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dreamutual-moved3 years ago
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#sitting here tonight full of love folks! 馃槍馃挒馃挒馃挒馃挒#i told them this like 2 days after we started dating but that hehehe ryan vine is me whenver i get聽 notif from noah sdkjfhkjdhfkjs#hello 911 why is my gf so funny n beautiful#theyre out w friends n keep sending me snaps i cant stop giggling#real homophobic how we're halfway across th world! i wanna hang out w my gf wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyways i say this constantly too but like damn! im so lucky!!!!!!!!!!#mmhgfhfgj not 2 b gay but they really are my whole sun whenever i think of them my heart like Swells n just.....Warm#i just!!!!!!!!!! really adore them w my whole heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#thinking back is so funny bc there are so many times that i just sorta accepted they would never like me back n i was fully content just#being their friend..........if u had told me like months ago this is reality i would Not have believed u one bit#damn im rly out here tearing up huh................#oof they make me so happy!!!!!!!!!#cant wait 2 actually see them n hold their hand some day#cant stop thinking abt this one thing they told me..............i nearly Died. like mdjfghdkjfhgd i think abt it constantly n tear up!!!!!!#noah if ur wondering its what u said when u were on ur way to ikea idk if u remember but like i Felt that i rly almost cried at work dskdjh#me whnever i see any post or notif from noah: thats my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my angel! my fuckgin cinnamon apple!!!!!!!!!!!!!#this sure is one big ol sappy post huh..............big love hours in this house!#el.txt
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mytwilightimagines1328 days ago
Hello hunny, I love your prompt lists! This is the first request of 4 馃槀
Please can I have Demetri Possessive/Scary Prompts; 2, 3, 18 & 19?
Thank you xx
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Promptlist: 2. 鈥淵ou will never get away from me!鈥 3. 鈥淚 will cherish you, as your body and soul belong to me.鈥 18. 鈥淲hy did you run from me?鈥 19. 鈥淚 am the predator and you, my sweet, are my prey.鈥
Green trees flashed before my eyes as my feet carried me as fast as they could away from the castle. Normally I would have enjoyed a stroll or run through the beautiful nature the Italian scene held, but not today. Not when I knew he was coming for me. I had messed up. Big time. All I had wanted was a little bit of freedom, just a smidge of fresh air, new people around me. Actual humans to interact with, instead of living statues who had been around for thousands of years. I had tried so ease the thought into his head, but Demetri was completely paranoid. The thought of me stepping as much as one food outside of the safe box he calls our room was absolutely preposterous in his mind. I had even promised him he could change me within the month instead of the initial plan of the day of my 27th birthday. But no, he loved me as a human, yet he was paranoid something or someone would harm me, as I was human. He loved the power he had over me, a power he would surely lose when I became his equal in strength and speed. I still head the words he shouted at me before slamming the doors shut after our last argument. 鈥淵ou will never get away from me!鈥 the words still send shivers down my spine. Maybe this would only anger him further, but at least I have seen something else besides dull walls that seemed to enclose me with every breath I take. 鈥淥h, Micetta! You have done a very, very dumb thing.鈥 I heard his sugary sweet voice. The voice he also used the first night we met to lure me in. How foolish I was. 鈥淵ou cannot outrun me. I am the predator and you, my sweet, are my prey.鈥 he purred as I his underneath the roots of a tree that seemed to be ripped from the ground. I tried desperately to keep my breathing and frantic heartbeat under control. Hoping his super hearing would not pick it up over the sound of the heartbeats of other animals. But to no avail. The once lively forest became eerily quiet as Demetri prowled towards me. Every living being, big and small, knew he was the most dangerous predator, and none of them would be waiting around to see if he was on the hunt for them or not. Not that any creature in this forest had to worry, as his only prey was me. Foolish, little ol鈥 me. Strong arms wrapped themselves around me tightly, pulling me close to a stone hard chest. 鈥淕ot you! Silly girl, what are you doing out here all alone? Don't you know it is dangerous?鈥 he purred sweetly in my ears as I felt the tears of defeat build up in my eyes. 鈥淧lease, Demetri. Please let me go.鈥 I pleaded. Demetri's face seemed to show true pain as his voice cracked. 鈥淲hy did you run from me?鈥 the hurt in his voice seemed so real. But I knew better. He was simply playing his favourite little game with me. 鈥淭he castle is suffocating me. I need some freedom. Please Demetri.鈥 鈥淪hht, Micetta. You don't have to go anywhere. I am here for you. I will cherish you, as your body and soul belong to me. You know that. So, no more silly games my silly little girl.鈥 he picked me up and cradled me close to his chest as he sped through the green forest back to the castle. Back to my prison.
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jojo-reader-hell6 months ago
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You think she didn鈥檛 notice you staring at them? Staring with those big ol eyes?
Wrongo bucko.
You stared in class at them. Stared when they walked out of the school building, stared when she showered her handmade gifts on him. It was nauseating.
The smell of infidelity, it was something she could get a whiff of in the air like a beagle locked on the scent of butthole balloon cocaine at a TSA checkpoint. Be it if Koichi had a new love interest, or someone was interested in him. Not something someone as paranoid as her would be able to miss even if there were thousands of life鈥檚 distractions to put her off the scent. She caught you the first time when she had finally invited Koichi to a cozy little cafe setting, waltzing on by like you didn鈥檛 follow him part of the way and glance longingly at their love. She wasn鈥檛 fucking stupid. Yukako knew what a longing glance was, and she was going to wring your neck out for it.
Every single time she caught you staring you ran, face turning red as a beet as you scurried away from the scene. At one moment she got so caught up in Koichi鈥檚 hesitation that she spilled her coffee and screamed at him.
She also decided after that date and confession got tainted that she was going to slam your face into the pavement, because after she returned from showing that class rep bitch who Koichi really belonged to, she saw you sucking up to him, trying to get sympathy from her one true love. You both were in an empty classroom, Koichi patting your back as you wailed in agony at his feet, kneeling on the floor.
How dare you... how dare you make a move on him behind her back.
You were twisting your skirt in knots, probably trying to make sure he got a peep of your underwear. From where she stood she could see it was a rose print pattern. What a fucking... you were just after one thing weren鈥檛 you?!
鈥淗ow could anyone love me?!鈥 she heard you blubber like a dying walrus. 鈥淚... I鈥檝e never even had a boy like me. I鈥檓 so stupid and ugly and worthless-...鈥
鈥淗ey hey hey!鈥
Yukako was seething. Spewing lava and hate when she saw Koichi lunge to hold you, rubbing your back gently as you got your filthy pedestrian tears all over the blazer of his uniform.
鈥淒on鈥檛 talk like that...鈥 Koichi鈥檚 voice was so soft, so kind, nothing like Yukako had ever heard before.
鈥淵ou鈥檙e not any of those things. I think you鈥檙e beautiful and smart, and funny, and anyone who can鈥檛 see that has got to be blind! I think you鈥檙e very sweet and lovable too.鈥
鈥淵eah! Totally, I mean if you were even interested I鈥檇 even go out with you!鈥
Now, it didn鈥檛 help that you had essentially turned the knife counter clockwise in her chest, sealing your fate forever to be just another teen casualty. Because her mounting rage was of Friday the 13th proportions, ready to burst through the window of your room with a machete in the dead of night and hang your entrails like fairy lights around your wall. She knew when she鈥檇 do it too. She was going to patiently bide her time and wait for your little 鈥渉eart to heart鈥 to end, lurking at the edge of the shadows and planning to ambush you when you least expect it.
That was the plan originally. She was waiting for you after school when there were no witnesses, confident she would get you. But how could she have any clue... Not the faintest idea of what to do came to her mind when she heard you cry out her name.
鈥淵ukako! Yukako Yamagishi, I love you!鈥
She whipped around, almost too angry to hear what you said until she found herself immobile. You鈥檇 taken her hands, nearly falling out of your penny loafers when you leaned in, and you kissed her right on the mouth.
The whole time her eyes were wide open in shock. The mounting rage she felt... the burning flames of hatred, where did it go?! Suddenly her first kiss was gone and she noticed you didn鈥檛 really know what else to do from there because all you did was give her a quick peck and you were already shaking and out of breath.
She didn鈥檛 even focus that long on her kiss being taken by another girl, too busy wondering what had changed as she watched your eyes glitter wetly with tears.
鈥淵ukako, I鈥檝e loved you ever since the first time I laid eyes on you. I think you鈥檙e wonderful, and I don鈥檛 care if I鈥檓 weird or wrong or whatever, because I love you so much it doesn鈥檛 matter what anyone else thinks.鈥
Yukako blinked. That鈥檚 all she could do. Didn鈥檛 really have the coherence to do much else except blink owlishly at you. All her feelings were in such a jumbled mess, like clothes in a dryer.
鈥淚... I鈥檓 not good at sewing or cooking, I can鈥檛 give you material things like a sweater with love in the stitches or some adorable box lunch... I don鈥檛 even have money to buy you expensive presents. All I have is a heart full of all my love to give, and I鈥檇 do anything to make you happy. Will you... will you be my girlfriend?鈥
It was as if the fire that burned brightly in her heart had burned so hot and fast that every bad feeling, every negative thought or psychotic fantasy she had about you had suddenly gone up in smoke. Every single part of Yukako鈥檚 consciousness seemed only left to ash. You didn鈥檛 want Koichi. She heard that part as you continued to babble on helplessly despite her silence, completely unsure of how to respond as she learned the obsessive thoughts she had about one person had been the thoughts you had for her. You continued to pour out your heart, not giving her one opportunity to speak. Anyone could hear it in the way that you were talking to her that you were on the verge of breaking down into tears. Your face was contorted into embarrassment, from the kiss she could feel the heat of your cheeks radiating on her clammy skin. You were still holding her hands and she felt her whole body vibrate because of your nerves.
鈥淵uka-... I... Yamagishi?! I... I鈥檓 sorry...!鈥 Now your voice was starting to crack when you realized she was immobilized. 鈥淚... I鈥檓 sorry... I shouldn鈥檛 have kissed you... I...鈥
Tears. Great fountains of tears and bubbles of snot appeared and melted like ice cream down your cheeks, lips and chin. Your voice only got more choppy and your legs started to give. Her silence was deafening. She didn鈥檛 even know what she felt anymore and could only just watch as you sank to her knees, still holding her hands and not making a move to wipe your face.
Without thinking, she squeezed your hands.
The shock of her touch made you squeak like a mouse being crushed under a combat boot. Yukako knelt down to the floor with you. One of her perfectly embroidered hankies peeped out of her skirt pocket, and she only let go of one hand to fish it out as she carefully wiped every tear and bubble, wordlessly telling you to blow your nose as she placed the cloth over your face.
A soft, pale hand touched your burning cheeks. Her skin was so clammy and cold, like a compress when you had a fever it helped soothe you into calming down. A hiccup sounded in your chest, making you look small and vulnerable.
You looked her in the eyes. Locked with her. She saw the passion. The love. The devotion and pure worship. Everything she wanted staring her in the face.
Still unsure, but willingly, Yukako leaned into your space. Her lips cushioned yours, begging for another first kiss.
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drabbles-of-writing9 months ago
currently hyperfixating on beta au please gib me some amity accidently being obviously gay for luz
Oh boy where to even start. We know Amity steals Luz鈥檚 jacket all the time but once she did it when Luz decided to try an experiment and wore like mint-scented perfume or something. So something smells awful and she sniffs the jacket and it smells of god-awful mint so now Amity is suffering and she knows Luz is being smug somewhere. But she sticks it out for a while before finding Luz and angrily throwing her jacket back at her and snaps聽鈥測ou better make it smell like you again or I鈥檓 going to tear it to shreds鈥 and Luz does a double take n squints at her before saying聽鈥渄o you,,,,,smell my jacket????鈥 and Willow is trying so hard not to wheeze in the background as Amity is frantically trying to cover it up that no she doesn鈥檛 snort Luz鈥檚 scent like a drug wym
Also a small thing but consider Luz being a dork n leaning up w her face beside Amity鈥檚 w a big ol鈥 grin n Amity REALLY wants to kiss her like to the point she鈥檚 starting to reach out to her n Luz is blinking at her like聽鈥渙h fr??鈥 but then at the last moment Amity grabs Luz鈥檚 beanie and pulls it over her eyes with a sneer n Luz is cursing her
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lillian-nator5 months ago
Wallflower AU (aka highschool au made w/ @bellfort3)
V i b e s - hanging on the roof; walking across train tracks; skipping school; Lakes, yes, something with lakes; something with different types of sodas. - My angsty teens are gonna have painted nails - Tommy bleaches his hair; Wilbur dyes his hair black - dramatic fuck. - Wilbur in eyeliner plz - Wilbur wears doc martens; black, yellow, maroon, silver shiny - Tommy's worn the same exact jean jacket for the past 5 years; it's 2 sizes bigger than he is; but he wears it every single day; it has fur on the inside; and its light washed with tears; the tears didn鈥檛 come like it; he's just ripped it over the years - He doesn't wash it very often, but he's glued patches on it, and Wilbur's drawn on it in sharpie. He just layers hoodies or flannels under it when it鈥檚 cold, but still wears it when it's hot - Tommy's also worn the same shoes for YEARS, they鈥檙e duct taped together at this point, they're white converse, they're not white anymore, and he's bleach-washed them SO many times that they permanently smell like chemicals. - The laces are frayed, so bad that he doesn鈥檛 even wear the laces most days. - Tommy doesn't shy from going in mud or water though, he'll wear the shoes to their fullest and then some. - I think you can tell by now, that Tommy just doesn鈥檛 come from a lot of money. - They live in a kind of run down town, very poor, old, smallish. - Wilbur is middle class, which is very well off in the area he lives in. - Wilbur gives off family disappointment vibes. Where he has to sneak out at night, Tommy can leave through his front door. - Wilbur calls Tommy 鈥渟unshine鈥, but very sarcastically since Tommy is a dick :) - Tommy has one of Wilbur's old beanies; it's black and monster branded, the monster logo is green - Wilbur gave it to Tommy 3 years ago, and Tommy never gave it back - btw Tommy's 17 and Wilbur's 19: Tommy's a junior and Wilbur's a senior - Wilbur only drinks Green Apple Monster - Tommy drinks sugar free redbull, but mostly only when Wilbur buys it for him, because Tommy usually doesn't have pocket change - Wilbur and Tommy bring speakers to the train tracks and dance and by that, its them jumping around and occasionally pushing someone over - Tommy uses his allowance to buy cigarettes; Wilbur vapes - both mentally ill - Wilbur is essentially the modern emo. He has this one yellow and black flannel that's oversized, and he wears it multiple times a week - it鈥檚 a problem.
- Dream, Wilbur, Karl, Tommy, Big Q, SapNap, Punz, and Tubbo - That鈥檚 the group. - I have just been talking about Tommy and Wilbur but they are the main characters so you can suck it. - A scene with Dream, Wilbur, Karl, Tommy, Big Q, SapNap, Punz, and Tubbo, at a lake, throwing each other in, and Tommy gets his shoes soaked, but he saves his jacket from the fall. Water gun fights, and they drink energy drinks and eat chips. they lay in the grass and contemplate life, Talk abt life yes. Abt existence. Abt how shit it is. Half of them have to wake up early and sneak home, the other half get to stay as long as they like. - Tommy tucks his t-shirts into his pants, which are always very baggy black jeans with just gigantic holes. - Tommy and Dream both have ADHD, however, Tommy's meds are purely from welfare, he cannot afford to give any out. Dream however? From an upper-middleclass family. Basically millionaires in this town. He can afford to lose some of his meds. - He yells in the clearing "COME GET YOUR DRUGS CHILDREN" - Besides, I've learned that there are like so many different ADHD meds, and maybe Tommy is just on something a lot stronger than adderall. He can't partake in the pill popping, but he doesn't mind. He does it every morning. - They don't do it often, maybe once a month, depends on how big Dream's prescription is - not that he regularly takes them like a good boy should - And I won't ever write this, but Gogy hangs out with them every so often, in which Gogy and Wilbur have an on and off again hooking up type relationship - whenever they hang out, Gogy like sits and Wilbur's lap and shit - Tommy and Punz GAG - "EW the fuck - get your hands off eachother. ITS GROSS - NO PDA IN MY BACKYARD"
- They hang out in an abandoned Building. But they don't try to fix it up. They're not fucking VSCO girls. They just want somewhere to hang out - If anything they make it worse - they fucking trash the place - It鈥檚 not intentional though - It鈥檚 like they can have fun without worrying abt the mess - just, sometimes they spill hawiian punch mixed with vodka everywhere - THEY GHOST HUNT AND OUIJA BOARD AND SHIT - They hang out in cemeteries too. they play manhunt in a cemetery, but like the regular version- like just hide and go seek in the dark. - they've done seances even though almost all of them are atheists - anyways the point of the fact is, is that half of them (excluding the minors you know) I'm looking at you Karl and Q - somethings going on between you two have made out with guys, and I'm not gonna sugar coat it, most modern like takes on religion do not take kindly to that
- they go to prom - and Dream somehow ends up with a ton of weed, because he had just turned old enough, and had the money - and they get fucking high OUT of their minds, like they're never doing it again - like, George and Wilbur definitely hooked up at Wilbur's house, which they aren't supposed to do - because Wilbur's parents will fucking flip that Wilbur is sleeping with a random person. No one is quite sure where SapNap ended up, and Tommy lost one of his shoes. In a panic, they spent the next 3 hours looking for it to find it at the lake by the school - Tommy fucking cradles it to his chest. - 聽(are wilburs parents homophobic?) (yes maybe a little side of homophobia) (Is wilbur bisexual or gay?) (he is 鈥榳hoever the fuck looks bangable鈥) (fair enough) (he is 鈥榞ogy my king鈥) (TRUUUE) - the bleachers - they hang out under the bleachers
- Gogy = Stylish stoner - very popular, but never not high - Karl is like the goody two-shoes of the group, doesn't skip class, and is on the principals list, however, he will NEVER back down from space brownies - its his weakness - Tubbo has a subway pass, and they do that thing where Tubbo swipes it and everyone fucking bolts into the subway, and they take all the trains at like 4am and just hang from the bars and shit - Wilbur still dresses relatively like, nicely and scholarly, which puts everyone off. He wears very loose sweaters with button-ups underneath. with khakis or black jeans and his docs - where his best friend, our Tommy, wears borderline yellow converse, and one bleached two-sizes-too-large jean jacket, and some second-hand-store hoodies, that are always a bit too worn in, but so, incredibly Tommy - Tommy who legit hasn't brushed his hair in years, not with a brush anyways - too frantic to brush his teeth most mornings. but always chewing gum; Tommy's always everywhere at once - ADHD meds only half-working on him, they couldn't afford the good shit - He'll never quite understand Dream handing out his adderall for free, Tommy would kill for the hard shit, but hey, he's never gonna stop his friends from having a good time
- Let's talk about Karl Jacobs - good ole' goody two shoes Jacobs - all of his teachers are constantly trying to get him to stop hanging out with Tommy and gang - every parent teacher conference is "we love your boy, but we are concerned about his friends" - Teachers have meetings with him, about how the people you surround yourself with can change your future - Karl's like, from the good side of town, plays first in the drumline, plays violin on the side, straight a's, clean-white-air-force-ones type of guy. Name brand clothes. Combed hair - Packed lunch every day from his mom; gets dropped off by his mom, kisses her goodbye; Mom is like very involved in school too - PTA parent - it's fucking good kid Jacobs - and he's sneaking off with fucking potheads to go to college parties and abandoned buildings - Does he do drugs? Well, he鈥檚 a big fan of treats if you know what I mean :wink wink: - 鈥.you ever see Ted's video about a 500mg edible 鈥. yeah. - big fan of gummy bears and brownies - Karl shows up to Parties and there are shouts of "Fuckin' goody-two-shoes Jacobs is HERE" - a lot of people make fun of him and think they can push him around - He seems like a softie; welcome mat type beat - but fucking watch this man chug 5 cups of whatever you give him, and then still win beer pong - Like his best friend is fucking quackity, he can do the hard shit - its very much a his parents have no clue who he actually is type beat - Look, his parents have no clue where he is ever - And if they even know he鈥檚 out, they don鈥檛 know where or with who - If his mom is at all involved in the school, she'll hear about Quackity, basically a drug dealer with how much hash weed he hands out on a daily basis. - Tommy has to be contained in order for the school to run smoothly, and Wilbur is a dramatic fuck that sleeps through most of his classes - Tommy has to take frequent breaks - They make him spend 3rd period in the principles office - Like he obviously needs help but he can鈥檛 afford it at all. Even the school can鈥檛 do anything for him bc he can鈥檛 get anything official for himself - like he can't even try to concentrate - He gave up so quickly in high school, bc they don鈥檛 have enough time or staff to help him - he tried in middle school - but man, did he give up in highschool - Yeah. He knows it is hopeless. Can't even afford college anyway. he'll just do whatever Wilbur does - here's an idea: Fucking Karl Jacobs showing up to school one morning just absolutely hammered out of his mind - Karl just showing up to first period AP Physics, and he's barely awake, honestly smells so much like weed and booze, and if he breathed anywhere near you, you could just feel the alcohol radiating from his breath - He's extra bubbly, laughs at everything - takes out his notebook to take some sort of notes, and just fucking giggles at the shapes and equations. He is very spacy, he clearly stayed up all night doing something very illegal; he gets up and jumps around. 2nd period band? oh boy - He gets sick at lunch bet - Like everyone got Drunk but Karl got FUCKED up - It was his birthday, bet - He took like 17 shots over the course of like 8 - 12ish hours, and I looked it up, despite karl being super scrawny and probably like 140 - 150ish pounds - which isn't a lot for being 5'11 - will not kill him - BECAUSE, you guessed it, he turned 17 - He didn't sleep, he was awake taking shots and just fucking who knows what until 6am when they stumbled to school - at lunch, 11:30 in the morning - he's head down on the table, miserable - he doesn't have a hangover yet, because it's only been a few hours, but man, is he nauseous - just the smell of food makes his stomach churn - and the thing about fucking Jacobs showing up drunk as hell - is that at least one of his teachers has called his mom about it - SHES PRESIDENT OF THE PTA FOR FUCKS SAKE, ONE OF THEM KNOWS HER - And the teachers aren't stupid, Karl is so obviously drunk - generally Karl is pretty quiet in class; but now he has no distinction between hanging with hs friends and being in class - he's shouting and cracking jokes and is very tempted to kick his chair over - Anyways, Karl fucks himself over, end of story 聽- ONTO PUNZ鈥橲 RELGIEOUS TRAUMA WOOOOOOOOOOOO - It's Punz - fuckin' golden boy Punz; he plays football; and goes to church; and calls his mother "momma"; wears a nice church outfit; and is polite to the bible study mothers that come over on tuesday nights and gets them drinks - just a fuckin' golden boy - A religious family. Go to church every Sunday. Sunday school. Holidays. But. The kid just realizes that they don鈥檛 believe in god. Them telling the group like they鈥檙e high and he鈥檚 like 鈥測ou know? Some of the shit that鈥檚 happened to us proves to me that god rlly isn鈥檛 real.