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It is day 7? 8? of community quarantine and I am losing my sanity.

I kinda don’t want to keep thinking about work anymore. I know my work is perfect for working at home, but home isn’t really the perfect workplace. I can’t escape work either because my bosses ask for daily accomplishment reports (and I cannot, for the life of me, lie even when they have no way of confirming).

On top of that, I have not been paid yet for the past 3 weeks worth of work that I’ve been doing. And I’m guessing I won’t be paid until this quarantine is over–which makes me not want to work even more. I don’t know. 

On the plus side, this is probably going to be the longest “vacation” I will have had since graduating from uni. This is literally the perfect time to work on my other skills or spend time doing things I love, but I just cannot get myself to move knowing I have work to do. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just whining. 

R.  

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You’d think in over two decades that I’ve been on this world I would’ve gotten used to that by now but nah. 

I’m surprised by how attached I am to these people who I’ve only known for less than two months. I don’t want them to leave but they have (and want) to. I’m happy for them but I’m sad about the leaving.

In connection to that, I think I’ve been having a sorta kinda crush on this one girl and didn’t really know it until she had to leave. I’ve been thinking about it for the better part of this week. I slept last night thinking about her and woke up thinking about her first thing in the morning. I don’t even know her that well. I’m not sure if it’s just a psychological thing where I’m craving for a connection and latch onto the first person who I can envision having that connection with. I’m honestly so confused. I hope I can still see her around, but the chances are low because she’s not from around here. 

Lately I’ve been trying this thing where I listen to what the universe is trying to tell me, but I don’t want to listen to this one. It’s confusing and it kinda hurts. 

Anyway, that’s all for now. Even more drama in the office these days. Will get to that next time.

R.

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…and it’s right where I work.

After my last entry, I got even sicker despite having taken meds for a week so I had to go to the doctor again and get re-evaluated. I had a bacterial infection and had to take antibiotics, so I ended up not going to the weekend work trip (which is a Good Thing). 

All of that was about two or three weeks ago, and up to this moment my throat still isn’t completely healed. I still cough from time to time and my throat is more irritable than ever and needless to say I Am Worried For My Health. (In addition, big boss received a letter of complaint from the office next to ours regarding the negative effect of the laboratory on our health. Big boss refuses to do anything about it.)

I learned so many more things about the office than I previously did. Fortunately, nothing bad happened to me yet. My co-workers and I all agree that we seem to be living in a reality TV show with all the drama going on. I’m having fun except I am also a little bit angry about all the injustice lol.

Will write more next time when I’m no longer busy. Still need to do house stuff on the weekend after all the work stuff during the weekdays. Life is wack.

R.

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Harry Potter has to go into the lake and find his Wheezy. Find my what? And take his Wheezy back from the merpeople! What’s a Wheezy? Your Wheezy, sir, your Wheezy — Wheezy who is giving Dobby his jumper! Dobby plucked at the shrunken maroon sweater he was now wearing over his shorts. What? Harry gasped. They’ve got… they’ve got Ron? The thing Harry Potter will miss the most, sir! 

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Except it’s more physically taxing than mentally taxing. 

I worked for approximately 9 hours today, and I didn’t even do much – I just had to familiarize myself with the tasks that are assigned to me (and others, we take turns) by doing each task at least once. I only had to do two tasks today. The first one consisted of encoding data to a spreadsheet, and the second one consisted of photographing specimens. I know what you’re thinking. They are easy tasks, especially the first one where all I basically have to do is sit down and type. 

BUT the second task though! It’s somewhat frustrating because they had this portable photo studio mounted on a desk. And to be able to place the specimen into the studio I had to stand up on the desk chair, put the specimen in the studio, and then climb back down to take the picture. I did that for maybe 50 times today. It doesn’t sound like a lot but for the past 5 or so years of my life I only had to work (or study) an average 5 hours a day. My feet are sore.

