#because she still thinks she could win

[quiddie]

Okay, I see a lot of people talking about Laerryn’s work in terms of the spell Plane Shift. Now I know that’s ultimately my fault because of how I spoke about the remains of the solar bow, but that isn’t what she’s attempting.

Now let me say all this with the grain of salt that I’m not trying to remove all blame from LCS - I know who she is and what I built into her and what she’s capable of and willing to do - but I do think it’s inaccurate to call her uncaring (in terms of the citizens of Avalir) and despotic in her single-mindedness.

First, the Astral Leywright. Simply put, it builds a new leyline road through other planes. Now, Laerryn runs and maintains the engines & batteries, but she doesn’t steer the city. That’s Helmswoman Akami Rowe’s job. That’s the Navigator’s Guild’s choice. *That* is why LCS thinks of it as a gift to the city and to history - it’s an opportunity, not an obligation (or worse, a coercion like Plane Shift would be.) Yes, she’s taken a lion’s share of the energy stored for this Replenishment - but just this once (and what are 7 years to an elf, really?) and the thing she gives back is a new leyline that goes not North or East or South but OUT. (And the solar bow’s planar attunement was primarily to help the AL know the directionality of building a leyline in a new axis.) And Avalir could (not MUST) use it. Anyone can use it.

And sure, maybe the Septarion and the citizens will be too confused or scared to use it at first but that’s fine - the point wasn’t that we have to go NOW, only that this was her one chance to make the leyline at ALL (or at least until the next apogee solstice). So her thought is that the city doesn’t have to understand right now, but eventually they’ll get it and history will remember her fondly for making the road to the next big discoveries a little easier.

Keep in mind, Laerryn is one of the smartest people in the city (e1 “often the most cerebral”) that took a vital but understated job (e1 “no one understands exactly what you do to ask you for anything”) with no laurels attached (e2 her envy when walking through the Magisterium and seeing the resources allocated on their behalf vs. the Court of Workings) so if she wanted glory she could just pick a different job and immediately get the praise her talents would garner. Instead, she dedicated her life to quietly and dutifully protecting the Heart of Avalir, and expanding on the city’s mission statement (travel the leylines collecting knowledge and magic to share with the world).

With all that said, please continue raging at Laerryn’s choices because that’s fun and good and fine and honestly I love watching it. I just wanted to clear up that one fuzzy area.

#critical role #exandria unlimited #critical role spoilers #exu #cr spoilers #exu spoilers #exu calamity #laerryn coramar seelie #don’t get me wrong #she’s ambitious as fuck #but she thinks she’s doing it for the people of avalir #and the future of Exandria #and isn’t that so much worse #now that you see where it led and what she’s done #she broke the world for them. ALL OF THEM. #(but mostly for him) #and she’d do it again #because she still thinks she could win #she doesn’t know what kind of story she’s in

[sanshinexx]

Fun times at the family game night 🥰

[More incorrect quotes with the gang here, now as a masterlist i just made because why not]

#monopoly bringing families together since 1935 #yes i know that sentence doesn’t really work within the star wars universe but i do not care i’m saying it anyway #i don’t think i’ve ever actually made it to the end of a single monopoly game i’ve ever played #probably because none of us ever really know the rules and we’re just making shit up as we go #and because all of us are too scared to take any risks because it would just end with everyone upset with everyone and everything #i could see just the entire bad batch being sore losers #they all would probably still throw the game to let omega win because none of them want to make her sad #i would also throw for omega to be fair #not that i could beat her in the first place #she could and would absolutely kick my ass in monopoly #star wars #star wars the bad batch #star wars bad batch #the bad batch #bad batch #tbb #the bad batch fanart #bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #crosshair #echo #tech #omega #hunter #wrecker #the clone wars #star wars fanart #fan art #art #incorrect quotes

[nostalgia-tblr]

I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron (apart from I skipped some overly long action sequences) and I am not sure so can someone tell me whether or not Tony Stark was the baddy in that film? Because about halfway through I was sure he was but then it was maybe just an evil robot after all and I am confused because either this film was surprisingly subversive or it was about robots hitting each other.

