#bpd ramblings

[aintnopartylikeaprideparty]

as someone who has experienced abuse from someone with a personality disorder, it's actually incredibly easy to not dehumanize everyone with a personality disorder. i've seen people do borderline eugenic rhetoric surrounding people who have npd, aspd, bpd or other personality disorders, and then be like "I'M allowed to say these things because i'm a survivor, and if you disagree you are hurting abuse victims."

and frankly? i'm tired of it. as an abuse survivor i'm here to say that you're NOT allowed to turn into a fucking eugenicist the moment you're hurt by someone with a personality disorder.

does hurting and belittling other people who happen to have the same disorder as your abuser, people that are already suffering and that are already looked down on by society, bring you any healing? does it bring you peace?

Being hurt by someone isn't an excuse to hurt others that you feel justified in lashing out on. you're literally in control of your own actions,

you may claim to be making a safe space for abuse survivors, but i will never feel any solidarity with you, and i ESPECIALLY don't feel safe with you considering i might have a personality disorder.

you are excluding a large amount of abuse survivors in the name of "advocacy". a lot of people with personality disorders developed one or multiple due to heavy abuse. in the aim of creating a safe space, you are excluding the ones who need a safe space the most.

#npd #aspd #bpd #avpd #ocpd #hpd #spd #ppd #dpd #stpd #trauma #abuse mention #ableism #abuse survivor #i'm sorry this is so rambly i'm tired AAAAAA #i wish i was better at articulating my points bc i have so much to say on this😔 #i've felt this for awhile but felt to make this after seeing a particularly bad post that claimed everybody with npd and/or aspd is a- #-monster who can't feel emotions and only gets joy out of abusing others #if you think THAT'S bad i'm leaving out MANY details from the post that i don't want to get into #personality disorder #max speaks

[vulpesvalentine]

WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO LIE TO ME

JUST DON'T SAY ANYTHING

DON'T GET MY HOPES UP

BECAUSE I'LL CLING TO YOU

AND YOU'LL REGRET IT

#bpd ramblings #vulpes vents

[vampogger]

i hate that i made you feel this way

#good #fucking drown in it #she fucked you and she knew i have feelings for you #and i cant even be mad #because youre not even mine to begin with #but rn im feeling very fuck you both #negative #ventilation system #ignore #bpd ramblings

[moonlit-dreamers]

im going to kill the next person who says i should "practice empathy" fuck you

anyway hi i love all of you people with low empathy/no empathy at all youre all great

#bpd #npd #aspd #hpd #low empathy #hypoempathy #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #antisocial personality disorder #histrionic personality disorder #cluster b #birdcage rambles #love u guys u understand me

[thevirgodoll]

a lot of people have destroyed others by saying “I love you” but throwing them away in the trash later when communication is off. why say “I love you” if you’re going to lose patience and kindness later? why say “I love you” if you can’t have perspective for your partner’s pain, not just yours? why say “I love you” if you’re going to devalue and discard?

sometimes, people idealize us and love who they create us to be… and never get to know who we really are. they get upset when we don’t fit their projections. they think feedback means you love them less. they think days YOU are struggling is hatred. they think their lashings for going outside of the “rules” is love. they cast fear and doubts on us because they don’t even love themselves enough yet to believe you love them.

people are doing things in their best interest and should just admit it. they say they love you to get something from you. they don’t even know what “love” is. they don’t even understand the concept. when they have it they destroy it with their bare hands. but they would never want anyone to do the same.

I am tired of everyone using “love” so loosely when the truth is that they love the future ahead and can’t even have patience learning who we are now. genuinely would rather die than ever hear it again fr

#thoughts #this is why I hate being a favorite person #this is just a rant #don’t mind my rambling #mental health #toxic relationship #emotional abuse #actually bipolar #actually adhd #adhd #personality disorder #pwbpd #bpd fp

[midwestsad]

“allow yourself to feel bored” “when you get older you’ll enjoy feeling bored or doing nothing” “just sleep it off” good for y’all but being bored is like an icepick being stabbed into my brain

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd stuff #actually bpd #bpd blog #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #bpd recovery #bpd remission #mika rambles #mika’s diary

[joyflameball]

If you don't have BPD, please don't vote, as that will skew the results.

#cassie rambles #bpd #borderline personality disorder #borderline pd #yandere trope

[cowchickenbeefpork]

Oswald mostly yearns for Edward while Edward mostly craves for Oswald, both will never be satisfied at the end of the day.

