Hey everyone, itistheanne! <3
It’s been a long time coming from when I last felt comfortable posting here. This was supposed to be my safe space where I’m supposed to pour my heart out and post about anything and everything that I want to.
Sadly over the years, I had been very preoccupied with my job at a theme park. (I keep on saying this, right?) It was a very favorable job for me so I poured my all into that job. Then came COVID-19. And all our lives had been put into a pause.
It was really hard to adjust to a life where you spend all day long inside your house and I swear on some days then, I was about to lose my sanity. Luckily, I have friends who pulled me out of the hole by making sure I get to talk to them everyday.
Social media had somehow put a pressure on me as well (my close friends would know that I deleted my FB app at my phone but then I have Instagram still) and I kept seeing all these people starting a quarantine routine. Some would spend their days learning how to cook but then I have my girlfriend who does that for me. Some would even have their OOTD’s or MOD’s at home! Now, I am too lazy for that. Some would spend their days towards having a glow up. Now, that got me intrigued. Why? I had wanted to keep a fit body but for so long, food is always within my reach and it was pretty easy for me to dwell on working as a reason for me not to exercise. But now, what is there to stop me?
Of course, when you work out, you must have a certain goal and at first, it was for me to look better, to loosen my arm fat, and not to feel heavy all the time. I got too conscious after I heard a workmate make a remark that I am getting big (imagine that with my small height), especially my arms. My arms had been a big dilemma to me all throughout these years.
Then began my fitness journey. I did 10 minutes worth of workouts at first. I watched workouts by Chloe Ting, blogilates, and Emi Wong. Then later, I found out about The Fitness Marshall’s dance workouts. After a month, I can exercise for a whole 30 minutes! But I was not seeing the results that I like.
So I opened up to a friend, Kim, someone who’d push me to workout. And she told me that maybe it was because I kept on doing different exercises. And I really did as I thought, just moving my body would get me to become thinner. But nah-ah.
After some time, I also had to change my perspective as I was getting tired and I felt that I was just dragging myself to exercise. What is really the reason why I wanted to workout? In the end, I realized that half of the things I wanna do, I end up not doing because I don’t believe that I can. So— with my friend’s guidance, I began another month of workout. This time, I am going to stick to a routine.
Workout time, amigas!