#benzaiten steel

[brandonwashere]

Thinking about how Juno knew that his mother was not going to get better. Think about how Juno knew that in someway he or Ben would be hurt in some irreparable way. Thinking about how Juno was waiting for the next shoe to drop. Thinking about how Juno tried his hardest to convince Ben to get out of the house. Thinking about how Juno finally had to come to terms with the fact that Ben’s death wasn’t his fault and something still would have happened even if he tried his hardest to prevent it.

#I’ve been thinking about the Steel family a lot #sarah steel #juno steel #benzaiten steel #Juno steel tpp #tpp #the penumbra podcast #the penumbra fandom

[manyfandomsonelog]

It’s like. The kind of meta tragedy of Monster’s Reflection is that we get introduced to this wonderful, lovable character who has such a fun relationship with Juno and who we’ve wondered about for so long and who there’s so much we could learn about… but we know he’s dead. We only get to have Benzaiten Steel for one episode, we only get to understand the part of Juno that’s missing in the scope of that time, get to understand how every part of Juno’s personality is balanced by his twin, and then… we don’t get any more. It really puts the listener in Juno’s shoes because we can feel that ticking clock just as much as he can, we want Benten to stay, we want to see more of him, we want Juno to get the chance to talk to him more, because Juno clearly misses him so much, but when the episode ends, that’s all we get of Benzaiten Steel. And it’s so PAINFUL because we fall in love with this character and then he’s ripped away from us just as quickly as we’re introduced to him. Just like he was ripped away from Juno. And we’re always going to want more Benten but the truth is that there’s an intentionality in the fact that we only get to see him once.

#hi. I re-listened to Monster’s Reflection yesterday and now I miss him #benzaiten steel #tpp

[pyrocephalus-rubinus]

I am just obsessed with the recurring themes of our lives as stories in the Junoverse.

Alessandra Strong reminding us that there are no Happy Endings in real life, only Happy Middles.

Juno being reminded that stories are a way humans have of trying to frame our lives in a way that makes sense, but real life is not that simple. In the reminder that you might want to become the villain in a story to make sense of it but maybe sometimes little kids who live in Oldtown die and no matter how much you blame yourself, it is just not that simple.

In the way Sarah Steel got her story stolen away from her. Andromeda's story, yes, but also her story. And how she couldn't deal with that.

How Juno tried to rebuild a story to survive, with him as a hero as much as he was embarrassed to admit it. And with the part of Sarah Steel pumping through his veins as the ultimate enemy. An epic of heroes and monsters. The way his life was not a simple story in which there was One Clue that would explain everything, One Answer from Ben that would make sense of it all.

The way Juno got robbed of his story by Ramses. Made all those sacrifices, those actions that felt heavy on his shoulders for a plotline that didn't exist. The plot twist was the unraveling of the story, leaving only pain and sadness behind. The way Juno was able to overcome that. To start a new story, to do with his life as he saw fit.

I also love the reminder that we do need stories like Mick's to keep us hopeful. To gather strength to face the big mean world. The acceptance of how useful and sacred the tool of "stories" is.

The way dreams - stories- like having a life of adventure among the stars with the one you love, or like having a home in a city that means death but also hope to you… that those are also necessary. But we can't live in a dream. And the dreams may pass, but it's okay that we dreamed them.

The way Juno could recognize the brutality of stealing Nureyev's story away from the thief. The cruelness of it. How he could sense it coming, looming from that door. How afraid he was for Nureyev.

The way Nureyev's only way of coping all these years has been telling himself a story over and over again. A story of martyrdom. A story of devotion… In order to keep Juno away and not succumb to the desperation to be next to someone he loves and feels like he doesn't deserve, he has been telling himself this story. This lie of how Juno would be better off away from him. How Juno would never understand the sacredness of his life's work.

All these stories, all these versions of what's going on… All these precious lives being used as little clogs of an infernal machine that does not care for stories. Only results and getting richer and richer…

Just ugh… this podcast…

#tpp #the penumbra podcast #the penumbra podcast spoilers #tpp spoilers #tpp season 5 #tpp s5 spoilers #tpp season 5 spoilers #just me rambling again #im just so normal about this #juno steel #junoverse #peter nureyev #benzaiten steel #sarah steel

[choofs]

hello tpp tumblr!! i’ve recently endeavored to try and understand how personality quizzes are made and spent a while putting this one together!

it would be really cool if you could take a moment to do it, and maybe even let me know what you think!

#tpp #the penumbra podcast #junoverse #juno steel #sasha wires #mick mercury #rita #jet siquliak #buddy aurinko #vespa ilkay #ruby 7 #peter nureyev #benzaiten steel #m’tendere #uquiz

[scarlettrust]

Ben was wearing his favourite shirt.

it wasn’t anything special; a white crew neck gone soft with a thousand washes, with yellow flowers embroidered over a useless pocket. But it made him smile every time he wore it. A smile that only appeared when Benten stood in front of the mirror- soft, and entirely for him as he smoothed out invisible wrinkles, turning to see how the lines fell on his lean frame

Ben was wearing his favourite shirt, the day Juno visited home.

it was the first thing he always reached for once the laundry was folded and put away. It was just a shirt, but it always put a skip in his step —cheeks dimpled and eyes shining. Any day he wore it would be a good one, because Ben had decided it would be. a good luck charm made of worn cotton and yellow thread. It had been his favourite since the day Juno had bought it for him, all those years ago.

