#because it's good for my mind and soul

[tennessoui]

thinking about a soulmate canon au where you find your soulmate via touch and the jedi order is a bit more pious and has a very respectful no touching culture that obi-wan absolutely abides by. meanwhile anakin is raised on tatooine before coming to the temple and he's really used to touch, and it drives him a little insane, that no one touches him casually in the temple but he learns to abide by it as well and follow his master's example

only for him to fall head over heels for padmé as soon as they touch in aotc and he thinks his reactions to her are due to them being soulmates so they get married because padmé doesn't really know what finding her soulmate feels like either, but anakin's touch and attention feels good (and maybe he unintentionally uses the Force to convince her) so they must be soulmates

meanwhile obi-wan saved his padawan's life when he was like sixteen and was knocked unconscious and tossed into an ocean or something so obi-wan gives him mouth to mouth to resuscitate him---and discovers instantly that they're soulmates....but anakin's out cold and doesn't feel it so obi-wan's left alone with the realization that he's some kind of monster, being the soulmate of a child and anakin can never ever ever know.

so canon happens as canon does but with obi-wan knowing and keeping this secret to himself and carefully making sure he never touches anakin while anakin gets all of his touches from his wife and obi-wan watches from afar knowing he can never tell anakin or anyone else

but palpatine works it out and definitely tells anakin once he's Fallen and killed his wife and also been barbecued (by his soulmate), which makes vader obsess with finding obi-wan (more than he is in canon)

and he finally captures him and has the acolytes chain him up in mustafar. vader visits and asks if obi-wan cut off his arms so he couldn't touch him and know, and it's obi-wan's worst fear and biggest regret that anakin finds out they're soulmates, but now he has no control over the situation. not as vader approaches, not as he takes off his helmet, not as vader leans close and brushes what remains of his lips against obi-wan's cheek

and it feels just as good and right and perfect as it did the first and only time they touched, except now obi-wan isn't sure who the monster is. maybe it's both of them

#kit's silly lil aus #obikin #vaderwan #tw: non consensual touching #to be safe but also in my mind its wayyyy dubious and non con touching when vader captures obi-wan #obi-wan's relatively helpless and vader is still a touch starved cat #rubbing their cheeks together because it feels so good to touch his soulmate #but also his soul mate has made it impossible to touch him #what an obi-wan thing to do #obi-wan probably considers (for a brief brief brief moment) #letting anakin die when he first finds out he's his soulmate #but then he could never #but it adds to his guilt about the whole thing #and his shame #and his feelings of unworthiness #etc etc etc #for this to make sense i guess the jedi are also pretty unimpressed with soulmates because of the attachment issues they cause #and that's one of the reasons theyre very no touch #so shame upon shame upon shame for obi-wan here #also imagining Kenobi show era obiwan using himself as a distraction so leia can get away #all he’ll see is me dialed to 300% #with an added all he’ll want to do is rub the remains of his face against my body and say awful mean things that cut me to the quick #but I can take it because k agree with all the mean things

[purpleleafsyt]

From my fic, Inclarity :>

#purplearts #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj soul #cj mind #cjshipping #cw shipping #supernova #<- the reason I'm adding those is #1. the fic itself is up to interpretation/is vague about their relationship/is qpr adjacent #and 2. this was for a supernova event organized by. me on Twitter!! mind/soul day ;> #based on the eclipse day!! #bloodmoon is the 27th so expect something from me then :D #anyways. ive always wanted to draw scenes from my own fics #because who else is going to do it smh smh #plus it's really cool to see my writing turned to life through my own creation yknow #i might do other scenes too like LUVTH and BTNYCI have some good drawable moments in them

