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catreggie · 4 months
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oh my here we go.
so today Russian ‘court’ (and I will refer to any and governing body institutions in quotes because no, they hold no power, they were never elected, they are not mine, never have been and never will be) has declared LGBTQ+ outlaw. What it means? In short, every queer person in Russia is now in extreme danger.
It’s nothing new. The insane which hunt has begun a few years ago. Now of course the whole rhetoric is based on innate ignorance, homophobia, transphobia and hatred to anybody who’s not straight or holds ‘traditional values’ not to mention the desire of the ‘government’ to be so unlike ‘the west’, it’s a classic we vs them type of propaganda. For them it’s a tool. Keeping people frightened is a tool. Don’t think for a second that they are doing it based on some sort of belief system. No. They don’t have it. Which is much worse. They’re doing it as a last resort. You see, no matter what the media is telling you (yes your media is lying to you too? that’s what it’s meant to do now, it’s coming from someone with a degree in journalism), there’s no actual way to know how many people support or don’t support the war. Any and all ‘statistics’ you might see or hear are extremely inaccurate. Why? Well let’s see! 1) If it’s a state controlled media, it’s obvious: they want the world to see the perfect picture of a ‘strong Russia’ which they know is not true, and since ALL the media that operates in Russia IS state controlled, they’re out of the question. 2) Let’s take any international media then you say, they’re no better. Why? Well let’s see! They have no reliable sources as well. Any polls you see hold no value. People are scared and silenced, no one will truthfully answer the ‘do you support the war on Ukraine and putin’ truthfully because they know they can go to jail, hell, they will lie if they have to. So yes, even information from reliable media isn’t reliable. Clear? Clear.
Now. Why it’s important. Because the ‘laws’ that are being enforced, are a clear sign that nothing is like it seems. The unrest is clear, from all sides as well: those who oppose the war and those who support (they’re not really happy which makes me happy, suck it) and the ‘government’ has to go to extreme lengths to please the second group and to uphold the idea of stability and ‘having it under control’. They know they can’t stop those striving for peace, they’ve already done everything to ensure people don’t speak up - from jailing them to making them flee, to kidnapping, to murdering them - and people still do.
The regime is crumbling. It’s something to keep in mind. The signs are there. They’re running around like headless chickens and trying to something. If you don’t know, they’re trying to abolish women’s rights to abortions, it’s going quite successfully for them, as state after state is creating ‘laws’ banning them. Their hunt of LGBTQ+ people came to the grand conclusion today. The peak of their evil. It’s crumbling but people will suffer and many will have their mental and physical health destroyed in the process. It’s not the price anyone should pay but it’s a small, tiny silver lining for all my Russian queers: don’t give up, hold on, stay safe. If you don’t feel save, please don’t feel pressured to do anything that might put you in danger. We need you healthy and free. You’re not alone, as much as they want you to think otherwise.
You’re loved, you’re cherished, you’re important. ❤️
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anemoarchonhoe · 12 days
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Greetings! Writing commission details:
Commissions: Closed.
Fandoms I will write for:
Genshin Impact, Undertale, Deltarune, Undertale Yellow, Frieren: Beyond Journey's End (I only watch the anime, so-), my own OCs
AUs I will write for:
Genshin: SAGAU, modern au
Undertale: Underfell, Underswap (I prefer TS!US' version so I will write for it in default unless you want the original), Flowerfell, Farmtale, Underplayer
Characters:
Genshin: Venti, Xiao, Wanderer, Aether, Xingqiu, Gaming
Undertale/Deltarune: Papyrus, Sans, Napstablook, Mettaton, Muffet, Mad Mew Mew, Asgore, DR!Asriel, Dalv, Starlo, Martlet, Ceroba
Frieren: Beyond Journey's End: Frieren, Himmel the hero
My OCs (pictures below, in order): Vee the purple witch, The Janitor, Elwin the elven rogue, Eye of the Storm (has a name instead of them being Reader-insert, Genshin, no pics sorry)
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Will write: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, mildly suggestive, selfship (reader/canon), OC/canon, friendships, yandere character/reader
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It's easy to complain about how MSP left any address toward homophobia to the last episode and it remained fairly mild but I really wanted to point out what things about it were incredibly significant.
They could have kept it like Bad Buddy where it was a universe where it didn't really exist or just wasn't mentioned. They could have totally done that. I wouldn't have blamed them for that choice either, considering the tone of the series remaining so lighthearted throughout. Homophobia is more than just a serious issue - it can have dangerous implications. The closest this show wanted to get with danger was Gun's mom needing surgery, so before watching the episode I was really curious about how they would handle it.
Starting from the beginning of the episode and seeing the contrast between Gun telling his mom about Tinn, and Tinn's mom seeing how scared her son is and deciding not to ask. Gun has such a wonderful relationship with his mother. She's all he has for family and they have come to love and depend on each other so much, and the show has given us enough clues to the way she thinks that her supporting her son without issue was no surprise. Tinn's mother has been set up to appear that she feels differently, but it all boils down to her worrying for him rather than about him. Tinn gets his supportive, protective way of loving from her (which is the sweetest thing to me, considering their relationship isn't as strong). All she wants is for him to go through life without having to jump over hurdles for his happiness. Considering the privileges he's had as her son, it troubles her that he felt any reason to hide his true relationship with Gun and only wants to assure him that he could have come to her about it earlier. She sees his fear and rightly decides to let him come forward when he chooses.
The deal with the photo outing them and how all that goes down was interesting. It goes without saying, whoever took the picture had no business posting about them and it's unfortunate they never get found and reprimanded for their actions. What I loved was how the show chose to demonstrate how attitudes have really changed among younger generations. The whole conversations about "no one cares!" and "I think we were too afraid in the beginning," were really great points to make. The more exposure the younger generations have had to queer identities through media and people being open about them in real life, the more freedoms we have gained. Sometimes letting fear hold you back can suffocate you. Being outed is awful, but showing that you can not be a jackass about it is important. Also, don't go after my boy Gun for trying to give them a cover story, because this was the one circumstance where he saw Tinn being more at risk than him and he acted the way he thought Tinn would for him. It ended up not really mattering anyway, because people supported them and Tinn understood that's what Gun was trying to do.
And then we got the few bad opinions from the older generation. From a teacher they had all previously respected! Because unfortunately, disappointingly, that is so incredibly common. Even his way of trying to explain "oh I don't actually hate you guys I just don't take you seriously," was so important to include. Homophobes will try to twist their ideas into something that's less than the hateful bullshit it is and out themselves being as reductive as they truly are. Of course, it got escalated for the sake of run time and getting the issue dealt with immediately. Thank you Kajorn for having a pretty awesome come to jesus gay moment.
Finally, my favorite part!! Tinn's mom not only making it clear she's okay with his relationship but explaining just how offensive his teacher had actually been. I really thought her position as the school principal would remain as a wedge between her and Tinn because it was treated that way for so long. I didn't expect it to have any more use than that. But having an authority figure of a school openly call out their colleague and show support for her students meant so much to me! Reminder: this story sets out to say that teen's experiences are not trivial and they're people with hopes and dreams and struggles and have much less say in their daily lives. Adults stepping up and supporting children is so necessary. Adults stepping up and protecting queer children is a desperate need. Any other school principal doing less than that is unworthy of their job. And it goes without saying that being his mother and being so openly supportive before he's even had a chance to ask her is just the cherry on top.
The homophobia arc wasn't for everyone but it had intent and purpose and it executed it just right for me. It said "yeah we know it's there but it's horseshit tbh so we're having our boys sing to each other on stage knowing the most important people in their lives have their back." And then they got to say "I love you" and share their first kiss in the privacy they deserved.
