#but I couldnt let it sit

[stiffyck]

The way homeless people are treated is INSANE.

I'm sitting inside a building. There's two other guys here.

A security dude comes over and tells the two guys to get out while he ignores me. He clearly saw me. But because i "don't look homeless" I can stay.

What the fuck. It's cold outside, it's raining, why the fuck can't they sit here. Literally there's almost no people here what is your ISSUE.

#i fucking hate how people treat homeless people like THEYRE STILL PEOPLE #THEIR LIVES ARE ALREADY HARD #WHY DO YOU NEED TO MAKE IT HARDER FOR THEM #JESUS CHRIST #YOU COULDNT JUST LET THEM SIT HERE? WHEN THERES LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE SITTING HERE??? #THERES ENOUGH SPACE FOR LIKE 10 PEOPLE TO SIT HERE #WE WERE JUST 3 #AND YOU KICKED THE TWO GUYS OUT #oh my GOD i hate people #stiff talk

[lover-of-mine]

#911 #buddie #911edit #buddieedit #911 on fox #911 fox #911 abc #eddie diaz #evan buckley #my edit #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #i need a buddie and X tag #flashing tw #i typed this out in the list fully intending on letting it sit for a while #but i couldnt #also i made 60 gifs today #16 sets #someone be proud of me please #even if this is emotionally damaging #911verse

[tradetobest]

something something what if the draft was a Little Bit Different (for @tkaptains, because your vision inspired me to make this at 2am god bless)

#my art #connor mcdavid #matthew tkachuk #leon draisaitl #jack eichel #sorey if its TERRIBLE i am fucking exhausted rn #this idea was so good i couldnt let it sit tho

[walleeli]

Enrichment time in my enclosure……

From this:

At the end of Trimax volume 6 (via trigun ultimate overhaul)

#trigun #trigun maximum #trimax #i have an idea for the other side but im not doin it today #i have had enough FLOOR TIME and my KNEES HURT #trying to free hand copy something EXACTLY is such a nightmare… #sitting here like girlfriend i need u to stop before you fuck it up beyond repair #i know u see that his lower left eyelid is the wrong shape #and the eyes are too wide and wet and pathetic #buts it IS on brand for him #and im BEGGING you to just let it go #(thats me talking to myself) #anyways. i love that description so much i think about it constantly #basically a gentle guy who is a pacifist and carries a burden of sorrow #yeah #so tru nightow #couldnt have said it better myself <3 #im having fun

[moldspace]

remember one hundred thousand years ago when i posted about working on a new zine WELL I HAVE FINISHED MY FINAL DRAFT. TODAY!!! everyone clap

#i strive to model a realistic creative timeframe #i think this 4-paragraph zine has possibly taken as many months to get done #maybe more i couldnt find the first post i made about this on my blog i gave up because it was so far back #ANYWAY most of that time was fermentation time. just mulling her over. letting her sit. #but now im excited to illustrate* :^) #*illustration will either happen next week or in 4 more months

[variksel]

at what point am i to blame for what adhd does to me. at what point is it "adhd made it fucking physically impossible for me to focus today so i didnt do much work and hate it" versus just "i didnt do much work." am i allowed to feel shitty about it or is that just wallowing

#genuine question honestly #like. it feels like fucking shit to not have anything to show for sitting at a computer for 8+ hrs #but like thats My Fucking Fault for not doing the work #like god i tried but it just wasnt good enough #and like. what am i allowed to say about it? oh my adhd meds ran out (5 months ago) thats why it didnt work out? #but the reason i havent gotten new ones and let these ones run out is bcs of the same exact reason #i just couldnt bring myself to refill them just like i couldnt work today #so thats again my fault and it Sucks SoBad #i base a lot of my self worth on being productive and adhd makes mr feel like im not worth much when i cant do anything #UGH ANYWAY thats dramatic but. idk. bums me out i really was looking forward to working a long time today #adhd #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #actually adhd #adhd problems #adhd brain #vent #rant #adhd rant #neurodiverse stuff

[moonolor]

my neighbors kirby plush fell over and i felt bad for him

#i couldnt let him sit on his face anymore the guilt was eating me alive #kirby #taranza #taranza kirby #kirby triple deluxe #kirby taranza #kirby doodles

[winterrose42]

Finding out youre agorophobic is wack bc its like, if you dont know then for me at least you just go out anyway and dissociate the whole time feel like absolute garbage and take days to recover from a small trip to groceries and finding every excuse possible to drop plans with people until they eventually stopped asking and stopped talking altogether. And now its like, oh. Is this why going outside feels like dying. Huh. And i wanna go out and do things but the thought makes me vomit for a week leading up to it and i was told oh its just being dramatic so yeah cool whatever.

Now im like, okay i actually have to get to used to going out and being around people adn put things in place for the paranoia and anxiety and plan things in advance and i gotta tell myself about it and walk myself through it everyday leading up. And im an adult so fuck everyone i will in fact be taking my headphones and a fidget and wearing my rat jacket as a security blanket in 90 degree weather thank you. I am in fact, allowed to accommodate myself and set boundaries fuck you actually.

