#bts but as struggling kids in 2020

[luvdzu]

bts’ hyung line arguing on who raised sua for 19 minutes straight

by suazoos | march 27, 2020

hello! i’m back with a new video that features our one and only sua along with some of the many clips, of bts’ hyung line arguing on who raised sua because they’re cute like that, and they’re all precious :> also the video is 19 minutes long… sorry not sorry, there’s more btw

##CLIP ONE | bts in the soop

“Oppa!” Sua giggled as she waddled her way in the car with Suga and Jin, both who are waiting for her as she jumped at the back seat, waving and greeting the cameras before closing the door.

“I’m with my reliable oppa!~” Sua cheered at the camera as she situated herself in the back seat causing Jin to laugh at her antics.

“Wear your seatbelt Hyun-ah.” Yoongi spoke, pulling his mask down as he buckles his own seat, getting ready to drive.

Sua shuffled on the back pulling the seatbelt stuck from the top, her face scrunches up as she pulls the seatbelt harder shaking it multiple times.

“Oh? Why?” Sua let out an exasperated sigh causing the older members to turn around and look at her.

“What’s taking you long?” Jin glanced from the mirror, laughing as he watched Sua struggle to fight the seatbelt.

Yoongi smirked at the younger member, “Why are you like this Hyun-ah?” he asked in sarcasm, teasing Sua.

“You’re acting like a rookie, haven’t you been in a car ride before?” Jin shouts from the front seat before removing his seatbelt and turn around to help the younger.

“You don’t need to pull so hard, just release it from the top.” Jin showed Sua how to do it, and buckled her in her seat himself to avoid any more complications.

“Oooh oppa is so cool.” Sua giggled, doing a small dance smirking at the camera in front of her, “he’s like a boyfriend- no a father!”

Jin sat down in his seat buckling himself as Yoongi begin to drive, in the hopes to catch up to the members. “It’s like when I met you back then, I would do your seatbelt for you. Such a kid Ahn Seohyun.”

Jin sighed as Yoongi shook his head in agreement, “We were worried that Sua would begin dating other guys when she turned 20, but till this day she’s still-”

“Oppa! You can’t say that in national tv.” Sua gasped trying to change the subject, but she know they’re never going to stop teasing her anytime soon. “I have a crush, what if they see me.” Sua replies jokingly causing the members to look behind her.

“Yah! Who do you tell tell me?” Seokjin glanced at the younger from the mirror as she raised her brows, chuckling mischievously.

“It’s ARMY of course! I need to be on my best, and show off my charms.” Sua shouts to avoid any more dating allegations stacked on her name.

Yoongi sent Sua an unknowing smirk before ignoring her previous statement, “What are you talking about? ARMY’s love all your charms.”

Sua shakes her head avoiding conversation, holding back the giggles in her mouth.

“You better tell me later, send me a message right now.” Jin mumbles under his breath opening KakaoTalk to ask her.

##CLIP TWO | 150709 [bangtan bomb] late happy fairy sua day in australia

“I can’t believe it, she’s already 20 years old.” Hobi faced the camera, drying fake tears as the group huddled to surprise her.

Sua was called to film an interview after their schedule in Melbourne, which gave the boys enough time to design and surprise their hotel room with cake and balloons.

“Sua is already an adult, it’s sad to see her grow, but I’m happy of the all the things she will achieve.” Hoseok smiled at the camera before continuing to design her cake.

“What about you hyung! Suga hyung! Say something to Sua, it’s a letter for her.” Jimin ran to his direction placing the camera in front of him.

Getting his emotions ready, Suga let out a short sigh before looking at the camera, “That little squirt is already 20, how fast does time go. We’re here in our first world tour and I’m happy that she got to experience these memories and moments with us.

The first time I met Sua, she was 15 years old, such a baby, and now she’s already an adult. I’m proud of her.” Yoongi smiled softly and waved to the camera, before continuing to help the rest of the members.

Moving on, Jimin went to Namjoon to ask him to send Sua a message. “Sua, when we first met you were so small, and I showed you around BigHit, you were timidly following behind me, and now you’re walking on a flowery path.

I wish you all the best, and I hope you enjoy your time as an adult. Remember that the members are here with you, and together we will walk together. Happy birthday Sua!”

Namjoon smiles before sending a finger heart to the camera, before Jimin smiles, leaving him to find the rest of the members and their messages.

##CLIP THREE | 150508 [bangtan bomb] after KBS Music Bank 1st Place

“This,” Sua placed the trophy in front of her with stained lips from Tae’s antics, “this is my early coming-of-age-present. Which is coming in 15 days!”

Sua shake the award in front of the camera before staring at in, honey dripping from her eyes. “I’m so so happy. This is our first award and woah, it’s just shocking. I’m shaking right now.”

Sua shows the camera as Seokjin walks from behind you, “Are you okay Hyun-ah?” Seokjin rubs her shoulders comforting her as she show him her shaking hand.

“I’m still processing the whole thing, you know, our first win. It’s nice, I- I didn’t think we would win. Thank you ARMY!~” Sua smiles pulling Seokjin inside the frame and pose with her.

“I’m so proud of you!” Seokjin smiled at Sua and pat her head lovingly, pinching the sides of her cheeks.

Turning around, Seokjin faced the camera saying, “I can’t believe I’m here to witness Sua grow up as an idol. I raised her you know.”

Namjoon, who was walking near him, listened to the conversation and nodded his head behind Jin, pointing to himself and mouth the words, “me too”.

“Sua has become a lovely girl, and when I let her she was so adorable and sweet.” Seokjin spoke, showering Sua with compliments.

“I met her first! I met Sua back then, even before Yoongi and Hoseok!”

##CLIP FOUR | [BTS 꿀 FM 06.13] 2nd BTS birthday ‘BTS FESTA 2015’

“Okay it’s time for Sua’s segment.” Yoongi flipped his script as the members scoot over to push Sua on Yoongi’s right side.

“I have a segment? What is this?” Sua laughed awkwardly looking at the other members.

“Yes, this is for your coming-of-age celebration preparation time!!” Yoongi spoke quickly causing the members to laugh at him.

“Of course, in our room, Sua keeps talking about having plans for her birthday.” Seokjin added.

“So, Sua, tell us- well me and hyung already know but tell the other members.” Yoongi gestured to the rest of the members, eyes never leaving the female.

“Ohhh, I want to go to a park! Maybe we can hang out outside the dorm? I can treat you out because I saved some of my allowance, I can’t go home either and my parents will be sending me money I think?

I can treat you, we can eat meat at the restaurant near BigHit, after practice! But, I don’t know if we have a schedule or not, so maybe we can celebrate earlier or later, it’s okay to me, as long as we celebrate it together.” Sua ended her statement with a smile as the members cheered at her promising plans.

“It’ll be in a month right? Your birthday?” Jungkook spoke beside her.

“Yeah, perhaps, did you forget when my birthday is?” Sua asked, playing sad as Jungkook frantically waved saying he knows.

“Sua is growing well, let’s hope we don’t have any schedule’s planned during your birthday.” Hoseok spoke before closing Sua’s segment and moving on to a different topic.

##CLIP FIVE | 170921 BTS Comeback Show DNA

“Sua’s DNA?” Jin tilted his head to the side, and the first words that come out of his mouth are, “my child”

“I practically raised her.” Yoongi shrugs his shoulders, unfazed as he mumbles staring at the camera.

“A baby?” Namjoon chuckles with a big grin flashed on his face.

“Did the other hyungs say Sua is their child?” Hoseok looked at Jungkook from behind the camera as he jumps and laughs along with Hoseok.

“Ahh, I knew it, these hyungs. Seohyun’s mother! Hello, I’m J-Hope.” Hoseok bowed in front of the camera causing Jungkook to laugh behind the camera.

“Are you introducing yourself hyung?” Jungkook asked.

“Yes, I also helped raising your daughter, but thank you for giving birth to her.” Hoseok smiles at the camera before bursting into a fit of laughter.

“Sua is my child, I fed her, and made her food when she was in high school. You were there!” Seokjin shouts as Jungkook nods his head in agreement. “You made us lunchboxes hyung! Noona and I would eat them together.”

“Hyung would say he raised Sua, but I also raised her! I gave her pocket money so she can hang out with her friends after class.” Yoongi nods his head, full of pride for Sua.

“You never gave me pocket money hyung!” Jungkook shouts from the back of the camera, “You said you didn’t have friends?” Yoongi retorts causing Jungkook to scoff at his reply.

“Just so you know I shared the money with Kookie.” Sua spoke from the back leaving Yoongi shocked. “What!”

##CLIP SIX | bon voyage 2

“To Sua,

Ahn Seohyun, you’ve grown so much, not just as an idol, but also as a person. How fast the time goes by, when I met you seven years ago, you were but a child, an 8th grader to be exact. When I met you, I just felt the need to take care of you, it was a natural instinct that came over me, and I fed you and helped you especially when you still had classes.

I’m glad you stayed around, and stuck with us seven. I’m proud of you, and how far you’ve come. I’m sorry if I became a burden to you, if I nag a lot and scold you, know that it is out of love, and I’m glad you’re understanding of not just me but to all of us.

There must be a lot of pressure on your shoulders right now? If so just know you can lean on me, and the rest of the members when you’re tired. We can help you ease the burden, and we’re ready to help you.

All the responsibilities that was given to you at a young age, I’m glad you pushed through and worked hard, if not as twice as hard as me. Sua, who never gave up to all the problems that arises. thank you for everything, I’ve learned so much from you, and the wisdom you impart to the team.

Ahn Seohyun, you are special to us. Thank you for being a part of this team, and to see you grow into a fine woman. I am filled with pride to be a part of your journey. i love you.”

##CLIP SEVEN | #2018BTSFESTA

“Who taught you to drink?” Yoongi drawled as he watches Sua take a shot of alcohol.

“I’m bad at drinking though, I only drank once with Jin-oppa, after the Red Bullet Tour? We went out to celebrate and he poured me a drink.” Sua explained as her face scrunched up to the burn of the alcohol down her throat.

“Woah! You went out on a drink with hyung? How come we never knew this, you went out all along with hyung?” Hoseok chided, asking for more details to this unknown scenario.

“Yes, we went and oppa gave me a glass of soju, it was horrible, I didn’t like it, so I never drank in front of you guys.” Sua shrugged it off, ignoring the fact that she’s been drinking before without the boys knowing.

“Why didn’t you call me instead?” Yoongi pouts feeling sad you went with Jin instead.

“Because you were in the studio after the tour remember? And we didn’t plan on getting drinks we were just eating dinner that one time.”

Yoongi shook his head in disappointment, “I can’t believe our Sua can drink by herself already.”

His statement causing the members to laugh at him, “Yah! Hyung what are you talking about?’

"I can drink alright, I thought you guys knew though.” Sua tilted her head sideways thinking of the time she told them before.

“I can’t believe I’m witnessing you drinking for the first time and you’re so nonchalant about it.” Yoongi rolled his eyes in a playful notion as Sua giggled at his actions.

“Let’s get a drink together, I’ll treat you out!” Sua shouts from the other side of the table as the members holler and cheer.

“Woaaah she’s going to treat you out hyung!!!.”

“Can I come with the both of you?”

“How come you only invite Yoongi? Do you forget we’re also here?”

