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chronicowboy · 11 months

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rewatched the will scene for editing purposes and nothing i'm about to say hasn't been said before its just like I Know its an insane scene, i know that every second of every day, but you forget just how truuuuly insane it is until you watch it again.

eddie's vacant stare right at the start as he's rehearsing what could potentially be one of the biggest most important speeches of his life, the way he literally blinks himself out of his daze when buck enters with his faux-casual oooookay, there's something about buck's little smile when he says then we can get out of here that makes me want to BITE things, the absolute steel on eddie's face as he gets buck to sit down realising what it is he's about to do, buck's cautious everything alright? because he's not sure he can handle any other bad news after Everything, buck sitting down as far away from eddie and his terrifyingly serious energy as he physically can, the way eddie can't look at him and buck can't look away at first, eddie literally can't look at him like i cannot express to you how actively eddie avoids buck's eyes on him its a fucking love confession and he can't let buck read that on him so he hides in plain fucking sight.

the way buck tries to run from the reminder of eddie's mortality, eddie's soft but firm let me finish because if he doesn't say it now he'll have to wait until the next near death experience to find his courage again, the beat of wildly intentional eye contact in which buck's face says please whatever this is don't make me face it now and eddie's face says trust me please trust me the way i have trusted you with my heart, eddie's bitter chuckle about the well, buck desperately clinging to the fact that eddie survived that and wondering if he knows buck screamed for him then too, eddie's huffed laughter wondering if buck knows he saved him both times, how fully eddie sinks into the memory of realising he needed to give christopher a just in case, the framing of the shots capturing buck's reactions always featuring an out of focus eddie, the choice to focus so closely on buck's reactions even when eddie is speaking, the way its really only the both of them in focus when their eyes meet, the way eddie goes quiet when talking about the what ifs, eddie staring at buck as he talks about christopher being taken care of but looking away as he says by you because absolutely everything is written plain as day on his face for buck to read.

and then the switch, the way buck can't look at eddie and eddie can't look away, he needs to make sure buck understands, but buck can't face up to it, ITS IN MY WILL IF I DIE YOU BECOME CHRISTOPHER'S LEGAL GUARDIAN, buck going through the five stages of grief in a single second before landing on bargaining and reminding eddie of his family because he's the guy who lost christopher in a tsunami and broke down when chris needed him to be strong, my attorney said you could refuse/but you know i wouldn't/i know you wouldn't, buck's panic on his face even as he says it because of course he'd do it but that would mean eddie was gone, eddie's gentle and fond smile because even terrified buck is confirming everything he already knew, buck's pain when he says other family like he's still not entirely sure he's a part of the diaz family but the subconscious other because deep down buck knows where he belongs, eddie's casual reaction to buck's wouldn't they fight for him? because he knows no one will EVER fight for my son as hard as you, that is what i want for him, the little chuckle and the blatant shock on buck's face.

buck going through the five stages of grief again landing on a little anger this time with why are you just telling me now which means i might have had to do this with no warning still reeling in my grief for you, BECAUSE EVAN, the way buck's snaps to attention, eddie's disgust - not at buck but at the way buck's brain treats him, you came in here the other day and said it would have been better if you were the one who got shot, buck frozen and unable to look away from eddie's grief, you act like you're expendable, the way they both look away, eddie's big deep breath, but you're wrong, and the way they turn to each other in unison not a single millisecond separating them as they seek out each other's eyes and share a look that says: this is a love confession, i cannot say in what way, i cannot even comprehend that myself, but this is as close as i can get to showing you what you mean to me//this is a love confession, i do not know what it means, i cannot begin to understand, but this is as close as i can get to what you feel for me.

#sami rambles #i just. god. i shouldn't be allowed to rewatch that scene it turns me into another creacher #it should have a fucking trigger warning on it or an age limit or something because that shit is enough to drive a grown man insane #911 show #911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #buck x eddie #christopher diaz #911 meta

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loveyourownsmiilee · 1 year

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Some thoughts I’ve been having about Eddie following his heart and making his own choices

After his wife died, Eddie didn’t even want to date again. He was completely ok with how his life was and didn’t need a romantic partner. But after a conversation with Bobby in 4.06, he decided to give Ana a chance. That was not his choice, but something he did because he thought he had to.

In episode 4.13, Carla straight up told Eddie, “Just make sure you’re following your heart, not Christopher’s ok?” You can see the clear confusion on Eddie’s face because he had just explained to her that being with Ana was “nice” and “easy”. That’s not how you describe your romantic partner if you’re in love with them or even on the way to being in love with them.

Immediately after this we have Eddie get shot in front of Buck. No one else is there but them two. The scene was shot in a heavily romantically coded way. We saw Eddie make eye contact with Buck and once he was on the ground, we saw him reach out towards Buck. He wasn’t able to actually make contact and it was Buck who went after Eddie to pull him to safety.

Then after he was discharged, Eddie told Buck about his change in his will. He looked Buck in the eyes and told him he chose Buck of all people to be the legal guardian for his son in case of his own death. At the same time, he told Buck that he’s not expendable and that he can’t be reckless with his life, implying that he would care deeply if Buck wasn’t around anymore. This was the first time we see Eddie making a choice for himself and telling Buck about it.

In season 5, we see him having panic attacks at the mention of him being a ready made family with Ana which basically confirms that this is something he didn’t choose for himself. It’s something he chose for his son. But clearly it’s not working out for him, thus leading him to end up at the hospital.

Buck talks to Eddie about his panic attacks and helps him realize that he can’t be in a relationship when his heart isn’t into it. He even uses himself as an example by telling Eddie he’s been in Ana’s place before. Eddie once again proves how being with Ana isn’t something he’s doing for himself when he tells Buck, “My kid loves her.” To which Buck immediately counters with, “Is that enough?”

Eddie eventually does end up breaking up with Ana and it’s the first time we see him make a choice for himself. But he did have outside opinions that helped him make that choice.

Throughout the entire season, we see him struggle with a lot. He quits his job, because of his son. He joins the dispatch as a liaison and tells people he’s still a firefighter, even though he’s not doing what he wants, what makes him happy.

The moment where things all come to a head and we can kind of see a shift in Eddie is after therapy and when he’s trying to reconcile with his father. A lot of his deep rooted issues and repression most likely stems from his upbringing. One thing I found very interesting is what he says to his father as they’re talking in 5.17.

E: I was punishing myself. I’m tired of being that guy. I’m going to be better.

R: For Christopher?

E: *Shakes head* For myself.

This is the first time we see him wanting to do something for himself. In the next episode, we see him back to work and he’s happy with his choice.

Then this launches season 6 where we see a generally happier Eddie. He’s at Buck’s loft with his son and they’re having family dinner. He seems content and genuinely himself, something we hadn’t seen for a few seasons.

This brings me to my final thoughts. We know in 6.14, he’s going to be going on dates set up by his Tia Pepa. He even mentions to his date “full disclosure…” in a sense where he was going to turn her down. Why? Because Eddie is done having other people make choices for himself. He wants to be the one who makes those choices and he’s already done that by the end of the previous season. Maybe the reason why Eddie doesn’t want to date is because he’s content with how his life currently is. The life that includes Christopher and his best friend/partner Buck. The life where Buck and Eddie get to have family dinners and homework time with their kid and essentially coparent him while he grows up. He wants to be better for himself, choose things and people that make him happy and I think the show is on the right track to show us this the remainder of this season. There’s more there behind why Eddie doesn’t want to date. There’s a specific reason and it’s not because he’s not ready or whatever. On the contrary, I believe he is ready for a romantic partner and he kind of already has one. So he’s either just going to wait for him to catch up or he’s going to be completely content with how things are with them right now. Either way, this has been Eddie choosing for himself. All the domesticity we’ve seen with Eddie, Buck, and Christopher are all things he’s chosen. He chose to have Buck dress up fancy and take him out to a poker game where he looked completely in love with him. Eddie doesn’t need outside opinions anymore, he knows what he wants and he’s going to keep choosing things and people that make him happy. And this is the journey we’re going to see play out for him this season and possibly next.

