#because your partner is there to support you while you're awake but knows you need to rest too

[ordowrites]

On Your Knees

minors dni / afab reader / sub!diluc / pet play, pet names, orgasm control, light dom/sub dynamics, oral sex (f!receiving) praising, light fem!dom, aftercare (there's nothing really intense in this but ya know)

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Diluc is always so in control, always barking orders at people who don't listen and taking charge when he feels things are going sideways. You watch, usually, from the sidelines as he stresses himself from day to day life. You sit with him at his desk while his fingers tangle in his hair and he stares bleakly at the forms in front of him, and it seems as if he's subsisting off of coffee and whatever else can give him energy.

You try to be a good partner, supportive and patient, staying awake with him for as long as possible or bringing him sustenance when he needs it. Gentle goading from his maids is always brushed off as unimportant, he's fine now leave him be. Diluc tries his best to be sweet to you, but when stress wins out, he snaps. Those are the days where you have to remove yourself from the situation and do your own thing. And you sigh because you wake up at dawn when you feel the bed move and him finally crawling in for just a few hours of shut eye.

So of course, your mind, ever-going, starts to make plans. Diluc loves you because you're smart on your feet, you're quick thinking, innovative, and in general, so fun to have around.

"You want me to what?" Diluc balks, pretty red eyes widening as you present him the leather collar to him. "That's -"

"C'mon, look, safe word can be Phoenix. If you hate it, we'll never do it again." You're lucky he loves you enough to indulge in whatever idea you have thought up, lucky that he pulls off at least his ever present jacket and upon a small frown from you, his vest and undershirt follow.

"I am not a dog," he tells you, mildly annoyed. His fingers pull at the collar, even if it’s not tight and it’s actually quite soft around the neck, you can tell Diluc is quite bewildered by this. Honestly, he looks quite cute with his flushed cheeks and collar, all he’s missing are ears and a tail. You make a mental note of that for later - maybe just the ears because he has his limits.

"Oh, but you're going to learn to be one." You tell him with a little shake of your head. “Now, be a good boy and kneel.” Diluc stares at you for a moment, as if comprehending what you just told him to do. “Diluc, I said kneel.”

It's a fight within him, between that pride of nobody tells him what to do and I trust you to do this subjugating thing. With a deep breath, he falls to his knees in a kneeling position and you sit on the bed, peering down at him with a mild look of surprise crossing your features. You get up and circle around him - his hands are in his lap as he knees on the floor, red eyes trained on you.

"Do you trust me?" You ask as you press your front against the curve of his back. Your hands move down to the collar around his neck - thick leather that's smooth to the touch. Your fingers run along his chest, marveling in how muscular he is - how you feel his breath catch and hold when fingers brush against a nipple. Oh, he's sensitive.

"Y-yes," he finally answers, breath releasing and slowly becoming labored as you tease his nipples some more.

"Yes, what?"

Diluc grits his teeth. "Yes, ma'am."

You press a kiss to the crown of his head. "Good boy." He shivers when you pull away, circling around again to be in front of him. You reach down to grab the discarded leash and he eyes you with a small frown on his face. You latch it onto the small ring and give a little tug, a silent command he follows you on his hands and knees.

"We only have two rules tonight," you tell him. "You don't get to cum without permission and you do as I say."

Diluc opens his mouth to argue before deciding against it - he may as well see where this is going. He grimaces as he crawls on his hands and knees, climbing onto the bed as you pull at the leash. You prop your back against the wall as he nestles himself between your legs, trying to get as comfortable as possible as you provide some slack with the short chain.

His tongue darts out, tasting your wet folds - lips finding your clit and you gasp as his tongue starts to work its magic. Followed by lips and fingers that cautiously tease you, tongue flattening as he gives kitten licks and lips that suck at your clit. You groan as your fingers grip at his hair.

Soon, he's humping against the bed - trying to find relief for himself as he continues to eat you out as if you're his last meal on earth. It's messy, he's growing needier by the minute and you're so goddamn close -

Diluc pulls away after a minute, his face wet with your juices, looking positively debauched, red eyes darker with lust. Every bit of himself that he kept in control is gone.

"Please, I need -" he groans a bit as you reach over and gently stroke his erection, the way pre-cum pearls at the tip, the way he looks at you with need and guidance.

"Need what, baby? Use your words."

He swallows. "Y-you."

That's all you need when you instruct him to lie on his back and you climb on top of him. He whimpers as you slowly lower yourself down onto his cock - gasping as he fills you up and he groans, hips jerking a bit. You give the leash a playful, sharp tug to remind him who is currently in charge tonight.

You both take a moment to adjust to the new feeling and soon, he's trying to move under you - desperate to listen to your command but desperate for release.

"You're always in control, Diluc," you gently scold him. "Let me stay in charge tonight, baby." He give a weak nod before finally relenting entirely. He goes at your pace as you lift your hips and push down, willingly giving himself over to you as things start to finally - finally -move a bit faster. He drinks up your gasps and moans, letting out his own noises as his hands move to tightly grip your hips. He lets his mind go blank as he takes in all of you - the how hot and wet you feel around him, how soft your skin is to his touch, the way your breasts bounce - how beautiful you look in this position.

How safe and at ease he feels when your arms slightly cage him in when you lean down. Your eyes are so beautiful, your lips soft as you pepper kisses all over his face.

"Do you want to cum, my flame?" you whisper as he meets your hips again and he gives a little nod. "Say 'please'."

Diluc groans. "Please, please, ma'am-"

"So polite, so sweet for me," you praise as your pace hurries. "C'mon then, cum for me." As he cums, you pull off - his semen spurting onto both your torsos. You gently stroke his cock, knowing he can get a bit oversensitive from his orgasm. There's a soft plea that escapes his lips and you laugh softly, pressing a kiss to the softened cock before moving upwards.

Finally, after showering him with what feels like a million kisses, you snuggle next to him.

"You were so good for me," you breathe as you run your fingers through his long red hair. "Such a good boy, Diluc."

He flusters at those words, pulling you in close to him. He presses a kiss to the crown of your head. If he lets go, his whole world may collapse in on itself - so you let him hold you as tightly as he wishes as you continue to stroke what you can reach of his hair while whispering praises and sweet words until he lulls to sleep.

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #diluc x you #diluc x y/n #diluc #diluc x reader #genshin diluc #mine.txt #diluc ragnvindr #diluc smut

[heartfullofleeches]

Alright awesome, uh aHEM-

Y/N trying to comfort Theodore: “Listen man I’m really sorry about the divorce, you two really loved each other so it must’ve been really rough.. If you need any help or just want someone next to you then know I’ll be right here for you okay? And hey on the bright side, there are plenty of fish in the sea! I’m sure you’ll find your one and only eventually”

Meanwhile Theodore is internally flipping out cause: Oh my god the divorce was actually a blessing in disguise she’s finally gone and fuck I think I really love Y/N and they’re sitting here comforting me and touching me I want them so bad what do I do fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck-

Theodore never liked coffee. The bitterness clung to the roof of his mouth and caffeine gave him jitters til next week if he drank too much. With the kids and all his school work pilling up, he needed something to keep him awake and everything else he tried had no effect. He experimented with different creamers and sugars, and created the perfect mix to help it all go down. He figured it wouldn't be too much of a crime to ask his then girlfriend to pick up his drink of choice whenever she bought drinks for herself - only to be handed a black coffee everytime.

"Ta-da! One iced latte. They didn't have that toffee creamer you like so I raided your fridge. Once you're feeling better, we really need to get you out of this house, mister."

His blanket falls from his shoulders as he reaches out. "... thanks."

His voice was hoarse and scratchy; startling even him as it crawled from his throat. It sounded foreign to him, but that's exactly what that woman did. Somedays he couldn't look in the mirror without seeing a glimpse of the shy, awkward teen he used to be - and the stranger that person had because. He was a wreck. He hadn't slept. He only showered when he had to pick up the kids from their grandparents. He hadn't eaten anything in days... until you brought him food. Back in your highschool days you'd pay him with his favorite foods in favor of completing some project you forgotten about. While his tastes had changed a lot over the years, he gorged himself on everything you brought until he felt ill.

Theodore tears the lid of the cup and swallows the concoction, not stopping for a breath. Your hand flies to his back as he chokes. "Take it easy, Theo. Give me that."

You pry the cup from his hands as you sit beside him, weighting his palms against his lap until his shakes quiet. "It's going to be okay. You'll find someone when you're ready to look again and I'll always be here to support you."

You always have been. Years went when he forgot about his own birthday and it seemed like the entire world had to - and there you were, cake and a new book in hand. You were his rock through thick and thin; a vow he made with his ex. The guilty euphoria when people mistook you as his spouse instead of her. Beside what he did with his kids, Theodore had forgotten what it was like to enjoy another's company - reminded each time you came around. He couldn't make this about himself. He couldn't.

"The kids.... Erin's still so young. How am I going to tell them."

"Sometimes, a separated home is better than a dysfunction one. It won't be easy and they'll always come before anything, but right now you need to focus on yourself and what you want in life."

Your hands tighten around his. What does he want? He wants to go back to the night he took that cigarette from her. He wants to scream and hit his younger self for following her at that party. He wants to go back and stop the arrangement that kept his mind off the study partner that always came up with an excuse when it was time to hit the books, but there when he needed them most. He wants to tell them how they made him feel. He still does. He wants to love you - and now he finally.... finally can.

"Hold me.... Please, I just want...you to hold me."

His glasses fog up. You wipe the tears from behind his lenses as your arms envelope him. Eyes misty, all he feels is the pull of your warm embrace and he breaks. Theodore wraps the blanket around you and centers his hearing on the steady beat in your chest. It's the most beautiful thing in the world. If he has that to listen to every night, he won't need caffeine - or anything else for that matter. All he needed was you. All he ever needed was you.

#yandere oc #yandere #yandere imagines #yandere x reader #yandere headcanons #yandere insert #yandere scenarios #male yandere #yandere blurb #yandere x you #yandere fluff #Theodore my oc #soft yandere

[choweyy]

collapsed | sukuna ryomen

summary : you need emotional support, but your boyfriend is him..

character : sukuna ryomen (jujutsu kaisen)

warning : there is some curse words here!! because.. it's sukuna.

a/n : funny how i made fic for him after making gojo's fic...

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a sigh escaped your lips as soon as you stepped your feet to your home, you were tired, very very tired, your work were exhausting you and really drained all of your energy out. it's the first time you got this exhausted since the first day tou worked there, your body is so limp, your eye bag is getting worse each day and your body looked paler and paler each days..

you keep trying to not looked tired (mission failed miserably) and no wonder sukuna has growing a little worry for you (he won't shows it for sure), then your leg suddenly betrays you and... you fell. he thought "i'll kill that bossy boss soon bro damn he makes MY baby collapsed? what the hell does he thinks he is?" and he's now carrying you to bed and keep waiting 'till you're awake because he don't freaking know what to do..

you waked up after some hours and found out he was sort of sleeping next to you and holding your hand to make sure you won't go (nah, actually he just wants to holding your warm and soft hands) and you just looked at him at awe, who knows the scariest curse could be soft to his partner who is a human? weakling like a human?

he opened his eye, secretly relieved you're now awake and safe, but you're still pale and limp.. "how many lunch and dinner that you skiped?" and actually.. you did skipped them all.. because of work! but you replied him with "not that much, probably just few of them.." he knows that was a lie, you're too bad at lying sheesh

he orders your favorite foods and shoving them to your mouth, and now your body is getting back their colors and energy!! you sure loved him damn.

you felt so grateful and you said (screamed) "THANK YOUUU ILYY" and hugging him so tight se smiled a little. "yeah yeah, you're welcome brat, better don't skipped your foods and became pale again or else-" a loud "MWAH" was heard "you cared so much about me? 🥹" you sure was in awe.

"don't make me regret falling in love" he said while his ears are maroon red (a/n in giggling) you giggled and hugs him again but tighter this time and your face is nuzzling in his chest "hehe i lobyuu" and you hears his heartbeat and chuckled. he raised an eyebrow "what's s' funny?" and you giggle a little. "nothing, i just love how fast your heartbeat is, and i love you" and you swear you heard his heartbeat is getting faster!

