#billie eilish - everything i wanted

[aldoodles]

And you say ‘as long as I’m here, no one can hurt you’

#for an audience of like four ppl #the underland chronicles #this part of ‘everything I wanted’ by Billie eilish #reminds me of gregor a lot #so please have this little comicky thing I’ve been working on on and off for a couple months #for this patch of lyrics #al chatters #my art #fanart #tuc #gregor tuc #tuc gregor #please pardon any errors #tuc spoilers #Suzanne Collins #gregor the overlander

[sweeetnothingss]

when taylor swift said "one day I'll watch as you're leaving cause you got tired of my scheming, for the last time" and when conan gray said "cause now I'm scared that everyone i love will leave me" and when gracie abrams said "until I'm feeling like an island, until I'm strong enough to hide it" and when taylor swift said "i didn't know you'd care if i came back" and when conan gray said "if being less insane would make you stay, then I'd be more like my sister" and when phoebe bridgers said "after a while, you got quiet and i got mean. I'm always pushing you away from me" and when taylor swift said "i know my love should be celebrated but you tolerate it" and when harry styles said "what if I'm someone you don't want around?" and when billie eilish said "thought I could fly, so I stepped off the Golden, nobody cried, nobody even noticed, i saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care" and when taylor swift said "who could ever leave me, darling? but who could stay?" and when-

#it's me #hi #I'm the problem #it's me. #anti-hero #taylor swift #conan gray #family line #gracie abrams #camden #this is me trying #jigsaw #phoebe bridgers #i know the end #tolerate it #harry styles #falling #billie eilish #everything i wanted #the archer

[turnin9pag3]

being a jegulus stan and listening to everything i wanted by billie eilish is new type of pain

#everything i wanted #harry potter #james potter #the marauders #regulus black #starchaser #sunseeker #jegulus #billie eilish

[texaschainsawmascara]

Blue Ocean Floor - Justin Timberlake / Pāfekuto Burū (Perfect Blue) / Mercy - Shawn Mendes / Little Birds (2012) / Head in the Wall - Ethel Cain / Clean - Taylor Swift / Senti-mental - PVRIS / Requiem for a Dream / Westworld, 4x07 / Stigmata (1999) / everything i wanted - Billie Eilish

#parallels #perfect blue #satoshi kon #blue ocean floor #justin timberlake #little birds #head in the wall #ethel cain #requiem for a dream #darren aronofsky #jennifer connelly #everything i wanted #billie eilish #westworld #evan rachel wood #dolores abernathy #stigmata #clean #senti-mental #pvris

[bunny-stereo]

#request #music #billie eilish #everything i wanted

[england-would-fall]

for my beloved @melanie75851150

#mystrade #sherlock #bbc sherlock #mycroftholmes #mycroft #mycroft holmes #mycroft bbc #greg lestrade #gregory lestrade #detective inspector #angst #photo edit #sherlock fandom #fanvid #original poetry #original poem #queer poetry #a poem by me #billie eilish #everything i wanted

[sweettbepbo]

everything i wanted

warnings: death, angst

word count: 1k

i wrote this a few years ago so i’m sorry if this is crap, this is some old fanfic pieces from my wattpad😭

Billie

~

"I had a dream."

"I got everything i wanted,"

"Not what you'd think,"

"And if im being honest,"

"It might of been a nightmare,"

"To anyone who might care."

Alex and I sang in unison as I played the guitar to the beautiful song.

"Thought I could fly,"

"So I stepped off the golden,"

"Nobody cried,"

"Nobody even noticed."

I look over at her as we sang together. Those beautiful brown long locks, adorable dark brown chocolate eyes, puppies would have. Her face was shaped perfectly. Amazing curves I would put my hands all over. Freckles scattered around her face. Not many but they're still there.

That body is mine.

That girl is mine.

Alex is mine.

My girlfriend..

As I was singing to my song I got quieter and quieter. Until I only heard Alex sing and she has a beautiful voice. The one problem is... she doesn't think she's all that, but she is. She is to me. That's all that matters. She thinks very low of herself. She noticed I stopped singing with her so she stopped herself.

"Why'd you stop? I sound like a freaking cow by myself."

I frown and let go of the guitar and put it beside me. I gently grab Alex's face with my hand. I pull her in for a sweet kiss.

"You do not sound like a cow. You sound beautiful, baby. I mean it."

She looks down and sits back.

"C'mon let's go cuddle." I gently grab her and pull her to our room. We have a small apartment together with 2 rooms and a bathroom. One room is our bedroom and the other is empty.

I find myself depressed when I walk into that room. I don't know why.

We cuddle up on the bed. With her head on my chest as I pull her in my arms and play with her hair. I find her presence very warm and relaxing. It's like I can't ever get myself away from her. When I'm with her all my problems wash away like the ocean. Pressure. Anxiety. Stress. Tour. Social media. It all goes away when I'm with her. Just like that.

Now I didn't ever take drugs or will ever take drugs but with Alex, it's like she's my drug. I can't get enough of her. She makes me want to go crazy. She makes my heart go flying out of my chest. She makes me filled with so much joy and happiness.

She's definitely my soulmate.

And with all of these thoughts running around in my head. I just fell asleep. Holding my baby.

Billie's dream

~

I see a coffin. It looks like some sort of funeral.. but.. no one is there. I look at the name.