#I CANT STAND THE CONFUSION IN MY MIND #also i get why people wrote wanda/sylvie. they should go on a wholesome chick-flick revenge-quest together. and also they should kiss. #also i am now only *half* joking about thor being in love with mjolnir #it kept doing Christianity Bits which was quite awks. #not sure why it used the bit about building the church on a rock for some metal i mean wasn't jesus making a pun there? about peter? #i think Vision might be Jesus? or else he's Dr Manhattan who's done a first year philosophy course. could go either way on that tbh. #BUT TONY WAS THE BADDY RIGHT? WAS HE? WAS TONY THE BADDY OR NOT???? #with the homocidal glitches in what he thinks is his winning personality? #and all the weapons he's made and is in fact still making but now he only sells them to The Good Guys? #except look how easily they fall out with each other and also don't a lot of innocent bystanders die in their overly long action scenes? #also i need to write fic about whether mjolnir does in fact obey some unknown code that can be cracked if you set your mind to it #she does like Robot Jesus so apparently we can rely on her to make the major decisions from now on #the ending's a bit ominous - apparently someone's collecting those TVA paperweights to do... something? Oh no! :O #yeah i watched the MCU in the wrong order shut up this was inevitable and Marvisney should just embrace that at this point #(i know 'Marvisney' will never catch on but that will not stop me using it) #the loki series ending is but the latest installment of “unlimited power with no oversight is fine as long as the Good people have it” #UNLESS TONY WAS ACTUALLY THE BADDY. WHICH AS I MENTIONED I AM NOT AT ALL CLEAR ON. #maybe what i mean is was tony stark the baddy *on purpose*? #i only picked this one to watch next because tumblr gifsets told me thor wears a nice coat in it #which he does! but only for a small fraction of the film :( #journey into the mcu #the avengers (the marvel ones not the other ones)

[cuteniaarts]

Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #lok malina #still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now #and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that #don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before #to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021 #because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing #but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence #anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he #*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character #for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop #I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like #I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her #if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet #okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself #lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer #about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long #this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh #I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out #*surprising #less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know #anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous #her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this #and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning #I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭 #I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb #okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary: #she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

[rosesradio]

oh i finished the season btw. The last two episodes overall were really good, like the “on and off stage” stuff was exactly what i liked from the previous seasons. the ending with Denny’s and then the song was so sweet, it just wrapped it all up really nicely

i’m gonna miss the show, but i don’t plan to stop writing fic for it so long as some people are still interested. i’ve got the two mentioned Caswen one shots, a like 5 chapter Halloween fic idea, and like one or two long fics…but realistically i’ll probably just stick to the shorter fics lol

#i do wish i could have seen them perform ‘the boys are back’ instead of ‘the night of nights’ but yk. win some lose some #i still don’t like Gina’s mom. Just because she approved of Ricky—that doesn’t make her fully okay in my book— #i was starting to think they’d do a ‘her mom is pushing her too much & it’ll be addressed’ thing but then they didn’t lol. seems like— #potential future child star drama to me but hopefully not #anyways #hsmtmts

[apotelesmaa]

The ideal start to lmk season five is swk and MK get to Have A Conversation without the world being on the verge of ending (therapeutic) and maybe a B plot where mei trains with macaque and they end up being the reason the city has to be rebuilt for the 9000th time (also therapeutic)

#macaque mentoring mei has the funniest potential out of everything that could happen in season 5 #because 1 I think ‘too much hesitation’ & ‘too much impulse’ can balance each other out #and 2 because I want mei to become more powerful and macaque to be less of a tool #do I think macaque would be a good mentor. no. but neither is swk and somehow he’s still winning. it’ll work itself out. #Lego monkie kid #lmk #don’t have time to go into depth but ‘every strike should be your last’ & mei being told she should save up her power for the right time to #act. many thoughts.