"hm, whatever" and he holds you carefully as if you're made of glass and that fragile.. he loves you too <3

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a/n : why is this so bad? 😭

#sukuna #true form sukuna #jujutsu sukuna #ryomen sukuna #jjk sukuna #sukuna ryomen #ryomen sukuna x reader #sukuna fluff #ryoumen sukuna #sukuna ryomen fluff #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #jujutsu kaisen ryomen #ryomen x reader #jjk ryomen #choweyy

[blakeswritingimagines]

When you fall asleep on their shoulder

Thomas:

Finds it ridiculous that you even fell asleep on him but doesn't move while you continue to rest against him and if asked he'll simply say he was already busy and that it wasn't for you.

He's noticed that you start out with a little lean, your head resting on his shoulder. Soon that turns into a full-on nap. He finds it endearing and makes him feel like an old softy. He'll give you a little kiss on the forehead. He'll sit around thinking to himself, "Maybe there's more to life than violence" and that he could get used to this.

Doesn't let anyone wake you up and quietly threatens anyone who dares to make too much noise when your resting on him, will act like nothing happened when you wake up nor does he say anything as he sits down next to you the next time he sees how tired you are.

Arthur:

If you fell asleep on his shoulder, he would feel touched and humbled. It would remind him of the great trust you have in him, and he would be incredibly moved by the vulnerability and intimacy of the moment and would be careful not to disturb your sleep.

He feels like he can't describe it in detail because it's such an amazing feeling. If you're relaxed enough to fall asleep on his shoulder, that says that you feel safe with him and that's the best feeling in the world.

Will try to keep noises to a low volume but simply can't help it especially when someone starts messing with him which will cause him to get loud but will try to help you fall back to sleep if your still tired.

John:

He thinks you are nothing short of adorable but that does not save you from him messing with you as you fall asleep on his shoulder.

He'll poke at you, try to move you, make jokes to you even as you sleep, and makes fun of it when you are awake.

It is a moment of intense intimacy, a moment of deep connection which he values. It’s like you're showing him this softer side of yourself which he's only been honored to see a handful of times.

Ada:

She'll smile to herself once she realizes this and gives you a kiss on your head as she sits still so you stay comfortable.

Loves that you found comfort in her to do this and feels a protective need come over her.

Checks up on you afterward to make sure your doing okay and getting enough rest while making sure you don't feel too embarrassed.

Finn:

He would be smiling to himself, leaning his head closer to yours. And then try to sleep with you, but he would be in his head not able to fall asleep. He would kiss your forehead and pull you closer.

He loves it. There’s no better feeling in his world. He hopes you are comfortable and will lay his jacket over you. Thinking about how peaceful you look. So content. In love. All around him.

This has never happened before and he can't help but find it very cute and endearing, and he would be very comforted. He would feel so grateful for the trust that such an act would demonstrate, and he would be very inclined to protect and support his partner’s well-being.

Polly:

She would let you sleep. She would try to keep everything quiet so that you wouldn't wake up from those noises. This love would mean the world to her, and she wants to make sure you have the best sleep possible even if she does tease you a little after you wake up.

It's very sweet. It's like a sign of trust. It doesn't happen a lot, so, when it does she knows that you really trust her. She feels like she needs to protect you, and will force everyone to quiet down especially if they want her attention.

She will let you sleep as long as you need. She will make sure no one wakes you up, she will stay by your side and hold you closely. She will protect you from anything or anyone that tries to do you any harm. You are her world.

Micheal:

He would be thrilled. This would be a sign of great trust, and, as someone who craves intimacy with the people he loves, this would give him a great sense of contentment and safety.

He can get annoyed because it’s an inconvenience if he's busy or meant to go do something. First of all, this shouldn’t be happening because if you were tired you could've gone home. Secondly, now he has a dead weight on his shoulder and he can’t move but will try to gently move you so you can keep resting but would make anyone regret waking you up.

He would let you sleep peacefully. You both would have plenty of time to speak once you wake up. He would try to keep others quiet, but he would not be upset if they were not perfectly silent. His partner is sleeping and deserves to rest without being disturbed.

Isiah:

You’ll never believe this but it makes him happy. That you feel safe with him and comfortable enough to just drift off. It’s nice, and it means you need him in your life. He's never felt anything like it before in his life. It feels right to him.

He's feeling pretty lucky to have you and he thinks you're an absolute sweetheart. He knows that sounds cliche, but it's true. He does love it when you fall asleep on his shoulder because it's a sign that you feel safe and content with him. It's something he cherishes and values. And he also just finds it really, really cute.

He'll give you a hard time and tease you but does also flirts with you to show he enjoyed having you close for however long you slept for.

Bonnie:

Can't help but enjoy this tender moment with you and how innocent it all is or how warm he gets from getting to hold you while you rest, can't help it as his thoughts start to wander about what life with be like with you and does bring it up to you once you wake.

It’s like a little victory for him when you fall asleep on his shoulder. It’s the biggest compliment for him because then he knows he's been doing something right. He loves you so much and it always brings a big stupid smile to his face when you do this.

Adores this with you and thinks you are so cute when you do that. He loves the feeling and tries his best not to move so you won't wake up. He can stay in that position for hours, just looking at your beauty while you are sleeping and knowing that you feel safe with him. This might be his favorite moment in life.

Alfie:

Thought it was adorable. You were tucked into his shoulder all snug and he knew at that moment that you and him were gonna be all right.

He's an absolute sucker for the quiet, close intimacy - when you're sleeping on his shoulder he feels like he could be in this moment for an eternity.

Another absolute menace on the list, he'll be teasing and messing with you by blowing in your ear, tickling you, poking at you, giving you kisses. You're vulnerable and he's in control, the possibilities are endless.

#thomas shelby x reader #arthur shelby x reader #john shelby x reader #ada shelby x reader #finn shelby x reader #polly gray x reader #micheal gray x reader #isiah jesus x reader #bonnie gold x reader #alfie solomons x reader #peaky blinder headcanon #peaky blinder imagine #peaky blinders

[amomentsescape]

Slashers Spend Halloween with Reader

A/N: HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I'm honestly pretty bummed that Halloween season is officially over after tonight, but I hope you all had a great time! Thank you all for your requests and support on my writings this month. Stay spooky, everyone!

Freddy Krueger

Bar Hopping!

Are we surprised?

Freddy loves to have a good time, especially if it involves drinking and dancing with his hot partner

LOVES if your costume is a bit showy

Loves it even more if you both are matching

If he doesn't like the music that's playing, he changes it with the flick of a finger

If there's someone that's getting a little too close to you, he'll make them disappear for the night (and deals with them later)

And what's even better is that all of your food and drinks are free when Freddy is around

With the quirk of his brow, people are at his command, and no one will treat you any less differently either

Is constantly complimented on his costume because of how "real" it looks

But the moment your social battery runs out, he'll whisk you away into dreamland and cozy up next to you

But if you're ready to be out all night like he is, you can expect one killer hangover the next morning

Michael Myers

Horror Movie Binge!

Michael is clearly not one to go out

As much as he likes Halloween, a bunch of screaming kids or equally drunk adults isn't his forte

But he does like horror and gore

So just say the word, cook the popcorn, and grab a blanket because Michael won't refuse

He even lets you cuddle into him if you want since it's a "special" night

Will share some snacks with you

Probably won't use the blanket, but he's fine if you put it on him

Literally doesn't even blink during the scariest parts of the films

Just don't expect him to binge movies with you all night

Michael can get stir crazy easily

And since it's Halloween night, you can expect him to want to go kill even more

There are too many lives that need to be disposed of in his eyes

But he does secretly cherish that time with you beforehand

He promises to watch more films with you later if you're still awake

Just another reason to come home to you

Jason Voorhees

Walking Through the Woods!

Jason knows you still want to celebrate Halloween, even if it's not with a party or some public event

So what's better than a stroll through the woods?

You have to wait until it's dark, of course, and the moon is bright in the sky

He insists on taking his machete too, just incase

But he happily takes your hand and lets you lead wherever your heart wants

Loves to hear you ramble on about any current interests or hyper fixations

Especially loves when you bump into him or give his hand an extra squeeze

Will stop every once in a while to hold you close, trying to keep you warm from the cold night air

Also likes to watch you pick up random items you see on the ground or around the trees as you walk

Your constant curiosity for things makes Jason incredibly happy

If you guys manage to find a stump, he'll have you rest on it while he sits on the ground beside you

As you lean yourself against him, you share stories of what you did for Halloween as a child

Jason just listens in, content

Thomas Hewitt

Game Night!

It's actually his idea to find some spooky games to play for Halloween night!

It's up to you whether you play together or with his family

He kinda likes those traditional board games that change their theme just for Halloween

But he's also happy to try something new with you!

Will snack on random candies and chips you brought along for the night

Also likes to hear you talk about whatever comes to mind

He's honestly pretty good at the games and is able to beat you from time to time

Will play a scary movie in the background

You both don't really pay attention to it, but the sound is nice to have

If you lose, he always reaches over and squeezes your hand as an apology

But as long as you're having fun, that's all he cares about!

If you win, he claps happily and relishes in your laughs

You end the night playing a simple card game, giving you a chance to talk more and share what you love about Halloween

Bubba Sawyer

Carving Pumpkins!

Well, this only makes sense

Bubba and his family have all the perfect tools for carving pumpkins

And he finds the idea of jack-o'-lanterns keeping away spirits interesting

You have a bowl of candy and a couple drinks besides you both as you get to work

He definitely confuses the candy bowl with the pumpkin guts bowl a few different times

But he's honestly super quick with carving

It's all the practice with sharp instruments

He opted for more of a silly face while yours is a little more creepy

You decide to save the seeds later to bake for a snack as well!

Bubba turns on some fun Halloween cartoons while you both work

He even leans over to show you better ways to hold the knives and how to cut more evenly

Helps you light the candles to go inside the pumpkins once you're done carving

They both end up on the patio, lighting up the area with a fun glow

Brahms Heelshire

Reading Scary Stories!

His parents weren't big on such fantasy tales when he was younger, so he never got to read much fiction

But when you showed him some scary story books you still have from being a kid, he was intrigued

He doesn't really like reading, but he loves when you read to him

You both make a whole night out of it

You get some popcorn ready, turn out the lights, and even make a little fort in the living room out of chairs

You managed to find a flashlight to use when reading as well

He lays with his head in your lap, listening to you read the stories

You even managed to jump and grab him a couple of times, causing him to yelp

He actually ends up getting a little paranoid later into the night, making you read some lighthearted stories instead

Once he feels more relaxed, he ends up falling asleep to your reading

You smile as you get up to grab some blankets and pillows, deciding to sleep in the fort for the night

Norman Bates

Spooky Baking!

Norman has always been quite talented in the kitchen

You'd be happy only eating his cooking for the rest of your life if you had to

And since there wasn't much else to do in the middle of nowhere, you were happy to help Norman with his ideas

You start the night off with making some simple cookies

He made the dough and baked them while you got to decorate

You ended up creating little "spider" chocolate chips with a toothpick!

He then wanted your help making cupcakes

These took a bit longer, but neither of you minded

Norman had a record playing in the background, and it was easy to just converse back and forth with one another

While the cakes were in the oven, he took you by the hand and danced around the kitchen with you

Also plants plenty of kisses on your forehead throughout the night

You both took turns icing the cupcakes once they were cooled

Each treat ended up turning out a little different since you both wanted to create unique patterns and colors

And the best part of the night? Eating your creations together while watching an old Halloween film!

Billy Loomis

Halloween Party!

You thought it would be a horror movie binge, didn't you?