“No, you don’t have to pay. I’ll pay like a cool older brother, just like I always have.” yoongi brushed it off coolly.

“I can’t believe Sua is already at the age where she can go out drinking, she’s growing old.” Namjoon mumbled feeling sentimental.

“What are you saying oppa? It’s been years since I can drink!” Sua laughed from her seat, “You’re acting like I drink all the time, this is probably the third time I drank alcohol.”

“You’re still a baby Seohyun-ah!’ Namjoon shouts all of the sudden making Sua giggle at him.

"Oppa, are you drunk already?”

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[bengiyo]

If you had to pick one film that was your favorite from each unit of your Queer Cinema Syllabus, which ones would they be and why?

The Queer Cinema Syllabus grew out of a conversation that @shortpplfedup and I were having about what queer works I would show to a prospective BL fan, which eventually led to the creation of @the-conversation-pod. Captain Hands here has decided to run the gauntlet and has reached Unit 2.

Unit 1: Coming of Age Post-Moonlight

It's definitely Pariah (2011). This movie and Moonlight (2016) are having a complex conversation about Blackness and Queerness that feels so resonant to me. It's so rare that we see lesbians of any sort treated with this much complexity and sympathy in a contemporary setting. The complex web of lesbian interactions here isn't matched that often, and the only other movie that comes to mind it The Watermelon Woman (1996).

Unit 2: Race, Disability, and Class

Probably The Way He Looks (2014) because it's an easy layup to introduce folks to the genre. The intersection between Leo's blindness and his queerness gives the newer person multiple things to think about and forces them to consider how queer people are more than just their queerness. I also feel warmly about this film because it was a project we followed all the way from short film to movie, and I love that we were able to get the entire cast back.

Unit 3: Faith and Religion

You haven't gotten here, but this is where things start to get especially heavy. I think for this section I'm going with The Wise Kids (2011) because I really like the way Stephen Cone approaches the struggle with faith queer and non-queer people have in evangelical spaces. There's an honesty that I really admire. This is not an easy film, but it's lingered with me for over a decade.

Unit 4: Heartbreak Alley

This is the section of straight losses. I don't know that I ever want to watch it again, but I would probably select Bent (1997) as my favorite because the idea that we could still love even in the greatest of horrors spoke to me. I also think the performances in this adaptation are phenomenal.

Unit 5: Lesbians

I think we just passed Lesbian Visibility Day, so happy birthday, lesbians! This is actually a difficult selection because there are so many great films in this section. I think, today, I'm giving it to The Handmaiden (2016), but I almost chose Bound (1996).

Unit 6: Gems

I don't even need to look to know Big Eden (2000) is in this section. This section whips ass all around, but Big Eden is my favorite because there's just so much love all over this movie, and every new fact I learn about the BTS of it makes me love it more. Arye Gross and Eric Shweig did not have to go as hard as they did in this movie. The director left that choice to them a veteran actors and they did that 23 years ago. Nothing but admiration and respect. This is one of my most beloved films.

Unit 7: Asian Film Warm-up

This is a difficult selection because I think it depends on my mood, but for now, I'll go with The Stranger by the Shore (2020). This is a very Japanese take on second-chance romance. I like the way Japan approaches the quiet internalized homophobia that grips us. Some of the same things in Minato's Laundromat can be found here. It's also gorgeous and approaches sex in a frank way that I really loved.

Unit 8: Yaoi

Once again I don't even need to look to know that it's Yuri!!! On Ice (2016). This show is so goddamn gay. I know people feel like it was censored because of the kiss, but these two proposed to each other. It's what sports anime wishes it could be with the open queerness on display from so many characters. It's beautiful and so much fun.

Unit 9: Boys Love

I will not be selecting a favorite BL, but I will say that I really love The Boy Foretold by the Stars (2020) and it's a movie. I loved that we had a femme lead for once and that they explored what faith meant for femmes. It's a film that took the romantic lead's gay awakening very seriously and explored what being together might look like in a sequel called Love Beneath the Stars.

I'm looking forward to you completing the syllabus!

#answered #lgbt film #pariah #the way he looks #the boy foretold by the stars #the wise kids #bent #yuri!!! on ice #the stranger by the shore #big eden #the handmaiden #queer cinema syllabus

[soobpricity]

how does it feel though? like going to a concert is soo cool but i've never gotten the chance to go to one other than when i was like.. eight listening to spanish singers on stage. but i barely remember that 😭😭 i'm usually on the stage rather than in the audience but even being in the audience sounds so?? appealing??

and even with post-concert depression you have to realize how cool it is so even have gone in the first place. to see someone you admire so much in front of you and so tangible. (?)

txt on stage gives out such a powerful energy and that can be seen from just photos and videos so being there in person probably felt so much better. even if you're back at home, there's still that thought that you saw them just a few meters away and are one of the many moas that txt admires dearly ^-^

wait 😨😨 cause i remember being a little kid and my parents would take us to fairs and stuff like that just to see like un banda performing !! but concerts are so much different, ive been to two western concerts : harry styles and the 1975. and theyre soo different from kpop concerts. kpop concerts are so much fun !! i’ve been to see bts, txt, and twice !! going to see txt has been the best experience ever !! like i admire them so much and being able to see them perform on stage, like you can tell that they were born to perform !

i feel like this is why post concert depression sucks so much !! because like i can barely believe that i was there to see txt !! like i started stanning txt back in july of 2020 and going from online concerts at 3 am to live concerts, it was so unbelievable !! i actually went to see txt for act: lovesick and i like literally can’t believe that i went !! and one thing that still feels like a fever dream is going to las vegas to see bts ptd and seeing txt twice in a row in san antonio !!

hehe !! i love this, because being able to support txt in person is so much fun! like i love being able to support txt and being there felt like they knew how much support they’re getting from moas, but txt loves every single moa !! and im glad i got to receive the kind of love that they give, they deserve all the love they can get too !! but yeah, whenever i feel kinda sad, i just find myself rewatching those videos and photos because it just kind of makes me happy to feel like there may be times where i don’t feel loved but txt sings songs about having courage and feeling loved which really just fulfills me, y’know ?? like they sing about the struggles that we go through and i love that ! but yeah txt is definitely my youth 🤭🤭

#rambles 🫂 #asks ~🏷️

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP I sent you an ask abt this topic months ago & I understand why you didn't post it. I've been following you since last year, I love how you approach topics & I know you hate stupid drama. My ask was a bit controversial & I get why you didn't post it. But I saw sth today again that I can't forget. So I'm asking you again & I'll add more info to it so pls give me your honest answer.

I'm 36 years old, from Romania but now living in Germany. I got into kpop at 2020 through BTS & quickly fell down the rabbit hole. Then I discovered other idols I like Weeekly, Stray Kids, Exo, Girls Generation, Tayeon, Shinee, Super Junior, TXT, Nct & some others. Kpop was big world for me & made me happy with the new concepts & personalities. My father was very abusive & I've struggled with suicidal ideations for most of my life. BTS love yourself music made me go back to therapy. I consumed their music from the beginning because the thought of No More Dream & me not having to have dreams, lifted a weight off me. Funnyly, not feeling obligated to have dreams made me find my dream of working with special needs people. I feel more fulfilled than I've ever felt. I thank BTS because their music was to sincere it reached me. My bias is Jungkook but I understand why he fell for RM. His struggles with mental health sounded like my own. His honesty in those topics was like he opened my head & written down my thoughts. I have shared this on twitter before & some people did not respond well. This is when I sent you the ask before but I understand if you didn't want to say your mind at that time. But BPP, I shared this in a kpop discord today & some people shut me down again. They told me BTS only sang abt mental health because their company had no money for other topics. They told me it was marketing strategies. They said Hybe surveyed fans for mental illnesses & only made music abt mental health because the fandom is sick. When I tried to mention RM & his older songs they got even more angry.

I was shocked & hurt. I left the discord. The shocking thing for me is it was my friend who was saying it. I thought she of all people wld understand because she is a fan of Shinee. I thought she wld understand how important mental health is for me & for people. I tried to share BTS lyrics but they did not care & the more I shared the more they mocked me. I don't understand this reaction. It hurt me & made me question everything. Which survey are they talking abt? Was it before No More Dream? They made it sound like I was stupid to believe BTS truly wrote abt their mental health. They said nobody in BTS truly cares abt this topic & Hybe only marketed the topic to fans for money. I know it's stupid but I feel hurt & confused. My Shinee friend was so angry I don't understand her reaction at all. I'm trying to think through the songs. I know marketing is something Hybe did but every singer does marketing. Does it mean the songs are not sincere? Can not both things be true together?

**

Hi Anon,

This was... hard to read, but I appreciate you taking the time to write out your thoughts. I vaguely remember the ask you sent earlier and I ignored it because around that time, I was getting asks that appeared written obviously to bait, and because your ask mentioned a multi / anti dismissing your experience (and goading you into self harm?), it seemed too on the nose with drama happening elsewhere at the time so I deleted it. Now I realize that was a mistake, so I'm sorry.

I doubt this is news for you following your experience, but the default thinking of k-pop stans is to reduce BTS's music and their own comments about their music, to marketing or something otherwise orchestrated by the company without significant input from BTS. This is the reasoning you'll see several k-pop stans espouse no matter the platform you're on, and I've seen this said about BTS since their debut regardless of the topic or music concept. K-pop stans' own experiences with their own favourite groups in k-pop - groups that do in fact rely overwhelmingly on mediaplay, marketing, and music written by a company for idols, are what informs their views so try not to take anything they say personally. These people can only speak based on what they know.

About the Love Yourself series in particular being the result of marketing or a fan survey:

Personally, I question the intelligence of anyone who offers such a reductive explanation. It's really that simple. Like if you actually understand what this industry is, if you have all the facts at your disposal, if you're aware of the environment in which BTS operated first as South Koreans after the economic crash and as under-supported idols in that industry, and your conclusion is that the Love Yourself musical direction was primarily a marketing gimmick, there's no choice for me but to question your intelligence.

One thing you'll never see me making light of, is an idol speaking about the mental toll this business takes on them, or of the artist grappling with what that means for them. However they express those thoughts, I'll take it, regardless of whether or not it meets more elaborate or insightful expressions I've seen in other artists.

You will not find me trivializing it in any way, shape, or form.

There's already too much cynicism in this industry, and the clinical approach with which Western commentators dissect minority artists, is all too familiar to me. It reeks of something... rancid.

And this is besides the fact that too often, these commentators are also willfully ignorant of the background the artists are coming from that informs their music, and nowhere will you see this more often than with BTS.

I recall the asks I was getting earlier this year about Jin's Proof clip comments, how many people completely missed the lyrical references to Moon - the most personal fan song he'd written at that time, according to him. Then to see those themes reiterated in The Astronaut, written by Jin and Coldplay, and once again the lyrical references he's consistently made about the fans' impact on his growth, going completely over their heads.

Dismissal of BTS's lyrics frustrates me especially because more than anything else, the thing that has always set BTS apart from the rest of their peers and the industry, even before their breakout on the international front in 2017, is their lyrical expression. Like, most of the people who are K-ARMYs today, became ARMYs because of what BTS were singing about and how they sang about it. It was not common for idols to write their own lyrics. So BTS mostly writing their own lyrics, noting what they were writing about and the stigma it still very much carried... it sometimes blows my mind that even now, a lot of people really don't understand how much of a gamble this approach was for them in terms of pure commercial results given the status quo at the time.

