#besties beloveds idk if this makes the most sense or if ive just gone mad a few days into hiatus

[buttercupbuck]

“shouldn't it be when you're at your worst, they're at their worst, you have every reason to give up, and you still decide you want to try again?”

[image description: six large gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from various episodes of season 5 of 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 5 episode 4. out on his balcony, buck sits and looks at eddie (offscreen) as eddie says, “you’re the guy who likes to fix things. but maybe this isn’t something you can fix.”

gif 2: from season 5 episode 11. standing in his kitchen, eddie tells buck, “buck, you need to move on.”

gif 3: from season 5 episode 13. offscreen, buck asks, “okay. well, what are you afraid of?” eddie answers, “that i’m never gonna feel normal again.” his face is red and wet with tears.

gif 4: from season 5 episode 14. eddie walks into his dining room, where buck is packing away christopher’s school supplies. buck looks up at him and smiles as he enters.

gif 5: from season 5 episode 14. at the equestrian center, eddie breaks into a small smile as he watches charlie.

gif 6: from season 5 episode 18. buck and eddie work on repairing eddie’s bedroom wall. buck says, “yeah, yeah, i know. i’m the guy that always wants to fix everything.” the camera shifts from buck to eddie as eddie argues, “hey, comes in handy when you have a bunch of holes in your wall.”

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#eddie diaz #evan buckley #buck x eddie #buddie #911 on fox #911 fox #9-1-1 #911 #911edit #besties beloveds idk if this makes the most sense or if ive just gone mad a few days into hiatus #but idk. idk! #it's not about buck fixing him and yeehaw he's all cured now #more than it is eddie seeing himself as this almost hopeless cause and not being able to conceptualize another way for him #and eddie maybe not finding himself worth the effort he knows buck would put into him #but for all he pushes buck away buck breaks down his door and meets him with hope and love and support #and eddie lets him! eddie lets himself be loved in this way #and then he gives it back to buck in this moment where he's so sure he's just this nuisance to everyone in his life #like. idk! i literally do not know #alicia edits