Well, lucky for you, Billy was down to try something different this year

Especially since the whole month comprised of watching every scary film known to man

He is obsessed with your costume, unable to keep his hands off of you

He isn't HUGE on parties to be honest, but if he gets to show you off looking like this, then he's happy to come along

He shares a few drinks with you once you're there

He doesn't like getting drunk, especially since he wants to keep an eye on you

But he enjoys holding onto the red solo cup with his arm around your waist

Occasionally whispers dirty things in your ears and plants warm kisses along your neck

He enjoys seeing how much he can push your buttons out in public like this

Will dance with you if you beg

But it's hard for him to say no to you either way

The night is cut short when he gets into a fist fight with a random guy for flirting with you

Don't worry; he plans on paying the man a visit later

Stu Macher

Trick or Treating!

You think you're too old for trick or treating? Think again

Stu finds you both costumes that make you unrecognizable

You don't think this is going to work out though since Stu is so freaking tall

But somehow, the adults don't question it too much

It's easier to not ask questions, it seems

He grabs your hand and drags you from house to house, laughing with you about random things

And once you both have your fair share of candy, he convinces you to play ding-dong-ditch with him

He may have stolen a pumpkin from someone's yard as well for being "cool-looking"

Asks to trade some of his candy for yours

Occasionally pulls you into people's backyards and makes out with you in the dark

And once most of the kids are back at home, he takes you to his place so you can binge on the candy

The night ends with a horror film too, of course!

Eric Draven

People Watching!

Although this may sound boring at first, anything with Eric somehow turns out to be fun

He sets up a little fort on the roof of one of the tallest buildings in the city, the view being in the dead center of everything

He makes sure you're bundled up in plenty of blankets

The candy bowl is full, and he even has some snacks and drinks to share

You both look over the edge and just watch all the people walk by

You take turns pointing out random people and try to come up with stories on who they are, what their costume is, where they're going, etc.

Always ends in shared smiles and laughs

He strums a couple of tunes on his guitar based on your request

Plenty of cuddles and cold kisses as well

You end up staying out a good majority of the night, only going back home when the streets become empty

Your safety will always be his number one priority

So although you didn't do anything super exciting for Halloween, Eric still made the night very enjoyable for you

And at least this way, he knew he could protect you

#slashers x reader #slasher preference #slashers headcanon #slashers preference #slashers #michael myers headcanons #michael myers x reader #michael myers #halloween #halloween movie #jason voorhees headcanons #jason voorhees x reader #jason voorhees #friday the 13th #friday the thirteenth #thomas hewitt #thomas hewitt x reader #texas chainsaw massacre #the texas chainsaw massacre #brahms heelshire x reader #brahms heelshire #brahms heelshire headcanon #the boy 2016 #billy loomis x reader #billy loomis headcanon #billy loomis #stu macher x reader #stu macher #stu macher headcanons #scream movie

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Would You Love Me If.....

First Lady of Private Garden Blurb

AN: These two lmaoooo

Synopsis: You ask Jack if he would still love you if you were a worm

Pairing: Husband!Jack Harlow x Wife!Reader

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It was around 2 in the morning and your husband was sound asleep while you were wide awake scrolling through your phone. You didn't know why you were having so much trouble falling asleep and knew that you would regret it later.

When this happened, usually Urban would still be awake so you would go and bother him but when you peeked into his room he was also knocked out cold.

Then your mind suddenly decided to run rampant with your thoughts which was the last thing you needed.

You turned over to look at Jack and called out to him since you had been facing away from him as he had his arm wrapped around you.

"Baby?" You said as you poked his cheek.

Silence.

"Smush?" Now you booped his nose.

Silence.

"Pookie?" You started playing with his beard and could see him moving indicating that he was finally awake.

Jack didn't open his eyes to look at you, but he did hear you and immediately answered,

"Yes, baby? Something wrong?"

"Would you still love me if I was a worm?"

It took Jack a few seconds for his mind to register what you had just asked him, but when it did, he opened his eyes to look at you.

"Ba.... what?"

"Would you still love me if I was a worm? I need to know." You asked again and Jack was just looking at you like you were crazy.

"You woke me up at 2 in the morning to ask me that?"

"Yes, because I couldn't sleep. This is very important and I'm going to need for you to take this seriously. Urban is sleeping so I'll ask him later when he wakes up."

"You better not ask him that dumb ass shit and you shouldn't have even asked me! How the hell could I have married you if you were a worm? Explain that."

"Oh, so your answer is no."

"Baby, I didn't say that. I just needed clarification because WHAT?"

"You don't love me."

"For the billionth time, WE ARE MARRIED."

"That doesn't mean anything!" You said as you were now straddling Jack as he was now laying on his back and you were pouting.

"What the? SERIOUSLY?" Jack said while rubbing his eyes before running a hand through his hair.

"I'm kicking you out. Go life with Druski since he's your life partner." You responded while rolling your eyes.

"Baby, are you seriously upset over this?"

You stayed quiet and Jack noticed your lip start to quiver.

"Oh hell no, don't tell me you're about to cry. Babe! Is your period coming because that is literally the only time you ask me outta pocket shit all times of the night and then cry when you don't get the answer you want."

"Maybe it is, but I just find it funny how I would love you if you were a worm, but I don't get that same treatment in return!"

"Baby girl, I will love you in this lifetime and all of the other ones after that, now please go to sleep."

"I am having a crisis and my husband is not supporting me through it."

"WHAT CRISIS?"

"Just go back to sleep. Dua and Clay wouldn't treat me like this." You said while attempting to swing your leg back over, but Jack immediately stopped you.

"They would probably look at you the same way that I'm looking at you now. But baby please go to sleep because I already know what this is."

"Fine." You said as you plopped down face first onto his chest.

It was 10 in the morning when you had woken up to an empty bed. You figured Jack was somewhere with Urban, but you were definitely going to ask Urban the same question when you saw him.

You went to the bathroom to see that Jack knew exactly what he was talking about.

Your period had started.

No wonder why you were crying so much.

This happened every damn month and still surprised you.

Once you had taken a shower and put on comfy clothes, you walked back out into the bedroom from the walk-in closet to see Jack coming in carrying a basket.

"Ooohh, what's this, pookie?" You asked as he leaned down to kiss you before showing you what was in it.

"Here my little worm. All your favorite snacks, painkillers, heating pad, tampons, the works. And you get ultimate cuddles from me. I looked at the date and it's the 7th so I already knew so I woke up early and got prepared."

He set the basket down on the bed and sure enough your eyes started to water.

"YOU CALLED ME YOUR LITTLE WORM! I KNEW YOU WOULD STILL LOVE ME IF THAT HAPPENED."

"You make it hard not to since you're so cute. Now go ahead and pull up Titanic."

"I have to put it in the group chat that you would still love me if I was a worm. Big husband energy."

"Don't push it. PG will never let me live that down."

Not even three seconds later, you heard Urban yelling down the hallway.

"Y/N! STOP ASKING ME WOULD I STILL LOVE YOU IF YOU WERE A WORM!"

"I NEED TO KNOW FOR RESEARCH PURPOSES!"

"JACK, GET YOUR WIFE."

"HE SAID THAT HE WOULD LOVE ME IF I WAS A WORM!"

"BECAUSE HE'S A SIMP!"

All Jack did was sigh and shake his head.

"Just three days, just three days." He muttered to himself.

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[tetsunabouquet]

Loved the interpretation and writing of my last request! If you dont mind, here's a new one. Tw! Anorexia

Gom with a reader suffering from severe restricting eating to the point where they passed out in public or private, your choice. Again, sorry if this is triggering.

A/N: Thank you for the compliment! Trigger warnings for the readers up in the request

Akashi

-Don't expect this guy to be surprised. He has been suspecting it for a while. -When you faint in front of him, his heart sinks in that ultimate, 'Oh no,' moment. -Actually has a minor panic attack. -Flashbacks to his mom. -He'll do everything he can to wake you up. -Once you're awake, he'll have food arranged for you and he's guilt tripping you to eat it. -"Don't make me lose another person that I love."

Aomine

-Has actually told you before about how you should gain a little more weight as he notices the thinness but doesn't has the intellectual brain capacity to suspect something like an ED. -When you faint, it still doesn't registers in his mind but he does immediately recognize that you needed something to eat. -Momoi is the one to tell him she suspects your disordered eating, and Aomine's heart honestly breaks at the news. -He is demanding you to tell him which stupid idiot convinced you that you were fat, so that he can beat them up right now. -You are honestly touched to see him be so angry and upset on your behalf, he is so pure with his praise and love for you. -Demands that you eat with him at the Maji burger at least once a week and that you try to finish the meal he buys for you.

Murasakibara

-Like Aomine, he doesn't has any suspicions regarding the behavior itself but he does notices you don't eat enough. -Murasakibara just cradles you confused in his arms as Himuro tells him what to do next as well as mention his suspicions about your restrictve eating. -Murasakibara honestly stares at you like you're an alien creature as he has to process the idea that people can hate food that much, thank god you're unconscious and you can't see his face. -He makes up his mind to be the person to cure you of that hate. -Dumps pretty much all candy and snacks he has on him on you the moment you wake up all the whilst giving you a look as sweet and pure as the candy itself. -He increases little habbits like feeding you, because clearly you need it.

Midorima

-Has been taking calculated notes of how much you eat, but is afraid of coming off too strong so he refrains from daring to ask the question. -When you faint he has the most perfect response ever, and manages to stay calm even though he is breaking down on the inside with worry. -Confronts you sternly but lovingly once you wake up, he only wants the best for you. -Reads multiple books on how to be a supportive partner. -Honestly he's adorable with how hard he tries to be there for you. -After the event, he prepares you a bento in the theme of your lucky item of the day, always. Even on the days you can't bring yourself to eat it, he doesn't minds and just hoped carrying the lucky item themed lunch brought you courage in different ways.

Kise

-Knows. Immediately. -As a model, he has far too much model contacts not to know about that dark side of the industry so he knows all the signs. -Is the only one to have confronted you about it before it got to the fainting stage. -Honestly he bawls like a baby when you faint in front of him, because this was exactly like he feared. -He manages to get the number of a great treatment program from another model that is combatting her own ED after you woke up again and got him to calm down. -Tries to feed you all the time whilst acting as cutesy as possible, full idol mode. Because he hopes it will do the trick. -He tries to uplift you by talking about his own insecurities, as being under the limelight does also open him up to scrutiny way more then the average person.

#knb #kuroko's basketball #akashi #akashi seijuro #knb x reader #midorima #midorima shintarou #kise #kise ryouta #aomine #aomine daiki #murasakibara atsushi #muraskibara

[fang-and-feather]

Nostra Unica Famiglia

Ikemen Vampire - Leonardo & Pureblood! Reader

(background Charles x Reader)

Written for Fluffbruary from @fluffbruary Day 13 Prompt: Choice and the Shapes of Love Creation Challenge by @violettduchess and @lorei-writes Prompt: Storge (Familial Love)

Words: 687

Summary: You thought Leonardo would be mad about your relationship with Charles, but when you finally talks to him, you're in for a surprise

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You found Leonardo smoking on the balcony. Nothing new, but this time you felt apprehensive of approaching.

The Christmas party went well. Or so you thought. But now that the party is over and Charles has gone home, you feel like all the masks will come off, and you are afraid of what lies underneath. You still brace yourself and call out.

“Uncle?”

“Ciao cara. Why are you still awake?”

“I drank a little too much to sleep.” Not a lie. You did drink a little more than you’d ever had. You weren’t drunk, but still a little buzzed.

“It doesn't seem like it did you any good, Piccolina. You don’t look too cheerful.”

“I’m not that little!” You never could help complaining when he treated you as a child.

But this time, your answer did not lead to the usual banter. Instead, he turns to you with a smile that looks strangely sad, puts out his cigarillo, and ruffles your hair gently.

“I know. You have never been. Not even when I met you. But you are young, and I know how the famiglia is. Rebellion can be tempting, but it can lead to hastily made, poor decisions you might regret later.”

“Is this about Charles?” You knew he would talk about it, but any preparation you had made beforehand seemed to escape your mind when you finally needed it.

Leonardo turns back to look at the starry sky, and you walk to stand beside him, doing the same.

“You’re old enough to make your own choices, and I don’t doubt you when you say he is a good person. But the others he’s with mean trouble, and he chose to follow them. He chose his own path, and I’m afraid you’ll end up caught in it."