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diezmil10000 · 11 months
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what was your dave hc for that davekat comic? just curious
okay so. two things. first of all a content warning for discussing homophobia and child abuse (i mention child sexual abuse but don’t go into detail). second of all, i read homestuck for the first time last month and i’ve never read any analysis of dave’s character, so i have no idea of what the general opinion is!
this is insanely long so it’s all under the cut, sorry if you didn’t expect this wall of text anon
i think it's pretty much explicitly canon that dave has a complicated relationship with his attraction to men, both because of internalised homophobia and because of the abuse he suffered as a child from his bro. as someone who didn’t pay much attention to dave until later pages, i want to say that his first meeting with dirk was the only moment in all homestuck that made me cry and left me with my heart stinging. i had to stop reading for a while
my comic was the result of days of thinking of how dave is a deeply repressed and traumatised boy who left earth thinking being gay is a joke, only to fall for another boy whose entire species is bisexual by default. i like to interpret dave as someone who is simultaneously uncomfortable with and yearning for intimacy – he is kinda okay with having a partner, with casually making out, but he freaks out the moment he has to talk about his feelings or take things a step further. the fact that he (as davesprite) suddenly breaks up with jade, unable to put his feelings into words for a proper explanation; the way he (pre-retcon) describes his relationship with terezi on the meteor as “a thing” and refuses to talk to karkat (or anyone) about it; the whole goddamn conversation between him and karkat and john in the final arc… this poor kid has gone through a lot
a lot of the abuse he’s suffered because of his bro is very explicit, like being denied privacy, but a lot of it is also left implied. he’s weirdly fixated on dirk being gay, not only because he wants to know how he came out, but also because learning about it made him have a realization about his bro that he refuses to even bring up in the conversation. the first though i had was that he went through some kind of sexual abuse, not necessarily involving physical touch (though it could be) but strong enough to damage his perception towards his own body. even for a headcanon in which that doesn’t happen, dave says his bro never truly loved him, and i can imagine him having never received any kind of genuine physical affection
we also have to take into account that dave’s last sight of earth was 2009’s earth. we’re in 2023 as i’m writing this and men all over the world still have a complicated relationship with affection and feelings, especially straight men towards other men. dave grew up in a time in which gay marriage wasn’t legal in the united states, in which a lot of feminist ideas were outright discarded as crazy, and he never had to question lgbt issues because all of his crushes before karkat were girls. so he left earth being not exactly homophobic but finding jokes about gay people funny, and then he was forced to live with aliens that don’t understand heteronormativity because they quite literally don’t care about gender. and on top of that, the only other human in the meteor who happens to be his sister is suddenly a lesbian, and he feels like he’s the only one who can’t come to terms with his own sexuality
as much as it’s tempting to think that dave and rose had some conversations about the topic on the meteor, to me it is much more interesting to think that they haven’t. rose is another can of worms, and i personally love that the way she sorted her feelings out is 100% up to interpretation (i have dozens of explicitly repressed lesbians to read about in other media) – however, in every possible scenario i imagine dave dying to ask her personal questions, but ultimately deciding against it because it would put him in a vulnerable position. he isn't alone, but he's been taught to believe he is
so, finally coming back to how i envisioned my davekat comic: they have made out more than once but they have never talked about how they feel about it. karkat is afraid to death of hurting dave because he apparently can’t stop hurting his loved ones! but he guesses that at this point they are both on the same page and they should take it a step further and maybe dave just needs someone else to silently take the initiative? which isn't entirely wrong (they are horny teenagers physically craving for touch), but the sudden skin-to-skin contact is too much for dave, who isn’t mentally prepared for this. and he won’t be prepared until he talks about it, but he will eventually. because he will learn that he isn't alone and he will never be
honestly, out of all things i didn’t expect when i read homestuck, the last one was a well written teenager coming to terms with the fact that he’s bisexual. i really don’t want to hear any debate about this topic, because i was genuinely touched by how human dave’s development felt and that’s the emotion i want to remember. i too have been a lgbt teenager with no words to describe my experiences, afraid of coming out to my friends, and it was very nice to read that two of the four main protagonists of homestuck are explicitly lgbt. sorry if the wording isn’t the most pleasing, i know that literally almost every homestuck character is explicitly lgbt (you could argue that all kids are), but i guess that rose and dave being *inarguably* lgbt while being so important to the story makes my heart warm. we don’t usually get stories like this that get so insanely popular. also, i hope this hasn’t come across as me reducing dave to his insecurities and sexuality, it was after all a reply to a specific question!!
thank you for the interest anon, and thank you for reading all of this to anyone who has :)
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waitmyturtles · 7 months
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Turtles Catches Up With Old GMMTV: Lovely Writer and BL Gets Meta On BL (and Everything Else) Edition
[What’s going on here? After joining Tumblr and discovering Thai BLs through KinnPorsche in 2022, I began watching GMMTV’s new offerings -- and realized that I had a lot of history to catch up on, to appreciate the more recent works that I was delving into. From tropes to BL frameworks, what we’re watching now hails from somewhere, and I’m learning about Thai BL's history through what I’m calling the Old GMMTV Challenge (OGMMTVC). Starting with recommendations from @absolutebl on their post regarding how GMMTV is correcting for its mistakes with its shows today, I’ve made an expansive list to get me through a condensed history of essential/classic/significant Thai BLs produced by GMMTV and many other BL studios. My watchlist, pasted below, lists what I’ve watched and what’s upcoming, along with the reviews I’ve written so far. Today, I write about Tee Bundit's Lovely Writer, a drama that I was SURPRISINGLY and wonderfully taken by.]
Lovely Writer is in the Old GMMTV Challenge due to the very strong recommendations of @shortpplfedup, and dear NiNi -- I can't thank you enough for recommending it, because 1) it was a PHENOMENAL SHOW, I enjoyed it immensely, and 2) it dealt with a whole bunch of stuff that's extremely pertinent not only to the development and coverage of the Thai television BL genre by way of macro commentary -- but it also didn't hesitate to cover the kinds of discriminations that the queer community faces inside and outside the entertainment industries of Thailand and the world.
Before I delve into this, allow me a quick few words on Tee Bundit, the creator of the Lovely Writer drama (and the man behind two shows airing right now, in Hidden Agenda and I Feel You Linger In the Air). I've now watched three Tee shows: my first Tee show was TharnType, of which I had many feelings. While TharnType is first and foremost thought of as a MAME show, I felt the show was bad enough to need to hold any other folks involved with it accountable. I understand from BL fanon lore that Tee may have created Lovely Writer in part to offer macro commentary about the problems he faced making TharnType and how shipper fans responded to it and how they respond to BLs in general.
If you're a regular reader of this space, you'll know that I watched my second Tee show, Step By Step, *before* watching Lovely Writer, which was a mistake in hindsight -- I definitely should have tried to watch Lovely Writer first, to get a sense of how AMAZING Tee's filmmaking work could be. I had not at all the same feelings about Step By Step -- the 180-degree opposite feelings, in fact. Step By Step was so wildly bad, so unmoored, incomplete, and messy, it made at least the story structure of TharnType look good.
Finally, I acknowledge that I'm not watching Hidden Agenda, and I *am* watching I Feel You Linger In the Air, which I am enjoying very much, if not for my smell test being very active about the editing foibles that I was made aware of during SBS. (But @lurkingshan has hipped me to the fact that historical dramas, of which IFYLITA is one, is meant to have slower pacing -- and Tee, at least, is utterly killing it on the cinematography and scenery alone of IFYLITA, which is making it enjoyable for me.)
So, with all that said, at least from my perspective, Lovely Writer is Tee's top anomaly of the dramas of his that I've watched so far.
Lovely Writer, man. It was a sharp, well-paced, extremely layered, and ultra-critical examination of BL media, shipper fandom, capitalism, internalized and externalized homophobia, intergenerational trauma, family acceptance, and a whole lot more.
Let me break down why I think Lovely Writer succeeded and why I think it's such an important show to have on the OGMMTVC list:
1) The macro commentary on the structure of the BL media world, from novels to dramas, to marketing and fandom, to the exploration of the actors' private lives, is absolutely necessary for any serious BL fan to watch and digest,
2) The inclusion of intergenerational trauma by way of internalized and externalized homophobia was deftly depicted,
3) The acting itself was superb and met the level of talent needed to tell this complicated story, and
4) The commentary on the "work" of the BL world is a subject that had already received attention in other dramas that were indirectly referenced in Lovely Writer in an utterly brilliant way,
and I might come up with even more reasons to celebrate this show as I pen this review.
