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A LIFE IN THE DAY
David Duchovny: ‘Love can happen at any age, right?
The actor, 63, on The X Files, songwriting and snacking
EKATERINA GERBY
Interview by Helen Cullen
Wednesday January 17 2024, 12.01am GMT, The Sunday Time
Duchovny was born in New York City. He studied English at Princeton University and Yale, before breaking into acting in the late 1980s, starting in TV adverts and working his way up. In 1993 he began playing the role of the FBI agent Fox Mulder in The X Files, which ran for nine years. He later played Hank Moody in Californication. He has also released three folk-rock albums and published five novels — last year he directed a film adaptation of one of these, Bucky F***ing Dent. Duchovny has two grown-up children from his former marriage to the actress Téa Leoni. He lives in California, with his girlfriend, Monique Pendleberry, and his two dogs, Brick and Rookie.
I like to get up at dawn because those are my best thinking and writing hours. I love the sunrise but it also means I can get some work done before the sun gets too much. That’s the best time of day for me. I have a coffee that makes me think I’m brilliant for ten minutes and that’s all I need to get going.
Food to me is just fuel and I don’t have very advanced taste buds. I think everything kind of tastes OK, which people react to with suspicion. For breakfast I like oatmeal — what my Scottish mother called porridge.
If I’m filming I still like an early start, but I shot my recent film What Happens Later, with Meg Ryan, all through the night because we filmed in a regional airport after it closed at 9pm. That’s a bit of a nightmare for me as a morning person, but we developed a great camaraderie from working while the world was asleep. My daughter, West, thought it was great to see a romantic comedy film with people my age, but I don’t think of myself as any age, so I hadn’t thought about that. Love can happen at any age, right?
Everybody wants me to have a hobby, but I’m blessed because I love my work. I’ve been able to branch out into music, writing and directing. With songwriting I can pick up the guitar at any time. If you wait for inspiration to hit, you’ll be sitting on your ass for ever.
I knock off for lunch about 12pm. That’s when I have the one big meal of the day that would be recognisable to other humans as a proper meal — vegetables and a protein such as fish. The rest of the time I snack.
In the afternoon I work out. I love the games I played when I was younger — boxing, tennis and basketball — but as I get older I tend to get hurt doing those, so I’ve found Pilates is best for me. It’s still super hard but the least dangerous.
I live in Malibu and the height of my fame has passed, so it’s not difficult for me to move around any more. It’s a different era now because everybody has a phone, so paparazzi are more a thing of the past. I tend to go to the same places where people are bored of seeing me.
There are always different reasons why fans might stop me — it could be still because of The X Files or Californication. I am very proud of The X Files. I can’t think of another show like it in terms of cultural impact and longevity. I just thought we were making good, goofy TV but Chris Carter, the creator and director, saw what was coming in terms of the culture of conspiracy theories. Gillian Anderson [his co-star] and I went from being unknown to globally recognised in a couple of years. We don’t get to see each other that much as she lives in London, but there’s no one else I can share that with.
West is an actor now too. It wasn’t something that I would have charted out for her because I know how difficult it is, even more so for a woman, but I want her to do something she’s passionate about. There are still dark corners in Hollywood but the pitfalls and dangers are much more upfront.
I do enjoy a party, but I’d rather spend time with friends in the evening. Because I like to get up so early, I go to bed early also. I feel electric light has really f***ed with our sense of mind and body, and that we were made to hide in the cave at night from predators and wake up with the sun, so I try to do that. Constitutionally, I feel like that works for me.
Words of wisdom
Best advice I was given
It doesn’t matter if people laugh; it matters if it feels funny to you
Advice I’d give
There’s no such thing as good advice — you have to come to it on your own
What I wish I’d known
Take a moment to appreciate what you’ve done before worrying about the next thing
What Happens Later is in cinemas now and available to stream in spring. The Reservoir by David Duchovny is out now (Akashic Books £19.95)
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dear john
elijah hewson x singer!reader
(ex!charles leclerc cause hes a hot red flag)
plot: its giving friends to strangers to friends again to lovers 🫶🏼
face claim: laufey <3
warning: spelling mistakes
authors note: this is for the lovely anon who requested a speak now inspired smau ! Hope this is okay?!? I was tempted by doing something on the vibe of speak now the song but imma think on it 🫡
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elijahhewson posted to their close friends!
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authors note: ahh im a broken record with the friends from home trope but its my favourite 🥲 hope you all enjoy, please as always let me know what you think!!
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youtuber bf sunghoon
youtuber!sunghoon x reader! in which he is a world renowned youtube star with millions of subscribers but his favourite person will always steal the spotlight — requests are open officially now if you want something specific:)
honestly i see him being one of those youtubers that started posting when they were a kid and just grew a huge fan base from there
like hes been posting since he was like eleven and now hes 20 with over 15 million subs
yes. i’m giving him 15 million. he deserves more. subscribe to him rn
and you’re not on the youtube scene until the two of you start dating
but how you met is actually filmed
he was filming a vlog with his friends and they decided to film a basketball vid for heeseung’s channel
now sunghoon isn’t bad at basketball but he isn’t the best
so you can probably see where this is going
if not then… you were innocently passing by the court when the ball flung over the high gate and smacked you in the side of the head
you wanted death to welcome you
really you could’ve curled up in a ball
pain and embarrassment you didn’t know which was worse
“riki stop laughing- oh my god-”
you couldn’t really see that well but you managed to make out multiple figures on the court standing still just staring
one of them had their hands slapped over their mouth so you assumed that one was riki
someone was leaving the court but you couldn’t make out it it was one person or two because your vision was off
poor you just wanted a slushie to cool you down
you ended up walking away with bf tho so let’s be real… getting slapped in the head was worth it
“i’m so sorry- are you okay?”
“oh no. it’s fine. cant see but you know… it’s all good”
you little people pleaser you
the person takes your hand awkwardly to try and steady you
because that ball had knocked off your entire balance
thats so embarrassing for you im so sorry for doing this to you BUT ITS FOR THE PLOT! you’re gorgeous enough to get through it, your face card never declines bae just take it in stride
after a few moments your vision settled and you were finally able to focus on the boy
and boy was he fine
suddenly the embarrassment seemed worse than the pain
because a really hot guy just watched you get a ball to the head
“do i need to take you somewhere to get checked? you don’t have a concussion right? i didn’t kill you or anything?”
the only thing he killed was your ego
despite insisting that you’re fine, he convinces you to let him buy you a slushie as a makeup gift
cue the annoying wolf whistles when his friends see the two of you walking away together
sunghoon flips them off forgetting all about the video he was supposed to film for heeseung
and you best believe that long legged mf kept that part in the vid
anyways the two of you get a slushie together and he tells you all about his channel and eventually when it’s time for you to head home
he asks if he can see you again
and you’re just like *debby ryan meme* who me?
that was horrifyingly cringe i am so sorry
skipping past that, you are not about to turn this man down so you agree and a date is scheduled
moving on from how sunghoon was blessed with your existence, let’s get into your relationship — my favourite part;D
his fans absolutely adore you as they should
im your biggest fan tho don’t forget that pls
literally his stans beef with him asking if he can fight
no but fr can he because i’ll get my boxing gloves on rn
sorry sorry
videos with you always get a lot of views but there isn’t many of them since he does value privacy and is quite protective
theres like a video with you once every six months and then you’ll just make the odd appearance in the background
his friends LOVE having you in their videos tho bc you bring in them views bc everyone loves you so much
ultimately as much sunghoon would like to protect and shield you, he knows you are your own person and let’s you decide whether you want to be in their videos or not
most of the time you’re like sure because it’s fun
there’s definitely fan made compilations of sunghoon being an absolute simp for you
THE FAN EDITS!!! THE FAN EDITS!!!
you literally sit and watch them before you go to sleep
ngl id do that too i don’t blame u
the video of you being knocked out by the ball is an iconic moment in his fandom
his friends bring it up any chance they get
“remember when sunghoon knocked all of the brain cells out of their head?”
“what brain cells? they had none to begin with.”
cue you throwing a pillow at the youngest for that comment
“you’re like 6! go learn how to read.”
ni-ki definitely sees you as an older sibling and as much as he teases you, he adores you
the boy literally threatens sunghoon whenever you aren’t around
“i swear if you mess up this relationship and make me a child of divorce, i will roundhouse kick you”
sunghoon just snorts but he knows he will never ever hurt you
because the idea of breaking your precious heart genuinely fills him with dread and nausea
also because me and ni-ki have a y/n protection squad going. we’ve got your back ml don’t worry
sometimes he films for hours and then goes straight to editing with no breaks so you always supply him with some water and snacks
that definitely convinces him to take a break because he just needs to kiss all over your face for being so darn amazing
you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to him
isn’t sappy often but he has his moments where he’ll remind you of how much he genuinely loves and appreciates you
those little declarations always make you sob
and now i’m gonna sob because you’re both just so in love
definitely the internets favourite couple
now that’s over, excuse me whilst i go slide down a wall and cry of loneliness:)
small end note — had this in the drafts for a while and i’m not too keen on it but it took some time to do, so here we are. also thank you for all of your support recently! i’m very grateful and appreciate of you! much love! :)
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Oh boy oh boy, here we go.