He was right. Vlad is a weird pureblood, who wasn’t too satisfied with your relationship with Charles either. Comte had promised to tell you about his relationship with Vlad later, but had said they were friends who had a fallout because of Vlad’s ideals.

But you also had a good feeling about the interactions you had with them while trying to build this relationship with Charles.

Not an easy or short task. You had a lot of time.

You were about to tell him that, when he started to speak again, turning to smile at you.

“But I saw you today, and this relationship sure seems real. You are young, but I trust your judgment. Just be careful, and know you can come to me if anything happens, okay?”

You were not expecting such support. Such trust. Your relationship as a family barely had a year, either. It had been fine, but you often had this impression Leonardo saw you as a little child. How long had you longed for a little of that love? How lucky you were to end up in this time and place, as strange of a coincidence as it was? Fighting back tears, you hug Leonardo.

“Thank you for trusting me, uncle. You are the only famiglia I currently have, of course you are the one I will turn to if I turn out to be wrong. But I am confident in my choice.”

Hands on your shoulders, Leonardo gently puts some distance between you.

“I know. You sure don’t need it, but you have my blessing.” He leans down to kiss your forehead. “And I hope whatever choices you make from now on will make you happy. Not make you regret it.”

You only hug him back. You know it’s hard for him to say that, but he chose to trust and believe you, like no one in your family ever did. And you know it’s because supporting you is important for him too, who never had a true family either. He chose to be that family to you. It wasn’t just a coincidence that you met; it was fate. Who said destined bonds were only for romantic partners?

That doesn't mean your boyfriend will escape without a talking to, not only from your uncle, but it's already more support than you expected.

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[reverie-starlight]

IF YOU DO NOT GIVE ME THE SOFTEST OF THOUGHTS IN -6 SECONDS IM CALLING THE FIRE DEPARTMENT. THIS IS NOT A DRILL NOR A THREAT, BUT A PROMISE 😡🩷🤲🏻

AGNSKCBGKS OKAY!!!! SOME SUPER QUICK SOFT THOUGHTS 4 U!!!! DON'T CALL THE FIRE DEPARTMENT!!!

also this is… very unedited and might have a few mistakes!! so many apologies, I hope you don’t hate it!!

(with todoroki bc he's all that's been on my mind since I restarted bnha from the beginning)

gn!reader, pro!reader, lots of fluff. this went from super rambly in the beginning to more of a mini fic by the end. also, my first time writing for todoroki, so I’m testing out how I write him with this! this got just a hair suggestive at the end.

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okay so immediately my mind went to making breakfast with him early in the morning. (for the sake of this scenario, you're both pros)

let's say you both have a day off and you're so excited to actually be able to spend time together while you're both conscious apart from the quick goodbye kisses before you head to your agencies and the minutes before drifting into the few hours of sleep you get in between shifts (if you’re lucky to even be in bed at the same time).

todoroki had always been an early riser by choice, and normally on his days off he would sleep in (only by an hour), but he was so excited to actually have the day with you that he managed to convince you to wake up early with him (something you'd never agree to on a day off if you weren't as excited as him) to maximize time together <3

so it leads to him pulling a very sleepy partner out of bed and into the washroom so you can brush your teeth together. you make quiet conversation about your dreams while he supports your body weight as you lean on him and he presses small kisses against the back of your head while you wash your face.

then it's time for breakfast and you're getting the pans ready while he gets the ingredients. the sun isn't even fully up yet and your voices are soft, both of you afraid to disrupt the peaceful atmosphere.

sleepy kisses are exchanged, sweet whispers of I love you are promised. he’s picking you up and placing you on the counter since he’s just barely more awake than you are, and he’s finishing up the food while you take a little power nap against him. he doesn’t hold it against you because he knows you’re exhausted.

it’s a struggle not to burn the food since one of his hands is occupied with being wrapped around your waist and rubbing your back soothingly while you drift in and out of consciousness, but he manages.

you wake up just in time to help him plate the food, and soon enough you’re enjoying your meal, legs intertwined under the table, hands clasped together on top of it.

(side note but one thing about todoroki is that he would so totally be clingy with his partner after he gets completely comfortable, but especially if they’ve had to spend a long time apart from each other, so he would be all over you on a shared day off.)

he occasionally brings your hand up to his mouth to press kisses to the back of it and you rub your thumb over his in return. then after breakfast you’re cuddling on the couch, he’s laying on top of you with his cheek smushed against your chest as you card your fingers through his hair and making sure neither of you get too warm with his quirk.

“we really needed this,” you state. everything about the day had been quiet, calm, peaceful and your voice did nothing to change that.

todoroki nods. “mhm. missed you so much this month.”

right. it had been a whole month of your insane schedule.

“I missed you too, baby… I don’t know how we managed a whole month like this, that has to be some sort of record for us.”

he snorts. “yeah, I think so too. but let’s not talk about it right now. I want to focus on our time together, not apart.”

you smile and press a kiss to his head. “you’re right. let’s just relax for the day and catch up on some much deserved quality time.”

so you do- you cherish your time together, talking about nothing, just enjoying the comforting sound of each other’s voices. you’re both still sleepy, but it’s less because of exhaustion and more because of relaxation.

but an hour later you get a text from momo that wakes you both up pretty quickly and results in more playful affection (as playful as todoroki could be, anyway).

you check the text and sigh. todoroki looks up at you in worry. “if it’s midoriya, tell him I fled the country.”

you let out a snort and pull your phone away from your face to look at him. “and why would I do that?”

he nuzzles his face further into your chest. “because he knows it’s my day off and he might be asking if we want to hang out with him.”

you roll your eyes affectionately and unlock your phone again to read momo’s text. “well lucky for you, it’s not him, but unlucky for both of us, it’s momo asking the same thing.”

he peeks up at you for a second before face planting into you again. “…tell her we fled the country.”

you giggle and flick him on the forehead, feeling him smile against you. “I’m not telling any of our friends we fled the country, my love.”

“then can you please tell her we’re busy today? I don’t want to see anyone but you.”

you decide to tease him a little bit. “I dunno… she says she just wants to drop something off for us and she’ll be quick.”

he groans and pokes you in the side. “my love, with the two of you involved, a visit is never quick.”

you gasp, pretending to be offended, even though you know it’s true. “is it so wrong that I like to spend time with my best friend?”

he pushes himself off of you and holds himself up by his forearms, placed near your head and raises an eyebrow. “is it so wrong that I want to spend time with my dear, completely innocent, never teasing partner?”

you shoot a childish grin up at him and he sighs, his eyes growing soft. “please tell her we’re busy today?”

you lean up to give him a quick peck. “I told her we couldn’t before I even mentioned that she texted, my love.”

wrapping your arms around his neck, you pull him down to properly kiss him. “besides, I want to spend the day with you, too. do you think I got up early on my day off because I wanted to get the worm?”

he blinks at you. “what worm?”

you stare up at him. “have you never heard that saying? the early bird gets the worm?”

“oh, that’s what you meant. I thought we had a worm problem.”

“why would we have a worm problem?”

“I don’t know, that’s why I asked you.”

“Shoto- oh. you’re messing with me.”

he hums and presses soft kisses along your cheeks and down your neck. “payback.”

you sigh in content, tilting your head a little and continue caressing his hair. “you got me.”

he smiles down at you and you try to take a mental picture to remember it forever. his messy hair, a rare full smile and a small blush as he admires you from above. the moment was perfect.

you continue to stare at each other for a few moments, just savouring each other’s company. his hands are trailing gently over your body, and just when you think you’re about to go somewhere with him, your phone goes off again. a certain warmth settles in your chest as he checks it for you and huffs out a laugh.

“It’s midoriya, he’s asking if we’re free, too.”

you take your phone back and toss it onto the chair across from the sofa you’re both laying on, pulling him back down for another kiss, this one slightly more heated. “he can wait for a response, we’re busy.”

your boyfriend just chuckles and lets you pull him down, happy that you’re still on the same page about catching up on quality time.

safe to say that midoriya never ended up getting an answer to his text. thank goodness you had read receipts turned off.

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I hope you enjoyed!!

#this took a lot longer than -6 seconds I’m sorry!! #but I hope you enjoy anyway <3 #todoroki x reader #todoroki fluff #todoroki x reader fluff #todoroki shoto x reader #bnha x reader #bnha x reader fluff

[mypimpademia]

So I'm new here on Tumblr so I'm not sure how it works (I'm used to Wattpad lol), but, if you feel like it, you could make a headcanon with mha guys and a female reader, where Bakugou, Todoroki, Deku and Kirishima help y / n after a coma (if you know, after a coma, you find yourself in a vegetative state and a long physical and mental therapy is required)

I repeat, only if you want, I don't want to force you (my scenarios are quite strange and sad I know)

Anyway, waiting for your reply, love you so much <333

— Recovery

Bakugo x gn!fem!reader, Todoroki x gn!fem!reader, Midoriya x gn!fem!reader, Kirishima x gn!fem!reader

TW: Some Swearing (mostly on bakugos)

Note: I love you too!💖 enjoy boo <333 I'm not an expert on comas or anything like that so a lot of this is probably wrong

— BAKUGO.

⇶ He's the first person to show up when you finally wake up

⇶ And the expression he makes, it's almost like he can't believe what he's seeing

⇶ Because he can't.

⇶ Drops to his knees by your bedside and holds your hand, crying his eyes out while telling you how glad he is that you're awake between hiccups

⇶ Throughout your recovery, he's always there to help and gives you aggressive but genuine encouragement

"C'mon, eat your damn food. I know you're still getting used to it, but you're not gonna get better by not eating. So fucking eat, shit head!"

⇶ Very aggressive, but you know he means well

⇶ Always give you kisses and tells you 'nice job' as positive reinforcement, even it was as simple as feeding yourself

⇶ Katsuki always acts like it's a hassle, but he does literally everything you need

⇶ You want him to help you with trying to walk again? He's there

⇶ You said the pillow supporting your back feels out of place? He'll fix it right now

⇶ Unless you want a new one, he can get that done too

⇶ Katsuki is there every step of the way, and though others come by to visit you every now and then, he comes to see you as much as possible

⇶ Though he comes off as aggressive and rough around the edges, out of everyone, he cares the most

"You're doing fuckin' awesome baby, I'm so proud of you. I love you so much."

— TODOROKI.

⇶ Shoto is just walking into the room whenever you're waking up

⇶ He watches from the doorway, frozen, as you stir in your hospital bed

⇶ When you open up your eyes and look at him, his eyes are wide and overflowing with tears of joy

⇶ He quietly told you he'd be right back between stutters and ran to go get the nurse

⇶ Shoto was used to hospitals by now, considering the situation with his mom

⇶ He's seen it all, so he's got a good idea on how physical therapy works

⇶ He normally visits you on the same days he goes to see his mom

⇶ Whenever he comes, he always sneaks in some small amount of food or candy for you

⇶ Shoto's encouragement is always small

⇶ Usually in the form if small smiles, pecks on the forehead or cheek, or a gentle hand on your head

⇶ And when they're verbal they're short, quiet, and sweet

"You're doing incredible, love. I'm so proud of all the progress you've made."

⇶ Shoto helps you as much as possible

⇶ He comes to your physical therapy as moral support, and let's you talk to him about your mental therapy too (if you want)

⇶ Just makes a good partner to spend time with while healing

⇶ He'll talk to you, help you walk outside a bit, and asks your nurses what more he can do for you

⇶ Attentive to your needs. Ask, and you shall receive

⇶ You want him to sneak you in a specific food? He's got it stuffed in his school bag.

⇶ You want a new blanket? He'll ask you for a specific one.

⇶ Shoto is as supportive as can be, his presence was calming and he knew what he was doing

⇶ He was ready to help you in any way he could, just say the word

"Oh, I got you that blanket you were talking about last time. I'm really proud of how far you've come, love, and I wanted to get you something to show that."

— MIDORIYA.