The ultimate reason why I loved Lovely Writer was that it never lost sight of what I saw as its overarching message: how discrimination against the LGBTQ+ community is mean and entirely useless in all aspects, and how this discrimination is woven in insidious ways in almost every detail of our everyday lives.
By the time of Lovely Writer's airing in 2021, we are five years -- ONLY FIVE YEARS! -- ahead of SOTUS's airing as the first holistic Thai television BL. SOTUS began the process of establishing tropes and conventions, and fell in line with Love Sick and Make It Right in establishing ships -- to the extent of the creation of the first blockbuster ship in KristSingto. Between 2016 and 2021, we have the creation of other blockbuster ships (MaxTul, PerthSaint, TayNew, OffGun), we have shows that buck the BL trope trend (He's Coming To Me, A Tale of Thousand Stars), we have shows that decentralize romance (Manner of Death), we have the creation of the prestige cinematic BL genre (ITSAY and IPYTM), and we have shows that flirt with, for the BL genre, new storytelling structures that hadn't been seen when the genre was born, namely historical flashbacks that gave a cinematic feel to its final products (Until We Meet Again, ATOTS).
Lovely Writer was a pandemic-era show, airing after the incredible success of 2gether and Still 2gether (2020), and that success -- the insane burgeoning of awareness around BL in that moment -- along with Tee's experience in making TharnType, and seeing the hype around TharnType -- likely fed his desire to make incredibly smart commentary about what he was seeing by way of capitalistic interaction with the genre, and, maybe more importantly, how these capitalistic demands were actually affecting real people, including himself, in the process of the creation of this material.
What I loved the absolute MOST about Lovely Writer was the parallel story of insidious homophobia within and emanating out of the media world -- and how that insidious homophobia was ultimately presented next to stories of internalized and externalized homophobia on personal, interpersonal, and familial levels. Bua, Gene's book editor, wants hotter and more explicit sex scenes. The director of Bad Engineer wants, needs, Nubsib and Aoey to emanate attraction and heat. The fans of Bad Engineer (Lovely Writer's show-within-a-show) demand ship after ship -- SibAoey and SibGene -- and become poisonous online if their fantasies aren't catered to. But Gene and Nubsib, as an actual queer pair, cannot be out and together publicly. In fact, not only are studios wary of fan rejection of Nubsib and Bad Engineer itself -- but it's also presented that Aoey's career depends on Nubsib faking a relationship with Aoey, to Aoey's crushing recognition.
What the media world assumes is that fans want an arm's length away from the reality of queer relationships and queer sex. I posited in my 2gether review that that's exactly why 2gether was so immensely popular in real life: 2gether gave fans an illusion that two men could successfully be shipped together, without any depictions of actual intimacy to make the fans feel uncomfortable -- especially if those fans held implicit and/or explicit bias against queer people. (As @bengiyo has written in the past: when queer love gets "too real" for fans -- fans turn. In Ben's words: audiences don't like gay people.) (It's always important to note that out actors, like Fluke Natouch, Earth Katsamonnat, and Bruce Sirikorn, are far less popular actors than the majority cishet GMMTV stable of actors. Fluke Natouch only recently -- in 2023! -- had his first solo fan meeting.)
What Lovely Writer highlighted, in its macro criticism of the BL industry and what this industry has spawned, is the utter hypocrisy of the media world leveraging queer themes and ideas for the sake of selling content, while keeping an arm's length with queer reality. As CNN wrote about gay idols in the K-pop industry, so in the Thai BL industry can a career be wildly and negatively affected if an actor comes out. For the sake of Nubsib's career as his show, Bad Engineer, aired within the Lovely Writer universe -- Gene broke up with him.
And this was presented alongside three family stories -- Gene's, Nubsib's, and Aoey's -- of discrimination and rejection of sons being gay. Gene having a queer revelation vis à vis Nubsib, and being courageous enough to bring his admission home, only to face hypocritical rejection, and then hesitant acceptance, from a father that had been discriminated against in his own past for his own queerness. Nubsib faced incredulous resistance from his parents, specifically in regard to how his parents' careers would be affected by having a gay celebrity son. And Aoey was rejected by his family for his career choice in acting in BL shows while being gay himself -- to the extent of getting kicked out of his parents' home.
From my dear friend @lurkingshan -- another Lovely Writer stan, hey gurl -- I understood that Aoey's storyline affected a lot of Bruce Sirikorn's fans (and I am super-duper glad that the one glowing part of Step By Step, the character of Chot, was embodied by a glorious Bruce). Man, did Bruce ever EAT his role of Aoey, depicting the heartbreaking insidiousness of internalized homophobia. We think he's after Nubsib -- but he needs to chase Nubsib for the sake of keeping up his BL career. We find out that Aoey is attracted to Gene -- but Gene is already managing the complicated realities of his relationship with Nubsib, and must deflect Aoey's repeated flirtations attempts. I saw the show setting up Aoey as a despicable character, but my heart broke for him: as he was rejected by his family, he had only the ephemeral acceptance of his fans who were only interested in his potential to be shipped in fantasy with his co-worker.
Alongside Aoey's story of internalized homophobia was that of Gene's father -- which gutted me. (Nu Surasak, who played Gene's father and was also the teachers' foundation head in ATOTS -- damn, he is a HELL of an actor.) Gene's father simply did not want Gene to be gay, because Gene's father himself had experienced queer discrimination as a young man. And we saw how Gene's father's internalized homophobia nearly ripped his family apart.
And then, Gene's father HIMSELF demonstrates a process of behavioral change, when he begins to RELATE to where Gene is coming from in his love for Nubsib. I gotta admit: I did not see this coming. Not just Gene being so brave to come out so openly to his family, but to demonstrate that PARENTS can change, in such a visceral way. This was so meaningful to me in part because many of our BLs today show parents that automatically accept their sons -- without a process of change and acceptance happening before our eyes.
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And THEN: how Gene's father came to Gene's side when Gene decided to leave Nubsib for the sake of Nubsib's career. And how Gene's father related, tear by tear, emotion by emotion, to everything Gene was going through.
WHAT A DECISION TO INCLUDE THIS STORYLINE. To have a PARENT embody a story of THEIR OWN queer revelation? @bengiyo has written before about the importance of queer elders in our beloved shows -- and while Gene's father presents a more complicated reality than out-elders, the fact that Gene's dad could holistically RELATE to EVERYTHING Gene was going through was truly remarkable to watch.
(I want to note that if you didn't know, there is a movie-length Lovely Writer special episode. It's structured around Nubsib wanting to surprise Gene for his birthday. The middle part is somewhat incomprehensible -- hi, Tee -- but the ending wraps up Gene's father's total acceptance of Gene's and Nubsib's relationship in a gorgeous way. I highly recommend finding it if you haven't watched it.)
Lovely Writer's very complicated storyline -- from Gene writing a novel, to Nubsib filming a show, to Gene and Nubsib's childhood, to Aoey's interventions, to Gene and Nubsib's families, to the fans, to the studios and managers (ZORZO!!!!), to EVERYTHING this show held -- could not have worked if Up Poompat and Kao Noppakao didn't hold it together. They were the fucking GLUE to this story. THESE DUDES ATE. Step By Step did NOT allow me to appreciate Up's SCOPE. (I mean, Put was TOTALLY intolerable, and Up did him fantastically, but Gene was just, WHOA.) I just need to give them their flowers, because I loved Kao in Until We Meet Again, but I did NOT appreciate how capable he was at very intricate storytelling as a main lead.
