#boyproblems

[sei-shiroo]

BRUH

I LITERALLY BOUGHT MY CRUSH AND HIS FRIEND BOBA YESTERDAY AND HE DIDNT WANNA GO ON A DATE WITH ME TODAY AND HE SAID THAT WHILE BLUSHING???? naw bro $25+ wasted.

#boyproblems

[forsean]

Honestly, It's just low self esteem.

Physically imperfect

Mentally draining,

Not right in the head.

Gotta make up for that.

Charming laughter

And romance brewing,

Perfection not skin deep.

Is how I make up for

The stretch marks on my waist,

Under my arms,

Rash cause of chafe,

Unkept hair and pools of sweat

Cause I cant make it up a set of stairs

Without panting or breathing heavily.

I don't know why I'm not myself,

I do try to be

But its easier to hide.

I want you to stay around,

You recognise that I'm here,

Even if you barely know me yet.

I guess I think I have to make up for

The stretch marks on my waist,

Under my arms,

Rash cause of chafe,

Unkept hair and pools of sweat

Cause I cant make it up a set of stairs

Without panting or breathing heavily.

I don't even think he'll care

Cause he seems kind enough,

But you barely know him yet.

Youve infatuated your mind,

With fantasies of mine,

Of romance and gestures

That make you feel right,

But you know in the end,

This will make the fall from grace

So much worse this time.

Nobody knows how im feeling,

Another tear wiped away,

Another puddle of rain,

I feel so out of place.

I just want communication,

Tell me we're okay,

Tell me you're not dreading to see my face.

I know It's all in my head but I know what I'm like.

Needing reassurance like an addiction I can't live without.

Where's the needle, wheres my fix,

I'm craving it, I'm sick

In my head I feel blinded by

Internal screams of hatred and

A begging for forgiveness,

I can't help the way I look,

I can't clog the wheels of my brain but

I can come to term

And try to learn,

Processing what I'm living with.

All my physical imperfections

Shouldn't be relevant to you,

I don't know you yet so how do I

Know how you'l react or what you'll think.

I guess we'll see what the case is.

I think I'm just scared,

Way too hard on myself.

I will never be perfect,

I just wish I wasn't so far from it.

But i guess thats just life aint it.

So I guess ill calmn down and move on until the next existential crisis hits me in a few days time.

Whats the best way to unwind?

#lgbtq #lostlyricist #lyricist #lyrics #music #anxiety #depression #weight #weightloss #lowselfesteem #boyproblems

[arunima]

do you guys forgive me for being a bad blog and a boring poster.. ive got other shit going on #employed #boyproblems

[theresattrpgforthat]

Hello! Do you have any suggestions for ttrpg that are like Control (video game)? I enjoy number crunching, and playbooks are a plus :D

THEME: Games inspired by CONTROL

Hello! I’m going to first reference to you one of the first posts I ever made, about Paranormal Agents. If you like playbooks, you’ll probably want to take a look at Against the Dark Conspiracy, but don’t sleep on External Containment Bureau! Not much of what’s in that post is big on math, but I don’t want to leave out any possible options. Now, on to some more recommendations.

In Case of An Emergency, by boyproblems.

You work at foundation., a global corporation known for its cutting edge inventions and morally dubious treatment of its labour force. It stays at the top of its field by exploiting the paranormal and the metaphysical. Due to an "incident", you are now trapped inside. The glitch causes you and a group of your co-workers to be tasked by a group known as THE SHAREHOLDERS to fix what has broken, and solve THE EMERGENCY.

The Head Office is an ever-shifting office complex that threatens to trap your intrepid group within its labyrinthine walls. Fable and superstition come alive and threaten your very life. Gain new abilities (ABSTRACTIONS) through exposure to the powers that lie beyond, investigate the truth behind foundation., traverse a place where new science is discovered daily, and cut through bureaucratic and literal binding red tape to escape and survive.

This is a one-shot game, but that doesn’t mean that your character can’t gain new powers throughout the course of play. In Case of Emergency is directly inspired by CONTROL, so theme-wise we’re definitely in the right territory. It doesn’t look like it has playbooks though, which is a bummer - in almost every other aspect I think it’s what you’re looking for!