Ben was wearing his favourite shirt, the day he died.

And Juno wished he could think about anything else.

#the penumbra podcast #tpp #Juno steel #Benzaiten steel #angst #scarlet scribbles

[hyperfixssession]

Listen was some of the shit Sarah Steel did unforgivable? Fuck yeah. Do I understand her in a way that makes my bones ache in a deep and horrible way? Fuck yeah.

#ramses when I catch you #WHEN I FUCKING CATCH YOU RAMSES #sarah steel #juno steel #benzaiten steel #the penumbra podcast #tpp

[ananxiousgenz]

just read through the monster's reflection transcripts for some research and on an unrelated note i am now crying thinking about benten and juno

#THEY HAD SUCH A GOOD DYNAMIC #like as someone with a younger sibling that is literally the most accurate sibling dynamic i've ever seen portrayed in media #like the sudden transition from bickering about something random to having deep conversations back to inside jokes? #that is Sibling Behavior #AND NOT JUST THAT #juno finally facing his trauma with his brother's help!! #learning that benten stayed because even after all the shit sarah pulled he still saw her humanity and forgave her!! #he was so kind and gentle and such a troublemaker and he didn't deserve the fate he got handed #i can't relisten to these episodes bc if i do i will start thinking about my sibling and then i will just absolutely lose it #the penumbra podcast #tpp #junoverse #juno steel #benzaiten steel

[yourlocalspacecryptid]

can you draw juno and benten? :))

Wow what nice brothers! Sure hope nothing horrible and tragic happens to them

#Also teen Juno has a mullet bc idk he deserves it #the penumbra podcast #the penumbra fandom #tpp #junoverse #juno steel #benzaiten steel

[urjover]

IT’S BENTEN’S BIRTHDAY🔊🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🔊‼️‼️‼️‼️🔊🗣️🗣️🗣️🔊‼️🗣️🗣️‼️🗣️🗣️🔊🗣️🔊🔊🔊🗣️ HAPPY 41 (??) KING

#the penumbra podcast #tpp #juno steel #benzaiten steel

[titular-twins-tournament]

#TTT polls #sanders sides #roman sanders #remus sanders #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #benzaiten steel #group a #round 2 #a2

[brandonwashere]

The fact that Juno and Ben were each others first person they met, the one they spent everyday with, the one they shared their birthday with, the one they shared most experiences with, and the fact that Juno was probably the last thing on Benzaiten’s mind before he died and how Benzaiten is always thought about by Juno

#the penumbra podcast #tpp #benzaiten steel #juno steel #junoverse #juno steel tpp #juno steel spoilers #tpp juno #this is kinda worded badly but it’s whatever

[manyfandomsonelog]

Me when. When “Benten” plays on the Juno Steel Season 2 Soundtrack

#AGAJNSDNDHDHDJDMDNJFKDMDNDJDNDMDNDJDKDMDNDBSJDNDJSBS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #SOBSSSSSSSSS SOBS FORRVER AND EVER #tpp #benzaiten steel #log’s logs

[ddoe-eyes]

mildly obsessed w the steel twins and the kanagawa twins as foils

#the penumbra podcast #juno steel #benzaiten steel #cassandra kanagawa #cecil kanagawa #I’d pull transcript parallels if it wasn’t the middle of the night #also kinda convinced that cass and cecil like juno so much partly out of morbid fascination of seeing someone who lost their twin #maya.txt #extra analysis in the notes

[seratlantisite]

this was for a penumbra mini bang anastasia au a while back. juno was anya and nureyev was dimitri, and juno finally opened up to nureyev and told him the only memory he had from his past - of a face identical to his own telling him to run. the fic was never published which was a shame but i was really proud of this art so i finally fixed the gif.

[image id: three digital images. the first is a drawn gif. it shows someone's hand resting on a porthole window looking out in to space. there are shadows on the wall beside it, and reflections in the glass of two people. the first is the owner of the hand, juno, with tears running down his face as he looks sadly to the side. behind him stands nureyev, watching him. their reflection fades out and in fades a younger boy who otherwise looks like juno, reaching for him with a scared expression. the spectre fades out as the reflection fades back in. the second image is a still of the spectre, and the third is a still of the reflection. end id]

#enjoy! #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #peter nureyev #benzaiten steel #jupeter #penumbra au #art of mine

[ghostinatophat]

That one “Mama’s boy” song that’s popular on tiktok rn but Juno and Ben Steel

#the penumbra podcast #juno steel #the penumbra fandom #peter nureyev #tpp juno #tpp #benzaiten steel #junoverse

[nureyevs-worst-alias]

Juno Steel sees his dead brother for the first time in 20 years and the first thing he does is argue and if that's not siblings then I don't know what is

#juno steel #benzaiten steel #the penumbra podcast #peter nureyev #rita penumbra #junoverse #mick murcury #mick penumbra #the penumbra #the penumbra fandom #hyperion city #nureyev #the penumbra spoilers #the penumbra concierge #rita tpp #tpp peter #tpp season 4 #tpp season 3