#gotham edward nygma #gotham #gotham 2014 #gotham oswald #oswald cobblepot #edward nygma #nygmobblepot #do ya get me #might write a fanfic about this idk #the depraved ramblings of a madman #edward is a craver on the outside while on the inside he is a yearner while oswald is yearner on the outside but a craver on the inside #but thats less poetic both do yearning and craving for the other but both express it differently #edward does not let himself yearn for oswald so he craves #oswald does not let himself crave for edward so he yearns #the yearning oswald does is a cope for his constant craving #the craving edward is a cope for his constant yearning #natural consequences of ed being npd with bpd traits and oswald being bpd with npd traits

[iamumbra195]

So I was reading this blog post/article about adrenaline rushes and bipolar disorder after reading @moonbiine and @stillfrownyclownlol's posts about Aiden having BPD and the author was talking about their latest adrenaline rush.

Essentially they were doing the Edge Walk at the CN Tower, in Toronto, ON. When they got down, they said the adrenaline rush was amazing and that they couldn't stop smiling afterwards. It didn't feel like hypomania and they realized for the first time that they feeling something besides pain and depression. That felt like a person.

They realized it was kinda depressing that it took hanging so high in the air and putting themself in danger to actually feel that way.

But to a little kid, feeling like that, riding that high after feeling like shit for so long? It's no wonder that Aiden became an adrenaline junkie.

Every time we see little Aiden, he looks miserable and depressed.

So maybe one day, his parents decided to take him to do something super exciting to try and cheer him up. And then he felt that rush of adrenaline, the pride of accomplishing such a dangerous task and he was hooked.

His parents were probably glad he started to smile and pick up new hobbies, even if each one seemed more dangerous than the last. So they indulged him. Let him do what he wanted as long as he was happy.

I mean, why else would he be able to do all these things when he would permission/supervision from his parents for like half since he's 15-16 years old?

Although, Red recently said that she did write him with ADHD in mind and a lot of articles said that, "People with ADHD may compulsively seek high-dopamine activities and stimuli to achieve a dopamine rush, so people with ADHD may be more likely to engage in impulsive and risky behaviours. An individual may seek any situation that incites a strong burst of dopamine in the brain. 

People with ADHD may describe themselves as adrenaline lovers, never satisfied, and always seeking what is out of reach." Or something along the same lines.

Either way, him having bipolar disorder, BPD or ADHD is really cool and I'd love to see more people talking about it.

(Please forgive me if I accidentally said something potentially incorrect or offensive, I'm not claiming to be an expert on either disorders.)

#aiden clark #daniel clark #jessica clark #bipolar disorder #bpd #adhd #i thought bpd and bipolar disorder were the same thing when I wrote this SORRY #adrenaline #school bus graveyard #school bus graveyard webtoon #sbg #sbg (webtoon) #just me rambling #i love aiden

[skinnidollx]

My Ed rules:

1. 10,000 steps

2. Stay hydrated

3. No junk food

4. Keep a journal to record what you eat

5. Keep yourself busy cleaning ex.

6. No alcohol

7. do at least one fast a week

8. Portion control

9. Have a calorie limit

10. Weigh ins every week

My sw: 160lbs

My cw: 138lbs

My goal: to the bone 1:25:25

#i’m just a girl #tumblr 2014 #bpd feels #to the bone #ed relapse #ed rambles #ed rules #steps #stay hydrated #tw ana diary #ana trigger #portion control #grunge tumblr

[suburbanlegnd]

the sexual tension between me and relapse

#venting in the tags so be careful #being bipolar and bpd at the same time feels like the worst nightmare #the slightest inconvenience will send me into a fucking spiral #people have always been telling me either to “cheer up” or “go to a mental hospital because I'm fucked in the head” #i perfectly know I'm incapable and unworthy of love #I'm starting to doubt if I'm able to love the right way at all #but I'm so sick of toxic positivity #not everything's going to be alright #sometimes bad things happen #and not everyone is supposed to be cheerful and grateful all the fucking time #it's just so tiring and exhausting #they really dont realize how much toxic positivity is damaging and so naive #tw depressing thoughts #idk how to tag this lol #rambles #actually bpd #bpd vent

[joficeandwind]

Reminder that you can be a victim of abuse, mentally unstable, AND a shitty person! I have seen too many posts and too many people in real life that put ALL of the blame on someone's mental conditions and just ignore that people have agency! I've seen so many people pull the "Well, yes, their mental health didn't help, but, what about Y factor that's out of their control?" When you try holding people accountable for their actions! So I'm gonna fight back on that bullshit here and now! So remember!

DO NOT give them infinite chances! Of course, you should give people struggling with trauma or mental issues room to make mistakes so they can learn and grow. But, you can't let them make fuck up after fuck up after fuck up, never try to improve, and not do anything about it! People can only fix themselves, so if they don't WANT to, and only say they will so they can get out of trouble, call them out for it! Give them a piece of your mind, berate them! Cut them off if you have to!

