#breaking the cycle <3

[katmaniac21]

blah blah blah, something about Palomine Aurinko being a psychologist and the fact that Buddy won’t let Juno call her his therapist

#breaking the cycle <3 #she knows what a bad therapist is like so she tries to be even more compassionate and empathetic #i love her #the penumbra podcast #tpp #juno steel #junoverse #buddy aurinko

[timothylawrence]

Going absolutely crazy over what you find in Duke Ravengards vault. You have a weapon titled Ravengard's Scourger and it's description that states Ulder's own father was distant and Ulder had sworn to himself that he'd be better than his own father, but that once Wyll is born he ultimately fails and becomes distant from him.

And then of course, the only other item in the vault is a 'worn and much-handled' journal that Ulder has recorded all his favourite memories of his son inside.

Once again, the game hands you another cycle that isn't broken and all you're left with is heartbreak and pain.

#ewbie.txt #bg3 #wyll ravengard #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #aughhhhhg kfdhgkjdhgdfj im so emotional abt this rn man. he loved his son he just couldnt show ittt UGH!!! #AND WYLL ACTIVELY BREAKING THE CYCLE!!!!!!!!!!

[moonslices]

#currently breaking the cycle <3 #photo does not belong to me

[franklespine]

The scene at the start of All Hell Breaks Loose where Dean talks to Sam's corpse in that shack in the middle of nowhere is soul crushing to an incomprehensible level that the show hardly ever manages to reach again.

Firstly, what is revealed about Dean as he spills his heart open is devastating on a whole other level. Like there's grief and then there's this - it's like a piece of him has been torn out and he's left unable to literally function. It's not really a new idea in the series up to this point that Dean has centered his life around his family, in particular protecting Sam. As he starts off, he wishes so desperately that Sam didn't start asking questions about their family so Dean could preserve his innocence just a little bit longer. No doubt John put a lot of pressure on Dean to protect and look after Sam, but taking on this role was something that was all but written inside him, as he says, John didn't even have to tell him to do it, Sam was his responsibility. The tipping point in this scene is when Dean finally asks "what am I supposed to do" - how can he even begin to move beyond this? He doesn't care if the world ends anymore, doesn't care if Azazel wins and he never gets revenge. In asking this question Dean realises that he is incapable of letting go of Sam, of the responsibilities to his family he has built his life around like the grain of sand at the centre of the pearl, and of the crushing guilt that comes with 'failing' these responsibilities. The only way forwards is to force the laws of nature to bend for him and bring Sam back from the dead, no matter the cost.

Secondly, this is heart wrenching to me for Sam too. Here he is, 23 years old and lying dead on a dingy mattress in a shack in the middle of nowhere - the only escape from his dark destiny found in death. But the primary reason it seems that Dean makes this massive sacrifice to bring him back isn't because he's 23 and has so much of life he deserves to live, but because he is incapable of living under the weight of his guilt in failing him - that he is Dean's responsibility that he can't live with letting down. And this is not to say that Dean doesn't also bring him back because he loves and care for him as a person, but it's not like Dean was sitting there talking to Sam saying you didn't deserve this, we were so close to ending this, you deserved to go on to have a life that hasn't been built around and in grief and revenge, hell, you could've even gone back to university and had your happy ending. You know? It's like selling your soul for someone is a crazy batshit insane thing to do - the ultimate sacrifice. But same as with John, it seems that the reason behind it wasn't just pure love and desire for that person to live just because they didn't deserve to die. John needed Dean to be there to ensure Sam didn't go darkside - to kill him if he can't save him. In both cases it was out of love, but in this weird objectified way.

It's just so fascinating how this dynamic between the three Winchesters, love and sacrifice plays out in the early seasons. How supernatural finds selfishness at the centre of this seemingly sacrificial selfless act. The selfishness in martyrdom.