#buddie #eddie diaz #911 spoilers #911 speculation #911 meta #buddie meta #I can’t explain Wtf this is sorry #I just had a lot of thoughts #can’t say they’re all good ones but here we go #hope if anyone reads this they understand what I’m trying to say

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peoples-problem · 20 days

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I just watched the will scene translated in Spanish (both Latin American and Spain's version) for the first time to see what they did to translate it and, to be fair, I usually don't like to watch shows in a language that isn't the one I got used to (English, in this case) and the voices kind of take me aback a little but I pushed through it and came with the conclusion that there's an important phrasing that none of them respected: After Buck starts interrupting Eddie every time he mentions his own death, he starts playing around the term, not saying it directly, like "if I didn't make it", until he has to repeat the "it's in my will if I die" just to emphasize it and then they play around the phrasing again with the "if it came to that"

The Spanish version doesn't mention a will when he repeats himself (which I think is important because that phrase is meant to be as straight forward as it can) although it does a better job on dancing around the death implications better than the latin american one (idk how to explain it but that version sounds silly, like a comedy, probably it's a me thing tho)

Let me write this down bc I don't think people notice this enough so let's analyze it part by part:

(Fair warning: This is under MY opinion, idk shit about any of the translation process, I'm just bilingual, and it's ok to disagree with me but bare with me)

"You might have noticed that I almost died... again" doesn't change.

"I got a lot of close calls, this one wasn't even my closest one" changes a little but only because of slang, the spirit is the same (and +1 points to the Spanish version this part for making it feel more like friends taking instead of actors talking, although they have the advantage of having to translate to only one county with the same slang but idc)

Up until now most of the changes that are made are because of slang, they change the words I would use but not the actual meaning so it's fine but then:

"It got me thinking: What would happen to Christopher if I hadn't" is what Eddie says because he knows Buck doesn't want to think about his death, that they are not prepared to be so harsh about it, and the Spanish version does say it like that (+1 points for Spain); the Latin American version (as well as the Brazilian one, I think), however, translated it as "if I hadn't survived"

Then, when Eddie says "So, some day, if I didn't make it" the two (or three, I can't find the Brazilian one but the subtitles put it that way too) versions translated it as "I didn't survive" again

Now, the part of "Christopher would be taken care of... By you" is driving me insane because the Latin American version translated it as "Christopher would be under guardianship... Your guardianship" (which I might like even more than the original a little bit if I'm being honest, +1 points for LATAM), the Brazilian one (again, subtitles only, idk about the actual voices) can't be translated back to English without losing the suspense because it would be "Christopher would be your responsibility" but in the "yours" is grammatically placed at the end so that's like a cheat that keeps it like the original and then we have the Spanish one (and jfk what tf did they do there) that decided to go with "So someone takes care of Christopher. That would be you" idk what it is but I really hate it, it doesn't feel like he is leaving the blank or just adding a word to change the meaning completely, is a total addon and I just hate it

"It's in my will if I die you become Christopher's legal guardian" stays the same in Latin American and the Spanish one says "If I die you are Christopher's legal guardian" and I feel like, if you need to cut some parts because the dialog doesn't fit or whatever it is, I would have taken away the "if I die" part instead of the mention of the will because, if you are following someone's will then it's kind of obvious that they died, there's no need to clarify he died idk idc (and up until now they were winning but +1 to LATAM here)

"And how does that even work? Don't you need my consent?" stays almost the same but I'm petty and I like that the Spanish version kept the word 'consent' and Buck doesn't finish the first question, interrupting himself with the second one, while Latin America went with 'approval' (+1 points for Spain)

"My attorney said you could refuse" stays the same in both and then "But you know I wouldn't" "I know you wouldn't" changes because Latin America decided to change Eddie's part to "yes, I know" and I dislike it for two reasons: the original feels like a deeper knowing of each other, like he knows him so well that he even knows what he is about to say and he repeats it even while Buck hadn't finishing saying it, it feels more pure for me; this might be the dumbest reasoning I will ever use but it reminds me to a generic response on an Adam Sandler movie that uses childish comedy that takes me off the loop with the seriousness of the situation (is it dumb to give Spain points for that? Maybe, but I'll do it anyway)

"After Shanon left they all tried to get me to give Christopher to them" also changed, Latin America added a little bit of spice by saying "they tried to blackmail/extort me" (and God damnit I love that +1 for LATAM) but Spain went with "After Shannon died they wanted me to give them Christopher" like if they only started then, when in reality the worst part of this problem started when Eddie left El Paso so it just feels wrong to put it like that, like forgetting the whole 'dragging Christopher down with him' and that just won't do. (The Brazilian version is a true neutral that says "After Shannon everyone wanted Christopher with them")

"It's not what I wanted then, it's not what I want now", luckily, stays the same (minus slang, but there's a reason why there are two versions to begin with, the translation stays the same anyway)

"If it came to that... Wouldn't they fight for him?" Doesn't change.

"I don't know. Maybe. Probably" only feels different because of the voice actor, I really love Ryan's voice and it's hard to listen to the voices that are higher pitched than his so this part doesn't sound the same even tho it is.

"But no one would ever fight for my son as hard as you. That is what I want for him" doesn't change much either.

"You said you did this last year, why are you just telling me now?" ends up failing in both translations because of the 'just' alone although the Spanish one is quite a mess tbh because it goes "Why did you tell me that you did it, why are you telling me now" (I literally have no comments apart from wtf and why) while the Latin American has "And if you did it last year, why are you telling me now?" which is good at the beginning but I feel like the just really adds a weight to it that I would have loved there (but, tbf, this is a +1 points for LATAM moment)

"Because, Evan, you came in here the other day and you said you thought that it would have been better that it would have been you who got shot. You act like you are expendable... But you are wrong" is ALMOST the same except for the ending that has me without words because while it's the same I think the Latin American version changed things (Brazil also kept it like the original), yet again, to add a little bit more spice because, at the end, instead of pointing out that he thinks wrong, they went with "but you are not". Does it mean the same, at the end? Maybe, but it feels more like a reassurance than a correction, like a reminder that he is not expendable instead of wanting to let him know that he is thinking less of himself IDK (Argue with the wall here, +1 points for LATAM)

I swear I shouldn't get so passionate about this but I think it's really important and having two different versions of Spanish translations has always been a funny war between Spain and Latin America so I'm really used to comparing versions

(So with a sweet 5 against 4 points, LATAM wins this one; Brazil not participating only bc I couldn't find the audio and the subtitles are often different, the only reason why I added it was to emphasize things)

Anyway, thanks for coming to my Ted talk

#bilingual icks #Eddie's Will #im so not normal about this #911 #9-1-1 #911 fandom #eddie diaz #evan buckley #9 1 1 #buddie #translations #spanish #bilingual problems #911 season 4 #911 04x14

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baddygab-bi · 11 months

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I thought of the strongest way that ABC could walk back the end of season 6, and make buddie canon or at least make them besties again.

This is long. Buckle up.