⇶ Honestly, Izuku hadn't even seen you wake up before he went and got the nurses

⇶ Everytime you made even the slightest movement, or breathed differently when he came to visit, he'd immediately run crying to a nurse telling them you're waking up

⇶ He did it so often that all the nurses and doctors just rolled their eyes when he came to them, but they had to go check anyways because of protocol

⇶ Except this time, he was right

⇶ And by the time he got back to the room with the nurse you were already looking around a bit and the first thing you truly caught sight of was Izuku crying his eyes out

⇶ He was so worried, and until you're fully recovered and discharged from the hospital he probably won't stop worrying for even a second

⇶ Always asking you questions, wondering if you're comfortable or need anything

"Your blankets are comfortable, right? You aren’t cold? Do you need another–"

"Izuku." You cut him off.

He turned his head, silently questioning you.

"I already have three blankets."

⇶ Now, Izuku himself has actually had a bit of physical therapy

⇶ It was just for his arms, after damaging them so badly and so many times in a row, they made him do a little physical therapy for good measure

⇶ He wouldn't know how to help you a whole lot in your case, but he could help with the basics and then some if he has instructions from the nurses

⇶ Always gives you words of encouragement, no matter if you had a good or bad day, he tells you that you did good and gives you kisses

⇶ Izuku is probably the most attentive person you could ask for

⇶ Gets you food, blankets, helps you with extra physical therapy, talks to you about what ever

⇶ He usually catches you up on what's been happening at school, and always goes on about something cool that one of the pros did

⇶ Izuku is always ready to help someone out, and that especially goes for you. Just say the word and he'll do it no questions asked

— KIRISHIMA.

⇶ This sweet thing is dead asleep at your bed side when you wake up

⇶ Whenever he came to visit you before you woke up, he'd kind of just chill there, silently hoping you'll magically wake up

⇶ Would end up doing some homework, studying, or taking a nap

⇶ And sometimes, he'd even pull out a book he'd been reading and read to you, even if you weren't aware

⇶ You sit in your hospital bed, trying to recollect yourself as Eijiro was still in a chair beside your bed, head in the palm of his hand while a book rested on his lap

⇶ About 5 minutes passed before he began to stir awake himself

⇶ He was groggy for a few seconds, wiping drool off his face and rubbing his eyes

⇶ And when he finally collected himself, he took a glance at you only to find you staring back at him

⇶ His mouth gaped and his eyes nearly popped out of his skull before he took another few blinks to make sure he wasn't dreaming

⇶ Eijiro soon found himself crying into your lap and grasping both of your hands between his rough palms, telling you how happy he is that you're awake and how he was so worried

"Oh my god, Y/n!" Eijiro sobbed. "I- I can't believe it, you're really awake. I was so worried for so long, I was starting to think you'd n– never wake up." He gasped.

"I'm so happy you're here."

⇶ You simply smiled down at him, tearing up, not yet having the energy to speak, but he knew you were just as happy to be back

⇶ Eventually, he did realize that he should probably go and alert a nurse that you're awake

⇶ Once your physical and mental therapy started a few days later, Eijiro didn't stop coming to visit

⇶ Always comes in with a sharp toothed grin, kissing your cheek before sitting down and talking to you

⇶ He talks to you about what's been happening at school, asks how therapy has been going, and even now he reads to you every so often

⇶ And some days, you nap together

⇶ Sometimes he brings you food, usually little treats and candies that he knew you liked

⇶ He'll bring in a 4 pack of cupcakes for the two of you whenever you reach a therapy milestone

⇶ And of course, Eijiro has to pair it with a speech about how proud he is of you, and how much he loves you, and how he's so happy you're up and feeling better

"... And I just want you to know, that I'm so proud of you. And that I'm so so so happy that you're here right now, and that I love you more than words can explain."

⇶ He definitely cries everytime, but it's okay because expressing your feelings is manly

⇶ Overall, Eijiro is the best person to have by your side at anytime

⇶ To laugh, cry, imagine things together, or even take a nap with, he's there every step of the way, and honestly keeps you going

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[the-diabolist]

Derek Goffard (N)SFW Alphabet

Hey look, I actually finished one. Too bad it's Derek.

A — Affection (How affectionate are they?)

uhhhh

I don't think he ever feels much genuine affection for anyone, but he can get away with artificial affection.

Under normal circumstances, he's mostly just mean. But if he's feeling insecure or sad or something, you become his emotional support animal.

This may lead to cuddling, hair stroking, and overall sticking to you like glue. He might even treat you like a therapist and unload some of his issues - not that you can do anything about them.

(He will refuse to acknowledge any of this later.)

Now, if you happen to have him wrapped around your finger? Then he's a little more consistently demonstrative.

Because he wants you to like him. He needs you to like him. You like him, right?

Oddly enough, the closer he feels to you, the less likely he is to open up. So he won't ask for that validation directly; he does it by being physically affectionate and gauging your reactions.

(If you're not receptive, he'll assume you're upset with him or something. If you reciprocate, it'll reassure him.)

In short: he can be affectionate, but it's for him, not you 😅

B — Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and of their partner’s)

There's nothing he doesn't like about himself physically 🙄

Well... other than the scars.

But that's why he covered them up with that baller tattoo!!

So, his back went from his least favorite to his most favorite. He's proud of it, from a reclamation standpoint, even if he does still jolt awake with phantom pain sometimes.

Give him a back massage if he's feeling particularly waspy - he'll simmer. Trace the ink and he'll go all relaxed and boneless. Kiss the scars and he's putty in your hands forever.

As for you, it's probably obvious - he likes your mouth.

He likes the way it feels against his own, or trailing over his skin, and how pretty it looks wrapped around him.

He likes how your lips look when you pout, or smile, or scowl, or scream. He likes how you bite them when you're nervous or excited. He likes the way they shape his name.

I hope you like expensive lipstick, because you're definitely getting some. He wants you to wear it while you blow him. He knows he'll enjoy it.

(What he doesn't expect is to get so turned on by the lip print you leave behind when you kiss him on the jaw the next day. The color, the shape - after he caught sight of it in the mirror, he'd made you give him more while he fucked you on the sink.)

Write him a little note (or better yet, a wish list) and sign it with a kiss. All his blood will rush south and he'll have to sit down.

C — Cuddling (Do they cuddle? How and when?)

He does! (For selfish reasons)

He’s likely to view you as a comfort item on rough days regardless of your status in his life, but if you’re anything more than just a toy to him, he’ll do it a lot more often and more gently.

If he’s stressed, upset, tired, sick – you name it, you’re his captive source of relief. That catharsis comes in many forms, some more violent than others, but cuddling is one of them. Especially if he’s feeling particularly wet and pathetic.

D — Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory; a dirty secret of theirs)

He'd never say this - I'm not sure he'd even admit it to himself - but he kinda craves a hard dom who'll just wreck him.

Try it sometime. Get him beneath you, plant your foot on his chest (or neck), and use your most authoritative voice to tell him you expect him to behave or you'll punish him.

He'll still scowl (it's knee-jerk), but that flush on his face isn't because he's angry. He's fronting; don't back down. I guarantee he's already rock hard.

Degrade him, order him around, hurt him (but not too much! He's a lightweight), tie him up, edge him until he's sobbing and begging. You'll have him whipped for life.

Don't get me wrong, he's still going to be super bratty about it - that is his natural state, after all - but taming him isn't too hard. He gets desperate fast.

Keep his leash short. It's what he deserves.

E — Effort (How much effort do they put into a relationship?)

The only effort he puts in is more or less accidental.

Which is to say: if he’s putting in work, it’s because he’s made things difficult for himself for no reason.

Could he just be nice to you? Show you he cares? Sure, in theory.

But instead, he’s mean until you’ve had enough of him, and then he has to fall all over himself trying to make it up to you so that you’ll speak to him again.

Occasionally he will make an effort seemingly spontaneously, but it’s just because he wants something from you, mark my words.

F — Favorite Position (Goes without saying. May include a visual)

I don't think he's picky, honestly.

When it's go time for him (which is frequent), he just kinda grabs you and gets down to business in whichever way is easiest.

So like... against the wall or on the edge of a surface (sink, table, counter) happens a lot, and bending you over things happens a lot.

But missionary/mating press on the floor or the bed or the couch probably happens the most.

(If I remember right, he's the only one in that game who does fuck you face up. Everybody else hits it from behind.)

Sometimes has you ride him. If you're the dominant one, that'll happen more often than not.

G — Gifts (What type of gifts do they give their s/o? Do they want a gift in return?)

Can he afford gifts? Yes. Will you get any? ...Depends. I fully believe it's possible (though maybe not likely) to manipulate him into infatuation and get him wrapped around your finger, in which case he'll get you anything you ask for.

Or even if you can't whip him, you may be able to get him emotionally entangled enough that he'll bring you something now and again (if you've been good).

Normally, though? You're property, and property doesn't need gifts. He'll adorn you as he sees fit, meaning sometimes you'll get clothes or jewelry (it's mostly lingerie tbh), but they're not exactly gifts.

Either way, yeah, he's entitled af and expects your undying loyalty and complete obedience in return xD

H — Hugs (Do they hug their s/o? How often?)

Similar to cudding, he will hug you if he needs a hug.

Will also do it as a precursor to sex. He thinks he’s sneaky and clever but it’s obvious.

More likely to enjoy it if you’re sitting in his lap, but it’ll still turn him on, so you’ll eventually end up in the same situation either way.

In front of his friends, unless it’s one of those days he’s trying to appear aloof, he’s either going to be hanging all over you or he wants you hanging all over him.

I — Intimacy (How romantic are they? Do they have problems with intimacy?)

He does not know what intimacy means, nor can he even spell it.

Has no desire to be romantic. He will be occasionally, but only in the same way that a broken clock is right twice a day (meaning: accidentally).

As I’ve said, he’s more of a softy when he’s feeling depressed or anxious, at which time he might share his woes with you. Which I guess counts as some degree of intimacy, even if he’s just being whiny.

J — Jealous (Do they get jealous? How do they act when jealous?)

Ohhhh boy.

Listen. Despite all his bluster, this little brat is actually very insecure. So yeah, he gets very jealous very easily.

But that's not his fault (because nothing is ever his fault), so it must be your fault, right?

So get ready for him to make his jealousy your problem.

(Make no mistake, he'll definitely be a dick to any third parties who may or may not be inspiring the jealousy in the first place, but he likely won't do more than throwing attitude and snide comments.)

He's not going to win any prizes for sweetness or consideration at the best of times, but he's downright mean to you when he's feeling jealous. Like in a petty way.

He'll ignore you. Call you names. Trip you or bump into you so that you drop your drink. Tell you to go get his jacket from across the room and then insist that you keep looking when you can't find it (he didn't bring a jacket).

If you've never been bullied before, you're going to learn how it feels.

And worse - since it's rooted in insecurity and attachment issues, the only way to get this behavior to stop is to fawn all over him. Even though you've never wanted to fawn over him less than you do right now.

Cling to him, tell him all the ego-inflating things he loves to hear (he's so handsome, you absolutely adore him, can't get enough, he's so good to you, etc), drag him off somewhere and cater to his preference for physical affection.

Eventually he'll calm down and you can live your life (mostly) normally again.

K — Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Well we covered the lipstick thing already ;)

Blood kink - remember that improptu tongue piercing he gave you? Yeah. He's intrigued by period sex too, if that applies to you; he hasn't decided if he should give it a try or if it's too icky for him.

Sadomasochism - which role he's playing will depend on you. He defaults to sadism (physical and emotional/mental - he's a meanie), but if you're a rare breed and manage to dominate him (it's not that hard, actually), he's a very good masochist. His tolerance for degradation is much higher than his tolerance for physical pain, but he'll take both.

Edging - related to the above entry. He's a mean guy, and he'll delay or deny your orgasms for days at a time (if he can manage not to lose control, which... is hit or miss. Sometimes he just gets too into it and messes up). If you're domming, give him a taste of his own medicine - but he's not good at holding back, so he'll probably test your patience.

Begging/dacryphilia - another obvious one. Your tears turn him on and your begging feeds his ego; do both and you'll turn him into a minute man.

L — Location (Favorite places to do the do)

Honestly he's not picky.

He has no sense of shame and even less respect for consequences, so practically anywhere is fair game as far as he's concerned.