The good news is that my brain isn’t fried (at least not yet). I didn’t really have to think much today, which is cool because I don’t like to think much. But tomorrow we’re supposed to look at the code and structure of the databases and websites, and we might also start coding as well, so I’m a little bit worried about that. I feel like I no longer know how to code. 

Pray for me (to whoever, I’m not picky about gods or goddesses).

R.

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My hands are glued to my phone

No, it’s not, but I’ve been on my phone for the most part of the day and I Cannot Stop.

I’ve still been watching Wynonna Earp, and enjoying it for the most part. It’s very interesting to see how much things can go wrong in a universe where demons, supernaturals, and magical guns exist. And Waverly Earp is the babiest baby (but she is still a Badass™ do not get me wrong).

Twitter’s been entertaining the past few days. It was fun watching a desperate Justin Bieber ask his fans to take him to #1 in the charts. And then earlier today Halsey released her song You should be sad and a few hours later it has surpassed JB’s song in the iTunes charts. We love to see it.

Anyway, I should really be studying (yes, for work) but sadly I am no longer in college and therefore no longer bound to the Guilt™ that comes with watching too many shows and reading too many books.

P.S. I might be regretting making another Twitter account where I just follow creators (mostly authors). They have too many sane and sensible things to say and my mind was not ready a.k.a accustomed to mindless memes.

I start work day after tomorrow. Diving in head first.

Ciao,

R.

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Work and other things I don’t understand

So two days ago I went to a job interview and it went well.

I kind of expected it to go well, not because I’m very confident in my skills but because one of my bosses is actually my college adviser and she basically offered me the job. But anyway, I will be starting my three-day orientation on Monday, which is three days away. Am I nervous? Kind of. Do I know what I’m doing? Hell no. Am I going to dive into it head first anyway? Yes, definitely yes. I feel like I’ve done too many things and made so many mistakes that at this point I’m never too worried anymore. It might be a bad thing, it might not, but I don’t care.

In other news, yesterday while I was out running errands a thought occurred to me: I am basically a big buff dude stuck inside a small little girl’s body. I don’t know why it makes sense, but it does. I will never be the big buff dude I wanna be even after years of going to the gym and lifting weights. The truth of the matter is I am under five feet, with big boobs, and curves, and everything I don’t like. And hello, dysphoria, my old friend.

Anyway, that’s that on that. Been busy watching movies and Wynonna Earp.

Later,

R.

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And also on her girlfriend Casey ‘Newton’ Gardner.

Here’s a very short update on what I’ve been doing since the new year:

I finished reading one book, which means I’m one book down and 11 more to go on my 2020 reading challenge. It does feel like cheating because I started the book around July of last year, but meh. 

I might have binged Atypical from season 1 all the way to season 3 and slept a cumulative total of 3 hours during said binge. It was worth it, except for the fact that now I have to wait for an indefinite amount of time for season 4. 

I kinda want a repeat of the ‘Yoko Ono’ scene except they kiss at the end. 

That is all. 

R.

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It’s been two weeks since the last day of college.

I am bored out of my mind, but also anxious and sort-of feeling a little, tiny, weensy bit lazy. I forgot to mention that I applied for a job as a research assistant within the same university I went to and the interview is yet to happen (my adviser said January). So there’s that to look forward to. I’m honestly not all that excited about it. It would require me to do all kinds of field work and I’m really not cut out for that life. I think the only reason why I’m deciding to push through with this is that it’s a decent first job and I won’t be away from the people I already know. I know it’s not completely out of my comfort zone but it’s still a new thing and I still consider it a win.

Anyway, I’ve watched about three different crime docuseries on Netflix and I’m about to finish my 8th book this year. I was going for 12 books, but that didn’t work out. It’s understandable, I was busy with academics. I’m still hoping I could finish a 9th book before this year ends though.

This is a really short update. I haven’t been doing anything lately. I miss the gym so much. I’m getting really fat.

