i have no idea what to do with my life, nor do i have any passions, objectives, interests or hobbies all because i did not expect—nor plan—to be alive for this long smh
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I hate hate hate hate so much that I cannot remember ANYTHING about my life. I NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHY
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feelings are too much, it’s crab rangoon hours
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TAKE YOUR MEDS.
Fr fr. Do not ever randomly stop taking them. I couldn't get my meds for 5 days and I laughed it off. Now I'm shaking like Rue from Euphoria and I can't stop crying. Take. Your. Meds!!!!!
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“I cannot fathom who it was I thought my soul resided within,
I have morphed from battle to battle and returned with nothing but sin.”
R.Wells
Who am I? 25.8.23
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being in a constant state of distress where anything can trigger it is so hard. i can get distressed at the simplest of things, but i’ll get blamed for ✨being distressed✨
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my therapist always gives me good advice but that I cannot follow.... if I followed her advice I'd have 2 friends and that's it which I cannot afford right now...
im not well enough to have mature conversations and let people know why their actions hurt me, I'm too tired to care about myself or think rationally so I just let people ghost me and let my intrusive thoughts work on my myself or I just evade reality, I'm just a shell of a human
if I decide to tell people that something hurt me I just try to calm down and not be too much, too crazy, too overbearing, too emotional... too much.
and now I'm too tired to even care, I just am done with everyone and I wish they respected me as much as I respect them but apparently people with bpd aren't worth of respect
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hot take but you all NEED to stop telling people to kill themselves.
yes, even *those* people. i don't care if you're talking to some monster who puts live puppies into a wood chipper for fun, don't say that shit.
because mx. puppychipper isn't gonna be affected by your words.
but you know who might be affected? some innocent third party reading the words you said on a public website.
because telling people to kill themselves says "suicide is a punishment for being a bad person. bad people, upon realizing they're bad, should simply commit suicide instead of working to atone for their actions."
and that is NOT a message you wanna be normalizing to anyone, but ESPECIALLY people with depression (who, let's be real, make up a higher than average chunk of this site's userbase). whose mental illness is already telling them that 1: they're an inherently terrible worthless person no matter what they do 2: death is an appealing option.
is reading "kill yourself" once or twice gonna make them do it? nah, probably not. but reading it multiple times a day every day is gonna make their mental health worse. it's probably not good for your mental health to be saying that kind of thing, either.
just knock that shit off. the world is already so hostile to people with mental illness, and managing mental illness and unlearning unhealthy thought patterns is already so difficult. you don't need to be out here making it worse.
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Y'ALL, LISTEN TO YOUR PSYCHIATRISTS. DO NOT GO OFF YOUR MEDS COLD TURKEY. I am telling you, it's not worth it. I feel like I'm dying. And the feeling of withdrawal makes me feel like a junkie even tho it's medicine I need. I'm rating this 0 out of Someone please hit me with a bus because the symptoms are unbearable.
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being diagnosed with something later in life is like. oh. so this is why i was lost. this is why i was hurt. this is why i was hated. this is the piece i knew was missing, but couldn’t name. now that name has been granted. and you sit in the doctor’s office chair. you stare at the insurance code. you wonder what could have been, had you known earlier. you wonder and wonder and wonder.
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