Won't necessarily go for it right out in the open, mostly just because you're his and he doesn't care to give random strangers a show. He gets jealous too easy.

Does enjoy the thrill of illicit behavior, though, so somewhere out in public but slightly hidden is his ideal.

Public restrooms, back row of the movie theater, in a parked car, etc.

Sneaks you into his room through a window, like a teenager, just for the fun of it :p

M — Motivation (What turns them on? What gets them going?)

God, what doesn't? 🙄

Doing something "provocative" with your mouth -- could be anything, ranging from licking cheeto dust off your fingers to biting your lip to scowling. Double points if you're wearing lipstick.

Stoking his ego. Compliment his appearance, praise his intelligence, tell him how good he is at things. Double points if you give him doe-eyes while you're at it.

Depending on his role in your relationship, these things may also apply:

Shy, submissive behavior, especially if it adds an element of dubcon, like avoiding his gaze, shrinking away from him, getting tongue tied, gasping/whimpering when he touches you, etc.

And stuff that feeds his sadism, of course, like crying, begging, or screaming.

OR, if he's the submissive one: using a stern voice, degrading him, and being mean to him in general. Really likes it when you use him however you want and then kick him out. 😈

N — Night Out (What type of dates do they like to go on?)

Can he afford to take you to fancy places? Yes.

Does he take you to fancy places? Nope.

Nothing educational or "high-brow," either, like the planetarium or zoo.

He prefers simple, straightforward, entertaining things like going to a movie/sports game, or an arcade.

He'll definitely try to get you into paintball.

Probably also parties with "friends" in clubs or whatever.

Dates with him can be fun and eventful, but also kinda exhausting!

O — Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

I'm sorry but.... not only is he not very inclined to service you this way, he's also not very good at it when he does.

You're pretty sure he knows what to do, but he half-asses it because he'd rather switch places with you 🙄

He’ll happily be on the receiving end all day long. He adores your mouth, after all, and is even fonder of things being all about him.

(Don’t let him tell you he’ll return the favor if you go down on him. He’s a liar. Make him reciprocate up front or you’ll get nothing.)

Does slightly better in a 69 situation, but only if you pace yourself so that he has incentive to do a good job. If he climaxes before you, it’s all over.

A bully, and mean about it. Likes the whiny, reluctant noises you make. Maybe you don’t want him down there after all 😑

Silver lining: he’s actually pretty good with his fingers. Ask him to do that instead.

P — Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? Etc)

Fast and rough almost every time.

Has no patience, plus he can go several times in quick succession, so he sees no reason to slow down.

And why would he bother being gentle with you? He’s such a big fan of the sights and sounds of you being ravaged by him.

As far as he’s concerned, if you aren’t begging him to slow down, he’s not doing it right.

Q — Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex. And if they happen, how often?)

As long as he gets off, he honestly doesn’t care.

Yeah, longer sessions give him more time to play with you, but also… he comes fast (and then maybe a couple more times – his refractory period is short), and then he’s tired.

His drive is high, too, but he doesn’t always have a lot of time.

So… quickies are probably the norm, unfortunately xD

R — Risk (Are they down to experiment? Do they take risks?)

He’s down for – and, in fact, pushing for – any risks that don’t involve possible pregnancy.

He wants to try practically everything he’s ever seen, or heard of, or imagined.

This includes positions, kinks, toys, maneuvers… anything he thinks might be fun to do to you, whether you show any enthusiasm or not.

S — Sleep (How do they sleep with their s/o?)

At first, he probably doesn't. He has his own big fancy bed, why would he deign to sleep in yours?

Maybe he'd occasionally decide he's too sleepy after sex to go back to his own room and he'll stay over, but don't expect him to cuddle, and he's leaving as soon as he wakes back up (and he's going to hog the blankets for sure).

If you do manage to get him deluded into thinking your relationship is more like a normal one, though, he might start to see you more as a source of comfort and seek you out when he's feeling vulnerable.

He might decide to stay the night with you if his father has been particularly terrible to him that day. You might wake up to him sliding in beside you in the middle of the night after he's had a bad dream, or if he's been restless and unable to sleep.

(He's almost cute like that, but don't be fooled -- he still hogs the blankets.)

T — Trust (How much do they trust their s/o?)

He doesn’t trust you and he doesn’t not trust you.

He does worry (or know) you’d leave him if given the chance, but he makes sure to deny you that option, so it doesn’t really matter.

If you’re close, he does trust you somewhat – to keep his secrets, be on his side, etc.

U — Unfair (How much do they like to tease?)

Oh jesus christ

Unfair is practically his middle name.

If he can find a method to tease you that 1. torments you mercilessly, probably leaving you with zero satisfaction and 2. still gets him off, he will abuse it until long after you’re sobbing.

Anytime you get what you want, rest assured that it’s merely a side effect to him getting what he wants.

To his credit, though, at least turnabout is fair play – if you’re the dominant one, this is exactly how he wants you to treat him.

V — Volume (How loud are they? What sounds do they make?)

It's nigh impossible to ever get him to shut his (whore) mouth, and the bedroom is no exception.

He usually starts with well-controlled - though mean - dirty talk, mostly of a derogatory nature.

Then it'll turn more into babbling centered on how good you feel.

Eventually he'll devolve into breathless moans, and he won't last much longer after that :)

W — Wild Card (A random headcanon)

I think he’d be really into any piercings you may have. His favorites would be tongue or genital piercings.

As a matter of fact, if you don't already have a genital piercing, he might just decide to give you one, and then get you jewelry with a scorpion on it.

Basically a "property of Derek" stamp for your naughty parts 😒

He’d probably want to do the same thing to your tongue/lip, too.

X — X-Ray (What would they do if their s/o got injured?)

He is probably the one who injured you xD

If you're just a toy to him, he won't care beyond wanting to keep you in working order.

If he actually cares about you to some degree, he'll still pretend not to care - up to a point, anyway.

For something mild, he'll just make fun of you for being a wimp.

If it's moderate, he'll also make fun of you, but at least he patches you up/helps you get around.

If it's severe... he'll definitely panic. Freaking out may include: yelling, being too rough with you (accidentally), fumbling everything he tries to grab, and possibly crying.

Like, he'll get you the help you need, but it's gonna be stressful.

Y — Yuck (Any pet peeves about their s/o? Do they have any habits that might bother their s/o?)

He’s fussy. He’ll probably complain about literally anything, even things that he actually finds attractive, because he’s a grade A buttface.

He doesn’t like it if you pay attention to other guys (or girls, if you’re attracted to them too), or if you don’t take him seriously – even when he’s throwing a tantrum and being unreasonable.

(He always wants sincere and unwavering attention from his chosen Comfort Item, and anytime he doesn’t get that, he’s going to be upset.)

As for you, I mean… take your pick of his awful attributes.

The emotional instability, the unreasonable demands, his spoiled rotten attitude – the list goes on!

Also he bites his nails and chews with his mouth open, because I said so.

Z — Zeal (Are they passionate? Do they like passion?)

Lack of self-control, passion, call it what you want 😊

He gets worked up into a frenzy pretty easily, which is pretty much the same?

As for whether he likes passion, it’ll depend on your relationship dynamic.

If you’re just a toy, then no. He wants fear, not passion. If you’re more like a couple, then sure, he won’t complain.

A better complement to him is probably someone cool and collected, though. If you’re domming, I recommend taking that route.

#already had like a dozen of them written. Figured I might as well finish it #the price of flesh #alphabet mashup #rune writes fanfic #derek goffard #tpof derek

[pedroschka]

Therapy

Joseph Quinn x reader

Summary: You're getting confronted with yourself after Joe's breakthrough and he helps you realize that seeking professional help isn't something to be ashamed of

warning: Angst, depression, light hint of smutty time

words: 1,6k

What do you do if your partner got one door after another opened for him and has the probably best time of his life right now, and you want to be happy and supportive but you feel like your own life stands still and you don't know what to do with yourself?

You and Joseph met a few months prior to his Eddie Munson debut in a pub where he and his friends celebrated a little too hard and you were the waitress who got a full tray of drinks spilled all over her because a guy, Joe, stumbled right into you. He apologized over and over again and in combination with those damn puppy eyes, he even got a date with you out of it.

Since then you were a big support for him and his career and even could motivate him enough to do the self-tape for his role in stranger things after his own self-doubt clouded his mind so much that he didn't even wanted to do it because he told himself he didn't get it anyway, saving him from another rejection.

Even bigger was the surprise when he got the call that he did got the role just two weeks after. But no one could have warned you what would happen after the show aired.

Now you lay in silence and wide awake while Joe cuddles up behind you, snoring softly in your ear. It was all good but at the same time, it wasn't at all. You always thought if you were in a happy relationship you automatically would feel better yourself, stop doubting yourself and the voice in the back of your head would stop, and for the first few months it seems so too, everything was fine and Joseph was your happy place for you and your mind.

Then his big breakthrough came and your happy place was now a comfort for many other people around the world but you felt more alone than ever when he was away. Sometimes you're lucky to see him once in two weeks, and you told yourself you would be happy for him and that his talent got finally recognized but what about you? Who's gonna be there for you now when you never learned to be your own happy place if things get bad.

You roll yourself over, now face to face with Joe, your absolutely fantastic boyfriend who didn't do anything wrong and somehow still leaves you sad.

Stroking over his stubbled cheek down to his plush lips and up to his nose, which he adorably crunched up after. You continue till his eyes begin to flutter open and a tired grumble leaves his lips, you should feel bad after intentionally waking him up, out of his much-deserved rest before he had to fly out again in the morning, but you felt selfish and needed a distraction from the voice in your head who lets you feel like shit.

Dark brown orbs meeting yours, shiny with sleep and squinting at you. you smiled softly at him before you climb on top of him and start kissing his neck up to his ear and down again.

" hmm what'you doing" his voice deep and raspy but his hands already gliding to your hips and squeezing softly

"shh just need to feel you, my love. You don't have to do anything" you shush him softly and let your hand glide slowly down his stomach.

---

You stare at the message you last sent to Joseph, unanswered for a day now and you try, you really try to think reasonably, that he's probably busy at conventions, meeting fans and being with his co-stars, exploring new cities. But you talked to his mum today and she told you that she was in contact with him. And now you can't help but feel like you are the reason, that you are too much again, too annoying, too boring to be with, that it's your fault that nobody's contacting you or answering your messages, not even your own partner who is busy seeing all these new exciting things while you are not exciting at all.

Self-doubt and hatred takes control of your body and you can't help but let the tears fall, feeling pathetic and childish to cry over a little thing like this, but the more you think about how stupid it is the more tears are rolling down your cheeks. Feeling neglected and lonely with no hope to get better, just laying in an embryonic position on Joe's sight on the bed, sobbing into his pillow with no motivation at all to get out of it today.

That's how joseph finds you, trying his best to be silent he carefully put his luggage down and tiptoed around the flat to search for you and hopefully surprise you with his early visit. As he walks into your shared bedroom he saw a lump of blankets and pillows on his side of the bed, smiling softly and thinking you just have a little nap, he rounded the bed and carefully moves the blanket off of your face.

You freeze immediately and with wide eyes looked up into Joseph's, tears clouding your vision but clearly could make out the downturn of his lips.

" why are you crying, love" he softly wipes the tears from your face and kneed beside you on the bed

Instead of answering you just looked at him like he was a ghost, still shocked to see him so early "what are you doing here? Thought you were coming in 2 days"

" I'm sorry, I lied, I wanted to surprise you. Now my question"

You didn't want to answer, too embarrassed, but at the same time, you wanted to tell him your worries just so he can tell you how silly they are and that he's not bored of you or sees you as a burden.

You sat up, holding your blanket still tight around you, using it as a wall for you to be vulnerable. Unable to hold Joe's intense eye contact right now you direct your eyes to the wall in front of you and took a deep breath and started to try to explain to him how you are feeling. That you don't know when the last time was that you were really enjoying yourself or that on some days when he wasn't there to get you up and take you out somewhere you were unable to move, the easiest things like showering or eating feeling like a chore to you. That you felt unbelievably lonely even when being around people.