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

#positivity #pro aging #also i hate you 'anti aging' scams that capitalize on fear of aging. death by 1000000 papercuts for ye #saw a hair video where they restored the salt-and-pepper colour in an older clients hair and it looked SO GOOD at the end #i love when people throw in the towel and embrace their aging however that looks #it isn't productive to shame people who are ashamed of aging and i just want to. celebrate aging #in a world that simultaneously venerates youth and adulthood and hates BOTH you need to find some sense of freedom #as a Young Adult(tm) please please PLEASE older folks seeing this/following me know that i look up to you #older folks i need you to know that your worth NEVER diminished when you added a new number on your birthday cake #and your body and mind and soul NEVER lost worth because it started to creak a little at the joints #and i might be wrong about this because i'm still young but it can be SO tempted to miss your youth when you feel like... #...you've somehow LOST part of yourself by growing older. and so much of aging is about change and some things don't stay the same... #...and that IS scary and i will never once fault somebody for that. but please don't fall into the trap that because you've aged that... #...you somehow have forever lost fundamental pieces of Who You Are and you could never come back from that... #...for your own sake and sanity you deserve to find comfort and solice and understanding in who you still are... #...because you are still - at the core - the same. you can never take this away from yourself #and i know this might ring hollow because i just don't get what it's like to be older #but i have looked at my elders and felt awe at their age and their experiences #and i know what that is like and it's awesome. i just wish more older people knew that so many of us look at you with awe... #...and - if you can believe it - some of us ENVY your age or experiences or even body #i'm watching an 'older' content creator (older by internet standards 🙄) and i envy him for how eventful his life was #i envy that he experienced a different world - one that i have only heard about from my dad because i was too young to remember it #and i admire this person for their wisdom and thoughts because they've come from his experiences living in a Different World #it's that type of stuff that makes me unafraid to keep on living #inspired by following somebody like. twice my age posting about their excitement abiut growing older and !!!!!!! YEAHHHHHH #didn't realize they were closer to my dad's age but that's so cool???????????

[guinevereslancelot]

babe would you still love me if we were superheroes and you were in danger and i went absolutely bonkers and crossed every moral boundary imaginable to protect you at literally any cost?

#would you still love me if i was covered in blood for you? #anywayyyy more superheros going of the fucking deep end for love thanks <3333 #this isn't based in anything in particular unfortunately i would simply like to see it #anyway.....people compromising their morals for love!!! doing the wrong thing for selfish reasons!!! #too many people commenting on my betrayal post think its about ur lover changing your mind/making you realize u were wrong #no!!! its about choosing the wrong side in purpose!!! going against ur beliefs bc u love someone more than ur conscience #KNOWING its wrong but doing it anyway in absolute AGONY because what other choicebdo you have!!! #anyway <3 #sacrifice ur soul for ur lover or don't waste their time #this has been a shitpost #please tag your blorbos <3 #ig this is lowkey and anidala post but i want the superhero version please and also without the totally implosion of the ship and hero #i want the good guy lover to live with the weight of his sins knowing he can never atone but he would make all the same choices again 🤌 #devotion to your lover above everything!! past the point of redemption or the ability to forgive yourself!!! #(this is good when the lover is horrified but better when they forgive their lover for the atrocities committed for their own sake) #otp dynamic fr #worm discourse

[1dklikesthings]

TURNS OUT CCCC TURNS A YEAR OLD ON THE 3RD IN MY TIMEZONE IM NOT TOO LATE

CCCC ALBUM COVER REDRAW BE UPON YE

(reblogs appreciated! :3)

#ITS 23:40 I CAN STILL POST #anyways yas :3 #ive been wanting a good opportunity to redraw the album cover :3 #also dont mind what theyre wearing its just. whatever my brain interpreted them as wearing in the cover #also im still figuring out how 2 draw them. i gotta do so more </3 #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #< because of the mask ig ? #1dk arts

[veriitasu]

more F/GO doodles!! <3 feat. F/GO AU Eun!!! :D

#veriiart #oc #ffxiv oc #miqo'te #catgirl #fate go #fate grand order #fgo na #fgo #merlin fgo #fou fgo #ushiwakamaru #fgo artoria #fate artoria #arturia pendragon #saber #doodling eun interacting with diff fgo characters is so fun ngl #eun having a good time is warm soup for my soul #also merlin doodle because he is occupying my mind most of my days heehee ;9

[thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname]

okay I started reading Dungeon Meshi the other day only because I liked those character sheets. it's good and fun so far, I'm on chapter 37 and very invested. I thought it was gonna be just slice of life (because it was for like the first 20 chapters or so), but now there is a plot, and I like it both ways. it has kind of a slow start even for the slice of life stuff: not like it's bad, I was just unsure whether it was going to move past "enjoyable" for the first couple chapters. but then it went from enjoyable to deeply charming and now it's gone to exciting while still pretty darn charming. without knowing the author, I can confidently say she's a giant nerd. this is a work that would be impossible to create unless you were a person who is great at drawing with intense special interests in classic fantasy RPGs and biology/ecology. which sounds very specific but thank goodness because that's what makes it good. it feels like it comes from a place of love.

#pickle pontificates #dungeon meshi #ok enough for now. I'm trying to avoid spoilers #also. people love assigning autism to characters with varying levels of adherence to canon #which is fine and good and all #be free live your life etc. #but if laios (one of the mcs) isn't the most heavily autistic coded guy I've ever seen in fiction I'll eat my hat. i don't say this lightly #his sister probably too but there's less of her so far #and i feel so bad for chilchuck because the running gag is people treating him like a kid cause he's short #but he like. very clearly has the soul and mind of a cynical 29-year-old man. which is hilarious #okay now I'm really done for now adios bye bye

[hellenhighwater]

the problem with living alone is that I spend so much time being a werido in my house where there's no one to judge me that I forget to stop being a weirdo when people do come over. I invited some people over to go watch a demolition derby (because yes) and I told them to just come on in, I'd leave the door open. Which was fine except when they got here I was singing a nonsense song about skinning (tomatoes, for the soup I was making and canning) and stirring a big mushy pot of red goop while watching subtitled korean fantasy tv at 1.5 speed on netflix. And none of that seemed at all strange until suddenly there were other people in my kitchen.

The demolition derby (and the soup) was good.

#alchemy of souls has been good so far #im only a few episodes in #my house is 2200 square feet of Fuck Off My House My Rules #hellen highwaters house of horrors #far far from the wierdest thing ive been caught at #a friend once came in while i was hunting down a hornet using a trench knife #successfully mind you #to hunt a wasp with a knife you need patience speed and bad judgment #because its really not a good idea

[lunarharp]

qifrey's birthday and silly stuff

#witch hat tag #orufrey #excerpt is from my 30k failing eye fic (link in pinned) which has a birthday scene. i revisited and edited it again and it is now 30k :) #kerplunk thing is because of a mysterious game that shirahama has drawn orufrey playing before and to me it looks like Kerplunk. #a kids' game from this 'Real World' which we live in. card game is Cheat from neopets. but it's a real game. i want to play it for real.... #you lie and cheat in it..hence the name..and 'branston the eyrie you are a bold one' classic neopets tumblr post...no....ok then..... #'hey qif i know we're obsessed with witches' kerplunk but we used to play cheat all the time what happened to that??' #'oh. i just..don't like lying to you. i don't like how it feels.' 'oh haha i guess that's a good thing. ok let's play kerplunk instead ^_^' #'mm. *dying inside crying in the rain in my soul*' #i dislike trying to illustrate my writing. i resent myself for having described oru's captivating mysterious smile so perfectly #i can't draw that. i know what it looks like perfectly in my mind and i am right there on that roof but i can't draw it satisfyingly enough #writing comes from a different part of my brain. there's different things in there. i'm glad i wrote out some of what i can't draw. #then there are things that i don't write or draw but which are still a crucial ongoing facet of my orufrey mindscape. #the Written orufrey the Drawn orufrey and the Unspoken orufrey... three faces of a beautiful irreplaceable jewel in my heart... #could a depressed person do THAT.

