#but I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 12

chapter 22:

1. 😟😟 all james wants is for sirius to be there for james the way james ALWAYS was for sirius

2. 😟 james wished hodge happy birthday even though hodge died yesterday. i- i am not okay

3. “Regulus never fails to look up. Evan would be proud of him for that, he thinks.” 😧 that was vile to put in there

4. james has resorted to BEGGING for medicine from sirius and can’t understand why sirius won’t send any. this hurts so bad

5. nope. i’m done. i can’t read any more. james started looking forward to death cause he would be out of this arena and out of pain. jfc i’m done

6. anyways. i’m back cause i couldn’t stop reading.

7. REGULUS AND JAMES ARE REUNITED!!! THANK GOD!!! 😊

8. 😧 wait nevermind. james just mistook regulus for sirius. “James has never, not once in his life under any circumstances, mistaken Regulus for Sirius”

9. james is delulu from medicine and reg just found out that the plan has always been to get reg home. this hits like a motherfucking truck

10. james is high as a fucking kite, can’t figure out why “sirius” is being mean to him, cause he’s never been mean to him. and is also wondering why “sirius” is oddly attractive for being mean

11. it takes james half a chapter, and reg cutting his shirt for james to realize it’s not sirius. cause sirius has different scars. i love james sm 😭😭

12. “What was Sirius thinking? Drugging James? In the middle of the fucking hunger games? That might be the most idiotic thing Regulus has ever known his brother to do, and this is Sirius he's talking about, so that's saying a lot. Sirius once flipped a cigarette in the air and tried to catch it with his mouth while it was lit, and kept doing it until he could actually consistently manage it, no matter how much it burned him. Though, in fairness, he can still do that trick to this day.”

LMAO WHAT??? that’s so random and i love it

13. 😧 legit sobbing. reg says that james lost the spark in his eyes. and he’s the one person he expected to never lose his spark

14. reg reveals that they both can go home. james’ spark is back. i’m sobbing harder now. they’re so in love

15. i eat, breathe, and dream those author end notes. bizzarestars writes their end notes the way my brain processes the fic. <33

chapter 23:

1. starting the chapter off with pain, i see. losing vanity changed james. like. horribly changed him.

2. “What Regulus hates more than James is his suffering.” jfc he’s so emotionally constipated

3. james is sad and all reg can think is hmmmm i want him to start flirting with me again, because it meant he was happy bitch wtf

4. awww they’re cuddling and just got a package! my babies are gonna make it out!

5. reg realizes he has to put on a show, so he offers to feed james. and wants to gouge his eyeballs out for offering that. 😭😭😭😭

6. i’m dying from embarrassment but this is also so fucking funny. reg is like. let’s talk about our feelings. for each other. and james is just like *head tilt* ???

7. “"You weren't my first crush, James," Regulus whispers. "You were my first love."”

james didn’t just make reg feel good, he made reg feel and i am NOT okay.

8. “This whole time, Regulus has been steady on the fact that he wouldn't kiss James to save his own life, but he's apparently willing to do it to save James'.”

JFC why is he so emotionally constipated???

9. THEY KISS????? james is gonna be heartbroken when he realizes it was all an act

10. oh thank god james realized. at least it broke his heart now and not in two weeks

11. *squints* now reg has never wanted anything more than this kiss. girl. please. realize.

12. god, i’ve never read a kiss more beautifully and emotionally desperate written.

13. 😏 reg called him baby again!

14. oh god, maybe i’m just as bad as everyone in the hallow. maybe i’m just as bad as them. cause i enjoy their romance. i enjoy it so much. maybe i’m just as bad as the hallow for that. i- i think this every time i read the hunger games.

15. “James wants to sink his teeth into Regulus and leave the deep imprints of his teeth from one jutting hip bone to the other.” sometimes i forget that jegulus is a little unhinged in ways like this. and every time i’m reminded, I LOVE IT

16. “"You treat me like I'm stupid for daring to see good in people, but if there's no good in anyone, then what's the fucking point?"”

this entire section. this. this is what james is all about

17. 😟 authors note just told me i’m no better than a hallow. for my excitement over jegulus. and- yeah. i guess so. i’m so sorry y’all

#marauders #regulus black #james potter #jegulus #fanfic #sirius black #sunseeker #starchaser #crimson rivers

[motherfuckingbrad]

and it feels like the end of a movie i’ve seen before

#:/ #sorry i’ve been in such a lyric mood lately lmaoo #i just feel very connected to them and music #rip abed nadir you would’ve loved ceilings by lizzy mcalpine #also i made a post b4 that was similar to this but idc that was like last year who cares #these images together still hit me like a truck #imma go cry #community #trobed #six seasons and a movie #ceilings by lizzy mcalpine

[josephtrohman]

i submitted my LAST final of this semester i am FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE

#CHRISTMAS IS ON EVERYONE #IM ALSO HALFWAY DONE MY LAW DEGREE provided i pass all my classes BDJHSMSJSMDJD #it’s only two and a half weeks of freedom but GODDDD. i’m hoping to actually get some fic writing done over the break bdjsksjsksj #i feel like i’ve been hit by a truck bro that was a whack semester if im honest

[verocitea]

I am so not normal right now, how am I supposed to wait until autumn 2024 for this??