I want to wrap this up by noting that Lovely Writer was not the first show to offer macro commentary about the BL industry. Cheewin Thanamin (who made a HILAAAARIOUS cameo in Lovely Writer as a press conference host, I was HOOTING) offered commentary on BL actors in YYY, where one actor tells another actor, this is a job, and we have to do this to get paid. War of Y, another Cheewin show, also gets into this. As we recall, Step By Step also attempted to offer macro commentary about ships and the BL industry -- to the morbid extent that that criticism was edited out after ZeeNew fans raised protests.
I love it when media comments on media -- the hypocrisies, the vagaries, the capitalist realities. For the Flukes, Earths, and Bruces that are out: we don't know how many more actors are in the closet, out of fear for the sake of their careers. Lovely Writer forces fans -- the BL fandom -- to reckon with the hypocrisies of watching queer media, and of accepting queer realities vs. only being accepting of queer fantasies that do not otherwise challenge heterosexual power. Queer joy is joy. What Lovely Writer did for Gene and Nubsib was to center and highlight that joy, and to show that they, together, could surmount the ridiculous obstacles of the demands of media and capitalism, to allow their love to thrive and grow. What a story. I want and hope that Tee Bundit can demonstrate this SHARP critical eye on his work again in his future.
[Alright! Next one up: my review of Last Twilight in Phuket and I Promised You The Moon. What a turn from I Told Sunset About You. I love relationship-growth stories, and IPYTM was one of the very highest order.
I mentioned previously that I may need to take a week or two off from the OGMMTVC due to some insane life shit happening at the moment (FML, MOVING). I've been coping by letting myself fall a little behind on shows. I’ve paused on Not Me, to give it the attention it deserves. But I will be picking it up again soon, very slowly, and I’ve very much enjoyed what I’ve seen so far. After Not Me, I hope to be settled enough in to start in on my usual faster pace to get through 55:15 Never Too Late, for more macro commentary -- this time, from GMMTV itself, on the BL industry.
And then onto my long-awaited Bad Buddy and Our Skyy 2 rewatch. I'm having some seriously fantastic and in-depth conversation with a few Tumblr friends about how BBS has impacted us, and I can't wait to bring them into my big-brained posting moment about re-watching Bad Buddy and offering some insights into our conversation.
List below! As usual, feedback welcome, etc. (Tumblr's new web editor is jacking with this list and not letting strikethrough what I've watched. For the very latest list, please click here!)
1) The Love of Siam (2007) (movie) (review here) 2) My Bromance (2014) (movie) (review here) 3) Love Sick and Love Sick 2 (2014 and 2015) (review here) 4) Gay OK Bangkok Season 1 (2016) (a non-BL queer series directed by Jojo Tichakorn and written by Aof Noppharnach) (review here) 5) Make It Right (2016) (review here) 6) SOTUS (2016-2017) (review here) 7) Gay OK Bangkok Season 2 (2017) (a non-BL queer series directed by Jojo Tichakorn and written by Aof Noppharnach) (review here) 8) Make It Right 2 (2017) (review here) 9) Together With Me (2017) (review here) 10) SOTUS S/Our Skyy x SOTUS (2017-2018) (review here) 11) Love By Chance (2018) (review here) 12) Kiss Me Again: PeteKao cuts (2018) (no review) 13) He’s Coming To Me (2019) (review here) 14) Dark Blue Kiss (2019) and Our Skyy x Kiss Me Again (2018) (review here) 15) TharnType (2019-2020) (review here) 16) Senior Secret Love: Puppy Honey (OffGun BL cuts) (2016 and 2017) (no review) 17) Theory of Love (2019) (review here) 18) 3 Will Be Free (2019) (a non-BL and an important harbinger of things to come in 2019 and beyond re: Jojo Tichakorn pushing queer content in non-BLs) (review here) 19) Dew the Movie (2019) (review here) 20) Until We Meet Again (2019-2020) (review here) 21) 2gether (2020) and Still 2gether (2020) (review here) 22) I Told Sunset About You (2020) (review here) 23) YYY (2020, out of chronological order) (review here) 24) Manner of Death (2020-2021) (not a true BL, but a MaxTul queer/gay romance set within a genre-based show that likely influenced Not Me and KinnPorsche) (review here) 25) A Tale of Thousand Stars (2021) (review here) 26) A Tale of Thousand Stars (2021) OGMMTVC Fastest Rewatch Known To Humankind For The Sake Of Rewatching Our Skyy 2 x BBS x ATOTS (re-review here) 27) Lovely Writer (2021) 28) Last Twilight in Phuket (2021) (the mini-special before IPYTM) (review coming) 29) I Promised You the Moon (2021) (review coming) 30) Not Me (2021-2022) 31) Bad Buddy (2021-2022) (thesis here) 32) 55:15 Never Too Late (2021-2022) (not a BL, but a GMMTV drama that features a macro BL storyline about shipper culture and the BL industry) 33) Bad Buddy (2021-2022) and Our Skyy 2 x BBS x ATOTS (2023) OGMMTVC Rewatch 34) Secret Crush On You (2022) [watching for Cheewin’s trajectory of studying queer joy from Make It Right (high school), to SCOY (college), to Bed Friend (working adults)] 35) KinnPorsche (2022) (tag here) 36) KinnPorsche (2022) OGMMTVC Fastest Rewatch Known To Humankind For The Sake of Re-Analyzing the KP Cultural Zeitgeist 37) The Eclipse (2022) (tag here) 38) GAP (2022-2023) (Thailand’s first GL) 39) My School President (2022-2023) and Our Skyy 2 x My School President (2023) 40) Moonlight Chicken (2023) (tag here) 41) Bed Friend (2023) (tag here) (Cheewin’s latest show, depicting a queer joy journey among working adults) 42) Be My Favorite (2023) (tag here) (I’m including this for BMF’s sophisticated commentary on Krist’s career past as a BL icon) 43) Only Friends (2023)]
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SPILLED INK SATURDAY 》 Writeblr Discourse Series
Session 1: Book-to-Screen Adaptations
Welcome to our first session of Spilled Ink (get it? like spilled tea?), a new writeblr discourse series that I'm excited to introduce into the community. I wanted to start this series to generate some discussion and camaraderie within the writeblr community, but also because I think there are a lot of writer/reader/author-related topics and debates that crop up pretty frequently and I figured it would be interesting to hear thoughts and opinions on these matters from a writer's perspective.
So every Saturday (or potentially every other Saturday depending on how things go), I will post a topic of discussion. If you would like to participate in the discussion, you can do so one of two ways:
➸ Return to the OG post (which will always be linked in the title of the post) and reblog with your take on the topic, either in text or in the tags
➸ If you see someone's take on your feed and you want to chime in on something they said, feel free to reblog their response
I want to stress that the purpose of this series is to have healthy, open-minded dialogue about these topics and hear perspectives that you may not have considered otherwise. I think one of the beautiful things about writeblr is that it's rich with people from a diverse set of backgrounds and experiences who can lend a wider perspective on the subjects discussed. That said, I'm asking that everyone who chooses to participate please be respectful when providing your opinion or when responding to someone else's. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, no matter how strong it is, but there's a difference between being opinionated and being borderline rude and antagonizing. Racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia or hateful speech of any kind will not be condoned or tolerated. I want to set that bar straight now because future sessions will touch on topics such as race and sexuality, so I will always have this reminder at the top of the post for each session. I truly want this to be a safe space for people to share their thoughts freely and not be afraid to speak up, so just please be mindful of your words in your responses.
With that out of the way, the discourse question for our first session is:
How do you feel about the frequency with which books are adapted to movies/tv shows these days?
You know what I mean. When you open any social media platform these days and you're immediately bombarded with ads for the latest tv show or movie being released on Hulu or Paramount+. I've often wondered if writers or up-and-coming authors have any personal feelings about this. Do you find it exciting? Does it make you hopeful that your work could one day be on the big screen? Or is it a bit...irksome? Or are you completely indifferent?
Reblog and share your thoughts. Mine will be under the cut, below. 👇🏾
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I know it may seem like something absolutely trivial and harmless to some, so perfectly understandable if people are indifferent about it all. But I personally find it irksome.