It's times like that I wish that either BTS were fluent English speakers with an American background so those references would carry over easier, or that only Korean people were exposed to BTS. Because at some point, the ignorance is almost painful for me to witness. And this is me being 100% honest.

**

Anyway, the simple answer to your question of what exactly happened to you in that discord, is that you're simply watching people respond to the incentives the k-pop industry provides. Exploring mental health issues and the relationships idols have with those who have influenced them including fans, is deep and meaningful when an artist they like and respect explores this topic, and banal and vapid when an artist they typically pick apart, does the same. Again, when I talk about how competition informs virtually every aspect of k-pop, this is yet another example of what I mean. Shawols and multis are not immune to this, and neither are ARMYs. Anon, I understand how hurtful your experience was, but please recognize it for what it is and don't take it personally.

The survey your Shawol friend is referring to is a marketing survey BigHit uploaded on October 1, 2017 - I've linked that full survey here. That this survey was a HYBE-orchestrated mass propaganda event which created the Love Yourself series and made BTS talk about mental health, is a common myth you'll find in k-pop spaces where people don't know how to count.

The Love Yourself: Her album was released on September 18, 2017 and BTS had mentioned preparing for that album, including writing the songs on it, since December 2015 - ~2 years before the survey. And of course BTS had been exploring those topics since before their debut in 2013.

To quote an ARMY who has exhaustively debunked this myth 3 years ago, 'mental health' is not even the primary focus of the Love Yourself album series "as Namjoon explained in every interview, the idea behind love yourself is that true love (her) cannot last (tear) without honesty, courage & self-love, which should be celebrated (answer)."

The contents of the survey itself didn't deviate much from the bi-annual BTS fancafe membership surveys (asking about age, country background, how you discovered BTS, etc), typical MBTI questions (such as those BTS themselves answered in their 2022 Seasons Greetings - quiz questions that are typically popular with Korean teens), and fan quizzes sometimes done around Festa (such as the Festa exams last year). On old BPP I wrote a detailed post about that survey so if this is something you're interested in reading, let me know and I'll dig it up to repost.

**

Anon, I'm sorry the interactions you've had with some k-pop fans affected you so negatively in an area you already feel vulnerable in. I'm not sure the exact nature of your friendship with this Shinee fan, but you're a 36 year old woman who has developed a passion for helping some of the most vulnerable people, you're a big girl doing good in your community, and who happens to have found comfort and joy in BTS's music. You don't have to engage with people who treat you and what you love spitefully for no good reason. Decide for yourself if it's worth it remaining in that space, and act in a way that prioritizes your peace of mind.

And stream The Astronaut. I'm sure you'll be fine.

Good luck. 💜

#fandom behavior #bts army #army fandom #army multis #kpop industry #kpop fandom #bts marketing #bts love yourself

[amiharana]

If asks are still open for it, 🩹 and 🏠 for the music ask game!! (Also hii sorry I’m super shy and stuff but I also just wanted to say all ur revalink stuff is like. Actually the coolest ever. Sorry, just wanted to say ur epic 🦆👍)

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🩹 A song you want to hear when you're feeling low

i'll give you two for this one because i have one permanent comfort song and one song i've been listening to recently since i have been feeling low

trivia seesaw by bts: this song is actually just a solo song by the bts member suga, but it's actually the Song Ever for me. like i'm not shitting you, when this song first came out back in 2018 and i was a baby army, i was obsessed with it immediately and it's been my top song on spotify almost every year. musically, it's very soothing and kinda neutralizes all my emotions i guess? this is my go-to song for when i'm having a breakdown or feeling unstable for that reason. this song is has a lot of importance to me and the lyrics always remind me that i need to prioritize myself and put myself first, so that my relationships in life aren't always an unbalanced seesaw with me always being the one who puts in the work.

00:00 by bts: remember how i mentioned that 'trivia seesaw' has been my top spotify song for almost every year? yeah well, this song (and another bts song LMFAODFKJD) is the reason for that. this was my top song in 2020 because the pandemic was rough for me. it's not as bad as you think but it's also a little personal so i won't talk about it here, but this song got me through how terrible the beginning of the pandemic was. i implore you all to have a listen and a look at the lyrics for this song because it's has a beautiful meaning. for me, the song is like a reminder that even if one day goes wrong and i'm not feeling good, there's always another chance in tomorrow. it's like the day starts over at midnight, because in military time, midnight is 00:00! this song is also the primary reason why my phone clock is in military time LOL that way when it turns midnight where i am, my phone displays 00:00 as the time ^_^

🏠 A song you could live inside

dahil mahal kita by the boyfriends: another obligatory filipino promotion 🇵🇭 i was born in america but this song reminds me of when i was a kid :] like this reminds me of the type of music my dad enjoys and i would always listen to music with him as a kid. the foundation of my music taste comes from him ig? and there's always going to be a struggle when you're a poc american, because you can never truly embody both ethnic identities very well; i'm too filipino to be accepted by americans, and i'm probably too american to be accepted by filipinos lol. all i have to connect me to my heritage as a filipino is the language, the music, and the food. so songs like this one makes me feel more connected to the motherland and my heritage as filo ❤️

#ask #ask game #ilikebirdsouo #i started listening to ligaya by eraserheads after this #another notable filipino song i remember singing as a kid was the fucking. “don't touch my birdie” song KJDHFKDJHF #sorry if ur a bts hater oomfie but i'm purple blooded fr #these asks remind me i have to go listen to d-day

[andressa-vera]

End Of The Magic Shop With 방탄.

Close your eyes. We are going back to the time, When it all began…

Everything was… normal. Things weren’t bad, neither were they good. No, who am I kidding? It was horrible. The murkiness of everything. The gore of what was left behind after the good was scraped out- everything was confusing and twisted.

I heard this term by my friend. Nothing sparked. Nothing interesting. Nothing too touching. Nothing too deep.

It was one of the times where I hid them all, veiled them over with yellow and optimism, molded myself into an extroverted, happy little girl.

It was alright. I dealt with it easily. I lived with it for ages.

I was fine.

Until one day, I got introduced to it.

BTS.

I heard this term by my friend. Nothing sparked. Nothing interesting. Nothing too touching. Nothing too deep.

It was just a source for enjoying the slip of time. The catchy cords and the rhythm. The perfection of a visual, with the word “perfection” emphasized.

As time flowed away, the perfection lured me in. It was a dark devil, entwining it's slender hands along my neck, pulling me closer into the forbidden world.

Because I was imperfect myself.

Because I was nothing special.

Because they make me feel special.

I grew closer to someone I never knew. I felt like a sister, a friend, a lover. Of someone who doesn't acknowledge my existence, of someone who doesn't even love me back as an individual.

But I was lured into it.

Time passed. Each day I learnt something new. I was slowly becoming a better me- and at the same time, slowly being engulfed into the new realm, a new world.

The one who told me to love myself;

The one who made every hard situation feel easy, made me sport a smile on my face;

The one who made me think that life might be hard, but things can turn out great later on;

The one who made me know that a persona can hide all the pain;

The one who told me to embrace my imperfections and to not be caught in a lie;

The one who told me, “A happy person has the right to change”;

The one who told me, “Being perfect has it’s price”;

I was drawn into many personas, many scenarios; I laughed along, shed tears, grew in rage, and shrank in pity.

It was nice.

To know how beautifully,

The aftermath turned out,

It wasn’t a curse anymore,

Rather a bitter-sweet blessing.

Why was it so difficult?

A glimpse of their face made a shiver run through my spine. I still remember staring at the loading screen of “BTS WORLD”, mesmerized by the fun facts, the background songs used in the game, namely, Go Go and DNA, and during each member’s transition, my heart actually skipped a beat.

My feed suddenly transformed- any video of them made me feel…it was indescribable- I felt a tap in each vertebrae, my hands shivered and there was a feeling of Euphoria…

I was dragged and lured into biting the apple- the sinned apple; Fiction mixed with reality, often with bad grammar, took me to the second realm- of darkness, murkiness; I traded my innocence for sin. (Credits; Demian- Hermann Hesse.)

I felt… happy. I was passionate to attack the one who thrashed BTS. I was distressed because of people not giving the respect and love they deserve, instead dwell in racism, jealousy, annoyance and self-respect.

Come here, I'm your paradise Can't close your eyes Can't close your eyes Even if I struggle, it will be useless anymore (Don't reject me) Just close your eyes and listen.

Days passed- a plague stroke me.

As I got normalized and familiar with BTS, so did their persona.

They changed.

“BTS changed in 2020. They aren’t the same anymore. They changed.”

“I used to stan BTS but they changed.”

“BTS is getting too westernized and the armies are being too toxic. I like SKZ now.”

“BTS is mature now- they changed and now the company is controlling them.”

‘Nowadays it is just a money-making strategy.”

“Boring now. I ain’t an army anymore like before when I was a huge fan of Jin, which I am not, as I have moved on to Twice.”

The fandom became bigger, but I felt more lonely. The usual crack channels subsided and lost views. There were many posts on how people changed from being an ARMY. The BTS profile photos were discarded. The spaces dedicated to it, the answers, the discussions, the servers; despite the increase in views, things aren’t the same anymore.

I am afraid of change.

An angel at times, a demon at another.

Something which I cannot swallow or comprehend.

“Change.”

I am not ready to accept change,

So when will my time come?

The consequence?

I was deeply affected now.

I heard this term by my friend. Nothing sparked. Nothing interesting. Nothing too touching. Nothing too deep.

I wasn’t fazed. I was brought into a new world, a broader dimension of K-Pop. I didn’t care, or think about it.

I was unknowingly being dragged out of the spectacular world of BTS.

“Jeongyeon is amazing- I love that pixie hair and her personality!”

“I am simping over Hyunjin!”

“Stop bashing Wendy- She is the queen. Period.”

I was eating my lunch. A normal day.

Dolphin by Soobin and Arin

1:05 ───|────── 2:53

|◁ II ▷|

∞ ↺ ▁ ▂ ▃ ▄ ▅ ▆ █ 100 %

Playing next-

We are Bulletproof- The Eternal

0:05 |───────── 4:53

|◁ II ▷|

∞ ↺

▁ ▂ ▃ ▄ ▅ ▆ █ 100 %

My heart skipped a beat.

I was shivering.

This song-

Oh, it has been months since I have experienced this feeling.

I was aware of what I did.

A feeling of hopelessness and guilt engulfed me.

No, it was horrible. Just… horrible.

I miss the bliss and excitement when I hear about BTS, listen to their songs, or watch their videos.

It was me forgetting about BTS.

Euphoria. Bliss. Frenzy. Hysteria. Passion.

Pensive. Reflective. Contemplative. Musing.

Blue and Grey. Green and Red. Pink. Purple.

Yellow and Pink. Red, Green. Blue. Blue and Grey.

Reminiscing in my past, I cannot believe how I have let go of something which I cherished in the past; something I held onto for tranquility and peace when my whole mind was drowned in frenzy and hysteria.

I was sad to find out that. I changed as a person. A lot.

Change. She is evil.

She is a blessing.

Either ways, she was unacceptable.

When will I fall in your arms again?

When will I ever experience the chilling warmth that was once considered as a “hindrance” to my life?