[paterklatter]

who up experiencing double internalized homophobia

#'i can't like girls that's unnatural and disgusting' #'i can't ever be a real man if i like men' #CAN I EVER WIN????????? #also i get like physically ill at the idea of marrying a man? not even dating that's fine. just forever tying myself to a man fucks me up #i feel like if i marry a man best case scenario i'm always going to be a faggot worst case scenario i'll be a wife until death #when i daydream about relationships i'm always married to the women and only dating the men #god i wish i were just a straight trans man then i could just be a regular ass man who was born in the wrong body #i transition and i get a job at the office bs factory and marry a woman and adopt 2.5 kids. i know i still wouldn't be normal but i wish #i always imagine i'll be in a happy regular marriage and any past relationships with men was just me 'experimenting' #i know that's bs. i know i like men just as much as women but i wish that it's going to change. i know it won't. but i wish #idk why i think about this so much i literally play overwatch and collect criterions i can't get dick or pussy to save my life #i had an interaction with my mom most akin to the 'damn nobody want you fr fr' meme the other day #i get so few bitches my mom can't even be homophobic anymore she just needs me to fuck already because i'm an embarrassment #peter.txt

[nobodieshero-main]

i'm actually still not quite over the fact that oveta and korahi's stories continuously overlap until they finally cross paths in that market. that they don't even say anything to each other, they just smile from their different stalls. oveta rolls her eyes bc kova is being ridiculous and korahi bites her lip so she doesn't laugh and it's so simple, so peaceful, so fucking mundane. they have no idea who the they are to each other. oveta, the girl who killed the queen that destroyed korahi's people, her family. proof that someone tried to fight for them. korahi, the very creature that oveta was almost executed for defending, the push that became a shove to build her own kingdom and write her own laws. proof that nakia failed. but for just that moment, that blip of time, they were just two girls sharing a silent joke, and everything was okay.

#if i think about the splintering too long i start turning into a soup #if i've written a post like this before i dont even care!!! they make me insane!!! #and look i know oveta's whole thing is that she's trying to win back the gods favour; that she didn't act until after the punishment landed #but she was 8 or 9 when the killing started. there wasn't much she COULD do at the time when action was the most crucial #she'd just lost her friend (ariad) and didn't 100% understand what was going on and by the time she did it was too late #and suddenly SHE'S being punished by the gods?? she's lost a core part of herself due to the selfishness of her elders?? #so of course that's what makes her snap but still she; even at 14; was the only one with the spine to stand up and say it was fucked up #she killed nakia so she could become queen and re-write their traditions. make sure something like that never happened again #actually fun fact: despite their status of 'extinct' dragons are a protected species in miednic (rip mattie if only you knew) #because oveta REFUSED to let it happen again - and even if it was soley in the name of keeping vietua's affection #it still makes her the only person who fought /for/ the dragons and their lives #and the fact that she is Right There next to Korahi; the Last Dragon. and neither of them know. #the splintering #nh: the splintering #oveta #korahi

[burger-goblin]

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#girl help i'm romanticizing a relationship that i was in over a decade ago that left me emotionally bruised and stunted #a very toxic relationship in which i was abused in every way a person can be abused #i always would tell myself that i wouldn't take him back after he would cheat on my and i would be tricked into it because i really thought #that i could change him and he could be better #but i realized much later that the reason i was so easy to win back wasn't just because i was in love with him‚ but also because #i really loved his family. i loved the love they gave me‚ and how-- despite how poor our relationship was-- they were on my side #and always cared for me. even when we weren't together‚ his mom was always checking in on me #he and i reconciled years after our very‚ very messy final breakup and maintained a good friendship #however he started getting radicalized and was leaning further and further right‚ so i distanced myself and removed him from my socials #last year‚ around this time‚ i started having dreams about him over and over‚ so i took it as a sign to reach out to him and check in #turned out that his mom had been hospitalized and it wasnt looking good. i reached out to her as well. thankfully‚ she went home #and he asked me how i was‚ like he wanted to keep in touch‚ and i never replied. i wanted to keep that distance between us #but i would still be near if they needed me‚ and for some reason‚ i just assumed the family knew that #fast forward to now. his mom is gone and it's weighing heavily on me. he's told me he never wants to talk to me again #and that's also weighing on me. i wish i just knew the direct reason why he feels that way #like if it's specifically something i said‚ if it's that i remind him of all the wonderful times we spent together with his mom‚ or #is it because of his new wife #i don't think i was that much on an influence on his life considering how often he used me and cheated on me-- i'm not a threat #like to their marriage. so i'm inclined to think it's because i remind him of his mom #but not knowing for sure is the worst part of this‚ i think. i know he's hurting‚ and he knows i know what it's like to lose a parent #i want to give back to the family that gave me so much‚ but now that he's shut me out‚ i'm not sure how to do that anymore #ah‚ flea. you'd know what to say. i wish you were here to tell me.