That's why this scene is just heart wrenching in my sad insane little head. Sam and Dean were crazy codependants before this but this scene marks a turn for the worst (in codependence) for them. This scene is like the solidification of Dean's belief that he is worthless and incapable of functioning without the responsibilities he holds to his family and solidifies that Sam is the little brother possession for Dean to protect and regulate until his time runs out and he's shipped off to hell - leaving him at the centre of his massacred family with all the fingers pointing in his direction. His mum was collateral damage to his anti-baptism by a demon, his Dad sold his soul for his brother's life to be the final yes or no in the decision of whether Sam deserves to live or not, and now his brother's gone and done the same for him. But hey, at least when Dean gets dragged down to hell it isn't with the weight of guilt that he failed his responsibilities.

(spoiler alert: he feels guilty for leaving Sam anyway and Sam spirals anyway).

#supernatural #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #theyre just silly #silly little guys #i mean i could go on and on about the selling soul thing in s2/3 as an allegory for the cycles of emotional abuse #but that is a whole other can of worms for a different late night text post #also MERRY CHRISTMAS #yippee #i hope anyone who reads this and anyone who doesnt a very happy holiday #spn 2x22 #all hell breaks loose #spn meta #i guess

[clowndensation]

the thing about roman is that he literally tried it out. he tried out being a serious person who gets taken seriously and contributes something to the world, and it didn't work! he went in, he took a swing at it, but in the end he's nothing. he's bullshit. just like he always thought. and now he finally gets to go forward with the certainty that his best really isn't enough, and never will be, so he can stop worrying about whether he'll amount to anything, and just embrace the failure he's always been. the end.

#oh baby the cycle took you in and ATE you <3 <3 <3 #you are NEVER breaking free. #and now daddy isn't even here to kick him into a shape that might actually accomplish something #so he doesn't even have to try anymore #i AM bleeding at the mouth btw. it's terminal. #teehee #what a bleak little timeline we're in #succession

[shimmerluna]

i want to learn august's whole character and how the Swedish monarchy works just so I can write a fic about him hating it and ultimately being the one to end the monarchy

#shimmer's thoughts #young royals #august horn #break that cycle bitch #young royals season 3 #young royals season 3 spoilers #yr s3 #yr s3 spoilers

[twinkle-art]

reset the stage and go again! again! again!

#better call saul #jimmy mcgill #saul goodman #kim wexler #walter white #jesse pinkman #feat. chuck howard nacho lalo mike kim skyler #(through gritted teeth) we poppin the biggest bottles when jimmy finally breaks the cycle #breaking bad #bcs spoilers #so it turns out tumblr can NOT handle this at anything more than 1/3 size fdshgjfkshgfhdsk #un-mangled frames included now #EDIT: DIDNT NOTICE UNTIL SOMEONE ON TWITTER ASKED WHERE GENE'S MUSTACHE WAS. AND IF I DIDNT FIX THAT IT'D KILL ME

[taikanyohou]

“Macau is no different. It’s unfortunate to be born in The Minor Family. A Minor means The Second. No matter how well we do, no one sees it. Why? Why was I born in this fucking family?” “Can we start all over again?” VEGAS + PETE + MACAU | KinnPorsche (2022).

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #vegaspetemacau #asianlgbtqdramas #* #faiza gifs #no they DESERVE this happiness so so so much. they have been through HELL and this is their time for peace at LONG LAST. #just ... knowing that finally FINALLY they've managed to break that cycle of abuse. that vegas' dad HAD TO DIE FOR THAT TO HAPPEN. #vegas HAD to break down for it had to lose IT ALL for it he CANNOT CARRY THAT BAGGAGE INTO THIS NEW FAMILY WITH HIM. #and pete HAD TO CHOOSE THIS IN HIS OWN TIME AT HIS OWN TERMS AND CONDITIONS. #and ugh the way these 3 are going to heal one another and give SO MUCH LOVE to one another. love feeding love with love.

