also!! midnights by taylor allison swift is pretty fucking fantastic, crazy huh
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i pray some max fans never date a person with a child because the way you guys talk about p like she’s this burden max is saddled with against his will instead of an innocent child that he lives with and clearly adores is downright disgusting
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what's your take on odasaku and dazai's idealization of him?
also any takes you want to share about bsd/bsd in general?
(If you don't mind, I'm also interested in your thoughts about verlaine if thats ok 😭) tyty
who's your fave bsd character and whose the character from bsd you want to have more screen time?
i think its another case of projecting onto someone and it fucking things up. like notably how kouyou projects her own feelings abt light & dark onto kyouka. we just dont often see it that way because what oda does is like. stereotypically good? he uses his dying words to push a friend out of the dark. a death motivating others to act and furthering their character development is classic storytelling. you go into bsd knowing dazai is on the "good guys" side (not that the ada are "bad" but obviously reading bsd as a good guys vs bad guys story is. wrong), so clearly it worked out. so you kind of overlook the surrounding events yk? plus dazais own idolization of oda hammers that in. dazai tells atsushi that "He was a friend of mine (...) He’s the reason I quit the Port Mafia and joined the
agency. I’d probably still be killing people for the mafia if it
wasn’t for him" in dead apple (the lightnovel. im not going to go through pulling up the movie for this fhfhtndj). and so aside from previous bias people are going to take what dazai says at face value. hes thankful oda showed him the "side that saves people" and of course we're going to agree with that. the thing is. again. projection. now i havent actually finished dark era (i am working through it) but a lot of the time it feels like oda is just shoveling off all his feelings about being "someone meant for the darkness" onto dazai when thats something thats not going to be true for. well. anyone really? and his final conversation with dazai is very influenced by that. he says "You told me if you put yourself in a world
of violence and bloodshed, you might be able to find a
reason to live... (...) You won’t find it (...) You should know that. Whether you’re on the side that
takes lives or the side that saves them, nothing beyond
your own expectations will happen. Nothing in this world
can fill the hole that is your loneliness. You will wander the
darkness for eternity". now the thing is this is kind of a fucked up thing to say to an 18 year old with suicidal tendencies, but odas view of dazai makes it seem like a well needed wake up call. he obviously had good intentions. hes trying to "step into that solitude" but because of his flawed view of dazai he kind of. stumbles. dazai up to this point has been clinging onto the hope that he'd find a reason to live by observing the entire human experience. now oda comes along and dazai thinks hes found someone who understands him better than anyone, and oda tells him hes not going to find that. ever. so he should become a better person and make the world a good place. and also he's dying. so dazai, as we've seen, takes these words to heart. so hes not going to find a reason to live but he should also make the world a better place. good cool got that. so i think he gets a bit too comfortable being collateral for a good cause. and hes already convinced hes not going to find anything here, so of course hes not going to find anything. does that make sense.
i dont think ive phrased anything correctly here but like anyway i think with all his other friends around he'll be able to sort things out there. i cant see bsd ending without any sort of resolution for him in this regard yk.
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Still have no idea where this pairing came from, but me and the folks have been brainrotting over it for days lmao.
Local texan is gay for some old bird.
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June 21
I somehow managed to get in more of a nap then I thought I would, when I woke up it was shortly before midnight. I had Caleb use his phone to check on Dakota, Lily and Lilith. They were all doing well, no sign of James. I took another bath with some help from Caleb, it was getting harder and harder for me to move without the fear of falling. I was feeling unsteady, so I had Caleb walk with me a bit before I sat down on my very purple ball for some exercises Annalise recommended to help with labor.
I finally couldn't take it anymore.
I screamed in agony from a contraction and ordered Caleb to help me change into something not only cooler but to help me get rid of my pants. After that I slowly and stubbornly made me way to our bed and leaned back carefully into the birthing pillows.
Caleb seemed worried as he lovingly held my hand, placing kisses on it. He was whispering something but I couldn't make it out. We had Annalise first check the baby's heartbeat, which was good and strong. Then she finally told me news I wanted to hear, I was almost fully dilated.
I reared up, yanking off my headband in agitation during yet another contraction. "Get this baby out of me!"
Caleb placed his hands on my face and tried to console me though part of me wanted to cut off his favorite appendage at that moment.
The feeling passed when he lovingly kissed my forehead. "I have never loved you more than I love you right now. You are about to bring our child into the world. You are truly remarkable."
I cried out of pain and out of all the emotions and thoughts that were swirling around inside me like a hurricane. Annalise asked to check me again. My body was finally ready, mentally and emotionally I had been ready yesterday.
Caleb helped me onto my knees, we had decided he would be the one to help guide our child out as long as there were no complications. Annalise would be close by just in case and to instruct Caleb on what to do.
After what felt like hours of pushing and screaming on my part, it finally happened. We heard the first cry of our child, Annalise helped me sit back on the bed as I almost collapsed from exhaustion and emotion.
After nine months she finally arrived. Our little starfish, Este Evie Vatore. Named after both our mothers. I can't wait for all our loved one to meet her.
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I really just don’t think ppl understand how incredible of a social player Cirie is. Yes she made a lot mistakes this szn strategically, she sucks at comps etc , but she literally was running the game for the first half of the season and then her game got exposed and no one trusted her.They all realized that they were getting played by her . who comes back from that????? SHES STILL IN THE HOUSE all her ALLIES ARE GONE.  There’s absolutely no reason why she shouldn’t be a target, or at least a pawn every week but the reason why she’s not is because her social connections are so strong. It’s extremely impressive and she deserves all the 10s
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okay i'm just gonna state it here: stop fucking sending me anons about someone and go "i don't know if you're aware" as your starting point. seriously, stop fucking sending me anons about people. i don't care. if it's a problem that involves me, i will talk about it for one to two days at MOST. there's a reason why i leave shit alone after a certain duration because i've done my part with the situation.
learn to leave shit alone. let shit be and live your life. i'm literally on a semi-hiatus to catch up on threads - i DO NOT have time to worry about one fucking person in the RPC. prioritize other shit over literal fucking tumblr drama. i don't care about it.
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