Agents of the O.D.D., by Jason Tocci.

Agents of the O.D.D. is a tabletop roleplaying game of conscripted cryptids, shaky psychics, burned spies, and other investigators of the paranormal. Based on the rules from Into the Odd and Electric Bastionland, and inspired by series like Hellboy, Planetary, and The Laundry Files.

Agents of the O.D.D. doesn’t necessarily have playbooks, but it does have player archetypes. During character creation, you roll a d100 and take the result from a hefty list of archetypes. These will give you one or more special moves, companions, and/or pieces of equipment. And equipment is a really big thing in this game - there’a at least 6 pages in this 24-page game dedicated to equipment alone. This might be because Agents of the O.D.D. is built off of Into the Odd and Electric Bastionland, which are both minimalist and focus on dungeon-delving.

Now that I think of it, exploring a place that is abnormal and haunted is likely very similar to engaging in a dungeon-crawl, so expect a game like this to point you to your inventory when it comes to solving problems - like talking to extraterrestrials, or fighting against hostile cryptids. You’re also going to be tracking your gear, so if you like inventory-keeping this game is for you.

Making Change, by Beth and Angel Make Games.

Researchers at The Observatory study all sorts of objects that seem ordinary but are gifted with a special power. One of these objects is a coin. However, when the senior researcher went to start testing it, it… convinced them to "liberate" it. Surveillance shows the researcher was speaking to something or someone —presumably, the coin— and the researcher quickly went from arguing to utterly submitting to the coin.

This is an adventure made for the CoinSides Jam of 2023, which had the stipulation that the adventure have a coin as a central theme. This adventure invokes the coin with some kind of intelligence, as it has the ability to affect the desires and emotions of people around it. Because the adventure is system-agnostic, it’s meant to work with a number of different systems, but I would recommend using games that are good for detective stories or modern horror, or even something like External Containment Bureau.

You Can Check Out Anytime You Like, But You Can Never Leave, by Marn S.

You Can Check Out Any Time You Like, But You Can Never Leave is a game for 3+ people, and a surreal horror-flavored hack of Mobile Frame Zero: Firebrands by Meguey & Vincent Baker. It is also a loving homage to The Shining, NanQuest, and the songs of the 70s and 80. 

Play as a Guest, Staff member, or living Anomaly at the Hotel California, the first and only hotel to exist outside of time and space! Create messy entanglements — ally with monsters, or backstab your friends! Inject the surreal and horrific into everyday life! Solve mysteries! Have strange dreams! Chase someone with a knife! Burn it all to the ground!

The setting for this game takes place in a hotel rather than The Oldest House (or something like it) but what makes it interesting is that it’s a hack of Firebrands. This means that rather than following an adventure seed like a traditional RPG, you’ll be setting up and playing through various scenes in the form of mini-games. The creator has also published Such A Lovely Place, a supplement with five extra mini-games to incorporate into your eerie stay at Hotel California. There might be math here but if there is it’s probably only in a mini-game or two.

FIST, by CLAYMORE.

FIST: Ultra Edition is a tabletop roleplaying game about paranormal mercenaries doing the tough jobs no one else can. In the game, you belong to a legendary rogue mercenary unit called FIST. You are a soldier of fortune who doesn’t fit into modern society. You are a disposable gun for hire, caught up in the death and destruction of pointless proxy wars and oppressive establishments. You may also be someone who can turn into a ghost or control bees with your mind. 

FIST focuses on action and combat, but specifically against the paranormal. You aren’t regular soldiers, not by a long-shot. The time period is during the Cold War: there are tensions that will affect your missions outside of simply what you’re hunting. The combat is meant to be brutal, the missions highly tactical, and the character builds are modular (so there might be some number crunching). No playbooks here, I’m afraid, but if you want the gritty action that keeps you on your toes in CONTROL, you might want to check out FIST, especially since it’s on Kickstarter right now! (Ending soon!)