After an inner debate with yourself, if you really wanted to let all your walls down in front of him and tell him why he found you crying like a baby just minutes ago you slowly move your head and looked into his eyes, the lack of judgment in his face giving you the final push

"I just...I feel like I only have you in my life. You know I don't have many friends, never had and I guess I never realized how much I rely on you. How I put all my attention and focus on you so I don't have to see myself anymore until you are away now so often and I'm all by myself and have too much time to think. And then you didn't answered my text but your mum told me you talked to her and I felt like a child again where everyone's ignoring or avoiding me because I'm such a burden for everyone and just too much eventually so everybody's leaving me and I don't play a big role in anyone's life..." gasping for air after you finally got all the things that bothered you the last few months out in the world and sobs starting to rock your body. You fell into Joseph's chest, him gently rocking you side to side and rubbing your back only making you cry harder into his shirt.

After a few minutes like this, you could finally regulate your breathing again and just listened to his steady heartbeat.

" I don't wanna pressure you into doing something you don't want but I think I know what could help you feel better again, even when I'm not here with you" his voice reassuring.

Sitting up straight again and looking at him with slightly furrowed brows "and what would that be?"

"therapy" after he saw your wide eyes and distaste for this topic he continued talking "sweetheart, therapy isn't a bad thing, it doesn't mean that your crazy or that's something's wrong with you, I just think that it could really help you to talk about the things that are bothering you like you just did now but with someone who has a professional and a more objective view on it and can help you accept yourself like I already do and helps you understand. I love you and I hate to see you beating yourself up like this and I have the feeling that it doesn't matter if I just tell you how worthy and absolutely not a burden you are to people when you can't see it yourself. "

You dropped your gaze down into your lap doing his speech and fiddle with your fingers nervously, he was right with everything he just said it was just hard to admit it to yourself.

"would you... Would you help me find someone? You know how I am when it comes to making phonecalls" you still couldn't look into his eyes, feeling so vulnerable and naked

"of course I will" he kissed your head " I'm proud of you"

" didn't do anything yet"

"Acceptance is the first and biggest step."

(reblogs and comments are very appreciated additional to your likes)

#joseph quinn #joe quinn #joseph quinn x reader #fanfic #fanfiction #joe quinn angst #hits home a bit too hard

[havinganormalone]

It's been six months. And still today I was blindsided by grief out of nowhere and started sobbing. I just wish I had known it was coming. I wish he hadn't been in pain. I wish I could have done something so he wasn't so scared. I wish I had been able to hug him one last time while he was still lucid and awake. I thought maybe the doctor could fix him. He was so scared and he didn't want to go and he dug his heels in and he was looking at me for reassurance but I thought maybe if the doctor could get him back there fast enough they could fix him so I told them to take him and I didn't pause to hug him or tell him it would be okay and then he was dead. I mean not right away, he was fine once they got him on oxygen, he wasn't suffering, but he was on so many painkillers I don't know if he even recognized me. I got to say goodbye but I didn't get to say goodbye the way I wanted to. I thought it would be a hug and him leaning against me and sort of nudging his nose into the crook of my neck like he did because he actually liked to be hugged sometimes. But it was him sprawled on a couch and breathing through a funnel and not really too alert of what was going on. He didn't seem too stressed at the end but my parents didn't even bother to stay and later when my partner asked me if it bothered me that my parents just peaced out and didn't stick around to see if I needed any support afterwards and until they asked I didn't realize that yeah actually it did bother me a lot but I've come to sort of expect that from my parents. And I'm fine I've been fine and recovering and the grief isn't so bad but today I was listening to the new Last Week Tonight about the death sentence and John Oliver mentioned how this one method had been discontinued in dogs because the dogs showed stress and pain and it got me thinking about him dying all over again. He was my best friend. The night before he died I looked at him and I knew. I knew the next time he got sick he would be too old and frail to survive and I held him and petted him and loved him and a week before he died I was thinking about how good my life was going and I posted to FB about how I wished my life could stay this good forever because I knew something was coming. I knew nothing good could last. But why did it have to be him? Why couldn't it have been some other disaster? I bought him sushi. He loved sushi. It was his favorite. I had always anticipated that to be his last meal. I called my partner from the vet sobbing and asking them to bring me some sushi for him and they did but then that bastard didn't even WANT any. He was too sick to eat. I think the last thing he ate was that morning when I made myself a lox bagel and I let him have a piece of the salmon left over, just him, not his baby sister, because she's just a baby and he loves salmon it's his favorite and he was old and probably going to die soon anyways so I thought "What's a little favoritism for an old man?" And that was his last meal. So I guess in a roundabout way he did get his favorite food as his last meal. But it's never on my terms, and the uncertainty is what makes it so hard to stand. Because at the end of the day you realize you don't actually get to choose anything, you're just sort of hoping things keep working out, that you have to believe in a universe where once in a while you get lucky and give your dog his favorite last meal on accident, and it's hard to believe in a world that will be that kind a second time.

#vent post #tw animal death #dealing with grief

[rjshepherd]

Zed Lollipop chainsaw SFW headcanons

Been talking with @bambino-muses about this game and the dark purveyors for the last day so i decided to throw this together for them. will do the nsfw one tomorrow on the train and then move onto Lewis Legend

long post under the cut

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

He's affectionate in a low key kinda way. Maybe he always wants to hang out with you, maybe he always asks you first to go to shows with him, maybe when you come over he puts on whatever (in his opinion shitty) music before you get there. Ur the first person he asks for a light for his cigarette bc he knows you'll always have one. He sort of shows he likes you by making a nuisance of himself. He crashes on your couch and eats your food, calls you drunk at 3 am to see if you wanna hang out, probably goes to your house when he's sick because he knows you'll rub his back while he's chucking up. 

He is annoying but there's something to be said for being his person. You know the first call when shit hits the fan and the first one you wanna tell when something goes well? Your his first call when he's drunk himself sick and the one he wants front row and centre when he's on stage (although if you're like me you might need ear plugs for that) Zed is a little abrasive to say the least, so for him to admit he actually likes YOU is a big thing. 

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Annoying! You sometimes wonder why the hell you put up with his dumb ass. Then he does something sweet and unexpected and you think  “ah that's why”. I imagine you've been friends since childhood, you lived on the same street so you played together a lot. Maybe not indulging in Zeds animal torturing habits but footy between the curb stones and drawing on the pavement with chalk seem like theyd be things he did. I imagine you got grief for being his friend in secondary/high school. He was obviously a typical bad boy underachiever : kids picked on him for his style, teachers hated him because he never wore his uniform correctly and was “wasting his talent and intelligence on music” which probably pushed him further into the subject to be honest. 

I doubt that stopped you, Zed seems like he would value loyalty in his friends

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Again Zed keeps his feelings besides anger close to his chest. He's not really a cuddler (not while he's awake anyways). The most he’ll tolerate is throwing his arm over your shoulder while sitting in a booth at a bar or maybe holding your waist for support when you both stumble home drunk.

When he sleeps he tends to spread eagle and starfish. He’ll lean and stretch over anything in his way including you. Sleeping next to him is a good way to end up in a tangle of limbs and blankets that takes a good 10 minutes to escape from in the morning. 

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Ha no. Zed is pretty against marriage, goes with the whole punk life, anarchist aesthetic he's got going on. He's not domestic at all. His house is constantly a mess and he's honestly a little bit of a slob at times. Bottles everywhere, doesn't do laundry until he is completely out of usable clothes ( notice i said usable and not clean) and would rather just eat over the sink than dirty a plate or bowl .

I'm sure he could be cajoled into doing chores and when he's getting paid for it, he is capable. It's just sheer laziness that stops him from doing this shit at home.

If you buy him the ingredients and promise to clean the mess, he’s a decent cook. Loves spicy food but it definitely doesn't love him. (is that a british joke, i think it is)

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

He's a big baby, he just ghosts people, pretends he’s been busy. If it was a messy breakup expect to be the lyrics in a new song of his, calling you any number of nasty names. 

If you broke up with him expect some angsty shit in his lyrics. Man is going full my chemical romance asking you to come back.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I feel like he's cool with commitment, he doesn't strike me as jealous but he likes to know he has you to himself. I don't think he'd wanna get married but being able to call you “my girl/my guy/my partner” is appealing

I think he'd give you some token like a band ring or a leather jacket of his or maybe a choker or necklace? Just a little something to say you're his and he’s yours.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

I know he is pretty violent in game but outside ritual time he’s pretty chill. He likes mosh pits, walls of death and so on but in his down time he's a lax person. Being hungover a lot he prefers quiet outside performances, he moves slowly, angers slowly and speaks slowly. He is the weakest of the group so he’s not what one might call heavy handed with his touch. Emotionally he's more careless and thoughtless than outright hurtful.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Actually yeah, he's a pretty huggy person at times. Is as likely to hug fans as he is to headbutt them. Only likes hugs when he initiates them mind you. He's skinny so it's easy to give him hugs that go all the way around his body but he usually does one armed hugs with back pats. 

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Not really. He thinks love and all that other mushy stuff is a bunch of bs. If you want an i love you out of him, a drunk confession is as close as you’ll ever get. Sober? Ehh maybe after sex, the come down migh have him feeling a little softer than normal. Maybe if you said it first  he’d reciprocate it.

Dumb but sweet i can see him doing the sign language for i love you on stage, pretending its the devil horns thing instead

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Not usually. He might put on some bravado in a pub if someone were hitting on you  and wont back the fuck off , but he knows you well enough to know you wouldnt betray him like that. When he does get jealous, he gets huffy like a child. He pouts and sighs and generally throws a temper tantrum. He is only 18 afterall, he can have a little immaturity as a treat.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Sloppy, messy, all over the place. Like I said he thinks all that mushy stuff isn't for him, so if he's kissing you in public, willingly, he's likely very VERY drunk. Lotta teeth too, he is a zombie. 

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

When he was alive he was good with kids. Being nice to kids who want to touch  your spiky jacket  or mohawk is very punk. Dead? I think the smell and clown makeup scares them off.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Hungover. 

Ok fine, asleep till noon bc he's so hungover. If he’s up early it's because he was sick and now needs food and painkillers, probably washed down with a bottle of something cheap and nasty leftover from yesterday. He’d think he’d died and gone to the land beyond words if he woke up to you making him a fry. 

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

9 times out of 10 it’ll be in a club in covent garden like the 100 ( if you can get in that is). He’ll be there performing or drinking while watching his mates. Failing that, any pub that’s still open at 2am.

On rare occasions he likes to spend the night in, watching shitty movies on the sofa or playing old video games with you and josey. 

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Zed is an open book if you know how to read him. He hasn't got much emotional intelligence. If he's feeling something and he doesn't know what it will probably come out as anger whether he wants it to or not. He gets easily frustrated not being able to adequately explain himself so he likes to turn it into music. I guess he’s less of an open book and more of an open score. He doesn't ever reveal much of himself by talking, a lot of his life before the rotten world is forgotten to him. If you listen to him sing and play however, you can probably piece things together. 

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Zed has absolutely no patience whatsoever. He gets mad like a kid, flies off the handle one second and then is calm again when the thing has resolved. I don't think he gets genuinely angry very often, he's a quick to annoy slow to anger kind of person. That's not to say his annoyance is not as destructive as his anger. He will throw things that arent working at the wall, jab at his phone when it's going too slow and fume at slow walkers on the street.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

I canon he has adhd so it's not that he doesn't want to remember, he just can't. His brain is not able. It's not his fault. Sometimes he surprises you by remembering something very small but most of the time he needs to be reminded 7 or 8 times before it sticks and it will fade from memory again pretty quickly. Again, going back to music, if he writes it down in song he’s more likely to remember it permanently. He can remember lyrics to songs and your favourite music exceptionally well.

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in your relationship?)

