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since it's pride month and I'm an introvert with anxiety issues and this has been on my mind, here's a reminder that it's 100% okay to never come out if you don't want to. even if you're in a safe community! if you don't want to be perceived, you don't have to be! if it wouldn't be liberating for you to make a public proclamation of your identity because you're a private person who doesn't like people knowing personal things about you, least of all your romantic or sexual preferences or how you feel about gender, then don't! you don't owe anybody anything!! go forth and be an enigma my pal
if i didn’t know better (i’d think you were singing to me now)
Julie Molina didn’t think that she’d have to go through one of life’s biggest milestones without her mom, but here she is, standing in front of the window wondering what it would be like to have her mom by her side. Little does Julie know, Rose has always had a plan for her daughter’s wedding day. It just might take a little bit of searching and time.
“When Julie had gone to pull the wedding dress off the closet door, she hadn't originally noticed it. But as she went to pull the garment off the hanger, her eyes zeroed-in on a cream coloured something. She felt her breath catch a little as she placed the dress back down onto the bed. Quickly reaching to flip it around, she had instantly recognized her mom’s writing scrawled across the little piece of paper and pulled off the key that was taped to the back. Grabbing the note, and ignoring the shouted questions from Flynn, she ran down the stairs to find someone, anyone, who could give her answers.”
trigger warnings: mentions of canonical death (julie’s mom) and overall a lot of thoughts/feelings about Rose’s passing
word count: ~ 10,200 words
Happy (early-ish because I can’t post during work tomorrow and also timezones) birthday, @tangledstarlight!
READ ON AO3 HERE.
2020 FRIEND APPRECIATION
hi friends! what a fucking year am i right??? not to sound cheesy but tumblr was genuinely such a safe and warm space for me this past year. there is no way for me to adequately explain how important the friends ive made on this site have been for my emotional wellbeing in a time when ive been largely isolated from my irl friends/activities. throughout 2020 this has been a place i could turn to confidently for encouragement, support, and good conversations. thank you all so much.
i wanna first give a special shoutout to the two amazing discord groups im a part of: Creatorhub and the GCWCA. through Creatorhub ive met so many incredible gifmakers, learned so many cool new things, and received so much love and support. in the GCWCA i get to gush about disney channel with people who really Get It™ and we all make each other laugh and smile. two amazing groups who have filled my year with so much joy.
so here it is!!! a friend appreciation post!!! to clarify: this is NOT just a laundry list of every single one of my mutuals (even though i do appreciate all of my mutuals) because i feel like that would be lacking authenticity and missing a personal touch. this is an appreciation post for a select group of people who, through their presence on my dash, kind messages, or just general support and enthusiasm, have noticeably positively impacted me in 2020. the people who i log onto this site for. people who i love to check on to see how theyre doing even if we dont talk that much, people who make my day by sliding into my inbox or DMs or tagging me in posts, and people who inspire me heavily with their creativity and passion. TLDR; if youre on this list you should feel special because you are!!!
a few extra special bud shoutouts before we get to the main list:
miranda @lizzie-mcguires for being a super supportive, very fun friend to me this year. you are so funny and kind and i dont know if you know exactly how much our friendship means to me. thanks for being one of my biggest cheerleaders and validating my niche disney opinions and introducing me to big time rush 😂
sima @filthyjanuary for being literally the funniest and most relatable person alive and just generally being so easy to talk to. you deserve nothing but good things in life 💙
saint @dindjharin for spreading unconditional love, support, and kindness. i cherish every single message you send me and each gift you have made me. im so glad we met this year.
emma @candicepatton BESTIE for being the sweetest nicest bestest person on this whole site, and for making my entire day with your tags and messages!!!
hiria @hiriahb for being my longest standing friend on this site. for showing so much enthusiasm in our conversations and talking to me so in depth about music. youre seriously the best and i cant even imagine tumblr without you.
other friends i appreciate so so much:
Sooooo are still requests? If so, could I request a teen hugh/simon? 👉👈((sorry this is a weird way of saying i would like to interact/be friends, no pressure if u don't want to :)💙💛))
local dumb superhero teenagers in love💕
I've got no idea about languages but give me your answers to 6, 18 and 19.
Oh, I almost forgot about this! Feels worth mentioning here that, considering my studies/hopefully future job/job sector, I really don't know that much about languages either, or definitely less than I should but hey 🤷♀️
6. If your native language didn’t exist, which one of your languages would you pick in its place?
Well, other than my native language German, I speak English, and vaguely Russian, and very very VERY vaguely Swedish. So I guess out of those, English would be the best choice - you'll very likely find someone who speaks it in most places you go to nowadays, you can easily understand most content on the internet without problems, you'll always find a version of books, tv shows, etc. in your native language, ...
Then again, you don't "automatically" have at least one foreign language you'll learn just by existing on the internet, and learning a foreign language DOES have many many advantages.
I'd say logical-wise, job-wise, whatever, I'd pick English, and if not that then Russian, because it's a widely spoken language and growing. Purely interest-wise, I-can-vibe-with-that-wise, fun-to-learn-and-learn-about-wise, I'd go for Swedish.
18. Which language you’ve learned could be considered the hardest?
Oh, Russian for sure! Stupid goddamn grammar, who came up with the concept of two aspects for one and the same verb?? And all the different participles my beloathed, and the conjugation of numbers, pure hell. And not grammar-related and just a personal issue, I cannot for the life of me pronounce a rolled R, but that's not a make-or-break thing for understanding, luckily. But apparently the ь is, which is... idk, I hardly hear the difference mostly.