I waited until this week to do a Ghost Files spreadsheet update because I wanted to do it the same week that I record the older videos. (I have two spreadsheets, one that I only record once a month and one that I do every week) I wanted to see overall what a difference GF has made to Watcher’s shows and views. But first!
All of these videos blow the previous “fastest to one million” Watcher records out of the water. Every Ghost Files episode has hit it in 29 hours or less.
Trending continues to baffle me. As you can see, St. Ignatius did not trend, but had the best opening weekend of them all. I will not and do not understand trending.
The Debriefs are doing about on par that the PostMortems did, with these actually doing better than the most recent PMs did in 2021. They are also quite meatier episode lengths.
You can’t really compare GF to anything else on Watcher’s slate because it’s so doing so far and above everything else. So I’ve been comparing it to the final few seasons of BFU. It’s right on track with those videos, which is pretty amazing considering GF is under a completely different name and channel. I know those of us Watcher fans who have been here since the beginning find the fact that so many people didn’t know it existed baffling, but the algorithm is bizarre and cruel, so I think it’s a huge accomplishment for Ryan and the crew to be right on track with its predecessor.
Also, it is very sweet to me that right now, the top 3 Watcher videos are all from a different Watcher founder. Waverly Hills at #1, Simu’s Dish Granted at #2, and Puppet History’s Dancing Plague at #3. Aw.
One of things I’ve been most excited about with tracking these numbers is how other Watcher series are doing now that Ghost Files is out and so big. This will probably get long, so under a cut.
A lot of Watcher series are up right now, but only the Ryan and Shane shows. Unfortunately, none of Steven or other creators’ shows have gotten a boost from GF. The two exceptions to this are two recent DG episodes. The Uncle Roger episode continues to perform very well (at 908k and counting, twice as much as any other episode from this season) and bless his heart, Zach Kornfeld’s episode got a mini-boost after all the Try Guys drama broke. None of the other Watcher videos featuring Keith or Zach had notable boosts, though. (thank god they never had Ned on, am I right?)
The newest season of TMS has gained an average of 69k (nice) views since GF premiered. Compared to a 4 week run in August, they gained a total of 26k views. The other seasons also got some mild boosts, except the most recent holiday one for whatever reason.
Newest season of AYS averaged new ~14k views over a 4 week period before GF. Now it has averaged ~49k views. Older seasons also got a bit of a boost, although interestingly again, not the second most recent one as much. Maybe people started the playlists at the beginning after watching most recent seasons and didn’t get to the second most recent ones yet?
Most recent season of Puppet History is up to 50k new views per episode since GF, compared to ~28k in the same time period. Older Puppet Histories are also doing very well across the board. Will be interested to see how much this continues with the new season on deck next.
And finally, our dearly beloved Weird and/or Wonderful World. It is not up across the board, but a few episodes have gotten boosts in the past month. Solvang is up 24k, Roller Derby was up 21k, Pop Pals 52k, and Pie Shop 29k. Not sure why only these got boosted, but I will take it. Watcher, please, give this show another chance.
Oh also Tourist Trapped is up 50k.
As of today, October 17, 2022, Watcher has 209,373,478 views across 221 videos. This averages out to 947,391 views per video. This is up from 887k per video that I recorded a month ago. Jesus fucking Christ.
I also subtracted every video that’s premiered since 9/19 to see how the average changes without Ghost Files numbers (or that one off AYS). The average for the 213 videos that premiered before GF is 913k, which is still up quite a bit.
Watcher has gained ~200k new subscribers (at 2.26m) to the channel during this time as well. Their patreon has also gone completely bananas in terms of members. They’re at 6300(!!!!) right now, which again, completely bananas. I know a lot of these folks will probably dip after GF ends for the season, but all of this support only means good things for Watcher. They’ve got more wiggle room now to travel again and try new things and give new creators more shots. After everything we’ve watched this channel go through over the past two and a half years, I could not be prouder.
As always, thanks y’all for reading! I very much appreciate all the love and nice comments and tags I see on these posts. Glad we are all numbers nerds that are overinvested in Watcher.
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tw: hockey culture, homophobia, sa mention (hockey canada)
Bless Brock for bringing up this important point
Click thru and ofc you will see the inevitable horrendous homophobic replies on this tweet.
Now let's switch over to man's man hockeyman ryan whitney on masculine man podcast spittin chiclets
This screencap was posted here, initially on reddit, and ofc the replies are along the lines of:
"oh yea i didn't even think of that until whit pointed it out"
Once more further evidence of why pride jerseys are important. Why straight athletes showing allyship by wearing them and talking about pride is IMPORTANT.
But this goes deeper into the older gen's (the gatekeepers) hockey culture of not understanding the implications of standing up for these rights when they don't affect you personally but they do affect other ppl around you. This other part:
he = biz
biz may have accidentally stumbled into a win here and i fully commend him for sticking it out on the babcock issue. But he is still unaware of why this was a good course of action beyond 'my friends are hurt and I'm standing up for them.' He is still very much hockey culture.
He believes jarmo giving a second chance to someone who did zero work and showed zero evidence of having worked towards fixing his issues is totally fine bc he accepts it as part of hockey culture.
I remember i listened to their podcast after the provorov pride jersey game (bc yes sometimes i just want to hurt myself). Ofc they're modern men w openly gay friends, they shit-talked provorov as a typical asshole who knows nothing but hockey and should've been sat out for not warming up (which yay, felt great to hear). but beyond that, kinda it. (RA didn't get it which no big surprise.) Didn't fully talk about the big picture of what this kind of action leads to (which ta-da led to entire teams foregoing their pride jerseys, and the inevitable chickenshit bettman decision to nix all special jerseys). They have the ear of the entire manly man masculine hockeymen demographic but didn't take that opportunity.
So now i wonder if this is just how it/life/the world goes. As one of their own gets attacked, they take a stand. Empathy only applicable to their own and no one else.
Which reminds me of how all those old men who only stand up for women's rights only when they realize oh shit wait "i have a daughter, mother, sister" but y'all fuck your daughter, mother, sister.
Maybe progress will only happen by accident when idiots like biz are suddenly faced with the problems we've been harping on over and over and over are . oh shit. right at his own doorstep.
Hey btw London police, still waiting on that hockey canada 2018 wjc report and them 5 charges (should be 8 but ugh...) Let's hear it. Let's charge em and fire them from their jobs too.
#*deep breath in and out#venting is good. now off to the rest of my day#annieQ hockey thoughts#brock mcgillis#hockeyblr#paul bissonnette#ivan provorov#gary bettman#mike babcock#ryan whitney#spittin chiclets#tw homophobia#homophobia#pride jerseys#nhl garbage league#hockey culture#hockey canada#tw sa#sa
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Casino Blues
02. Royal Flush
Rusty Ryan x Male Reader | Platonic! Danny Ocean x Brother Reader
Fandom -> Ocean's Trilogy
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The Royal Casablanca was not just a mere simple Casino—which thankfully isn't located in meek old boring Viva Las Vegas, wouldn't have fit the aesthetics—but it's The Casino of all Casinos—located on a ship, the ship itself being the establishment—for the high society of the world's wealthiest people.
Royal Casablanca, nicknamed Royal Bianca for short sayings, is a highlight for every Gambler—and auctioneers, who love to present their antiques—from past decades all the way to jewels of the modern era—you name it, they bring it, you pay and if you can't pay, well in simple terms; your life is not worth of living anymore—an thrill of excitement and ecstasy like experience.
So when Danny had knocked on your hotelroom—in the early hours of lunch, after yesterday's failed attempt of a heist to pay Mister Benedict back and you're still pissed at Danny and Rusty for that, because now you're on his hit-list too—greeting you joyfully, with a tight hug and ruffling your hair, stepping inside—amused at your husband, who eats a stack of pancakes, like the glutton he is—you were surprised when Danny said, he wanted to gather the team for another heist.
You're even more surprised, interest highly piqued though, when Danny mentioned the Royal Casablanca.
The guys, besides Reuben, looked only mildly confused—save for Linus, he had yet again no clue what's going on—with the mention of the name and you couldn't help yourself but to chortle out laugh.
»Could someone please explain what joke I missed?«
»Oh Linus, bless you, but Danny and Rus really needs to teach you some basics of the Casino and Gambling world« you said, getting up from the couch and standing next your brother now.
Linus didn't mention it, holding his tongue, how—in a way—unsettling it was for him—how fast you had changed personality by the mention of a mere Casino. Had you gone from bystander husband—who knows about the little hobby of illegally, like Tess—to professional informant within seconds.
And informations about Royal Casablanca you had.
»Gentleman's, when Monaco the Royal Palace of gambling is, than is Royal Casablanca the Crown itself,« you begun, starting—full in your element—to explain why this Casino is such a grand event of highlight.
From Europe, to Africa and all the way to Arabian and Asian east, the Casino would anchor at a specific location of country and stay there for maximum three nights, before it sail's away towards the next destination.
Since they have their own special bank inside the ship, the security is high but not high enough; which means, if played right, you can—in a metaphorical sense—rob it without being caught.
»Wait, how's that even possible?«
»Royal Bianca belongs technically to Monaco, in any of these three nights they make enough money—explosive enough—that if you might win a longer round of games in there and getting one of the grand jackpots and leave, it wouldn't hurt them.«
»So, hypothetically speaking, if one of use wins—although this time, truthfully without any tricks—let's say, 500.000.000 Billions, it's legally ours.« adds Danny and the others shrieked in shock.