鈥 - and Punz like prays every day for Tommy's dad to get his job back; or for Gogy to get better parents; or for Karl to live the life he wants; and NOTHING EVER WORKS. THEY'RE ALL STILL FUCKED. - by the way we will get the the Tommy's dad losing his job later - But Punz's life is controlled by something he doesn't even believe in anymore - because he's still going to the like church breakfasts, and christmas service, and every sunday morning, and helping his mom's ladies bible study, and his parents are talking about sending him to a youth bible camp - - and he doesn't even think he believes in god anymore. - Punz kind of took out his own personal, religious, and family struggles out the way most teenage boys do. Drinking, and lots of sex. - SO I just imagined this like, really dramatic moment, where its the morning after Punz had a one night stand at some sort of party down the street, and he's long past saving his virginity for his wife, but he's buying her the morning after pill, which his church is just so against, and he has like the moment of, "if you do this, you're done." and he does it - he's had a couple of those moments, like, when he first had sex, and when he first smoked weed, or popped a pill, or snuck out at night, or skipped church - but that was the moment of "there is no going back" - like any type of drug or procedure that aborts an embryo, or that blocks fertilization thats already in process in like: the biggest no no in his church community - so once he stepped out of that drug store, he kind of took a breath, and just came to terms with it - "I'm an atheist." - Punz is the pastors son. - he's like, pre-commited to a catholic college - he鈥檚 in deep. - so when he first announces it to his friends, one really late night, "I think god might not be my thing." - they just start whistling and say "FINALLY, THE PASTORS SON HAS TURNED AROUND." - Dream just like turns over to him "how many chicks did you fuck to make you realize that?" - Tommy just slings his arm over Punz, "I'm glad you've quit the Jesus shit, Punz. Your better than it." - There鈥檚 gotta be this girl ok. He rlly rlly wants to have sex with her but he always backs out. The thing that breaks him. Is that he gets drunk and loses his virginity to someone who is not that girl - like, he likes this girl, and has a good connection with her, and she likes him, and he knows that its gonna be comepletly consentual, and she's like fucking beautiful right? - and she's the one he wants to loose it to and he's a stupid fucking idiot and loses it to some fucking random ass chick that doesn't even go to their school - This triggers a spiral. After that? He slowly starts giving less of a fuck abt everything. He fucked up the one thing you can鈥檛 do over and god he鈥檚 so painfully aware of it and so painfully aware that he didn鈥檛 even fuck up right. - You鈥檙e supposed to wait till marriage. Nope. You鈥檙e supposed to do it with someone you love and trust. Double nope. He. Fucked. Up. - its just like he wanted to do something bad. he wanted to fuck something up. he was questioning his faith, his like, great and sturdy and always-there faith for the first time, and what better way to test faith than to do something shitty and see what comes of it. and so he was planning and planning and planning how he was gonna do this terrible thing - which is such a good kid thing to do, to put so much thought into your own rebellion - but he wanted this to go perfectly. - Little Pastors Son, Punz, wasn't gonna wait till marriage. - He was gonna have sex with the girl of his dreams before they were even dating - but man did he like her. Did he want her. - And then he fucked some random girl when he was black out drunk. He's fucked everything up - he can't wash this away with confession - he's tainted. He's dirty. - He looks in the mirror and doesn't recognize the heathen staring back. - He hates who he's become. - But he never goes back - he can't. He's dirty. He's wrong. - but the more he goes down the spiral - the more he realizes that one mistake shouldn't have made him feel like that - that if god was real, which he honestly wasn't sure in that department, he wouldn't want Punz to feel like the scum of the earth for doing something wrong. especially when he felt so bad after he did it. This system was fucked. He didn't want to be apart of another cycle - and he's just lying to himself every time he goes to church, and reads a cerse for his mom, and meets with younger kids at the church, and plays flag football with fucking church virgins who are good catholics and follow all their mommas orders - And every night when he says grace he means it less and less. he always does it when his momma asks, but boy does the lords word mean shit to him anymore From Ethan: - A turning point to the others in Punz's breakaway from Catholicism is like - He prays before he eats, usually. Sometimes they wait for him to finish his prayer before eating themselves, just out of politeness. He's a friend, he gets that shred of etiquette - And then one day he just doesn't. They got some fast food for a whole group dinner out at their hangout spot (a warehouse, did you say??) Tommy is staring at it intently but he waits for Punz to pray. Tubbo's already started eating but the rest wait - And Punz just starts eating - Dream nudges him, "No prayer, Pastor's boy?" - "No prayer," Punz mumbles into his food. "I'm trying something new." SO, TOMMYS DAD LOSING HIS JOB ARC W000000000 - it starts with Tommy showing up in a different jacket one day - like you have to understand, he's worn this jean jacket every single day for as long as WIlbur has known him, which is like 6 years - Like Tommy shows up in this giant, khaki work-jacket and it's his dads... - HIS DAD DIDNT DIE - his dad lost his job, which is essentially death to a family who already couldn't sustain themselves - and Tommy shows up to school, face pale and cheeks sunk in and there are visible bags under his eyes - and Wilbur just rushes over immediately and hugs him so tight to his chest - and Tommy just sobs, "pops lost his job -" gasp "I can't - we can't pay the bills this month. everything - its all falling apart Will." - "Hey - hey. Stop. It's gonna be fine. You're gonna be okay. You always are dude." - Tommy does have to get a job - and he probably does drop out of school unofficially, like he just stops going. - he sleeps during the morning classes, and heads into work at 10am - he's a carpenters assistant. it pays well as they need young, able men. but most of the younger citizens in the town go to school - he has to take the day shift because the day shift pays better - he doesn't mind it, he doesn't - it gives him the opportunity to get all of his energy out; but he misses going to school. as much as he hated it, he misses his friends. - and lets be honest, its hard as fuck for his dad to find a new job, he doesn't have a great resume - he didn't graduate from highschool. and he isn;t in top health condition, he definitely doesn't have health insurance - so Tommys stuck with this job for a long time - his dad uses his last paycheck to buy Tommy workboots so tommy feels in debt to him - He鈥檒l get his GED eventually. - I think - The like religious status of the rest of the group brought to you by me - Everyone who I don鈥檛 mention is just a hard atheist - Karl and Wilbur are catholic, but to a lesser extent, Wilbur doesn't really go through with lent, and Karl only sometimes does. They go to a different church and go pretty much on holidays only, a sunday a month maybe. - SapNap goes to Punz's church, they've been friends for years. - He goes to sunday school but misses a lot of sermons because of his siblings sports games. - He is involved, but not to the way Punz is - SapNap's mother is in fact in Punz's moms bible group - Punz sometimes doesnt attend the bible group and Sap's mother is all "now you tell that pastor's boy to actually attend next time, got it?" and Sapnap dies a little on the inside - And George is an orthodox christian, but he's pretty much quit due to the blatant homophobia he's seen at his church.聽
AND NOW ON WILBUR SOOT AND KARL JACOBS AND BARKING - Wilbur has siblings, fun fact - that we will never talk about or address - but definitely nothing like Wilbur, more the Karl Jacobs type - Wilbur is the oldest. he's always lectured about being 'a good influence on your brother and sister.' - They鈥檙e big sports kids. Softball and Basketball (tall genes). Straight Bs; Bed by 10pm; Have never missed school - Parents pride and joy :) - Just good suburban kids, Have friends next door, help the neighbors, attend the cul-de-sac barbecues. - Basically who Wilbur used to be up until highschool (until Wilbur met weed and a good group of stoners) - Sure he was a disappointment and he had no clue what to do with his life - But he was happier - Never really liked being the goody- two-shoes boy next door, he doesn't know how karl does it 鈥淧laying good boy like a dog鈥 - Also he used dog terms around Karl - Because he鈥檚 鈥淧laying good boy like a dog鈥 - He鈥檒l throw Karl a beer and smile 鈥済o fetch鈥 - He laughs so hard when he sees Karl be good in a class or play it up for his parents; Because Wilbur鈥檚 so past trying - Wilbur will walk by and just bark at karl. Bet. Just Growls lowly; Walks in a 聽circle; Anything to make Karl鈥檚 parents (or Wilbur鈥檚 own) stare at him and scurry away - Karl鈥檚 parents push Karl forward and like hold their younger kids close to their chest, whispering 鈥渒eep close, don鈥檛 look at him鈥 - They tell Karl to stay away from kids like him. - And boy do Wilbur鈥檚 pa#rents hate it, They push him along and whisper yell at him As he throws his head back and cackles - I mean imagine, like a stereotypical middle class suburban family: House wife, blue collared father, Two kids; in sports jerseys, Girl in braids, boy in khakis - And then there鈥檚 Wilbur: Doc Martins, black jeans, collar and sweater, beanie. Definitely high on something - Chains LOTS OF CHAINS - And he's Barking. Fucking Barking At the nice family down the street - And then he takes out his vape right in front of his parents and silently offers Karl a hit with a smirk - Cause Karl鈥檚 too busy playing good boy - And as Karl鈥檚 family looks back, as Wilbur is corralled by his mom - He flips them off with the biggest smirk uou will ever see - Wilbur's kind of an ass - And Karl really wants a hit of that vape.
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angelthebedsheet11 months ago
Can you do a zuko x male reader or gender neutral. It could be about the reader witnessing the agni Kai and watching zuko get banished. The reader tries to go with zuko but zuko doesn鈥檛 want the reader to get hurt. Years later they meet at the boiling rock. You can take it from there. I love your writings and I鈥檒l keep supporting you 馃挄
a/n: oooooh! thank you anonnie!! i appreciate your requests!!!
lets get it!
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okay so you and zuko were TURTLEDUCK BUDDIES
attached to the hip basically
azula HATED how close you two were bc hello she鈥檚 right here???
i mean you and zuko trained together
fed ducks together
best buds
you knew you liked zuko alot but you didn鈥檛 understand?
like you started to get flustered around him
same with zuko
and azula was PLOTTING NOW
she doing a think rn with one of her BRILLIANT ideas 馃槓
鈥渙h n/n! zuzu! come play a game with us!鈥
zuko鈥檚 flight or fight reflexes are triggered and he鈥檚 ready to DIP
but you r unfortunately intrigued
鈥渙h okay 鈥榸ula! cmon zu!鈥
cue azula鈥檚 smug lil grin
she puts an apple on your head and makes you stand in front of the fountain
you鈥檙e like ???? is this the game?
azula鈥檚 like it is n/n it鈥檒l be fine
it was NOT fine
she damn near burnt you to a crisp if it wasnt for zuko tackling you into the fountain
now azula, ty lee and mai are LAUGHIN
but we all know mai lwk a lil jelly
you and zuko are embarrassed as fuck
you both are soaked and he鈥檚 hovering over you
mr zuzu looking real pretty
he just turns red and pulls you up before running away
zuko is like ???? boys are cute especially this one???
you two still remained close after this incident
two lil gays boys who are trying to not crush on e/o
(im sorry the only thing i can think about when i think of zuko is his gay ass lil scream in the prototype pilot episode)
(nigga said wwAHHH)
azula teased you about zuko speaking out against a general and their dad is angry and you鈥檙e like oh shit
suddenly you arent allowed to visit zuko anymore
and you鈥檙e like wtf no no let me in
the guards said no
you鈥檙e so paranoid too
is he okay?
what fully happened?
soon the agni kai is announced to happen
and you are seated next to iroh and azula
you鈥檙e clutching onto your pants as you watch zuko walk into the arena
you really dont want him to get hurt
your eyes widened as you watched zuko鈥檚 father walk into the arena and your heart drops
zuko is clearly surprised and frightened
tears are rolling down your cheeks bc you are so so so scared for him
iroh covers your eyes as he looks away when zuko got burned and you could feel your heart break as you listened to his cries of pain
you cried out as iroh pulled you into a hug
you and iroh immediately rushed to the infirmary to get to zuko
you push past those guards and nurses bc you are on a MISSION
aint nobody getting in your way like this bc you will STOMP they asses out
you are not leaving his side
鈥渮-zu are you okay? can you hear me?鈥
鈥渕-m/n? where are you? i cant see鈥
zuko is starting to panic due to the fact his left eye is patched close
you hold his hand 鈥渋鈥檓 right here zu. shh im here鈥
he鈥檚 so overwhelmed too poor baby
鈥渦-uncle? w-where is he?鈥
鈥渞ight here zuko.鈥
you help him sit up and he grabs a mirror immediately
he frowns at his reflection
鈥測ou鈥檙e still handsome zuko.鈥 you said
iroh pretended to not see that blush that sat on zuko鈥檚 cheeks
鈥渋-i鈥檝e been banished, m/n.鈥
鈥渋鈥檓 banished from here. the only way i can come back is if i capture the avatar.鈥
鈥渂ut he鈥檚 been gone for years zuko! let me come with you鈥
鈥渘o! it鈥檒l be too dangerous鈥
鈥渉ow? we trained together! grew up together? how is it too dangerous?鈥
鈥渘o m/n! i dont want to lose you!鈥
鈥測ou wont lose me zuko.鈥
鈥測ou dont know that. you arent coming with me.鈥
you and him went back and forth
after he shaved his hair and was about to board his boat you pulled him away
then you confessed right then and there
i mean you didnt know when you鈥檒l see him again
鈥渋 like you zuko. more than a friend鈥
鈥渋 like you.鈥
鈥渁re you for real? this isnt a joke right? like azula didn鈥檛 put you up to this?鈥
鈥渘o she didnt.鈥
鈥渙h thank the spirits. i like you too.鈥
and yall have this lil awkward ass kiss
just a short lil peck?
i mean yall are 12/13 and two boys you think they gonna go all out tonguing niggas? lmao
you two hug before iroh calls him over
鈥渋鈥檒l wait for you zuko鈥
鈥渋鈥檒l try my best.鈥
and he鈥檚 gone
over the years zuko was gone he was so sad
鈥渋f i capture the avatar i can come back to the fire nation and m/n鈥
but clearly the whole LeMmE cAtCh tHe AvAtAr thing was dropped when he got that glow up
(neya said 馃馃馃馃 whenever they look at zuko cmon NOW.)
now they鈥檙e otw to boiling rock
鈥渕y first girlfriend turned into the moon.鈥
鈥渢hat鈥檚 rough buddy.鈥
and sokka鈥檚 like you ever dated someone before?
zuko鈥檚 like..... two people?
鈥渢hat knife throwing girl?鈥
鈥渉er and m/n. though we never got to date bc at the time i was literally banished. i miss him alot though.鈥
bi king 鉁
鈥渨hat if he鈥檚 at the boiling rock?鈥
鈥渢hen i鈥檒l find him.鈥
sokka鈥檚 like yes my man get your MANS
鈥渙kay so we look for my dad, suki and your husband鈥
鈥渉e鈥檚 not my husband sokka.鈥
鈥..... my dad, suki and your husband鈥
鈥渙mfg shut your trap.鈥
these pair of himbos finally get inside and are on a MISSION
sokka鈥檚 like heheheeh suki time
zuko鈥檚 hopeful that you鈥檙e here or at least alive
after sokka and suki have their lil reunion zuko wanders off and asks around
鈥渄o you have a prisoner by the name of m/n?鈥
鈥渨hy do you ask, newbie?鈥
鈥渦hhh the warden sent me to him.鈥
鈥渙h. there.鈥 pointing to a door
zuko has to CONTAIN the excitement and nods before speed walking off
he throws open that door so quickly
you on the other hand is ready to rumble 鈥渋 TOLD YOU I DONT FUCKING HAVE IT鈥
zuko just closes the door behind him and takes off his helmet
you鈥檙e like hol up wait wait zuko????
and he nods with a big ol grin on his face
you just hug him so fucking tight
maybe there were some tears shed
you pick him up and twirl him around
zuko鈥檚 like holy SHIT
and you pull back to just look at him
鈥測ou鈥檙e still as handsome as i remember you, zu.鈥
鈥渟o are you, n/n...鈥
he鈥檚 just so awestruck
the person he has been looking forward to seeing for 3/4 years is right infront of him
yall just kiss
sokka now gotta pull a zuko and bang on that door
鈥渟hut UP sokka鈥
zuko puts his helmet back on and grabs your hand
yall finally dip and are otw tf outta there
鈥渙h shit zuko he鈥檚 cute鈥
鈥渂ack off鈥
鈥渋m happy with suki relax sir鈥
zuko is clingy and was hugging you the whole time
not that you minded bc you missed him dearly
when yall got back and he introduces you
the group minus toph is like 鈥淶UKO鈥橲 GAY????鈥
toph is like 鈥淚 FUCKING CALLED IT鈥
alls well
except for the fact zuko wouldnt let you go anywhere by yourself
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moonofthenight5 months ago
Hi I鈥檓 not the original anon, but I would also love to see that! Always down for some good ol O鈥檏nutzy angst
Ask and you shall receive! I鈥檓 so sorry it took me so long but life is being stressful at the moment and is going to be for some time but better late than never... right? It turned out to be more hurt/comfort than angst, I hope that's alright
credit for the boys goes to @lumosinlove
Thank you to @spookypotato for being an amazing person, betaing this at an ungodly hour
CW insecurity, mentions of food but only briefly
It was the first warm and sunny day of the year and the team had a day off so they decided to meet up at the park, a whole bunch of hockey players spread all over the grass. Cap and Loops where laying on a blanket, making little flower crowns for each other, Pots was throwing Harry in the air, who鈥檚 giggling made everybody鈥檚 heart go wide. Dumo and Celeste where cuddling on a bench while watching their kids on the playground.
Regulus was currently seated next to Leo. The two of them were chatting about the newest videogame, while Logan let his gaze wander. Every couple on his team could show affection in public and for a blissful second Logan let himself think about how it would be, if he could kiss Leo or hold Finn鈥檚 hand now. It wasn't like he didn't want it, of course he wanted to show the world how much he loved his boys but, well, he was scared. He was scared of the reaction because this wasn鈥檛 鈥渏ust鈥 another gay couple in the NHL, no, this was a polyamorous relationship in the NHL. It was a big deal.
The day went by in a heartbeat and soon the three of them were back in the apartment, getting ready to call it a day. Finn and Logan were already in their bed, while Leo was still in the kitchen preparing some food for tomorrow, cleaning up the last bits from the morning.
Logan was not well known for talking about his thoughts and feelings, but for once he felt like sharing, so he turned around to face Finn.
鈥淔inn?鈥 Logan鈥檚 voice was uncharacteristically small, which was why Finn鈥檚 head almost immediately snapped towards him.
鈥淎re you finally going to tell me what has been on your mind all day long?鈥
Logan didn鈥檛 even question how he knew. It was quiet for another minute.
鈥淒o you think Leo deserves better?鈥
Finn put his book down and let out a sad sigh.
鈥淟o, you have no idea how much I think about that. Like today? I want to give him what the others have but- but-鈥
鈥淵ou don鈥檛 have to explain. I know exactly what you are talking about,鈥 Logan鈥檚 voice was thick with tears by now, 鈥淚 just want him to have the happiness with someone who is ready to share it with the world. And- and he does so much else.鈥
Finn nodded and pulled him against his chest not even trying to stop the few tears in his eyes from spilling over. They didn鈥檛 hear Leo鈥檚 footsteps so they were a bit surprised when the door opened and Leo stepped in with two steaming mugs of tea.
Said blonde boy nearly dropped the hot liquid the moment he saw the state his boyfriends were in. Leo hastily set the cups on the nightstand, hurrying into the bathroom to get some tissues, grabbing two hoodies on the way to the bed. He new for a fact that his clothes always made them feel better.
鈥淒on鈥檛 cry. I hate it when you cry. What happened?鈥 Leo鈥檚 voice was incredibly soft and caring.
Logan wiggled a bit in Finn鈥檚 arms to look at him.
鈥淟eo, why are you still with us?鈥
鈥淏ecause I love you,鈥 there was no hesitation in his voice.
鈥淏ut-鈥 Logan鈥檚 voice broke a bit, 鈥淲e can鈥檛 give you something like Cap and Loops have just yet, Finn and I aren鈥檛 ready and you do so much for us Knutty. God, we would be so lost without you and we give back so little.鈥
Logan looked at Leo with such a confused look in his eyes, it broke Leo鈥檚 heart. Couldn鈥檛 they see it? He grabbed both of their hands, carefully intertwining their fingers.
鈥淎nd that鈥檚 us, that鈥檚 how we work and it鈥檚 all I need. I鈥檓 not ready yet either, but the team knows, we know and that鈥檚 perfect. Look, you give me more than you think you do. Maybe you don鈥檛 put your clothes back where they belong and maybe you don鈥檛 like to vacuum, but who cares about things like that? You two give me everything. You give me love, understanding, acceptance, you give me a reason to wake up in the morning and isn鈥檛 that what鈥檚 most important?鈥
All Logan and Finn could do was to gape and Leo chuckled a bit.
鈥淧eanut, how are you the youngest again? Screw college, what did we go to Harvard for?鈥 Finn said, wiping his face with his sleeve.
Logan wasn鈥檛 even listening, instead, he lurched forward and gave Leo the kiss of his lifetime. He moved his lips carefully and with so much love, Leo was very close to combusting at the feeling.
鈥淚 love my life.鈥
Leo and Logan parted, laughing slightly.
鈥淲hat about you Fish? What can I do for you?鈥 Leo asked while taking Finn鈥檚 hand in his again.
鈥淚 could just use a hug.鈥
And that was something Leo definitely could provide.
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cuddlyscribe7 months ago
Hello! I鈥檓 feeling kinda in the gutter and was wondering if you could do some hcs about team Gai (not including Gai) with a fem!SO who is afraid of falling into a relationship like her divorced parents? I know I put in a lot of asks to you and I鈥檓 not sure if this falls out of guidelines but I鈥檇 really appreciate it. Have a lovely day (or night)!
hi dear!! no worries at all, im happy to fill this request! im sorry you鈥檝e been feeling down lately, though... 鈽癸笍I hope that my lil writings can at least put a smile on your face in some way (im also still getting to your other request, so look forward to that too!!聽I just felt that this was important to write first 鉂わ笍) enjoy!
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This here is a supportive boyfriend (but you already knew that)聽
He鈥檚 such a good listener and will sit with you and do whatever you feel most comfortable: he can simply listen, offer words of encouragement or advice. But please tell him what you like best!聽
No matter what choice you make, though, he will be holding your hand the entire time.聽
Lee really wants to live the rest of his days with you (if you would like that), but he understands your worry and concern about ending up in a similar predicament to your parents聽
He will swear on his youth that he will not let that happen between you, ever. And this is a man that always keeps his promises聽
Will cuddle with you all day, just to remind you that he鈥檒l always be here for you聽
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Neji is not very good at consoling people... but he has learned a lot from being in a relationship and we can safely say that he鈥檚 gotten a lot better at being empathetic聽
For the most part, Neji will quietly listen to your concern and not say a word until he knows that you鈥檝e completely gotten your message across (he hates to be interrupted and would never do it to you either)聽
He鈥檚 not very good with these kinds of words, but all he wants you to know is that you and him will never be that way聽
There are few things worse to him than losing you (or pushing you away), and that fear has kept him up at night more times than he鈥檚 willing to admit聽
Neji knows that it鈥檚 easy to promise something like that, but it鈥檚 more about reassuring you in the here and now and making sure you understand his intentions聽
He loves you, like a lot. You鈥檝e gone through so much seeing your parents get divorced, and he鈥檒l be damned if he makes you experience it firsthand聽
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聽 Tenten鈥檚 heart hurts for you. Not in a mocking or fake way, but she knows you so well that she can actually feel the pain in your voice when you talk to her about your worry聽
She knows for a fact that your relationship will never go down that path, not as long as she lives.聽
But right now, she knows it鈥檚 important to listen. Your fears are understandable, as she鈥檚 heard about your experience seeing your parents get divorced聽
Once you鈥檝e explained everything, she鈥檒l pull you into a big ol鈥 bear hug. She will probably tear up a bit at the idea of you and her drifting apart that way, but she steels herself for you聽
Tenten lightens the mood and tells you that, unfortunately, you鈥檙e stuck with her for life!聽
You ain鈥檛 goin鈥 nowhere on this wild, crazy, stupid, amazing ride that is life without her right there by your side
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inky-duchess10 months ago
21 History Ancedotes for my 21st Birthday
So today I celebrate my 21st birthday and I have decided to gift you all with 21 of my favourite historical Ancedotes. Some are funny, some are sad and some are plain bizarre but I hope the make your day 馃挏
Mary Maloney, an Irish-born suffragette in England followed Winston Churchill around while he was campaigning for a seat in Parliament, drowning out everything he said with a very large bell and calls for him to apologise for his comments on women's rights and suffrage movements.