When will I ever come back to you,

And sustain the overwhelming connection we had before?

I guess the answer to it is… simple. But hard to comprehend.

The happiness that blossomed in me, is just a new “normal”.

Normal.

Quite normal.

The beauty is nowhere to be seen. It is plain. Bland. Out of taste.

I just glance at them. I do not care. I just do it for the sake of being called a ‘fan”.

The beats, the rhythm, the cords, the thump of the song now doesn’t touch my heart anymore. It used to to create a sensation of ecstasy, but now, it’s just some voices, some sounds, bunched together to form a song- it doesn’t slap me in the face anymore.

The passion stripped away from me.

I was once a girl, who longed to pursue her future in the fields of art.

The seven fallen angels- they inspired and tempted me to not walk on a path that was left unchosen but already built for me, but to build my own path.

What did that mean?

My parents insisted on making a path for me, a future no one chose, for me. But I wasn’t satisfied- I did not want to give in to their needs; I just wanted to build a path for myself- though it is difficult, it isn’t impossible and I might even reach the end of land- but nonetheless, it was what I preferred, and I might not regret it.

But can the depth of the music and the men last so long?

What I would give for the moment again- just me and BTS, those genuine and heartwarming moments of bliss, but now, nothing can be done, as change has already inflicted upon me- it was an act of fate, and no matter how much I plead and beg… oh, does fate listen?

It’s all gone now.

The beat slips away little by little

I can’t put on an easy face

I keep forgetting familiar lyrics

There’s nothing going my way

Yes, it’s all in the past

Even talking to myself, it’s not easy

Is it my fault? Is it my wrong?

Only my echo, comes with in no answer.

But oh, I do know why-

Because like they say,

Life Goes On,

So does every moment, every memory washed up in the sea,

And the memory of you and me,

Will stay,

Forever, Forgotten.

Afterword.

Pity. She thought she could latch onto it and twist the fate to her desire. Pity. She lost it forever, and in the process, lost herself. 

[yoongerinelove]

Like home

Author’s note: this is the VERY FIRST fanfiction I have ever written. And it’s the first creative thing I’ve written since . . . middle school? I used to want to be a writer but I became self-conscious and perfectionistic (not super helpful for a wannabe writer), so I stopped writing. Recently I was inspired to revisit this old hobby of mine and decided to try writing something that was free of any pressure whatsoever and ta-da! now I have this overly self-indulgent beginning of a story. I am actually a pediatric psychologist and this is my fantasy of a meet-cute with Yoongi. I discovered BTS in early 2020 as I was really struggling with my job and then the pandemic made things even more difficult. I was living alone, 4 hours away from family, during a pandemic that put even more pressure on a job that was already burning me out. BTS became one of the few sources of joy  at the time and I truly believe they helped me out of one of the worst periods of my life. I have written more about this fantasy life with Yoongi (including some smut), but it’s not even close to a cohesive story and there is no point other than to practice writing. Again, this is the first thing I’ve written in decades and I have NO IDEA how to use Tumblr, so I’d love any feedback or even just to hear how BTS has helped you. Take care!

It was a typical Thursday. I trudged through my door and dropped my bags, exhausted. My work used to energize me, but I had been feeling more and more drained at the end of the week. I rubbed my temples, trying to soothe a headache that had been building all day, as I walked toward the kitchen to try to scrounge up something to eat. I willed myself to focus on the present moment and not think about having to go back to work in the morning. Am I burning out? Are the decades of hustling through undergrad, graduate school, internship, postdoctoral fellowship, and licensing all catching up to me? I was so singularly focused on my goal for so long, did I ever stop to ask myself if the goal still made me happy? The timer for my rice dinged me back to reality. Thoughts like this were creeping in more and more recently. Thoughts like “am I happy?” often followed and sent me on a path straight toward an existential crisis. “Tomorrow will be different,” I reminded myself, remembering that a famous band was going to visit our unit to meet the kids. It would definitely be different from the norm, which was at least something.

I woke up feeling nervous. I took a bit of extra time getting ready in the morning, applying a bit of concealer and blush when I would normally only wear mascara. Morning rounds went smoothly, but there was definitely a noticeable buzz in the air. A positive buzz, which was rare on the children’s oncology unit. I tried to enjoy the moment, but I found myself pacing in my office during the late morning. I’m always nervous when I meet new people and these new people had cameras with them. I reminded myself that it was for the kids and took a deep breath in through my nose to slow my heart rate. A loud knock on my office door snapped me back to reality. I opened the door to one of the nurses smiling brightly, “BTS is here to see you!” I pulled the door all the way open and in walked about a dozen people.

I picked out the seven members instantly, as well as three people with cameras, a few makeup artists, and what I presumed to be a manager or two. I backed up and leaned against my desk. My office was big enough to hold everyone, but I started to feel stifled as I breathed in slowly through my nose again. I smiled and said “welcome, I’m Dr. Y/L/N, thank you all so much for coming.” The tallest one, RM, whose name I learned after extensive quizzing from the kids, smiled a sweet, dimpled smile and said “thank you for inviting us, it’s a privilege to be here, I’m RM.” I paused and scanned the faces in the room for the other 6 that were familiar to me after weeks of memorization drills. “You’re RM, of course,” I scanned all the way to the right “and you’re Jin, J-hope, V, Jimin, Suga, and Jungkook,” they each smiled and nodded in turn. “Welcome to the hospital, we are so pleased to have you. I’m the lead psychologist on the unit. I’m not sure if you read my letter, but we are very big BTS fans on this unit.” RM nodded, “we did read it and it was very touching.” The rest of the guys nodded. “Your music really is healing,” I explained, “we listen to it all the time in group. It started about a year ago when I asked the kids to bring in a song that expressed a feeling they weren’t able to express with their own words. One girl brought in ‘Ugh’ and explained that the lyrics were about feeling righteous anger at actual injustice, rather than petty things, and she said it perfectly explained how she felt listening to her friends complain about homework as she had to go through chemotherapy. I was astounded and went home to listen to the song and read the translated lyrics and it was just amazing. Since then, BTS songs have been a regular part of our group therapy, so thank you all for writing such meaningful music.” A deep yet soft voice responded, “it’s really nice to hear that people can gain strength from these songs.” I scanned the room and saw that it was Suga speaking, dark eyes sparkling over a lopsided grin. He continued, “sometimes I wonder if people actually understand what we’re trying to communicate when we write them, but this is really validating.” A few of the members looked surprised at Suga’s words, RM even had an eyebrow cocked. “I can’t tell you how excited our kids are to meet you all,” I paused for a moment and inhaled slowly, “and I want to let you all know that today might be a tough day for you. A lot of people really struggle after being on a kids’ cancer floor, I definitely did when I started here. It’s OK to feel sad and angry, but please try to stay as positive in front of the kids as possible.” They all nodded emphatically, but I could see some concern on their faces. “We can debrief after your visit and I’m here for whatever you need. I’m just so thankful that you’re here.” I smiled brightly and reviewed a few more expectations before we headed out the door.

After the visit everyone crowded back into my office. I could see tears in a few of their eyes as I quietly passed around a tissue box. “I really can’t tell you how appreciative I am, it’s been a while since we’ve felt that sort of energy and positivity on this unit,” I paused to give them time to come back to the moment. “Here’s my card,” I handed a card to everyone in the room, “please do not hesitate to call or email if you want to talk about this, I know how hard it can be. I just hope you can be comforted by the fact that you all brought so much joy to those children today.” I made sure to look each person in the eye as I shook their hands, trying to communicate just how thankful I was for their trip. Once they had all shuffled out of the door, I sank into my office chair and let out a long breath that I didn’t realize I had been holding.

That night I walked into my home and felt exhausted, but it was a different kind of exhaustion than the one to which I had grown accustomed. I made dinner absentmindedly as I reflected on the day’s activities. While waiting for water to boil, I pulled out my phone and checked my work email out of habit. I had one new message from “Min Yoongi” that read “Hi Dr. Y/L/N, it’s Suga from BTS. Thank you for having us at the hospital today, it was an eye-opening experience. I wanted to ask if you are free to meet sometime to talk about what you do? I’m very interested in psychology and would really like to talk to you about it. We’re in town for a little while, so there’s no rush. Hope to hear from you soon.” My heart sped up a little bit, this superstar was interested in MY job? How funny. I dashed off a reply offering to meet him at a coffee shop on Friday after my morning shift at the hospital. To my surprise, I got a quick response back agreeing to meet the next day.

I walked in and scanned the small coffee shop and saw a handful of tech-types hunched over laptops. I saw a figure in a black baseball cap and dark clothes in a booth on in the back corner, next to the windows. He looked up and I could see Suga smiling behind round-rimmed glasses underneath the ball cap. “Hi Suga, I’m so sorry I’m late, my meeting ran over,” I said almost breathlessly, as I had power walked from my car. He smiled and said “it’s no problem, I’ve only been here a minute or two. Also, you can call me Yoongi, that’s my real name.” I felt my heart speed up a little, almost like it was a privilege to call him by his real name. “Well Yoongi, since I’m late, it’s my treat,” I said as I grabbed for my wallet. “No no, I’m the one who asked you here, it’s my treat,” he insisted, pushing my wallet away, “what would you like?” “An iced Americano please,” I replied as I tucked my wallet back into my purse. He gave a lopsided smile and slid out of the booth and up to the counter to order. I took a deep breath in through my nose to steady my heartrate.

“I drink iced Americanos too,” he said as he got back into the booth. I grinned, “not for the faint of heart.” After pausing a beat to let him get settled, I dove in, “so you’re into psychology?” Yoongi nodded, “I’ve always been interested in how people think, myself included,” he chuckled, “and I recently started reading some books on psychological theory. I meet so many people and sometimes I just don’t know what to say, so it would be nice to have a way to make people feel better,” he shrugged, “how did you get into psychology?” “Me?” I looked up as the server dropped off the coffee. I tapped the straw onto the table, “my noble answer is that I wanted to help people, but I think I just like learning about people. A supervisor one told me I gave her favorite answer to the question of ‘why do you want to be a psychologist’ when she interviewed me,” I pulled the straw from the wrapping with my teeth. “And?” Yoongi asked, eyebrows raised in anticipation. I shrugged, “I said it was because I’m nosy.” He laughed and his shoulders shook, which made me laugh. I continued, “I guess I’ve always felt my life was pretty boring, so I’ve been fascinated by learning about other people.” “Now I’m the one who’s fascinated,” Yoongi smiled shyly and his dark eyes sparkled. I felt my stomach lurch and my cheeks flush, there was no way this handsome, famous man was flirting with me. He was being nice, I had to get a grip. We chatted about psychology and then it turned, as it inevitably does, to our families. “What about you? Do you get to see your family often?” I asked. “Maybe a few times a year. I’ve always been pretty independent, but I’ve found it’s a little harder to be away now that I’m older and my parents are older,” he replied. “Do you have any siblings?” “An older brother, what about you?” “Ah a youngest child, I should have known,” I winked, “I have a younger sister.” “An oldest child, I should have known,” Yoongi winked back and smiled so widely that his eyes crinkled and I could see his pink gums. “I live pretty far from my family too, I miss them a lot,” I looked down, fiddling with the empty straw wrapper. “It’s hard to feel like you have to sacrifice certain things for your career. I didn’t mind as much when I was younger but,” Yoongi trailed off, looking out the window. It was like he had read my mind. I had had this conversation with friends so many times before. “Exactly. I’ve moved around so many times for training and for work. I always felt like I had to move on to the next thing and now that I guess I’ve reached my goals, I feel like ‘now what?’ It’s a little scary.” Yoongi’s eyes softened and his voice lowered almost to a whisper “I know exactly what you mean.” The air hung comfortably quiet around us until I spoke, “maybe I need to make some new goals to work on.” Yoongi smiled and his phone buzzed, he checked it and then his eyes opened wide, “oh man it’s already 2PM.” I pulled out my phone, not able to believe him, “what?! No wonder I’m starving. Do you want to grab lunch, I don’t think this place has food.” I gulped after I realized what I’d done. I’m sure this man has plenty more to do than spend more time with me today. He nodded, “yes absolutely, what do you recommend?” My heart quickened, “do you like Mexican food? I know an incredible taco place close by.” He nodded and pulled out his phone, “I’ll have to call a car.” “Oh don’t be silly, I can drive you if you want.” “OK,” he smiled and followed me to the car. He got into the passenger seat and looked around, “it’s kind of weird to sit in the front seat, I’m always in the back even if it’s just me,” he said wistfully. It seemed that sitting in the front seat was a joy for him and I was happy to oblige, “oh yeah, I imagine you don’t drive yourself around a lot anymore.” “No, I do miss it though.” We chatted about the weather as we drove to the taco shop.