THE COMPANY, by Mega_Corp.

The Company is a survival horror game centered around corporate emergency response teams and the aftermath of the situations they are assigned to deal with. Players take on the roles of Employees assigned to response teams that quickly find themselves in over their heads with one player facilitating play as the Game Manager.

Now this looks like a game with playbooks. At the beginning, your character chooses one of five Careers, each of which come with special Perks, pre-selected skills, a personal item random table, and some jobs and goals to focus your character. The game itself ins’t terribly long, but there’s enough lore to establish how the game borrows from CONTROL without copying it completely, and the designers have crated an Employee Handbook for players as well as a Management Manual for GM’s. You get both when you pick up this game on Itch. There’s definitely a lot of pieces to keep track in this one - I don’t know if that translates to number crunching but it might get you close!

#tabletop games #indie ttrpgs #dnd #game recommendations #asks #CONTROL #paranormal games

[indierpgnewsletter]

New Games on Itch.io - January!

This is a post from the Indie RPG Newsletter! Before we get to the games themselves, let me talk about itch.io for a minute. The website was designed for selling videogames but the indie RPG scene adopted it like a hermit-crab chancing upon a toy truck on the beach. This has led to some strange problems. The RPG category is called “physical games”, for example. More generally, it’s a bit confusing to navigate for the average customer.

So why has this eccentric site become the host of this glorious explosion of indie game design and creativity? I can’t say for sure. Maybe its because it was designed as a protest against Steam and turns out that DriveThru has a lot of the same problems. Maybe it’s because the site makes it incredibly easy to publish games. Maybe it’s just a coincidence - a quirk of luck, just network effects compounding into something greater.

But regardless, there’s cool stuff everyday on that site - a LOT of cool stuff. So here’s my attempt at curating the games that came out in January. I found these games either by browsing the site or through people notifying me with this form. Now the important disclaimer is that I haven’t read or played most of these games. This list is me excitedly pointing out things in the shop window, take it in that spirit. My taste is idiosyncratic, so please publish your own lists! And maybe send me a link, I’d love to see them!

Itch.io January Roundup

blasé monotony by Apri describes itself as “a duet game about having conversations while bored at work” but that description hides this dramatic second act. An astronaut and someone in the control room start talking and then things start going wrong… (Free/PWYW)

Lost & Shelved by Donogh McCarthy is a solo game about a librarian finding strange and ephemeral things in the pages of returned books. I’m a sucker for anything about librarians and Donogh McCarthy is a real indie darling as far as I’m concerned.

Undisturbed by GGoldmen is a solo journalling game about dissecting human cadavers. Seems like a very thoughtful game on a grotesque subject! (Free/PWYW)

A Sage’s Salary by krushna is a solo game about a student and their sage. From an Indian designer, sages aren’t neutral figures - they’re a caste. Which makes this more interesting! I started playing but haven’t finished my playthrough of this.

Apocalypse Roadtrip by Mynar Lenahan is a forged in the dark game where you dodge “roaming Kaiju, military bombings, otherworldly cryptids, UFO fleets, and other survivors (friendly and not)”. That sounds like a good time!

5 Act Play by K-Ramstack is a solo roleplaying game where you create a 5 Act Shakespearean play based around prompts.

Dice of War by Torsten Kaltenecker is a comic game about “battles, historians and intellectual disagreements”. Um, yes! Also bonus points for “sulking in a dignified way is recommended”. (Free/PWYW)

The Belles of the Ball is an adventure by boyproblems for Heroes of Myth and Mettle. “A masquerade ball, an ancient mysterious city, a wealthy man playing at vigilante, and the Zool Chamber of Commerce. It's a party you won't want to miss.” (Free/PWYW)

Conflictus Ad Astra by Gabriel Ciprés is an expansion for the very cool (and free) game Space Knights, which is a kind of PbtA Warhammer where each player controls their own legion. (Free/PWYW)

Cold Decisions: The Cult of Namenlos by Mundos Infinitos is a “cult simulator” and honestly, enough said.