We see Buck and Natalia, they’re doing well. But there are some hints being dropped that she’s very interested in what happens to Buck at work, in a way that’s almost more toxic positivity, than supportive. He’ll talk about how they lost someone and she’ll ask if they were at peace, and it’ll be like “No, they were crying in the backseat of the car and their legs were jammed into their sternum. I promised I would get them out and I couldn’t. I couldn’t save them” (imagine Buck and the Ferris wheel) and Natalia saying “You were their help on to the other side. The best guide.” Stuff like that idk.

Eddie and Marisol, also doing well. She’s growing closer with Chris. Yet there are hints that it’s not all perfect. The relationship feels very “first love” in an almost high school childish way where they can’t really talk about the big things. Like moving in together, or splitting chores, or adult things. Maybe Chris has something important coming up, like a surgery, or Chris is realizing that Marisol really could be the person his dad marries and it’s making him sorta upset. Not upset like with Ana, but more so just that it’s really happening and he’s seeing it happen. Like a normal kid would feel seeing their dad get into what would be a very serious relationship after you lost your mom, and then lost your dad’s previous girlfriend who you liked. Anyway, so there’s serious stuff going on and Eddie and Marisol can’t really talk about it because they both feel like they don’t wanna rock the boat. It causes a lot of tension, both tip toe around each other, keep things light and breezy. It’s great from the outside, but in reality, it’s lacking.

So now we’re on episode 4 or 5. Give time to see the relationships not be as perfect as we once thought. Show a bit of that unraveling. Show Eddie and Buck talking about it together. The deaths from work, the important conversations Eddie can’t have with Marisol, their own relationships. Show it all

Now… and here’s the controversial part that I strongly think would fix everything. I say this with love,

But the show needs to hurt Chris. Badly.

Eddie said he’s currently into engineering. So maybe he’s at a weekend camp. There’s robots and machinery and wires, and something goes wrong. There’s an explosion. People are hurt. Chris goes to help them (because he’s the greatest kid ever), but he ends up getting hurt too.

The 118 arrive and they realize Chris was inside. They can’t find him. That’s Eddie’s kid, he’s not handling it well, he’s going off the hinges. Buck has to physically restrain him from rushing into an area before it’s secure. Bobby walks away and Buck let’s go of Eddie, looks around and they take off running into the danger together.

They find Chris. They work to get him out. Eddie gets hurt getting Chris free. They take both to the hospital.

Chris is in one room, Eddie is in the other. Eddie is unconscious and Chris needs medical questions answered. Since Buck is his legal guardian in case of Eddie’s death, the doctors talk to Buck.

Marisol is there and doesn’t understand why they’d talk to Buck and not her, since she and Eddie are in a relationship. She’s not mean about it or rude, just confused. Buck explains the will, asks if she and Eddie ever talked about it. She says they don’t talk about that kind of stuff. It’s the biggest crack yet, she’s now rethinking a lot of stuff because she realizes that a relationship can’t just be surface level.

Natalia comes to the hospital. She is toxicly positive about Eddie and Christopher’s near death. And that sets Buck off. He tells her that Chris is a kid. Kids don’t deserve to die. It’s not a gift. It’s not cool. It’s awful and it’s painful and nobody likes seeing their kid in the hospital. (Call back to Margaret) Nat says “He’s not your kid, Buck.” And Marisol is like “Well, technically…” and the doctor comes over with news. Buck has to fight for Chris somehow, like maybe they want to transfer him to El Paso, because Eddie’s parents found out. This is reading like fanfic, but so has all of season 6, so this tracks. And Buck demands that Eddie and Chris stay together, here, where everyone is. Where they belong.

Buck can’t stand the fact that Natalia was so chill about him almost losing Eddie and Chris. Natalia doesn’t understand why what she said was wrong. In her mind, death is beautiful. It’s natural. They’re asleep, it would be peaceful. The two of them get into a massive fight, and he basically says “You once said you were wrong about how complicated my life is. But my life is complicated. I have people who rely on me, people who I love and care about who I never want to think about dying. Because death isn’t fun! It wasn’t cool for me! It’s not cool for anyone! If you really can’t understand all that, then I think we’re done, Natalia.” She agrees and leaves. For good.

Marisol understands that Buck would fight for Christopher harder than anyone. She suddenly feels like she’s missing parts of Eddie that are drastically important.

When Eddie wakes up, he thanks Buck for everything he did. He talks to Marisol who has questions about the will and Buck, she said that if they can’t have these hard conversations then… Maybe it’s best they don’t have anymore for a while. Eddie agrees. They part amicably.

The girls are gone. Eddie and Marisol can stay platonic friends maybe, since they agree that can’t handle the big things, but hanging out is still fun.

Now we have a single Buck, a single Eddie, hurt Diaz boys, a rekindled friendship, and a powerful Buck who finally realizes that he death wasn’t cool. Also, like, maybe Buck has to give Eddie or Chris and organ or something and he does so willingly without any hesitation (brings back Daniel, brings back sperm baby- except this time there is no “should I? Shouldn’t I?” It’s just “yes”)

This can be platonic buddie because we brought them back to where they were before and added some extra fight and strength to their relationship. Or romantic buddie where they realize that girls aren’t necessary and they’re happy just hanging with each other, because nobody else gets them like the other. We grow from there

Holy hell this was long. Okay, bye.

#911 fox #evan buckley #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #buddie #911 s6 spoilers #911 season 7 #just gabbing about #911 marisol #natalia dollenmeyer #christopher diaz #buckley diaz family

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clusterbuck · 2 years

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everything still turns to gold

blimp spec // tw for on page parent death (on a call)

buck breaks up with taylor exactly one year after eddie dropped the bomb.

it’s in my will. if i die, you become christopher’s legal guardian.

he doesn’t pick the day on purpose. he’s not even keeping track of the date on purpose. but he scrolls idly through his phone in the silence after taylor leaves, and timehop shows him that one year ago today he was making eddie’s welcome home banner together with christopher.

which means one year ago today he was sitting on a hospital bed, listening to eddie nonchalantly talk about the worst thing buck can possibly imagine.

if i die—

he hadn’t expected that to be the end of the conversation. he’d thought they’d talk more, at the party or maybe after it, talk through exactly what eddie had been thinking when he—

but it had been busy, and ana had been there, and it had just—never been the right moment. so for a year buck had pushed it down so deep he never had to touch it, so he never had to think about an eventuality where eddie is dead. it bubbled up every now and then—he’d spent an hour in the hospital bathroom throwing up after mitchell—but he got good at avoiding it, like he avoids thinking about everything else that scratches at that same spot inside his brain.

and now it’s been a year. and he wants to bring it up, but—

but eddie’s been doing so well. buck still remembers crouching on his bedroom floor, crunching on broken glass and splintered bits of wood, terror pounding in his veins. and eddie’s been doing well, but buck doesn’t want to risk bringing up his hypothetical death. just in case.

he’ll give it some time, he figures. just until eddie comes back to work. just until he’s sure that eddie’s actually okay. just until—

the summer slips by, and eddie comes back to the 118, and buck doesn’t bring it up.

they sit side by side on the loft couch, pressed against each other like they always used to be, and buck doesn’t bring it up. eddie shows off his new cooking skills, all bashful smiles at all the compliments, and buck doesn’t bring it up.

eddie has a close call with a falling beam in a collapsing building, and buck thinks fuck he almost died he almost—

buck thinks what am i supposed to do if he dies i can’t take care of chris by myself i can’t do it without him i can’t—

buck thinks what am i supposed to do if he dies we never talked about it i never told him that i—

but he doesn’t bring it up.

he goes home and throws up a couple of times and washes the taste out of his mouth with beer, then another one and another until he falls asleep still thinking fuck i never told him—

but he doesn’t bring it up.