I can drop you wherever you need to go,” I offered after we finished lunch. “That’s really nice, I’m heading to the recording studio, I’ll pull up the GPS.” We continued to chat easily as we drove through the streets. I began to feel a slight sadness with every turn, realizing my time with Yoongi was coming to an end. It had been a while since I had such an easygoing time with someone, it was a nice break, and almost like having a friend in this still-new-to-me city. I pulled into the parking lot and put on a close-lipped smile. Yoongi turned to me, his eyebrows knitted, “that drive felt too short,” he said and gave a half smile. My smile turned genuine and I replied “I know.” “We should get coffee or something again soon, I’ll probably have more psychology questions for you,” he said, looking out the window. Could he really be asking to see me again? “Let me give you my number so you can text me or call me,” he typed my number into his cell phone and smiled then got out of the car. I was disappointed he didn’t text me right away to share his number, maybe he was just being polite when he said he wanted to get coffee again. He’s famous, he knows how to charm people. I was feeling a little disappointed all afternoon until I got a text from an unknown number at around 7PM. It was a picture of an iced Americano with the caption “not for the faint of heart.”

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[letherfly]

It’s evening 8th May 2023 when I’m starting my diary. This blog.

I’m in the middle of exam season and just before making my bachelor thesis.

In this time when I’m gonna need a lot of self discipline, I’ve decided to fully come back to my weightloss journey cause i feel so bad about myself and my body.

Current weight: 72 kg

Goal for 1st July: 58 kg

How?

• restricting

• walking

• cycling

Why I’m doing this?

I’m going on holiday with my bf’s family and I really don’t want to feel bad about my body. I wanna wear cute clothes. I bought cute clothes for holiday from vinted but in order to wear it i have to loose weight. Also i love shoes and my shoes are getting damaged more quickly under my weight.I also wanna grow my social media more again cause I’ve always loved to do it but havent pocted much in past two years. In september I’m starting master degree education and I wantmy classmates to know thinner version of me not this fat ver.

I wanna go back to music/singing and performing arts but it’s impossible for me to present myself since i do not feel comfortable in my body. Also, i’m supposed to be teaching kids and having lessons but I somehow feel like they will be judging me for my weight and it gives me so much anxiety.

Work. In my work at theatre I go on stage give our actors flowers after performances and I have to look good. Which i dont right now and i’m always trying to send my seniors but with new season I’m gonna be senior member and can’t avoid it anymore.

Also, I spend a lot of money on food and I need to buy new phone so this is also little role in this plan.

Something about me

(For you and me to remember who i am)

I’m 24 y.o college student who:

• listen to BTS

• wanna learn to play piano

• studies to become a teacher (safe job but not dream job)

• work part time in theatre (not performer)

• love orcas and bunnies

• have a long time boyfriend (5 years together)

• enjoy f1, big fan of ferarri especially Charles fan

• bunny mama

• i enjoy watching some kdramas (ex.: crash landing on you, hi bye mama, Business proposal, itaewon class, 39, twenty five twenty one, vincenzo, backstreet rookie, tomorrow, abyss)

• very much enjoy musicals

• trilingual but wanna pick up another language probably korean or french

• i’ve been struggling with my weight a lot since i was 13 especially cause my parents are very overweight

• i’m 166 cm tall

• had very strong ana “episode” in 2020 when i lost 20 kg in two months

• in terms of fashion I like black-white clothes but i like red and blue as well…

• love people with nice warm eyes

• hate insect

Some celebrities/people I like&admire for something: BTS, Michael Jackson, Zendaya, Anne Hathaway, Le Sserafim, Justin Bieber, Little Mix (love Jade), Tom Holland, Benedict Cumberbatch, Keira Knightley, IU…

Probably forgot half the stuff that are important but…next time when i will be trying to spend some time without food i will try to write some more…

Good luck to me!!!

[thisisconnorryan]

Internal Controversy at McDonalds over Cardi B and Offset

As releasing their actual music becomes one of the least monetarily beneficial streams of revenue for artists, many turn to other means of utilizing their brand and popularity for profit. One of these is brand deals, where from campaigns for products to sponsorships, a lucrative partnership with a company is a guaranteed payday for artists struggling to monetize. Most recently, McDonald’s has partnered with artists from Travis Scott to BTS to create special meals and collaborative marketing campaigns alongside the artists. The latest in this lineup is Cardi B and Offset, creating a duo meal that was initially promoted on the biggest platform possible via a super bowl commercial.

Though the reaction to this meal isn’t going as planned for the food chain, as according to a Digital Music News article, numerous McDonald’s franchises are refusing to sell the meal, citing how Cardi B and Offset do not match the family values the franchise owners hold. The article mentions something I did not know at the time, but that “65% of franchisees said they didn’t support the 2020 collaboration with Travis Scott when it debuted.” It’s interesting because to the outsider this campaign was a massive viral success for both McDonalds and Travis Scott. When asked for a comment on the situation, McDonald’s U.S. chief marketing officer Tariq Hassan told Business Insider that “across our marketing, we’re focused on putting McDonald’s at the center of culture,” demonstrating how even despite internal controversy, major brands are recognizing hip hop as the center of culture. I do think it’s important though to consider artist brands and company morals when considering a partnership, as while massively popular and generally respected within the music industry, Offset, and especially Cardi B certainly don’t represent family values. But McDonald’s isn’t necessarily a kid’s brand, and the notion of targeting the large demographic of Cardi B and Offset fans is still a great marketing tactic, and will serve as beneficial for both artists and it opens the door for them to continue to do more global marketing campaigns.

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[uwu-rose]

#in honor of the rooftop fight and jisungie being an adult #i give you another multi stan struggle meme featuring jisung #I'm not sure if anyone did this yet #multi stan issues #kpop memes #kpop meme #memes #nct memes #nct dream #park jisung #nct #bts #wayv #ateez #stray kids #nct 2020 #the boyz #monsta x #seventeen #victon #got7 #nct 127 #nct u #super m #exo #a.c.e #txt #enhyphen #pentagon

[thoughts-on-bangtan]

Let’s talk: Grievances and Cuteness - BTS on You Quiz on the Block

by Admin 1

Today BTS were guests on You Quiz on the Block, a very popular Korean variety show on tvN, and it was a wonderful mix of fun and hilarious, but also serious, vulnerable and honest. Seeing as we don’t have subtitles yet, merely the things our marvelous translator ARMYs managed to translate for us—the episode was 100 minutes long so there was a lot going on and being said—I don’t want to get into detail in this post and instead will wait with that until we have subs and I’ll be able to sit down and watch it properly again, focus on things that stick out to me and I would want to talk about. So that I can do their words justice.

Instead I want to use this post to air some of my grievances, directed at fellow ARMY, “ARMY” and shippers, as well as just gush a little about a few cute moments. The more serious things will be in a different post sometime soon. I hope that’s okay.

Grievances

What is the point of Bangtan going on a show like this, especially one that is broadcast on national TV and very popular with the general public? It’s to share not only their funny side but also their honest and genuine one, share stories that, though some we’ve heard before as ARMY, they’re things the general public doesn’t necessarily know. The point of them sharing vulnerable moments and memories with us is to simply be honest and transparent, something they’ve always highlighted as important to them.

What is the part we play in this, what is it that we should do? We are simply supposed to listen, understand the things they are telling us, put things into perspective so we know what they felt in certain moments and periods of their lives, understand that they’re human too with struggles, fears and sadness, and we should cherish the fact that they tell us any of it at all. They could just as well only show up whenever there’s a new album and comeback and then disappear again, share nothing personal at all and put on entirely fake personas. But they don’t. And we should be grateful for that and happy because of it.

Now, the reason why I even wanted to write this in the first place is this:

Many, and I mean many have decided that instead of doing what I’ve highlighted a moment ago, a far better course of action would be to twist their words, manipulate them, use them to victimize the members (and especially Seokjin), and try to overanalyze them in favor of their desired narratives and especially their ships, even if whatever was being said had absolutely nothing to do with any ship at all.

Before the episode even finished airing, solos/mantis were already up in arms “crying” about mistreatment and victimizing Seokjin because *insert demands they have no right to make at all* and when Seokjin, bless him, was on weverse, he actually replied to a post where he basically said that parts of what he said were too sad/depressing, so he simply asked the You Quiz staff to cut them out, which would explain why he seemed to have “less to say” during his interview section with Yoongi. Did that help? Of course not. Even though it showed not only that he did say more, that he likely said more vulnerable things, but also that he made the decision for himself that he did not want to share that yet, because he’s not ready for it or because he came to the conclusion that he simply doesn’t want to period, and that his wish for them to cut it out was met. Even though it wasn’t BH controlled content, but You Quiz.

More below the cut:

What does this tell us? The members have control over what is aired and what is not. If they feel something is too personal or would come across wrong, they can voice objection and chances are their words will be met and followed. They aren’t victims in need of saving, aren’t helpless boys with no idea what they’re doing. They are serious musicians, respected and treated well. This is a good thing and I’m glad he told us that, even if many don’t want to hear it and immediately claimed that “oh yeah BH told him to shut us up”. The mental gymnastics some are willing to do to make things fit their agenda truly baffles me sometimes.

On the other hand, I’ve seen shippers try to twist words or put others into the members mouths to push their agenda, and we’ve even had one or two asks being sent to us basically sadly wondering if maybe Tae isn’t who we thought he is for Jimin, and neither is Hobi, because of something Jimin said. Even though the thing Jimin said had quite literally nothing to do with either Tae or Hobi. In a way, I get where such vminnies are coming from, as vminnies we would love to just hear vmin talk about each other all day because it’s cute and we love their bond and stories, but it’s not like we didn’t get that. Because we did. Unprompted. Jimin mentioned Tae during their trio interview and told a story, even if we’ve heard it before to a certain degree. And yet it still wasn’t enough? Like come on, please don’t do this. Don’t reduce everything the members do and say to just ship related and non-ship related (thus uninteresting) statements and actions, as though the latter is worth less.