Honourable mentions: A complete, final version of Apocalypse Frame, the fast and tactical mecha game, came out this month. Also, D12 and Delve is a dungeon-delving RPG in 12 words by WH Arthur where your character is a business card.

#indie rpg #ttrpg #rpg #ttrpg community #ttrpg design

[kwxnnxn]

Why is the entirety of the Jennifer’s body tag just #girlboss #boyproblems where is the lesbianism

#I wanna watch those two girls fuck nasty style idc about that emo boy

[myownprivatcidaho]

im once again tagging my boyproblems as #crushposting🧍

#I HAVENT DONE THAT SHIT SINCE DECEMBER 2021 #i was quick to jump into liking that last crush tho and he turned out to be a doozy and a floozy. #this time around uhhhhhhh. #its like i dont like him cause i want him i like him cause i KNOW him. very different also these feelings are splitting me OPEN #god

[p1rateg]

this video is so helpful and useful to everyone, esspecially if u have been though some shit (relationship, boyproblems, or anything in life. The messenge is, and you get all the right answers or advice to your problem.

I love this! ❤

I agreed with her words.

There was a time when i crying, and thinking back to my ex where i found this video it helped me understand "there is no end to go back to"

And the way she describe it helped me to feel good about what was happened to me.

#life issues #thewizardliz #Youtube

[toyourliking]

quietly in gastric distress in public #boyproblems

[keybrrrd]

if I didn't have the bloodhole curse I'd be jorking it so hard rn. alas #boyproblems

[virtualjournalofg]

I loved you so much that it consumed me. It consumed my time, energy and every single thought that passed through my mind. You were in all my dreams but yours were about zombie apocalypses and secret missions. I make up scenarios in my head, plan our conversations word to word and play them on repeat only for them to go exactly opposite. I don't expect much or maybe I do. But ik that if it's not you, someone else will definitely think about me the way i think about you. I love u so much that it consumes me but maybe that's how it's supposed to feel.

#shouldbestudying #boyproblems #mummadatengi

[skrillien]

my moirail is so cute when h3 says things like "we aren't calling our moiraillegiance "boyproblems the bequel"" =^_^= what a silly boy

#signed party poison

[machetemaiden27mcx]

My dreams continue to be nice, which is very surprising. Im at such a strange point in my life. Facing the breakdown of an almost ten year long relationship (Sigma). We trynna work through it as I dont wanna give up on all our dreams together..i.e getting married, having kids ect. Dont wanna lose family and friends. Wont be able to afford bills, pick up weed and id end up even more lonely. Yet theres no romance, no excitement or adventure and we arent sleepin together, we essentially just best mates.

And at the same time I reconnect with two old friends(bb and j), one of which i have always fancied. Now I know BB has always wanted me too so we are starting to spend more time together and we are both falling.

Neither of us are really ready for anything serious, he recently got out of an abusive relationship and im still kinda in one. But i cant stop thinking of him.

Imagine, falling in love and facing a breakup at the same time. Yeah. Thats why sometimes I still cry, although never for long.

#op #polyamory #boyproblems #vent

[dadlessdaughter]

Sooooo hi and welcome ☺️ I decided to do a blog Because right now that suits me in my process best. Memoirs of a Dadless Daughter is a Novel based on a true story that I’m currently working on. Because I’m still growing and learning there’s always a lot of things I want to say, and what better way to do it than here where someone else can learn and relate.

I’ve experienced a lot of trials and tribulations that I feel could have been avoided with a proper male figure guiding me. From decisions in men, knowing my worth, disrespect I accepted etc.

Dadless Daughters are daughters growing up with that disconnect from their dads.. Initially when I started this it was because my Dad has been incarcerated my entire life thus far (30 years to be exact) so I’ve always missed the connection and a Dad is essential in a childs up bringing. It later expanded to young women who’s Dads passed away, never knew them or Women that had dads physical presence but lacked a connection.

This Blog will simply be an outlet, detailing everyday experience, mistakes made from lack of male guidance and stories of the past that could possible help the younger me ☺️ feel free to follow and send your stories if you can relate.