[vogelmeister]

omg your tags on the reblog of my post - that's word for word how i feel and i HATE it, things have felt artificial to me since 1989, reputation was better but ever since lover it's felt like that 1000x more idk.. it just sucks but yeah you're not the only one feeling that way :')

THANK YOU! It's really nice to see that someone else has been feeling this way and I really begun to think deeply into why I feel like this. And you're right, it has really been since rep that it has felt... idk, less authentic.

I remember during the red and 1989 era, taylor was doing a lot of shit that actually showed how much she loved us. And by all means, she didn't have to, but it was little things such as the hidden notes in her album lyric books that made me feel a bit more connected to her. Not to mention stuff like swiftmas, the secret sessions and of course t-party all made us feel like one big family and that she was actually thankful for us. She didn't gain anything out of this, it was all "for the fans" and it made being a swiftie loads of fun, especially those hidden messages, which lbr costed nothing to keep doing. (1989 was her last i think)

Nowadays, when she does it, it feels more calculated and less authentic and I get maybe it's a safety thing that she can't do secret sessions and swiftmas etc anymore, but now even when she does things for the fans, it's stuff like releasing loads of versions of the one album so we all buy it (see, the midnight clock), and because we have this relationship we built up with her, we feel we owe our loyalty. It feels like she does these things to show she cares, but she wants our money in return. And believe me, there's other ways you can show it. The wiping of her social media defs slightly killed her authenticity, I think. Even though I understand why she did it, it certainly didnt help her relationship with the fans or it's authenticity. I do believe she still is thankful for us, but I can't help but notice the business aspect creeping in, and I just wish a lot of swifties knew you don't have to buy in to it. She's human, she has flaws, you don't have to always defend her, or buy her merch. It's almost business at this point, and I hate it.

I hate it. And I hate it more because I almost understand why its like this.

#during red taylor could say she was thankful for us and i would believe her #now i believe her but with a hefty grain of salt!!! #i do think the merch thing can also be an issue with swifties bc apparently if you don’t own her merch #or buy all 55 copies of folklore you’re not a fan #i had a friend who was constantly telling me i was less of a fan and she always wanted my merch #the merch was my red tee from when she was in sydney and even then that brings up something else because her merch quality has gone down #and the prices have gone up and that shirt from 2013 has survived. i mean it is defs aging but it's survived the trenches #but like taylor is fully playing into this and ppl fall for it bc she apparently loves us #i may have been 12 then but at least it didn’t feel like she was constantly trying to get me to buy shit #there were lots if bad things about being a swiftie then but hey at least Taylor’s love actually felt genuine!!! #and not like she wanted my money as well as my loyal #loyalty** wow lekker bezig vandaag #also i do buy her albums on cd but thats more a me thing its a tradition with a friend i had that i plan on continuing with speak now tv #bc i like owning physical copies #also sometimes i struggle with organising my thoughts so i hope that all makes sense and nothing is lost #english is my first language i just am slightly neurodivergent #i only just organised my thoughts on loreens eurovision win. im still sad abt it but im happy for her. #also hello fellow southern hemisphere person!!

[margumis]

I hustled and grinded so hard today!!!

#I wrote a lot of my personal piece im writing #and I had like 3 different meetings #I think im going to add a creative writing minor to my academic plan ! #me blabbering in the rest of the tags: #so I really really hated writing once I got to highschool because im not good at academic writing #and last fall semester I took a composition class and it was my first time being told to not write something academic but rather tell a #story from our personal lives #so I wrote a piece on female friendships and I got a perfect score on it and it was like a gateway drug into me enjoying this process again #the female friendship piece got submitted for a deans writing award last semester (didnt win) but I still keep contact with that prof and #she was like I need you to take a creative writing class because I think you could thrive!!! so im in one right now and im rlly happy with #everything im doing :) #I really only laid out the outline for my professor and she cried which feels good not in a I made her cry way but just the outline of my #story made someone feel something! #and shes pushing me to submit it to a journal when its all finished up and its exciting and it makes me feel good #I dont think I exactly thrive in writing fic in this way either unfortunately #like I dont think fiction is my forte ig #idk idk rambling #but if you read this I LOVE YOU!