»How's such a sum, in legal terms ours? What the hell is Royal Casablanca?! The devils home?«
»Nah, it's not the Devil's home, I would know—was there for years, although people say, it's also located in Ohio and somewhere else—but anyways. No, the reason why is; if you win, doesn't matter what sum, it's all yours. A wins a win, those are one of the few rules in there.«
»And who of us will be the lucky guy?«
»That's gonna be [Name].«
»That's right. It's me, who's not only an expert, but also the best of the best when it comes to Royal Bianca.« you boasted gleefully, fully proud and overflowing with confidence.
Royal Casablanca was your realm.
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Danny, Rusty and you were in one of the many empty—to such an hour—lounges of the hotel, you're staying in for tonight and tomorrow.
From Amsterdam to Monaco was just a day trip away and since Danny and Rusty had to do a short visit in France anyways, their planned casino heist—in one of Europe's most prestigious establishments—was just the start of something great.
»You wanna tell me the real reason, how you lost thirty millions of thirty-five? It can't be just the hotel thingy of yours«
You poured yourself another cup of coffee, but stopped midway from drinking it, when Danny had asked Rusty that question.
All you wanted was to discuss the plan once more, taking a short nap afterwards and then getting ready for your performance—but not to talk about this theme again or having to break up one of their heavier arguments.
»Well, it was just twenty for my hotel, the rest ten millions had to be paid for [Name]«
The way Rusty had said it, sounded as if it was something he never wanted to actually do, but had to—as if being forced.
»Well, you never had to in the first place.« you replied back angrily, glaring at your husband, clenching your hands into fits.
»Why so snappy now? You weren't even part of it the last time, so you have nothing to worry about Benedict.«
You inhaled sharply, standing up from your seat. Even more furious now.
»Excuse me? I might be not part of it last time, but I am now and you wanna know why? Because your Mister Benedict came to me, to our house—where I, we, should be safe—and threatens me, that if I don't repay the money—I apparently have stolen too—to him, he's gonna bring me back to him.«
You weren't having any of this. Not with such blatant heinous disrespect towards you, after you were finally being free from that hells place—finally feeling safe enough. So you thought at least.
»Hey, hey, [Nickname] how about we grab a bottle of Cola and go outside for some fresh air?« Danny took your hand, taking a bottle of Cola from the table and was on his way outside to the small hotel garden outside.
Danny gave Rusty a pointed look, who only looks remotely guilty at the moment.
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»So, whose [Name] exactly?« asked Linus, fumbling with his Bowtie. It's a question which burned on his tongue, ever since he saw what a kind of enigma source of information you are—when it comes to Monaco and Royal Casablanca.
»My Husband.« replied Rusty, looking just a tiny bit anxious and impatiently towards the bathroom, where you went in to get ready dressed.
»Yeah, I already knew that, but I meant like, personality wise? What's his job? Is he like us? Yeah know, all that stuff«
»Do you wanna tell them or should I?«
Rusty inhaled deeply, annoyance rising and patience running thin. He knew Danny's still just a tad angry at him, for upsetting you hours ago—Rusty himself feels the guilt coming up, ruining his appetite—but really, in all honesty, why do they—especially Linus—want to know information about you?
Were your personal information useful or necessary in the current situation? No.
Do they ask out of pure curiosity? Perhaps.
»[Name]'s my husband, he used to work in a rather expensive and fancy establishment of brothel business and is a merciless gambler when it comes to any sort of Casino games—so fair warning, never play against him.«
»Wait, wait, hold on! So, [Name]'s a Who–«
»Linus, we like you and so does [Name], but if you dare to finish that word or ever say it again—around us or him—I will punch you so hard, till your bones crack.«
Rusty wouldn't let anyone, be it stranger, family or friends, say such disrespectful and shameful term about you.
Words could hurt just as much, but when carved into your skin—they're a constant reminder for the someone's mind.
Linus had gone quiet instantly, when Rusty gave him one of the those stern looks.
»Ignore him, Linus. It's still a sensitive topic.« added Danny.
»Alrighty, Gentlemans! I'm ready.«
When you stepped out of the Bathroom, dressed in a mix between causal suit and old money look—heeled boots, which makes you appear taller—and the few added jewelleries, a clutch-purse and sunglasses—was such a look of pure professional, that Linus had to hold in a whistle. Rusty or Danny would've whacked him upside the head.
But damn, Linus thought, you know how to get dressed fancy.
#male reader#x male reader#fanfiction#malereader#xmalereader#rusty ryan ocean's trilogy#ocean's trilogy#rusty x male reader#rusty ryan x male reader#rusty ryan
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Thirteen Era Rewatch: Revolution of the Daleks
I'm re-watching Thirteen's era in lead up to the Centenary and since this is likely going to be my last full re-watch for a while I thought I'd do a post on each ep where I just go over all the things I love, hate or just have some general thoughts on.
I literally skipped the first 8 minutes idgaf
I love that she talks to the other prisoners like ofc she does lmao
Obviously Ryan has never been as attached to 13 as Yaz but I wonder if part of why it’s easier for him to move on and get on with life even if probs especially at the beginning he did miss her is bc he’s had to deal with similar shit with his dad leaving him
Yaz literally living in the TARDIS and just her general obsessive vibe in the first scene she’s in is chef’s kiss actually
The fact this ep was low-key presented as being the fam figuring shit out while the Doctor is in prison but then that doesn’t even happen is weird to me like I don’t even care that they Don’t do all that themselves, it’s just weird that it was kinda implied in the marketing
When I first saw 13 and Jack reunite when the ep aired I literally started crying. And I cried again when they hugged. It doesn’t get me quite as fucked up now but I do still love it a lot. Bringing Jack back was a cool idea, shame John is a twat
There’s just something about 13’s face when they hug like she’s been away from people for so long and she’s generally not that touchy but this is Jack and UGH I’m fine
The whole scene of Jack and 13 in the TARDIS is cute tbh, I love their vibe together
Imo ‘rough few decades’ implies she spent at least 30 years but probably more like 40 years in prison
Yaz’s hope/desperation here is my fave
The way she just jumps out the TARDIS and exclaims she was in ‘space jail’ like it was a fun time fucks me up like the mask is back on right away
God bless the shove
This is so uncomfortable like I think Jack’s flirting is funny but Graham’s reaction is insane like he does not want to be there at all. I remember from this scene some ppl were like lol Graham is flustered like no bro Graham is fearing for his life. Weird choice idk
I know the main focus is on how Yaz is fucked up by the Doctor leaving but God you can tell it got to Ryan too, his whole vibe is different, like he feels annoyed/let down
I love the Rose reference, just casual as fuck. Part of me wishes we coulda seen 13 face’s when she was brought up but i imagine she probably wouldn’t have had much of a reaction
Jack and Yaz’s chat is chef’s kiss. The way I’m watching all this and she is literally leaving in a couple weeks oh I want to die. Also Mandip plays this so well !!
I love past companions giving current companions advice inject it into my veins!!
I remember when we saw the Dalek land on Yaz in the trailer I thought it was gonna be fr and 13 was gonna go off tryna save Yaz lmao
The entire scene with 13 and Ryan is God tier. One of my fave eps of the show. The growth from Ryan where he’s now the one making ppl open up, them both knowing shit has changed. I know Thasmin is a thing but low-key I’ve always liked the idea that Ryan is 13’s fave
I don’t know if it’s the intention or not but I wonder if the reason Ryan managed to get that info out of 13 is bc she kinda knew that he was gonna choose to leave anyway and knowing he wasn’t gonna stick around made it easier for her to tell him
I’m a fan of the height difference.
‘one day’ aka literally for four years in series 13 and then for ever in just under two irl weeks
I also love that that scene is Yaz kinda starting to get frustrated with the Doctor not telling her shit and then it continues into S13
This shot? This scene? Chef’s kiss
This is so odd like why did he need to announce that idek. Just feels like a trailer moment. Also I don’t feel too passionate about the fact Jack never died in this ep, like it would’ve been nice but like it’s not the end of the world idk
I don’t get why people care about 13 letting that TARDIS dies or whatever tbh
Robertson is way less annoying in this ep which is weird bc he still feels kinda comically ridiculous idk. But somehow it just works better than in Arachnids
The way she smiles when she comes out of the Ryan hug. Like she’s almost not letting herself be really upset in front of him
remember thinking Ryan and Graham just walking out would be kinda boring but UGH I love it so much and it makes so much sense for their characters to go that way it makes me crazy
Her face in this makes me fucking depressed idek what to say
Such a simple line and yet I am sobbing thank you Chris Chibnall
13 literally considering messing with the timelines to get Ryan and Graham back fucks me up. Also the way Yaz response and the way she says ‘It’s okay to be sad’ is my fave
Ryan and Graham wearing the same outfits as in 11.01 is a bit cringe I can’t lie. I also used to think Grace showing up was really weird but idk, I didn’t mind it this time round
In conclusion, other than the first 8 minutes being an absolute slog that I couldn’t care less about, this ep is chef’s kiss and has so many 10/10 amazing moments. Loved it more than i thought I did tbh
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✧ tell me what idol(s) it seems like i’m obsessed with / definitely not normal about: I'd say Lay or Jungwoo, but yeah now I definitely see BangChan taking over. It's like watching two big bosses coming at you and you're like, "I got this!" And then here comes The Big Boss™ and you're like "I definitely do not got this!"
