"Leaking Heart" by Paulo Leodrákon
It's been a long time since Cupid has grown,
He saw an oppurtunity to escape his mother grasp
and finally managed to go away.
This process had a huge impact on him,
from now on he had to make his own arrows,
impermeate his wings,
and be his own master in the art of archery.
Aphrodite recognized her mistakes
and realized that was best for her son.
This realization didn't made her less sad,
neither made the distance between them easier to handle.
Missing her son,
the goddess called his name in the etesian winds.
Her words were of a mother missing her child but
the tone was childish, full of jokes and phrases
that once gave joy to the relationship of mother and son
but now are only a misplaced memory.
No doubt there were good intentions in her kind words,
however its tone and vehicle were unfortunate to Cupid.
The winds were strong and dry,
and her words with a vivid intensity,
making the sweet words of a mother
into a volley of javelins that the eye could not see.
His chest was pierced,
making a hole in the ironic shape of an eye.
The more the words his mom declared,
the more blood was coming out of his wound.
It was a type of blood that was strange to him,
altough it came from his own body.
It was thick as a pus,
its temperature was always cold
and it smelled like urine.
The wound itself was also diferent,
not only by its shape but by its behavior.
Like a mortal that had enough alcohol,
it violently puts out blood.
The hole and the skin around it
seemed that had a life of its own,
everytime it wasnt violently putting out blood
it was breathing like a child that was tired of crying.
Cupid tried to cure it using all sorts of herbs
and hot metal rods,
but he was unsuccesfull.
So he had to accept it
and wait for the healing that only time gives.
He, from that realization on, wore a crimson tunic,
for the other mortals and gods,
including his mother,
didn't saw him bleeding.
Since there wasn't ill intent in his mother's words,
he just answered them as a son would have.
Living with the wound,
until the cosmos decided it was enough.
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hello! welcome to my blog!
i'm Anfey Care, a queer non-binary artist and writer! i go by gender neutral words ("they/them" — "elu/ê/-e" in portuguese)
i enjoy art and science. i love specially Undertale, Adventure Time, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Omori, The Owl House and Utena. i'm brazilian, too. by the way, if you're brazilian, you're welcome to follow me if you enjoy:
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💙✨ about me: ✨
i'm an introverted, shy, and usually asocial person. somewhat antisocial too, sometimes can be completely silent and spend weeks alone when too overwhelmed from socialization. (INFP and pisces, but i don't take these seriously, although i can relate)
completely atheist. i don't mind religion, even if i might take it as stories and thoughts, but i just don't mind as long as it isn't fanatic christian stuff — i was raised around these people and it got me very tired of those things.
i'm in psychology college (i got a full scholarship), but i made a game development technical course along with high school (public education, got in through an entrance exam, was in first place on the classified candidates list), and am often studying things on my own, like languages. i draw, illustrate, research, write, can animate, design and code, and also make pixel art — sometimes i try making music, photographing and cosplaying. i'm on my way to be an indie game dev (plus a psychologist), but i'm mainly an artist and writer
as for how i identify as LGBT+, i'm queer as in all pan aspec atraction-wise. gender-wise, i identify as pangender, which in my case includes agender, genderqueer, and cassgender; this means i'm trans and non-binary. i usually put it all in short by just saying i'm queer and non-binary, but i don't shy away from saying i'm just gay (as in i'm definitely not straight)
i could be considered legally blind, as i can't see anything a few inches away from my face without glasses (8 degrees in each lens, but i've been needing a new prescription for some years... couldn't afford it yet). i suspect i might be neurodivergent (ADHD and autistic, mainly), and have lots of symptoms of depression, anxiety, some of ASPD and C-PTSD, but also can't afford to look into those. (yep, really ironic how i'm studying psychology before being able to go see a psychologist-)
i know spanish and french, besides portuguese and english. i don't have a lot of practice with those other two languages, but I can understand them well (speaking portuguese helps, heh). i still want to learn more languages — for now, i'm also studying japanese, LIBRAS and ASL from time to time
i aim for diversity, inclusivity and equity, specially for my games. that's a reason why i study a lot, and that's also why i want to make most of my creations available for free. and that's why i encourage you to give me support if you want, as it helps it all to be free of charge, and can give you a custom art or some cool extra content for a low tip (i can also think of opening a shop with prints and stickers to help it all, if you ever get the interest)
i'm a fan of:
Undertale;
The Owl House;
Good Omens;
Omori;
Revolutionary Girl Utena;
The Picture of Dorian Gray;
Deltarune;
Dracula;
Adventure Time;
She-ra and the Princesses of Power;
My Little Pony;
Sonic;
Don't Hug Me I'm Scared;
Welcome Home;
Puella Magi Madoka Magica;
and Dead Plate.
i also play RPG, like D&D, besides liking the RPG video games genre itself. as you see, i'm all over the place — i'm not completely organized and i allow myself to let some things be messy (like tags)
i like lots of things! and, though i enjoy horror, i don't make much art of this kind. plus, i create original stories, art, and characters of my own, like Safey — they're my mascot persona, and they're the fox creature on the pixel art by the start of this blog post. i have a bunch of projects i develop on my own, including ideas of comics and games! and sometimes i write poems, generally in portuguese, but i mix languages and write in english at times
i usually make cute things! whenever i happen to make something scary or with sensitive topics, i let it with the warnings i think it needs. rarely allude to NSFW — it can be there as subtext if i ever include anything like that at all, but i do enjoy artistic nude art, i do like philosophically/sociologically/literarily analytical thoughts and texts that could be about/related to sexual topics, and i also do like (well, you know) horror. i take a different approach on my own art that's around these, but you can avoid it if i ever make it due to the warnings, and i hope you will use the opportunity to avoid it if you're sensitive or don't want to see it. overall, specially for other people like me, i want my space to be a safe space
Undertale is my most favorite piece of media, so i'm drawn towards it most of the time. Sans is my favorite in it (sorry, heh). Flowey is also a favorite of mine
nice to meet you, and i hope you will like what i create!
thanks for reading! see ya! ^꒳^ [cute face smiling]
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