—

the call comes in right around dinner, and from the second the bell goes off there’s a prickling at the back of buck’s neck, the kind of sense of impending danger he’s learned to trust by now. they pile into the engine without much information, but news trickles in as they speed through the streets and by the time they pull up they all know it’s going to be bad.

nonsensically, buck cranes his head around to check for eddie.

it’s fine. eddie’s fine. they haven’t even gone in yet, so everyone’s fine except for the people they’re actually here to help.

so he pulls himself together and listens to bobby’s instructions and checks in with incident command, and runs into the ruins of the collapsed stadium with eddie on his heels.

it’s—

gruesome, in a monotonous sort of way. monotonous, in a gruesome sort of way. it becomes routine faster than buck would have believed, back before he ever started this job, back before he knew what it was like to pull bodies from wreckage and know there’s no way to breathe life back into them again.

find a person, assess their condition, dig them out if there’s even a hint of hope. send them to triage if they can walk, radio for a gurney if they can’t. move on to the next one.

stick a black tag on a limb sticking out from a pile of rubble when there’s no pulse and no response. move on to the next one.

buck doesn’t think about how many thousands of people there must have been in the stadium when the blimp hit.

no, that’s not right—there’s only 25 blimps in the entire world.

buck doesn’t think about how many thousands of people there must have been in the stadium when the zeppelin hit.

all that matters is the person in front of him, and then the next one, and then the next one. it’s routine—

until it’s not. until a figure appears from around the corner, dusty and limping a little, blood trailing down his face from a cut at his hairline. the kid can’t be more than eleven or twelve.

christopher’s age, buck thinks, then shuts that thought down as fast as it appeared. but it lurks under the surface, drags its claws along the inside of his skull as a reminder of its presence.

“help,” the boy croaks. “help, it’s—it’s my dad, he’s—he won’t wake up—”

buck looks up to see eddie already looking at him, and neither has to say a word for both of them to get up and follow the boy.

he leads them around the corner, about fifteen feet away, to a section of seating half-covered in rubble. there’s a man in one of the seats, his legs crushed under a block of concrete and one of his arms hanging at an awkward angle.

but eddie crouches beside him and checks his pulse, and when he looks up he gives buck a faint nod.

alive, then.

but his injuries—

buck’s not a paramedic, but he knows how much blood loss is too much. the ground around the man is stained red, and everywhere he looks buck can see new wounds, can see blood flowing out of his body and into the dusty ground.

something ironic about that, buck thinks. to dust we return, and all that.

he crouches next to eddie, close enough that the kid can’t hear. “he’s not going to make it, is he?”

eddie shakes his head. “if we could get him into an OR right now, maybe—” he sighs. “there’s too much blood loss. no way he survives extraction and makes it to the hospital.”

buck swallows, nods, glances over at the kid hovering nervously by his dad’s feet. “how long do you think he has?”

“minutes, maybe,” eddie says. “maybe less. definitely not more.”

“any chance you could wake him up?”

eddie frowns. “buck, he’d be in a lot of—”

“i know,” buck says. “but—” he looks over at the kid again, and eddie follows his gaze.

“smelling salts might do it,” eddie says softly. “if he’s not too far gone. i’ll try.”

he starts digging through the med kit, and buck turns to the kid. “hey,” he says, holding out his hand until the kid takes a hesitant step forward. “what’s your name?”

“sam,” he whispers.

“hi, sam,” buck says. “my name is buck, and this is eddie. we’re going to try to wake your dad up, okay?”

“is he going to die?”

“let’s just wake him up first,” buck says, each word piercing his throat like glass. “then we’ll see. okay?”

“okay,” sam mumbles.”

“what’s your dad’s name?”

“kevin.”

“okay, sam,” buck says, and turns to check on eddie. eddie gives him a thumbs up. “okay, let’s see if we can’t get your dad awake.”

eddie holds the bottle of smelling salts under kevin’s nose, and he snorts. he blinks, slow, lethargic, and when he breathes in it’s laboured and rattling. “what’s—”

eddie takes kevin’s hand, squeezing, trying to keep his attention. “hi, kevin. my name is eddie diaz, i’m a firefighter with the LAFD. there’s been an accident.”

“sam—” kevin tries, and trails into a hacking, gurgling cough.

“sam is right here,” eddie says, soothing. “my partner, firefighter buckley, has him.”

“is he—” more coughs.

“he’s fine,” eddie says. “a little banged up, but it’s all fixable.”

“but—i’m—” kevin tries, and buck watches eddie pull himself together before answering.

“we thought you’d like to talk to him,” eddie says softly.

kevin’s eyes drift closed, and moments later he blinks them open again. buck can see the effort it must have taken, the sweat beading on his forehead, but kevin grits his teeth and tries to turn his head.

“sam—”

buck puts his hand on the small of sam’s back and gives him a gentle shove. “go on,” he murmurs. “it’s okay.”

it’s not okay. it’s so far from okay buck wants to scream, wants to tear his hair out, wants to—

but sam takes a step forward and reaches for his father’s hand. “dad?”

“sam,” kevin rasps. “sam, i—” he pauses for breath, and a cough racks his lungs, so long that for a moment buck thinks this will all have been for nothing. but kevin goes on. “i love you,” he manages to say. “remember, sam. i love you.”

“dad!” sam cries, tears streaming down his cheeks, and kevin looks up at him one last time. “i love you too,” sam sobs, and kevin’s eyes slide shut again.

this time, they don’t open.

sam screams. buck thinks he says something but he’s not sure, because he watches eddie attach a black tag to kevin’s bloody shirt and something in him just—snaps. he gets to his feet and starts walking, blind, unsure if he’s going the right way or if he’s going to end up lost in the collapsed bowels of the stadium. he just needs to get away.

he bursts outside and squints against the glare of the floodlights. someone calls his name but he doesn’t react, doesn’t say anything, doesn’t even look over, just keeps walking and walking and walking until he finds an empty engine by the edge of all the chaos and collapses behind it.

bobby’s going to ream him out. he shouldn’t have left like that, shouldn’t have left the thousands of people still trapped in the stadium, shouldn’t have left eddie—

should have known eddie would follow him. buck doesn’t look up as eddie’s turnout boots appear in his field of vision, as they walk to his side and eddie settles in next to him, leaning against the side of the engine.

“i went by IC,” eddie says. “told them where we left off. they have enough people on scene, it’ll be okay.”

buck doesn’t say anything.

“you’re not okay,” eddie says. it’s not a question.

“they were at a soccer game,” buck says, hollow. “just a father and a son at a soccer game.” he turns his head against the cold metal of the engine, looking at eddie. “they were a father and son at a soccer game and now the father’s dead, and you took chris to a baseball game last week and you put me in your fucking will, eddie, like—like what? i’m just supposed to be okay with it?”

eddie frowns. “are you—i thought—would you not—”

buck sighs, tips his head back against the engine again. “of course i would take christopher. i love that kid more than anything in the world, you know that. that’s not the point.”

“then what is the point?”

“the point is you put me in your will and told me what happens if you die like i’m just supposed to be okay with it? like i hadn’t just watched you get shot right in front of me? like i’m not supposed to see a dad die in front of his son and think that could have been eddie, and the guy in the car crash yesterday could have been you, and the guy with the apartment fire last week could have been you, and—”

“buck,” eddie says, knocking his knee against buck’s to curb his spiral. “any of those hypotheticals could have been true before i changed my will. it didn’t change anything.”

“it didn’t—” buck starts, and throws his hands up in the air. “eddie, you put me in your will. there is a legal document tying me to you and we never fucking talked about it, and i—”

eddie looks at him, sidelong, something curious in his eyes. “yeah, we did,” he says. “at the hospital. i told you why.”

