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chishiyashoodie · 1 year

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I never really understood what “I love you, Victor. But you aren’t mine” meant until I met Nijirō

#breaking my own heart #nijiro murakami #chishiya #shuntaro chishiya #aib chishiya #alice in borderland #chishiya shuntaro #nijiro days #he is the loml #aib

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mnare · 4 months

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i need some angst, hurt / no comfort with mr simon riley, where he unexpectedly breaks up with y/n before leaving for a dangerous mission, but y/n tries to get him to stay instead of just letting him go. like imagine:

you’re sitting in the couch, tv on in the background but you’re not really playing attention to it as you scroll on your phone.

simon is in the bathroom, said he was gonna take an early evening shower. but it’s been an hour and a half. you hear him walking towards the living room, but instead of walking towards you, simon walks towards the front door, you only look up when he speaks.

“i can’t do this anymore”

he’s looking at you through his skull balaclava. dressed and packed like he’s gonna go on a mission somewhere. he’s just hoping you don’t see his facade of calmness. the mask always did helped him hide his feelings.

“what do you mean ‘can’t do this anymore’,” you ask standing up, tears welling in your eyes as you take a couple steps towards him.

“where are you going with your gear on simon?”

ghost sighs and turns slightly, as if he’s just going to run away without explaining himself.

“what the fuck are you doing simon? you think i’m not gonna ask questions? what do you mean ‘you can’t do this anymore?!”

“i.. i’m ending our relationship, y/n..” he hates say those words to you. knowing how much it’ll break you. you were the only one who he’s let close enough, close enough to see him, to see simon riley instead of lieutenant ghost.

“you know how dangerous my job is. i’m gone for weeks at a time, never knowing if i’ll make it back in one piece. and this time., this time i’m certain i won’t be coming back, love..”

by know he’s looking down towards the door handle, hands at his side trembling subtly. the grip on the handles of his duffel bag seems as if he’d tear it in half.

while he tells you all this, the feeling of dread you had upon hearing the first words he uttered when he stood by the door turned into frustration. how dare he think he can just pack up and leave without saying anything? you thought that you became a place of comfort for him, somebody he can trust with his human side. he didn’t have to be ghost around you. and this is how he reacts?

you’re fuming. taking deep breaths in a failing attempt to calm down. your hands balled at your sides, shaking as you stomp your way towards him.

“so just cause you think you’re gonna die, you’re going to leave me? leave us? tear down everything we’ve built?” you spit the words out at him, tears finally breaking through.

ghost, surprised to hear your words laced with anger instead of sadness, could only look at you. not know what else to do as he tries to reach for the lock on the door to make his way out.

you slapped his hand away from it, a finger pointing at him,

“you’re not leaving this house without sitting down and talking to me simon riley, you are not doing this right now”, you say through clenched teeth as you hold back a sob. you know he could easily push you away but you don’t care. he can’t be doing this, not now.. so this is what a couple weeks of avoiding you leads to huh? you thought he was going through something, tried to give him some space since he would eventually come to you, like he always did. this time, you guess not.

he reaches for the handle again, you try to smack his hand away again, but this time he manages to hold you back enough to let him open the door to walk out into the rain that started to come down.

“simon fucking talk to me! please!” you lunge towards him as he starts making his was down the small front steps of your shared house, gripping unto his gear, his legs, anything to slow him down, but he’s stronger than you. doesn’t slow down as he walks towards his truck, even when you finally are able to get in front of him, trying to push him back into the house.

between the rain and his heart beat, your voice sounds distant in his mind. he’s already doing it. pushing everything way till he’s numb. he won’t allow himself to feel anything right now, or else he’ll listen to you and stay. he’ll stay, and sit in the couch with you. stay under the blankets as you thread your fingers through his hair while he pours his heart out to you. telling you his fears, both old and new.

he opens the driver’s side of the car, your cursing and crying muffled, yet he can still hear every word so clearly.

“simon, i’ll fix this! please just talk to me; you can’t just leave like this! i’ll wait for you, i always will. please just come inside, and we’ll talk! please, simon!”

he stands still, his head hanging in shame as he’s about to climb into his car. you quiet down, thinking he’ll finally listen to you and come back and talk.

you talk to him while you hold his arm, gently as if he’s and injured animal.

“let’s go back inside simon,” you say softly, “i’ll make you some tea and we can talk ok? just please.. please, let’s just talk about it..”

he see you out of the corner of his eye, you hair and clothes are completely soaked through. you’re eyes red, even though he can’t tell where the rain begins and your tears end.

a fitting setting he thought, was it even raining before he walked out? he wasn’t sure, but he was sure he would regret his next choice of actions.

before you could even react, he pushes you away from him, causing you to stumble a few paces from him. surprise vivid on your face. he gets in the car and starts it as you smack the window, yelling for him to get out the fucking car and speak to you. you, soaked through to your bones at this point, talk to him through the window as he backs out of the small driveway. he gives you one last look, his eyes filled with tears behind the skull. the last sign of simon before ghost drives away.

leaving you standing in the road, the rain pouring over you as you scream at him for leaving you, sobbing and breaking down all for your neighbors to see.

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ANYWAYS, i kept seeing this trope with simon, but y/n always just ends up low key accepting it and not doing anything (like huh?? i’d go psycho😭 tf is this coming from sir) but i’m no writer, and in my head, i was gonna make the reader low key insane, like making threats insane lol

but i decided to mellow it out, probably a bit more realistic this way tbh 😭😭

#simon ghost riley #cod angst #ghost x reader #simon riley angst #hurt/angst #drabble #why do i do this to myself #breaking my own heart #why am i in love with this fictional man #call of duty

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mostlymarvelsstuff · 2 months

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#breaking my own heart #again #clint barton #hawkeye #natasha romanoff #black widow #wanda maximoff #scarlet witch #kate bishop #mine

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will-or-wontxx · 9 months

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I am currently reading They Both Die at the End and I can’t stop thinking about this setting but with Steddie. …..

