#because ive known a happiness theyve never gotten to see. and they deserve the chance as i did

[lepidopterium]

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#its no one's fault and god knows they try. but no one could ever love me or care enough to make this any easier #im in a house burning down and everyone is screaming at me from outside to get out before it all collapses #but inside there's my family and i cant leave without them. and maybe there's a chance theyd be able to make it out without my help but i #have no way of knowing. maybe they can never make it out and me staying will just get me killed #but i love them so much. i cant leave them. i dont want to leave them no matter how many I'll hurt if i dont make it out myselfr #because ive known a happiness theyve never gotten to see. and they deserve the chance as i did #and then theres the woman who started this blaze to begin with. and itll kill her too. and i hate her for it. i hate her for ever showing m #kindness once upon a time. because now i dont want to leave her either #im in a blazing house and the firefighters wont be showing up and everyone who cares screams from the safety of outside to leave while i #still can but i know that if i survive this and they dont i wont be able to live with myself. #and there's nothing poetic about it but maybe describing it like this will lessen the horror. that the house isnt burning at all and no one #can see what's happening behind shut doors.