“yeah, but we didn’t talk about it,” buck says. he knows it’s nonsensical so he carries on, words spilling out of his mouth, unsure if they even make sense after being stuck behind the dam he built in his mind for so long. “you didn’t tell me why, not really, and we didn’t talk about the part where i can’t think about it without thinking about you dying, and who even puts someone in their will anyway? just like that? like that’s not something you just do, not unless it’s family or something, and—”

eddie’s hand appears in front of him and buck takes it, squeezing so hard he’d be a little worried about breaking eddie’s fingers if he didn’t know the ridiculous amounts of calcium that man consumes.

“breathe,” eddie says, squeezing back, their fingers slowly intertwining, their hands settling in buck’s lap.

“okay,” eddie says softly, squeezing his hand again. “we’ll talk about it.”

#911 spoilers #911fic #emma writes #shush emma #i don’t know i just started saying words and now we’re here #the title is of course from stairway to heaven by *ba dum tss* led zeppelin

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Speculation: "Death and taxes" is about Chimney and Maddie. This is where legal guardian issues for Jee-Yun will probably come up.

I wonder if we finally get that talk that reveals Buck is written down in Eddie's will as Christopher's legal guardian in case something happens to Eddie. 👀

#911 speculation #911 spoilers #911 6x15 #911 s6b speculations #madney #evan buckley #eddie diaz #we wrote fics about this are we going to see this paly out in canon?#manifest with me

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hope-i-dont-choke · 1 year

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Buck: How come it’s always “I love you, will you marry me?” And never “I’ve made you the legal guardian of my child in the case of my death”?

Eddie: Dammit Buck! Not Now!

Buck: WHEN

Chimney: Wait, Is that something Eddie actually did?

Buck: Yes! It is! Now Eddie please, tell everyone again, how you’re NOT in love with me?

Eddie: I’m gonna hurt you.

Buck: Yeah well, I’m gonna take Christopher in the divorce!

Eddie: WE’RE NOT MARRIED!

Buck: AND WHOSE FAULT IS THAT!!!

#buddie

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writerbri-archive · 11 months

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parents always yelling (telling us to get our acts together) by @prettyboybuckley Oneshot | General Rating | 2973

“What is going on, Helena?” his father asks. “Eddie?”

Abuela catches Eddie’s eye, and she looks almost amused, watching on with a raised eyebrow as if she knows exactly what is about to happen. If this escalates, she can deal with the mess, he supposes.

“Edmundo, tell him,” his mother says and oh, she’s breaking out the full name.

“I made Buck Christopher’s legal guardian in case of my death,” he tells his father while looking him straight in the eyes.

OR: Eddie confesses about changing his will while he's got both his own parents and Buck's parents in his house. It doesn't go well.

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#buddie #buddie fic #rated g #0 to 15 #individual rec

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Parent-trapping your Best Friend: Ethical Dilemma or Best Idea Eddie Diaz has ever had?

Eddie is having a pretty good day, actually. And he wasn’t even ignoring his Abuela’s words from yesterday! Frank is going to have a fucking field day at Eddie’s next appointment.

Eddie is well-aware that he is irrevocably in love with his best friend. It isn’t a secret that Eddie keeps from himself anymore; It is a truth that empowers him, a love that strengthens rather than drains.

All that Eddie has to do is open his damn mouth and tell him.

Do you remember how I said that when it came to relationships, Buck was like a golden retriever going downhill on a skateboard? Yeah, so it turns out dogs close their eyes when they do that. If you can’t see what’s going to hurt you, it won’t hurt right? Right?

Anyway, Eddie was having a pretty good day, even if he was, technically, two minutes late to work. From the bay doors, he can hear a conversation that could fit right in at a high school debate competition: ‘Telling Your Crush That You Like Them: For or Against?’.

“Wait, people actually tell their crushes that they like them?” Eddie asks, the question dripping with sarcasm as he joins Chimney and Ravi in the station locker room.

“Yes, Eddie, some of us actually know how to communicate effectively,” says Chimney, matching Eddie’s tone. “What the hell do you do about your crushes then, if you don’t tell them?” he asks, leaning against the wall of lockers.

“Well, I made him the legal guardian of my son, in the case of my death, and then I got shot in front of him. That seemed to work,” Eddie surmises, finishing the buttons on his uniform.

Ravi’s head whips up and joins the conversation.

Eddie likes Ravi; he’s a good kid and a decent firefighter. Surely, he will add something of value to this conversation.

“So, you baby-trapped him?” Ravi accuses, grinning widely.

In the time it takes for his face to fall, Eddie has decided that he no longer likes Ravi.

The incident alarm sounds at that moment, saving Ravi from a t-shirt to the face, and A-shift moves for the truck and ambulance.

“From one man in love with a Buckley to another, I think you should start taking your own advice,” Chimney says, kindly.

“I don’t think there’s a therapist on this planet that could get me to do that,” Eddie huffs, closing his locker door.

A therapist, definitely not. But Evan Buckley, maybe.

Buck knows he has more than just ‘best friend’-ly feelings for one (1) Eddie Diaz. And he also knows that making your best friend the legal guardian of your son, when your girlfriend was right there, is not exactly ‘bro’ behaviour. He’s not entirely oblivious, credit where credit is due, but also how the hell is Buck supposed to bring that up in regular conversation?

“Hey, do you need anything from the grocery store? Also, remember how you made me Christopher’s other parent and then we never talked about it again? Oh, and I am in love with you. Can you preheat the oven?”

Buck would be lying if he said he hadn’t considered it.

And so, Buck has been enduring the sweet torture of micro-dosing domestic bliss for the last God-knows how long, but that is not going to stop him from leaning on the loft railing at the beginning of each shift so he can perfectly time a, totally, coincidental locker room entrance.

At 2 minutes past 8:00am, Eddie walks into the garage, right on schedule.

After waiting the customary 37 seconds, Buck makes his way down the stairs, stopping just out of sight of the glass walls (seriously, who the hell thought that was a good idea?) when he hears a truly unhinged phrase from Ravi.

“So, you baby-trapped him?”

Alas, the universe is a fickle deity, and the incident alarm sounds before the ‘DVD-Video’ logo can hit the corner of Buck’s brain and produce a viable thought.

Working on nothing other than muscle memory and ‘baby-trapped’ on loop in his mind, Buck follows Ravi to the engine, joined quickly by the rest of A-shift.

Hot tip: if you have immense romantic feelings for your best friend, do not become firefighters because when you sit next to them in a fire truck you will be pressed against their side for an absolutely torturous amount of time.

Their first call was uneventful, and the rest of the shift was quiet fine, mostly basic rescues and straight-forward medical calls. And so Buck finds himself standing in the slowly emptying locker-room with Eddie next to him, allowing the day’s adrenaline to seep out of him with every slow breath. He chances a look at Eddie, just as Eddie does the same. They both smile softly, and Eddie tilts his head toward the door, a silent but permanent invitation.

Neither one of them are certain of when their relationship shifted. Perhaps, they were always destined to end up as a family, together and in love. Either way, it has led to the most profound relationship both have ever experienced. A relationship enriched with comfort and desire simultaneously, that both are terrified to damage. But, at the same time it is the kind of relationship that strengthens with every look, word, and action. So, maybe, it isn’t so scary after all when sitting on the perfect couch, Eddie takes Buck’s hand, opens his damn mouth, and tells him how bright the sun shines when Buck is by his side.

Their family will call them ‘insufferable’ and ‘sickeningly in love’ because they are. But there is safety in love and a truth that strengthens rather than drains.