I could be wrong about the increased frequency of book-to-screen adaptations compared to 10 years prior, but for me personally it feels like it's increased quite a lot. I feel like I'll see a book hyped by booktok and/or other online book communities all over my social media feed one minute, and the next minute it's announced that it's headed for the big screen. And for the author's in question, I'm sure it's thrilling, because it provides the exposure that authors need nowadays to sell their books and their brand. But it bothers me because...well, for a number of reasons.
Firstly, it makes it more and more evident that the movie/tv industry is running out of ideas. How often do we hear about some 90s/00s TV show being rebooted for god-knows-why when no one asked for it? It's not a secret that the entertainment industry is running on fumes when it comes to generating original ideas for the screen. And the same way that reboots are a lazy way of pumping out entertainment for a consumerist audience, outsourcing ideas from authors because you can't think of your own is also just that - lazy. And the consequence of that, I feel, is that authors will begin to write stories with the intention that it will be visually consumed, thereby feeding into that book-to-screen pipeline.
I recently read a book from a sci-fi author whose novels I really enjoyed in the past, but with each new release of his the quality of his books decreased just a bit. And with the latest book of his I read, it was easy to pinpoint why. It was clear as day that he had written the book with the idea/intention that it would be put on the screen. I don't know how to quite describe it, but it felt like I was reading a screenplay, with certain storytelling elements ignored and with action scenes written like cue cards for an actor. It was like a slapdash job with the note "fix it in post" slapped onto it. And it was just so...disappointing. Not only as a reader, but as a writer. Writers are free to write screenplays, but they are considered screenwriters, not authors, and the craft that is required for each medium is a bit different. Neither is superior to the other, but there's a depth that goes into writing a novel or short story that isn't necessarily needed for a screenplay because the screenwriter will work in collaboration with the director and others to carry out the vision (I'm happy to have screenwriters on writeblr chime in on whether this is true, because I'm speaking off my own understanding, not known experiences). The end product of a screenplay is a visual. Whereas the end product for a novel is the novel itself, and how it stimulates the readers imagination. If we get more novels written with the intention of being translated to a visual medium, then all the typically necessary components like description, exposition etc no longer become necessary. I'm not saying that this is happening just yet. There are many quality novels that have received screen adaptations recently (Pachinko, A Man Called Ove etc), but luckily those authors were dedicated to the craft of writing and storytelling first. The movie and tv deals were an added bonus that came after. But what happens when you have an emergence of authors who have those priorities in reverse? Movie deal first to increase my exposure and worry about good storytelling second? It inevitably causes a change in the writing landscape (that I argue is already happening (see: future discourse session), and not necessarily for the better.
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fandoms and homophobia
my recent post about griffith made me think. my main fandom saint seiya is full of pretty boys on both the protagonist and and antagonist sides, because the fandom has alot of girls and queer people their designs are generally appreciated plus its the way most of the characters are drawn so it could also be taken as that its just Kurumadas art style to draw bishounen characters Hades is a very pretty villian and he does not really have any redeeming traits, many of the other villians often have reasons for their actions and aren't truly evil but hades for the most part is just pure evil he just hates humans so he wants to take over earth but yet I never seen anyone in the fandom show strong hatred towards him or attack his fans. while berserk western fandom has a bigger number of straight cis men, and Griffith's feminine appearance stands out compared to the other male characters especially Guts who is very traditionally masculine in terms of looks, I feel Griffiths femininity and the signs of him being homosexual is the real reason he gets shit on so much, the western men feel threatened and afraid of feminine queer men, I literally seen them wish the worst violence on him and it scares me with what they would wish upon queer men in real life considering the anger they show for just a fictional character is rather uncanny. I never seen any antagonists in any form of media get the same level of intense hate to the point that fans of the character feel they cant even discuss them or show their appreciation in the mainstream fandom circle. it actually scares me.
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Happy 1st Anniversary of KinnPorsche the Series!! 🎉 🎊 🥳 🥂
allow me to be emotional a bit (i say this as if i'm not emotional over the series and the actors every other day lol)
kinn and porsche are SO precious to me...as individuals and as a couple...i relate to kinn a lot: his struggles with a parent, his crushing sense of duty, trying to fit into the world he's forced to be a part of, him not always knowing how to communicate feelings...i had talked about it a bit here about how soft he is despite everything around him and ya...kinn is extremely close to my heart because of these things...i see myself in him (barring the killings and sadly barring the butt sex too)
porsche is just....SO MUCH lol!!!! if i spend time with him i would need 3 to 5 business days to get my energy levels back! but i understand his love for his brother and relate to how he's fiercely protective of him (i'm the same with my sister...but she's older than me)
and ofc mile and apo
man i related a little too much with apo's early life struggles lol...him being told to always 'correct' himself, him feeling disconnected with who he is made to be, being subjected to casual homophobia at workplace (he talked about these things in the On That Day interview and that press con that had happened with the entire cast)...the fact that he felt so unhappy coming back home from the US...it broke my heart and it hit a little too close actually...i had talked about this a bit here (i feel apo is queer coded) coz it reminded me of things that had happened in my life quite recently at that time and the fact that both apo and i were still going strong gave me a sense of kinship with him (hahha 'kinn'ship haahhhaha)...i ofc don't have a mile who has been a positive and happy addition to apo's life since he came back but i am making efforts to have those positive and happy additions in my life
and one of these positive and happy additions happens to be the kpts fandom....y'all....it is SO AMAZING TO BE PART OF THE FANDOM.....y'all are SO TALENTED! the art, the gifs, the meta, the fics, the vids, the polls, the thoughts on the characters, the crackposts, the textposts, the fandom archivers! i'm so thankful to all of you...each and every single one of you
and lbr we've had our fair share of trials and tribulations but because i'm only on tumblr and not on any other social media sites, it has been generally a brilliant experience...i have made such great friends, have talked to a bunch of you, received amazing mile thirst traps in my inbox, have been entirely inappropriate in writing my shameless tags in posts, have openly admitted to my armpit and armpit hair fetish (i made armpit appreciation gifsets ffs), have again very openly talked about my other kinks as well (i think y'all know 🙈) (the armpit fetish admission has led to a beautiful friendship that i cherish <3 and my thirsty tags have led me to meet my feral twin <3)
personally as well i felt like investing myself more into the fandom and the series and the characters and the actors....it made me do things that i had not done before! i talked to fellow fans actively, i made gifs (low quality and using free software lol but i'm actually happy with them), i wrote stuff, like i legit made an ao3 and wrote some stuff lol! i have not done that before and again it is primarily for me and i'm proud of myself for doing these things y'know
last but not the least, kinnporsche the series gave me my thai husband: mile phakphum romsaithong .... and for this alone, it is the best thing out there in the world 🙈🤣
the anniversary of my foray into the series will be next month (it was mile's asscrack that convinced me to finally watch the series that kept trending on tumblr from time to time) but let me be emotional today too
thanks y'all and happy 1st anniversary!
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I was pretty much indifferent to Rhaenicent, I never liked it or disliked it, I just thought it was boring and it made me feel nothing. It was the stans that made me hate it, because they clearly only really like Alicent and spend their time hating on Rhaenyra and her family, the Targs. They only care about Rhaenyra in the context of Rhaenicent, and they always only talk about poor Alicent’s suffering and nearly always blame Rhaenyra for it.
Rhaenicent in the show makes absolutely zero sense. I don’t even get why those two were friends in the first place. They had nothing in common so the idea that they had and still have this super strong bond that apparently still exists after everything that has happened is laughable. Daemyra all the way.
There was nothing good for Rhaenyra from that stupid change. It was made literally because the showrunners wanted to use "homophobia" and "abuse victim" as an excuse to defend Alicent's character because that woman's canon character has virtually no excuse for her actions. She was no sad lesbian and no child marriage victim. So ofcourse it's what her stans latch onto. Some even complain about it just to prop up Alicent. They don't want Alicent to have agency in the show, they want to complain about her not having agency. It's either "star-crossed lesbian lovers" or "abusive Rhaenyra not understanding poor baby Alicent". In every case, it's poor Alicent.
