#being bisexual is suffering

[danceintheskies]

look at my stupid idiot dipshit son i love him so much

#my horrible tsundere 33 year old gay(actually bisexual) son who doesn't fully believe in mental illness despite Definitely having ptsd #pretty boy aasimar paladin who looks like an elf prince but acts like a gas station attendant with anger issues #who lies about his age and obsesses over his looks to maintain what loose control he has over his self-esteem #men keep giving them large sums of money despite them being Very prone to binge drinking and gambling #i like him so much. pelase look at them. #my posts #gdnd2 #my art #AND HE LIKES ANIME. #oh i forgot his ring in the middle fingers pic didn't i.whoops #youguys are lucky ive been so tired and busy i havemt beenable to frantically explain my dearly beloved hot mess' stupidly extensive lore #o much of anyone besides myself (and our dm 2 years ago) #so many bad things ahve happened to him. i want him to be happy more than anything but he's not very good at enabling that for himself. so. #well okay i want him to be happy but also i want him to suffer so so so so much first. bwahahahha #matthew #<- thats his tag

[theoriginalsapphic]

Why I Believe That Byler Is Endgame (based only on what we have seen on the show). part 2

And by that, I mean: no color-coding analysis, no set props analysis, no actor interviews interpretation, no script analysis, no movies parallels analysis; nada. Only what we’ve seen on the show and nothing else.

This will use a lot of comparisons with m/leven because, despite the fact that some of you refuse to admit it, this is a love triangle.

season 3: puberty and changes

In season 1, El was found by Mike, Lucas and Dustin in the woods while searching for Will. Although the main goal of the party is to find and save Will, they also keep El safe and hidden from the laboratory and Dr. Brenner.

In season 2, Lucas and Dustin are mostly focused on Max, while, on the other hand, we see how during the whole season Mike protects Will and is showed that he has been trying to communicate with El this whole time.

mileven breakup

This is the first season in which Will and El coexist with each other in the same space, and how it affects Mike and his relationships with them. However, I want to make emphasis on the two key moments that take place this season of the two relationships: the breakup and the farewell.

The tone of the scene is unserious and carefree, with bright colors during a sunny day. The scene is not intimate; in fact, everyone reacts to El breaking up with Mike. 'Cold As Ice', a song that describes a lover who is materialistic and selfish (Mike buying a present for El instead of telling her the truth), plays in the background. Mike is left confused while El is rejoicing in the moment with Max.

The tone of the of the scene is serious and somber, with muted colors and downpouring in the background. Despite Lucas being at Mike's house as well, the scene feature only them and no one else. In the two bottom pictures, Will's expression is one of hurt and betrayal, and Mike expresses inmediate regret at the words he just said.

byler 'breakup'

She rejoices in her newfound friendship with Max.

how El reacts to her breakup

He destroys Castle Byers, a place he built with his brother after their dad left and in where he took shelter when he was trapped in the Upside Down. He looked at the place that used to make him feel emotionally and physically safe and destroyed it with a baseball bat and his bare hands.

how Will reacts to his 'breakup'

how Mike reacts to the breakups

the finale

Mike's conversation with Will

Before this episode, I was still on the fence about whether i was reading too much into it or not, but this season finale, in my opinion, confirmed that Mike probably had feelings for Will. Let me show it in images.

We know that three months had passed since the battle at Starcourt, and the Byers are moving. Even though it's not explained what happened during that period of time, it's easy to infer that Mike and Will are in somewhat good terms again.

It starts simple, with Mike askingEel if she packed her walkie and with promises of talking to her often and of whether they are going to meet each other for thanksgiving and christmas. El is about to leave, after the conversation with Mike turns awkward, but decides to turn around instead and makes their conversation serious.

Mike's conversation with El

...they kiss...

... and his face is just pure confusion. love that open closet right behind him tho

The Byers move to California, and with them, so do his girlfriend and his best friend since he was five years old; to put it simply, is a huge change in everyone's lives, but especially in Mike's life. This is one of the few times since season 3 in which we actually get to focus on mike's emotions and perspective but I believe is one of the most important moments for his characters.

Mike

#byler #will byers #mike wheeler #i forgot how angsty the whole fight and destroying castle byers scenes were #don't start a bisexual mike or gay mike debate pls #we can all agree that boy ain't straight and we can leave it at that #i think it's interesting how the part of hopper's letter about not wanting things to change focus on mike (and a bit of will) #and the part of hopper's letter about how life is constantly moving focuses on el #then the part about life being painful and sad focus on max #and the part about life being surprising and happy focus on lucas and dustin gifting erica with a d&d set #max suffers from depression/suicidal thoughts ; lucas join the basketball team ; and erica becomes a d&d nerd in s4 #i once heard someone say that gay people have the most dramatic breakups without even dating #they weren't wrong

[punkslovepoints]

obliterations everywhere (we blaze with scorching heat) Pairing: Steddie (Stranger Things)

It was girls, it had always been girls.