[0-dear-rose-0]

uhm so i had ths band idea where wendy and tolkien and kyle are all in a band bc UHM i like to thinkt hey have study sessions together and one day they were like ong what if we start a band togethr!!?

and uhm they also invited kenny because they needed a drummer lol

#wip #i gave up because drums are like??? wtf is goign on there #roseart #NOT GONNA TAG THIS PROPERLY BECAUSE IM EMBARRASSED LMAO #ive had this in my head since foreve r to the point where any rock song i listen to i just imagine THEM #also wendy is genderfluid here #and a little bit punk good for them #kyle suggested kenny obvi #WHY ?? BECAUSE I CANT IM OBSESSED THERES K2 IS MY SILLY LITTLE AU #also bebe sings with thm sometimes #also imagined Cartman as their manager because like??? hed be a good one tbh just a pain in the ass #slay mayble a little kendy and kyndy for the soul #if you like have any questions or whatever IDONT MIND jsut saying ya knw #wink wink #UGH I CANT #leaving the country

[dogboyjackkennedy]

thinking about the line "You can never undo what I've done to her, you know." again.

#dsaf #dsaf henry #jack kennedy #because like. Jack canonically feels guilt over Dee's death #not just Blackjack. the actual soul. no JACK. The One We Play As. #in the cutscene where Peter is watching the news and learns about Jack being framed for murdering Dee #Jack shows up and his first words to his brother are that He Failed. He Couldn't Save Her #there's also just Blackjack's Whole Existence #like. while it's not outright stated. Henry says something about souls that are tainted by intense enough regret having the power- #-to travel between timelines and even enter places that are between timelines #like. Blackjack is able to travel between timelines. in Dsaf 2 if you do the Evil Route Blackjack offers to take you back in time- #-so that you can choose to do good this time and fix your mistakes. and also. remember the fact that he dragged Henry to the Void.- #-a place basically outside of time. like i'm pretty sure it's canon that Blackjack is powered by Jack's Regret About Dee's Murder. #listen this line makes me Lose My Mind. you don't understand how badly it messes me up to think about

[dice-n-antlers]

I’m obsessed with the idea of a Dark Urge with the divine soul sorcerer subclass.

I know it’s like the cleric-flavored version of a sorcerer, but I would love it for story reasons. You could really lean into the whole child of divinity thing.

With a sorcerer in general, your magic is just an instinctive, intrinsic part of you. With the divine soul subclass, you would have that added level of having evil divine magic right from Bhaal himself (inflict wounds) and be shown to be his favored child with the “Favored by the Gods” feature. It would add another level of deliciousness to your Dark Urge’s relationship with Orin by showing that YOU were clearly dad’s golden child.

From a role play standpoint, it would be fun for evil Dark Urges to lean into and fascinating for good ones to contend with.

#dark urge #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 posting #my favored alignment for durge is good and I have so many thoughts about this #for instance: would you be locked out of your abilities by being rejected by Bhaal? #or would your abilities shift to the neutral alignment since you are a child of none? #(or neutral because Jergal is your adopted dad now) #or would they shift to a good alignment because you are a master of your own soul and the divine spark within it? #so many brainworms… #we’d never get to see the higher-level subclass features in-game #such as wings and unearthly recovery but it’s fun to think about #I’ve made a wild-magic sorcerer durge but I had this subclass in mind when creating their personality

[moonchild-in-blue]

Annabel Lee, E. A. Poe // Drag Me Under, Sleep Token

I'm not sure if anyone has made this comparison yet, but I thought the parallels were kinda neat.

