#bpd poetry

[zoe-a-scott]

I have an endless guilt of being in others lives, and an as profound need of them being in mine.

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[paragon-httyd]

torn between

who i am

and

who i want to be.

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[bpdbecca]

#actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd #being borderline #neurodivergent #living with borderline #actually borderline #bpd blog #bpd poetry

[thatweirdguyinthebushes]

she kisses me in her parents bedroom and says SOLILOQUIZE THIS, MOTHERFUCKER, like a threat, like a promise, like she’s saying, TURN THIS INTO POETRY AND I’LL KILL YOU or maybe TURN THIS INTO POETRY AND I’LL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE. i can never tell what she means when she kisses me like that.

she says THE STRETCH MARKS ON YOUR INNER THIGHS LOOK LIKE THE SURFACE OF MARS I say, «baby, i’ve got no idea what that means.» she says IT MEANS WE’RE THE UNIVERSE LOOKING DOWN AT ITSELF and I LIKE YOU EVEN MORE WHEN YOU’RE DRUNK AND UNSATISFIED and IF YOU WANT TO BE EUROPA I’LL BE JUPITER AND YOU CAN JUST STAY IN MY ORBIT FOREVER.

i say «tell me we’re dead and i’ll love you even more» and she tells me STOP QUOTING OTHER POETS WHEN YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME and i say «i’ve never been more than quotes from other poets, if you didn’t want that, why are you still kissing me?» and she says WHY DO YOU ALWAYS EXPECT ME TO KNOW THE ANSWERS TO YOUR PROBLEMS?

we kiss in her parents bedroom and she says WHAT DO YOU WANT, BABY? and i say «i want you to kill me in the middle of sex so i can die feeling good.» for a second, she’s quiet, and then she says WHAT? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? and i try to say i’ve never know love without violence or maybe i’m scared of dying scared or maybe when they told me that abraham’s love for isaac was the reason for the sacrifice, i didnt understand that he was being asked to kill in spite of that love, not for it. and instead i say «nothing i say means anything. that’s why i’m a poet.»

we sit outside while i smoke and i say «i watched hacksaw ridge yesterday, and it was the craziest thing, because i thought they were exaggerating the story, but it turns out it was actually even weirder.» and she says I WISH YOU TALKED ABOUT YOURSELF MORE. and it sounds too real, so i pretend i dont hear it.

we are kissing in her parents bedroom when i grab a handful of fat, blood-full bedbugs and say «‘how long will you refuse to humble yourself before me? let my people go, so that they may worship me’.» and she says I WISH YOU TALKED ABOUT YOURSELF MORE and i say «i am talking about myself»

we are standing at the bus stop waiting for the bus to come and she says MY DAD ALWAYS TOLD ME TO NEVER TRUST AN ADDICT and i ask «do you really want me to write your dialogue in all capitals even though no one can see it?» and she says I NEVER ASKED YOU TO DO THAT.

we eat dinner together and she says I LIKE WHEN YOU DRINK AND DON’T TAKE YOUR MEDICINE AND ACT LIKE A FUCKING CRAZY PERSON and i say «no, you don’t, i’m a bad acid trip dressed like a boyfriend.» and she says WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME IT WAS GOING TO START RAINING? and i say «i thought it’d be more romantic if we didnt have an umbrella.»

we sit like distant planets and she says STOP QUOTING OTHER POETS WHEN YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME and i say «i dont know how» and she says STOP USING MY NAME TO TALK TO YOURSELF and then, finally quiet, i dont like it when you use me to justify your own self hatred. stop putting mean words in my mouth. and i say, «i am talking about myself.» and she says, baby, I know — that’s the problem.

#writing #poetry #original poem #poems on tumblr #love poem #short poem #queer #mlm #nblm #religious themes #religious trauma #trauma #bpd #bpd poetry #actually mentally ill #tumblr fucked up the formatting so i had to edit it woops

[doggboyy]

there's no canine word for hurt dog's aren't mean animals, not at heart you're going to kill me and i'll forgive you (dead dogs are just happy you're here)

#dog poetry #canine poetry #dog motif #web weave #web weaving #bpd vent #bpd poetry #bad dog

[howlovelyhana]

The borderlined life excerpt three from my poetry book:

“I don’t want to fight you, I don’t want you to be hurt. This isn’t me whose talking right now, and it’s not you that’s in front of me. There is a flame inside me, it’s been growing for a while, when I say I hate you, I really mean I hate myself.”

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[clusterblood]

don't look at my teeth, don't look at my claws,

don't look at the blood trailing behind.

just look at my fur, notice my eyes

I won't be a beast when no ones around.

#poetry #aspd #npd #bpd #aspd safe #npd safe #bpd safe #actually aspd #actually bpd #actually npd #aspd poetry #bpd poetry #npd poetry

[12h3avens]

how could I not.

#poetry #sylvia plath #vent poetry #vent art #traumacore #trauma poetry #spilled ink #short poetry #childhood trauma #bpd #bpd art #ptsd art #bpd poetry #writeblr #traumaart

[sunblchedflies]

#canine poetry #caninepoetry #dogboy #dog boy poetry #mine #my poem #original content #original poetry #original poem #bpd #bpd poem #bpd poetry

[66cloying]

do you believe in god ?

#poetry #actually bpd #bpd poetry #mlm poem #queer poems #queer poetry #religious poetry #hierophilia #heirophilia #heirophiliac #love is like religion for me #richard siken inspired #religious imagery #religious trauma

[flittermousemoth]

I fear that I will always feel as if I have too much of you and not quite enough of you at the same time. I fear even more that I will always want you like this.

-A.M. 6/8/2023 5:24 pm

#original #original poetry #original post #poetry #fearful avoidant attachment #fearful avoidant #bpd #bpd fp #borderline fp #bpd favorite person #borderline favorite person #borderline personality disorder #cluster b #neurodivergent #neurodivergent poetry #bpd poetry #avoidant attachment poetry

[zoe-a-scott]

I don’t enjoy things like how I’m supposed to. If I’m not insane about it, or obsessed or devastated or angry. I don’t care about it enough. I don’t love it.

#bpd poetry #bpd #bpd vent #bpd mood #bpd awareness #bpd splitting #bpd anger #bpd love

[paragon-httyd]

it hurts to express

yet i yearn to explain

#paragon #<3 #i love you #poetry #cute #love poems #original poem #love #heartbreak #ily #breakup #blog #actually borderline #actually bpd #borderline blog #borderline poetry #living with borderline #borderline personality disorder #borderline culture is #bpd poetry #bpd quotes #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #bpd fp #favorite person #favourite person #trauma #heartache #why am i like this wtf

[bpdbecca]

#actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd #being borderline #neurodivergent #living with borderline #actually borderline #bpd blog #poetry #bpd poetry

[inside-cats-brain]

Another sunrise

Made it through another day

Be proud you made it

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[cruelburner]

Past 3

#canine poetry #dog poetry #dog motif #bpd #bpd poetry #actually bpd #poetry #original poem #mdd #actually avpd