For modern media, queerness is a shield they use to deflect criticism of their self-insert characters. It couldn't be that the character is disliked because she has toxic traits, is a traitor, abusive etc. It HAS to be because you are a homophobe. That's what's happening here.
They have virtually no reason to be friends. At age 14/15, most girls (especially one as pampered and self confident as Rhaenyra) would be simply annoyed by a quiet rule follower like show!Alicent who is made miserable by her own adherence to duty and rules and yet goes around making sad faces and begging for people's sympathy. Like show!Rhaenyra (made to be an Arya Stark wannabe) would just tell her to "stop crying and do something for yourself" while Alicent cries and talks about "duty and how Rhaenyra is selfish for not doing hers." That alone would immediately put someone off and walk away from Alicent. No healthy friendship is one party continously dwelling in self pity and the other having to "forgive and understand" how she had "no choice" but to do nasty shit.
The only context where this 'friendship' makes sense is if Alicent was there as her lady in waiting and only tolerating Rhaenyra because she was a Princess. (Kind of like canon Alicent pretended to Rhaenyra's mother up until she realized her son wouldn't be heir, after which it was 'we hate Rhaenyra').
Show!Alicent is the ultimate victim who's queer. Ofcourse she couldn't possibly be wrong and her love is all pure and sad. She's everything 'modern woke victim culture' showrunners love about themselves.
Daemon is a straight man who doesn't blame others for his misery and never wallows in self pity. He has to be the abusive, insecure, stupid man child. He gets no pass. He has to be the villain. Otherwise their 'all women angels and victims and all men evil' narrative doesn't work.
Trust me hun, there's no hope for Daemyra. The bare minimum you get is literally because Matt Smith owns 80% of the fanbase and he plays Daemon. And ofc HBO has to capitalize on it cause in the end, it's all abt money.
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was anybody else a teenager when Brokeback Mountain came out? god that movie's journey was an exhilarating and terrifying experience for me as a gay kid. i was 14 when it was released. it might as well have been the First Gay Movie Ever. i was obsessed with tracking its progress, from Focus Features optioning the script to Heath and Jake being cast, all the way through to the Oscars. i taped and rewatched the Logo promo special on it dozens of times as well as the Oprah special, and hid the tapes under my bed. i watched every single major awards show. i read commentators opining in award show editorials that the movie wasn't good and the only reason it was getting attention was because it was about gay cowboys. i swelled with pride and a bone-deep gratitude listening to Heath talk about the film and his character. that recent quote that goes around now from Jake reflecting that Heath wouldn't allow people to make fun of it or demean it in any way - I love to see it because he really was so bold and clear about it that I realized it even at 14 years old. he felt like a protector to me.
i realize now i was using it as a barometer to gauge the homophobia around me. i listened in like a fly on the wall whenever people around me talked about it. it was always jokingly and sometimes cruelly. there was a period of time at my school where boys were printing out the promo poster, cutting out photos of other classmates and pasting them onto Heath and Jake's face and then sticking them to lockers. the first time i saw one i was walking down the stairs and glanced up and saw it posted on a bulletin board. it felt like a slap to the face, completely out of nowhere. without even thinking i went from seeing it one fraction of a second to ripping it off the wall the next, and i balled it up and threw it in the trash. i did that with every one I saw (covertly, making a mental note of them during the day and using bathroom trips during classes to take them down).
when i went to see it in theaters (after school i bought a ticket for another movie bc i was underage and then slipped into the theater quietly) i was one of five people in the audience. two of them (a couple) ended up walking out after the sex scene. for the entire duration of the screening this teenage boy showed up every twenty-or-so minutes to pull the heavy entrance door open and then shove it shut, creating a huge cacophonous bang that scared me senseless the first time it happened. i was absolutely bowled over by the sex scene. i was bowled over by the intimacy of every scene between them. i didn't contextualize it at the time but it was because i had never, ever seen a piece of media that imbued a portrayal of affection, love, and desire between men with such sincerity and humanity. i swear it rewired my brain. i later bought the dvd from a knock-off dvd seller on the street in Manhattan for four dollars and hid that as well.
when Heath Ledger died i cried for two days straight, which I tried to hide unsuccessfully. for some reason the fact that I was crying over him made my step dad very angry and he harassed me about it and complained to my mom all day. i didn't pay any attention to him and continued to grieve the loss of someone that, as a kid, i felt had directly acknowledged my struggle with the shame and fear caused by my homosexuality, and facilitated bringing my identity into focus in a caring and deeply thoughtful way. brokeback mountain was an extraordinary experience for me because on one hand, it pulled out the ugliness and hate that existed in my environment, but on the other, it gifted me my first real feeling of being seen and understood. the memory of that experience is so strong and visceral to me still that I'm not able to watch the movie anymore without triggering waves of intense emotions, and because that overwhelms me, I don't watch the movie anymore. but i have so much affection for it. i am filled with affection for it.
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homestuck quadrants are wrong and full of lies but I know the truth; the totally serious essay
starring: the meowrails!! :D, troll romance quadrants, Karkat's terrifying and awful adventures in basic human interactions, and slander
Troll romance doesn't make much of an appearance in Homestuck. It's not delved into; we're only left with what is presented to us at face value. Many don't do deep dives into the deeper aspects of fictional alien relationships, and that's okay. We're not obligated to critically analyze every piece of media we consume. It's okay to just effortlessly enjoy things. These people are also wrong and stupid and i hate them.
My point is that what we're initially presented in Homestuck as Troll Romance is wrong. What most people perceive Troll Romance as is wrong. Let's get into it.
I'll mainly talk about moiraillegence because it's the quadrant with the most screen time and I'm lazy. Specifically gamkar, erifef, and nepquius, since they get the most screen time. It's no question that NepQuius is the healthiest of these three, and GamKar is the least. I'm not accounting for the time when Eridan murdered Feferi because at that point they weren't dating.
"It's because NepQuius upholds the ideals of moiraillegence most closely! EriFef had unrequited flushed feelings, thus deviating from the norm, and Gamzee ditched Karkat to go live in the vents, also deviating from the norm. The Meowrails have open communication and reciprocated pale feelings."
Wrong.
Well, right, in a way. Those things do help. But Equius and Nepeta had something that no one else did. They both contributed. Not only did Nepeta pacify Equius's rages, but Equius pacified Nepeta's dangerlust. He kept her from FLARPing, a dangerous and deadly game.
Eridan never functioned as Feferi's moral compass. He never did anything for her, relationship wise, besides abstaining from mass genocide. I don't really think that's a giant accomplishment.
But in a typical moiriallegence, one troll must pacify the other. There are no deviations from the norm. But the norm suffocates any inklings of romance with false ideas of love. It's a relationship that's all give and no take.
But that's the idea of romance that has stood true for centuries! It's completely unthinkable that the tried and true way to love someone, the ideals it's based upon and the actions thus caused are flawed! That has never happened before! Especially not regarding misogyny, racism, or homophobia! Why would you think that! /s
In fact, Karkat and Gamzee's moiraillegence is a perfect example with everything wrong with Traditional Troll Romance!
“The purpose is to pacify a partner who is dangerous. It's not all about being platonic soul bros forever.”— Andrew Hussie, October 18, 2010.
And that's exactly what GamKar does. Karkat does not love Gamzee. He's afraid of him. And that is why they failed. They failed because they tried to uphold a false standard of romance which was completely devoid of love.
So why would this standard of Moiraillegence stand so strong for so long? Could it have anything to do with the fact that nothing in Alternian society was based on love and kindness and instead on war and profit? Moiraillegence only exists to keep a troll from mass destruction and violence caused by the violent nature of their society.