Here is the moment in question:

The way I see it, the only thing we should take away from this is that despite these very human fears and struggles, wonderings if people only care about Jimin because he is BTS Jimin and not Park Jimin, he still had and has good people in his life that’ll remind him that he is appreciated and loved for who he is, and not just for his celebrity status. Friends even outside of Bangtan. Why do we have to take something so incredibly personal, this moment of vulnerability from Jimin, and try to overanalyze it? To twist it to fit a ship? Regardless which one. Or to twist it to fit some kind of narrative, whatever one it may be? Please don’t do that.

Sure, Admin 2 noticed his use of ‘chingu’ when talking about this friend that told him that, and sure it reminded me of what Jimin said to Tae in the FESTA 2020 Rolling Paper, but neither Admin 2 nor I will go and claim that oh he must’ve been talking about Tae but didn’t want to use his name to avoid XYZ because we are not in his head and, at the end of the day, it’s irrelevant who exactly said that to him. That wasn’t the point of that story. Like at all. So why are some people disregarding the point in favor of speculations? Why are some completely ignoring his words, downplaying them as just potential ship material instead of appreciating the fact that he told us that at all?

It’s unfair toward Jimin, and the other members as well when they tell similar stories. Their lives aren’t fictional stories that revolve around romance. They are real people with real lives and more friends than just their fellow members and that’s a good thing since it surely gives them the opportunity to feel less isolated, cut off from the world by nature of their occupation and status. Besides, in the past Tae said something similar as well, how he used to be a social butterfly and make friends easily wherever they went but eventually he understood that people didn’t really care about Kim Taehyung and instead just wanted to know BTS V and be able to use that to brag, so he stopped being so outgoing. And we’ve also seen Jimin talk about cutting out friends in the past if they said something negative about Bangtan, then, a few years later, saying that he���s grown more as a person and learned to not allow these things to affect him as much, to surround himself with genuine people.

So, in light of what he said in that segment, we should be happy for him. And that’s it.

We also saw people use what Tae said about his dad to push the he must be 100% heterosexual because he said he wants to be a dad narrative which, where do I even start. Perhaps with the fact that this statement relies on a mistranslation? Because he didn’t say he wants to be a dad but that he wants to be a person like his dad, that’s his dream. Perhaps with the blatant homophobia this statement is laced in? The disregard for how queer people can also want to have kids, be parents, just like anyone else? Perhaps with how these things oddly seem to just be done to Tae and Namjoon, and especially Tae to use it for ship purposes?

Instead of jumping to conclusions, overanalyzing stories we are not supposed to analyze but instead to simply appreciate, please wait until we’ll have the full episode with subtitles (even though from the past we know that some of it may be simplified so reading what our translators wrote is also a good thing to get the whole picture) and even then, just enjoy their silliness and listen to their words of honesty. Listen to the fact that their fame was and continues to be a heavy weight on their shoulders, how instead of becoming cocky assholes they remained humble and genuine because that’s the kind of people they are and want to be, listen to what they want you to hear and now what you want to hear.

Also, to shippers—this isn’t the place to look for ship content of any kind, for some romantic confessions or whatever, because this was about Bangtan as seven members and their stories of the last ten and a half years since Namjoon joined BH and the idea for BTS was started.

Cute and silly things

Now that that's done, let’s talk about some fun and cute things to lighten the mood, shall we?

One of my favorite moments was when the MIC DROP ARMY came in as a surprise for the members, her confidence was off the charts and the guys looked so genuinely happy. After all it’s been so many months since they’ve last seen ARMY! And I’m so glad she was such a wonderful representative for us all, how she didn’t react with fear or shyness, didn’t scream or cry, but instead did her thing like a Queen. And the way the members reacted when she sent them a finger heart during one of the dances? Absolutely adorable! 

Also, she truly must’ve saved some kind of nation, or maybe two, in her past life since she also was gifted a chicken leg pillow by Tae. He’s just so kind and lovely.

Then we had the members play a game of trying to guess a song merely by the first second (I think) and then having to sing it, though who sang which part didn’t follow the actual order in the song but was chosen by someone off screen which meant that, for example, Tae was doing one of the rap line verses as well as singing Jimin’s part in another, Hobi showed off his vocal skills, and of course, the highlight, Namjoon singing a part from Spring Day. Even though we know Namjoon’s skills when it comes to singing are not the greatest, which I mean in a very loving way, no tea no shade, and yet he still went for it. It was hilarious and cute and showed that he is willing to be silly even if others might laugh at his expense.

Sometime after the episode aired Namjoon actually came onto Weverse to talk about the episode and, among other things, apologized for not singing Seokjin’s guide all that well. One thing I’d like to point out is how, originally, he wrote Jinhyung but then changed it to Seokjinie hyung, which is just a small and precious little detail:

Another cute moment was during ‘dance mafia’ when Tae turned to Jimin to ask him if they did well and Jimin replied that yes, he did well (both using this adorably soft tone with each other), they also hugged for a moment while smiling brightly. See, I said not to look for ship moments, but this is just cute regardless if you ship vmin or not. Admin 2 though would like to comment on how they could’ve given us that hug from a camera that’s a little further away so we could have a more proper look, or a longer shot of it, please?

Honestly that game was hilarious and the members who were mafia did a wonderful job tricking the others, particularly JK was fantastic at it since the second time around no one suspected him at all. Also, the fluffy ear muffs with cat (?) ears on them were adorable. At the end of the segment they were all supposed to strike a pose but Tae didn’t manage to put his ear muffs back on, so they fell to the ground and so Jimin lightly hit/caressed his chest and turned toward the MCs to ask if they could try again so that Tae could look good in it as well.

Actually, speaking of adorable in regard to Jimin, when they were introduced at the beginning of the show as RM-jagi-nim, jagi-nim being the name used for all the guests on the show and also the name on the necklace (given to guests who are fans of the show by the producers) Jimin showed off on weverse in his selcas, Jimin corrected the MC that it’s not Jimin-jagi-nim but Mini-jagi-nim which just…my heart. Too cute.

Lastly, I want to mention how all of them were asked what the first sentence would be if their lives were a book and their answers were just so very…them.

Namjoon: Predictions in life often turn out to be wrong

Tae: I’m a chameleon

Hobi: Dear, people who’ve helped to lead me here

Yoongi: You lived life to the fullest/hard/well

Seokjin: Dope, worldwide class!

Jimin: What kind of life do you want to live?

Jungkook: Hello?

Overall it was an amazing episode that was so fun to watch even without really being able to understand any of what was being said. Still the members genuine personalities shone through brightly and I’m glad they had fun and felt comfortable, especially since it’s been a while since they were last on Korean variety shows and some of their past experiences were…not great. I can’t wait to watch it again once we have subs and to write a more proper post about it then. I hope you didn’t mind this more…serious and “angry” post and understand where I’m coming from with my complaints, but also that you enjoyed the cute moments I highlighted.

#BTS #BTS You quiz on the block #Namjoon #Seokjin #Yoongi #Hoseok #Jimin #Taehyung #Jungkook #vmin

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#BlackExcellence365 Spotlight: Aundre Larrow

Hey Tumblr! Our first #BlackExcellence365 Spotlight of 2020 is Aundre Larrow (@aundrelarrow), a Brooklyn-based visual artist whose work has been featured on Adobe, Walmart, Verizon, and more. We got a chance to talk to him about his favorite projects, including his @teenvogue​ series showcasing the lives of formerly incarcerated women.

Tell us about yourself. When did your passion for photography start?

My name is Aundre Larrow and I’m a black artist based in Brooklyn, New York hailing from South Florida. I’m a Jamaican immigrant, an only child, and a Triscuit lover.

I started taking photos on borrowed film cameras from friends until I turned 15 and my theater teacher gave me his old Minolta SRT 101 as a gift. After that I would use my money from working at Old Navy and whatever I could talk my mom into donating to buy film and get it processed at the Walgreens a mile walk away. The passion started when I realized I could freeze moments I held dear and capture them. I loved getting my film back. I loved sharing it; Making little yearbooks and giving them to friends. I still have some of those prints in my childhood room.

Your work tells many stories, primarily of Black bodies which some photographers find it difficult to capture. What inspired you to make your series about shooting against darker skin tones?

Whew, I don’t know what it is about the phrase Black bodies, but it always hits me hard. I read an article on Mic. And it got me thinking.

I thought back to this teachable moment I had after college. I was interning at the Gainesville Sun. The photo editor had tasked me with taking portraits of the high school athletes in the fall feature, but I didn’t use a hair light. When I came back with the images, he looked at me sideways like “what’re you doing?” We can’t tell where their hair stops. (To make matters worse, I had used a black backdrop.)

I later learned from trial and error, from assisting photographers like Coty Tarr, and from studying the work of folks like Michele Walker, Joshua Kissi. Street etiquette paved the way for me at bevel, TBH.

You recently did a story with Teen Vogue featuring formerly incarcerated women. How did that project impact you and the work you create?

Maaan. You don’t know yourself until you’re in a small room listening to women discuss how painful it is, not being able to see their kids for months and months. One woman explained to me that one parent had abused her, and the other was enraged that she reported it. These women built new identities for themselves while separated from everything they knew. These two quotes will always stick with me:

“When I got out, it wasn’t like a walk in the park or whatever. When you’re in penitentiary, there are certain hours of the morning that you have to stand up to be counted. So I would automatically wake up and stand up. Sometimes, I would get up and lock myself in the bathroom. I spent 18 years in a room with a toilet and a sink. This was the closest thing, you know, to feeling safe. Can’t nobody get to you. It wouldn’t be until my kids would start knocking like, ‘Hey, are you okay?’”

And: 

“Our struggle has been from the beginning of time. Like I said, we’re a nurturing species. This doesn’t go for just the Black mother or person. Everybody, every racial background, has their own struggle. But, I think we’ve been beaten, raped, and downtrodden for so long that our will to survive and save the world has become like our bank.

You might not be my son, but if I see you in trouble, I am going to help. If I see the police run up on you, I’m going to throw myself in front of you. If I can save somebody’s son, I am going to do it because that’s how we’ve been built.

We, you know, from the slave ships, we were the ones singing them love songs, belly to belly and all the feces and stuff. We held on and kept everyone together and told them, ‘I love you and just hold on ’cause we gon’ make it.’”

How do you embody the mission of #BlackExcellence365 in your everyday work?

Existing is a form of resistance, no?  No, but for real, excellence is something I can’t determine for myself. I simply try to embody the process of creation. 

How has Tumblr allowed you to showcase your work and connect with other Black creatives?

Tumblr has brought so so many Black creatives together. Just to name a few, @skinnywashere, @stewyiscool, and Tutes; Tumblr OGs telling the New York story for so many of us to follow along. That community will last forever. Those connections are unbreakable.

When I interviewed @lawrenceagyei he spoke so fondly of finding the work of Joshua Kissi and how it inspired him. It brought a smile to my face 

Tumblr gave me the ability to shoot Fashion Week and a platform to share the full story. It’s one of the best things about the platform. Photo stories pop because you decide the weight of each image. It’s easy to share, reshare and show BTS.

Thank you for sharing your story, Aundre! 