But then there was Steve. Steve, who stared at his lips while he spoke, who flinched like he'd been burnt when Eddie leaned into his space and whose heroism put him to shame again and again. Who made him want to be a better man. To stop running. To be worthy. To fight.

Steve was something else.

Oh shit.

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Eddie isn’t gay but lots of people make that assumption. Maybe they know something that he doesn't, because he's damned if he doesn't enjoy flirting with Steve Harrington.

Steve was pretty confident in his sexuality. He liked women. A lot. And sometimes, on the odd occasion, he liked men too. He'd decided that didn't have to mean anything though. Then he met Eddie Munson.

OR

Eddie can have a little sexuality crisis too, as a treat.

[read chapter 1/5 on AO3]

#steddie #steddie fanfiction #steddie fic #steve x eddie #eddie x steve #stranger things fanfiction #stranger things #steddie fic reccs #hey it's a fic about eddie having a sexuality crisis for a change #there are so many fics about steve's bisexual awakening that there's a whole tag for it #and i wanna see eddie suffer for a bit instead #so this fic was born #it has mutual pining and both boys being stupid about their feelings #with all the good steddie tropes #D&D! 80's References! Shotgunning! Comparing scars! Eddie plays a gig! Robin! #also eddie flirts with everyone throughout the entire fic #it's finished i just need to post the rest #so no danger in it being abandoned :) #apparently i write fic now

[cannibalisticskittles]

KYRSTEN SINEMA ISN'T RUNNING FOR REELECTION, YEE-FUCKING-HAW

#i'm ALMOST disappointed bc i helped vote her in and i was looking forward to voting someone else in and ousting her #but the most important thing is that she fucks off somewhere #i'll take anything that accomplishes that goal #god. such a colossal disappointment. #bitch honestly campaigned so hard on her being a progressive purple-haired bisexual #then pulled All Of That Shit #i don't have trust in politicians as a rule but if i did that woulda bruised it bad #as it is i've been looking at people in the running with a heavy dose of wariness #how do we know it won't be sinema 2.0 huh??? #anyway. goodbye kyrsten you will not be missed you party-flopping turtle-curtsying heeldragger. u made our lives worse and i hope u suffer.

[unkownknowledge]

I love people claiming to represent me saying my identity is a kink

#vent post #I am going to fucking murder someone. my identity is not a kink. this is not me exaggerating a well meaning thing > #a well meaning thing that I interpret as bad. I just saw a post saying that kink at pride is ok because lgbt is inherently a kink #AND THEY SAID THIS AS IF IT WAS FUCKING HELPING #LIKE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH HAVING A KINK BUT I AM NOT A GODDAMN KINK. I DO NOT BELIEVE IM TRANS BECAUSE IT'S A FUCKING KINK TO ME. #I AM NOT BISEXUAL BECAUSE IT IS A KINK. I AM A FUCKING PERSON AND I'M TIRED OF BEING WATERED DOWN TO BE ALL ABOUT SEX #BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT THIS SHIT SAYS. IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT HOW IT'S THE SAME BUT NO. I AM NOT A FUCKING KINK. WHEN THERE IS KINK SHOWN #AS THE MAIN REPRESENTATIVES FOR MY FUCKING IDENTITY IT MAKES PEOPLE THINK I AM A FUCKING KINK #I'M TIRED OF IT. IM TIRED OF EVERYONR REPRESENTING ME AS A BAD PERSON OR NOT A PERSON AT ALL #EVERYTIME I SEE ABOUT SOMEONE REPRESENTING ME THEY'RE EITHER NOT LIKE ME AT ALL OR THEY'RE REPRESENTING SOMETHING THAT I AM NOT #SIMPLY BECAUSE WE SHARE SOMETHING #THIS SHIT IS WHY MY PARENTS DONT FUCKING ACCEPT ME #NOT THE ONLY REASON. BUT THIS WATTERING DOWN THAT IT'S SOMETHING LIKE A KINK. IT SAYS TO PEOPLE THAT I CHOOSE TO BE TRANS #OR THAT I'M ONLY BI BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING SLUT(note: I am a virgin. I meant that as in thinking I WANT to be a slut) #WHEN NO #I AM JUST THAT WAY. I DID NOT CHOOSE THIS. AND WHETHER INTENDED OR NOT PEOPLE HAVE WATERED MY IDENTITY DOWN #MELTED IT TO SUIT THEIR OWN FUCKING NEEDS #AND NOW I'M SUFFERING BECAUSE PEOPLE WHO I DON'T KNOW OR EVEN LIKE DECIDED TO SPEAK FOR ME #AND THEY SAID I'M A FUCKING KINK #heavy vent

[hare-there]

In the most respectful way I'm honestly baffled by people who are only attracted to one gender. Like how??? Have you Seen Wamen????? Have you seen the wonderful himbos of the world?? What of the masterful gender 4d chess wizards????