Clodius Pulcher was a well born Roman noble during the last day's of the Republic. He gave up his Patrician status to become Tribune of the Plebs (an office in which one had to be a Pleb) by being adopted by a much younger Plebian man who became his "father". Clodius was a bit of a riot, sneaking into religious festivals dressed like a woman to sleep with Caesar's wife, building a shrine to Liberty in the ruins of the Conservative Cicero, vetoed the last speech of one of the Consuls (who basically did nothing all year and was apparently going to roast Caesar) and burned down the Senate House with his funeral pyre (the Plebs who loved him literally tearing up the furniture to build his pyre). He was honestly the best fun.
When laying on her deathbed, Queen Caroline of Ansbach turned to her husband George II of England and told him he should marry again. George refused to ever wed again... But added he would have mistresses. Caroline said , likely with a roll of her eyes, "oh my god that doesn't matter."
Florence was a pretty cool city in the Renaissance until Savanorola came to town. He disliked the loose living artists that crowded the city, with their naked pagan gods and rampant homosexuality. He expelled them all with help of the French hoping to make Florence Holy Again. When the Borgia Pope excommunicated him and sentenced him to death, one man in the crowd was reported to have said. "thank God, niw we can return to sodomy." One Floretine man in the 1490s said Gay Rights.
So this list couldn't be complete without an entry of the only American politician I love, Alexander Hamilton who was just a walking entity of sass. I could go on about his sharp sarcasm or his disaster bi vibes with John Lauren's but my all time favourite Alexander Hamilton ancedote has to be this exchange with Thomas Jefferson "There are approximately 1010300 words in the English language, but I could never string enough words together to properly explain how much I want to hit you with a chair."
Caterina Sforza was an Italian noble woman during the Renaissance. She was apart of the powerful Sforza family, which drew many enemies to her. One fateful day at Forli, Caterina's children were snatched as hostages. The besiegers threatened to kill her children if she did not cede the castle. Caterina refused, lifting her skirts and shouted to the besiegers that she had the means to make more children.
Hannibal Lecter's creator Thomas Harris was happy to end his great character's story with the original trilogy. However his publishers forced him to write an unneeded prequel explaining why Hannibal became Hannibal. Thomas Harris agreed lest he lose the rights to his character so he wrote Hannibal Rising, where Hannibal as a young man hunts down the Nazis who ate his sister with a katana.
Nell Gwyn is my favourite mistress of Charles II, mainly because of her sass. Once while trapped in the middle of a riot where Londoners swamped her carriage thinking she was Charles's Catholic mistress. She popped her head out the carriage and told the people "Pray good people be civil. I am the Protestant whore." She also dosed her rival Moll Davis with laxatives in order to free up some of Charles's time and she once flashed her underwear at the French ambassador after asking him why the Franch King did not pay her to spy on Charles because she was with him every night. A true Queen.
Emperor Ai of the Han Dynasty of China once rose from his bed to go do some ruling when he realised his lover, Dong Xian was sleeping on his sleeve. Rather than disturb his lover, the Emperor cut his sleeve off at the wrist to leave Dong Xian nap. Nothing has ever been more romantic than that. Y'all could never.
Princess Margaret the sister of current Queen Elizabeth II was a socialable Princess and often tasked to visit the up and coming music stars of the day on behalf of the Crown. When meeting the Beatles one evening, she noticed George Harrison was acting a little odd. When she asked what was the matter, he replied "We arent allowed eat until you go." Princess Margaret laughed and promptly left so the Beatles could get some dinner.
During the Siege of Jadotsville, Irish soldiers under the flag of the UN were attacked and besieged by local insurgents allied with the Katanga Regime. The insurgents numbered thousands while the Irish only had 158 soldiers, all who were lightly armed. They radioed to their allies assuring them that "we will hold out until our last bullet is spent. Could use some whiskey though".
Napoleon was famous for writing raunchy letters to his wife, the Empress Josephine while he was away. She used to reply with really mundane letters or not at all. She really just could not be bothered with him.
Josip Broz Tito was so fed up with Joseph Stalin sending assassins to kill him, he wrote to Stalin personally to say "If you don't stop sending assassins to kill me. I will send one to Moscow and I won't have to send another." It didn't work but Big Dick Energy.
Successful Roman soldiers returning from war often got to march along in parades known as Triumphs. During this, it was customary for them to sing bawdy songs about their commander. One surviving one about Caesar goes like this "Romans, lock up your wives. Here comes the bald adulterous whore. We pissed away your gold in Gaul and come to borrow more."
Matilda, Lady of the English was a woman so badass that history cannot handle her. She was the daughter of Henry I who left his throne to her after the death of her brother. She was away in France when her father died and her throne was snatched by her cousin Stephen. They battled back and forth for years with neither side ceding any ground. Matilda was once besieged in a castle during a snow storm, with Stephen's men all around her. Instead of fighting her way out. She simply donned a white cloak and walked out of the castle. Just walked out without any of Stephen's men seeing her.
Pedro of Portugal once fell in love with a beautiful lady in waiting called Inez de Castro. For years, they lived as man and mistress, popping out a few kinds. Pedro's dad really did not like Inez and wanted Pedro to find a legitimate wife so he had her killed. Pedro returned home to find the mother of his children dead. Pedro went a little crazy. He had all his father's assassins killed, ripping out their hearts as they had done to him. When Pedro ascended the throne, he demanded the Pope legitimize his children by Inez. The Pope not wanting to upset the King, said he couldn't because Inez was never crowned Queen. Pedro dug Inez up and crowned her as Queen, having all the nobility swear loyalty to her corpse. The Pope had no choice but to agree to his request.
A famously clever general once saved an entire city with an ingenious stragety to sit outside the city waiting for the attacking army to come. The attack had come to fast for the city to ready themselves for a Siege so, the general had to move quickly. He evacuated the city and took his place waiting for the army to come. The enemy forces stopped and took one look at him and bolted, thinking he meant to lure them in one of his famous traps.
Michaelangelo was really badly treated by the Vatican when he was painting the Sistine Chapel. He constantly fought with the Popes over the design and his work, which he was paid peanuts for. Michaelangelo got his revenge in his work, painting the gates of Hell behind the Papal Throne and an angel flipping the ol' fig (the Renaissance version of the bird) toward the Pope's chair.
Peter the Great was not a perfect guy. He kept serfdom as a practise in his kingdom, he had his son tortured to death and he could be an unpleasant guy. But Peter was a dreamer. He wanted nothing more to build a fleet for Russia and bring Russia beyond its borders. Peter took a gap year from ruling Russia to wander around Europe. When he stopped in England, he was granted Leicester House to chill in while he did his shipwright studies. It was here that Peter found a new passion. The wheelbarrow. Cue Peter and his new found English buddies drinking in Leicester House, punching the artwork and rolling each other around in barrels across the house's Great gardens.
Diogenes is hands down a walking shit post. He was a great thinker in Greece during the reign of Alexander but a rather dry, sarcastic wit. He lived in a pithos/a jar because he shunned all vanities and values of society. He trolled other philosophers, attending their debates to heckle them and eat loud foods through them. When Alexander the Great came to fan boy over him, saying that if he were not Alexander he would like to be Diogenes to which Diogenes just said "yeah me too, now get out of my sunlight."
Cosimo de Medici was the son of a Floretine banker with a great knowledge and love of art. Cosimo wished for Florence to release its potentially and join the Renaissance. He hired Filippo Brunelleschi to finsh the Great Dome of Santa Maria del Fiore which had l谩in unfinished for over a century, a symbol of a failure of ambition. The builders had lost the knowledge of creating a dome so large so it remained unfinished. Despite much opposition from the other nobility and denouncers of the Renaissance, Cosimo's dream of the completion of the dome was completed, making it the largest brick dome in creation at that time. There is nothing like achieving your dreams and certainly nothing like leaving a lasting reminder that screams 'I was right and you were wrong' to stand for centuries.
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achliegh5 months ago
Olive and Otto
Masterlist :)
This is an AU still set in the SW universe but a little to the right and maybe down the block. I want Leo to have a little secret!
This is the 19th chapter of this little series I have and it's a little spicy. Enjoy!
This is a big one!
TW/CW: Smut, Drama, Arguing, Questioning Sexuality, Food, Panic attack
Characters belong to @lumosinlove
Kids鈥 Leo has kids. Leo has twins鈥 TWINS! Finn was just blinking at them still as a statue while Leo's mom brought all the kids' stuff in and Leo was wiping the tears off the little boys, Otto, face. He must have left them to pursue his dream, suddenly he feels light headed, when Otto turns his head and on the right side just above his ear, he has a crescent shaped surgery scar. He watched Leo run his thumb over the scar lovingly and it makes sense.
Leo being the loving and considerate person he is, shaved the sides of his head like his鈥 sons. INK had the right side of her head shaved too, was this because Otto was worried he wouldn鈥檛 fit in or something like that. Then Finn remembered the Tattoos! O&O behind Leo's ear on the right side of his head. Everything has a meaning.
The kids he would hear on Leo鈥檚 phone calls鈥 Olive and Otto
Why would he keep them hidden from the team though. Why hide them from the world? If you search Leo you don鈥檛 find his offspring on his google profile. WHAT THE FUCK!
Holy shit, INK is the mother of Leo鈥檚 kids! No wonder they have such a special bond! Then again, they are both big ole gays so how the fuck does that work! He was so confused. He felt a tug on his pinky finger and looked down, those striking blue eyes stared up at him. Olive had the same shape of doe eyes that INK has, actually she looked so much like her except for her eye color, curly hair and鈥 dimples. She was smiling at him and his heart melted into a puddle like ice cream on a hot day. He squatted down to her height and was surprise when she wrapped her arms around his neck and whispered to him.
鈥淭hank you for staying with daddy.鈥 She pulled away after pecking him on the cheek and ran to find her mom. Putting a hand over his mouth he couldn鈥檛 help but smile. Finn has always loved kids but he couldn鈥檛 imagine having kids so young. Was he ready for this? Should he get involved with Leo and his family. What if he messed up and the kids grew up horribly and it was his fault. What if the kids just hated him, or if one of them hated him!
鈥淔ish?鈥 He looks up to see Leo looking at him nervous as he holds Otto on his hip. The child is nuzzling his neck and yawning, tired from the long car ride. 鈥淎re you okay?鈥 Leo looked terrified, Finn was guessing that his twins had driven a few possible suitors away. Finn didn鈥檛 know if he could take care of a child, he could barely take care of himself. Leo was still a child, well not really but still.
鈥淗ow old?鈥 He looks at Otto who shy's away from him by shoving his face back into Leos neck. 鈥淗ow old were you?鈥
鈥15, it was the one time INK and I ever did anything like that鈥 He is looking at the ground in shame. 鈥淚t was a 1% chance, we even used protection and she was on birth control. She was on that because her cycle is so bad but we thought it wouldn鈥檛 happen, somehow it did. I wouldn鈥檛 trade them for the world.鈥 He kisses Otto鈥檚 forehead and looks at Finn for a second then looks towards the kitchen where he can hear Olive and his mother laughing. 鈥淢y mom was actually really excited, I had come out to her before we even knew INK was pregnant. She said she didn鈥檛 care as long as she got some form of grandkids.鈥 He laughs a little and Otto whines as he jostled him. 鈥淭hat's when INK was kicked out and she lived with us, she dropped out of school for that year because it took such a toll on her body, I felt so guilty the entire time. Then this little thing developed a small tumor in his brain last year, had surgery and asked us to have hair like him.鈥 He tickles Otto's stomach for a second, he wiggles and Leo puts him down as he runs to Olive.
鈥淚 never would have guessed鈥
鈥淚 try to keep them out of the public eye, my parents didn鈥檛 tell the world about me until I could decide if I wanted to be in the public eye. I plan to do the same for them, plus it isn鈥檛 safe. There is also the stigma of teenage parents, you know, bad parents who neglect their kids to go out and party. Stupid shit like that. I don鈥檛 want to hear it from the league, its my family. I don鈥檛 want to be criminalized for them. They鈥檙e my life!鈥 Looking at Finn with eyes that are begging him to understand. 鈥淚 send most of my paychecks to the kids because they need it more than me. They need me but I need to be here.鈥 He sighs 鈥淥nce they lay down for a nap we can talk about this more, okay?鈥
鈥淐an I call Logan over to have this talk with him too?鈥
Leo swallowed as his nerves were coming back.
He nodded
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mattzerella-sticks3 months ago
Buddies, 7.3k words, T, (pre-Eddie/Buck, gay!Eddie, coming out)
After Eddie was shot, there were two big things he had to deal with - recovery, and the near-death realization that he was gay. The latter of which proved more difficult of the two. But as his recovery was aided by a physical therapist, Eddie also found someone to help him come to terms with his sexuality and find acceptance. Eddie wouldn't know where he'd be if Michael hadn't taken him under his wing.
However, the consequences of a failed date - encouraged by Michael - lead to something Eddie didn't think he'd be facing so soon. Coming out to his teammates. Will Eddie find the strength within himself to push through his fears? It shouldn't be too hard... right?
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽It鈥檚 too stifling for a fall morning in Los Angeles, Eddie thought, as he hopped out of the fire engine and sweat immediately dampened the collar of his jacket. He tugged on the fabric, huffing a tired breath through clenched teeth as he trotted after his teammates. Eddie soon fell into step beside Buck as Bobby began directing them where they were needed along the highway pileup. 鈥淗en, Chim, attend to the drivers who are already outside their vehicles,鈥 Bobby ordered, waving at the few bystanders leaning against cars and cradling different parts of their body, like arms and heads and one visibly bloody side with blood leaking through pale fingertips. Hen and Chimney immediately hurried there before the woman fainted from blood loss. Then, Bobby points at the two smoking cars fused together feet away. 鈥淏uck, Eddie, I want you to check on the drivers in each car and assess the damage. If you can get the occupants out safely, you have permission to do so.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽They nodded, Buck鈥檚 face stretching with a grin as he locked eyes with Eddie. 鈥淲e got this, don鈥檛 we Eds?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie鈥檚 heart skipped at the nickname, and he blamed it on the weather. He blamed the warmth pooling in his cheeks, no doubt tinting his cheeks, on that, too. 鈥淐ourse we do.鈥 He followed Buck towards the wreckage, asking, 鈥淲hich one are you checking?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥檒l handle the Corvette,鈥 Buck said, 鈥渁lways wanted to have my hands on one, anyway.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淕uess that leaves me with the mini-van鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Buck shrugged, splitting off wordlessly to inspect the red sports car that, in this moment, resembled an empty beer can littering the floor of a house party. You get what you pay for, in the end. Eddie stifled his giggle, sobering to a more serious expression as he rounds the other, less-damaged, car. He found a young girl behind the wheel, staring straight ahead while white knuckling the steering wheel. An older woman sat in the passenger seat, knocked unconscious by the collision. He wasn鈥檛 worried too much, however, aware of the deflated air bags blanketing their laps. Eddie knocked on the door, 鈥淟AFD! Are you able to lower the window?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He startled the driver from her trance, shaky hands finally releasing the wheel and whipping to her face. She sobbed through her hands, a muffled sound that tugged on Eddie鈥檚 heartstrings.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie knocked again, softer, until she looked at him. He tapped the window slowly, 鈥淐an you lower this?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽She choked on a breath, chest heaving underneath her safety strap as she did what Eddie asked.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗ey,鈥 he began, reaching inside to click the safety off, 鈥渕y name is Eddie Diaz. What鈥檚 yours?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥l-Olivia鈥︹ she stuttered, wiping at tears that continued to fall no matter how hard she scrubbed her eyes, 鈥淚鈥檓鈥 oh God, I鈥檓 so sorry.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie unbuckled her seatbelt, checking for any cuts or abrasions because of it. The skin around her neck seemed red and tender from impact, a possible burn, but that was the extent of the damage there. 鈥淚t鈥檚 okay,鈥 he assured her, cradling Olivia鈥檚 head in his hands to better assess her injuries. There were scrapes and bruises there, dried blood crusting around her nose. Nothing that screamed 鈥榚mergency鈥. 鈥淲hy don鈥檛 you tell me what happened?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽She sucked in a deep breath, then launched into her story. Eddie listened, running through a mental checklist while she rambled. 鈥淚鈥檇 gotten my learner鈥檚 permit a few months ago,鈥 Olivia explained, 鈥渁nd I鈥檓 supposed to go for my driving test in a few months, for my birthday. In the meantime, I鈥檝e been practicing all I can and I鈥 and I thought I was ready for the highway. I mean, it鈥檚 not parallel parking, so I thought it couldn鈥檛 be that hard. But my mom thought I wasn鈥檛 ready and I鈥 I didn鈥檛 listen and 鈥 oh, oh no! My mom -!鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚s okay,鈥 he told Olivia, keeping her eyes on him and preventing any further sudden movement. 鈥淚 promise.鈥 Eddie surreptitiously scanned Olivia鈥檚 mother between beats of her story, noting the subtle rise and fall of her chest. 鈥淚s that how you got into the accident? Fighting with your mom?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲ell, partly,鈥 Olivia explained, 鈥淚鈥︹ She hesitated, biting her lip and causing a few more blood droplets to leak past the cut there. Eddie waited, running his hands below the dashboard to check for any strain or damage from the crash that might make extraction difficult. There wasn鈥檛 any he felt. 鈥淚t鈥檚 so embarrassing,鈥 she muttered.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚t鈥檚 okay,鈥 Eddie said, smiling, 鈥淵ou wouldn鈥檛 believe the kind of calls me and my team have rushed to. I鈥檓 sure whatever happened can鈥檛 be as embarrassing as a woman stuck in a window because she tried throwing her poop out when the toilet wouldn鈥檛 flush.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽That encouraged a tiny laugh from Olivia, and soon her earlier nerves from the crash disappeared. 鈥淚 guess鈥︹ she sighed, dabbing at drying tear stains with her hoodie sleeve, 鈥淚 was doing an okay job driving. Better than either I or my mom figured. But then this huge truck barreled by in such a rush that it shook the car and I freaked. I started screaming, and so did my mom, and I didn鈥檛 notice that we started drifting and鈥 ugh, I felt like Cher, y鈥檏now? From that movie Clueless?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie blinked at her. 鈥淵ou know what Clueless is?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚t鈥檚 a good movie,鈥 she defended, 鈥淧lus that鈥檚 like鈥 peak Paul Rudd. Although current Paul Rudd is also peak Paul Rudd鈥 he鈥檚 really cute for an old guy.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He mostly agreed with her, only offended by her closing remark. Paul Rudd isn鈥檛 old.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Paul鈥檚 ageless.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie stood at his full height, backing away to give Olivia space. 鈥淵ou think you can step out of this vehicle on your own?鈥 She shifted, slowly freeing one leg and then the other. Olivia tried exiting, except stumbled after the second foot left the car. Eddie caught her, easing her to the ground. From the corner of his eye, he saw Hen and Chimney approach. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e very lucky Olivia,鈥 he said, 鈥測ou had a great car that shielded you and your mom from some pretty serious damage. My friends are gonna help you two out now. You don鈥檛 have to tell them everything, but be sure to answer all their questions and if there鈥檚 any pain, okay?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥kay.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淕ood.鈥 Eddie rose to greet Hen and Chimney, quickly combing through all he learned during his short time with Olivia, stressing the most important pieces of information. 鈥淚 still have to get her mother out of the passenger side,鈥 he said, jerking his thumb at the car, 鈥渙nce I do that I can carry her to the ambulance so you can do your thing 鈥撯
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淪orry Eddie,鈥 Bobby interrupted, clapping him on the shoulder, 鈥淚鈥檓 gonna need your help with the other driver.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat bad?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚t鈥檚 an older car, made with metal instead of plastic,鈥 he said, 鈥済uy鈥檚 wedged in there pretty tight, cut up, too. And there鈥檚 a glass shard running right into his shoulder blade.鈥 Bobby turned to Hen and Chimney, 鈥淥nce you鈥檙e done here we鈥檒l need you on standby to help us. No telling how much blood he鈥檚 lost so far, or if there鈥檚 any trauma below his waist.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淣o problem Cap,鈥 Chimney said, 鈥淲e鈥檙e almost done here. Hen, why don鈥檛 you go with Eddie and Bobby while I see to Olivia鈥檚 mom?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淪ounds like a plan to me.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淕reat,鈥 Bobby led them to the other side of the wreckage, Buck absent from the scene. 鈥淗e鈥檚 getting the jaws,鈥 he told Eddie and Hen. Then, once they鈥檝e reached the Corvette鈥檚 driver鈥檚 side, Bobby yelled into the open, broken, window, 鈥淪ir? Sir, can you hear me? Are you still with us?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽The man groaned a few indecipherable syllables Eddie couldn鈥檛 hope to piece together. He exchanged a short glance with Hen, who appeared similarly unsure. Bobby, meanwhile, continued his one-sided conversation as they waited for Buck to arrive with the jaws.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淐oming in hot!鈥 he yelled, lugging the jaws over his shoulders, 鈥淲here you want me, Cap?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淟et鈥檚 start with the door,鈥 he motioned Buck closer, pointing at the hinge. 鈥淓ddie, grab the middle. I鈥檒l get this side. When Buck snips this free, we鈥檒l gently lower it down and let Hen get in there.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淐opy that.鈥 Eddie readied himself, crouching into position. He laid his hands atop the car door, small glass shards crunching under his gloves as his fingers curled. Buck and Bobby talked over his head, working to line up the jaws correctly. During this, Eddie chanced a peek inside at the driver.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽The face he saw, staring back at him, nearly knocked him off his feet.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Fitting, as that was how it felt when Michael showed him his picture while convincing Eddie to go on a blind date.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗e works with David at the hospital,鈥 Michael told him, passing his phone over so Eddie would see what David鈥檚 co-worker, Dr. Brendan Carmichael, looked like. In the picture Michael found, a selfie from Instagram, Eddie learned more than he needed. That beside the bright, orange hair and freckles splattered across his face like someone flicked a paintbrush over his skin, he also maintained a very strict gym regimen which kept his abs in perfect condition. Eddie鈥檚 thumb hovered over the midsection Brendan revealed, careful not to like it on Michael鈥檚 account. 鈥淗e broke up with his last boyfriend a few months ago, and only recently started talking about dating again,鈥 he continued, Eddie tearing his gaze away from the phone to better listen, 鈥淒avid mentioned you, how you were wanting to date again, too, and Brendan鈥檚 interested in setting something up. Only question is鈥 are you?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽It was something Eddie was working himself up to. After breaking things off with Ana during his recovery, and Buck鈥檚 focus divided further because of Taylor, Eddie found periods where he was all alone with only his thoughts as company. Because of this, it was harder and harder for him to ignore certain stuff he鈥檇 pushed to the back of his mind and crammed into a tiny closet. Namely, his utter sexual indifference to women.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Almost dying for the umpteenth time put Eddie鈥檚 life into perspective.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He wouldn鈥檛 know if the next near-death call might finally succeed where others hadn鈥檛, and Eddie realized how awful it鈥檇 be to go without following his heart.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽So he followed it all the way to Michael鈥檚. Eddie knocked on his door late one evening, a fifth of whiskey in his veins dulling the voices shouting how this was stupid, how he and Michael were acquaintances at best and strangers at worst. Then, once Michael invited him inside his empty apartment, Eddie vomited his epiphanies until Michael set his shaking frame down on the couch and forced a glass of water down his throat.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Since then, Michael had taken on the role as Eddie鈥檚 gay sponsor. Michael guided Eddie to a point where he could see his reflection and say 鈥榞ay鈥 while smiling. He also pushed at the fear that still clung to Eddie, urging him to experience new things, like with this blind-date.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 don鈥檛 know,鈥 he said, 鈥渉e does look鈥 really, really nice.鈥 Admitting that never felt like pulling teeth with pliers anymore, thanks to Michael. 鈥淚鈥檓 just鈥 not sure.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat aren鈥檛 you sure about?