[transkenobis]

accountant kaz you will always be famous to me. disclaimer i am not an accountant nor do i believe in their beliefs i was just raised by two of them

#metal gear solid #mgs #mgspw #peace walker #mgs peace walker #kazuhira miller #i come from a long long line of business majors. breaking the cycle <3 #matt draws

[sysig]

They’re perfect for each other honestly (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Simon Petrikov #Golbetty #It's not exactly Petrigrof but like - it's not Not that either lol #I'm really really happy that the show acknowledges that Simon was selfish in his and Betty's relationship - it's Very Good #And at the same time in it's small way Beth does give the concession of ''I guess that wasn't exactly [his] fault'' #They're both called out! Betty's obsession with Simon caused her own self-destruction - and she takes responsibility for it #Simon is still shafted with the consequences but it's not like Betty doesn't get her own consequences #This whole journey is just more consequences of both of their actions! Of what Betty modeled she was willing to give up! #And Simon loves her. He respects her. He was selfish and self-driven but that didn't stop her from taking root and inspiring him in return #Her being self-sacrificing and then in her own selfish way not letting Simon make the same mistakes as her I just hhhhh #They're so lovely ♥ #It's a bit matronizing of her haha but she Wants with her entire essence - she always has <3 #It's her turn to be selfish Simon has had his turn - she won't let him throw away her gift as much as he wants to #They're just both so beautifully flawed ahhhhh <3 <3 #''We made our choices. We could've made better ones but...I don't have any regrets.'' #It's about breaking the cycle! Of him rejecting making the same mistakes! It's beautiful ;; #Also all the halo imagery drives me nuts ♥ Angel bf and his cosmic goddess gf

[rithmeres]

alternate covers for the dream thieves

#the raven cycle #trc #the dream thieves #ronan lynch #almost done w the book but i had to take a 3 day break to draw the brainworms out #the leyendeckerification of my shading style.. wig #i havent drawn something (like REALLY drawn something. a whole finished piece) in literal months i think #(its the seasonal depression) #wherefore art thou

[lion-buddy]

i found a pen on the floor and have gotten 0 work done since

#i want to draw my guys #but i can only draw them when im supposed to doing something else #a vicious cycle truly </3 #to be fair ive done so much work the past week and a half... maybe i deserve a little 3 hours break idk #pc spoilers #PC

[evakant]

you know that scene that introduces us to jiang cheng in present time with jin ling and lan wangji, where we’re kind of lead to think ‘god what a dick’? yeah listen, say whatever you want but he’s actually way calmer and more diplomatic than i ever would be. if i had a kid and a dude made him shut up like that i’d deck him, no hesitation

#not to mention the fact that if it were the other way around lan wangji WOULD have attacked jiang cheng #there's genuinely no fucking doubt in my mind about it #but would jiang cheng even do it. would he? come on let's hear it #and this is me asking while fully aware of just how often he says 'shut up' in the show #i love everyone mentioned here btw i just don't particularly love that moment for lan wangji. that's like... dude... come on.. #talk about breaking the cycle or whatever #untamed.txt #jiang cheng #jin ling #you know how it is <3 #jin ling and his jiujiu #fra.txt

[hood-ex]

When Bruce cried and beat his fists bloody after Dick died... that made me unwell.

#chasing that feeeelinggg chasing that feeeeeliiiing it's all i know it's all i knooow #so anyway my brain is rapidly cycling through 3 fandoms rn and they keep inspiring each other #my tmnt thoughts inspire my batfam thoughts then i take a break w kpop but then that inspires a scene from tmnt or batfam #suffice to say i'm having a great time but i do have a headache #Bruce Wayne #Dick Grayson #Injustice (movie)

[nkogneatho]

wake up !! it's the first of da month💃🏽

#eberyvun :33 a very happy february <3 i hope this month brings you the happiest news of your life #i hope you break old cycles and get nee opportunities in life #smooching your lips ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ #mwaah mwaah :3 #pasi.txt

[fitia]

Watching people have fun with things that I am not personally interested in and then thinking that makes what I like is not very interesting is probably like. top 5 worst irrational feelings ever.

#fitiaposting #Being on here is just an endless cycle of ''oh wow other people are making things but not the things I like maybe I'm just not liking the #right things oh wait I can also make things! [and then I don't. new cycle loop] #The 3-week ''social media is bad for me'' realization before I take a whole week's break before jumping back into it obsessively phase has #begun. Need to genuinely break this habit because I am so unhappy.