R.

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I recently went out with a few friends of mine and ended up not having that much fun because of dysphoria. 

I don’t think I ever talked about my being non-binary on this blog ever, and it’s not because of a lack of problems or concerns or struggles. Being non-binary is the most un-explainable thing I have ever been / experienced / felt. I just know in my heart that I am who I am and that I feel the way I feel even though sometimes one or both of those can’t be explained in words. I’ve known that I’m non-binary for about three years now; prior to that, I just identified as a cis lesbian because that’s what I looked to be like and that’s what I (and everybody else) thought I was.

The way I found out that I’m actually not a cis lesbian but a non-binary person I had been watching this person on YouTube talk about their struggles as non-binary and how they came to know how they are non-binary. At that point I’d watched countless of other YouTubers tell their own stories about being gay, bisexual, trans, non-binary, or other, but this specific video was really the one that made me have that “Oh shit, I’m non-binary.” moment. The way they talked about their insecurities about the way they look, not looking like how they’re supposed to look in their head, having thoughts similar to mine, having feelings and experiences similar to mine, it was like I suddenly found the missing puzzle piece I didn’t even know I was looking for. 

A lot of things went a lot easier after that – and a lot of things also went a lot difficult. It became easier to tell other people about myself now that I know what I am, but it’s difficult to vocalize my struggles especially when I’m surrounded by people who grew up in a hetero-normative society. It became easier to be who I am and act who I am around my parents but it’s difficult to explain why I want my breasts removed. It’s easier to know what kind of romantic partner I’m looking for but it’s difficult to explain to friends why I haven’t found (or not actively looking for) said partner yet. 

Most of the time it’s just difficult to get out of the house. It’s difficult choosing which clothes to wear so I could hide my curves better. It’s frustrating to think maybe I just need to lose weight so I could shed off all my exaggerated curves. It’s absolutely fucking exhausting to wantno, need to wear a chest binder every time I go out. And I know that not all non-binary people have this same struggle, but it’s frustrating that I am not one of those people. I wish I could be okay with how I look, but I’m not and probably won’t be for a long while. 

Anyway, whatever, I’m done talking about this. 

‘Til next time,

R.

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Well, this is embarrassing. 

Remember when I said that I’d get back on track and be all productive again? Yeah, that didn’t happen. I’m still as unproductive as ever, except now I’m not so rattled because I’ve been doing just okay in uni and there’s like a month left. Don’t get me wrong, I have a lot of things to do (papers, projects, reports), I’m just not as bothered as I was a month ago. I’ve been here before. I will crawl the rest of this semester if I have to.

Anyway, I finished reading one (1) book since my last blog entry. It wasn’t even on my reading list. I just picked up a book in the library, read a few chapters, got hooked so I downloaded the eBook off of the internet. Two weeks later I finished the book. As a science nerd, I found the book really, really interesting. My book review is already up at my review blog. But despite all that, I’m still three books behind schedule (well, not schedule, it’s the challenge I set for myself: to read 12 books this year). I want to catch up but then I’d feel guilty for not focusing more on my academics. 

About the sweets thing, I managed to avoid sweets for the most part. I ate a slice of cake yesterday because it’s chocolate cake, how can I refuse? And then just a few hours ago I had a sandwich with chocolate spread which I only ate because I wanted to try the chocolate spread, I swear. Other than that, I managed to cut off my almost-everyday peanut butter and/or chocolate spread binge and my buying-dessert-after-lunch habit at school. No, I didn’t lose a lot of weight (I think I lost like a kilogram).

Lastly, I wanted to mention that I started writing some fan fiction for this fandom I’m a part of. I’ve published two works on AO3, and I have a couple in the works (which I haven’t worked on for about a week or so now). My first kudos and first comment felt really good. 

That’s all I have for you for today. Have a nice rest of the day!

R

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Hey, I’m back from the dead.