But thankfully for these poor teenagers, Moiraillegence is the only quadrant that is poisoned by violence (real mcr there, I know). thank god that red romance, which was founded on pity, the only quadrant or relationship in a troll's life where they are not expected to be the best they can and constantly give their all and can just act like normal people is just founded on love and happiness and not at all necessary for a violent society to pacify and give hope to countless troops./s
its great that kismesitude is also great and healthy! and is not at all based on rivalry, which serves to improve a person. forcing constant self-improvement into all aspects of life, work, and interpersonal relationships, a troll's one joy in life would serve a function in a war-forged state. /s
or auspistices, which serve to keep black romance from spreading and causing black infedelity (and community solidarity)/s
I'm not saying that all these feelings are created by troll society and the Condence. I am saying that these natural feelings were distorted so that every aspect of the working class's lives exists only to serve the ultra-wealthy, and also to keep the working class in check.
but if these feelings were so greatly manipulated through centuries of social conditioning, how can we tell which feelings and relationship standards are healthy or weird military bs?
I don't have a concrete answer. I don't know what a healthy troll relationship would look like. None of us do. We can all interpret these quadrants into whatever we like. We have endless possibilities. In short, there is no correct way to interpret them. So stop being a haughty dick about it.
No one has the correct answers, not even you. I am now revoking your pass to bully twelve year old idiot kids for saying that moirails can or cannot kiss. With this post, I will end all fandom discourse. You're welcome.
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I'm glad I discovered radical feminism when I was 13. I'm 14 right now. But it's so painful to see how misogyny affects teenagers so much. Especially the early stages. I wish I was in a all girls school and have a girlfriend. Life would be so much better if I was ignorant and was attracted to men. It's hard. I can't find anyone who shares the same opinions as me especially at my age.
At some point when I was 10-12, I would support men's rights because I was watching those incel male youtubers, which kinda affected me. It still does. There's almost no radfem youtubers I can watch, i only read books and go on reddit occasionally for info. I've also been having negative thoughts. I can't trust men no more, not even my father or male relatives. My brother, who is about 10+ years older, is the only one I can trust and talk to, but he doesn't take anything seriously. My mother is terrible, she called me trans because I said I liked girls. It was painful. Every time I talk to a boy. I get reminded of how he probably watches porn, makes inappropriate jokes with his friends, and hits girls. I hate living on this earth. Hopefully when I get older I'll have more freedom and be happy. But it's hard.
Sorry for the vent, but I love your blog. It's one of my favorite radfem accounts. Love you lots ♡
Hey!! <3
First of all, thank you very much for your kind words and support, I appreciate it!
I‘m really sorry for what you‘re going through! Especially at your age, it must be very difficult to navigate through all of this. :(
You can be sure that these incel YouTubers don’t have any truth in their words, and I hope you can heal from this horrible experience. It‘s not your fault!
I don’t know your relatives, if they‘ve been abusive or something, but I understand that you‘re distrustful. I don’t really know what to do in this situation, since I don‘t have the full picture — and I don’t want to give any advice that might put you into trouble. I just really hope that you‘ll eventually find someone who respects & understands you, and supports you. I know that it can seem impossible, but it won’t be like this forever.
With some time, I‘m sure you‘ll find happiness. You don’t have the support you need right now, and the misogyny & homophobia you experience is awful to say the least, but there are women who understand your experiences and you won’t be stuck in this environment forever. You‘ll be able to surround yourself with the people you feel safe with, and you won’t be alone.
Just as a little suggestion, be careful on Reddit, and generally online. I‘m sure you already are, but social media and especially platforms like Reddit aren’t safe especially for your mental well-being. When you found a few women-centered subs which help you, that‘s amazing, I just recommend not to interact with the rest of Reddit, since it‘s infiltrated with incels. I also only check on women‘s subs and one fandom. :)
Anyways, take care and stay strong, you got this! I‘m wishing you the best ♥️
And thank you once again, it means a lot!
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Vance hopper hcs pt.2 bcs I CANNOT be stopped
- hates Disney sm with a burning passion, hates mickey mouse actively shits on him
- secretly loves Mulan tho, Mulan is his ride or fucking die man
- steals from big corps absolutely hates big corporations but buys from them anyways because it's all he (and by extention his family) can afford
- tries to thrift and sew more than buy, found his jacket literally on the ground somewhere and never fucking washed it
- his jacket is fucking filthy. You cannot convince me otherwise.
- hates dark chocolate because of how strong the taste is
- hates broccoli because he ate it everyday for a year bcs it was a major comfort food but then it started tasting gross
- sweet tooth, loves caramels
- buys caramels from the drug store and plays pinball
- pinball special interest pinball special interest pi-
- only ties his shoes where like the laces form a star yk in the like string,,, place,,,
- ik I already said boykisser but he is such a boykisser LOOK AT HIM
- tried to do the metal like growl singing but couldn't and got super pissed off at himself
- a little bit of internalized homophobia bcs of his dad
- randomly screams as a stim
- singing and humming is a major stim for him as well as tapping
- his hair just kinda,, does its own thing. He barely brushes it because his mom does it for him in the mornings
- super close with his mom, again like I said earlier total mommas boy
- his mom kinda got him into singing by singing around him a lot and he'd copy her
- never wears gloves because of the sensory of it. HATES the feeling of shit on his hands, washes them so fucking often shit is peeling dude
- sweats a lot, a literal heater
- hates when people touch him and he's sweaty, will and has gotten into fights abt it
- favorite color is red actually, doesn't share it often but normally wears blue bcs his mom said she liked how it looked on him one time and he just completely took it to heart
- has never taken a girl home but has went to a girl's house a few times
- tends to not go to parties but will go if he's pressured enough or just wants to
- has tried to stop smoking multiple times but always comes back to it, low key a stim tbh
- in 2022 tech he wouldn't really go on social media often but would have a Instagram account where he just shares pics of his friends and shit he finds cool the account is on total fucking lock down tho, no one knows about it
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Hello,
This is an industry related ask. I saw a meme that got me thinking about how people view the BL industry in entertainment. The post goes like this:
GMMTV has a system where they hire actors to work on BLs as a pairing and they ensure the actors gain a strong following before casting them in a het drama and they never work on a BL again despite still reaping the benefits of the fandom they acquired from BL.
When I first saw the post I laughed because I have always joked that a lot of these actors see BL as doing dirty work that allows you to get to higher levels, but when I began to think of it I ended up feeling sad. The GMMTV pairing I thought of when I saw this was BrightWin, I have never watched their series so I don't even know much about their chemistry together but from social media I have seen that they still do promotion and sponsorship using their ship despite the fact that they probably will never be in a BL together again.
Now I don't think any actor should take a project they don't want but the thought kept ringing in my head that they see BL as something dirty which in turn make me feel dirty. This is more of a me problem as I often struggle with internalized homophobia. I am christian and I come from a place where hating gays is normal as queer people are the equivalent to demons. It took me years but over time I have come to realize that queer people are people and even if I can't completely understand them I don't want to pour energy into hate. Most people think I am strange when I defend queer people because they are so strange here. In fact, I didn't want to start watching BLs at first because I considered them as not queer enough and fetishized depictions. Over time I have come to realize that there are good stuff as well as bad ones.
My main point is that thinking of how the rest of entertainment must view BLs just brings all those feelings forward. What is your opinion on how BLs are viewed in entertainment? Do you think my thoughts are merely clouded by my own prejudice?
I have a short answer for this:
In Hollywood right now no one thinks of, cares about, or even knowns, BL.
Leaving that aside. I have a long answer too.
The "rest of entertainment" specifically Asian countries probably regards BL much in the same way the publishing industry regards romance and for much the same reasons and I talk about that in this post. It's a marketing, queer, and feminist issue. And I talk about that, and it's dirtiness specifically around dubcon and being a queer person who likes BL here.
I hope they help make you feel a bit better.
I will add, since you mentioned christianity that for you shame is likely also in play. Shame for liking soemthing deviant, shame for being a fan of anything at all (that's not sports or god).