[daydreamerdrew]

Captain America (2005) #36

#also I haven’t been posting about her because I needed time to formulate my thoughts #but I went into this book not having any idea what was gonna happen with Sharon #and I got so invested in her storyline #some of the flashbacks to when Bucky was younger at the end got to me #but prior to those Sharon was the most sympathetic character in the book #it’s not brought up afterwards but Sharon was definitely under Dr. Faustus’ control when she got pregnant #and he was influencing her to make her fall deeply in love with Steve #but she wasn’t confused about having sex with him #she was just disturbed that she told him she loved him and didn’t betray him to SHIELD #because those she recognized as out of character for her #I think it makes sense that Sharon’s feelings once she’s free from that mind control are dominanted by that she killed Steve #but I’m hoping that future comics with Sharon delve deeper into this very messy situation #she was so focused on her job at the beginning of the book I don’t even know if she had wanted to have kids #also I was very confident that something was gonna happen to make Sharon lose her baby up until I got to that part in the book #and then I was like nooo she’s definitely gonna win this fight #but that did not happen #and then I was like nooo they could still reveal that the baby survived in next issue even though Sharon got stabbed in the stomach #but that did not happen either #marvel #sharon carter #my posts #comic panels

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

actually they are giving divorce kind of. but without ever having been married and instead just kind of being insane about each other in wildly different ways. so i guess they are giving mergana. ok i’m done complaining i won <3

#still don’t like that he can control her power tho. so it’s really not winning #but i assume due to narrative reasons she’ll get that weird bone thing out of her and this won’t be a problem soon #🪲 #and like i think he knows that what he did was fucked up and he’s not really doing anything with her power #like he’s only going to try to control her when they’re in the fold #really the only reason he did it was because he didn’t trust her because he’s selfish and can’t conceptualize the humanity of others #and he believes that when he does bad things the end will all justify it if he saves his people #because he’s lived for so long he can’t even remember what he’s trying to save #and alina could have saved everyone if she had just been told the truth and given a choice #like she’s THE epitome of light and goodness she would have been on his side if he’d treated her like an equal and not a pawn #it’s so ridiculous actually how bad he fumbled all this

[sysig]

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#Doodles #Villainsona #The first one is relevant again because I am once again thinking about how much I love Mousey lol #It's always relevant because I always love Mousey but I'm not thinking of her 24/7 lol #It was just a random leftover for months and now it finally has room again ♪ #A little sad TVAU Villainsona 'cause why not - she was a spacefiller but didn't fit in with the rest of the set I was working on so :P #A stream doodle lol - post-stream technically #I don't know what it is about streaming but I can only describe my reaction as being Equalized #The highs are reigned in and the lows are lifted - neither manic nor depressive #It's kinda nice honestly I'd like to aim for more but I also don't want to accidentally break the mechanism by overusing it lol #TIRED! I was very tired I was underslept and worked hard and was around people for something like 10 hours #Introvert needs sleep and water pls and thank you #And then finally in my latest notebook yay ♥ It feels so good to have finally upgraded ahh #It probably won't last very long since I was limited in the number of pages I could a) make and b) fit on the wire #But I am looking forward to using it :D And I've got a new tool for when I make my next one!! So I'm looking forward to that too!! #Dug out an old shirt that has lovely heavy stretch material but it tends to hang nearly off my shoulders with how wide the neck is #Not exactly made for modesty #So I gave it a ponytail and it was both cuter and more comfortable so win win ✨ #More spider lamentations ouq I'll get one someday #I'm currently still on the hunt for substrate - I want to make sure it's clean and parasite free ouo Very important! #And then for the last one I cheated by a couple hours to give myself a one day page turnover for my first and second pages ♪ #It'd been a while and I was excited for my new notebook! I really was only a couple hours into the next day so it's very close anyhow #It just feels neat to have one day read like 1/1/22 and the next be 1/2/22 - shows inspiration ♪ Makes me happy