Companion Piece to The Husbandification of Evan Buckley - Set between Abuela and TK sections - 950 words

Also available on AO3 - Parent-Trapping Your Best Friend

The Husbandification of Evan Buckley Series - on AO3 (Continuously updating)

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bibitch35 · 3 years

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#911 spoilers #911 fox #911 s4 #911 show #911 4x14 #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #buck is Christopher’s legal guardian in the case of eddie’s death #my post #Buck & Eddie #S5 Buddie hope #911 season 5 #9 1 1 season 5

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joebennet · 3 years

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songs that remind me of buddie: no light no light; florence and the machine

[image one: a gif of buck’s shocked, blood splattered face stares at where eddie has fallen. overlaid is buck struggling to tell eddie he lost christopher during the tsunami. the only color is the blue of his eyes. “no light no light in your bright blue eyes”.]

[image two: eddie turns calmly to survey a scene when suddenly a bullet tears through his shoulder. overlaid is buck staring in horror at the tsunami’s first wave as it approaches. “i never knew daylight could be so violent”.]

[image three: buck sits alone in his apartment after the tsunami, contemplating. overlaid is eddie lying in a pool of his own blood, reaching for buck in the distance. “a revelation in the light of day”.]

[image four: in black and white, eddie tells buck that he is christopher’s legal guardian in case of his death. overlaid is eddie speaking to buck after the tsunami. “you can choose what stays and what fades away”.]

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loveyourownsmiilee · 2 years

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If Buck and Eddie are not gonna ever end up, then why:

Have Eddie question his relationship with the most “perfect” woman he could ever be with?

Have Eddie have panic attacks over the mere idea of having a future with said “perfect” woman?

Have Eddie make Buck his son’s legal guardian in case of death?

Have Eddie reaffirm that he trusts absolutely no one more than Buck with his entire world, his son?

Have Eddie be the one person who gives “Evan” a new, different meaning?

Have Eddie go through a bunch of traumatic shit but not talk to his best friend who’s also gone through the same traumatic shit?

Have Eddie and Buck make a family together with Christopher?

Have Buck take care of Christopher willingly when Eddie was in a coma?

Have so many parallels where we see both Buck and Eddie acting like a father to Christopher?

Have so many goddamn heart eyes being thrown both ways?

Have Eddie get blatantly jealous whenever Buck mentions his girlfriend?

Have Buck get with the reporter and have no chemistry whatsoever besides sexual chemistry? (Which is nonexistent atm)

Have Buck keep shit away from said girlfriend, which may lead to some relationship issues?

Have Buck be the one who talks to Eddie about breaking up with his girlfriend?

Have Buck and Eddie parallel the other couples on the show?

Have the show continuously choose to showcase Buck, Eddie, & Christopher as a family unit?

Choices are continuing to be made. So if not Buck and Eddie, then what?

#buddie #I’m just so exhausted #they’re gonna be endgame #there’s too much laid out for them NOT to be #if you can’t see a potential gay storyline just say you’re homophobic and move on #jujus having thoughts #give me buddie or give me hell #and with this I’m off to bed #much love everyone 🥰

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piratefalls · 2 years

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Do you have recs for fics in which Eddie's will has a big part ? Either when he goes to do it, or it being discussed with Buck, Chris, the firefam or Eddie's parents.

masterlist

after searching a number of tags, these are fics where Eddie’s will is discussed in more than just a few sentences. it’s not much, but i broke this down into a few categories in case you were looking for a specific flavor of ~the will fic, including the theme of eddie making plans for everyone but himself. if i wind up finding more along the way i'll update the list. thank you for the request!

eddie makes the will

this life that we've created (or: how silvia rodriguez learned to believe in fairytales again) by evcndiaz

"So, just to be clear: You want to make a—” she glances down at her papers, “—Mr. Evan Buckley your son Christopher Diaz's guardian in the event of your untimely death."

"Yes, that is correct."

"And you... don't want to tell him about it?"

"Eh," he says. Eh, like he's not breaking Silvia's brain. "I'm sure I'll tell him eventually."

or; eddie makes buck christopher's legal guardian told from his lawyer's perspective. because why not

to bind one's heart to another by tkreyesevandiaz

Moments in time where Eddie thinks about one of the most critical decisions of his life.

discussing the will

a warmth i've never known by selfmythology

It’s quiet on the other end of the line for a long moment. Buck counts his heartbeats. They’re quick with worry while he waits for Eddie to speak.

“Buck, I think you need to take him to the ER.”

Heavy It Weighs by kimannebb

After the events of 4x13 Buck tries to come to terms with the shooting, his new responsibilities regarding Christopher and how he will be able to move forward. * “This is some bullshit,” Buck says lowly.

“No, this is what Eddie wanted. He gave me the letter last year.”

He nods because he doesn’t know what to say. He looks at the letter again before folding it and putting it back into the envelope.

Despite it all, Because of it all by kitkatpancakestack

He puts the truck in park in front of Eddie’s childhood home. Christopher shifts in the back, already unbuckling his seatbelt. Eddie is frozen with his jaw set, eyes hard and unblinking as they bore holes through the windshield. Buck was here once before, after that relief trip to Texas, but he is under no illusions that this time will be similar. For one, he doesn’t have the buffer of other firefighters to hide behind. This isn’t a visit that will last a couple hours, and so the sugary, superficial niceties will eventually crumble when it’s mid-way through the week and he’s still hanging around. There is also the shadow of everything that has happened since the wildfires skulking behind them, waiting to be found out.

But, this is Eddie and Christopher, needing him to have it together, so he paints on a smile and squeezes Eddie's knee and slides out of the truck.

Eddie's dad gets sick. Buck goes with him and Christopher to El Paso.

In Case of Emergency by allisonRW96

“You spent a great deal of time considering what you wanted for Christopher if something was ever to happen to you. Did you ever once give yourself the same consideration?”

“Well I was going to be dead,” Eddie answers. “So it didn’t seem like there was anything to think about. Either I’d be alive and I’d handle it or I’d be dead and it- It wouldn’t matter.”

***

Eddie doesn't have an emergency contact. Frank challenges him to do something about that.

i love you, ain't that the worst thing you've ever heard? by rarakiplin

Buck’s eyes fall shut, something pained and vulnerable sliding into the bend of his eyebrows. “I’m…I’m with Taylor now,” he says, barely a whisper.

And Eddie’s been doing a pretty good job at being brave about all of this, at not flinching away from Buck’s rejection, but that hits and burrows.

“Okay.”

or, in which eddie's will reveal is a love confession, and buck takes a second to catch up

diaz parents find out

Actually, Truly by MilenaDaniels

Isabel calls to tell them Eddie's been shot on a Thursday afternoon and by lunch on Friday Helena and Ramon are landing at LAX. When they land, they learn Eddie's already home recovering and has been for two weeks.

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Or, Helena (and Ramon) tries to find a way back into Eddie's life and doesn't know what to make of finding Buck around every corner she turns.

parents always yelling (telling us to get our acts together) by prettyboybuckley

“What is going on, Helena?” his father asks. “Eddie?”

“Edmundo, tell him,” his mother says and oh, she’s breaking out the full name.

“I made Buck Christopher’s legal guardian in case of my death,” he tells his father while looking him straight in the eyes.

OR: Eddie confesses about changing his will while he's got both his own parents and Buck's parents in his house. It doesn't go well.

the 118 find out

After Everything I Must Confess, I Need You by 13zepptraxx

“And Christopher? Would he be okay?”

Buck shakes his head. “Don’t do that. Don’t hold him over me.”