✧ tell me what idol(s) you associate with me: Jungwoo again. I see both of you and it's just a world of pink and fur and Elle Wood's bedroom. All y2k decked out and you both have glittering pink Razor phones to talk to each other even though y'all are both laid out on opposite ends of two chaises right across from each other.
✧ tell me what idol(s) you would not expect me to bias that i do: Lay and Chanyeol were probably the biggest surprise. I think because I was so used to seeing newer gen idols for a while I almost forgot that I was here when you claimed them more it seemed.
✧ tell me what you think my bias “type” is and / or what does it say about me: Scary looking slutty boys that are actually big dad softies + Junguwu and Fewix uwu/it's like, you want to view the aesthetics as a Jekyll and Hyde situation. It's always the cutest and precious ones that have the most 180° lower profile. Like you'd have a really hello kitty'd out 13in buzz buzz that you bring out in the most casual way while looking for your phone charger
Lay is definitely my forever obsession and he's blessed us with so much today and he's just getting started. Apart of me thought should I change my mainblog url back to yixingsfatgf but I'm actually really happy with it being @hyunjins-fat-gf usually I'd just change back it like i did when i used Jungwoo or Chanyeol's name but Hyunjin was the right successor. And Jungwoo and Bangchan are on the same level of I am not normal about them. But Hyunjin, Hyunjin is for sure winning at the moment.
Me & Jungwoo = Sharpay & Ryan,
Now I'm remembering Exo aren't youngins anymore, they're all the newer idols role models esp nct, they look at Exo like they created everything good in the world which they did.
Okay but literally on The side with Johnny, Yixing, Bangchan, and Chanyeol, Daddy af by Slayyyter is playing
on the Side with Felix, Jungwoo, Jaemin,Shotaro and Heuning Kai Hello Kitty by Slayyyter is playing
then in the middle with Hyunjin, Yeonjun, Hendery and sometimes Jungwoo Candy by Slayyyter is playing,
Emo Boy by Ayesha Erotica is playing solely for Yuta
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[ OVERSTIMULATED ]: sender repeatedly making receiver orgasm. oops 🤭
@atlantianfell
fuck, fuck, fucking.... fuck.
ryan was - quite literally fucked, but on so many different levels he couldn't even begin to unravel them all, least of all right now. how... how many times was this? fuck, he couldn't even .. he couldn't remember. he was ... so far from his comfort zone it wasn't even funny - not that it ever had been. he was .. stuck & with no way to go but through it seemed. fingers had a death grip on the sheets, claws out to play scratching post with the mattress underneath him, but ryan ... didn't care. it wasn't his mattress anyway.
he didn't even remember the first time. felt like fucking forever ago. he was just holding onto life at this point, hoarse & exhausted, his body.. long-since done singing songs of praise & satisfaction, was screaming for mercy only to find it denied - time & time again. thrust after thrust, hot, panting breaths against his cheek, which really wasn't helping - the fire captain's body easily smothering his & pinning him to the bed. quite frankly, he ...was fucked. in all the ways. the good, the bad & the evil.
he remembered the second. hector .... & ryan didn't know who the culprit was, but if he ever met them, he'd cut a goddamn bitch.. seriously. someone taught the old, narrow-minded alpha a new trick & honestly? that was part reason for his demise. someone taught him that slick could be intoxicating. to an alpha anyway. right? ryan didn't think he could physically enjoy it as much as hector did - although, the reason for that may be a very personal one. regardless of that, the old merman had been so greedy for ryan's honey he'd ...refused to stop until ryan was ... unfortunately... far too desperate to put up any fight whatsoever.
fuck, he didn't even know he could get it up that often anymore. it wasn't like he'd tried, really. good to know, though? not that he planned to do this again, ever. third time might be the charm, though? cause ryan wasn't sure he'd even still be alive after this one. with his face buried in the sheets - not only to hide the soft cries & truly... truly exhausted moans, but also the fact he ..had lost control over the majority of his body, including his face. who the fuck was making those noises and could ryan evict him from his goddamn mind?
cheeks damp with tears from silent sobs that had made his chest heave, ryan held onto that thin thread that a very delusional pleasure-fogged brain sent his way, as to why he thought he might get out of this with his pride intact. despite practically crying in response to getting his brains fucked out. not that that wasn't exactly the reason he came here in the first place. it was.
words ... came & went, but none made it past tight lips, too focused on spilling moans secrets to hector the world & handing out free whimpers like he was goddamn charity. harder, faster, quicker hector was working hard & while ryan feebly attempted to crawl away from the intensity of the merman's goddamn fucking hips, ryan found he was .. stuck. one arm had wrapped around his hip, calloused fingers holding onto his sinfully thin waist easily & actually helped the alpha pull him back in closer. fucking... alphas. fucking entitled fucks.
with the only sounds in the room ... all working against him & hector ...unfortunately having found that bundle of nerves mother nature had blessed him with, ryan ... was struggling to hold on. legs quivered & his body went tense beyond compare when relief finally washed over him. or did it? could this even be called relief anymore? it felt like goddamn fucking torture. this had been what? the ...third? fourth? gods, he was tired. he had nothing left to give, he was empty, running on fumes & ready to hibernate for a month.
fingers went lax when his body did after seemingly going for a record in most twitches per second & the sound that escaped him afterwards was ... pathetic. like an animal in pain, though the way his body managed a purr regardless of the onslaught of sensations.... unbelievable. at least he could go die now. he .. had no idea how he was going to get home, but he was smart, he'd find a way.
"good kitten. breathe, we're not done yet." was he ...petting his hair? the fucking audacity.
fuck you, too.
wait. what? how... what? no. no fucking way.
#atlantianfell#ryan x hector#answered ask.#ok but like fun fact ... while i wrote this spotify decided to play hallelujah lmao#i was like: ok yep yeah... i get u spotify#i reckon this is like not their first time lmao
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hard, then harder
Today is Monday, December 18, 2023.
I gave my handwritten resignation letter to Ryan today in the last 15 minutes of follow-up training. And I couldn't help but start tearing up as I tried to explain to him the intricacies of why I must leave.
And I feel like everything started to hit me about my last the past year and a half. And I can't help but start to feel sorry for myself because it's been so tough. And I want to pity myself because I also deserve that but I also don't want to because my friends back home never complain like this. They push through and so do so many other strong people I know. But I can't. I feel disappointed. I feel defeated. And the strongest emotion I've felt lately is lonely.
In Vietnam, I struggled with this tremendously. Especially once Tom came and I was so busy with work but also juggling my emotional and mental stability. And once he left, I was so alone. Lonely and alone. Coming straight home from work and feeling so out of place. And then I came straight to Japan hoping for a new start but diving headfirst into the work culture and it just hit me like a fucking wall.
I don't get why for some other people life seems so easy. I know it's not. I know that we all have issues and problems that we don't talk about. Like mine that I'm writing here. And I'm blessed to have friends that are like sisters, that accept me and listen to me and treat me with the utmost patience and love and tenderness. I know I'm so lucky with this. But I just want to feel bad for myself for a bit. Feel bad that I've felt so lonely and I've been so alone and I've been going day by day trying to see some sort of light.
I travel and I put myself in these situations because I love learning new cultures, languages, lifestyles, foods, music, and people. I love teaching because I get to make personal connections with people all over the world and learn and grow and share and appreciate. But lately, everything's just been hard. And harder. I want to laugh and be light and spread all of that but I feel like I'm withdrawing within myself to corners of my soul that I remember from college days.
I just feel like life has been extra hard lately, and I'm sure I'll look back on these days and better assess why and what but right now, as I'm going through it, I just feel sorry for myself. I feel sorry that my life, my own unique, individual life, has been hard. I'm sorry Ange.
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“I’m a walking talking never shutting the fuck up tequila tour”
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The mexican taxi driver sings along to marion ryan as we drive to the airport in comfortable silence. Mexico I’ll miss you
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Whatd mexico teach u
I learned how to make friends, older with less patience
I learned to be uncomfortable again
I learned to learn is important
I learned that the good times need effort and risk
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The sun hits different in Guatemala
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A country that makes no sense
That works hard but never works
Rich in culture but poor of pocket
Maddeningly massive and chronically chaotic yet personal and real and increasingly sensible
“You cant fix someone that doesn’t feel love”
An old bar with enough charm to help you forget what goes on outside those walls is all you need to be reminded of the joys of pure judgement
At least they make money
People on the street drunk and high
Passed out
Not ok
Walking with strangers
People pissing on the street
Fireworks sounding horribly like gunshots
Old ladys speaking in Spanish
Cobblestone roads damn near claiming my ankles
My laptop in my bag
My hostel about to close
$140 spent on a girl i never had a shot with
What am I doing
Why am I knowingly wasting my time
“So his injuries totaled 2.2 million and he gets to the end of all his surgeries and looks and tells me, I finally feel like my life is worth something”
overheard conversation of annoying Americans
“Yeah a heart attack aint that bad, it hurts for three minutes then youre done”
same guys, about the same guy
“Did you get a moscow mule or tea?”