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 don鈥檛 know,鈥 he shrugged, 鈥淚鈥 I guess it鈥檚 nerves. I鈥檝e never done this before, you know. Is there anything I should know? That makes it different than a date with a woman?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Michael shot him a flat look, snatching his phone back. 鈥淎 date is a date. There鈥檚 nothing different about it because it鈥檚 with another man. Well鈥 except for when the check comes, and you have to bare-knuckle brawl in the kitchen to decide who gets to pay.鈥 Eddie returned the favor, brows leveling at his friend. Michael chuckled, 鈥淪eriously, it鈥檚 nothing you need to work yourself up about. Go into it like it was any other date. You鈥檒l have fun 鈥 and I鈥檓 not laying it on. Brendan is a great guy, from what I鈥檝e heard. He鈥檚 got charm and face, which is rare. You don鈥檛 find men like us in the wild every day.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淢en like us?鈥 Eddie parroted, cheeks straining as he fought against the smile threatening to appear.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淢e,鈥 Michael clarified, grinning freely, 鈥淎nd Chris Hemsworth. That鈥檚 it though.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淎nd this Brendan guy,鈥 Eddie added, 鈥渋f what you鈥檙e saying is true.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽It wasn鈥檛, unfortunately.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽The night started with Brendan arriving late to the restaurant he chose because of its proximity to the hospital, and only further plummeted as it went on. Brendan criticized his choice in dinner, goading him into ordering an even pricier dish that Eddie hadn鈥檛 even wanted. Which Eddie then paid for, although he almost was stuck with the entire bill as Brendan assumed Eddie would cover it. It almost made Eddie reconsider Michael鈥檚 earlier crack about brawling. And if that wasn鈥檛 bad enough, Brendan鈥檚 personality rubbed Eddie the wrong way. He was dismissive of Eddie鈥檚 career, unsubtly scrolled through his phone during parts of the evening, and seemed entirely uninterested in Christopher to the point that Brendan interrupted any story about him with an unconnected anecdote, derailing the entire conversation. As the waiter left with their credit cards, all Eddie wanted was to put this date in the rearview behind him.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Except Brendan鈥檚 phone died during dessert, and he didn鈥檛 drive himself. 鈥淚f you could give me a ride?鈥 Brendan suggested, slipping a hand behind Eddie鈥檚 button-down and petting his chest, 鈥淚鈥檇 be very grateful鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie wished he could say he drove Brendan home without anything happening, that he was a stronger man. But Eddie gave in to curious temptation. He let Brendan guide him to his apartment bed instead of racing back home to fall asleep in an empty house, Christopher staying over at Michael鈥檚 with Harry.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽They jerked each other off in the end; a slight comfort over oral and miles above anal. Once Eddie came, he feigned exhaustion and settled in for a sleepless night. He laid in wait for the morning, where he snuck out of Brendan鈥檚 apartment as the rising sun filtered past drawn curtains without a word to his date. Eddie did leave a note, promising he would call soon.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He hadn鈥檛 and had no plan to, either.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Still, here Brendan was.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淐utting in three, guys,鈥 Buck yelled. He proceeded to count down; on one, Eddie heard the snip from the jaws and belatedly realized he needed to move. Bobby swung a second before Eddie, and the momentum of the door made Eddie stumble in his haste to lift the door.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓ddie,鈥 Bobby huffed, 鈥淵ou good?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵eah鈥 yeah,鈥 he nodded, dropping the door on the street at the same time Bobby did. 鈥淣o need to worry about me.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Bobby didn鈥檛 believe him, but he stopped questioning Eddie in favor of looming over Hen鈥檚 shoulder as she worked on Brendan. Buck leaned against the roof, head ducked inside the cabin, too. Eddie stood apart from the scene as an outlier. He wasn鈥檛 sure if it was good to approach. Although, being fully removed meant he wouldn鈥檛 know what the other man might say in his condition.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Only three people knew of his sexuality 鈥 Michael, David, and Brendan. Eddie wasn鈥檛 ready for that circle to expand.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie returned, joining the others. He entered to hear Hen finish her line of questioning, her last question prompting Brendan to speak. 鈥淭he wound on my shoulder is superficial,鈥 he said, gaze unwavering on the side of Eddie鈥檚 face. He felt the weight of it, Eddie turned to watch his co-workers instead of Brendan. Bobby鈥檚 focus didn鈥檛 waver from the crushed dashboard in Brendan鈥檚 lap, prodding it in different areas. Buck kept glancing between Eddie and Brendan. 鈥淚t鈥檚 deep, but a clean cut. You can get to that later, because I鈥檓 pretty sure there鈥檚 something digging into my leg close to my femoral artery.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲e鈥檒l get right to it, then,鈥 Hen assured him, 鈥淪ounds like you know your stuff, though. You a doctor?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie bit his tongue, swallowing his instinctual reply. 鈥淵eah,鈥 Brendan said, 鈥淚鈥檓 a doctor.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hen that saves us some time.鈥 Hen reached into her bag for a neck brace, placing it around Brendan鈥檚 neck while Bobby muttered something to Buck. Buck鈥檚 eyes flicked to his briefly before he jogged towards the fire truck. 鈥淲e鈥檒l have you out of here in no time. Can you tell me where you were headed?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭o lunch,鈥 Brendan told her, 鈥淲e had to push a surgery back a day, and my next one wasn鈥檛 until two so I鈥 I thought I鈥檇 treat myself to something nice. I already had back-to-back operations this entire morning.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat were they?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭umor removals,鈥 he explained, 鈥渋n the brain. Real delicate work. I鈥檝e probably performed over a hundred by now, but I still can鈥檛 shake the jitters each time I enter the theater鈥︹ Eddie grimaced, hiding it behind his jacket collar. Yes, he knew about Brendan鈥檚 job. Hearing it in this context, on the field and not in a dimly lit restaurant, hit differently; like he cared about his patients and didn鈥檛 use his position as a point of status. This was not the Brendan he remembered. Regret churned in Eddie鈥檚 gut, mixing with the shame and embarrassment already present.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 know what you mean,鈥 Hen smiled. She rubbed around the shoulder wound, cleaning it of dried blood to better inspect it. 鈥淵ou can have it all down to a formula, but you will never be sure what might happen when the time comes.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓xactly.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Buck hurried back with new tools in hands. He handed a saw to Bobby, 鈥淲here do you want me?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥ther side,鈥 Bobby said. He tapped Hen on the shoulder, silently urging her off Brendan. 鈥淪ir,鈥 he started, 鈥渨e鈥檙e going to be cutting the dashboard off shortly. Don鈥檛 be afraid to talk or shout if you feel any pain, okay?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 understand.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥檒l remove the wheel, first,鈥 Bobby said, slipping a pair of goggles on, 鈥渄on鈥檛 move.鈥 He powered the saw on and, in seconds, removed the wheel. Brendan sagged somewhat, breathing stilted and ragged. 鈥淎re you okay?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵eah...鈥 He coughed, 鈥淭hink my ribs might be bruised, possibly broken. I don鈥檛鈥 I think that鈥檚 it. Not sure.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵ou鈥檙e talking, so that鈥檚 a good sign.鈥 Hen felt around his chest, then held her stethoscope to hear his lungs. 鈥淣othing out of the ordinary here, Cap. Carry on.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Bobby, and Buck now, brought their saws to the dashboard and continued cutting. Hen waited, kneeling, holding a bottle of solution and gauze for when it was her turn again. Meanwhile, Eddie uselessly hovered near her. There wasn鈥檛 much for him to do.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽That wasn鈥檛 true for long.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Suddenly he was very much needed, Bobby calling for him and motioning Eddie with the saw. He tripped over his feet, 鈥淐oming! Coming!鈥 Rushing to help Bobby remove the dashboard that, along with the glass shard, pinned Brendan to his seat. In doing this, Eddie glimpsed the red-stained leather under his leg. 鈥淗en!鈥 he said, 鈥淎ll you.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Hen filled the space where the dashboard had been, attending to Brendan鈥檚 wound with practiced speed. As Eddie and Bobby returned, she fixed the tourniquet around his thigh and was partway done with wrapping his leg with gauze. And when Buck sidled towards them, she began removing the glass shard in his shoulder. It was much longer than a passing glance would make you believe. 鈥淵ikes,鈥 Buck muttered, 鈥淵ou ever think a windshield could do that?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥ld cars like these?鈥 Bobby replied, 鈥淎nything鈥檚 possible.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗e鈥檚 good for removal!鈥 Hen yelled over her shoulder, kicking her bag a few feet back. She stands, dusting off her knees, 鈥淚鈥檒l go get Chimney and the stretcher, be ready to help us set him down once we鈥檙e here.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淏uck and Eddie鈥檒l handle that,鈥 Bobby said, 鈥淚鈥檓 gonna do a final sweep of the area, make sure we didn鈥檛 miss anything. Copy?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淯nderstood.鈥 Buck knocked shoulders with Eddie, nodding at the car, 鈥淟et鈥檚 go get the doctor ready for his ride back to work.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie bit his cheek, letting silence give a better response than he could at the moment. If Buck found it odd, like Bobby, he didn鈥檛 comment on it. They walked to Brendan鈥檚 car again, Eddie going through the motions to get him ready for transit. In that short span of seconds, Eddie hoped his luck might keep his secret safe. That Brendan wouldn鈥檛 mention their date.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He knelt down, waiting for Buck鈥檚 signal to lift his legs, when he made the mistake of finally meeting Brendan鈥檚 stare. Brendan offered him a tired smile. 鈥淭his is so not how I expected we鈥檇 meet again.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥hit.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Buck stilled, his hands falling to their sides as he looked to Eddie. 鈥淵ou two know each other?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Brendan sighed in the affirmative. 鈥淰ery intimately.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat鈥︹ Buck鈥檚 face screwed itself into an expression of confusion, the rainbow wheel in his mind spinning endlessly while he processed Brendan鈥檚 innuendo.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie pounced to fill the awkward silence. 鈥淲e hung out, once,鈥 he told Buck, 鈥淟ike, a few days ago, I think? Super casual鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥h 鈥撯
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥h,鈥 Brendan interjected, darker than earlier. He coughed, voice straining from the force of it, but he wasn鈥檛 deterred. 鈥淥h, really? Hanging out鈥 that鈥檚 what you鈥檙e calling it?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淯h鈥︹ Eddie, taken aback by such an unexpected call out, couldn鈥檛 produce more than a few mumbled phrases that didn鈥檛 move beyond one syllable nor, when strung together, were comprehensible. Instead he glanced between Brendan and Buck, wasting precious time with silence.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Brendan, however, formed complete sentences. 鈥淪o tell me鈥 since I have you, were you even planning on hanging out with me again, or do you leave all your buddies notes like that?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽In his anger, Brendan shifted and started angling himself towards Eddie. Buck snapped out of his stupor enough to lay a calming hand on Brendan鈥檚 shoulder, 鈥淗ey! Hey鈥 sir, you need to keep still until we move you.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淪orry, sorry鈥︹ Brendan relaxed, albeit his glare was still focused on Eddie. Eddie flinched under the weight of it.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥︹ Eddie tried, very aware of the sound behind him, of wheels rolling over gravel and measured footsteps. 鈥淚 was trying to be nice?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淣ice?鈥 Brendan spat, 鈥淔uck you, Eddie.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓ddie,鈥 Buck inched closer, drawing Eddie鈥檚 gaze from Brendan to him. He spoke softly, like Eddie were one of the many victims they attended to during their careers. Eddie also noted the sharp steeple Buck鈥檚 brows, drawn together as if he already filled in the missing gaps of Eddie and Brendan鈥檚 story. Shit. 鈥淲hy don鈥檛 you let us handle this?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥︹ Eddie found breathing as hard as speaking, managing enough foresight to sharply nod before standing and striding away from Brendan鈥檚 car. He passed a curious, concerned Bobby, but ignored his calls. Eddie kept himself tightly wound all the way to the engine. Once he entered, he fell apart. Eddie鈥檚 vision blurred, his lungs couldn鈥檛 hold enough air, and he melted inside his uniform. All he was able to do before completely shutting down was shoot a quick message to Michael.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Brendn in acidnt fine but h outd me what do
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie鈥檚 grip on his phone tightened considerably when he heard the engine doors open again. Buck slid inside, not meeting Eddie鈥檚 wide, panicked stare. There were more doors opening, Bobby and other firefighters climbing aboard. 鈥淗en and Chim are taking that guy to the hospital,鈥 Buck said, 鈥淥ur work here鈥檚 done.鈥 He paused, gnawing on his lip, considering saying more while Bobby slowly pulled them onto the road. 鈥淲hat he said鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He missed the rest of Buck鈥檚 question. His voice dulled as a sharp ringing in Eddie鈥檚 head blocked out every sound around him. Eddie sunk into it, comforted in the simpleness of the noise. He pressed himself against the window, arms crossed over his chest, and watched the scenery blur during their drive to the station.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Then, when they arrived, Eddie flung the door open and his puddled mass in a jacket spilled free of the engine. He stripped off his uniform in a record-setting pace. And, as he finished, Eddie saw Buck steadily approach, Bobby like a shadow behind him. Both wore similar expressions that warned Eddie of conversations he was not ready for. Because of that, Eddie did something he regret. A course of action so damning it spoke louder than any mangled defense he might put together.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He hid.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淪tupid鈥 stupid鈥︹ Eddie whacked his phone across his temple, curled into a tight ball outside the building. He snuck through a door in the back, smart enough to not go far but knowing that it鈥檚 so rare anyone used this area. It was set aside for the firefighters who smoked, Chimney explained. Those were always a small contingent, never more than one or two per squad. As the years went by, numbers dwindled, and a smoking firefighter became an endangered species. Now, hardly anyone uses this tiny alley that separates the fire house from its adjoining building. Except for Eddie. 鈥淚 can鈥檛 believe I could have such shitty luck鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He went to hit himself with his phone again, but a shrill ping cut into his spiraling. Eddie checked his messages 鈥 Can I call? It was Michael. He texted back a thumbs up he didn鈥檛 mean. Soon his phone shook in his hands.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie answered, 鈥淗ey鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗i Eddie,鈥 Michael said, tone soft like Buck鈥檚 back at the scene. He hated it. Eddie hated how much he wilted because of it, how his nerves started inching away from the edge at the gentle, implied coaxing. 鈥淗ow are you feeling?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie barked a short, nasty laugh, wiping beads of sweat off his forehead. 鈥淚 feel like I鈥檓 about to burst into flames.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚f you do, at least you鈥檙e around people who鈥檒l know what to do.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat if I don鈥檛 want them to save me,鈥 Eddie groused, 鈥渟hould I make a break for it before the first spark catches?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淟ike they wouldn鈥檛 race after you鈥︹ Michael鈥檚 voice trailed, clearly tiptoeing around the words he chose next. 鈥淪o,鈥 he said, 鈥測ou ran into Brendan again today?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie snorted. 鈥淢ore like some kid ran into his car鈥︹ He growled, kneading at his eye with the heel of his hand. 鈥淚 can鈥檛 believe what happened, and how I鈥 how I froze like that. Seriously, what were the odds?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淧retty fucking low,鈥 Michael told him, 鈥淏ut that鈥檚 exactly what it was, shit luck. There鈥檚 nothing you could have done to not have what happened, happened.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat鈥檚 not true,鈥 he sighed, 鈥淚 could have not gone on that date with him. Or, at least, not let him talk me into his bed.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗e鈥檚 a charmer.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 had nothing better going on,鈥 Eddie said. He played his words back in his head, silently cursing how brusque they sounded. Was he really the bad guy in this scenario? Brendan hadn鈥檛 seem interested in a relationship during their dinner, and Eddie thought his own feelings were on display, too. Buck always said his poker face had more cracks in it than a busted sidewalk. Maybe the note was unnecessary, he can concede. Eddie can鈥檛 rewrite history and destroy it, though. 鈥淏esides,鈥 he continued, swatting those past regrets away like flies, 鈥淏rendan wasn鈥檛 all that charming when he outed me, on top of cursing me out in front of the 118.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淢an was in a car accident,鈥 Michael reminded Eddie, 鈥淗e probably had more to worry about than decorum.鈥 Michael coughed across the line, clearing his throat. 鈥淭hat doesn鈥檛 excuse what he did.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵eah,鈥 he said, 鈥淚 thought it was, like, gay brotherhood that you鈥檙e not supposed to out another gay person鈥 or whatever.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥 don鈥檛 think he knew. That you weren鈥檛 out鈥︹ Michael hummed, the noise rattling inside Eddie鈥檚 chest. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e right, in a way. Any decent gay person wouldn鈥檛 out a person before they鈥檙e ready. I can鈥檛 remember if Derek mentioned your鈥 situation, when setting up the date. I can text him but, Eddie 鈥撯 Michael鈥檚 sigh caused the line to crackle and break, Eddie shivering as it hit his ear 鈥溾 Eddie, Brendan and what he might and might not have known isn鈥檛 important, isn鈥檛 why I called.鈥 Eddie knew. Of course, he knew. 鈥淲hat are you planning on doing next?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat depends,鈥 Eddie mumbled. His free hand tugged on his laces, loosening them slowly. 鈥淒o you want to hear what I want to do, or what I鈥檓 going to do.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat do you want to do?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淔ake mine and Chris鈥檚 deaths,鈥 he told Michael, 鈥淪tart over somewhere new. Maybe on the East Coast, in a small fishing village where I can be a lighthouse keeper and never have to see another person ever again. Just me and Chris and the sea, until Chris leaves or I grow old and die. Whichever happens first.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat鈥檚鈥 dark.鈥 Michael said, 鈥淎nd oddly specific.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie shrugged, 鈥淚 watched the Lighthouse last night. Robert Pattinson jerked it to some mermaid doodle in it. Like鈥 I could do that. Survive off of doodles of hunky mermen, or sailors. Hunky mermen getting it on with sailors鈥 God knows the real thing didn鈥檛 work out.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵ou don鈥檛 mean that.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲ell, what else can I do?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵ou can go inside and talk to your friends,鈥 Michael reasoned, 鈥淵our team who cares about you, and are most definitely worried because of what happened and how it affected you. Your family, who is ready to accept you for who you are as they always will. But first, you need to trust them and let them in to see who that is.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽When Michael explained it, the obvious choice also seemed to be the easiest. The tiny seed of doubt, however, planted once Eddie accepted his heart鈥檚 leanings and blossomed into a strange bushel of roses with thorny roots strangling his chest, would not let him be. It poisoned his rationality, shredding any confidence Eddie built. 鈥淚 trust them with my life,鈥 he wondered, speaking barely above a whisper, 鈥渨hy is it so hard to trust them with this? Is it just me?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚t鈥檚 not you, Eddie,鈥 Michael said. His voice thundered with conviction, startling Eddie. 鈥淏elieve me, you aren鈥檛 the first gay man to feel this way and, unfortunately, you won鈥檛 be the last.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He sniffed, a wet chuckle escaping past his lips in a raspy breath. 鈥淭hat sucks.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚t sure does,鈥 Michael agreed.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淒oes it ever go away?鈥 he asked, 鈥淥r鈥 get easier?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚鈥 it鈥檚 not a cut-and-dry answer,鈥 he told Eddie, 鈥淚n some cases, yes. Others鈥 no. It鈥檚 situational.鈥 Eddie found this answer unsatisfying. He wasn鈥檛 the only one. 鈥淟isten,鈥 Michael said, 鈥渢his might seem scary now, but I, uh 鈥 remember that first night. That night you came to my place and confided in me. What did you say?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat I was gay.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵es鈥︹ Michael sucked in a deep breath, hissing his next thought so pointedly it cut through those pesky roots. 鈥淣ow, imagine you鈥檙e me, saying what you said to me, but instead of saying it to me you were saying it to my lovely ex-wife who, at the time, was still my wife, and all this after we鈥檙e both a few glasses of wine deep and the kids are asleep.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Michael鈥檚 past helped put Eddie鈥檚 own troubles in perspective. He mentioned as such to him.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 don鈥檛 want to come off like 鈥業 had worse鈥 blah blah,鈥 Michael said, 鈥淢y point is 鈥 you see how good the relationship between Athena and I is. She could have easily kicked me out and then never spoken to me again. But she didn鈥檛. She had every reason to hate me, but she didn鈥檛. Athena loved me when she thought I was straight and continued after learning I was gay. It鈥檚 a different sort of love now, and yes, it might have wavered at times, but she stuck by my side like I stuck to hers. Yes, I was scared to tell her, just like you were when you came and told me. Just like you are now. But because I pushed through my fear, I freed us both from being unhappy. Her and Bobby鈥 me and Derek鈥 neither would have happened if I decided to keep my feelings to myself.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵eah鈥 your life did change鈥︹ Eddie rested his head against his knees, remnants of adrenaline from earlier fully fading leaving an exhaustion that set deep into his bones. 鈥淚 guess that鈥檚 what I鈥檓 really afraid of. How鈥 acknowledging who I really am, and owning it, how everything will change after.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓ddie, will being gay affect your job?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲hat?鈥 Eddie yelped, head rising again, neck aching from the whiplash Michael鈥檚 unrelated question caused. 鈥淣o 鈥撯