"Just pick one"

HOW???? They're all so hot!!!!

#everyone's hot and I'm suffering #bisexual #being hopelessly bi on main #mutuals thanks for putting up with my cringe #also ace/aro people you're more powerful than I can imagine kudos to you #also I'm sorry if this reads like a 2015 era tumblr post

[heartburstings]

what r ur guys's headcanons/theories for post-bare? mine is that matt has a sexuality crisis and has a crush on peter and is like, "how soon is too soon" but inflicts catholic guilt upon himself whenever he thinks like that so he just never makes his move, esp bc like. who the hell is he going to go for advice. bc the last advice guy he had made him homophobic so.

and u think this wouldn't be an issue bc like, after they graduate, how much would they see each other actually? but surprise! there's like way too much drama surrounding ivy's pregnancy and what she should do abt it. even tho it's like. nobody's business but yk how ~society~ can be. so the group sticks together and supports her in her decisions, so like, while it's tense bc. matt's there. he's also allowed to be there bc matt's valedictorian (allegedly) straight altar boy status helps them out in reasoning/arguing with whatever rando pta adult takes issue with ivy's decision-making, even when she hasn't made a goddamn decision yet.

speaking of. matt also has "how soon is too soon"-itus with ivy. he's like, well clearly she can't stand to be in the same room w me, but :( i wuv her :( [is repressing his gay realizations]. meanwhile ivy n nadia are eating chips and casually cussing out jason's dad for trying to pressure ivy into keeping the baby as if being the father's father even matters. he's like having 3 different crises in his little chair and everyone else is just chilling and bitching. he's like "how soon is too soon... no. i don't deserve him. not after what i did. and especially not ivy. they all deserve better than me... why am i here..." just brooding in the cvs aisle while peter asks him if he's got cash on him to help pay for ivy's shit bc he's a few bucks short. lucas takes a passing glance at him one day and is like jesus christ dude you need weed so bad and matt's like haha no ty :] i'm a good catholic boy. and lucas is like ok dude but lmk if u change ur mind i'll see u later. and now matt has 1 more thing to brood about even tho he has 0 qualms abt stealing church wine

#wynn speaks #bare: a pop opera #sorry this got long can u tell he's my blorbo. can u tell he's like a pathetic wet-limp hairball to me. #matt steals church wine and is like i hope i get to share it w peter again. as if somehow they will end up dancing even tho everything's #changed and peter is literally grieving his dead bf (whose death matt feels infinite guilt and responsibility for). #he's like well more likely peter will let me know how much he fucking hates me but i remember when we danced. #but i don't deserve him... n i can never tell him...... bc of jason....... #i don't think they hate matt tho. i think they think he's an asshole but they still look out for him. #they're not gonna throw him to the wolves. they're not gonna make him go it alone after everything. #mixed feelings definitely tho. #like nadia knows that matt is forming a crush on peter while also having a crush on ivy and just lets him. #she's like lmao suffer. bitch. #but when someone inevitably accuses matt of being gay himself bc why else would he continue to be friends w and support peter #nadia squares up w them #but she'll never let him know what bisexuality is. matt's gotta learn it from someone else but it'll never be her #u kno what i'm getting at? #the post-bare fic in my mind... it is so bittersweet and everyone is trying to live. live with themselves and with each other.

[violetfaust]

It’s so funny that every character in Supernatural suffers from Winchester Derangement Syndrome.

And in real life many people (lately, especially straight men) suffer from Ackles Derangement Syndrome.

But Dean Winchester himself AND his vessel, Mr. Ackles (who consistently makes every scene in SPN more gay than scripted), suffer from Castiel Derangement Syndrome

#and I do mean suffer #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #spn #supernatural #Jensen Ackles being the bisexual awakening of every man on reddit #op

[ikkaku-of-heart]

@cptnslog asked: "I'm attracted to men but at what cost??" [ from Pengy part 2 electric boogalooo ] 𝐓𝐔𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐑 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐒 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟐

Ikkaku snorted in amusement. "Oh, you poor thing," she teased, eyes twinkling as she smiled at her shipmate. "Being attracted to men is already the cost. I speak from experience. Though, I'm also attracted to women, and I can tell ya, it's not much better on that end, either."

Relationships and even flings with their lifestyle, being wanted criminals and sailing the most dangerous ocean in the world, were tricky no matter who you were attracted to. Ordinary civilians were often too weak and got attached, leading to danger and heartbreak. Fellow pirates were their own brand of danger, especially when there was a risk of being enemies someday. Marines were just a bad idea in general unless you were sleeping with them as a ploy. And while some people could make it work, Ikkaku was of the opinion that sleeping with your shipmates brought unnecessary complications.