DO NOT expect people they've hurt to forgive them just because they're mentally ill or suffering with trauma! If someone with an undiagnosed Cluster B Personality disorder is an abusive partner for years, and they get therapy and become a healthier, better person, of course many people will forgive them and not be as outraged at them, even if they were the abused in that situation. But you should NOT force that onto others who wouldn't! A person would have every right to still be furious at them for what they did, especially not the victims! They have every right to blame THEM for what they did, and not their inner turmoil.

DO NOT downplay their shitty behavior caused by their mental health! NPD, BPD, ASPD, and adjacent Personality Disorders DO NOT necessarily make someone a bad person! You should not look at someone struggling with any of those issues and assume they have The Mental Illness That Turns You Into a Shitty Person. BUT! When someone is CLEARLY demonstrating toxic and destructive behavior that lines up EXACTLY with what they are diagnosed with, and they are CONSISTANTLY participating in these behaviors, you can't act like it's completely out of their control or not that big a deal! Do not protect them JUST BECAUSE they are mentally ill!

At the end of the day, just because someone is mentally ill, doesn't mean they can't be a shitty person! I had a neglectful and sometimes physically abusive mother with Bipolar Personality Disorder who was also a victim of CSA, and guess what? We have her CHANCE, after CHANCE, after CHANCE, financially supporting her, letting her live with us, LOVING HER, even after EVERYTHING, including almost TORCHING one of her ex-friends! But after long enough, when she ended up in jail on drug charges for the SECOND TIME, you know what happened? WE CUT HER OFF.

One of my first friends here on tumblr suffered from extremely low empathy, speculated to have Narcissistic Personality Disorder by the professionals she was in contact with for short periods of time and herself, and was also SUICIDAL, which I TALKED HER OUT OF COMMITING ONCE. Guess what? She was A-Ok and LAUGHED while being an accessory in spreading completely false accusations of RACISM and PEDOPHILA to onto a MINOR. (Me, who had literally turned 16 like 2 weeks ago at the time of this happening.) Why? She just didn't wanna bother with me or my friends anymore, we gave her a "bad image".

TL;DR, support mentally ill people and people going through tough shit, but don't coddle, woobify, or let them trample on you!

#j rambles #mental health #mental illness #emotional health #j rants #cluster b #borderline personality problems #narcissistic personality disorder #bpd #bipolor #accountability #trauma #alexis don't look

[caus34concern]

every bmc character is neurodivergent and i don't just mean autism and adhd

#i said this exact same thing to smn but fuck it i'll say it here too #personality disorders are a part of neurodivergency!!!!! #bpd avpd jeremy. hpd bpd chloe. npd jake. they are all neurodivergent. #aphantasia christine and YES. aphantasia is a neurodivergence #sorry i'm kinda insane #be more chill #bmc #cause for rambles

[moonlit-dreamers]

how do ppl look at sun and how they portray him and not think hes a narcissist?

hes so npd coded and nobody says anything

he goes cough sniffle sob when not being payed attention to for more than 5 minutes, he becomes a living light bulb when complimented, and he also has shit self esteem and relies on other ppls praises to keep him afloat. he also latches onto ppl he finds interesting or who praises him or literally gives him any attention. hes also focused on his job and wants to be good so ppl will look at him in a positive light. also constantly feeling the need to be perfect and getting very upset when he isnt. i could go on and on and pull up the fucking dsm 5 but i wont unless prompted bc i absolutely will

and how much of this is projection? find out on the next episode of birdcage gives dca personality disorders *bows*

#sundrop #fnaf sun #sun fnaf #fnaf dca #fnaf sundrop #sundrop fnaf #dca #dca fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #dca fandom #birdcage rambles #npd #im not gonna tag this much #(bc i dont want ppl going 'but hes not a narc bc hes so nice' and if u say that ur ableist stfu) #but yall pls #i need ppl to be aware that this mf is such a narc #moon is also so incredibly bpd coded #they kiss daily

[midwestsad]

as hell as it is, i’m so thankful BPD allows me to feel music with all my soul, my whole body, and lights up my entire nervous system

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd stuff #actually bpd #bpd blog #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #bpd recovery #bpd remission #mika rambles #mika’s diary

[cowchickenbeefpork]

BUT YOUR SKIN, DID YOU NOTICE YOUR SKINNNNN???? IT CRIES A SOFT WEEP LIKE MINE

#nygmobblepot #gotham #edward nygma #gotham fox #oswald cobblepot #my friend who gets my nygmobblepot readings on this site is asleep rn so you people will forced to listen to my insane ramblings instead! #they are so bpd npd + bpd npd...... I NEED TO SPREAD MY PROPANGANDA OF THIS #song lyrics #lyric posting #surprise its eric by mistake ( i will post them with these lyrics again the song is so them)