The guilt that I feel from traveling
To a place where my very existence here
Indicates my privilege.
I feel a resentment
A judging
An envy
I dont know even think thats the people
I think thats my own guilt.
To see people with nothing
And even those better off
Struggling
Never to be capable of even dreaming of the life i lead
Here an now
In their country
Let alone back in mine.
To know that all around the world, people would consider me the luckiest of the luckiest.
And they’re right
And i know it.
I should act like it.
We all should.
When life gives u lemons, give em to someone else as a blessing - bens wisdom
“I fall in a little bit of love with a lot of people, all of the time” - Not Wife - Shakey Graves
“And the entire continent of South America said “oh fuck”
“Yeahhhhh i think you might be un poco fucked in that case”
Say for example you decide to treat your very treatable cancer with orange juice and yoga, as an adult, you’re within your rigjts to do so
He came, he saw, he said nah
10/10 doctors say you should dance until the room stops spinning
Gatorade and lollipops
Ketamine always makes me sneeze
You cant remember all of it
Which is what makes it so damn appealing
The sound of a rooster in Guatemala, the way a sweet old abuela says your name when she needs help and the way the light graces the mountains and the lake
I wont remember it all,
So I better enjoy it now
Being a woman sucks but at least i dont have to contend with balding
Your dungarees get more action than you do
Do you reckon they race babies or just frogs n shit?
People kept saying that like “wow good on you!” But in reality we’re actually just idiots you know?
“Fucking Jermain!”
“I dont have a bank account. I’m an economist”
“If i drink too much I’ll just fall asleep”
“I wish i did”
“I wish you did too”
You know what
As i sit here reading my old notes
I take it back
I wasn’t bad
I was tired
Sore
And hurt
“You’re a good person”
Says the sweetest, most beautiful person I’ve met in a minute
With a crowd full of people I brought together
In a situation not unusual to me.
I cant be that bad
I just need to remind myself that i am good
And remind myself how to focus on one person.
Instead of every fuckn mf that calls themselves a model
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Mutual Desire - Chapter 86
*Warning - Adult Content*
Damien Clarke watched his mother's tears fall with a twinge in his heart.
The last time she had been this emotional was three days ago when Damien had granted Tom his blessing to date his mom.
He hugged her warmly one last time to comfort her and himself.
Before his own tears started to flow, he exited the car where he was sitting in the front passenger seat.
Dana Clarke also got out and the two moved to the back of the car where they retrieved Damien's suitcases from the trunk.
Damien waved at his mother before heading inside the airport, followed closely by his sister.
His stay in Boston had come to an end and Damien wasn't sure what to feel.
He was understandably unhappy to leave his family behind though he expected to see them again very soon.
His stay had lasted twelve days and to say that it had been the miracle remedy he needed to cure his depression and get out of this gloomy state he had been in for a while was more than an understatement.
He spent precious time with his nephew Ryan, taking him to the park almost every day and going twice to the water slide with him.
With the scorching temperature in Boston, Damien had passed most of the time in the pool with Ryan.
Sometimes they would take a break from the swimming pool and they would play the Nintendo Switch game that Craig had bought as a gift for Ryan's birthday where Damien would let his nephew win.
The only times he wasn't spending time with Ryan were the times he was with his father or when Dana and his mother would take him somewhere ‘which was often’ to clear his mind off.
Damien hadn't been fooled.
During his stay, his sister and mother made sure that every day he took part in some activity.
It was either a night out at the movies, or bowling, or even just a whole day spent at a mall going from store to store.
Damien felt as if his sister believed she was some sort of an Airbnb hostess who did everything to get a five-star review and therefore went out of her way to make sure Damien's stay was close to perfection.
It had been nice, Damien had to admit.
More than just nice.
It had been remarkable, fantastic and just amazing!
Having the people that he cherished the most in the world, his own blood, spending precious time with them and seeing them laugh and have fun was simply priceless.
No antidepressant could match that.
Damien had quite a few moments of revelation where he was able to put himself in the spotlight and assess himself with a critical and objective eye.
He knew that his actions over the past few days were clearly due for a long reflection.
Damien was aware that he hadn't acted right with Dimitri, Eric and Nick.
He owed them an apology because they had only shown concern for him, which was what friends did.
It was better to worry too much than not at all.
Now that he had his ideas a bit clearer, Damien realized how lucky he was to have such a strong network of friends who cared deeply about him.
He knew that lately, he had been an ungrateful jerk who, blinded by depression and anger, was unable to see the extraordinary luck he had to have a loving family and terrific friends.
Life hadn't always been easy to him but now he had riches that not even the wealthiest in the world could claim to possess.
Damien had taken them for granted but from then on, he expected to feel a sense of gratitude when waking up in the morning to see another day.
He also had long, deep reflections on his relationship with Elijah and he even came to an important decision that should have been taken a long time ago.
Fortunately for Damien, it wasn't yet too late for him to act the way he intended to.
"Message me when your plane lands, okay?" Dana said as she hugged her brother.
Their embrace lasted a few seconds and when they separated, Damien nodded weakly while promising his sister to contact her as soon as he landed.
It was time for Damien to get moving but he remained still.
Something was preventing him to leave and he struggled to gather his courage to get something off his chest.
He had promised to himself that he would tell his sister everything, including his relapse.
However, Damien had done nothing of the sort for the simple reason that he dreaded Dana's reaction at the discovery that he had for a brief moment reversed back to his old bad habits.
He had tried several times over the past few days to confess this heavy secret to her but each time he lost the little courage he had managed to gather, and he would always postpone his confession to later.
There was his chance.
"Listen, Dana. I have something I need to tell you," Damien said seriously, his eyes averting his sister's.
The dynamic change in the air was felt by Dana, as the expression on her face quickly changed.
She seemed to be on her guard as if she knew Damien was about to tell her a secret she wasn't expecting.
Damien could understand his sister's attitude.
Lately, he had confided in her some pretty hard-hitting confidences in the space of a few minutes and Dana had naturally believed that it had to be the end of Damien's secrets since he didn't disclose any more afterward.
But now, Damien was about to prove to her that she had been wrong in believing that he was no longer hiding anything from her.
"Okay, I'm listening," Dana said uncertainly.
Damien gave a quick look around him as if the thousands of travelers in the airport would be somewhat interested in the conversation he was having with his sister.
It was then that Damien regretted not have had the strength to confess earlier to his sister where he had had many opportunities to do so.
He could have done it the time they'd gone to a bar for a sibling night out or that time when they'd spent the whole night playing domino in the kitchen.
Damien had had the chance to spit it out in a more intimate and comfortable environment than in the middle of a crowded airport.
The good news was that Dana probably wasn't going to make a scene.
"I saw Elijah again," Damien admitted, looking Dana in the eyes.
Damien did not doubt that his sister had heard despite the noises in the background.
Dana blinked a few times and stared at Damien with a disappointed look mixed with sadness and annoyance.
Damien knew his sister was trying to contain herself so as not to draw attention to them.
She took a deep breath to calm herself and crossed her arms.
Damien didn't need to go into detail.
His sister knew.
Saying Elijah's name had been enough for her to comprehend that Damien had relapsed.
"How is he doing?" Dana forced herself to say as she tried to soften her anger.
Damien didn't quite know how to answer because he had only spent what?
Five minutes all or more with Elijah?
It hadn't been enough time for him to make any assumptions about his cousin's mental and physical state.
"Hard to say," Damien admitted.
For the first time in ages, Damien was the cause of the anger he sensed in his sister's eyes.
She stared intently and sternly at Damien as the expression on her face seemed thoughtful.
Damien was sure his sister was wondering why she had such a dumb brother who couldn't seem to learn from his mistakes.
Damien no longer heard the noises around him but a silence that hurt his ears.
His sister's disapproving eyes hurt him even more and he wanted to explain the reasons for his relapse and appeal to Dana's emphatic side.
"You know, with Craig breaking up with me and my thing with Nick's boss, I was in a dark place and I needed..."
Damien was unable to explain his reasons in more detail.
His throat ached and he was starting to feel suffocated.
Although freshly new, remembering the excruciating psychological state he was in was still something distressing for Damien who felt like he was reliving those painful moments over and over again.
"Okay, Damien. I got it," Dana said sharply before giving her brother a dirty look and turning her gaze to the side.
Damien's poorly detailed explanation clearly hadn't had the desired effect. He tried his luck again.
"It was just this one time and at a weak moment," Damien justified vigorously.
"I promise I won't touch it again. I swear."
Dana's cold eyes rested on her brother and Damien thought that she was going to turn red with anger as her gaze had cooled even more.
"You promised me a few years ago too," Dana reminded in a harsh voice.
Dana had a point, but regardless Damien intended to convince his sister.
"I know, I know but I won't touch it again, Dana," Damien reaffirmed firmly.
"I won't relapse ever again."
"What if you dive back into a dark phase again?"
Damien didn't say anything for a while.
It was a possibility he hadn't really considered and should have because nothing could assure him that he wouldn't have a second relapse.
"I'll get myself so drunk that I won't even be able to think about taking it," Damien admitted without embarrassment.
"That's what I did when I ran out of it."
Damien hoped that his outspokenness would demonstrate to his sister that he was being completely honest when he swore that he was never going to take drugs again.