I let myself go too far down the rabbit hole. I’m not proud of it. I’m currently trying to climb back up. I think I’m doing well; in fact, I pre-planned my day today. I have four main blocks:

(a) the morning block, which consists of eating breakfast, washing the dishes, folding the laundry, and taking a bath;

(b) the Math block, which consists of studying a chapter that I (and three other people) am supposed to present to class on Wednesday;

© the Social Science block, which consists of reading a material for next meeting’s discussion; and lastly,

(d) the Computer Science block, which consists of working on my project for class.

See? I still know how to schedule my day. There are breaks in between those blocks, of course, for meals and stuff (namely, social media surfing and other things I do for leisure). Anyway, it is currently two in the afternoon and I am finished with the morning block and the Math block. That leaves me the Social Science block and the Computer Science block for the rest of the day. This is going well, I trust the process. Let’s just hope my time assessment skill is accurate.

Let’s get back to the race. See you at the finish line!

R.

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Lately I’ve been very iffy about my academics; specifically, about actually doing all the homeworks and the papers. 

This is bad—real bad. I am losing motivation to study. But don’t get me wrong, I love to learn new things and I like to listen to the lecture during class. It’s the requirements I’m having a problem with. And I’ve had this problem before. I know that the solution is time management. I just… don’t want to do it anymore. 

Again, this is bad. Maybe this is just a bump in the road (at least, I’m hoping that it’s just that) and maybe I’ll get back to the daily grind soon. I know that this will be a crucial time for me; it’s sort of a ‘make it or break it’ situation, I guess. I can let this go on for longer and I’ll eventually revert back to my old lazy self or I can force myself to just do it right now and get back on getting that bread. We shall see.

I’m honestly only writing this because I have an exam tomorrow and I’m very good at procrastinating. To be completely honest, I don’t even need to review. I’m actually doing pretty good at the subject. But not reviewing makes me feel like I’m falling behind. I don’t know. Maybe it’s my subconscious telling me I actually need to review. 

Anyway, ‘til next time (when I feel like procrastinating again). 

Adios,

R.

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Okay, there’s really only one reason why I haven’t been writing much. It’s because I sorta kinda maybe got addicted to a certain WLW pairing and I’m sorta kinda maybe spending all my free time tweeting and blogging about them. I know it’s nothing to be proud of, but collectively the fandom has achieved so much. I am proud of us, but I’m definitely not proud that I let this fangirling thing get in the way of my schooling (I know I haven’t been reading any of my assigned readings). 

But I swear I got more out of it than I lost. Firstly, I met new friends (internet friends, but friends nonetheless). Three months ago, my twitter account was lifeless. Nobody really talked to me because I wasn’t in any single fandom; I was anywhere and everywhere. But now I talk to so many different people about so many different things, and it feels nice to have some internet friends for once. (Hey, not that I don’t appreciate my irl friends. It’s just that, with internet friends I feel that there’s less expectation, like showing up.)

Secondly, being in this fandom has kind of gotten me outside my shell a little bit. I don’t usually share so much of my life with people I haven’t met in person, and I’m not nearly as goofy with them as I am with my friends irl. I don’t know. It feels like I re-learned how to communicate with people that aren’t my long-time friends. 

Lastly, I’m actually genuinely spending more time reading the books I said I would read. I met (well, online) this person who reads books I read (I haven’t met a single person who reads the same books I do) and we talk a lot about them. It’s nice having somebody to talk to about these books. It motivates me to read more. And even though it’s technically leisure reading, I consider this a plus because I’ve been trying so hard to achieve my 2019 goal of reading 12 books. I’m a couple books behind. 

 Anyway, that’s that. I can’t really promise that I won’t be spending any more time fangirling about this certain pairing, but I can promise that from now on I will be more mindful about my time and that I won’t push aside my academics. Wish me luck on that promise, I might need it. 

Cheers,

R.

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