Tumblr, do yourselves a favor and make sure to check out his photography and follow his journey. And, hey, we wanna hear from you. What other Black Tumblr artists or activists should we spotlight? Use the tag #BlackExcellence365 to let us know.

This interview has been condensed for clarity

#BlackExcellence365 #Black history month #aundre larrow

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BPP do you have an opinion on HYBE groups? Esp the ggs? Me, I love them all. Le Sserafim and NewJeans saved 2022 for me. Other agencies are trying to outdo each other with noise music, flashy MVs and just typical kpop loudness. HYBE brought back quality and good vibes. I'm very happy that the two ggs are so unproblematic and high quality. Go Hybe!

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Lol Anon,

I guess you're not exactly hiding that you're a HYBE fan. But on the level, I largely agree with you in terms of the musical output from HYBE in 2022.

One pitfall of listening to k-pop for a long time, is that things can become a bit boring and predictable. The Big 3 agencies have entrenched musical and stylistic signatures that just become uninteresting after a while. HYBE is a relatively younger company but it's been playing in the big leagues since 2020, and frankly, only HYBE surprised me this year.

It might have to do with the company's structure, where their groups are managed and run by (in)dependent labels that each have their own culture and goals, so the variety just within HYBE is refreshing. But one trend I've noticed with all groups under HYBE, is the incredible top-notch choreography. This company might cut corners in a bunch of areas, but choreography is not one of them.

I mean, Enhypen's Fever choreo from last year is still generating buzz a year later (which is like a century in k-pop years)...

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TXT and Seventeen are easily the best male groups in k-pop 4th gen, and I'd place Enhypen up there with Stray Kids and NCT just a tier below too.

As for girl groups, I like NewJeans and I'm looking forward to their single release mid-December and album comeback in January. Le Sserafim has been a bit harder for me to get into, but they too are a pretty solid group. I didn't mind the reggaeton influence in their latest title track and as far as Latin music influences go in k-pop, theirs was one of the better and more tasteful examples. Fromis9 too is another really good girl group objectively speaking. But their sound isn't really my thing.

It will be interesting to see how long HYBE can keep this momentum going (without the cash influx from BTS for the next couple of years). All the current groups under HYBE have decently sized fanbases to provide support, but you know, k-pop is an expensive business and unless HYBE starts taking more money from the government like Big 3 agencies, I struggle to see how their margins won't suffer.

Guess we'll find out. :)

#hybe labels #hybe family #hybe #enhypen #le sserafim #newjeans #txt #svt #stray kids #nct #K-pop #k pop music

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What you will find here: Updates for upcoming works, links, blog updates, regulations.

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Lee Seoho Birthday Fic

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Cha Hakyeon Birthday Fic

18th Jul:

Lee Taemin Birthday Fic

19th Jul:

Birthday Present: Hwang Hyunjin

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Baek Zuho: Professor AU

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Baek Zuho: Agent AU.

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Baek Zuho: Professor AU.

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Baek Zuho: Window Smut Part 2.

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⭐︎⭐︎⭐︎WHO I WRITE FOR⭐︎⭐︎⭐︎

K-ACTORS:

Lee Dong Wook

Rowoon / Kim Seokwoo

THE BOYZ:

Lee Sangyeon

Jacob Bae

Kim Younghoon

Hyunjae / Lee Jaehyun

Lee Juyeon

Kevin Moon

New / Choi Chanhee

Q / Ji Changmin

Ju Haknyeon

Kim Sunwoo

Eric / Sohn Youngjae

BTS:

Kim Seokjin

Min yoongi

Jung Hoseok

Kim Namjoon

Park Jimin

Kim Taehyung

Jeon Jungkook

ONEUS:

Lee Seoho

Leedo / Kim Geonhak

Lee Keonhee

Yeo Hwanwoong

Xion / Son Donju

SF9:

Kim Youngbin

Kim Inseong

Lee Jaeyoon

Dawon / Lee Sanghyuk

Zuho / Baek Juho

Yoo Taeyang

Hwiyoung / Kim Youngkyun

Chani / Kang Chanhee

SHINEE:

Onew / Lee Jinki

Key / Kim Kibum

Choi Minho

Lee Taemin

STRAY KIDS:

Bang Chan

Lee Know / Lee Minho

Seo Changbin

Hwang Hyunjin

Han Jisung

Felix Lee.

Kim Seungmin

Yang Jeongin

VIXX:

Cha Hakyeon / N

Leo / Jung Taekwon

Ken / Lee Jaehwan

Hyuk / Han Sanghyuk

+OTHER:

Lee Hongbin

Ravi

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About The Posts / Writing:

— As of May 21 2021 I will be writing in 2nd POV.

— I’ve recently seen gif creators not liking that writers use their gifs in their writings, so as of 2021 I will not be adding gifs, I will be adding self-made banners to it or requesting banners from atinyfantasytothemoon. (Make sure to follow her and send requests to her for gifs/edits/moodboards)

— I use google translate and/or translation.babylon-software.com to translate sentences if needed, so If anything is wrong.. please don’t blame me, although as of September 2020, I no longer translate things and use italics if I want the person to talk in another language. — English is not my first language, neither is Italian, German or any other language besides Afrikaans, however, sometimes My English is better than my Afrikaans but Afrikaans is the language I speak at home with family.

— My blog does contain mature content, if you do not like the idea of reading smut/nsfw content, then my blog is not for you.

— If you are rude, I will block you, any anon hate received will be deleted and blocked, and if you do send it on anon, it says more about you as a person.

— As for smuts, most of the time, if not all of the time, it will be written as unprotected, unless stated otherwise, from my writing P.O.V, the reader will always be on the pill.

— I have tried in the past to write my fics as G/N reader, but I do struggle with it, so most of the fluffs or angsts will be g/n, but the smuts will be female reader. Please note that I am almost not assigning any gender rolls here as I’m writing from a female perspective, and that is the gender I imagine while writing, But this does not mean that you can’t read them if Female is not your gender, I just won’t recommend the smuts then. Please note my fics also wont always be X Reader, since I do add some detail to it about hair and such, which is why I never tag my work with X reader.

— Please make sure to go through the list below to see what I’m comfortable with writing and what not before sending in an ask or a suggestion.

Absolutely NOT:

— Rape. — Suicide. — Self-harm. — Abuse. — Miscarriage. — Cancer. — Incest. — “He cleans you after sex because he thinks of you as a little sister.” — Daddy Kink. — Piss Kinks. — Degrading Kinks. — Non-Con. — Vomit Kink. — BDSM. — Needle Play. — Anal. — Anal play. — Humiliation Kink. — Scat, or any other body fluids that can be used.

Things I’m uncomfortable with and will not write about as of 2022:

— Writing about pregnancies. — Writing About Children. — Writing About Babies.

Q & A:

Q. I thought you said that you don’t write about depression/suicide?

A. I don’t write about suicide, I do however am comfortable enough to mention it in some fics, if I am comfortable enough to write it. I will add trigger warnings and a ‘keep reading’ link, I am not very comfortable with going into detailed depression, and any sort of mental illness.

Q. Do you write threesomes?

A. As of June 24 2021, I do.

Q. Why do you only write SFW for certain people and not NSFW?

A. I just don’t feel comfortable enough to write NSFW with certain people, I don’t write smuts for minors, anyone born after the 2000′s is a BIG no from me, and I won’t consider writing NSFW for anyone born after 2000.

Q. Why are you uncomfortable writing about pregnancies?

A. Because pregnancies make me uncomfortable, I’ve made the decision to never become pregnant, the topic makes me uncomfortable.

Q. Why are you uncomfortable writing about children?

A. Any kind of talk or topic about children makes me uncomfortable, as I don’t want children of my own, and I don’t understand the concept of cooing over a small human, but that is just me.

AGE WARNINGS:

I will not take responsibility because you wanted to read my fics that contain NSFW/SMUT content, but if you’re under the age of 18+, DO NOT INTERACT OR READ. do NOT take it as educational, it is  fiction!

ASKS:

Thirst asks are welcome, but please do not objectify any idol or person you want to come thirst over, bring your confessions all you want, your sinful thoughts, your soft thoughts, all welcome here.

I’m a little anti-social, but if you want to drop an ask, go ahead, I love seeing them in my inbox, if you want a snippet from any of my works, then please ask, I won’t mind showing a snippet, if you want a hint on what I’m working on, feel free to ask, basically, ask what you want, as long as you don’t come off as rude or as long as you don’t send in hate.

PLAGIARISM:

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If anyone sees my work on any other site aside from tumblr, please let me know and report it as being stolen as well.

my work is protected by this license.

CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM:

Because at first I didn’t see the need to put this here and thought it would be a little obvious that I DO NOT take constructive criticism, but it was not, so here it is.

I do not take it, mostly because everyone has their own direction of stuff, and I’m not gonna please everyone with what I do, my work will never be everyone’s cup of drink, and I’d rather not say something rude if you drop your comment in my inbox.

This stays my blog and I will do on it what I want.

ABOUT THE BLOG:

In most recent months, since January 2022, the blog has mostly become a self-indulge blog where I post fantasies, thoughts, dreams and Ideas I had or a friend had, and in between I write things for my friends.

As of 2024, I have decided to open requests every now and then, so keep a look out for when I open them.

I NO LONGER WRITE FOR BUT YOU WILL STILL FIND ON THIS BLOG:

Formula 1❅ Formula 2 ❅ Formula E ❅ Lucifer ❅ Teen Wolf ❅ The Originals ❅ The Vampire Diaries ❅ Twilight ❅ WWE ❅ NCT ❅ ATEEZ/Kim Hongjoong ❅

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The Best K-Pop Moments of 2020 (SKZ Cut)

The impact of Korean pop music (most commonly shorthanded as K-pop) on global music trends over the past few years is undeniable. Take BTS, for example. Since their debut in 2013, the Korean septet has become the biggest band in the world, influencing the next generation of music-makers already.

In the midst of a global pandemic, Korean labels and artists have led the charge in creating lively, groundbreaking, immersive virtual experiences for fans. The end-of-year numbers only prove out that immense impact. According to Spotify, K-pop listening has increased by more than 2000% in the last six years, and listeners have added K-pop songs to more than 120 million Spotify playlists. (Notably, BTS's disco-pop single “Dynamite” sparked a 300% increase in people listening to the group for the first time on the streaming platform.) Per a 2020 Duolingo report, Korean is the second fastest-growing language in the world, something the company attributes at least in part to the impact of Korean entertainment, from K-dramas to Parasite and, of course, K-pop acts. On Twitter, BTS were the most tweeted about musicians in the United States for the fourth year in a row — with ATEEZ, NCT, and EXO joining them in the top 10.

Despite its ever-growing popularity, K-pop is a complex, loaded term that can be used to otherize as much as it can be used to celebrate. Western artists, especially white ones, get to just be regular pop music, undefined by country signifiers. Fundamentally, using the “K-pop” nomenclature is an act of separation, even when it straightforwardly refers to Korean idol music.

Fans also struggle with this. Can K-pop be considered a “genre” in the traditional sense? Is it a way of pinning household name artists in? Or is it a way of bolstering a rising tide? The “genre” question is perhaps the easiest to just come right out and deny. As any K-pop listener knows, the songs and groups vary immensely, each bringing their own flavor musically and aesthetically, each with their own influences (much like literally any other music in the world). As singer-songwriter Tayla Parx told Teen Vogue recently, K-pop has pioneered a genreless sound, or rather an all-encompassing sound. These days, to say something sounds like K-pop is about as helpful as saying a tree looks like a tree. Answers to the other questions might not be as crystal clear, but they are worth examining anyway, especially for fans processing the increasing power of Korean music through non-Korean lenses.