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲ill you being out really make you a completely different, unrecognizable person?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淯h鈥 I 鈥 I don鈥檛鈥 no?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hen it sounds like nothing will actually change.鈥 Michael鈥檚 tone relaxed and, finally, Eddie let himself do the same. The other man鈥檚 speech wrapped around him like a warm blanket. 鈥淵ou didn鈥檛 wake up one morning and decide to be gay. It鈥檚 something that鈥檚 always been a part of you. It鈥檚 been there during every call you went out on. You鈥檒l still be Eddie鈥 just a happier Eddie, because you鈥檙e allowing yourself to be happy and honest with who you are. That鈥檚 what鈥檚 important here. Coming out isn鈥檛 about other people, it鈥檚 about you. You, opening yourself to others to see this part of you, and letting them share in the joy of who you are. And the 118, your friends, will still love you because this鈥 this gay Eddie you have in your mind, is just Eddie. That鈥檚 it.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie didn鈥檛 cry. He wouldn鈥檛 be able to hide it, once he went back inside to confront his friends. If they asked, Eddie might mumble a few broken words about allergies then move on. Because he didn鈥檛 let his tears fall. 鈥淭hanks, Michael,鈥 Eddie said, 鈥淚鈥 I鈥檓 really grateful for you, being my friend. And that you didn鈥檛 turn me away like you should have done when I showed up at your apartment.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淚 was less afraid of what you鈥檇 do,鈥 Michael laughed, 鈥渁nd more afraid what you might do if I didn鈥檛.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽They ended the call soon enough, with Eddie exchanging a few final pleasantries while Michael鈥檚 goodbye was laced with encouragement.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie stood, riding the aches of pain that came from unfurling his back out of the tight coil he forced it into. He stretched his arms, pointed high towards the sky. Eddie leaned onto his toes, and even lifted his face to better feel the sun shining above.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Much too warm for fall.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Despite the heat and his fears, Eddie returned to the firehouse. He slowly crept inside, alert, gaze bouncing around for a sign of his friends. When he didn鈥檛 find them on the first floor, not hovering by the truck and newly returned ambulance or biding time in the gym, Eddie passed faceless co-workers on his way to the stairs. Each step Eddie took sounded like beats from a heavy drum, sounding a funeral march. Eddie kept up the tempo.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽As he climbed higher, his head peeked out and Eddie caught a glimpse of the second floor. Like always, his eyes were drawn immediately to Buck. He, along with Bobby, Hen, and Chim, were huddled around the kitchen island. Eddie watched them converse quietly, briefly, the discussion cutting off because Buck, the one currently speaking, turned and saw Eddie. Buck straightened, body taut and tense like Christopher got after Eddie caught him misbehaving. Eddie wasn鈥檛 foolish enough to think they were talking about anything other than him. Buck鈥檚 face flickers, flipping through emotions like pages in a book too fast so Eddie can鈥檛 read. It settled on a steely fa莽ade of determination, Buck readying to move. Before he can, Bobby stopped Buck with one hand on his shoulder. He understood.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Let Eddie come to them.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He did, slowly, at his own pace. Eddie settled between Hen and Chimney, both firefighters creating a space for him.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽There鈥檚 a beat of silence, the air above the kitchen island so weighty Eddie鈥檚 shoulders drooped. He fought against it, taking a deep breath. 鈥淗ey.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓ddie,鈥 Bobby spoke first, 鈥渉ow are you doing?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Michael advised honesty. That鈥檚 what Eddie gave. 鈥淚鈥檓 a little scared,鈥 he admitted with a laugh, staring intently at a divot in the island鈥檚 counter, and how his finger repeatedly traced it. 鈥淥kay. A lot of scared.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲e鈥檙e here for you Eddie,鈥 Bobby said, 鈥淲hatever it is.鈥 On either side, his friends reached for him. Hen laid her hand over Eddie鈥檚, crushing it in a loving grip, while Chimney soothingly rubbed his back. Eddie glanced at the men in front of him, Bobby looking encouraging at him while Buck鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie still can鈥檛 decipher what it is Buck tries to show.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽If he thought about it too long, he鈥檇 lose all the confidence he gathered to arrive at this point. Eddie swallowed past the lump in his throat, attempting to smile. 鈥淭hank you,鈥 he said, 鈥渞eally.鈥 Then, without fanfare, Eddie shrugged and told his friends, 鈥淚鈥檓 gay.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Like that, the next breath Eddie took felt lighter. It was unbelievable. No one said anything, but their love and acceptance were visible in other ways. Eddie was almost brought to tears because of them. He reigned his emotions in, maintaining control. If they stayed like this, however, he鈥檚 sure to break.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie cleared his throat, 鈥淭hat鈥檚 all. So if we could鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淣ot so fast,鈥 Chimney said, smirk tainting their tender moment. His hand slunk across Eddie鈥檚 back to his shoulder, clamping down and chaining Eddie there at his side. 鈥淭here鈥檚 still the doctor of it all that鈥檚 been unaccounted for鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淐him,鈥 Bobby warned lightly, trying his best to play boss.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Hen waved him off. 鈥淓ddie should have his chance to explain,鈥 she argued, 鈥渢ell us his side of the story. Lord knows Chim and I got an earful about what that man thought of you, Eddie. Filled the entire drive from the wreck to the hospital.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗e had a lot of opinions,鈥 Chimney added.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie sighed. He expected they might have questions, especially about Brendan. He wasn鈥檛 unprepared for this. 鈥淚 went on one date with the man,鈥 he explained, 鈥渟omething Michael set up 鈥撯
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淢ichael?鈥 Bobby interrupted, tapping his chest, 鈥淢y Michael?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗e鈥檚 not just your friend,鈥 Eddie said, 鈥淗e鈥 he鈥檚 been helping me deal with鈥 with all this. This鈥 being gay, stuff.鈥 He shifted, bending forward to press his chest on the counter. 鈥淚t was Michael鈥檚 idea I go on a date with Brendan, sort of like practice. To get more comfortable being鈥 out, in public, with another man. Personally, I didn鈥檛 think the date was that special. Brendan was鈥 he had a lot of personality.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淪ure was flexing that鈥 personality, despite all those injuries,鈥 Hen agreed, 鈥淜ept going on about this 鈥 this note you wrote? What was that about?鈥 Hen might have asked coyly, but it was obvious to Eddie she knew.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽He still answered her. 鈥淚 was going for nice,鈥 he muttered, 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 want to up and abandon him after we鈥 after he invited me over for the night, and we鈥︹ They were at work. Eddie couldn鈥檛 say more.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Nothing else needed saying. Even Buck understood, if his rapidly flushing cheeks meant anything. 鈥淥h,鈥 he said, 鈥渟o you and him鈥 you two鈥︹ His pointer fingers on either hand were extended, slapping each other with wide sweeps.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Hen choked on a snort, shoving Buck鈥檚 hands apart. 鈥淭hey weren鈥檛 sword-fighting, Buck.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淵eah, I knew that鈥︹ Because of his bashful pout, followed by Buck tucking his head into his chest, Eddie didn鈥檛 buy his excuse.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥kay,鈥 Bobby steered the conversation elsewhere, 鈥渂esides us and鈥 Michael鈥 have you told anyone else?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie shook his head. 鈥淩eally?鈥 Buck asked, 鈥淣ot even Chris?鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淓specially not Chris鈥︹ Some of that earlier fear returned, roosting in his chest like a bird returned north from winter. 鈥淚 never鈥 I don鈥檛 know how I would explain it to him or鈥 how much I would have to explain? Like, if I was a single dad from the start, I鈥檓 sure it would be easier. But most of his memories are with me and his mom, and I 鈥 I haven鈥檛 figured out a way to tell him while also not invalidating mine and Shannon鈥檚 marriage, y鈥檏now?鈥 Eddie agonized over that near constantly. He loved Shannon, truly, and wanted their marriage to work despite not being attracted to her in the way that mattered. Christopher needed her in his life. If that meant Eddie gave Shannon what she wanted, what Eddie pretended he wanted to, it would have been worth it.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽But, in the end, she still went ahead with the divorce. Shannon was more perceptive than he ever gave her credit for.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淎nd then there鈥檚 the Ana of it all鈥︹ Eddie threw out, offhandedly.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淲ait,鈥 Buck said, 鈥渨as that why you broke it off with her? When you told me鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie鈥檚 breath hitched slightly, and he drummed his fingers against the counterspace. 鈥淣o,鈥 he said, 鈥淚鈥 I didn鈥檛 have the realization then. I meant it, about us not clicking and鈥 her being another try at giving Chris a mom. Although, being gay would definitely have played a factor in us not clicking.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淭hat鈥檚 for sure.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Another wave of silence washed over them, this the most awkward of them all. 鈥淚f that鈥檚 it for questions鈥︹ Eddie extricated himself from the group, final shreds of adrenaline fading and leaving him exhausted. His mind already set a course for the bunks, planning a lengthy nap as a reward for his vulnerability.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淥f course,鈥 Bobby rounded the island, moving closer to Eddie. Buck was on his heels, but hung back on the fringes of the group, a few inches behind Hen and Chimney. 鈥淚 want you to know how proud I am of you, though. I can鈥檛 imagine any of what you had to deal with was easy, and if you need anything from us 鈥 keeping this information to ourselves or whatever鈥 let us know. We鈥檒l follow your lead.鈥 He then opened himself for a hug, giving Eddie the option to accept or refuse.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie sagged into Bobby鈥檚 embrace, grateful. 鈥淭hank you.鈥 Hen and Chimney joined them, squeezing Eddie tighter and tighter. Only Buck kept his distance. Eddie opened his eyes and noticed the younger man watching them, a glint in his eye that struck Eddie鈥檚 nerve. Once the others released him, Eddie confronted Buck. 鈥淗ey, are you鈥︹
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽鈥淗mm?鈥 Buck blinked, and what Eddie saw earlier disappeared. It vanished like it never existed. Maybe Eddie imagined it? Regardless, Buck smiled in his usual, too-large-for-his-face way and swept Eddie in a giant hug of his own. 鈥淚鈥檓 proud, too,鈥 he whispered, 鈥淎nd what Bobby said goes double for me. Anything you need, ask鈥 and I鈥檒l be there.鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie caught himself before he spoke without thinking. Instead, he returned the hug. He rested his cheek against Buck鈥檚 shoulder, humming in acknowledgment of Buck鈥檚 promise.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Buck would do anything for Eddie, as much as he would do anything for Christopher.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Anything鈥 except what Eddie truly desired from him.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽While baring his soul to the group about his sexuality was one matter, confessing to all his secrets was an entirely different sort he hadn鈥檛 felt ready for. He doubted he ever will be. Because if he told Buck the reason why he stopped running from the truth, why he couldn鈥檛 deny his feelings after being content in doing so for years, Eddie feared Buck would prove the sickening voices in his head right by leaving him.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Really, Eddie thought, what else was there to do when you learn your best friend is in love with you?
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽So he ignored how Buck鈥檚 touch skimmed his lower back, the gentle swaying dance they began by hugging longer than necessary, and, as they drew apart, the struck-match feeling of Buck鈥檚 lips brushing the outer edge of his ear.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽There was nothing to read into, he reminded himself. He and Buck were friends. Best friends. Best buddies. Buck had Taylor, and Eddie鈥
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Eddie had hope. Hope, emboldened by his bout of honesty, that there will come a day he found a man he truly loved to share his life with.
聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽Even if they weren鈥檛 Buck.
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chiafett4 months ago
Using all the clones from ur high school au, what kind of civ clothing do you think they'd wear?
Okay okay okay I took some time and went to TOWN on this one so clone clothes below the cut
First and foremost, Fox has his own pinterest board. There鈥檚 not much in the way of clothes there, but yeah.聽
Lots of red and black
Hoodies and jeans. Jeans and hoodies. Hoodies and Jeans
If you saw the shape of my body No You Didn鈥檛 馃榿
Someone help him
Always dressed as though it鈥檚 approximately 20C. Sort of like a comic character who wears variations of the same outfit.
For someone who hates being perceived, he does wear some tight clothes
Overall, sort of unintentionally punk/emo and tired
Lip, tongue, and ear piercings
Also has two pinterest boards (butch AU and normal)
Cottagecore farmer. Lots of neutral tones and loose, soft fabrics
Loves knit things
Very picky about texture and fit. If it鈥檚 tight, it gets donated
Wears things until they fall apart. This does not take long
Soft, waterproof, ankle-high hiking boots that he wears everywhere
L a y e r s聽
Constantly putting his hair up or taking it down
Very concerned with taking care of his curls (and for good reason; they鈥檙e gorgeous)
Farmer鈥檚 tan n freckles
Business casual some days, absolute trash others. There is no rhyme or reason.聽
If Hunter鈥檚 all about consistency, Tech is the opposite (autism vs ADHD in a nutshell lmfao)
Pockets are a must
He has a messenger bag a la Spencer Reid聽
Big ol鈥 glasses with a thick enough lens that you can see behind him if you look at the right angle
Has these awful graphic tees from the time he went to Goodwill with Hunter
Big comfy sweaters like those ones they sell at Old Navy
Walking hug with steel-toed boots
He has trouble finding XXL Tall clothes that aren鈥檛 Barbecue Dad鈩 so he takes what he can get聽
Rips the knees of pants first
Rips the tags out of everything
Cannot match colors to save his life and hasn鈥檛 yet figured out the Hunter tactic of just owning neutral things
He has a lot of fun hats
Carhartt short sleeve shirts and jeans with sharpie and paint on them
If he can鈥檛 move in it, he doesn鈥檛 want it
Big fan of open short-sleeve button downs over tees
Constantly asking Tech to hold things for him (they get lost in the Bottomless Messenger Bag)
Typical teenage boy with a side of edgy
You know those joggers with the puffy knees or the cargo pockets? Big wearer of those
Sneaker Snob
Once he dressed up for a school event and he looked so good but pretended not to notice
Big City Gay energy
Constantly has a pack of cigarettes on him, so he鈥檚 got to have a pocket for them. He鈥檚 got to have a pocket, right? I just can鈥檛 see it from here. There must be a pocket because otherwise where is he getting those he鈥檚 pulling them out of nowhere send reinforcements鈥
Steals Hunter鈥檚 worn-out, oversized flannels but he鈥檚 a tall bitch so they鈥檙e pretty normal on him. How is he making them look so edgy?
Wears the same outfit a concerning amount. Like, you don鈥檛 notice anything and then all the sudden he鈥檚 been wearing the same thing for two weeks. Doesn鈥檛 smell bad or anything, though, so ?????
Always put together, but in that way that鈥檚 kind of fraying around the edges
I don鈥檛 really know how to describe his clothes beyond a sort of vibe? Idk
He鈥檚 a really skinny guy and he loves clothes with angular shapes and hard edges, so he kind of looks like a stick figure with really cool geometric designs
He tries to look sort of formal and aloof, but it doesn鈥檛 work
His Manic Art Kid vibe is visible from space, though
He looks cute but in a freshman kind of way. Like, 鈥渁ww, look at him!鈥
But also radiates the kind of energy that makes people highly concerned
Many ear piercings and one eyebrow piercing
Tall gangly and intimidating
Always carrying his backpack
Basically Dogma but with softer edges and rounder shapes
The Ridiculously Well-Adjusted Art Kid
Always has paint somewhere
Looks like a mess but makes it work
Messy buns
Big fan of overalls and colorful shirts
Likes long sleeves
Converse out the ass, but in a ton of different colors
Big sweaters
People forget he鈥檚 tall and Stronk because the way he dresses makes him look small (oversized things do that)
Got his ears pierced when Dogma got his third helix, but let them close
Stacked bracelets
Somehow soft punk meets varsity kid? He makes it work
Khaki pants but cool聽
Open zip-up hoodies and comfy, well-fitting tee shirts
Sneakers only, unless he has to be fancy
Sometimes wears fingerless gloves and refuses to explain why
No I lied sometimes he wears stompy boots just because they鈥檙e at odds with the rest of his aesthetic
Basically big calm comfy vibes without looking sloppy or informal
Will wear button downs as normal shirts with jeans
Likes to do the graphic tee over thermal shirt thing
SKATER BOY. That鈥檚 the word I was thinking of. Soft skater boy (he and Fives both skate)
Band tees and jeans聽
Not a fan of shorts. Has anyone ever seen his legs?
Constantly has this big-ass set of headphones around his neck
Also a graphic tee and thermal shirt layerer
Rarely not wearing jeans
Sometimes wears pajamas to school specifically to piss off teachers
Paints his nails a variety of colors, but mostly black. Somehow the polish is always chipped
Big wearer of Vans, actually is a skater
Tears through the elbows of his jeans jackets falling聽
Gay smart kid. Debate team captain. Soccer captain. Looks better than you. Looks better than the teachers. Could kill you.聽
He wears a lot of half-zips and khakis, but makes it look less nerdy than usual
Sports paraphernalia helps. Hard to look nerdy when the zip-up you鈥檙e wearing is from wrestling Nationals
When he wears tee-shirts, they鈥檙e always tight? Does he buy them a size small on purpose? (yes, yes he does)
Collector of those really nice zip-up hoodies with the geometric designs that make them look really nice and neat
Actually wears sunglasses when it鈥檚 sunny
Has never been seen in a hat
Oh god oh fuck DIY punk? He鈥檚 oh god he鈥檚
Neyo my dear that sweatshirt is falling apart
Neyo is. Troubled and in a Bad home. His clothing choices reflect this.聽
He does not want to touch or be touched and he wants to look cool doing it
Stoner kid but Spiky
And also he doesn鈥檛 actually smoke
Wears combat boots that look like they鈥檝e seen blood
Skinny jeans bc he鈥檚 edgy and cool
Patch pants/vest
Also has a pinterest board
Bland depressed kid. Jeans and dark hoodies
Seriously he鈥檚 just trying to vibe. He wants to be comfy and he doesn鈥檛 want to draw a ton of attention
Black converse
Constantly has a farmer鈥檚 tan
Not a fan of short sleeves
Thinks Neyo looks ridiculous
Has never been dress coded in his life聽
Seriously Bacara鈥檚 idea of spicing up an outfit is wearing like. A polo.聽
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imabuttman696 months ago
Christmas Tree Hunting with Dad
As long as I could remember, we had an artificial tree for Christmas, and I always wanted a real one. This year, since I was 15, and could get into Dad's tool shed, I decided I was gonna get his axe and go chop down my own. Mom and Dad laughed and told me I was crazy but I threw the axe over my shoulder and off I went to the woods.
It was cool and damp out but not a bad day for December in West Virginia. I walked around for hours looking but had no luck. Now being 15, I was also always horny as hell and being alone in the woods turned me on, so I dropped my drawers and sat my naked ass down on the cold, damp bark of a fallen tree and started jacking my meat. The crisp,, damp air licking my skin felt amazing. I kicked off my shoes and took my pants completely off and straddled the log and rubbed my nuts on the cold bark while I rubbed my own wood. It felt electrifying and freeing. I was so turned on, I ripped my shirtboff and was just totally naked out in the woods. It only took seconds to shoot a hot creamy load all over the fallen tree I was sitting on. I was still so fuckin horny though. I stroked my cock some more and fingered my tight virgin hole using my own spunk for lube, then licked my fingers clean. Just before I was about to spew for the second time, I heard a voice yell out "What in the hell are you doing?". Fuck! I'd been busted and when I looked up, I could see my Dad standing there with an angry look on his face.
I tried explaining but Dad wasnt stupid so I gave up. "Get your damn clothes on!" He said. I was so embarrassed and he was grumbling about coming out to check on me and see if I needed any help with the tree. I told him I couldnt find one and he laughed and said "Well no wonder! Ya cant leave your pecker alone long enough to look." He grabbed the axe and said "Come on" and we headed deeper into the woods.
I asked Dad if he was gonna tell Mom and he looked at me like I was crazy and said "Hell no! This is just between us. Look Son, I get it, I was your age once and stayed horny." I kept my head down and told him I didnt wanna hear this. He laughed. I yelled at him to stop laughing because it wasnt funny. He just kept on talking and said "Well hell Son, your ol man stays horny all the time now, even at my age."
"Oh my God Dad, please stop!" I begged. He started talking about things that were beginning to make me very uncomfortable. He told me he was horny right now, and gave his dick a squeeze through his Levi's. Holy shit! This feels so wrong, but I was also horny as hell and strangely curious. Dad told me I had a pretty big dick, just like his. I had only seen Dad's dick soft a couple times but now I really wanted to see it, but I kept quiet and continued staring at the ground.
Dad was steadily rubbing and squeezing his ever growing bulge and told me he saw me fingering my ass. "You like things up your ass Son?" He asked. I couldnt speak. "You a virgin? Answer me boy!" He said sternly. I told him I was, and asked him to please stop talking about this.
What's wrong son? You ain't horny no more? All this, done got your Daddy all horny, as he unbuttoned his Jean's and flopped out the biggest dick I'd ever seen. I tried not to look but I couldnt help it. "You some kind of faggot, Son? I see ya lookin at your Daddie's cock." Hell no! I yelled. I wasnt about to let him know that I thought I was gay.
Dad dropped his pants and opened his shirt and began rubbing his hairy, muscled chest, jacking his dick, and staring right at me. I wanted to run, I wanted to Jack off, I wanted to crawl in a hole and die! What's wrong with me? This was turning me on! "Get them pants back off boy. You're gonna beat off with your ol man."
No way I squeeled, but he wasnt kidding around, so reluctantly I started taking them down. I started playing around with my dick and it sprang to life within seconds. "See there" he said "ain't this better?" Dad stepped closer and closer to me until our cocks were almost touching. My heart was pounding out of my chest. I was scared, and charged up all at once, when suddenly Dad reached out and grabbed my dick. I just about shot my load when his big warm hand squeezed my shaft and began jacking it. Dad looked around and found a rock to sit on and then began jacking me again. I told Dad we shouldnt be Doing this because it was so wrong, but he said that nothings wrong when you're horny enough.
Dad told me to lay back and enjoy it so I did, but mainly so I could avoid eye contact with him. I was laying there thinking how we were gonna burn in hell for this, when I felt a hot, wet, sensation on my dick that I had never felt before. It was hands down the best thing I had ever felt in all my 15 years. I let out a moan and looked up and saw my Dad sucking my dick. FUCK! Now I know what all the fuss is about blow jobs. I was blown away, literally, by the fact that I was receiving my first BJ, and even more that it was from my own Dad.
"Your turn!" Dad said. I slowly held his throbbing dick in my hand. It felt huge and heavy. He pushed my face to his crotch and that musky man scent was awesome. I breathed it in as I began to lick around his dick. I didnt really know what to do when Dad told me to put it in my mouth and suck it. It filled my mouth but I tried sucking it best I could but I kept having to stop for air. "Breathe through your nose Son." He barked. It was a very helpful tip. I was starting to get a good rhythm going and getting worked up more realizing I was giving my first BJ to my Dad when he grabbed my head and started pushing me down onto his dick and choking me. I was gagging and had tears in my eyes but he kept on fucking my mouth and going further down my throat with each thrust, until he shot a huge load of Daddy spunk down my throat. I heaved and nearly vomited and yelled "what's wrong with you?" Dad said "I'm sorry Son, but I had to finish."
I began getting dressed and Dad said "Oh no! We ain't done!" I was done. I was over it! Yes we are, I said and started to walk off when Dad got up and grabbed me and held me down on the rock and peeled my jeans off then flipped me over onto my stomach. "You're gonna like this, Son" and he pushed his hot, slick tongue into my hole and then began sucking and licking it like a thirsty dog lapping water. He was right, I was liking this. I had forgotten all about nearly choking to death during my first BJ, when Dad stopped and said "Hold on Son. You're not gonna like this, but it only hurts for a minute." I became painfully aware of what was about to happen and began bucking wildly, reaching and grabbing at the rock trying to get up and get away, but Dad was too big and strong. Please Dad, dont do this. I dont want this. Please stop, I begged, but he just spit in his his hand, rubbed his dick and started pushing that big mushroom head against my little pink backdoor. He told me to try and relax and breathe while he pushed in further and further. I was screaming and crying in pain. Please Dad, stop!, I cried, but there was no stopping him. He laid on top of me and thrusted, until it felt a little easier and smoother. Suddenly, the pain that I thought was gonna kill me, began to feel strangely inviting. I began to moan and pushup against Dad. "That's more like it! Now come here." Dad pulled me up onto my knees and pushed my face down against the cold rock and started fucking me with some force. I heard myself yell out Oh yeah! Fuck me Daddy!, as his thrusts grew harder. I want you to ride my cock he said as he stopped fucking my tight butt and sat down on the rock. He turned me around and had me sit back on his big ol dick while he wrapped his big strong hairy arms around my chest and pushed me down onto his dick. It felt amazing. Really got up deep into my hole that way. Dad grabbed my legs and rolled back some, and just started slamming my ass and I could feel his nut sack slapping my own. I felt my entire body spasm and I let out a guttural groan and shot a huge load all over my chest and face. It was like a geyser erupting over and over. My ass kept having these amazing feeling spasms. I didnt know what it was but it felt better than the BJ. Dad must've liked it too because he began moaning loudly and holding me tighter and pile driving my guts even harder until I felt a hot wet sensation like my ass was being filled with hot water, but it was Dad's jizz. Oh fuck! This is awesome! I got up off of Dads still throbbing cock and the jizz dripped out of my ass like milk. Dad leaned up and lapped it up like the dog he was.
Well, we got dressed and went and cut down a Christmas tree like I had planned. We had a great Christmas that year. and I later started going "Hunting" with Dad to keep up our hot fuck sessions. I've got some interesting stories to tell about that but that's enough for today. Maybe real soon I'll tell ya about the first time Dad let me fuck him.
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(I haven鈥檛 watched supernatural for at least five years and, given any sort of luck, I will never do so again, do not @ me)
hello babes. I am talking to you know bc I keep seeing supernatural, unironically, on my dash, and I think we can all do better. I see what鈥檚 happening and I think:
Supernatural is fudge stripes. You are Megan. We can fix this.
So a list of alternate things that I think are overall better written/characterized/just generally more enjoyable that might scratch some of those itches:
Good Omens
okay look if u were on tumblr last year u probably already watched this show but like. If u haven鈥檛, it鈥檚 only six episodes babe and there鈥檚 a large enough fandom that u can go down a fanart hole for days on end
Basic summary: the antichrist has reached that lovely young age where he鈥檚 supposed to bring about the apocalypse. An angel and a demon who have decided that actually they like the world as is, thank you very much, try to stop the end times. They鈥檙e not very good at it though, which makes for a comedy of errors.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: theologic (mostly christian) exploration/parody/imagery without inherently being a religious show. Fighting off the apocalypse narrative, which I think pretty much always goes hard as hell, but that鈥檚 just me. There鈥檚 a gay angel who鈥檚 socially awkward. There鈥檚 a fun very British demon. Touches on the hierarchies of heaven and hell, with framing Heaven as a bureaucracy and blurs the differences between angels and demons. 聽Pining. Tenderness. A deep nostalgia for 80s music, though in this case it鈥檚 specifically queen, and who doesn鈥檛 love queen. Main character has a weirdly strong bond with his black vintage car. 聽Satan is (sort of) fought.