#annabel lee was the first thing that came to mind when i heard drag me under #the envy of angels and gods #except that on annabel lee their love is described as pure and innocent and stronger than whatever supernatural forces envy them #even stronger than death itself #while in drag me the gods and angels merely take a position of spectators because She/Sleep is the one dragging him to his death #Vessel knows their love isn't good or real and yet he is so infatuated by Sleep that he willingly chooses death/suffering #just to be in their presence for as long as he can #because whatever twisted version of love Sleep shows him is better than their absence #AND IF THAT'S NOT HEARTBREAKING I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS #Vessel is SUCH a romantic soul #he has a way with words that is just so... #he is truly yearning and loving his way through life #the amount of devotion he has/had for Sleep #it make you think how fucked up whatever relationship he was in truly was #ANYWAYS #it's super late and i'm soft #ignore my ramblings #sleep token #sleep token vessel #sleep token worship #sundowning #poetry #sleep token lore #darya is unhinged #edgar allan poe

[therantingsage]

Wooo!!!!!!

#Grapey #Feeling kinda sick today tbh so not off to a GREAT start #But I'm in a good mood despite!! #I had an interview a couple days ago that went well so I might not be jobless anymore! #So that means my unofficial writing hiatus is over? Which is stellar #Because I was losing my mind not being able to write stuff #Because writing is like actually my SOUL #Aaaaaaaa 26

[melit0n]

3:35 to 4:10 in Levitate is so unbelievably comforting to me. In the best (and worst) way possible, it truly does feel like levitation.

The best way I can describe it is laying in someone's arms, lover, friend, foe or family, and simply basking in the comfort they give you. One arm wrapped, gently, around your middle, fingers tracing invisible patterns on your clothes, and the other hand softly combing through your hair as they whisper soft nothings in your ear. You're on the brink of sleep; half listening to their words and half being drawn in by the comfort of the drowsy void.

It's a warm hug that you never want to leave. (catch me replaying that part over and over)

#and then the breakdown #(since you all seem to like it so much when I get depressive with these I'll pull out my thoughts) #my mind always conjurs two things with the breakdown; death and mourning #when you think of levitation you either think of magic or death; the soul rising up to Heaven #the choir that joins Vessel singing are angels as he tries to comfort the person dying in his arms. #the breakdown is when he finally realises that's it; they're gone #he brought down Heaven like an ancient bygone for them knowing their own wings wouldn't find it #but by God he'll scream and cry and year himself inside out over it even if he told himself that he would accept it #('death' can either be interpreted as actual death or the act of leaving someone for good -> #those last few seconds of calm is having one last moment with them before they rise to where he can't reach them) #if you can't tell I'm in my sad yearning hours because I didn't sleep last night and I'm stressed about trying to get tickets but we ball 💪 #sleep token #st #sleep token analysis #levitate (song) #levitate #sundowning #mel's rambles

[enypneon]

just a reminder that murtagh compares the way he should approach a child to the way he'd approach horses.

... as an alternative to dragon rider, he considers being a mercenary and/or surgeon for paid employment (maybe this can be used for crossovers where dragon riders won't make much sense).

... never had someone teach him the ways of magic (properly) sure galbatorix showed him this and that but ha ☝️ you'd be a fool to believe he taught him more than was the absolute and bare minimum. sometimes he still needs to get creative for 'basic' use of magic.

#i don't particularly like when murtagh is compared to eragon or any proper magic wielder bc you CAN'T you can't compare them #it doesn't make sense and they weren't trained under the same conditions #of course murtagh is weaker by default he didn't have sane experienced riders at his disposal who were mentoring him with good intentions #and in profound detail - no - he got the abusive ones with the combined energy of mad dragon souls ! #on top of that ... perhaps he had like what? half a year max? to practice etc. to go from 0 to 100 #and only had limited and restricted access to all things concerning magic while 'occasionally' being mentally and physically tortured #the energy the dragon souls provided was too much for him and yet he was forced to use it #even though the soreness would leave him paralysed sometimes?? imagine that feeling #while being a captive of the man who makes your life a living hell? please.....🖐️🖐️🖐️ #yes he's usually physically weak(er) as well BECAUSE GUESS WHAT?? points to the above #doesn't mean he can't ever be stronger ─ in the future ─ with time ─ and experience ─ he is a mental fortress though #and you can't change my mind but that's another essay #stories:murtagh. #° › OOC ‹ 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄 * out of character ╲ MUN .