Signed, A Dadless Daughter 💋

#DaddyIssues #SelfHelp #Incarceration #WomenEmpowerment #SelfAwarness #BoyProblems #SafeHaven #DadlessDaughter

[blackwomanvibes]

SPIRITUAL EYE-OUR WEEK 8 (LIVE Q&A TAROT READING)

We are hosting the EIGHT Spiritual Our-Eye!! I'm excited to answer some questions/dilemmas that were sent to me via email. We have 10 questions and will be spending 10 minutes each on them using The Wild Unknown Tarot Deck, requesting Divine Spirit and asking spiritual guides for answers/direction. This isn't a full reading tarot reading (to request one that includes a free life path reading email me at [email protected]), but a condensed advice specialist version.

https://youtu.be/UcnaIO7Xnyo 

 Week 7

1Y: Career Opportunity +BONUS 💰 

 2A: Immature Boyfriend 👶🏿

 3W: College FINALS 🤯

4R: MIA Boyfriend 👀 

 5F: Stella Get YOUR Groove Back 💃🏾

 6H: Mean Girl Frienemies 😈

 7A: Tamar "Stunt Queen" Braxton 💅🏾

 8Z: COVID 🦠 

9O: Tarot Love 🌙 🔮 ✨

10I: Black Women's Collective Self Esteem 👎🏾

~PLANTS IN RX RETROGRADE~

Mars Sep 10 Nov 16

Jupiter May 15 Sep 13

Saturn May 11 Sep 29

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Black Woman Vibes 

Podcast Link: (Spotify) 

https://open.spotify.com/show/4zBy2Xnzl8qShTCvXPGYqM?si=x-6rpt9wTfaaJC7tZf05bA 

Email questions/dilemmas for Spiritual (Eye-Hour) *pronounced hour* at [email protected]

#tarot #spirituality #divestment #pro black woman #NakerFree #BlackWomanVibes #SpiritualEyeOur #self help #advice #questionsandanswers #spiritual #commentary #the wild unknown tarot #tarotdeck #mentalhealth #divination #shadowwork #selfcare #career #boyproblems #relationshipadvice #college #finalgrade #ex boyfriend #Stella Get Your Grove Back #Mean Girls #Frienemies #Old Girl Out #COVID #tarot guidance

[dverdad]

I miss you . ..

They said the most painful thing is not the goodbye but the flashbacks of the happy memories.

Its been months since the last time we talked, we hanged out and when you left. I thought at first I’ll be fine, I won’t be missing you and I will be able to forget everything we had. I was wrong, here I am still missing the feeling of being happy with you.

I miss everything about us. Every little things we did, the little time we had, and the laughs we shared together. I miss our Mario Kart challenges, our silliness (when you stuck the gum on my hair) , exchanging of memes, teasing, calling names, complimenting each other, our cuddles, your hugs, your kisses, our late video calls, our Good Morning calls, and our lovely nights together. I will always cherish that but I am not holding on.

You made me feel better. You brought me back to my senses, you made me feel and see my worth. I remember you telling me that you never really care how I look because you liked me as me and with that I have learned to love my flaws. You always encourage me to do better instead of being sorry about it--even if it was just eating pizza after 8PM just because my goal was to lose weight. You always tell me not to cry over shallow things that I have to be strong and always be positive about things. You challenged the woman in me.

You made me feel I was enough. You made me feel that I am really more than just an almost, FUBU, a what if and gave back the dignity I lost. You taught me how to be strong again, how to fight back when needed to, and you made me remember who I really was and who I should be.

You taught me how to go on with life no matter how ugly it gets. Remember that one phone call? When you noticed my quavering voice and asked me what the problem was? I told you I had a bad day and you told me everything’s going to be alright and just to be strong. I am doing that now.

My eyes are filled with tears now but it won’t stop me to see a brighter future. You may not be in it but I will always remember that because of you and your lessons, I am what I am now. Stronger, wiser and better.

Thank You

#relationship #almost #love #strong #woman #thankyou #blog #missing #imissyou #thankful #boyproblems #movingon