"Damien, I swear if you touch up that fucking shit again, I'll drag your ass up here and literally become your worst nightmare," Dana threatened in a frighteningly sour voice.
"I'm gonna lock your ass home and never let you leave. I'm dead serious."
Damien Clark nodded sharply.
He knew his sister wouldn't hesitate to follow through on her kidnapping threats.
"Got it," Damien blurted out, his head bowed, unable to hold his sister's piercing gaze.
"I'll give you the benefit of the doubt because you've managed to stay sober all these years, but this is your last chance," Dana warned with a threatening voice and clenched teeth.
Damien nodded again and kept his head down, unable to meet his sister's unusually cold and hostile gaze.
"I can't believe Elijah provided you with that shit again," Dana gushed bitterly.
Damien looked up and watched his sister shake her head several times in disbelief and indignation.
"I coerced him in doing it," Damien corrected.
Dana snorted in contempt.
"You always took his defense," she spat, rolling her eyes.
Damien had the opportunity to kill two birds with one stone and he intended to grab it.
"Well, speaking of Eli, I’m going to ask him to come and live with me," he hurriedly said, formulating his plan out loud for the first time.
Dana gazed at her brother as if he had just informed her that he was moving to Antarctica.
"What? Is this a joke?" Dana said, raising her tone and looking offended.
Damien gently shook his head.
It was anything but a joke.
It was one of the most certain decisions Damien had ever made in his life.
"No. I've been thinking about it for a few days now," Damien revealed.
The indignant expression on Dana's face was a clear indication that she didn't approve in any way of her brother's decision.
"Damien, no." Dana fiercely objected.
"Why do you want to live with the person who's the cause..."
"It wasn't his fault," Damien clarified calmly, cutting his sister off.
"Not entirely, anyway. I was an adult at the time. An adult who could make his own decisions and I made the wrong ones."
"If he weren't already on drugs, you wouldn't have dabbled into that kind of shit," Dana said, getting worked up as she glared at her brother.
Damien could neither contradict nor claim that he would never have taken drugs if it wasn't for Elijah.
No one could know what they would or wouldn't have done in a different situation, hence the problems with what-if scenarios.
Who knows, he might as well have been the one to introduce Elijah to drugs.
"Maybe but maybe not. We'll never know." Dana eyed Damien incredulously.
It was the kind of look one gave a person who had just said something completely ignorant like stating the earth is in fact flat.
"Dam, you're not making any God damn sense. You just had a relapse and now you want to live with a junkie. You're not serious, little brother."
Damien Clark fully understood his sister's reluctance and her reasons for disagreeing with his cohabitation with Elijah.
Damien's decision, although noble seemed to come at a bad time.
Just letting Elijah come back in his life and gradually reestablish their relationship would have been a decision that Dana wouldn't have supported at all.
Damien had, however, gone even further with this idea of living with his cousin and of course, Dana was totally opposed to that.
Admittedly, the timing seemed to be off but Damien was fully aware that he would never have been able to make such a decision if he hadn't gone through a breakup with Craig and his separation with Nabokov.
These two elements had plunged him into a whirlwind of depression and it was ironically what had helped him reflect on his previous actions and the steps he needed to take to fix his past mistakes.
No, the timing had been just right.
Everything happened for a reason and there was a reason that had caused Damien to make this decision right now and not a year or two ago.
"No one never really gave him a chance," Damien explained softly.
"You gave him one and he fucked it up," Dana reminded bitterly.
The chance Damien had given Elijah had been concealed by an ultimatum but he didn't say so, as it wouldn't have changed anything in Dana's eyes.
She persisted in believing that Elijah was at fault and she was blinded by her protective side that had been activated.
"Regardless of all that, I should've remained by his side and not abandoned him," Damien pleaded.
Dana closed her eyes in exasperation before letting out a long sigh.
She opened her eyelids and looked at Damien with a harsh expression.
"You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped, Damien," Dana said bitterly.
"If you would've continued to be around him, he would've ended up bringing you down with him."
Long ago, when remorse for abandoning Elijah came to torment him, Damien Clark would tell himself the exact words his sister had just uttered.
He would make himself believe, to feel better about his decision, that to be totally sober, Elijah had to become so too.
Today he knew that he had been wrong.
"If I had been unable to become clean, would you have then abandoned me?"
Damien Clark knew this was a loaded question and it hadn't been his intention to ask it.
He just wanted his sister to understand that just because someone was having a hard time letting go of an addiction, which was something that was to be expected, that didn't mean that one had to leave said person to themselves.
On the contrary, it was when someone was at their lowest that they were in need of as much support as they could get.
"Of course not, Dam." Dana exclaimed indignantly.
"You're everything to me. You're my brother."
"He's my cousin," Damien reminded his sister without hesitation.
"Our cousin," he added softly.
Dana sighed and lowered her head, unsure of what to say, as there wasn't much that could be said.
Dana was smart enough to be aware that she held a biased opinion when it came to Damien's past with Elijah.
Damien couldn't blame her for that since he understood the reason for her double standard.
She could be there for him until the end and this even if he remained addicted all his life but with Elijah, she hadn't been unable to and it didn't help that in her eyes, Elijah was responsible for initiating drugs to his brother.
Dana and Damien had always been closer to the family on their mother's side than their father's and this distance became greater when their dad died.
So, Dana didn't have a strong bond with Elijah, unlike Damien who had ended up developing a strong relationship after his cousin left his life in Texas behind.
"I gave up on him when he was at his lowest, Dana. I really need to fix this." Dana gave him a long look.
"You know mom won't be happy about that," she warned him bitterly.
Damien shrugged. There was nothing he could do to change his mother's opinion.
Just like Dana, she was in no way going to accept her son's decision, especially since she was the one who had suggested to him to end his relationship with Elijah.
"She'll get used to it," Damien could only say.
"It's all a matter of habit anyway."
Dana remained silent and avoided her brother's gaze.
There was no more tension in the air, only embarrassment and discomfort which hardly ever happened between them.
"Are you disappointed?" Damien asked, although he already knew the answer.
Dana shook her head, a faint sad smile crossing her lips.
"No. How could I be disappointed that you want to help another human being? I'm not as cruel as I look."
Although his sister was joking, Damien knew she was forcing herself to lighten up the ambiance and that she clearly wasn't in the mood to laugh.
"I know you blame Eli a lot."
Dana's eyes cooled.
"Yes," she confirmed without hesitation.
"I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him," she added bitterly.
Damien and Dana stared at each other in uncomfortable silence.
They were never going to see eye to eye when it came to Elijah and Damien could only accept that.
His sister had her reasons for thinking that way and he had his.
End of the chapter.
Well, it would be officially the end once his mother found out.
"Well, you should get going or you're going to miss your flight," Dana said suddenly, breaking the awkward silence.
"And don't be a stranger, Dam. Okay?"
Dana hugged her brother who placed a kiss on her head.
"Don't worry," Damien reassured her.
"We'll see each other very soon anyway."
Dana separated from her brother and gave him an amused smile.
"At Christmas, yeah. It's still far away, but I'll survive."
Damien shook his head, his face cheerful.
The awkwardness that was in the air a few seconds ago had completely dissipated.
"No, much earlier than that," Damien said happily.
Dana arched an eyebrow at her brother's vague words.
"Samuel's wedding," Damien reminded her.
Dana's face lit up with excitement.
She loved weddings and when Damien told her that Samuel was getting married, she immediately asked Damien to find a way for her to be on the guest list.
Later on, his nephew and mom were added too.
"Oh. Yes, it's true." Dana exclaimed with great enthusiasm.
"Now that you mention it, I just remembered that I still haven't bought my dress."
"You'll look beautiful no matter what you put on," Damien guaranteed, leaning towards his sister to kiss her on the right cheek.
"Just don't steal the spotlight from the bride."
Damien winked at his sister and turned to start walking before turning around again when his sister addressed him.
"Take care of yourself, little brother and don't forget what we talked about," Dana gushed out.
Damien nodded, grinned and gave Dana one last look before continuing his walk.
He had barely left his family that he already missed them terribly.
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Marc Anthony and Nadia Ferreira Expecting First Child, Share News on Instagram After Recent Wedding
Latin music superstar Marc Anthony and his wife, Nadia Ferreira, are expecting their first child together. The happy news was shared by the couple on Instagram, just a little over two weeks after they tied the knot. The pair posted a joint announcement, showing a photo of Ferreira's growing baby bump with Anthony's hand resting on top, and wrote in the caption, “Best Valentine's Gift Ever!!!”. They also expressed their gratitude to God for this great blessing in their lives.
The revelation of their upcoming arrival comes shortly after their wedding at the Pérez Art Museum in Miami, Florida on January 28. The couple exchanged vows in front of a number of their high-profile friends, including David and Victoria Beckham, Salma Hayek, Lin-Manuel Miranda, Maluma, Leah Remini, Daddy Yankee, and many others. Anthony and Ferreira first sparked rumors that they were romantically involved in early 2022 after they were spotted together in Mexico City. In March of the same year, they confirmed their relationship on Instagram with a selfie taken on a private jet, where Ferreira was sitting in Anthony's lap. The singer captioned the post, “May God multiply all that you wish us.” Three months later, they announced their engagement, with Ferreira posting on Instagram, “Kicking off birthday week,” alongside a photo of herself showing off her diamond ring while on another private jet with Anthony.