“If you’re gonna talk about sacrificing yourself, then yeah- I do need to do that.” Eddie snaps. There’s a pause as Buck shuts his eyes and takes a breath. When he opens them, a tear falls from his eye before he can stop it. “If you’re gone, and something happens to me-”

“You can’t just bring that up every time I do something that’s maybe reckless.” Buck snaps back, and Eddie’s breath catches in his throat. “I didn’t realize when you made me Chris’s guardian that it was just a failsafe to keep me from doing stupid shit.”

bonus: will goes into effect

Leave the Light On (I'll Be Coming Home) by HMSLusitania

“We’re here for our grandson,” Helena says. “Chris is still sleeping,” Buck says. “I meant, we’re here to take him back to Texas,” Helena clarifies. “Yeah,” Buck says. He’s too tired, way too tired to be tactful. “Over my dead body.” -- An accident on a call leaves Buck with custody of Chris after Eddie is... missing presumed. While they navigate their new family circumstances -- and fight to stay together, despite Eddie's parents' best efforts -- a John Doe wakes up in a coma ward with no memory of his own life beyond the knowledge he has a son named Christopher and, somehow, he needs to get home.

#buddie #fic rec #buddie fic rec #rec list #buckeddie #Evan buckley #Eddie diaz #911 fox #911 #fanfiction #buck x eddie

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fcntasmas-archive · 3 years

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Buddie & 29: Wedding fic + 100: Accidentally Saving the Day ??? I'll have you know the romantic in me just wanted to do wedding and flowers but you know plot is probably good lmao also Idk if I did this right but

FOR YOU MY LOVE???? i would have done it. i would have, ok. and i woulda found a plot somewhere in there, too, unlike this mess you allowed me to write: ok. so. i feel like around october 2021, maddie and chimney finally decide to get married. it’s long overdue, yadda yadda, they’ve heard it all. but they’re happy with the road they’ve taken — however long it’s been, it’s theirs, and theirs alone. their relationship was built on patience and understanding, after all, and after a long and unified treatment of maddie’s postpartum depression (with extensive therapy and medication as needed) for the rest of the year, they feel like they’re finally in a place to throw this big and beautiful party they feel like they’ve definitely earned. buck and eddie, on the other hand. eh. things are not progressing as we would hope. don’t get me wrong — after eddie confessed to buck that he’d changed his will to make buck christopher’s legal guardian, he’d felt — not — something had shifted, and buck had simply assumed that was their friendship growing stronger, and he was right, for the most part — their friendship was stronger than ever. buck spent a lot of time with them, he was more cautious out on calls (if eddie doesn’t want his kid to end up with his parents in case of his death, it’ll be pretty fucking hard to prevent that if buck is also dead, after all), he was just — grateful. aware of what a gift every day is. yeah, he’s dating taylor, but he’s doing a good job of balancing his relationship and this new role he’s found in the diazes’ lives (i mean. so he assumes, but taylor’s been left on read by him enough times to know something’s gotta give here). and eddie is— he’s going crazy, okay? he’s going insane. because when he got shot, the last thing he saw was buck’s face, and so when he woke up, the first thing he expected to see was buck’s face because it felt like a second had passed but instead he saw ana’s and there was this deep, gut-wrenching disappointment when it happened and he didn’t mean for buck to be the first person he asked after, but last he’d remembered there was blood all over him and he just wanted to make sure he was okay— and it was this big, monumental thing for him, to realize that buck was — buck is — the best decision he’s ever made in his life. because that’s what buck is — a choice. he chose buck — everything good in his life has come to him through blessings or coincidence. he loves his son with all of his being, but even he was a surprise, a surprise he welcomed with open arms (and fears that formed into an escape but he got back, somehow. he found his way back to him, like he always does). buck, on the other hand, was a man who hated him for approximately twelve hours, then smiled at him and told eddie he could have his back any day. he’d tentatively offered himself in eddie’s life as a partner, a friend, a confidant, and eddie — eddie chose to let him in. eddie, notorious for keeping as many cards as possible close to his chest, allowed him into his life to fill all of these roles, and eddie hasn’t regretted it a single day of his life. trusts him with his entire world more than anyone — and god, if that shouldn’t have said something to him sooner. so. he’s kind of stupidly in love with buck, who is kind of dating taylor kelly, and it’s fine, he’s fine. (except for the part that he feels like every single tendon in his body is slowly and painfully snapping out of place, threatening to leave him a crumbled useless mess on the floor any day now. but that’s, like, fine.)

it doesn’t get any easier. mostly because buck’s place in his life doesn’t diminish despite him dating taylor and especially since eddie breaks up with ana. he’s there for all the big stuff — christopher’s birthday, abuela’s birthday, tia pepa’s retirement party, eddie’s extensive physical therapy, at three in the morning when eddie wakes up from a nightmare and all he can do is seek out the comfort of buck’s voice, quiet and alive in his ear.

it’s infuriating because he’s always there, in the months that follow the shooting, the same way he’s always been, so instead of shoving the feeling down eddie is forced to confront it every single day in the way buck smiles at him, in the way he reaches out and squeezes him arm in comfort when he’s far away, in the way he makes christopher breakfast and answers his endless array of questions, in the way he greets his grandmother with a kiss to the cheek and dutifully allows her to make the sign of the cross over him before he leaves despite not being religious in the slightest, in the way he subconsciously reaches out to eddie after every call as if to make sure he’s still there, it’s in every single part of buck and buck is in every single part of him and so he cannot — even if he wanted to try — shove the feeling aside when it’s so fucking alive in him every single day.

and it’s why, a day before the wedding on a december evening, when buck leaves one of his many jackets behind at their house and eddie picks it up to move it from the couch to the entrance to remember to give it back to him, he feels like his soul leaves his body when he sees a small black box fall from the pocket and onto his floor.

it’s a ring. it’s obviously a ring.

and he spends the rest of the night staring at the box in his hand, terrified of opening it, not wanting to know what it looks like. because what would taylor kelly like, in a ring? eddie can’t imagine it wouldn’t be something extravagant. buck probably knows. he has to know, if he’s picking one out for her. if he’s so sure about her he’s going to propose.

and that’s just — is it chim and maddie? has it gotten buck thinking about the future? should eddie ask? because buck shouldn’t — he shouldn’t. it’s only been months, for fuck’s sake. he’s just gonna — and when does he even find the time—

he is desolate. he doesn’t even call buck that night, after he wakes up from a nightmare, because this one is shaped a lot like the black box he refuses to open sitting on his end table, and he can’t really explain that one away to buck, can he?

he thinks about it the entire morning of, when he doesn’t hear from buck. he doesn’t expect to, obviously; he’s busy being maddie’s best man (something about not conforming to the norms or whatever) and he has to be at the reception way earlier than any of the guests have to be and so eddie is left pointedly ignoring the box on his end table as he gets himself ready, carla being the angel that she is and helping get chris ready.

when he has nothing else to distract him, he kneels in front of his end table and glares at the box until he realizes he’s being really fucking ridiculous. he should just — give the box back to buck, and ask zero questions — or, congratulate him, because that’s what a good friend would do, right? a good friend who is not in love with him would most definitely give him the ring back and joke about his commitment issues because, ha ha, you sure play fast and loose with the one object meant to represent your eternal love for her, dude!

christ. he’s a child.

he pockets the ring and pretends it’s not burning a hole in his coat pocket the entire hour-long ride to the reception.

it’s here where he runs into a panicked-looking buck in the middle of the reception lobby, tie askew and eyes a wild shade of his usual blue, and eddie has to steady him and take him outside in the cold before he passes out in the middle of all the people lounging around. buck is having trouble breathing, saying something about i lost — i lost—

and eddie can kind of fill in the blanks here, stomach swooping with guilt when he reaches into his pocket and pulls out the one object that’s been killing him slowly all day.

buck blinks at the box for a second. silent. awed. then he looks at eddie and tells him he could kiss him, holy shit, and he takes the box and it’s actually one of those boxes that opens from the middle, which, huh, eddie hadn’t noticed, and when buck opens it (and there’s a moment where eddie considers running away from the sight, he’s not gonna lie) there are—

two wedding bands.

oh.