One thing is clear: The music coming out of Korea is more diverse and wide-reaching than ever, and the fans who love it are social media savvy, creative, and ever more powerful. To celebrate that, Teen Vogue asked 49 journalists and writers who covered K-pop this year to recap their favorite moments from the year – ranging from historic firsts and sartorial highlights to new music and just plain delightful memes. Below, check out their selection of the best K-pop moments of 2020.

Read Full Article Here: Teen Vogue

The "Psycho" Stage That Shook Stan Twitter to Its Core There's something truly electrifying about a collaboration stage. When artists from different groups unite for a singular performance, they produce some of K-pop's most thrilling moments. That was especially true when AB6IX's Daehwi, Stray Kids' Hyunjin, ASTRO's Sanha, and Golden Child's Bomin beguiled viewers with a stunning cover of Red Velvet's "Psycho" during a KBS Music Bank special in June. This wasn't the first time the '00 liners and best friends had performed together — last year, they took on GOT7's vibrant bop "Just Right" — but "Psycho" struck a chord with K-pop stans and locals alike, going viral across social media and racking up more than 17 million views to date. But there's more to its popularity than pretty boys serving looks, harmonies, and body rolls. The concept of boy groups covering girl group songs isn't a novel idea, but what's most striking here is its sophisticated execution. From Daehwi's opening falsetto and Hyunjin captivating expressions (the blond dancer's individual fancam has 4.5 million views) to Sanha's smooth vocals and Bomin's steady charisma, they honored the sanctity of the original without sacrificing its drama and panache. And that's exactly why we can't stop replaying it.

Stray Kids’ Delicious “God’s Menu” Choreography It takes a special kind of band to make a burned-out viral meme from 2017 part of the year’s most iconic choreography, but that’s what Stray Kids did with their song “God’s Menu.” Salt Bae’s iconic seasoning style joins other cooking-themed dance moves like sauteing, stirring pots, and chopping vegetables to create a routine that's equal parts absurd and mind-bendingly skillful. The choreography, combined with the in your face visuals of the MV and sound of the song, perfectly encapsulates the escapist joy that makes K-pop so compelling.

The Adventurous Road to Kingdom In April, amid the bleakness of the beginning of the pandemic, this competition show was a bright spot. Seven underrated K-pop boy groups — Golden Child, Oneus, ONF, Pentagon, The Boyz, TOO, and VeriVery — faced off against each other in live performance battles. Concepts ranged from cursed monarchs and dolls come to life to elegant classical music and K-pop mashups, but the death-defying stunts and stunning visual storytelling of The Boyz swept the competition. As winners of Road to Kingdom, they’ll compete against ATEEZ, Stray Kids, and a handful of other established groups on follow-up show Kingdom, which is sure to bring some much-needed levity to early 2021.

Stray Kids’s Bang Chan Acknowledging Fan Art Though most of 2020 kept K-pop idols and their audiences apart physically, things were better than ever in digital spaces. One example was in November, when Stray Kids leader Bang Chan discussed on a livestream how much he had enjoyed and appreciated fan cartoonist @.anelderlymeme, for their video rendition of a funny moment from one of his prior streams. Though maybe not the biggest moment of the year on the historic scale of things, the small virtual dialogue between K-pop artist and fan artist exemplified the sides of humanity that make the K-pop fandom experience so unique. In a year where there was little else to rely on, small moments where stars and stans “saw” and appreciated one another was a refuge for many.

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Jensen was, once again, on Rosenbaum’s podcast; he had been on it last year it was a really good interview if you haven’t heard it I highly recommend it I also recommend checking out this new/more recent appearance it’s up for free on youtube I’ll leave a link at the end of this post in case you wanna check it out. I will say they don’t talk about the content of the final two episodes - this came out today (edit: yesterday, Sep 8th, since i’m posting after 12am) but the interview happened when the boys were starting their Canada quarantine -  so if you’re looking for info regarding the final episodes of the show you’re not gonna find it here, however, just like with the first time he was in the podcast, if you wanna hear two people who have known each other for a while talk then check it out. This was a bit more structured imo than the first time he was on the podcast. 

I, personally, am glad Jensen was on the podcast again because I really enjoyed his first appearance in it and I like Rosenbaum’s more laid back interview that’s more like a conversation style I think he gets people to open up more than they usually would in a more formal interview. 

There were some things that stood out to me so this is going to be a semi-recap type opinion post. Also, for the sake of convenience, from henceforth Michael Rosenbaum will be referred to as MR. 

- Even before the interview starts there’s something I loved and it’s MR saying/stating that j2 are the leads of the show, thank you MR for knowing what so many in this fandom fail to ❤ 

- Jensen spend a good chunk of this interview being fond over Jared and making them sound super married, and it started right at the beginning around 4 minutes in when after mentioning that some changes have been done to the final two epi scripts and that there were some things they could no longer do due to covid, MR - for some reason....(do you know something rosenbaum 👀😂) - goes “like you and jared can’t make out” and Jensen without missing a beat replies that corona or no corona he and Jared are making out...😏

- After some, actually pretty cool talk about how things are currently working bts and such, Jensen, once again, talks about Jared. MR and him were having a conversation about some changes that have been made for filming due to covid including the longer lunch breaks which turned the conversation on to food on set and MR asked if there was some go-to that catering knew to make for him like when he arrived on set in the morning so of course Jensen replied by talking about what Jared usually has for breakfast on set which is a breakfast burrito and he couldn’t resist mentioning the fact that Jared and him bicker about it because Jared likes to say he doesn’t eat breakfast to which Jensen points out the burrito and Jared insists that it doesn’t count- they sound so married I can’t fucking deal. Also, I love Jensen’s...fond laugh when he mentions that he and Jared get into “arguments” about it, he’s so soft for his boy 🥰  When he does get around to answering the question of what he usually gets he once again brings up the burrito, he says he usually gets breakfast on his way to work, a coffee and a simple, breakfast sandwich...so when he goes to the studio he won’t be tempted to go to catering and order a giant breakfast burrito. I wonder how many times they’ve argued over that damn burrito 😂

- MR asked Jensen if, after 15 years, he and Jared have their ups and downs and annoy the shit out of each other or if they’re like ‘I love him’ all the time. Jensen replied that over 15yrs there are moments when he’s like ‘I don’t need to see him right now’ but that for the most part the majority of the time “they’re buddies hanging out”

- One of the most interesting parts comes after MR asks who has the shortest fuse on set. And, Jensen, unsurprisingly to me, replies that it’s Jared who has the short fuse. I say unsurprisingly because while we as a fandom have gotten used to seeing Jared being silly, kind, sweet and caring to the point where some think of him as completely helpless, he can actually be very serious and professional, and I’ve always been of the thought that he is sweet up to a point reach that point and you’ll be in trouble. So, I wasn’t surprised to hear Jensen say Jared is the one with the short fuse, I also wasn’t surprised by him say that he likes to light Jared’s fuse, or that he knows how to get under Jared’s skin. 

Jensen also said that his and Jared’s frustrations tend to line up, so if something isn’t working or frustrating he’ll quickly bring it up to Jared or Jared will quickly bring it up to him; he also knows how depending on the severity whether Jared will get wound up and heads will roll or whether he’ll be able to diffuse the situation. That’s...a lot to unpack. Him saying that if something ain’t working or is frustrating they’ll quickly bring it up to one another makes me think of all the times they’ve said that they made each other a promise back in s1 to never let things escalate between them to the point it did when they had that big fight back then, it’s kind of in the same line but like because of him saying depending on the severity and if heads will roll it also sounds like he’s referring to maybe problems with a crew members or something maybe someone stepping out of line (which actually later on he does say they have had some situations over the years where new people will come in like guards and not treat their crew member the right way) and like just them having each others backs at work and protecting each other. Also, I think it says a lot about how well Jensen knows Jared that he knows whether Jared is going to snap about something or if he’ll able to calm him down. And it sounds like he’s the one in charge of cooling Jared down if something does happen that winds him up. 

He also said the few times that he has snapped Jared tends to be behind him ready to help with the insults if need be in others words Jared has his back. 

He also mentioned that there have been situations where they’ve had new people come in and not treat other crew members well so he and Jared have had to step in and let that person know the behavior that is expected of them, that makes me respect them even more like it’s no surprise spn truly is their show and for years guest stars have praised them specifically, for the environment that they have created and maintained on set- the way Jensen puts it is that they have had to put their producer hats on that they don’t actually own, I’ll forever be bitter that they never got a seat at the writer’s/producers table because they fucking deserve producer credits for this show with all the work they put into it that goes beyond acting in it. [timestamp]

- MR pretending to be Jensen: “you know Daneel- your wife”. I don’t know why this made me loose my shit, there’s just something hilarious about MR bringing up D and pointing out to Jensen that he’s talking about his wife as if Jensen had forgotten who he was married too 😂 (although considering how many times Jensen said Jared’s name and the whole making out thing I can’t blame MR for thinking Jensen had forgotten, silly rosenbaum he didn’t forget that’s why he kept talking about jared 😜)

- Jensen gave a cool funfact! Originally, the production wanted to get Bruce Campbell to play present-day John, back in s1, since JDM wasn’t that much older than the boys but for some reason or the other they weren’t able to get him so they decided instead to gray up JDM a bit and have him play an older version of himself! I wish Bruce Campbell would have appeared on the show because that would have been awesome but I’m glad they kept JDM playing John, I can’t imagine anybody else bringing that character to life. 

- Another interesting moment- or I guess not really interesting just something that stood out to me is that when MR asked if it had been hard to isolate and quarantine with D and the kids for 5 months Jensen said that it had been hard but he and D had a solid partnership, friendship, relationship....instead of just saying marriage. Which encompasses those three words. He went with three words that could be used to describe a relationship with a romantic partner, or just a friend which actually- it sounded less like he was talking about his wife and more about a friend who he’s raising his kids with. 

- They talked a little bit about Jensen’s album with MR even playing a bit of it and praising Jensen for his voice 🥰

- At the end Jensen opens up a bit about his mental health and how quarantine affected it and while he doesn’t go into detail he does say his kids kept him from falling into a depression and that there were days where he found himself lost. 

I am going to sound like a little bit of a *censored* because while he was talking about this at one point he mentions how his kids give him purpose and push him to find something to do and he starts listing things and one of them is making the kids dinner, setting them up with a movie then having a date in the kitchen with his wife which got a snort out of me because a couple months ago he did the How Are You Today interview and said he and D hadn’t gone on a date in months and yes, you could make the argument that he meant gone out as in to a restaurant but it sounded like he meant in general so when he brought that as an example of something he could do I just went *snort* yeah right. That being said, I think he brought that up more as an example than anything else but it did make me go ‘sure jan’. 

That moment aside, I think this might be the first time I’ve seen him open up about his mental health and struggles he might be having with it, I’m proud of him for talking about it even though it does seem like a topic he doesn’t feel fully comfortable sharing with the public which is completely valid.

Jensen on Inside of You with Michael Rosenbaum September 8th 2020

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