This is the former Miss Paraguay's first child, while it will be Anthony's seventh. He is also a father to 28-year-old Ariana and 27-year-old Chase with his ex-girlfriend, Debbie Rosado, 22-year-old Cristian Marcus, and 19-year-old Ryan Adrian Muñiz with his ex-wife, Dayanara Torres, as well as 14-year-old twins Max and Emme from his previous marriage to Jennifer Lopez. Despite the complications that come with having a large blended family, Lopez revealed that she and her ex-husband are on great terms when it comes to co-parenting. She shared in a March 2017 interview with The View, “Marc and I are good how we are right now. There’s a reason we’re not together, but we’re great friends. And we’re parents together. We’re even working on a Spanish album together. that has been even better for us. We met working, and that’s where we’re really magical, when we’re on stage together, and so we leave it there.”
Fans and well-wishers of the couple flooded the comments section of the announcement with congratulatory messages. The happy news has also generated buzz in the entertainment world, with many speculating on the sex of the baby and guessing possible names. With their love story and upcoming bundle of joy, it is clear that Marc Anthony and Nadia Ferreira have much to celebrate and look forward to.
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Domino tattoo
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If a customer got the logo tattooed on their. “The tattoo has definitely paid for itself. Vice reports that the Domino’s franchise for Russia offered up the special deal about a week ago, advertising it on the Russian version of Facebook. “It was a cool experience, and it’s a blessing right now,” Glenn said. Some have asked Glenn if he is the guy they see in the commercials, and others have snapped pictures with him showing off the tattoo he got from a buddy for $80. Though Glenn appears for only a few seconds in the spot, it has already garnered him attention from locals. Goodreads members who liked The Domino Tattoo (Th.
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Glenn appears around the 20-second mark as “Glenn S., Temple PA,” flaunting his Noid tattoo. Find books like The Domino Tattoo (The Domino Series 1) from the worlds largest community of readers. But as hundreds lined up to get tatted up, Domino’s pulled the plug on the promotion, which was scheduled to run for two months.
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The 30-second commercial featuring Glenn and other “Superfans” premiered on television and online early last month. A Domino’s Pizza franchisee in Russia thought up a great marketing stuntoffer free pizza for life to people who tattooed the brand’s signature logo on their skin. Then, post it online on social media with a hashtag (dominosforever, only in Russian), and get 100. 7 inches long, on a visible part of the body. Without knowing any of this,Domino decides,at under age,that he wants to have some ink done on him and what happened was that while Domino was getting his first tattoos done at The Ducks Tattoo, Simo is also in the shop but the two of them are never introduced. Neither Glenn nor Ryan knew of the contest and learned of it when being interviewed by Domino’s representatives.Īfter learning his story and love of the Noid, franchise representatives flew Glenn out to Los Angeles for four days over Labor Day weekend 2015 to shoot the commercial for Domino’s. Get a real tattoo of the Domino's logo, at least. He decided he wanted to become an tattoo artist so he returned to Finland for one year to be an apprentice at the Ducks Tattoo. Watch popular content from the following creators: Meesh(myessiah), thelastart(thelastart), izzy(batstattoos), Flower(flowermo0), (crisp.ink), tattooideas7(tattooideas7), Rebel Muse Tattoo Denver(rebelmusedenver), Max(decaffedepresso), Walker(walkingdesigns), home(recycledthoughts. Decide on your desires and start transforming your appearance. Discover short videos related to domino tattoo ideas on TikTok. Gather all the necessary information, choose the style, design and wizards. That’s a whole lot of dough to cough up.Provenia Tattoos, the Sinking Spring tattoo parlor where Ryan got the piece, posted the image on the photo-sharing app Instagram and used #Domino’s in the caption.ĭomino’s representatives saw the photo and contacted the parlor to get a hold of Ryan for the pizza chain’s Superfan Contest. Want to know more about Domino Tattoo Meaning You are in the right place. Customers would later have to post a photo of their Domino’s tattoo on social media with the promotion link and hashtag attached.
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That said, the franchise isn’t out of the woods yet.Īssuming all 350 cash in their full 100 pizzas, that’s 35,000 free pizzas a year – for 100 years. In order to qualify for the lifetime supply of Domino’s pizza, you must tattoo their logo anywhere on the body in order to receive 100 free pizzas every year for 100 years. Domino’s was ultimately forced to end the promotion early because too many. The offer promised 100 free pizzas yearly for 100 years to anyone who got the company’s logo tattooed on their body. In Russia, Domino’s Pizza offered customers 100 pizzas a year for 100 years. For almost 400 people recently, that reason was free pizza for life. To those with appointments scheduled for later, we recommend cancelling them,” they posted (too bad for those who missed the memo). A Russian branch of the Domino’s pizza company sorely underestimated their consumers when they released a free pizza for life promotion on Aug. People get tattoos for any number of reasons. “An urgent message to all those sitting at the tattoo artist’s right now: We’ll include you in the list of participants, but we’re waiting for photos up to midday today. The campaign was supposed to run through until the end of October – but was forced to shut down on Tuesday after being inundated with Russians tattooed with the signature red and blue dominos (clearly, they underestimated their love of ink – or terrible pizza).ĭomino’s now says that they will only honour the free pizza pledge for the first 350 people to share their legitimate tattoos. Last week the US pizza chain’s Russian franchise launched a new promotional campaign ‘Domino’s Forever’ on VKontakte – the Russian equivalent of Facebook – offering one hundred pizzas a year for 100 years to anyone who got inked with the company’s logo “in a prominent place” and shared it on social media.
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𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫!𝐚𝐥𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫!𝐲/𝐧
A/N : i have nothing to say other than the fact there will be an excessive amount of twitch slang bc why tf not + just,,, heavy streamer!albedo brainrot ;-;
masterlist
AIGHT
streamer albedo
…
pog—
so before we get into him being whipped for u, let’s go over the type of strimmer mr Kreideprinz is
fun fact that’s his twitch name—
albedo would be the type to do lots of variety streams of different games, but also the occasional art one if he wants to have a chill stream with his chat !!
speaking of chat… they’re an odd mix of wholesome supporters, KAPPA + POGGERS + catJAM (bc he always has some bangers on in the bg like yes u bless our ears my guy) + KEKW + EZ Clap + his own emotes spammers, mr albedo’s very own shrimps (me, ahEm—), and ppl who just appreciate his voice + gameplay
if there’s a troll he just bans them OMEGALUL
omg he has lots of emotes (which he made in some of his art streams so his viewers could choose some) for every scenario but we’ll get into the popular ones in a bit 👁👁
he’s most definitely one of the bigger, well-known streamers but with a smaller group of friends
his discord server has,,, a lot of ppl,,, 70k+ ppl big,,, rip notifs if ur in it ;-;
he has it muted tho 🐥 like, sir, that’s ur server pay the goddamn price smh
wait i forgot to mention this but he has his webcam on when streaming
so u can bet ur chickens that when ppl come to visit his stream bc of whatever category he has on, they stay for his visuals and voice <33
his twt 🤡 mans gets 1k+ likes, rts, comments within the first 5-10 mins
omg he gets soft when he receives sm support from his community 🥺🥺
gifts so many subs when hitting milestones, chat is wholesome or just whenever really HJKSDHKL
also doesn’t swear much unless he gets played by his own game and/or someone is being incredibly annoying <//3
he also just,,, eats on stream
albedo straight up takes his webcam with him to show him cooking if his viewers ask for it
or he just orders food then and there and eats while chatting to everyone or watching youtube with his chat 🥺
nOW ONTO HIM BEING WHIPPED FOR U AS A GENSHIN STREAMER
this AR55 man 👩🦯
he can literally produce content from anything
from artifact farming, to spiral abyss, to running around mindlessly, to building characters he would normally never build, to him seeing how high up is considered too high to dive
and everyone eats it up bc it’s albedo <3
also !! he’s the type who includes the story quests in his streams so his reaction and thoughts on everything is just,,, there
now when u were first introduced in the prologue (yes ur one of the ogs + involved in the dvalin fight <33) he blanked and all his viewers could see was u on screen with him staring blankly in the bottom right of the screen
this man straight up saw u in a cutscene for one second and fell in love
his chat went wild omfg
he immediately made an emote for u and that’s his most popular one 😌
but i kid u not, the moment u appeared in that cutscene (one in which he will forever treasure in the crevices of his heart) was the moment he asked this exact question ;
“ so (y/n) banner when? ”
and mihoyo heard his pleas and answered with ur event banner
except it was like,, 4 months later
at least ur finally here tho :’)
now he can have his lil science-y moments with ur voicelines ;-;
yes, ur the chief alchemist but ✨ 𝒅𝒊𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕 ✨
. . .
shut up
n e who
when he saw the notification from mihoyo’s official forums that u will be a playable character in the new update — along with new characters, region, events & a domain — i shit u not he did a rt, his own tweet, an announcement on the community feature on youtube, and made constant reminders to his viewers on twitch abt how he will be a (y/n) haver no matter what
he even added future (y/n) haver in his twt display name
what a shrimp—
the 1.2 update stream 🐥 he was there waiting for it to go live with like,,, 19k viewers spamming his chat abt predictions and obv ur official release + showcase
and when i say this man fell even more in love while watching ur trailer and character showcase 🥺 he wouldn’t stop smiling or being in awe bc ur just??? so stunning???
