your sins you have to value your inner integrity and morals. You have to align your actions with your will and choose your consequences. If you have this placement, take extra care to cultivate stability in your life – inner and outer.
· The house placement of the asteroid Karma seems to point to the sphere of life where we’re compelled to make someone pay for their “sins” or “crimes”. I have found this to be true in my own life.
· Having your moon sesquiquadrate Saturn means that the more you put up walls, the more uncomfortable you’re going to become emotionally but it’s not as bad as the square and you can try to suppress the discomfort.
· Having Neptune in the 10th house can make the public know you as a savior or messiah, a spiritual counselor and guru. You can also be seen as irresponsible and obscure. Some people with this placement can be famous for their drug and alcohol addictions. People tend to see the best and the worst in these types.
· People with Mars in the 12th house tend to act on behalf of everyone, on behalf of the “collective” but they can get major inflations and believe that they are the “chosen ones”. The 12thhouse is an undifferentiated sphere – the person’s actions aren’t just their own but they still are. It’s confusing. When they act it’s a universal symbol of independence and strength.
· Having Uranus in the 11th house can make someone extremely rebellious in crowds and groups. These people will not sit still, not “behave” and conform, they will do their own thing no matter who’s watching and what consequences it could have.
· Your moon sign dictates your inner life/temperament. It’s who you are instinctually. For this reason, it’s your truest core. It’s not your personality; it’s your whole emotional and physical existence. The moon is truly embodying the sign it’s in. Libra moon is the truest Libra; a Capricorn moon is the truest Capricorn, in my opinion. You are your moon sign. You have a personality.
· Pluto conjunct Sun can make a person extremely hidden. The closest members of this person’s family might not even know them. The same goes for other Pluto-Sun/moon aspects. They usually grew up in a very controlling atmosphere that threatened to undermine them and keep them emotionally and psychologically weak so they have to “bury themselves”, metaphorically speaking, as to not be found.
· Pluto in the 4th house can mean a lot of things, but it’s always indicative of highly charged and difficult undercurrents in the home. If a person with this placement puts on a chipper attitude and claims that they “had a wonderful childhood”, there’s something that they’re missing or suppressing. Pluto is never light-hearted. Some kind of radical separation needs to happen to regain power. The native has to use the home as their burning ground for transformation.
· People with Sun in the 12th house seem to feel neglected and forgotten while simultaneously feeling like the main character in the "movie of life". It’s a strange paradox.
· Aquarius moons have such an innocent look to them. They seem to truly want the best for everyone, to live according to their ideals and have a chance of actualizing that utopia (finally). They’re idealists to the core, friendly, a bit odd, stubborn, humorous and endlessly caring at the same time. They tend to be loners at heart and are often reserved as children.
· In cases where the Angel asteroid shows up conjunct victim asteroids in the chart, it’s probable that you’re blessed with signs, guidance and protection in situations where you’re prone to feel scared and abandoned. It should make you feel a little bit better – you won’t be without assistance.
· Dissatisfied Leo moons can be hard to handle. They will sulk and dramatize everything. They need to feel important, special, strong and admirable. They need to be recognized for their specialness. If your have a Leo moon in your life, make sure to remind them of how special they are and what a treat it is to be around them. When a Leo moon is satisfied and content they’re usually very loyal and generous. Help boost their ego in a healthy way! If you want to please them – become their biggest fan. They will want to keep you around if you look up to them.
· Pisces Moons feel so much and sympathize so much that it seems exaggerated. They might care about all the wrong things and all the wrong people but they don’t care. They can seem childish and immature but they can move mountains with their imagination and creativity. They sense the soul of everything around them.
· People who have asteroid Lucifer conjunct their Sun might be prone to experience “falling from grace” in big and small ways. They have great pride, but it makes the fall so much worse. It’s easy for their sense of self-importance and confidence to spiral downward. These individuals shine brightly but they can’t be owned. They have their own light and they don’t want anyone to steal it. They understand that hell isn’t such a bad place if you can be your own source of brightness.