Billie O'Connell

2001-2019

... I died.

And no one came. Not even my brother, Finneas. My mother.

Not even Alex.

The love of my life. My soulmate.

How did I die?

I get pulled into another place. I look around and see the golden gate bridge. With the waters beneath it. I suddenly hear sniffles and turn around.

I see myself. I'm crying. I look where I am and I'm dangerously close to the edge of the bridge.

No.

I try to yell out for myself to not do it..

But I'm too late. I see myself jump off. I remember back to my funeral.

Did no one care when I died?

No one helped me.

No sympathy.

No one tried to convince me that I shouldn't have done that. Not even Finneas.

I fall to my knees and cry.

And cry.

Nobody cared about me.

Nobody cared that I died.

Am I meant to die?

Suddenly I get pulled out of my dangerous dream and see a new scenery. I enter Alex and I's apartment. I wipe my tears and look at our bedroom. She's not in there. I look at the empty room.

It's not that empty anymore.

The walls were painted a pastel blue. A wooden rocking chair in the corner. A gray circle carpet in the middle with stars. I look to my left.

I see Alex. Her long wavy curls were now cut into a short wavy bob. She turns around.

She has a baby in her arms.

She rocks the baby as she sings songs to it. The crib beside her was painted a nice soft gray.

We didn't have a baby.

Did.. she want to have a baby with me?

I get closer as it doesn't matter. She can't see me because it's just a dream. I realize it's a boy. I look up at Alex. Her facial expression was the most cutest thing in the world. Smiling down at the baby as she giggles at the baby's cuteness. Her face changes within a couple of minutes. Making me change my mood.

"I wish your mama was here to see you. I bet she would have loved you. So much."

Was this.. my baby?!

I shed a couple of tears staring at the precious baby in her arms. It sleeps peacefully in one of his mother's arms. He had brown hair just like Alex. His cheeks were an adorable version of Alex's. He was almost as pale as me. This baby that possibly doesn't even exist is making me have mixed feelings. I don't know how to feel about this.

I had already fallen in love.. but why did I always feel so upset when I walked into this room?

I guess maybe it was just because I was missing something. This baby.

"I love you so much, baby." She looked away from him and shed a tear.

"I love you too, Bil. I always have and I always will." She whispered.

"I love you too, Alex." I whisper cry. I reach out for her but it's impossible for her to reach me.

~

I jump awake in a sweat. My hair's a mess and I'm hyperventilating. I look around the bedroom and find that Alex was sleeping peacefully beside me. I calm down a bit and fall back, trying to calm myself down. That was definitely quite the dream.

Alex flutters her eyes open and stares at me with a smile before slightly frowning, "You okay, bil? You look like something just happened."

"I'm okay. Just had a.. bad dream.. I guess."

"Okay." She rubs my shoulder and kisses it. I try to pull her closer to me. I wrap my arms around her waist as we stare at the ceiling.

"Hey, I have a question, babe." I ask just being curious.

"Yeah? What's up?"

"W-would you ever want to have kids with me someday, Alex?"

"Of course! I kind of have baby fever right now. Which is weird!" She giggles. I chuckle and smile down at her. I sigh and look back at the ceiling.

"Billie, what was that dream about? It seemed pretty scary."

".. Nothing, mamas,"

"Nothing at all."

#billie eilish #billie eilish x reader #everything i wanted #fanfiction #fanfic #billie eilish x you

[pushlikeabastard]

everything i wanted - Billie Eilish

for @roglaert <3

#wout van aert #ik moet just niks #everything i wanted #billie eilish

[nocturne-daze]

"I had a dream I got everything I wanted"

#jujutsu geto #geto suguru #jjk geto #jjk art #billie eilish #everything i wanted

[sessiizliginsesii]

#writers on tumblr #spotify #billie eilish #everything i wanted

[queen-of-weird-girl-nation]

Everything I wanted is a Jason Grace song

#jason grace #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #riordanverse #my child <3 #pjo fandom #jason grace my child #percy jackson and the olympians #everything i wanted #billie eilish #on my mind

[rayyzcosmos]

when billie eillish said, "nobody cried, nobody even noticed, i saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care"

#it's sad #sad thursday #sad lyrics #sad quotes #sadness #its just soooooooo sad #desi academia #desi tumblr #desiblr #desitumblr #being desi #desi memes #desi humor #desi tag #desi #aesthetic #billie eilish #everything i wanted

[maiht]

#billie eilish #barbie #meme #happier than ever #music #where do we go when we fall asleep #guitar songs #dont smile at me #come out and play #everything i wanted

[my-cages-were-mental]

fyi this is her song.

especially this part.

If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead? If I knew it all then, would I do it again? Would I do it again? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head What would they say instead?

#elle greenaway #everything i wanted #billie eilish #criminal minds #Spotify

[b-etter]

I had a dream

I got everything I wanted

Not what you'd think

And if I'm being honest

It might've been a nightmare

To anyone who might care

#personal #music #spotify #fav #everything I wanted #billie eilish

[cocobabyluv]

I had a dream

I got everything I wanted

But when I wake up, I see

You with Me

#billie eilish #everything i wanted #cars #sea #oceancore #sink or swim #dream #blue archive #nightmare time #they dont deserve you #sadgirl #grunge #soft grunge #boyfriend #emo girl #emocore #art #night #aesthetic