#winter speaks #figuring out i was gaslit my whole life on more than just yhe two things i was aware if is fucking insane #i have a lot of the same problems my mom has that she fuckin caused or ignored and all my life #i couldnt have this and this and this bc youre just copying me and usinh my excuses #bitch you gave me this shit and then described what you deal eithnusing vocab i hadnt learned yet #and i connected yhe dots and eent oh and instead of you being self awate enough to also go oh you just berated me until i shut up #its really weird living in the same house as someome that gave youost of your issues. and the relationships better and you cant leave yet #but working through things and tryung yo accomodate and take care of yourself and be justifiably angry #while hiding it from the person youre living with bc all you wantbyo do is scream at them and ask them why and istead #youre asking if they want coffee bc youre making some and letting them know therell be packages next week n sorry about that #is a fucking whiplash experience and im just sitting here like °-° i wanna smash things and scream #anyway. get therapy if you can its fun

[stevethehairington]

sometimes being uber specific about "would this really happen in this time period/setting?" just sucks all the fun out of things. like who cares, you're writing fanfiction. there are no rules here. go hogwild man.

#sometimes its great to be uber specific! but sometimes it really really does not fucking matter #like idk just have fun with it! #its your world and you can do what you want with it #the people who consistently sit there and go 'this would be fun to do but i cant bc you couldnt do that in [x time period]' baffle me bc !! #why are you putting these restraints on yourself EVERY SINGLE TIME!! #like let loose! cut the bindings! let your hair down! have a little fun with it and fudge the details!

[toastsnaffler]

everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄 #jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik- #she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she- #likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill- #finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included- #bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it.. #ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........ #sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!! #.diaries

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

#cheeri rants #this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years #and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like #im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends #the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others #the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember #we all loved the same silly things #we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone #i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl #and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal #because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt #for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place #and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore #the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom #doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing #and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE. #who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it #and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people #warn them of smth they should have already known #and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway #and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew #started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own #and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.

[mxwhore]

patron saint of being hot

and a lot of skill and really interesting anecdotes about your life and having professors that give me second hand anxiety bc they seem kinda awful and mean. But mainly just being hot

ty! admittedly my professors are not that bad, ive only had one bad professor that was more incompetent that awful. if you want another anecdote, ill tell you about the only teacher i truly despise to this day (on the tags, cuz its a very dark story)

ask gamerino

#i retook that course with a different professor and passed expectacularly. now for the horrendous teacher #on this story we have vomiting injuries and attempted suicide so watch out #in my last two years of our highschool equivalent i had PE with a teacher that loved to play favorites #if u were on a sport team you were immediately given special treatment and as you might already tell i wasnt. i hate ball sports #i loved exercising but i dreaded PE because of her #i have a condition that made my periods incredibly painful and meself anemic so those weeks were hellish #even though i was a good student she would NEVER let me sit out the navette test. even with a doctors note #i would do my best and then literally go vomit and pass out in the bathroom cuz if i did it on the court i would be berated #that wasnt enough to earn my absolute hatred tho. we now move to the worst day of my life to this day #it was just getting to school from lunch (we could go home and have it there) and i had PE #when i get a text #it was my best friend being cryptic thanking me for being a friend and saying goodbyes #he was going to commit suicide #i absolutely lost my shit as one does and went on a rampage #i couldnt get in contact with anyone (his ex stepdad was abusive and isolated his family) and they didnt let me get out of school #i was desperate and my friends were trying to help me but i didnt know what to do. i called my mom and she called his school and then i just #sat and waited with a friend. while the other classmates did the navette test #the minutes passed. i got message from my bffs number and it was his mom telling me she found him just in time #i broke then. i started sobbing and screaming and scratching my arms and my friend held me and tried to keep me from hurting myself #some other classmates came concerned and tried to help #then the teacher came. she just looked at one of the volleyball girlies who shrugged #she didnt ask if i was ok or if i needed to call someone or go somewhere. she just asked if i planning to do the test #i said no and she left and i kept crying #when i felt stable enough i went to see what had happened and she just failed me. i couldnt give the test any other day and that was that #she simply didnt care #i had to calm myself down while writing this. its no use getting emotional over a teacher that didnt care #but i hate her. she made the worst day of my life worse and she doesnt know and doesnt care #that memory fuels me to never surrender to indifference and make the pain in this world worse #my bff got help he needed after that and our bond is stronger than ever. he never pulled something like that again #thats the story! not gonna tag this babes

[jvzebel-x]

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#seeing idiots phrase things re:biden as 'bUt TrUmP wOuLd bE wOrSe' 'hEd dO tHe SaMe tHiNg BuT kIlL pPl hErE tOo--' #makes me feel filthy. just reading the thought process makes me feel like i bathed in blood. #remember when biden first took office&ppl (ESP ppl from places w history being torn the fuck apart by usamerican presidents+policy) #were openly trepidatious about it bc trump had gone thru 2 separate secretary of defenses (one of which was fucking mad dog mattis) #specifically bc hes a toddler who couldnt sit thru meetings about international policy #while biden already had A Lot of history that left international blood all over his fucking hands #&ppl SCREAMED about 'WUT ABOUT US???? SO YOU JUST THINK WE SHOULD ALL DIE??? YOU JUST THINK WE SHOULD LET TRUMP KILL US ALL???' #'WE'RE JUST TRYING TO SAVE OURSELVES--' #the selfishness was palpable&disgusting when it was happening&seeing ppl in real time transmit that feeling directly into #'yeah theres a genocide going on BUT THINK ABOUT WHAT WE HAVE TO GO THRU WHAT YOU THINK TRUMP WOULD BE BETTER??? #YOU WANT US ALL DEAD??? YOURE ALL SO MEAN. >:(' #makes me feel disgust that i usually reserve exclusively for pigs+billionaires. #im glad nothing ever disappears on the internet. i hope these cunts are haunted by their centrism in the times that come. #palestine will be free and when historical revisionism tries to make all these ppl feel better about themselves by downplaying #their complicity in this horror there will be no running from their own fucking record of selfishness.