"So, anyone in particular that's making you suffer? Or is this just a general 'men are the worst' kind of thing?" she asked, curious. She'd give advice if she could, or just enjoy a new opportunity to tease Penguin.

#cptnslog #The Engine is the Heart of the Ship (canon) #Reckless Bird (Penguin) #Join the Hearts: We Have Uniforms #(Ikkaku suffers too Penguin but being bisexual means she suffers twice as much)

[carnivorousghouls]

Day five with no reception. Climbed to a cliff face at the beach to post this. I don’t know how much longer I can go on

#this is for me when I’m with the land of the internet again #I need to remember how I’ve suffered #my fanfiction is being left in the dust 😭😭 #please Scott pilgrim fights his inner demons (bisexuality) I love you and I haven’t forgotten you

[severalsmallwizards]

finding fic focused on wlw pairs is just a game of how many iterations of 'ship (background)' and popular m/m and m/f ships youre going to have to filter out to find something good

#oniongarden #hi good morning i am suffering badly #every time you dont tag your background pairs as being background pairs a beautiful bisexual dies horribly. #its me im the beautiful bisexual. if you even care

[h3nsh1n]

kim dokja is everything. he's just some guy. he's the kindest person in the world. he's Jesus Christ. he's also Sun Wukong somehow. he's the personification of love as a force that powers reality. he died for our sins. he's a demon. he's an angel. he's suicidal. he's the more important being in the universe. he could be anyone. he's an inconceivable existence that expands along countless of world lines. he's a nerd. he's a concept. he's just some strings of text badly tied together. he's also the prince of the greek underworld. he was bullied in high school. he's an analogy for all the suffering in the world and also everything that is human and worth saving (but there's nothing in this reality that is not worth saving and everything deserves to be loved). he's a god. he's the sacrificial lamb. he's a yaoi man. he's an eldricth horror. he's ugly. he's your friend and also he's you. he's a very complicated anti-suicide metaphor. he's adorable. he's repressed and depressed. he has ptsd. he's the father of various human and non human entities and also the son of various human and non human entities. he's an office worker. he's simultaneously loved and hated by all the universe. he's a gary stu. he's bisexual. he's a murderer and also the most tragic victim of the irrepressible machine of universal suffering. he's a lover. he's a fox boy. he likes isekai novels.

#kim dokja #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #truly a character of all time

[codthefishgod]

To all the people who think aspec people aren't LGBTQIA+ because we aren't "discriminated against enough", here's a lovely list of reasons why you need to educate yourself:

- We suffer from dehumanisation, people actively devaluing or even erasing our humanity because of our identities (The voidpunk community is heavily supported by aspec people because of this)

- We suffer from self hatred due to feeling as if and being told we are broken, that no one can be happy unless they're in a romantic/sexual relationship, because of allonormativity and amatonormativity that actively damages our mental health

- Amatonormativity shapes laws that put us at an active disadvantage, such as giving married people financial and legal benefits

- Aspec people have been victims of conversion therapy, correctional rape, a lower quality of life, and other effects of being a marginalised and oppressed group

- We suffer from our identities being pathologised and deal with medical stigma because of this, causing many of us to feel unwelcome in and even avoid health care settings

- We suffer from our identities being erased, which can range from people completely denying our existence and people equating it to celibacy, to an almost complete absence of aspec representation in the media (It's been getting better lately, especially for alloaces and aroaces, but I have yet to ever see a canon aroallo character, and representation for those on the spectrum rather than in the extremes is often ignored)

- YOU are creating a hateful, exclusionary space in a community meant to be about inclusion. The same thing that happens to us happens to bisexual people, to polyamorous people, and other identities that are "disputed." In a community meant to be about rejecting the norm, YOU are shoving us out because we don't fit the norm of being LGBTQIA+. Because we're not enough like you.

These are only a few examples of aphobia that people like me deal with. Discrimination and oppression against aspec people stretches far beyond this.

But even if it didn't, it is disrespectful and harmful to everyone involved to gatekeep membership in the community based on oppression and discrimination.

We aren't LGBTQIA+ because we experience oppression. We are LGBTQIA+ because our existence alone goes against heteronormativity and other societal norms forced upon us.

#lgbtq #lgbtqia #aromantic #asexual #aromanticism #asexuality #ace #aro #aspec rights #aspec #aro pride #aroace #arospec #ace pride #ace rights #acespec #aro rights #this has been a psa #psa #information #important psa #aroaceprideispridetoo #we are enough #allonormativity #amatonormativity #discrimination #aspec discrimination #oppression #inclusion #educate yourself