Gravity Falls
sometimes...things that are kids shows...with a set story and a predetermined ending...are better
(also this isn鈥檛 relevant to any of what I鈥檓 talking about but I really appreciate that Gravity Falls specifically went against the thing that most begged me about ATLA aka that a 15 year old girl would be like yeah I鈥檓 into a 12 year old boy because the 12 year old boy has a crush on me and I apparently don鈥檛 get to really have a say in this. How does that make sense.)
Basic Summary: Twelve year old twins Dipper and Mabel go to stay with their Grunkle Stan for the summer in a small Oregon town called Gravity Falls. Turns out this town is filled with all sorts of strange phenomena that they often have to confront, work around, learn about, or befriend!
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: The core focus of the show is a close sibling duo, but like It鈥檚 obvious that the siblings actually like and love each other and while they have their spats it鈥檚 still incredibly clear that they deeply care about each other even with their differences LIKE SORRY SUPERNATURAL YOU CAN鈥橳 JUST TELL ME THAT SIBLINGS CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER AND THEN THEY SPEND ALL THEIR TIME FIGHTING AND LYING TO EACH OTHER AND GENERALLY ACTING LIKE THEY CAN鈥橳 STAND EACH OTHER鈥橲 COMPANY BUT THEN OOOHHH YOU CRY ON TOP OF THE HOOD OF A CAR EVERY THREE EPISODE AND SUDDENLY THEY鈥橰E SOULMATES OR WHATEVER
Anyway. Yeah. GF has a solid sibling dynamic. Monster of the week that builds up to greater over-arching plot. A little bit of body horror, you know, for humor. Fair amount of meta humor playing with the tropes of the genre. A Good Ol Big Bad that tries to pit the siblings against each other. Have to fight the apocalypse (you鈥檒l see this point on like a good half of these recs, I really like 鈥榳hat are we gonna do about Armageddon鈥 media). Interesting creature design. Planned, satisfying ending (which supernatural absolutely does not have, but I still think if it had ended with the season 5 finale like it uhh 聽pretty obviously was supposed to, that would sort of counted. Don鈥檛 revive shows that have clearly already told their stories kids.) Tie in media that gives you some fun extra stories when you miss the characters. (yes I read some of the supernatural novels when I was a c h i l d, yes I鈥檓 pretty sure there鈥檚 one or two of them still buried somewhere on my laptop, no I don鈥檛 wanna talk about it.) Older father figure (?) who owns a tbh kind of shitty shop. Both already in place and found family.
It鈥檚 a good show, and it鈥檚 two seasons. John Mulaney Voice: I dunno it鈥檚 40 episodes
MINI REC ALERT! (mini recs are basically things that I鈥檓 not gonna go into detail about for whatever reason [probably either due to i鈥檓 not familiar enough with it OR I just don鈥檛 like. Have a bunch to say about it in regards to how it will scratch the itches presented to u by spn] but still seem like a Good Watch)
Mini Rec: Over The Garden Wall. Spooky Kids Media! Episodic! Miniseries so you can watch it in like 2 hours! Cool ass Animation! About two brothers encountering said spooky stuff! Big Bad tries to pit brothers against each other! Might haunt you for the rest of your life! Check it out!
The Haunting of Bly Manor
I think about this show every goddamn day of my life. (Also not relevant but Greg Sestero makes a brief cameo in it and I was like hi greg my friend greg!)
Basic Summary: An girl named Dani, while staying in London, decides to take on an Au Pair job for two young children, an older brother named Miles (age 10) and the younger sister Flora (age 8) at the spoooooky and mysteeerious Bly Manor, and she gets far more than she bargained for.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Okay so supernatural doesn鈥檛 actually do this but I know I KNOW why we let ourselves be queerbaited in 2012. Four words for you: CENTRAL! GAY! TRAGIC! ROMANCE! You want some pining? Some tenderness? Some LOVE? Some dealing with internalized homophobia but no, like, actual violent onscreen homophobia? HAVE I GOT THE SHOW FOR YOU. If ur favorite episodes where the ones that make you sob (for me it was kevin鈥檚 death on god), I recommend this show. If you wished that supernatural literally ever had consequences or perma deaths or didn鈥檛 retcon major plot events like every five goddamn episodes so that there could be some exploration of like grief and trauma through the lens of/ higher stakes of horror, I recommend this show. If you really do stay up at night picturing a supernatural that wasn鈥檛 made by dumbass cishettie white men hack writers but was actually allowed to have Dean and Cas be in love over the course of the show so they could have like actual development and not the most homophobic gay reveal of all time, I recommend this show. Hell, if you just want a banger ghost story in general, I recommend this show.
As for what they actually have in common: horror setting/aesthetic without actually being all that scary most of the time. A strong sibling duo, though they鈥檙e not nearly as much of the focus of Bly Manor. Found family. Strong themes of grief. Questions of what turns someone into a monster (and done much better) An actual, much better noble sacrifice done out of love. Escalation of stakes until there鈥檚 a big final confrontation. Semi-big bad trying to tear this family apart. Found and pre-installed family. Sad orphans.
Watch this show. Vibe with me. Cry with me. Yell at me about Owen Sharma
Haunting of Hill House- spiritual predecessor to Haunting of Bly Manor, though they鈥檙e not actually the same universe/story. However, it鈥檚 made by the same dude and has a shared aesthetic/sensibilities/some of the cast. This is only a mini rec bc I haven鈥檛 actually seen it, but I鈥檝e heard good things and that it, while much more heavily leaning into family dynamics, has similar themes of exploring Grief and Trauma through ghooossstttsss.
Okay I know that this may seem like a Wild rec considering community is a school sitcom with basically Zero paranormal elements but just like. Hear me out. And no this isn鈥檛 just because I think it鈥檚 a realy good show and I want more people to watch it, though that is a factor. If I was just recommending comedies that I think are good and more people should watch regardless of them serving as a replacement for supernatural I would demand you all go watch Galavant and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. I鈥檓 gonna demand it anyway. Everyone go watch Galavant and Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. Now back to your original program:
Basic Summary: A group of students at Greendale Community College form a Spanish study group, and things quickly go Off The Fucking Rails in the best way possible.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: All right I鈥檓 gonna be real honest this rec is for all of my (correct) bitches who鈥檚 favorite episodes of Supernatural were French Mistake, Changing Channels, and/or Mystery Spot. You think if Supernatural would鈥檝e been fucking fantastic if it had been a committed comedy instead of a CW melodrama that occasionally landed some admittedly really fucking funny episodes/concepts, Community (and the movies on this list) will gently take you into its loving arms and give you everything you desire. It鈥檚 about the Meta comedy. It鈥檚 about the discussion, exploration, and subversion of common tropes within the format. It鈥檚 about the grand use of group/ found family dynamics in order to max both the goofs and the heart. It鈥檚 about fantastic callbacks. It鈥檚 about having one of the few 鈥渁sshole with a heart of gold鈥 leads I can actually stand because. You know. Growth. It鈥檚 about the INCREDIBLE genre and 聽pop culture parody. Which genre do they parody, you ask. All of them. They parody all the genres. The glee parody episode is a fucking masterpiece of television. If you don鈥檛 want to watch a show that features a Halloween party where everyone turns into zombies and the ABBA discography blasts in the background, you can stop reading right now, because I can guarantee you won鈥檛 be interested in a damn thing I have to say.
MINI REC ALERT: The X-Files. I鈥檝e also never seen this but a: everything I鈥檝e seen out of context has been fantastically weird and delightful b: it appears that there鈥檚 a general consensus that Scully and Mulder are one of the only valid straight couples so it鈥檚 probably pretty fun and c: let鈥檚 all be honest. Supernatural was already basically an x-files rip off, it had like half of their original writers swiped from the x-files crew, I鈥檓 pretty sure if you liked especially the first couple of seasons of supernatural, you鈥檙e gonna like the X-files.
BBC Merlin
Yes, I know the show ended in 2010. Yes, it still provides that 2012 Tumblr nostalgia. 2012 Tumblr is a feeling, not an actual time period.
I love this stupid show. I plan on rewatching it all over the month of January. I harbor a deep amount of fondness for it. It鈥檚 why every time I see literally any depiction of Merlin I get just so fucking excited, and why I鈥檝e consumed as many ridiculous Arthurian adaptations as I have (side note: my two favorite other ridiculous Arthurian legend adaptation are Avalon High, a DEEPLY silly DCOM that is required viewing to level up friendship with me, and The Kid Who Would Be King, which is the only movie that I think truly understands the comedic potential of playing a King Arthur Adaptation mostly straight but everyone in it is 12. I鈥檓 not sure it intended to be as fucking funny as it was, but again, they鈥檙e all middle schoolers. I have never been more jealous of an actor than I was of the 22 year old that got to play a 16 year old dumbass Merlin who was sometimes also Patrick Stewart and did all of his magic with ridiculous hand gestures That should鈥檝e been me that should鈥檝e been me that should鈥檝e been me. Also Sword in the Stone by TH White is pretty good, because Merlin knows germ theory in the fantasy 400鈥檚 and he just uses it to be petty mostly. Also listen to High Noon Over Camelot by The Mechanisms. Also Also I tend to prefer family friendly adaptations because they don鈥檛 have the uhhh. You know. Incest and sexual violence of the original legend. Love to Not have that shit!) Whether you watched it initially and are due for a rewatch, or you鈥檙e intrigued enough by the concept of the show to watch it for the first time, you should join me on this wild wild ride.
Basic Summary but like a bit more helpful: A BABY version of Merlin (and by baby I mean like 20 year old.) is sent from his small town to the big city the Kingdom of Camelot to find his destiny. Staying with the town physician and friend of his mom鈥檚, Gaius, he ends up as both his assistant and personal manservant to Prince Arthur. But in a kingdom where magic is punished with death and the prince seems hell bent on getting himself into situations that are going to kill him, the young sorcerer has his more than his share of work cut out for him.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Primo supremo queerbaiting. Like, yeah, okay, it鈥檚 queerbaiting, you know it鈥檚 queerbaiting, but you watch some of the scenes and ur like okay. I know why I let this bait me. Obviously with a modern show, I would expect more, I would expect better, I would raise my standards, but I gotta admit. Some of these scenes are fuckin compelling as hell, and the subtext is like barely sub. Monster of the week shenanigans. Some awful CGI creatures but like a charming awful. Like the kind of awful that tells you their very limited budget was more focused on cool swords than realistic creatures. Episodic stories build into a more overarching plot, with things getting darker in season 4/5. Shitty father that end up eating shit and while the son of said father is rightfully conflicted and upset over the death it鈥檚 cathartic and victorious as all hell for the audience. Multiple hot evil women, and I love hot evil women. There鈥檚 also nice hot women, which is a bonus. These women don鈥檛 all immediately stupidly die, so that鈥檚 a nice change. Also like a LOT of sarcastic humor and shenanigans if u like Sass Merlin is there for u personally name a more iconic line than 鈥淥h I鈥檓 sorry, how long have you been training to be a prat, my lord?鈥 AND THAT鈥橲 IN THE FIRST FUCKIN EPISODE brilliant amazing fantastic show stopping. Also you know those like dumb hijink episodes where like Dean was possessed by the spirit of a dog or some shit? You bet your bottom fuckin dollar BBC Merlin has those kinds of storylines. Also I know some people go to spn bc it had that HUGE fanbase and like BBC Merlin鈥檚 fanbase is still SURPRISINGLY poppin even though it鈥檚 been a decade since there was new content so like. Have fun!
Doctor Who but Specifically the RTD Era
Look I鈥檓 not here to say that the first four seasons of reboot doctor who are the only good doctor who or inherently better than all the rest (though the RTD era is my favorite personally) BUT when ur seekin that sweet sweet superwholock frenzy nostalgia, this is the 鈥榳ho鈥 that is being referred to. Also like. Stan 9. We should all collectively stan the ninth doctor. Chris Eccleston, the Objectively Best Famous Chris, deserved better.
Basic Summary: An immortal alien that goes by 鈥淭he Doctor鈥 travels across time and space with a variety of different companions, often to try and save the day or fix a (sometimes self created) mess. It鈥檚 distilled campy sci-fi with a family friendly tone that has made me cry on several occasions.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Monster of the week that, you guessed it, builds into bigger overarching plot style narrative. Fighting off the apocalypse, but like every couple of weeks because worlds are in danger a LOT. A semi-tragic romance that made people go absolutely buck fuckin wild bc pining n shit. Wamen, but they aren鈥檛 fridged. (actually for real though none of the main women die and I just think that鈥檚 really fun and flirty even though I could go on a COMPLETELY SEPARATE rant about the injustice of one of the character鈥檚 ending YES season 4 is my favorite season and one of my favorite pieces of media ever and I am currently actively recommending it to you 聽YES im still fucking pissed over how it ended YES we exist) Specifically, a Wonderful and Very Excellent woman named Donna who goes on a spa trip that doesn鈥檛 end up going very well. That seems like a highly specific example, and it is, but it did happen in both shows. (Also, to anyone that continued watching SPN after like idk season 9 what happened to Donna? I always liked her and I know she became a recurring character so like DM whatever probably injustice was the end of her story line pls and thank you) I鈥檓 also extra specifically recommending for Supernatural Fans and also The World At Large: 聽Season Four of Reboot Who. I rewatched it last year and it still goes so fucking hard. Donna Noble is the best character in existence. In regards to the appeal for SPN, personally I think the best part of SPN was when people who are soulmates went on adventures and tried to save the day and it was a good mix of banter and sincerity AND GUESS WHAT鈥橲 BASICALLY THE ENTIRETY OF SEASON 4 OF DOCTOR WHO. It鈥檚 so good y鈥檃ll I wish Everything was about soulmates going on adventures and trying to save the day.
OKAY TV SHOWS DONE TIME FOR M O V I E S which I don鈥檛 have nearly as many recs for but uhh here goes
What We Do In The Shadows/ Shaun of the Dead
I鈥檓 lumping these two together bc my reasons for recommending them are largely the same, and I would call them tonally similar enough that if you like one you鈥檒l probably like the other
Basic Summary (Shaun of The Dead): Uh-oh! London鈥檚 had a break out of some of that good ol鈥 zombieism. Shaun and friends decide to hunker down in a local bar, but they have to get there first. Will they survive? Will they fuck up some zom zoms? Who鈥檚 to say?
Basic Summary (What We Do In The Shadows): Some vampire roommates dick around. I think there鈥檚 technically, like, a plot, but it鈥檚 really just about some vampires Doin Their Thing. Vibin.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: This is kind of similar to the Community recommendation, in that supernatural had the opportunity to be one of those things that was both a parody of a genre but also just a really good example of the genre. WWDITS and SotD are both those things for vampire and zombly movies, respectively. Have the aesthetic and some of the themes of a horror but is not actually all that scary. Horror Comedy is a god tier genre and I don鈥檛 know why it鈥檚 not more widespread. Fun monsters/cast of characters in general, so at least one person in it is probably going to make you go 鈥渙h gender鈥 ya know? With SotD you have the fantasy power trip that comes with like any piece of media that involves hunting monsters. With WWDITS I go 鈥測ep that鈥檚 how bisexuals dress鈥 and I Will Not Clarify which character I鈥檓 talking about.
MINI REC ALERT: All of Taika Watiti鈥檚 filmography. Thor:Ragnarok is one of like 3 marvel movies that I consider genuinely fucking fantastic completely independent of the MCU and my own tendency to be like 鈥渉urr bdurr I love. Superheros鈥. For the one that is most tonally like Supernatural But Significantly Better and Written By Someone Competent I think I would say try out Hunt For The Wilderpeople. It鈥檚 got a reluctant curmudgeonly father figure and I KNOW some of you motherfuckers were so invested in spn when you were like 16 bc you had daddy issues. This is a callout post for my friend [REDACTED], who I should text to watch Hunt for the Wilderpeople, actually. 聽
MINI REC ALERT X2!!!: Bram Stoker鈥檚 Dracula. I鈥檝e never seen it but it has both Winona Ryder AND Keanu Reaves so like. Goth bi rights.
Happy Death Day (and Happy Death Day 2 U)
happy death day was one of those movies that I saw the trailer, went 鈥渆h鈥, heard other people say it was great, watched, and went holy fuck this slaps. Not nearly as much of a slasher film as the trailers implied if im remembering the trailer correctly
Basic Summary: Our main character Tree keeps waking up on the day she was murdered. The day resets every time that she dies. That鈥檚 right, it鈥檚 a time loop storey babey!!!!!!!!!!!
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: If you were anything like me you were foolishly lulled into supernatural for way longer than you should鈥檝e been on the promise that the characters would idk like grow and change and become better and learn lessons and some of that would be through the power of receiving love and kindness. You know. Like how good writers would do it especially if their main characters are kind of dicks that really should make some changes. Well, Happy Death Day fucking delivers on that promise in SPADES. It鈥檚 about growth! It鈥檚 about change! It鈥檚 about making the active decision to become a better person and putting effort into doing so! There鈥檚 heavy themes of like grief and trauma and acknowledging them and facing them head on in order to move on and the negative consequences of refusing to do so and just trying avoid it until it goes away. There鈥檚 a romance that makes my dumb little self do the pleading face emoji. Tree is also one of the only good asshole with a heart of gold characters. I also think media is improved by having at least one character that is a Good Good Boy (note: Good Good Boy character does not have to be a man.) and Happy Death Day has Carter. Oh on that note: Tree Voice: I鈥檝e only had character for (the same repeating over and over) a day but if anything happens to him I鈥檒l kill everyone here and then myself. Also the movie is funny so like hell yeah.
that鈥檚 all I got for relevant movies right now
jk i鈥檓 illiterate. Everyone should feel free to go ahead and add their own suggestions for this section The best I can do is uhhhh I think y鈥檃ll would probably like Mira Grant鈥檚 novels, particularly the Newsflesh stories, bc sibling dynamics. Also the book The Haunting of Hill House is really good. Ballad of Black Tom slaps? There鈥檚 of course the Good Omens novel that the show was based on. I鈥檓 about to recommend some podcasts after this section which will include to Welcome to Nightvale because of course it will and the tie in novels for that slap, especially It Devours!, and I鈥檓 pretty sure they work as stories even if you know nothing about the podcast. Also also I think you should read 鈥淭he Long Way to A Small, Angry Planet鈥 by Becky Chambers It鈥檚 not thematically similar to supernatural at all but it鈥檚 one of my all time favorite sci fi novels and only like four people have read it which is a goddamn TRAVESTY.
Anyway yeah that鈥檚 it that鈥檚 all there is. Onto the medium that is like books but I can fold laundry or cook while consuming their narratives.
Okay so this is getting uhhh wicked long so I鈥檓 gonna limit myself to only three full blown recs and a
mini rec
Alice Isn鈥檛 Dead
Fuck me running this show is so good. Literally hands down my all time favorite (and scariest!) horror podcast. Mamma mia, that鈥檚 a good fuckin story. The Book version is also good and has fewer Weird events but some further character development so I recommend them both.
Basic Summary: After her wife Alice disappears mysteriously, Keisha takes up a job as a long haul trucker, traveling all across America in order to find her, but ends up finding so much. Pursued by a deadly creature she calls The Thistle Man, the stakes of her journey are raised.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: okay so I have a lost of bullet points of things that appealed to me specifically about supernatural and how no other shows covers all of them which sucks bc it means I basically Yearn for a show that鈥檚 supernatural but good. Alice isn鈥檛 Dead, however, hits the most of these bullet points AND is so fucking good. It has monster hunting. It has stopping a cataclysmic event BUT also discussion of the cyclical nature of events such as these and how the fight never truly ends but you can make some fucking progress nonetheless. It has a central gay romance that鈥檚 actually a central gay romance. It鈥檚 the ONLY show on this list that really hits that the weird and dark underside of americana vibe but specifically the americana of not like suburbs and shit but that eerie haunted feeling you get when you鈥檙e hours into a late night drive on open roads with no civilization around and an expansive sky and it just Seems like something should be watching you. Have you ever been out for a walk at midnight and encountered a deer and you looked into each other鈥檚 eyes and it felt like it was telling you a message that you couldn鈥檛 possibly hope to parse? Have you ever felt an incredible sense of deja vu eating in a restaurant you couldn鈥檛 have possibly been in before, because you鈥檝e been to a thousand diners a thousand times just like one, and there鈥檚 an incredibly sense of homogeneity even though you鈥檙e 2000 miles away from anyone and anything that could possibly know you? Have you ever traveled to an area that seems to be stuck in a bubble of time, the only thing that shows any evidence of having aged past 2006 being yourself, and you wonder how your cell phone even works around here? THAT鈥橲 the spooky americana I鈥檓 fuckin talking about! Messed up road trips! Too much goddamn space! America is scary because it鈥檚 big and Filled With Things but also Not Enough Things! Fuck yeah!!!!! That time bubble fuckin EXISTS in Wyoming the most recent song on the radio I heard was fuckin Hey Soul Sister!
Also has a thing where like are there even good guys and bad guys in a conflict or is it all just one umbrella nightmare that you鈥檙e trying to stand against in anyway possible (u how the overarching structures of both heaven and hell were kinda fucked in spn? No spoilers but similar shit be happenin in Alice Isn鈥檛 Dead). Exploration of what makes someone into a monster, like how do you go down that path? Also this is the only show on this whole damn list that southern gothic music really suits it so points for that.
The Magnus Archives
You know I had to do it to 鈥榚m.
Basic Summary: Jonathan Sims has just become the Head Archivist at the Magnus Institute, a 鈥渞esearch鈥 鈥渇acility鈥 that looks into paranormal/esoteric/unexplained phenomena.
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John Mulaney Voice, Again: Nobody knows what the archivist is going to do next, least of all the archivist. He鈥檚 never been in an archives before, he鈥檚 just as confused as you are.
Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Oh fuck this document is over 5k long I said I wasn鈥檛 gonna do this hhhhh so lipton lightning round: Slowburn Gay Romance but Actually Canon, Monster Hunting but Hey What Even Is A Monster Anyway, Acts Somewhat like a Loosely Connected Horror Anthology until it DOESNT, Little Things Build to Bigger Narrative, Characters Be Goin Through It (On God These People Need Therapy), Trying to Prevent/Fix The Apocalypse (X2!!!), Smug Asshole Big Bad, 聽Horror as a Metaphor For Various Shit, Basically if you thought that the Men of Letter concept slapped and you think it should鈥檝e been the whole damn show including being Deeply British you would probably really fuckin like TMA. Also if ur like the ideal piece of media is a horror tragedy but also like it鈥檚 a wacky sitcom but also also fuck cops. U will like tma.
Welcome to Nightvale
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Shared elements with supernatural that you might Vibe with: Honestly, probably bc Nightvale and Alice are by the Same Dudes, a lot of these points are the same as Alice Isn鈥檛 Dead, but it鈥檚 less scawy and more funney. Also hits the 鈥渉orror, but make it kind of a sitcom鈥 vibes. Doesn鈥檛 have the same road trip vibes, but DOES capture the exact weirdness of South Western USA, so I鈥檓 still giving it 鈥渇ucked up americana鈥 credit. If you鈥檝e never been to New Mexico ur like this is an exaggeration clearly no desert town is subject to like ACTUAL cosmic horror and unexplainable sights but I鈥檓 telling you New Mexico is just Like That. (I highly recommend visiting the land of enchantment if you ever get the oppurtunity it is a deeply odd and wonderfully unsettling experience.) Look man it鈥檚 gay it鈥檚 a horror comedy cecil has a wonderfully soothing voice and it hates capitalism so fucking much like oh my god so much what more could you want.