Many fans have existed for a very long time under various cones of shame. Those who like fantasy and sci-fi, video games, RPG, LARPing, fanfic, erotic art, anime, yaoi, even kpop. To be a fan of something means at some point you will probably be shamed for it. Unfortunately, enthusiasm and love are often perceived as exploitable weaknesses by those who do not possess a similar capacity for immersive joy. Such people are pitiable, in the end, for they will never know true passion for shared ridiculousness.
I'm one of those who got stubborn about it and decided to mount a defense (which for me meant advanced degrees). But it's a battleground to make it clear that just because a thing is popular, romantic, charming, cute, appealing, sweet, or fun doesn't make in unimportant.
Finally, all industries that produce pop culture are inherently (or grow to be) corrupted and polluted in some way. Film, music, art, publishing, you name it. Any industry that makes money off talent and image is going to end up with gate keepers and middleman whose sole function is exploitative. Because that's how entertainment makes money.
It is possible to still love a thing while knowing its inception is flawed. That is not weakness, that is survival. Without the uplift that enjoyment gives us, without shared bits of pop culture and entertainment, without art (in whatever ridiculous form you need to consume it) there is no change, or growth, or connection within culture (or across cultures). There is no exploration of boundaries, there is no challenge to the social norm. There is no entertainment and distraction. And there is no escape from reality and the mundanity of everyday life.
If you need it, it's there for you, as flawed as it may be. Like a chipped glass, it still holds the water you need to drink to stay hydrated.
And I won't look at the smudges if you won't.
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parvuls · 2 years
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so like... #KupDay is a fun update? and I don't wanna bring it down with meta and sadness? but also? don't come into my house and tell me omgcp is sugar-coated because zimbits didn't have to pay a price for coming out in the NHL.
don't come into my house and ignore the fact that bitty having to give up social media - a place that became his home long before the haus did, that helped him find acceptance, that helped him find his voice - is a HUGE price to pay. don't make me rant about how bitty may get chirped for his twitter and his vlog but those are an actual income source, even if you disregard the impact on his mental well-being. don't make me remind you that bitty spends the whole summer away from his family, unsure about the future of their relationship, so having an income source is crucial. don't make me dig out my chirpbook and tell you it takes bitty forever to take his accounts off private, and even when he does it's never the same again, because he opens a new professional account and most of his thoughts and feelings stay behind. maybe it was necessary; maybe there was no other way; maybe if bitty was going pro it was always bound to happen; but don't tell me he didn't pay a price for coming out.
don't make me screenshot the homophobic comments from hockey fans that ngozi hid in this update. don't make me spell out the literary purpose of leaving the homophobia and the hate looming in the margins of this story. it's obviously there, it's obvious that jack is going to pay a huge professional and especially mental price for this. it's obvious that he's going to be targeted more, both physically and in the press; that whatever respite from criticism he earned by winning the cup he immediately lost by being queer. don't make me focus on how jack won his first cup in his rookie year, and scored the game winner, and was voted mvp, and still knows full well that most people will remember that night as the coming out of the first out queer nhl player.
listen. both jack and bitty had to come SO FAR to get here. bitty had to have a strong enough support system and be secure enough in his identity and learn to rely on his friends so he could face his greatest fear and be able to handle giving up the one support system he's had for years. jack had to learn to cope with his anxiety under the scrutiny of the media and be secure enough in his abilities and celebrate his wins even if no one else does so he could walk away from this with his head high. this was not easy. but they chose to pay these prices because the reward was worth it for them, so that's what ngozi chose to focus on. the payoff. the fact that they win, even if they suffer major losses.
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What kind of future did John want for Paul and himself?
I see this take often: "Paul didn't want to be with John because he was afraid the homophobia of the society, and John didn't care about the social reactions and was ready to engage in a romantic relationship with Paul. They disagreed on this point and therefore their romance didn't begin".
I don't entirely agree with that. We overestimate John's nonconformity and how much he disregarded public opinion. In fact, he VERY cared for how he was portrayed in the media. This has been especially vivid since 1968: John wants to be depicted and admired as an Independent and Rebellious Artist. Likewise, he and Yoko wanted to be seen as the perfect pair of lovers until 1980 (as you know, their relationship was REALLY far from perfect, to say the least).
Most people in the McLennon fandom believe that John in India asked Paul for a romantic and sexual relationship because a year earlier, in 1967, homosexuality had ceased to be illegal in the UK and Lennon wanted their relationship to be public. However, I don't think it's likely that a famous musician would reveal his queerness and same-sex relationship in 1968. Yes, homosexuality was no longer a crime, but was still considered a disease. Maybe casual same-sex sex wasn't wrong according to society, but an open and full relationship was a big taboo.
Could John in the 60s and 70s give hints about his bisexuality? Absolutely yes.
Could he have engaged in a public relationship with another man without having a beard? I don't think so.
So what did John really want from Paul? What did he ask for in India?
Here's my speculation:
During the touring years, the Beatles were practically all the time together. Not only did they give concerts in various places around the world, but also recorded songs.
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John said it best in a 1980 interview with Playboy: "Nobody ever said anything about Paul's having a spell on me or my having one on Paul! They never thought that was abnormal in those days, two guys together, or four guys together! Why didn't they ever say, 'How come those guys don't split up? I mean, what's going on backstage? What is this Paul and John business? How can they be together so long?' We spent more time together in the early days than John and Yoko: the four of us sleeping in the same room, practically in the same bed, in the same truck, living together night and day, eating, shitting and pissing together! All right? Doing everything together!".
Of course, the tours were very tiring for John after a while, but I still think that this type of relationship with Paul suited him. He must have had very strong feelings towards him at the time, probably both romantic and sexual. And they were as close as it's possible for two people to be (even more than with George and Ringo, because John and Paul were writing together).
The Beatles stopped touring in 1966, but John's feelings did not die out. Fortunately, a new project has appeared on the horizon: Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heart Club Band. As I wrote in another post, Paul was the most involved, which opened the door to PLENTY OF time with John. Lennon was still at McCartney's house. They were writing songs for Sgt. Pepper's, resting, eating lunch, taking Martha for a walk. They were literally married.
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One more important thing: on March 21, 1967, Lennon and McCartney took LSD together for the first time. As we can read in @thecoleopterawithana post: "I urge you, again, not to get lost on the fantastically romantic imagery of eye contact to the point of merging, but to notice the slightly uneasy light in which Paul paints the entire episode, with the resurgence of ’disturbing’. And so my tag for the whole LSD scene is born: “How do you come back from it?” Because these two got to the point of losing their own identities in the other, they truly became One, and they were not ready for it. It was everything John wanted and everything Paul was trying to avoid, and I think it started to destroy them".
But so far everything has been fine (for example, the Beatles were still close during working on Magical Mystery Tour), until one event that is often overlooked: the engagement of Paul and Jane on December 25, 1967.
Let's see what the situation was in early 1968: John no longer has any excuse to be with Paul as often as he would like. They don't give concerts, they don't work on an album. They don't have specific plans. They go on a trip to India, but there are many question marks. Paul is there with Jane, who is no longer just a girlfriend who will go to work in Bristol and leave Paul a house to write music with the Beatles. She is now a fiancée.
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No wonder John worried. In my opinion, his vision of their relationship was this: "We will be in a band, we will be together all the time (because we are a creative partnership), whatever the reason may be: concerts, writing music, making a movie, or whatever. We'll be romantically and sexually engaged. At the same time, it is imperative that we both have female partners. But they must be less important to us than we are to each other".
You all know Paul disagreed (whatever the reason was). Moreover, he left India in the company of Jane. And that started the crazy sage of the breakup of Lennon-McCartney and the Beatels (but that's material for another post).
Disclaimer #1: I know that from 1963 to 1968 there were more factors in John's life than his relationship with Paul. I omitted them here for the sake of clarity.
Disclaimer #2: I absolutely don't want to say that George and Ringo were unimportant to John. However, it's hard not to think that John treated them as brothers and Paul as a potential life partner.
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