#breaking my own heart #steddie #steve x eddie #they both die at the end #au

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blackcat419 · 7 months

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I need a scene of Jaehaera unleashing all her hatred and sorrow on Aegon the younger. She just looks him dead in the eyes and tells him he should be dead instead of Jaehaerys in an eerily calm tone. She says he should be dead instead of Maelor, instead of her mother, her great grandfather, her uncle Aemond and Daeron, her voice filling with anger and sorrow as she yells out at him. He should be dead instead of Mourgal, Shrykos, Sunfyre, Dreamfyre, Vhagar, and Tessarion. She screams that he is the son of traitors, kinslayers, and a bastard. And as her father holds Jaehaera as she weeps, she whispers to Aegon II, “I wish you killed him too, dad.” And as Aegon the younger looks on, we hear him whisper, “i wish I was dead too.”

Then we cut to Aegon 3rd as an adult looking upon the tomb effigy of Jaehaera and whispering, “I wish I was dead instead of you.”

#house of the dragon #hotd #hotd headcanon #HotD made up scenes #even if a Jaehaera lived they would never work #aegon iii targaryen #jaehaera targaryen #breaking my own heart #Aegon only wanting to die to escape his pain but everyone else dies instead of him #Aegon 3rd having survivors guilt #he should have named one of his daughters after Jaehaera #just memeorializing all who died in his kids

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maemoonsong · 9 months

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thinking about how amazingly complex obi-wan's and anakin's relationship really is, its something that will never be explained. in history books they would be brothers, father and son, best friends, but they're so much more than that, they are more intimate than lovers, anakin loves obi-wan more than anyone else in the entire galaxy.

#obi wan kenobi #star wars anakin #obikin #breaking my own heart #star wars

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ninallthatjazz · 5 months

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Oh no, it was a bad idea using those gifs in posts back to back, wasn't it? 😭

#my notifications #breaking my own heart #doctor who #10th doctor #rose tyler #tenrose #david tennant #billie piper

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phantombeesting · 2 years

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Just realised that Billy never got to see silly goofy Steve. Never got to see his face light up when he's pleased with himself after making a particularly bad pun. Never got to hear how his voice changes when he's really excited about something or the breathy giggle he let's out when fingertips trace over his sides.

He never saw Steves thousand watt lopsided grin when someone did something unexpectedly nice for him. He never got the chance to find out how happy it would make him to put that smile there, to have Steve's face all lit up just for him.

#haringrove #stranger things #breaking my own heart

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plut00nline · 2 years

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Definitely don't think about if raph didn't snap out of it he would've killed Leo. Definitely don't think about donnie and mikey having to watch their brother kill their other brother. Definitely don't think of them meeting the same fate. And Definitely don't think about years later, raph is still being controlled by the krang, unable to stop himself and only being able to watch

#breaking my own heart #god that fucking movie #au where raph does kill leo and the opening of the movie is just mikey or donnie sending casey back #and casey evebtually tells leo that he died because of raph #ugh this is so deep for a movie about teenage turtles #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt movie #tmnt

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lilmanicpixiedemon · 25 days

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! Pray For Us, Icarus spoiler ! (GOmens fanfic classic)

Yeah, I know how we all eat up Hozier's 'Too Sweet' - but my brain suddenly hit me with it from an unexpected angle.

I was standing in my kitchen, making cinnamon buns, dancing and singing along as I go - and after 'But who wants to live forever, babe?', my mind instantly went:

Crowley does. And he chose to die over and over and over again to prove it.

🥺💔😭

Well, thanks brain for this lovely contribution. 🥲

#in case you were feeling happy today #breaking my own heart #it's what this fandom knows best #we all just love to wallow in our ineffable misery don't we #good omens #pray for us icarus #atalan #hozier #too sweet

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motheryoon · 1 year

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“i’m sorry i could not be the man you want me to be. the man i wanted to be for you,” sasuke told her outside the village gates before his departure. “love has burned me too many times and it’s made me a broken man. i have nothing to offer you. it’s not possible for you and i…”

“i understand,” she said, stopping him. they stood there in silence for a long time, the sound of the trees bowing in the wind filling the lengthy pause.

strangely, her heart did not ache nearly as much as she thought it would. when had the both of them grown so?

“do you think,” she eventually said after a long, agonising moment of deafening silence, “there could have ever been a life in which you loved me too?”

he inhaled. “yes. in another life,” he whispered as his hand reached for her own, “my heart belongs to you. only you. but in this one…it lies with my kin.”

she stared at him with clear eyes. there was acceptance in her gaze. she understood. she did.

“…i see,” she whispered, resigned. after all these years, she was finally giving up. “i wish you all the best, sasuke-kun.”

“i wish things could have been different,” he said to the empty air once sakura had left. the sun was shining brightly at its highest point in the sky, yet sasuke somehow felt like his world was grey. “it would have been nice, to have loved you.”

#sasusaku #sasuke x sakura #sssnippetaday #breaking my own heart #sasuke is broken and hurting but he still knows what love is #he is an uchiha after all #ss fanfiction #uchiha sasuke #sakura haruno #motheryoon

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mostlymarvelsstuff · 2 months

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