MINI REC ALERT: Wolf 359! I have nothing deep to say about this I just like it and my gut tells me that y鈥檃ll would enjoy it too I know there isnt much for physical descriptions in the show but I know in my heart that the main character is so so pretty and so so stupid. I KNOW yall like some himbos that experience character growth.
Okay since It鈥檚 my party and I鈥檒l speak if I want to rapid fire list of podcasts I just like and want more people to listen to even though I鈥檓 behind on like all of them shhhhh: The Penumbra Podcast, BomBARDed, Dungeons and Daddies, Stellar Firma, Wonderful!
okay these aren鈥檛 like replacement recs or anything they鈥檙e just really good and I almost certainly would have put them on some sort of supernatural playlist in 2013 but I don鈥檛, like, have a good playlist for them now so I鈥檓 subjecting y鈥檃ll to them also they all have the youtube link for ease of access
Woah There Kimmy- 聽Felix Hagan & the Family
Devil鈥檚 Backbone- The Civil Wars
Blood On My Name- The Brothers Bright
Awake O Sleeper- The Brothers Bright
The Bottom of the River- Delta Rae
Old Number 7- The Devil Makes Three
The Bullet- The Devil Makes Three
In Hell I鈥檒l Be In Good Company- The Dead South
Bartholomew- The Silent Comedy
Pomegranate Seeds- Julian Moon
Curses- The Crane Wives
Tongues & Teeth -The Crane Wives
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mxvladdy8 months ago
Something silly and quick I wrote bc I love cooking in Stardew, and Shane. I just *clenches my gay little fists*聽love my stocky chicken man.聽
Shane looks from the counter and back to you. Then back again. Then once more at you. You raise a brow expectantly. Right-he should say something nice. Breathing deeply he schools his face, or, tries to at least. He can鈥檛 stop the grimace of dread tightening his lips. He knew you had worked hard on this recipe. For several weekends now you had spent your evenings locked away in your storage shed. Those freaky little chickens hard at work laying eggs for your next big creation. He wanted to be supportive. But-
How could a little jar look threatening? Because this stuff looked threatening. Picking up the glass jar he holds it up at arm's length. Even though it had been kept in the fridge over night it still radiated a faint heat from within. Shane holds it up to the window looking back at your skeptically. The light from the bay window of your kitchen seemed to just be absorbed by the contents inside. Sucked into the blackhole in a bottle. Food shouldn鈥檛 do that. If he squints into the void, he could see little flecks of ruby red and crimson floating suspended within. Was it seasonings? Or from the eggs? A mystery he didn鈥檛 want to know.
Even with the lid on it smelled off. Yah- no he couldn鈥檛鈥
鈥淲ell?鈥 You look so hopeful. It was cute. Work weathers hands clutching over your chest, like his opinion was the only thing that matters. And that that opinion better be a good one. Big ol鈥 baby doe eyes did little to him now though. Years of this tactic being used against him from Jaz and Marnie had made him immune. But, you were his partner. He should be supportive right? By yoba; was he trying to hype himself up to try mayo.
He sighs rubbing a large hand over his stubbled jaw and hands you the jar. You take it from him with a squeal of excitement.
It had taken you several times to get the goop into a jar. First couple tries to get the condiment into a jar had gone disastrously. Something about the concoction made it volatile (another reason why he was scared of it). Each time you had tried to store it it broke the containers. You had spent the last hour before presenting him this monstrosity sweeping glass up from the shed floor. Somehow you had wrangled it into some old mason jars that self proclaimed 鈥渨izard鈥 had given you. Yoba, you were going to make him go gray with these shenanigans.
鈥淲anna try it together?鈥
He hesitates. 鈥淒arling, I would like to make it to at least my late 30鈥檚.鈥 聽He loves you immensely, but that stuff looked deadly.
鈥淗ey!鈥 You laugh smacking his soft barrel chest. 鈥淢y goth babies worked hard for this. I worked hard on this.鈥 You reach over him and grab your favorite wood cutting board. Shuffling about you wave the remains of the baguette you made yesterday at him. Damn, he was weak to your baking.
You had planned to try this new mayo with some fresh cheese and prosciutto from the market. In theory you believed it would taste like something gourmet. You were hoping for an earthier mayo than the regular hens. Something like a rich truffle oil and peppery. It looked the part to you at least and the spices you added to the machine you knew for a fact were complementary. 聽Cheese board done you reach for the tiny jar.
鈥淧lease don鈥檛 open that.鈥 Shane begs.
鈥淚鈥檓 opening it~鈥 You sing out and pop the lid. The reaction was almost instantaneous from the both of you. He gags covering his nose and mouth with his hoodie. You cough momentarily unable to breath from the stench before screwing the lid back on. But it was too late for the kitchen. The small space now smelt of sulfur, ash, and old vinegar.
鈥淲hat in the hell-鈥 Shane coughs staggering for the back door to let some air in. 鈥淲hy did you make that!鈥 He yells over his shoulder taking in large gulps of fresh sea air.
鈥淲hat else was I going to do!鈥 You round on him, eyes swimming with tears brought on by the putrid smell of the mayo. 鈥淭hey鈥檙e eggs!鈥 You look so betrayed. Like the goop had personally offended you.
Shane laughs, the obscurity of it all hitting him. 鈥淣ah babe. Anything that comes out of chicken that looks like Sebastian should not be eaten by humans.鈥
鈥淭he aesthetic though-鈥 You pout. You come to stand by him to clear your senses. Shane chuckles and pulls you close. He kisses your face, chasing away your frown until you were giggling against him.
鈥淚t does look pretty cool.鈥 He agrees, rubbing your shoulder soothingly. 鈥淢aybe someone out there will buy it? Lewis has connections everywhere.鈥 You huff but nod all the same. Taking a moment to run the jar back to your storage shed you return ready to eat a regular boring cheese board. Shane grins and nods along with your little mutters of betrayal and 鈥渘o extra corn for them鈥. A lie but heat of moment ranting did that to you.聽
鈥淗ow much did you make anyway?鈥 He asks once you two settle into your breakfast nook. You go still, eyes darting everywhere else but at him. 鈥淏abe-鈥 You flush, shoving a large piece of melon in your mouth instead of answering. Oh no.
Shooting him an apologetic look you swallow. 鈥淚-I might need help cleaning out all the mayo machines today.鈥
You are damn lucky he loves you.
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theuncommoncornera year ago
ASK: Naruto + Kakashi + Shisui + Gaara when their s/o tells them that they鈥檙e pregnant with not just one little baby, but TWO little babies? How do you think these guys would adjust to taking care of two little ones as opposed to just one? Thank you 馃槉
Immediately starts screaming. Either a happy scream or an oh crap scream or a mixture of both no one will truly know except for Naruto.
He will pick his s/o up and spin her around. After he sets her down his face is pressed against her stomach babbling sweet nothings to their twins.
Naruto is gonna be switching between kissing his s/o and kissing her stomach. He will be talking to all three of them in a jumbled excited mess. He鈥檚 such a dork oh man
They鈥檙e going out to eat to celebrate, but no drinks! Naruto is going to tell almost everyone in that restaurant and his s/o is so embarrassed the poor woman
No matter what when referring to his family he will always say, 鈥溾he four of us鈥︹
I feel like it will take a while for him to adjust to two kids, especially if they are identical. I can see Naruto struggling with one child, two just makes the situation absolutely chaotic. Naruto did not have parents growing up, which means he did not learn how this part of life works or figure out how to properly raise a child. This means there will be a lot of struggle and frustration in the early development stage for their twins. There will be a LOT of phone calls to his s/o鈥檚 parents and grandparents for help.
Something that can be added to his top 10 list of 鈥淭hings that Genuinely Surprised Me.鈥
When she first tells him that she鈥檚 having twins instead of one child he鈥檚 going to be shocked. His eyebrows will shoot up and he鈥檒l let out a small 鈥榦h?鈥 as if it鈥檚 not a big deal. But when he lets what she just said really sink in he loses his shit. 聽
He鈥檒l lightly grab her shoulders and ask 鈥淎re you sure? We鈥檙e really going to have twins?!鈥 then proceed to hug her as she tells him that they are really having twins.
Kakashi probably didn鈥檛 think he鈥檇 end up with a s/o when he became an adult and DEFINITELY didn鈥檛 foresee himself having children. He鈥檚 going to be in an astonished haze the entire time. She鈥檒l catch him smiling to himself every once in a while, which happens when he starts thinking about the fact that they are having twins.
Once they have to take care of them I think Kakashi and his s/o would handle them very well. Kakashi would be able to easily pick up essential skills when taking care of them as babies. He and his s/o would have a very established system when taking care of them. If they鈥檙e identical then they would probably have a necklace or stamp or something that helps Kakashi and his s/o tell them apart. OR Kakashi could probably just bust out his dogs since they鈥檇 have distinct smells. On that thought, imagine his pack meeting the twins. Oh man my heart~ (I might write a scenario for myself when I have time next week and post it)
Once the twins are older Kakashi would remember how Sakumo raised him and base the way he raises them off that. He鈥檇 have two different sides of him. His 鈥渞aising his own kids鈥 side and his 鈥渢eaching kids鈥 side. If you had a laid-back teacher that was occasionally strict in school at some point, that鈥檚 Kakashi. At least that鈥檚 the way I think of him. Also, I headcanon modern Kakashi as a teacher. Probably a high school teacher that becomes a college professor at some point. 聽
He鈥檚 going to be goofy as fuck as a father. Imagine his interactions with Gai times 3.5 and that鈥檚 goofy father Kakashi! Speaking of Gai, THE LOVE AND THE BABYSITTING AND JUST AAAAHHHHH
This man is grinning from ear to ear! He pounces on his s/o with a million questions. She is going to stare at him like he just grew two heads until he calms down. He is absolutely losing his mind! He won鈥檛 stop talking about them until they鈥檙e grown and out of the house.
Once she confirms that they are having twins he is hugging her and repeating that he 鈥渃an鈥檛 believe they鈥檙e having twins!鈥 He is so happy he can barely control himself for once. If Shisui didn鈥檛 have a small form of dignity he鈥檇 be bouncing off the walls. 聽
I can see Shisui taking care of twins pretty well. However, there will always be the occasional hiccup or 鈥榳hat the heck鈥 moment like any normal parent. When the 鈥榳hat the heck鈥 moments happen he will most likely call his or his s/o鈥檚 parents for some advice. (Play dates and studying sessions with Itachi鈥檚 kid(s) is a must.)
I can see Shisui being the rule setter if his s/o didn鈥檛 want to be that parent but he would make sure that both of them would still put their foot down when need be. If their twins are identical and decide to do the ole鈥 switcheroo on them there鈥檇 be some trouble especially if it was over something serious.
If his s/o was fine with being a rule setter then they are going to be a dream team that has one of the greatest behaved kids in the neighborhood. Everyone wants to know their secret.
Shisui can be a goofy dad that rarely tells dumb dad jokes just to get a rise out of his kids, his s/o, and Itachi.
Someone, please save this man鈥檚 heart because it鈥檚 doing flips. I wouldn鈥檛 be surprised if Gaara grips his chest. Hahaaa old habits never die~
10/10 wouldn鈥檛 even say anything the first 5 minutes after his s/o tells him. He鈥檚 so shocked and already freaking out about their twins. 聽
It would take him a while to recover from his s/o telling him they鈥檙e having twins. Once he gets over the initial shock I can honestly see him shedding tears. Gaara has grown a lot since he was a child and he knows this. To think about and compare the person he was before to now, as in that very moment, is astounding to him. He never would鈥檝e imagined getting married AND having twins when he was a child/teenager.
Okay, he starts tearing up because he鈥檚 so happy and then his s/o starts tearing up because is crying and it鈥檚 just a ton of crying but not intense crying. When he recovers he鈥檚 quietly excited about all of this but absolutely freaking the fuck out!
He has a hard time adjusting to taking care of two kids! I headcanon that he鈥檇 struggle with one kid but two is just begging for trouble. He will constantly be asking people for help. I feel like if Gaara is really having a hard time with something he鈥檚 not afraid to ask for help. Might be a little shy during the initial approach but when he need help he will seek people out.
Their lives are going to be filled with learning experiences! The 鈥榦h I got this!鈥 attitude is going to be outweighed by the 鈥渙h. Well, that鈥檚 something鈥ifferent鈥 attitude
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darklydeliciousdesires6 months ago
In the Blood - Chapter Twenty Two.
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Previous Chapters - One Two Three Four Five Six Seven Eight Nine Ten Eleven Twelve Thirteen Fourteen Fifteen Sixteen Seventeen Eighteen Nineteen Twenty聽Twenty One
Tyra's POV.
Okay, I just made an important decision, because damnit, I have a voice in all of this, too. This isn't going to happen. He's not going to forsake his own existence like this and blink out the last thousand years like they or him mean nothing. Not if I have anything to do with it. 聽
However, there isn't an awful lot I can do about it behind a locked door, which is why I'm currently running around his apartment looking for anything sharp to try and pick the lock.
鈥淔uck you for being so untypically male and neat, Eric!鈥 I roar in frustration as I try desperately to find something sharp in this impeccably tidy homestead.
鈥淣o, stupid. What the hell are you thinking? There's no knives to be found in a kitchen that's never used!鈥 I then scold myself with after I run to the kitchen area (that obviously isn't and never has been in use) to check the drawers for knives. 聽
I hurtle around in a state of abject panic until finally, I find a letter opener that will do just the job...if only it was narrow enough at the tip to fit into the lock. It's too big by the tiniest of fractions.
鈥淔uck!鈥 I curse, throwing it down in total tantrum and grabbing my phone from my pocket again, trying Pam and finding her cell to still be off and then cursing the fact that the one person who is here and I know would let me out is the one person I don't have a contact for. Sookie. However, I know who does.
鈥淗oney child, this better be important to wake me this early, or the next time I see you I'm drowning you in the damn lake!鈥 Lafayette exclaims loudly when he answers on the ninth ring.
鈥淟afayette, this is life and death important. I don't have time to explain, I just need you to text me Sookie's cell number, please do it now, I'm counting on you.鈥 I reply urgently before I hang up, and then pace the floor until my cell beeps and I see he's texted me the contact 'Sook Cell' which I call straight away.
鈥淲hoever this is, y'all have caught me at the worst time...鈥 is all she gets chance to say when she answers.
鈥淪ookie, its Tyra. Eric's locked me in his apartment under the bar, you have to come and let me out! Take the back staircase to the basement and then the doorway to the left at the end. It leads to a narrow passageway, Eric鈥檚 is the door at the end,鈥 I instruct her as quickly as I can.
鈥淗ang on, hon. I'll be right there.鈥 She assures me concisely before hanging up. Hurry, Sookie. Eric walked out of here fifteen minutes ago, and I know by now at 4:50am the dawn will have broken, ready to burn him away.
I just hope I can get to him in time, but before I can pace any further while panicking, I hear a key in the lock turning, the door opening to reveal a confused looking Sookie.
鈥淲hat the hell are you doing down here? What is this, imprison the blondes' week here at Fangtasia or something?鈥 she asks me as I bolt through the door, hearing her running along after me.
鈥淚'll explain all at a more convenient time. Right now, I have to go and haul a certain brave but stupid Vikings' ass back inside,鈥 I tell her as we tear up the back staircase. 鈥淭hank you for letting me out, by the way.鈥
鈥淵ou鈥檙e welcome. Believe me, I'm all for your plan, by the way,鈥 she adds, as I push the doors open and we both run out across the bar, Bill watching us, Pam distracted by staring at the security monitor, blood tears streaming down her face and sobbing as she watches the sight of Eric and Russell both smouldering out on the asphalt. She won't be sad for long, because there's no way in hell I'm letting Eric literally chain himself to this fate.
鈥淒on't cry, I'm getting him back for you,鈥 I state emphatically, kissing her bloodied cheek before running over to the doors where Sookie waits. 鈥淒id you see where he put the keys to the cuffs?鈥
鈥淥n his key chain, he has it on him,鈥 she replies. Flinging the doors open I then run barefoot out onto the frontage, Sookie hot on my heels.
鈥淭yra, get the hell back inside, now,鈥 Eric demands, his words laboured by the fact he has no strength, his body burning up in front of me, Russell looking crispier than a piece of chicken that鈥檚 been in the fryer for too long. Aparently the older the vampire, the faster the rate of decay.
鈥淣o!鈥 I roar at him in reply, pulling his keys from his pocket and flicking through them, having Sookie reach across and locate the tiny key for me and then take them and undo the cuff locked around Eric's wrist, with me snatching it and fastening it straight around mine as soon as it's off.
鈥淧ull him back inside. I'll stay to make sure this one is nothing but dust before I join you,鈥 I tell her, watching her nod and hearing Eric begin to protest as much as he can in his weakened state.
鈥淥h, shut the fuck up!鈥 Sookie scolds him, lifting him under his arms and surprisingly for such a dainty girl, having the strength to drag all six foot five inches and a couple of hundred pounds of him across the parking lot and back into the bar, leaving just me and Mr Edgington.
鈥淚f I wasn't gay, I'd say nice tits,鈥 he comments, his voice thick with the agony he no doubt feels, smouldering away helplessly beside me.
鈥淭hey're not for you to notice, sunshine. Speaking of which, how is it? Are you enjoying its warmth upon your face Russell?鈥 I question sarcastically. 聽
鈥淥h, it's just lovely,鈥 he replies, equally as sarcastic. 鈥淪o, why save the Viking, feisty lady? Why is he so important to you?鈥 he then inquires, no doubt wondering why Eric would have anyone else other than Pam to care about him this much.
鈥淗e isn't, but his cock and his bank balance sure as hell are,鈥 I lie through my teeth. Even now, when he's going to be reduced to ash in front of me, I will not let anything on about my involvement with Eric. Immediately Russell begins to laugh.
鈥淗ow I do have to admire that honesty. He ain't much use for anything else, I can imagine, so well done you for securing your future orgasms and pretty baubles he purchases for you. Smart gal,鈥 he replies, sounding amused but still, there's spite laced in each of his words.
鈥淣ow you know my motives, do me a favour. Shut up and die quietly.鈥 He chuckles labouredly some more before he's silent, leaving me to just sit and wonder how damn long this is going to take.
Eric's POV.
鈥淪ookie, go back out there and get Tyra away from Russell. Now!鈥 I instruct the young waitress who just hauled me back into the bar, who I attempted to fight off with all the strength I had left, which admittedly isn't much at all.
鈥淪he says she's waiting with him until he's dead. He can't hurt her since he's so weak, so what's your problem?鈥 she questions, looking perplexed at my urgency. 聽
鈥淚 have no time to explain this to you, just get her away from him or I swear I'll drag myself back out there to get her before trading places!鈥 I hiss angrily, wishing I could just swoop out there and get her. Sookie needs to cotton on to the urgency here and just do as I fucking tell her. 聽
If Russell touches her, even for the briefest of moments, he'll feel her energy. Because of his age and wisdom probably work out right off the bat what she is as well. There's no way I'm risking him using his last strength to pull out the cell I know is still in his pocket and let one of his associates know what he's found. 聽
Whatever she is, she's rare. Just because he's dead doesn't mean he won't still try and take her from me as one last big 'fuck you Eric Northman' gesture. No, that cannot happen. 聽
鈥淓ric, I used to go to the same school as her. Let me tell you, if Tyra Boden didn't wanna do something, she didn't and that was that. She鈥檚 more stubborn than a mule on a hot day. I could drag you in because you're weak, if she doesn't wanna come back, she'll throw me across the damn parking lot! I鈥檓 not messing with the only girl in school who stood up to the meanest bully and threw her down a flight of stairs for trying to take her lunch money! Uh-uh,鈥 she protests, 聽
鈥淪ookie, just go! If she says no, use force and do not take her refusal lying down. She hates being touched anywhere near her ribcage unless it's a gentle one, so if she hassles you, poke her in the side. She won't be able to fight back,鈥 I shout tersely at her, about as much as I can in my weakened state, seeing Pam's high heeled purple pumps come into my line of vision.
鈥淎lright!鈥 she shouts, heading back over to the door and flinging it open in a haughty manner, while I turn my attention to a crying Pam.
鈥淚 thought I'd lost you.鈥 She sobs, dropping to her knees and resting her head on my chest, her hands softly gripping my jacket, while I turn my focus to the display on the CCTV monitor...
Sookie's POV.
I think it鈥檇 be fair to say I'm in the dark over some things here, namely why my old school pal seems to be in the thick of this as much as I am, also the reason behind the fact Eric is utterly desperate to get her away from Russell Edgington. 聽
That鈥檚 easier said than done since she's incredibly strong for a lady. Also, as I detailed to Eric, she almost got expelled for kicking Kirk Thompson, the school bully straight down a flight of stairs for trying to bully her for her lunch money. Imagine what she could do to little ole鈥 me? 聽
I mean other than that instance, she鈥檚 a very gentle person, but lord, I don鈥檛 wanna poke the bear. I have little choice but to, though. 聽Jesus Christ, why is it always me put in these situations?
鈥淭yra, you have to come in. Eric sent me to fetch you,鈥 I tell her as I walk back out into the bright morning sun, Tyra turning away from viewing the charred vampire at her side to smile up at me, shielding her eyes from the sun.
鈥淭ell him I'm fine. Ole鈥 crispy fried here isn鈥檛 going anywhere and so therefore, neither am I,鈥 she replies softly, giving the arm that's cuffed at the wrist to Russell's a little shake. 鈥淥h, quit your snivelling and keep burning.鈥 She then sneers at him when he groans in pain. 聽
Whatever her involvement is, it would seem she also holds the same amount of contempt for Russell as Eric does. I can hear it in her tone, which strangely enough, reminded me of Eric. They certainly have their similarities, except Tyra is a lot friendlier and less mortally threatening. 聽
鈥淪orry, he told me not to take no for an answer. He also stated that if you did protest, I had to use force,鈥 I state, unlocking the cuff that鈥檚 binding her wrist.
鈥淪ookie, no offence, but if I don't want to move, you shan鈥檛 move me, hon,鈥 she tells me, laughing a little while I grab her arm and try to pull her up. She doesn't budge at all, her body immediately stiffening in resistance. 鈥淭old you.鈥 She then adds with an air of arrogance when my feeble attempt to pull her up doesn't even move her a centimetre across the floor.
鈥淚n that case, I've been instructed to do this.鈥 Jabbing her in the side, she immediately loosens enough for me to pull her away from Russell, Tyra scrambling to her feet and attempting to push me away, but folding when I keep jabbing her in the ribs.
鈥淥h, ladies. If only I'd have been born a heterosexual! The sight of two scantily clad blondes having a brawl would have made my death, it really would!鈥 Russell says slowly, sounding like he's in more and more pain by the second.
鈥淪hut up!鈥 Tyra and I both yell at him, before I push her back hard while still jabbing my fingers into her rib cage, trying and trying but not being able to move her far still. Holy Jesus, she's strong! 聽
It鈥檚 as I'm still fighting to move her the five feet more I need to get her back to the bar front door that a big, black truck with heavy tints on all the windows comes screeching to a stop, two Were's who I recognise from the mansion jumping out.
They throw a black sheet over Russell and then carry him straight back into the back of the truck from where they came before the driver tears off just as they slide the door shut again.