“holy shit, ed, you just saved my ass,” he tells him, pulling him in for an embrace that does nothing to settle eddie’s super mature yearning. “i thought i’d lost them! i thought maddie was going to have my entire head.”

of course it’s not an engagement ring, of course it’s not. they’re chim and maddie’s wedding bands, and actually, eddie should be a little more concerned at how easily buck had forgotten them at eddie’s, but he’s too busy feeling the relief flow through him like an antidote to the veins, and he realizes right here, right now, that actually, he doesn’t think he could ever handle buck marrying anyone. not taylor, not the next girl, or the next.

buck freezes against him, and eddie realizes a little belatedly he just said that out loud.

he pulls away immediately and coughs into his hands and starts muttering incoherently about a game he’d seen last night on the tv and how he has to go to the bathroom and he’s, uh, actually gonna go, glad he could be of help, glad he could save buck’s ass—

buck looks at the rings and back at eddie and asks if eddie thought this was for taylor, and eddie makes a noise that sounds like “alilbit”, and buck shakes his head in disbelief and tells eddie he broke up with taylor, like, two weeks ago, and eddie is shocked because what? when? why didn’t he say anything? and buck shrugs and admits he didn’t want the focus to be on whatever he is or isn’t feeling so close to chim and maddie’s wedding and eddie says, right, but, no offense to them, but he comes first to eddie, and he would be wondering that anyway, and buck looks at him for a second and he asks eddie, point blank, “you didn’t want me to marry taylor?”

or anyone, eddie doesn’t correct. he tries to come up with a flimsy excuse — just thought it was too fast, blah blah — but then he looks into buck’s eyes, one of his favorite sights to lose himself in, and he blurts out: “no. no, i didn’t. i think i was gonna ask you not to, actually. because the thought of you marrying anyone who isn’t me fills me with dread and despair, so i also think i was going to confess i’m stupidly in love with you.”

and buck looks indecipherable, for once. eddie is shifting his weight both in a nervous gesture and in an attempt to keep warm because it’s cold, alright, it’s cold for LA and he’s also from texas so he’s not good at handling any kind of cold—

and buck just closes the box in his hands and then waves his hands in the air like he’s trying to get eddie’s attention and eddie’s super confused but then buck’s like what the fuck, eddie, and he starts pacing back and forth ranting about how long he’s been wanting to hear that and how much sleep he’s lost trying to come up with the right way to tell him and eddie just shows up, saves the fucking day, and confesses? just like that? it’s so fucking annoying how easy he made it look, like buck hasn’t been shitting his pants any time the words even try to make it past his lips, and also, also, on maddie’s wedding day? how is he supposed to think about ANYTHING ELSE now? he’s supposed to walk around like he doesn’t know the man he’s been in love with for years loves him back?

and he keeps going on and on about how actually this is the worst-best thing that’s ever happened to him, but all eddie can hear are the ones where buck confesses to being in love with eddie for years, and it takes them a moment to settle in his veins, push past the insecurities, and reboot his entire body until finally, finally, he interrupts buck in the middle of a sentence (“and then you did that thing that one time with your mouth—”) by pressing his lips against his, and it’s like the cold around them exists no more.

eddie’s never felt warmer.

buck is right, in the end. he seems to find it exceedingly difficult to keep his eyes off eddie during the ceremony, enough so that eddie has to force himself not to blush, and when the vows are said and wedding bands are exchanged and the groom has kissed the bride — when the night gets started and everyone starts mingling and no one spares him a second glance, eddie finds out that coat closets are, in fact, not as soundproof as buck promised him they were, and he also ends up owing denny fifty dollars so he never, ever tells his mom he caught him sucking on buck’s face like a teenager when all the poor kid had wanted was his coat.

(worth it, though.)

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Oh man oh man, could you do 52 and 98 for buddie?

52. Marriage of Convenience + 98. Curses, my beloved

So it’s like this:

There’s a curse on the Buckley family. Always has been, always will be. It was laid upon them back in the 13th century, no one’s happy about it, obviously, but it’s been like 800 years and at this point, you just roll with what you’ve got.

And the curse is pretty straight forward: Be married by your 25th birthday or you will drop dead that morning.

It’s why Buck and Maddie don’t have cousins.

The original curse got planted on the family because the caster wanted to coerce the not-yet-Buckley in question into marrying her, but had ended up dying herself before that could happen. Regrettably, her death hadn’t broken the curse.

At some point in the mid-20th century, they found a witch who offered to try and break the curse for the family. it didn’t work, but they got an extension. They’ve got until 28 now, which isn’t great but it’s at least better.

So, like, the whole Buck 1.0 phase is largely him trying to find himself in LA and find someone -- anyone, please, I don’t want to die -- to want to be with him enough to marry him.

Not that he actually tells anyone about the curse because who would believe him, right?

Eddie, as it turns out, would believe him. Eddie Diaz, Buck’s best friend, who doesn’t believe in the universe screaming, doesn’t believe that a single word can jinx the fire station for an entire shift, asked the universe for a sign once and the universe basically told him to go fuck himself, that Eddie.

And it’s not that Eddie believes that Buck is cursed, necessarily?

Although he does ask Maddie once and she gets really, really quiet about it before saying simply, “it’s true.”

Eddie doesn’t know that he believes in curses but he does believe Buck is scared. And he does believe that Buck is watching the clock count down to his 28th birthday. And he’s already thinking about putting Buck down as Christopher’s “just in case” guardian, so, really, what’s one more legal binding if it gets Buck to stop freaking out?

Eddie is not thinking about exactly what that one more legal binding might be, what it might mean in conjunction with the other, why it might feel so easy for him to make this decision.

And so they get married. Courthouse, Maddie’s the only witness, the LAFD is notified but told it’s just for tax purposes, they’re not actually dating, there’s no need to split them up.

Buck’s 28th birthday arrives, and he’s... fine. Nothing bad happens to him. They’re all totally fine. They’re just married now.

Theoretically, they can get divorced -- although Maddie was the first Buckley to actually try that and the paperwork had never been finalised, so they don’t absolutely know for sure that they can.

And there’s the small problem that Eddie just...doesn’t want to.

They move in together, and they’ve got their own rooms, and the three of them have this great little family unit, and why would Eddie want to mess with that? Why would Buck? Chris certainly doesn’t want them to.

So they just stay married and eventually, over time, Eddie forces himself to acknowledge why it was so easy to make Buck Chris’s in-case-of-emergency legal guardian (way easier to deal with now that he’s also legally Christopher’s stepdad), and why it didn’t take very much convincing to get himself to offer to help in the face of Buck’s curse.

But he’s too worried about fucking up this thing they’ve got if he says anything, so he stays quiet about it.

Until his blood is all over Buck’s face while they’re in the middle of the street.

Oh.

The first thing the nurse tells him when he wakes up is that his husband and his son have been in to visit him every day, and that’s a good man he’s found.

Eddie can only agree with her. He and Buck don’t get a minute alone until after he’s been discharged from the hospital, and after Buck comes to bring him home, all of Eddie’s medications and physical therapy instructions in hand, Eddie asks him to sit so they can talk for a minute, and he manages to tell him that he doesn’t want to just be married to Buck for the sake of convenience, he wants it to be real because he loves him.

Buck only barely stops himself from tackling Eddie in a kiss -- injured shoulder and all -- but it’s okay.

They’ve got time.

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