mihoyo clearly has a favourite child and it’s u
chat was spamming ur exclusive emote like crazy oml
u can bet it was also flooded with lots of POGs and POGGERS
overall it was a very fun, chaotic stream filled with lots of (y/n) appreciation and love <33
also a very memorable stream for all his viewers bc of the side of albedo they rarely see unless ur involved
the day ur banner was to go live tho 🐥
the streams leading up to the fateful day consisted of him farming ur mats
that’s it
boss runs, local specialties, hero wits, talent books, the mats needed for ur weapon he was inevitably going to pull for (only the best for the best, afterall) and many domain runs
many painful domain runs
all of it was worth it tho bc ur worth everything :’)
an actual quote said by him—
at least he can get u and ur weapon to lvl 90 right off the bat with all the artifacts tailored for u ;-;
and get u to that point he did HJSDKJF
once ur banner dropped? immediately started wishing
2 multis in and he gets u 😣
albedo nearly cried and was the literal embodiment of head in hands
wHEN I SAY HIS CHAT BLEW TF UP AND HIS MODS JOINED IN
modCheck has left the chat
everyone’s rooting for him :’)
pulled for ur weapon and got it in 1 multi
sir give me ur luck pls and ty
but yes he nearly choked on the gASP he let out while chat screamed even more
he blanked for a bit, i won’t lie ;-;
but when he realised this was real, he immediately went to his party set up and put u in
can we all get an f in the chat for his lvl 10 tartaglia 😔💔👊
his chat usually rages at him to build him but if he’s being honest, he cba
ur vl when he put u in the party tho <333
now he’s just spent half an hour running around with u, letting u do ur idle animations (will always be grateful for mihoyo creating u like this), reading ur very limited (for now—) character story and going through ur voicelines
ur morning & about us (when he unlocks it) voiceline >>>>> his heart be running laps rn i swear
eventually he does begin to build u after much admiration on his end and at lvl 1 with lvl 20 artifacts, u already have 1.6k atk 🐥
now after he levels u and ur weapon to lvl 90, u have 2.8k atk 🐥
rip mobs <//3
he now plays u as his main dps 😌
the kit initially designed for u is meant to be more for support?? kinda like the whole ganyu or zhongli debate abt them being a dps or a support/sub dps ;-;
except ur more utility like venti or bennett
and even though the majority said at the beginning (aka, mihoyo, pretty much any other streamer and the larger part of the fanbase) that ur meant for support, he said fuck that and built u as his main dps
and i won’t lie, u do more damage than any of his characters, and ppl who co op with him
ur his pride and joy :’)
he went to take a look at ur consts to see if they were worth the rng suffering and, lo-and-behold,
they were
so now he’s using all his saved primos for u to try and get ur c6 const, along with making ur weapon r5 :’)
his chat gets a free view of him internally suffering when the gold light doesn’t come, and his external suffering when he loses the 50/50
in the end, he decided to whale for u <33
after nearly an hour, he has u to c6 and ur weapon to r5 ;-;
now all he’s been doing the whole stream is running around with u in open world, doing his daily farming, doing more domain and boss runs, exploring the new region (dragonspine) + ur story quest
he’s saving the event quest for another stream bc ✨content✨
in ur quest, he had multiple heart attacks and now has many, many screenshots <3
he now has a zoomed in pic of ur face as his twt pfp <33
okay so i also feel like he’s not all that bothered abt getting characters to friendship level 10 immediately and would rather let it happen through time
but obv ur not any other character *proceeds to debby ryan at u*
even if ur not fit for a particular domain or boss, he still puts u in the party so when collecting the blossom/rewards, u can get the friendship exp ;-;
he just wants ur name card so he can show off okay 🥺
when he lets his viewers pick out the playlist, 98% of the songs are from ur character demo theme
they just know him so well 😩
they also just wanna see the way he smiles when he hears it play but shhhhhh
now he just has his in-game avatar as u, and ur namecard too <33
also his signature is just ;
“ (y/n)’s favourite streamer ”
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Ryan Coogler’s statement on Chadwick Boseman’s death has gutted me again. “He’s an ancestor now.”
Before sharing my thoughts on the passing of the great Chadwick Boseman, I first offer my condolences to his family who meant so very much to him. To his wife, Simone, especially.
I inherited Marvel and the Russo Brothers’ casting choice of T’Challa. It is something that I will forever be grateful for. The first time I saw Chad’s performance as T’Challa, it was in an unfinished cut of “Captain America: Civil War.” I was deciding whether or not directing “Black Panther” was the right choice for me. I’ll never forget, sitting in an editorial suite on the Disney Lot and watching his scenes. His first with Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow, then, with the South African cinema titan, John Kani as T’Challa’s father, King T’Chaka. It was at that moment I knew I wanted to make this movie. After Scarlett’s character leaves them, Chad and John began conversing in a language I had never heard before. It sounded familiar, full of the same clicks and smacks that young black children would make in the States. The same clicks that we would often be chided for being disrespectful or improper. But, it had a musicality to it that felt ancient, powerful, and African.
I learned later that there was much conversation over how T’Challa would sound in the film. The decision to have Xhosa be the official language of Wakanda was solidified by Chad, a native of South Carolina, because he was able to learn his lines in Xhosa, there on the spot. He also advocated for his character to speak with an African accent, so that he could present T’Challa to audiences as an African king, whose dialect had not been conquered by the West.
I finally met Chad in person in early 2016, once I signed onto the film. He snuck past journalists that were congregated for a press junket I was doing for CREED, and met with me in the green room. We talked about our lives, my time playing football in college, and his time at Howard studying to be a director, about our collective vision for T’Challa and Wakanda. We spoke about the irony of how his former Howard classmate Ta-Nehisi Coates was writing T’Challa’s current arc with Marvel Comics. And how Chad knew Howard student Prince Jones, who’s murder by a police officer inspired Coates’ memoir Between The World and Me.
I noticed then that Chad was an anomaly. He was calm. Assured. Constantly studying. But also kind, comforting, had the warmest laugh in the world, and eyes that seen much beyond his years, but could still sparkle like a child seeing something for the first time.
That was the first of many conversations. He was a special person. We would often speak about heritage and what it means to be African. When preparing for the film, he would ponder every decision, every choice, not just for how it would reflect on himself, but how those choices could reverberate. “They not ready for this, what we are doing…” “This is Star Wars, this is Lord of the Rings, but for us… and bigger!” He would say this to me while we were struggling to finish a dramatic scene, stretching into double overtime. Or while he was covered in body paint, doing his own stunts. Or crashing into frigid water, and foam landing pads. I would nod and smile, but I didn’t believe him. I had no idea if the film would work. I wasn’t sure I knew what I was doing. But I look back and realize that Chad knew something we all didn’t. He was playing the long game. All while putting in the work. And work he did.
He would come to auditions for supporting roles, which is not common for lead actors in big budget movies. He was there for several M’Baku auditions. In Winston Duke’s, he turned a chemistry read into a wrestling match. Winston broke his bracelet. In Letitia Wright’s audition for Shuri, she pierced his royal poise with her signature humor, and would bring about a smile to T’Challa’s face that was 100% Chad.
While filming the movie, we would meet at the office or at my rental home in Atlanta, to discuss lines and different ways to add depth to each scene. We talked costumes, military practices. He said to me “Wakandans have to dance during the coronations. If they just stand there with spears, what separates them from Romans?” In early drafts of the script. Eric Killmonger’s character would ask T’Challa to be buried in Wakanda. Chad challenged that and asked, what if Killmonger asked to be buried somewhere else?
Chad deeply valued his privacy, and I wasn’t privy to the details of his illness. After his family released their statement, I realized that he was living with his illness the entire time I knew him. Because he was a caretaker, a leader, and a man of faith, dignity and pride, he shielded his collaborators from his suffering. He lived a beautiful life. And he made great art. Day after day, year after year. That was who he was. He was an epic firework display. I will tell stories about being there for some of the brilliant sparks till the end of my days. What an incredible mark he’s left for us.
I haven’t grieved a loss this acute before. I spent the last year preparing, imagining and writing words for him to say, that we weren’t destined to see. It leaves me broken knowing that I won’t be able to watch another close-up of him in the monitor again or walk up to him and ask for another take.
It hurts more to know that we can’t have another conversation, or facetime, or text message exchange. He would send vegetarian recipes and eating regimens for my family and me to follow during the pandemic. He would check in on me and my loved ones, even as he dealt with the scourge of cancer.
In African cultures we often refer to loved ones that have passed on as ancestors. Sometimes you are genetically related. Sometimes you are not. I had the privilege of directing scenes of Chad’s character, T’Challa, communicating with the ancestors of Wakanda. We were in Atlanta, in an abandoned warehouse, with bluescreens, and massive movie lights, but Chad’s performance made it feel real. I think it was because from the time that I met him, the ancestors spoke through him. It’s no secret to me now how he was able to skillfully portray some of our most notable ones. I had no doubt that he would live on and continue to bless us with more. But it is with a heavy heart and a sense of deep gratitude to have ever been in his presence, that I have to reckon with the fact that Chad is an ancestor now. And I know that he will watch over us, until we meet again."
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