鈥淕reat, thanks a lot, Sookie! I had him! He was minutes from death!鈥 she yells, scowling at me. 聽
鈥淥h, come on! Don鈥檛 you think if you were still chained to him, they wouldn鈥檛 have taken you too? Don鈥檛 worry, you鈥檙e welcome!鈥 I shout back sarcastically, shaking my head as she rips open the front door and storms into the bar. This is where it all blows up spectacularly. 聽
As I enter, I see a freshly fed upon Ginger present, Eric standing up perfectly healed and strong again. He鈥檚 also absolutely gunning for Tyra. Except I can't understand word of it since they鈥檙e yelling at each other in Swedish. Oh, god, he just slapped her face! What the...oh, good girl, Tyra! She just punched him in the eye, that was deserved! 聽
Pam then inserts herself in the fracas, pushing Tyra behind her protectively to act as a shield against Eric. Just what the hell is going on between them? I thought Tyra had more sense to get involved with Eric Northman, because whatever it is, it's obvious it's just not the bookwork she's doing while she's here. This? This is a lover鈥檚 fight if ever I saw one. 聽
Tyra's POV.
鈥淓ric, she didn鈥檛 just drag you back in here for her sake. She did it for me, too and I鈥檓 glad that she did!鈥 Pam yells, all three of us having gone from English to Swedish in dialect. Basically, as soon as I came back into the bar, this is what I got...
鈥淵ou fucking imbecile! I had him, he was as good as head until you came along and meddled!鈥 He roared at me, about an inch from my face.
鈥淚 wasn鈥檛 prepared to let you die for that sack of shit!鈥 I protested, more upset than angry really. Did I even get a thank you for saving him? The hell I did.
鈥淣o, Tyra! What you did was selfish and dangerous! You saved me because you鈥檙e so pathetic, you鈥檇 rather let a plague like Russell Edginton loose on the world than deal with life without me. Out of everyone, I thought I could count on the most pragmatic person I know not to fuck up my plans, but no. 聽
鈥淵ou鈥檙e still have all the same insufferable emotional vulnerableness as the rest of them! Fuck you for ruining this for me, how the hell am I supposed to get him back and do what I pledged to the authority now? He鈥檒l be so heavily guarded from now on, I won鈥檛 be able to get within a fucking mile of him without him knowing about it!鈥 He then roared at me in reply, before slapping me around the face.
This of course prompted me to punch him in the eye, not so much angry, but hurt that he could strike me and also, seeing that he was partly right. How is he meant to do what he vowed he would to the authority now? Shit. All of that brings us up to now.
鈥淪he had no right. Because of her, he escaped! What the fuck am I supposed to do now?鈥 Eric yells at Pam, angrier than I've ever seen him.
鈥淣o, Eric. No! It's not her fault, just listen to me!鈥 Pam begins urgently, still continuing to shield me protectively. 鈥淲hen I was watching you on the monitor, just a few minutes after you'd cuffed him, he put his hand in his pocket, He was using his cell to contact those cronies of his who bundled him into the truck, it's obvious. If it had been you out there still, you'd have been in no state to fight them off,
鈥淩ussell knows nothing of her link to you, so she's useless to him. If Sookie hadn't have dragged you in then they'd have probably taken you too, likely tied you up somewhere on their way to burn up for what you did to Russell. When you think about it, she was pretty fucking smart, wasn't she?鈥 she then tells him, something I had no idea over. It makes me feel a little less guilty in an instant, knowing I had double good reason to do what I did. 聽
I watch Eric begin to visibly calm down a little, his breathing slowing and then stopping totally again as he regains his usual cool composure. Just from looking at him, I know he's suddenly looking at things differently, having what he's had pointed out to him so crystal clearly by Pam. His eyes then divert directly to me.
鈥淢ay we talk downstairs?鈥 he asks, back to English.
鈥淭hat depends, are you going to slap me again?鈥 I ask angrily, unable to help myself. I鈥檓 so upset with him for doing that. 聽
鈥淣o, and I apologise sincerely for striking you. Now, please.鈥 Pointing in the direction of the basement, I walk away first, squeezing Pam鈥檚 arm on the way past, my friend winking at me in silent reply. Once we鈥檝e returned to the apartment, quick as a flash I feel him wrap me in his arms from behind. 聽
鈥淲hat you did was incredibly brave, perhaps even a little romantic too. However, it was definitely stupid as well, because I'd give my own life for revenge against that man for what he did to my family back then and to protect the only family I have in the here and now.
鈥淵ou made me very, very angry with your actions. Yet, I do see Pam's reasoning quite clearly, so I suppose even though you foiled my plan I have to thank you, because they would have made sure I died and then my death would have been for nothing at all. I'm not so angry with you that I can't see that,鈥 he states emphatically while I just nod, not really knowing what else to do, or what to say. 聽
鈥淵ou hit me,鈥 I begin, turning in his arms and frowning. 鈥淲hatever I did, I did not deserve to be assaulted by you.鈥
鈥淏eat me. Slug me in the face as many times as you need to in order to make it right again. I deserve it, whatever you鈥檇 done, you鈥檙e right. You absolutely did not deserve me to raise a hand to you. I鈥檓 so sorry, Tyra. I truly am.鈥 I believe him, I do. I might still be smarting both internally and externally at being slapped, I might still be livid, but I know he鈥檚 sincere. 聽
鈥淚 don鈥檛 want to slug you. I hate fighting with you,鈥 I sigh weakly, resting my forehead on his chest. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e not forgiven for hitting me either. While I鈥檓 not prepared to walk away from you for it, I鈥檓 not going to forget about it instantly.鈥
鈥淚 don鈥檛 expect you to, Tyra. Just know I see how wrong I was and if you never forgive me for it, then that鈥檚 okay,鈥 he replies, stroking my arms affectionately. 鈥淚t shall never, ever happen again鈥 聽
鈥淚t truly wasn't all for me either, why I saved you. Hell, we aren't even in a relationship with one another. I honestly did do it for Pam too, and the fact a vampire like you cannot and should not have to forsake himself for scum.鈥 I continue, feeling him rest his head atop mine.
鈥淐an we just agree on one thing this morning?鈥 he asks, stroking my hair.
鈥淭hat we both stop talking and start sleeping? I think we need the rest,鈥 he proposes, while I let him go and smile at last.
鈥淚 concur.鈥 We both walk arm in arm over to the bed, stripping off and climbing in, Eric shutting his eyes and being gone to his rest immediately, me following after a short time of decompressing. 聽
To remain asleep is all I desire, yet sadly I keep waking up, my subconscious needing the reassurance that he鈥檚 still there while I鈥檓 sleeping. It was a frightening time for a minute then, thinking I'd lose him, the only blood I have left in the world so soon after I'd found him. 聽
To lose the vampire I'm beginning to find myself caring quite deeply for as well, it did mean I perhaps did what I did from a selfish angle, if I鈥檓 brutally honest with myself. However, I maintain it wasn鈥檛 my sole reason. I didn鈥檛 mention it at the time, but I did it for Godric, too.
I wanted to honour what was his final wish (to me) at least, to keep an eye on Eric for him. Strangely, with him being on my mind as I crawl out of bed and go take a pee, then wash my hands and face afterwards, I look in the mirror to witness the incredible sight of him gradually beginning to appear from nothing behind me.
鈥淕odric?鈥 I whisper, spinning around and staring at him, tears instantly filling my eyes. Oh lord, how I've missed him.
鈥淗ello, special girl,鈥 he begins, my tears escaping and cascading down my cheeks at hearing those words again after so long. 聽
鈥淗i,鈥 I sob, sniffing hard. 聽
鈥淭hank you,鈥 he begins with a smile, his ghostly transparent form walking towards me, leaning in close to kiss my forehead, something I feel as a cold tingle more than a press of lips, since he's a spirit now. 鈥淚 always knew you'd look out for him, just like I knew you'd be right for him, too. You're right for each other.鈥 He tells me, while I smile.
鈥淚 miss you,鈥 is all I can reply, my voice breaking a little as I feel extreme emotion choking me.
鈥淚 miss you too,鈥 he tells me, slowly and sincerely, the affection in his voice making a huge lump rise in my throat. 鈥淚 want you to know, you will find a way to end Russell Edgington, you will. Not Eric. 聽
鈥淵ou will find it soon, but when you do, just be patient with it. Keep up the good work, so far minus the bickering you two seem to relish in participating in with each other, you're doing a good job of looking after one another, which is what I wanted above all.鈥 Slowly, he steps away, smiling kindly and fading out to nothing again, leaving me now to wonder why the demise of Russell Edgington falls at my feet so specifically rather than Eric's. 聽
I know one thing for sure, there's no fucking way I'll be falling back to sleep easily upon my return to him and that nice, big bed I was enjoying sleeping in. Godric, the upmost respect I have for you, of course, but still. Damn you.
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dawn-writes75 months ago
hi, i hope you don鈥檛 mind that i鈥檓 a newer follower, but i鈥檇 like to request a male haikyuu matchup please :)
i鈥檓 a leo, use she/her prns, and 3 words my friends described me with are cold, smart, and hot (pls this makes me sound intimidating when i鈥檓 actually 5鈥2 and have the strength of a toddler)
i would like a mafia au with 馃挓 and thank you for hosting this event <33
Hello my love! I don't mind at all, it makes me happy that new followers are participating!馃挏馃挏
This was so much fun to write so I hope you enjoy!
I pair you with:
Hajime Iwaizami!
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You never wanted to be an assistant for a mafia member but when your family owed a debt you were given over to the Aoba Johsai Mafia, the leader Tooru Oikawa assigned you to the real leader that you only knew as Iwaizumi.聽
Every morning you would be met with a random person standing outside your apartment door telling you that Iwaizumi sent them to drive you to work, the lie you always told your neighbors is you were a secretary of a big hotshot CEO, it wasn鈥檛 a complete lie, but still.
You sat in the card playing on your phone, the drives were always silent except the pinging of your phone as your friends texted you about the nonesene they were up to, it was nice to feel somewhat normal but the second the car went into the parking garage the sense of normalcy was gone.聽
The door was opened for you by Haminaki. 鈥淢orning, welcome to hell.鈥
You shouldered your bag and slid out of the car. 鈥淏y hell I can only assume that you mean Oikawa pissed off Iwaizumi again and it鈥檚 going to be my job to clean it up.鈥
Matsukawa was waiting by the door for the two of you. 鈥淥h you have no idea.鈥 As he cracked the door open to the underground facility, you could hear the screaming immediately.
You felt a bead of sweat fall down your face, your eyebrow twitched in anger. You pushed past the two standing by you and walked in. The dim lights, the smell of alcohol, cigarettes, and weed flooded your nose as you stalked through the hallway. Kunimi and Kendaichi were hiding in your office and looked at you with their big pleading eyes to make it all stop.聽
As you passed through the entrance to the main meeting hall you saw Oikawa and Iwaizumi were running around, there was no weapon in sight but that didn鈥檛 matter when it was Iwaizumi. Honestly you wanted to let him pummel Oikawa but now is not the time.
鈥淚waizumi, Oikawa!鈥 You raised your voice as you stood there with a hand on your hip and a pout painting your lips.聽
Oikawa ran behind you and hid behind your short frame. 鈥淪ave me Y/nchan!鈥
Iwaizumi stared at you with his cold eyes. 鈥淢ove.鈥
鈥淲hatever you do, just don鈥檛 break his face. He makes the deals and gets us money, you idiot.鈥 You moved from the much taller man and walked into your office. You could hear the fighting and running, you put on your headphones and started getting to work.
Your day was immediately busy, there was paperwork that you needed to have Iwaizumi sign, money that needed to be counted, people that had hits on them. So much fucking work. You gathered the stack of papers and walked out of your office, walking through the corridors was always so sketchy to you, you knew this place like the back of your hand but it was always scary.聽
Once you got to the door you knocked three times, paused and knocked three more. 鈥淐ome in.鈥
You opened the door and walked to his desk. 鈥淗ere, I need these signed today by 5 and no later.鈥 You slammed the stack of paper on his desk.
鈥淵ou really let her talk to you like that Iwachan?鈥 Oikawa looked over at you from the leather couch.
鈥淵es, she gets shit done unlike a certain someone around here. Have you counted the money yet?鈥 Iwaizumi looked up from his endless amount of paperwork and thumbed through what you just threw on him.聽
鈥淚 am going to count it when I get back to my office. Remember 5.鈥 With that you walked out and went back to your office to begin to count and record the money that was earned. By 5 you had the papers back on your desk now signed and ready for filing. You wrote down the numbers and handed the book to Hanamki.
By the end of the day you were worn out, dealing with this group of idiots was draining and you still had to go grocery shopping, how fantastic. Once you got your stuff put away you walked to Iwaizumi鈥檚 office. 鈥淚鈥檓 out for the day.鈥
The door was shut and no noise came out of it, how typical. You rolled your eyes and walked to the door where the two you met this morning were waiting for you. 鈥淗ave a good night.鈥 They walked you to the car and watched you drive off.
When you were dropped off back at your apartment you quickly changed and grabbed your shopping bags. You walked your way to the store and started your shopping, you kept it light and quick as usual but something stopped you. It felt like eyes were on you, you were trained to pick on little things like this.聽
You turned your head to see a man with stunning hair, silver until the tips where they were darker. 鈥淪orry I don鈥檛 mean to stare, I just got caught by your beauty.鈥
You couldn鈥檛 help but blush at the words. 鈥淚t鈥檚 fine, thank you.鈥澛
鈥淚鈥檓 Semi.鈥 He introduced himself with a big smile, after you introduced yourself he followed you around the store having small talk with you.
鈥淗ey it may seem like a weird thing to ask to someone you just met, but wanna go out to dinner tonight?鈥 He smiled leaning up against a shelf.聽
It would bring you some sense of normality to think about going on a date with someone. 鈥淲hat day?鈥澛
鈥淗ow about tomorrow?鈥 He gave you a sweet smile as he pulled his phone out, you put your number in and gave it back.聽
鈥淛ust text me the time and where you want to go.鈥 With that you paid and walked back home, taking a different route to make sure he didn鈥檛 follow you.
The next day was actually pretty calm at work, Oikawa didn鈥檛 cause any issues that day and Iwaizumi was out all day in meetings with the 鈥減artners鈥 that were under his jurisdiction.聽
After you were taken home you quickly changed into your favorite outfit and waited for the text from Semi on where to meet. You knew better than to let him pick you up given your profession so you hailed a taxi once you got the address from him.
You waited patiently outside the very expensive restaurant, you took a deep breath to try and calm your fear of being stood up but you heard the roaring sound of a motorcycle pull up and park. The silver haired fox pulled off his helmet and jogged over to you. 鈥淪orry I鈥檓 a bit late, the ol鈥 girl was giving me troubles starting.鈥
鈥淚t鈥檚 fine, I鈥檓 just glad I wasn鈥檛 stood up.鈥 You smiled at him as you both walked inside the restaurant.
It was a great date, it was calm and nice, a very drastic change of pace from your everyday life. He laughed at every joke you made and complimented you at every chance he had. It was super sweet you wanted to keep seeing him if it meant that your life outside of work would continue like this.聽
The topic of work never came up, now was not the time to bring those things up. At the end of the date he hailed you a taxi and waited for it to take off before you watched him leave. Such a gentleman.
You pulled your phone out and were surprised to see your text messages were flooded by Hanamaki and Matsukawa.
Shithead #1:
So who is this?聽
There was a picture of you and Semi sitting at the table.聽
An old friend. A better question, why the hell are you dipshits following me?
Shithead #2
No reason don鈥檛 worry about that.
Figured you two were gay.
They blew up your phone denying it but you just shrugged it off until you got to work the next day.聽
Neither of them met you at the car, rather no one met you to walk inside. You cautiously walked inside, now the screams of people weren鈥檛 new to you but this was not normal, nothing about today was normal. You looked for Kendaichi or even Mad Dog but no one was around. You placed your stuff in your office and went to see if Iwaizumi was in but when you opened the door you were met with a horrifying scene.
Semi was tied to a chair, Mad Dog and Matsukawa were standing on either side of him, blood was falling from his nose and a few cuts. Your eyes danced over to Hanamaki who just gave you a sad look.聽
鈥淣ow I do wonder, is our precious Y/nchan a traitor? Has she been fed up with being sold to us to save her family that she would sell us out to Shiritorizawa?鈥 You felt a cold blade against your throat as Oikawa鈥檚 words filled your ears. 鈥淎n old friend huh?鈥
You swallowed harshly, why did this have to happen to you? 鈥淟et me go Oikawa.鈥 Semi was a part of Shiratorizawa?聽
鈥淥n one condition, you ever, and I mean ever, talk to another boy from that devil spawn Shiratorizawa and I will kill you.鈥 He pressed the blade against your throat. 鈥淥h and I suggest you leave Iwachan alone. Got it?鈥
鈥淔ine.鈥 With that the pressure was released from your throat and you were pushed out of the room. Biting back your tears you rushed back to your office and closed the door. You were shaking so bad that you couldn鈥檛 hold your pen right.聽
You let out a little yelp when you heard a knock at your door around 2 hours later. 鈥淪orry I鈥檓 late, you got any work for me today?鈥 Iwaizumi poked his head in with an eyebrow raised. 鈥淗ey, what鈥檚 wrong?鈥澛
鈥淣othing sir, I have nothing for you today.鈥 You shrunk into your chair as you shakily wrote in your notes.聽
鈥淥kay?鈥 He shrugged and closed the door behind him.
The next weeks you spent avoiding everyone, especially Iwaizumi and Oikawa. You were staying late finishing up some filing paperwork, your headphones were blocking out any outside noise as you hummed along to the song. You could feel eyes on you but that was not a new feeling for you here, you kept filing the paperwork until you felt your headphones being taken off of you.聽
鈥淥kay you have some explaining to do.鈥 On instinct your arm swung back to smack whoever just touched you but your arm was caught by a much larger hand. You had just swung your fist against your boss. You struggled to try and get out of his hold.
鈥淚鈥檓 so sorry, please don鈥檛 hurt me!鈥 Your body had been turned around to face him, he looked upset.聽
鈥淵/n, why would I hurt you? What the hell happened?鈥 He finally released your arm and watched as you rubbed the skin where he had a vice grip on you.聽
鈥淣othing happened, don鈥檛 worry about it.鈥 You closed the filing cabinet and locked it. You had to listen to what Oikawa said, he was the leader after all, he knew your life better than anyone, the time you went to sleep, ate, hell probably even went to the bathroom. You pushed past the taller man and made your way back to your office.聽
鈥淗old the damn phone.鈥 He followed you in and slammed the door shut behind him causing you to jump. 鈥淪omething is wrong and I need to know now!鈥
Your hands flew to your ears to try and lessen the screaming. 鈥淣othing happened sir, business as usual.鈥澛
鈥淭he hell this is business as usual dumbass! You have been avoiding me like I have the plague, you refuse to talk to me, to talk to anyone for that matter! What the fuck is happening with you?!鈥澛
鈥淥ikawa told me to stay away so I am fucking staying away okay!鈥 You threw your hands down on your desk.
鈥淲hat the hell did Shittykawa say to you?鈥 His face was stone cold as he waited for your response.聽
You looked at the papers that scattered across your desk. 鈥淎fter the whole Shiratorizawa incident, he told me to stay away from you or he鈥檇 kill me! There, are you happy?!鈥
Your teary eyes met his, you didn鈥檛 realize you were on the verge of crying until you looked up at him. He looked horrified. 鈥淥ikawa threatened to kill you? What incident with Shiratorizawa?鈥澛
鈥淟ike it matters.鈥 You sat down in your chair. 鈥淭he two dipshits saw me out on a date with Semi Eita, I had no idea who he was and we never talked about work but they told Oikawa and when I got to work the next day he said he鈥檇 kill me if I saw another Shiratorizawa boy or stayed close to you.鈥
鈥淕oddamnit, I told those two idiots to keep the following on the downlow.鈥 He sighed heavily and ran a hand through his spiky hair.聽
鈥淲ait, it was your order for them to follow me on that date?鈥 You shot up from your desk furious, if he knew about the date why didn鈥檛 he tell you it was with a member of Ushiwaka鈥檚 group?聽
鈥淚 didn鈥檛 know a damn thing about the stupid date. I have them follow you everywhere to keep an eye on you when I don鈥檛 know where you are. I鈥檝e never been one to spy on you but given the situation with how you came into my employment well I thought it would be a good idea. Why they told that dumbass I will never understand, they should have come to me first.鈥 He pulled his hair in a fit of frustration.
鈥淲ait they follow me everywhere?!鈥 You didn鈥檛 know what to feel, you didn鈥檛 expect this but you shouldn鈥檛 have been surprised.聽
鈥淔or your own damn safety! Jesus you can barely hold a gun with that strength of yours.鈥 There was a pout on his lips. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e missing the point though. Why the hell didn鈥檛 anyone think to tell me what was going on?鈥
鈥淎sk dipshits one and two that.鈥 You took a seat again and rubbed your face.聽
鈥淲as the date at least nice?鈥 Was there a hint of jealousy in his voice?
鈥淚t was fine, I鈥檝e been on better but haven鈥檛 had one in a long time cause of, well you know.鈥 You motioned with your hand to your desk and your boss as well.聽
鈥淏et I could have done better.鈥 He huffed leaning against the doorframe. Yeah he was jealous.
鈥淵eah I bet you could have as well but you're a mafia boss, you don鈥檛 have time to date.鈥 You shook your head. 鈥淧lus I am sure that anyone within a 5 mile radius would see your face and call the cops if they knew what you do.鈥
鈥淚 can cook you know, plus I have a few high end restaurants under my belt that can close for one night.鈥 He gave you a lazy smirk.聽
鈥淵ou have fun with that and whoever you decide to take then.鈥 You tried to focus on your paperwork but your head lifted as you heard his heavy foot falls against the floor.聽
鈥淲ell, what night are you free then? Gotta show you who is better around here anyway.鈥 There was a slight blush to his tan skin. Wait did he really just ask you out on a date?
鈥淗ow does tonight sound, Iwaizumi?鈥澛
鈥淐all me Haji when we are alone like this. Tonight is great, I鈥檒l pick you up in about an hour so get your pretty ass home got it?鈥 With that he stalked out of your office. 鈥淪hittykawa! You got one hour to run and hide!鈥
You heard the other man scream in terror and the chase began, you didn鈥檛 want to stick around so you locked up your office and made your way to the waiting car. Once you got him you quickly got showered and dressed.聽
You got a text from an unsaved number informing you that Haji was there to pick you up. You quickly ran out of your apartment and to the waiting car, it was expensive and you knew who was inside. You quickly let yourself in and smiled at your boss. 鈥淏uckle in, this baby goes fast.鈥
鈥淒id you honestly think I wouldn鈥檛 buckle in?鈥 You locked the seatbelt in place and held in your excited squeal as he pulled away from the curb a little too fast.聽
The smile that lit up his face stayed throughout the night. He took you to a very expensive restaurant, better than the one that Semi had taken you to, he was even more of a gentleman. It was nice to see him in a natural setting.聽
鈥淪o you have them follow me because there are some places you can鈥檛 keep tabs on me?鈥 You looked at him as you sipped your wine.聽
鈥淚 mean yeah, I want to make sure you are safe. You are one of our most prized assets.鈥 He chuckled while taking a drink from his glass.聽
鈥淗ow? All I do is your paperwork and count the money. Anyone can do that.鈥 You felt heat rising to the tips of your ears.聽
鈥淵eah but no one can do it like you do, plus it鈥檚 refreshing to have you around. After all of these years I thought you would have picked up on it.鈥
鈥淚t just comes naturally for me Haji.鈥 You shook your head.
鈥淣ot that you idiot, on the fact of why I keep you so close.鈥 When you met his eyes he laughed at your confused look. 鈥淚 like you dumbass, it really took you this long to figure that out?鈥澛
You tried really hard not to choke on your wine. 鈥淲ait what?鈥
鈥淥h my god. You鈥檙e ridiculous. One of these days I will just make you my little mob wife and you won鈥檛 have to worry about all of this.鈥 He smiled with a bright blush on his face.
鈥淢ob wife huh? Do I at least get to punch Oikawa?鈥 You smiled at him, this wasn鈥檛 going to be so bad after all.聽
鈥淎ny day you want, even starting tomorrow if you felt like it.鈥 He chuckled and reached over the table towards you.
鈥淚 will take you up on that one Haji.鈥 You held his hand.
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