I always feel odd looking back through these photos of my friends birthday because I look so happy, yet inside I felt so sad. The weeks before I’d relapsed back into bulimia and I was losing weight very quickly, so attending a party with food and socialising with people I barely knew was the last thing I’d wanted to do.
I suppose what I’m trying to say is that masking is very easy to some. Check on your ‘happy’ friends and your ‘always okay’ friends, because sometimes they are the ones who need it.
On a brighter note, I haven’t relapsed since this night… over a year ago! Go me.
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