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traaumaa · 3 months

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im just a mean person deep down

#bpd fucking sucks #.txt

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the-melancholic-musings · 1 year

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FP thoughts

I don’t know how to breathe without you.

I hate that this is how my head works.

You validate me and for a minute things feel okay.

But, the minute you disappear, I can’t function. I can’t eat. I can’t move.

I wish things were easier.

I want control back.

I want to be able to prioritise myself and look after myself without you.

I want to be able to do what you do without it feeling this painful.

I have this bad habit of being able to compartmentalise no matter what I may be going through. It means that when you’re not okay I will be there for you even if I feel like shit.

But you don’t do the same for me. And I know I should be able to understand that everyone works differently and just because I can drop everything for someone else, they may not do the same for me.

But, I just want someone who will. I just want someone who will drop everything for me and prioritise me and be there for me and hold me through these dark times.

The darkness is getting darker. I’m not sure I can hold on much longer.

Please don’t leave me.

#BPD fucking sucks #bpd #bpdfp #bpd favorite person #bpd feels #BPD Life #this is depressing #tw sui ideation #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff

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ichimu · 1 year

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i’m convinced i’ve become his fp and that scares me……

#as someone who’s been an fp before #and as someone who’s had my own fp #bpd fucking sucks #i can’t bring myself to empathize with his feelings #bc i’m too busy being unattached to all living things #i don’t want to be his fp #bc he’s not mine #ramblings

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twoheadedfather · 8 months

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one thing that i'll never understand is that when like autistic people mask they're not trying to deceive anyone and it's sad they've been forced to mask because of social pressures (obviously) but when people with personality disorders mask they're automatically trying to "manipulate" everyone around them so that they can "abuse" them and "trick" them ??? like what

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bpdohwhatajoy · 4 months

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No one ever talks about the lack of emotional permanence but it’s literally one of my worst bpd struggles

•relief from people reassuring you only lasts while they do it. As soon as they stop nope and you freak out because you think things have changed since they stopped even if it was only 10 minutes ago (they haven’t told me they like me in two minutes obviously things have now changed and they no longer like me)

•you forget sometimes bad things people do so it makes you more likely to forgive people who shouldn’t be forgiven

•dependent on external validation yet it’s so short lived since external validation usually comes in the form of one off comments

•liking people based on how much they talk to you

•thinking if you haven’t done something in a little you now have lost the ability to do so (ie when I haven’t written in awhile I start to think my brain is broken and I’ll never write again)

•thinking it you haven’t done something in a little it’ll never happen again (ie haven’t gone to a concert in months so now I’ll never be at one again)

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #this shit sucks so fucking bad #it’s always been a bad symptom for me #even worse now that my ptsd is worse

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braindamaged007 · 1 year

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worshipper-status · 18 days

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YOU'LL DEFINITELY BE HAPPY WITH ME.

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rachelcommitscrimes · 5 months

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mental health community try not to demonize cluster B challenge (impossible)

#i hate yall so much oh my god #empaths suck my fucking dick you have no idea what we go through #cluster b #bpd #npd #aspd #hpd

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honeypleasejustkillme · 11 months

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i’m trying my hardest to not act how i feel

#tw: directed fp vent #it feels like you don’t love me anymore #even when i’m in the same room as you.. it’s so heartbreaking to watch you bond with other people when you should be giving me the attention #all i want is you to show me you love me when we’re alone #it’s the only time we have together.. just us.. but you go and play games with your friends on discord while i chill in the background #taking stab after stab every time you laugh or say you love them #i know we’re not partners so i shouldn’t feel this way but i fucking do #and i want you.. more than i’ve ever wanted anyone in my life #you just never seem to understand why i get so upset #it’s because I WANT YOU #all to myself #i should be the center of your mind.. like you are in mine #it just.. fuck it sucks being in love with someone so oblivious and against it #idk how to tag this #bpd vent #bpd fp #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd shitposting #bpd #bpd problems #bpd mood #i would but the tag beloved.txt with this but i don’t really want to put it there if he ever finds out the tag about him

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wolftheghost · 4 months

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shout-out to schizophrenics, psychotics and anyone else suffering from the stigmatized mental health disorders and neurodivergences

you are valid and loved no matter the chemical balance in your brain or the things you see or hear or feel

#schizophrenia #psychosis #bpd #npd #im not part of that specific community myself but it fucking sucks how rude some people can be

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theaddictspoetry · 1 year

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i think there are times

where you miss the version of yourself

who never knew

what its like to be under the influence,

i know you never meant

to dance with the devil,

but when you're in his grasp

everything seems so free,

i promise you're not free,

not at all,

not until you say NO

thats the hardest part-

to say no, to a beautiful devil.

an evil, masked so beautifully.

@theaddictspoetry

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pezpenser205 · 4 months

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hey. look me in the eyes. yall. everyone. you do realize that just because youre a part of a particularly targetted minority that doesnt mean its okay for you to make fun of a different minority or say you hate another minority (even jokingly) correct? like youd agree that if a lesbian was posting about how much she hated gay or bisexual men or vise versa thatd be fucking weird and unacceptable right? so why do you do this exact same thing with minorities that tumblr has decided its trendy to hate on and harass and not see how weird it is. genuine question. please explain your reasoning im waiting. this has happened so many times in just the past 5 years alone.

#op #bisexuals pansexuals transmasculine people ace people aro people #gnc people people with adhd people with autism people with bpd people with npd #like yall fucking suck at this. how many times has this happened

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ofcutsandoffire · 18 days

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when you're not motivated to even read anymore<<<<<

#this fucking sucks #man i hate this #depression and BPD are kicking my ass rn #someone save me

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chaos-kathi · 6 months

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Wir sind für falsche Menschen schlaflos geblieben..

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morbid-barbie · 7 months

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"Why is it so hard to move on?"

I guess it's because of the nights you spent together talking about your dreams, their fears, your insecurities, the times they made you feel so happy that your lips ached from smiling so much. Maybe it's because you felt safe around them. I think moving on from someone you thought would stay is hard because we never imagine any moment without them. Maybe it's because with them you felt you were at peace and even after they left, your heart was always clinging onto the last bit of hope that they would look back and see that you still cherished them. You were still willing to put everything aside just to see them beside you. It's so hard to realize that the person you thought would never hurt you, suddenly became the very person to break your heart. I guess the worst part about doing away with their memories is realizing that they no longer belong there and you can't even tell them how much it hurts.

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bpdohwhatajoy · 3 months

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People really underestimate my ability to fuck off when I feel like my presence isn’t wanted or valued

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #I used to be awful at this #I’m getting better #wait till I’m at my full potential #to my ‘friend’ who started shit with me when I just cared about her well-being #who ignored me for an entire day #who pretty much only talks about herself #who I can’t even tell that she upsets me bc she always acts in a way that triggers the hell out of me #who can go awhile without talking to me #who after not even saying anything tried to hit me with the heyyyyy #who takes my presence and care for granted #yeah fuck you #and fuck you to my other ‘friend’ too #like don’t even get me started on these two I’m so fucking done #I hardly have any friends anymore and the two I’m closest to suck #good friend era when (it’s never happening for me)

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