It was the day you two met! One night he was in a mosh pit doing a wall of death  and he heard someone scream in pain. Zed respects the mosh pit rules, if someone gets really hurt everyone stops. Hes not the strongest guy but he is tall as fuck, he pushes the crowd out of the way to get to the souce of the scream, you, and helps you out of the crowd. You'd broken your arm and were a little freaked about almost being trampled to death. Ok Zed was a little pissy about his night being ruined but when the ambulance showed up to take you to hospital, he wasn't about to let you go alone. He even decorated your cast for you. I'm sure the massive middle finger can be covered with a sleeve. 

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He's a little protective of you, arm around your shoulder while you walk, wants to be the only one who lights your cigarettes, watches your drink when you go to the bathroom. His height puts most people off starting shit with him ( although it doesn't stop him from goading them) so he doesn't need much protection. Maybe he needs someone to be his impulse control and talk him down from doing dumb shit.

He's not a great sleeper, all the drink and drugs sometimes give him night terrors so i'm sure he’d appreciate you stroking his hair and back to get him over to sleep again. Maybe let him hold your hand while you take a nap together. I think it would be funny for this 6ft6 skinhead punk to hold your tiny hand because he had a bad dream. 

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Like I said he's kinda lazy, everything with him is kinda low key except maybe going to festivals? He's planning that shit a full year in advance to make sure he gets the best tickets. I think if he thought it would really upset you for him to not make a fuss, he’d try. Probably wouldn't stick the landing but if you're dating a punk rock zombie you should probably temper your expectations from weekend in vegas in a 5 star hotel to a weekend in with some fancy beer and a takeaway. 

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

As I mentioned, he's pretty lazy and kind of a slob around the house. It's organised chaos, he knows where everything is and with his adhd if he puts things away he’ll forget they exist. He hacks and spits in the streets which is pretty gross but he is a smoker and a drinker so having some phlegm is probably to be expected ( not to mention he's decaying a little) 

He is a bit of an arsonist, a lot of his apartment has burn marks on it from where he's gotten bored with a lighter. He might not torture small animals himself, but hes not above watching it online or trying to get you to watch it. He drew the line at Watership down though, that was too much for even him.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

So the nature of punk is to put a lot of effort into looking like you dont give a shit which I think is admirable. Zed has a very particular look but it is a LOT of effort and he's a lazy dick soooo. Most of his wardrobe is old shirts and vests, cropped pants and jeans with holes in them (i don't mean knee holes i mean EVERYWHERE ass included)

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Zed is a self destructive person by nature. He would never ADMIT to loving or needing you but people who know him would see a noticeable downward spiral after you left, whether that was his doing or yours. He’d be drinking more, sleeping in more, sleeping around and generally making terrible life decisions that only seem to fuck him over further. 

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Zed is dyslexic and has mild adhd. He was a bright student when he went to San romero but teachers never gave him the attention he needed to succeed, he gravitated towards music from a young age because the font of the notes was easier to read than text. He’s also pretty good at maths as long as he doesn't have to write stuff down.

Because he struggles with words, he's become great at short hand writing. It's almost incomprehensible to others but the little post it notes and writing on the back of his hand is indispensable to him. Don't be surprised if he runs out of hand space and starts writing on yours.

Because he's forgetful he often ties strings around his fingers.

Poptarts are his comfort food. God only knows why because they are sickly sweet even to him. 

He always paints his nails before a show. Black if he’s playing, the colours of the band if he's just spectating. 

Always goes to pride, no matter the weather. 

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

He doesn't like cowards, squeamish people or people who follow rules blindly. Zed is the type to break a rule just because he can but he will occasionally respect the rule of law for common sense reasons. People who follow rules to their own detriment baffle him. He hates preppy and pristine people, he has a terrible childish urge to mess them up just for shits and giggles 

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

I mentioned above he suffers from occasional night terrors. He's not the best sleeper ever after that. He had his nose broken in a mosh pit once and has snored like a jet engine ever since. He drinks too much before bed and sleeps terribly as a result. Ok it's a sound sleep but it's not restful, so he always wakes up tired. 

He's too tall for most beds, even with his hair down so he always sleeps curled up, preferably next to you with your arm around his waist. Because of his terrible posture he always has a back ache in the morning. I'd suggest yoga but he probably thinks that shit is too mainstream. 

#Zed Lollipop chainsaw #zed #lollipop chainsaw #lollypop chainsaw #zed lollypop chainsaw #headcanons #my headcanons #sfw alphabet #zed sfw alphabet #my stuff

[ihateeverything101]

this morning i'm off, i woke up at 6am purely to make breakfast for him. it's for me too but i wouldn't do this only for me. he comes downstairs from the bedroom and the first thing he says to me is, can you hang up / put away my black polo. in a tense tone. i was like yes i can do that i'm sorry. he was like it's ok. but again all in a tense or flat tone so it didn't seem ok.

i'm glad he didn't yell at me but i wish he could say, "goodmorning baby girl!! thank you for waking up on your day off to see me off to work and make breakfast for me. i didn't see my black polo in the closet, do you know where it is? no rush but i would like to have that ready to wear!!"

i've told him before too that if he wanted to be sweet there are so many things he could thank me for and it would make me feel special and happy. also, i do so much emotional and mental labor for him, taking care of a house isn't easy physically but there are a lot of steps to remember routines or things like that. but he will still get mad at me if something isn't on the correct routine, do you know how much i am doing dude???? guess fucking not. but anyways. it might be silly but if he was like thank you for doing the laundry so i don't have to worry if i have clean clothes or not. that'd make me happy. thank you for putting together the grocery list making sure we have food and snacks for the week. (he doesn't have to think or worry about getting his snacks at the store, i check if they're empty, up ur it on the list, and then buy it!! all he has to do it grab it and eat, wow so simple and easy. but there are many steps that go before that) but he fought me about this. i don't know what he said exactly but something like if you're doing the things for approval than that's not right. IGHHH ASSHOLE that's not what i'm saying. i do it because i want to take care of my partner or my house, but appreciation is nice and goes a long way. ugh. i would actually want to do more for him if i felt supported or loved or like he was pulling weight too. i LOVE taking care of people who take care of me. maybe that's selfish but jeez, i feel like i am giving everything to him and he is giving nothing but scraps to me. ramble ramble :0)

i know im not perfect either but idk. he is always talking about how my actions and energy affect other people but he doesn't look at himself. in the mornings i an very careful with my energy because i know one bad comment can throw a whole day off, even though it shouldn't. if i talk to him in the morning or have a question, i always start with a goodmorning -pet name- trying to be sweet. this isn't necessary or needed but it's nice right?? it feels like he barks commands at me and i don't enjoy it, he hasn't done it in awhile but on the weekends before when we were waking up together he wouldn't say anything and then say breakfast. or are you going to start breakfast? those aren't terrible, again i'm glad he's not slapping me awake to make breakfast but jeez. the first thing we say to each other is , breakfast. and then i roll out of bed sadly to make breakfast by myslef while he lays in bed longer talking to dumb bitches. same thing here, i've told him how much i enjoy him spending time with me when i'm in the kitchen and it makes things much mor enjoyable. doesn't matter. he never hangs out in the kitchen with me. literally never. sometimes i ask or tell him again that id really like him up there with me but he doesn't want to. he won't push himself for me.

the other day he was pissed because frozen burgers were sticking together. we have gloves we wear in the kitchen for raw meat, he only had one on and i told him maybe put a second glove on to actually pull them apart and he got mad at me and told me not to manage him or be on top of him like that. i didn't say anything else afterwards but he was just fucking those burgers up. he was letting the sides cook on the pan and i wanted to scream!!! making the edges soft while the middle is dtill frozen is only going to make it harder to come apart because you will start tearing the frozen meat away from the only cold meat. he got pissed that the burgers wouldn't come apart and he doesn't handle raw meat well, basically he was touching so many other things with his raw meat gloves. stayed quiet and at the end i told him to wash his hands because he took off the gloves and continued to touch the things he had just touched with his gloved raw meat hand. i knew it would annoy him but i'd rather annoy him than have a food illness situation. my stomach has been really upset this morning so who knows why!! anyways the point is he was like, im going to go to the store to get new ones. at first he told me to do it and i didn't want to and felt like it was stupid. wait a second and we will get these burgers apart, and now they were all ugly and mashed from him trying to get them apart. he was like fine i will go to the store and left while i tried to get the burgers apart. i ended up getting them apart but really hurt my hands and fingers doing it, he's not an abuser but he kinda is, i wouldve not pushed myself that hard to get the burgers apart but i was scared of what would happen if i couldn't get them apart. he left and was gone for 10 minutes, i got the burger apart and messaged him. he said he was coming back and then arrived home. he came back empty handed and told me he had accidentally went to the wrong store because he forgot which store the burgers were at. i was fine because we didn't need them and i thought it was stupid to go in the first place, more than anything it annoyed me thinking about if the shoes were flipped. if i went and accidentally went to the wrong store he would be PISSED!! he would be like, you need to think more and how can i trust you if you're not being mindful or can't remember things. i swear it would be a huge thing about how i'm not mindful and he would be making it bigger than it needs to be because mistakes happen. i told him that and he really didn't say anything about it, really ignored it and moved on and cooked the burgers and we didn't talk about it. it kinda pissed me off he went to the wrong store because if i made that mistake ooooh it's not a mistake. it is me being careless. asshole.

[teacup-of-whimsy]

hnnnng.

writing this feels so strange. there are some truths that when you tell people it makes them truer.

"i love you" is one.

"we're not together anymore" is another.

it's not like i haven't done this before — the whole breaking my own heart thing. it's not my first time i've unsheathed a dagger and placed it directly through the crack in my own ribs. and that has absolutely no bearing on how terrible this feels.

last time feels like a walk in a park compared to this.

how do i even explain it? to you?

"i don't love you anymore" that's just patently untrue.

"this isn't what i want" again, not true. all i want is for this to be a miraculous hail mary moment where i get to do life with you again.

"it's not you, it's me" also, not true. we both have soooo much to do with both sides of this.

so i guess what i have to rely on is subjective truths. and some of those also get more true the more you say them.

"i can't ignore the relief i feel when you're not here" because it was like feeling hot the hottest shower slide down your neck and back after a chilly walk home.

"the more i settle in here, the more i realize how out of touch with my own feelings i am." it's because i'm awake again that i can feel how long i've been asleep at the wheel.

"i have to dig myself out of the financial hole i'm in" and i won't be able to support us both while i do that.

"when things get tough, we made it through, but i'm not sure i want those to be my survival tools anymore" and i need to create peace and stability for myself to do that work. and i won't have the energy to be a good partner to anyone else in that time.

the logistics

when i look at the next 4-ish weeks of my life i want to cry, kind of? maybe? heres what we're looking at.

week 1 seven more days of sweet, sweet normalcy.

week 2 i have to book the place i'll be living for w3-6 schedule therapy sessions for every week following, if i can i will pack essentials for what i'll need for 4 weeks at the end of the week, i have to have ☠️ the conversation ☠️ rehydrate after deep, body-wracking crying sessions*

week 3 live in the place i booked in week 2 secure storage unit work and fulfill adult responsibilities keep myself fed & hydrated cry my way through thanksgiving while i eat takeout coordinate the logistics of getting my crap out of the space

week 4 move things & put into storage unit do laundry & re-pack to move out of temporary space because... i'm traveling for work for several days return from work travel to temporary stay book my travel for week 6

week 5 rest after work trip work & do adult responsibilities live in temporary stay final settling of my move out (pets, etc) still crying, for sure

week 6 last week in my temp stay clean all my clothes, repack rid myself of the crying b/c i have to be Around People ™ the following week at the end of the week, travel to my sestra's place for the rest of the year

week 7-8 *holiday noises* figure out what i want to do for january 2023 book a place to live for that time ^^

the vibe

honestly, everything after week 4 is kind of a toss-up. i have a feeling the chips may fall in a more sensible way and i won't need til week 5 to get things buttoned up. if that's the case, we may be flying fast and loose by the time holiday-ing ends. i might be on my kelly stamps shit. who the fuck knows.

my only requirements for a place to live are relative accessibility, cheap rent, and a chill vibe. i don't plan on cavorting a lot during the month of january. with everything that's going on, i plan on purely using the month of january to try and rebuild myself in all the ways i can.

#i hate it here #hope keeps me going #send help