19. Have you got a favourite language? (you don’t have to be able to speak it)
I mean, English is very handy, you can communicate at least on a basic level with most people you meet, it's a pretty common shared language across the world by now.
But oh, Finnish sounds SO nice! The soft K's, the rolled R's, the double vowels?? I have a voicemail my friend sent me like three years ago still somewhere on my phone where she recites some Finnish poem or something about like, chickens?? I think? Either way, there are VERY many K's in there, she sounds like an angel, it makes me so happy to listen to it! Finnish just generally seems like a very pleasant language, it sounds so soft and nice and cute 🥺
(but learning it? unless I for some reason move to Finland, I will never ever ever even try to learn that, I saw something about the declension of nouns for like five seconds and goddamnit, do I not want to have to deal with that.) (but god, the soft K's and rolled R's.)
And Swedish!! Is such a pleasant language to read and listen to! Like Floragatan? Flower street!! 🌻🌷 Cat? Katt! 🐱 Hedgehog? Igelkott! 🦔 Carrot cake? Morotskaka! 🎂 Eule? UGGLA! 🦉
And it's also easier to learn than other languages when German is your native language because they derive from the same branch of the same language family, so there's just a lot of similarities or words you can guess the meaning of because they sound similar or have certain associations you can connect. Like Old Town? Gamla stan. "Gammelig" ist something old, rotten, in German, there you go. Raccoon? Tvättbjörn = washing bear = literally the same as the German Waschbär! 🦝🦝 Rainbow? Regnbåge = Regenbogen. 🌈🌈
I really, really want to get back into studying Swedish regularly again! Thank you for that question, it really reminded me how much I used to enjoy learning Swedish!
It’s strange to think that one day WKIL will fall silent. That behind the counter of Tommy Chow Mein’s shop there will be nothing but an empty spot which the store owner used to fill. That Gravel Gertie won’t flick the worn out towel she always wore over her shoulder in your direction as you depart after leaving your kid with her for a run. That zone concerts won’t announce proudly the infamous Mad Gear and ever-elusive Missile Kid as headlining shows that spanned between the setting sun and the sky lighting up in technicolor from stage lights and firefights.
And still, there will come a time when the killjoys will have to figure how to live on their own. How to be safe without the doctor’s voice, how to create their own without buying everything ready-packed from Tommy’s shop, how to take care and be patient with each other without the advice of a mother to set them straight, or how to fill the silence without clashing guitars and an adrenaline rush.
One day the killjoys will have to grow up- and perhaps that’s the most terrifying part of it all
My favorite business duos 🤜🤛
Nope, same here. Situation very similar to dnf, we're dating now, I am so curious as to how they arent together rn
Lol it fascinates me how m*sha can’t seem to shut the fuck up about shipping since the show ended and everytime it backfires on him.
Its like he depended his whole character on the show around this ship. Which is just sad and pathetic, I haven’t seen any actor thats soo obsessed with a non canon shit ship this much...
Also whats chad pro shipper j2? lol
He dug his own grave, now he has to lie in it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ He never cared about acting, was just in it for the clout (I believe he actually once said that he doesn't really care about the craft, just the fame that comes with it. OK, cult leader), and now it's coming back to bite him in the ass. That non canon shit ship, as you so eloquently put it, is all he has left, so you bet he's going to mention it at every opportunity like his life depends on it, bc it does (unemployed, remember?). Honestly, if Jensen's name wasn't attached to his bullshit then I'd find all this pretty entertaining (or tedious. Depends on the day). It's pathetic how this grown ass man bows down to these little kids bc he needs their money. I'm gonna have to start calling him an invertebrate bc the man has no backbone. And the way he's so eager to roll over and show his belly the MOMENT his cult turns on him? Makes you wonder if he has a humiliation kink lol.
Oh, that's a meme! Basically since j2 are sane and understand the difference between reality and fiction and casually joke about wincest and call it a "hot fantasy", they are ~cool~, making them chad pro-shippers. Meanwhile M*sha bowed down to the puritans and "denounced" wincest thus he has no balls and that makes him a virgin anti and a loser :) Hope that helps 😂
i know i’m awfully late and no one really cares bc it’s already old news and everybody knows, but fearless (taylor’s version) is so good wtf
how is it that i find myself alone on the new year's eve every single year.
just by way of an update:
y’all i’m having a trash week at work so there will realistically not be any rp ficlet up for the next.....week while i sort of try to reorder myself.
while this is happening, it would be very nice if y’all could stop asking me when the next rp update is coming! while it is true that i drop a couple of ficlets a week, i think i’ve made it clear before that i don’t follow any form of update schedule, and that updates would be very random. i had been writing headcanons for the verse on days i couldn’t manage proper ficlets, but again, there are no guarantees for that.
that being said, i do have to point out that the majority of the asks are very polite and very nice, and probably do come from new readers, but hahahaha please treat me as an extra sensitive baby for the next 5-ish working days, and i promise we’ll be up and running soon. thank you!!
the way you have so much chopin energy !!
WEEPS.........my friend..........that is the greatest compliment you could possibly give me..........i love him so much and i love you!!!!!!!! you have my eternal and overwhelming gratitude, i am so flattered, i am going to glue this ask to my ceiling so i can lie in bed and look at it