#I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck lol #the gun truck #I absolutely adore gens base game to so I’m feeling pretty good lol #I speak occasionally #sonic x shadow generations

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[wolfhowlwitch]

well, the husband and I got sick.

not COVID, we’re certain, just a cold. luckily, their immune system is fabulous and they’ll likely be better by tomorrow. less fortunately, my immune system is shot, and I’ll likely be sick for a while.

does anyone have reference to spells for sickness? the one thing I don’t need is tea spells, I have an abundance of those, but hopefully something else is out there that I haven’t found? I’ve been praying, drinking my tea, taking my homeopathic cold meds, etc… (nyquil and the sort are kind of a last resort because I’m a recovering addict).

if anyone knows of anything or can refer me to someone’s spell, please help! or even just foods/herbs with appropriate correspondences to help me pick a good soup.

#the wolf speaks #witchblr #witchcraft #spellwork #witch community #spellcraft #please help #I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck

[corpsepng]

Deciding to wake up an hour earlier than usual to drink coffee and read is a good idea for my mental health but bad for my physical health

#I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck but if I don’t do this for at least a couple weeks while I get into a routine I’m going to maybe kms fr

[girl-kendallroy]

i think padraic sulleabhain and waymond wang would have a lot to talk about together. tbh

#guys i watched both movies yesterday and i feel like i’ve been hit by a truck emotionally #i mean i watched eeaao a couple months ago but seeing in the theatre changes you #the banshees of inisherin #everything everywhere all at once #padraic suilleabhain #waymond wang

[mookybear12404]

Coming home from my 9-5 (meetings) to do my 5-9 (work I didn’t get to do today because MEETINGS but I also don’t get to put off because too many people’s well-being depends on me)

#20 emails out of 150 responded to #I’m so exhausted I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck #doesn’t help I spend like three hours helping carry heavy stuff #in super hot summer #there’s so much to do I feel so overwhelmed but we’re taking it one set at a time #I’ve also decided on TOP of all that #to make a proposal for a budget increase for my department #I need a couple thousand dollars more if imma make any of what they want to happen happen #but also #asking for more money STRESSES ME OUT #GAH

[117-opossum-teeth]

anyone else ever have a dream about being in a loving romantic relationship only to wake up and feel sad and lonely for the next several days, wishing for something you know you can’t have, knowing that even if you did have it you would be repulsed and could never replicate the way you felt in a dream in real life, with a real person, and feel like you are missing out on something so integral to human connection with absolutely no hope of fixing it? or is that just me?

#i had also been playing the sims and making one of my sims develop a romo relationship and doing all the lovey dovey stuff #which most definitely contributed to this downward spiral #i’ve also been getting irritated at all the love songs that come on which doesn’t usually bother me all that much #i’m usually very happy in my aro identity so these feelings rlly hit at me like a truck! #also if anyones curious the dream i had was about sebastian from stardew valley😭 #aromantic #aro #aromantic problems #aromanticism #aro problems #aromantic struggles #aro struggles #arospec #aromantic spectrum #no romo #actually aro #actually aromantic #actually arospec #amatonormativity #internalized amatonormativity #117-opossum-teeth #aspec

[decimatlas]

survived the bar exam but at what cost

#i feel like i’ve been hit by a truck #i’m so drained #hi everyone

[gojonanami]

I took a nap because my pms is wrecking havoc on my muscles currently

woke up to more asks that made me laugh 🥹💕

thanks guys, you’re the best 😭🫶✨💖

#sab speaks #I feel like I’ve been hit by a fucking truck #it’s irritating #dude I was gonna do shit today but all I’ve done is nap since like 5

[canisonicscrewyou]

when I was a little girl I both wasn’t allowed to have people over and also never got invited to anything. to the point where on multiple occasions I would put like. a face and hair on one of my brother’s lacrosse sticks and tell my parents whatsherface was coming over for a ‘sleepover’ while my siblings were out with their friends or something.

anyways I don’t. need lacrosse stick people anymore. but sometimes I do still feel a lot like that lonely little girl.

#it’s. been happening a lot lately. that sort of feeling setting in. #I’ve been pretty good about moving on from the feeling after a while though. putting it down after it’s been felt so I can try to move on. #but sometimes. sometimes it hits you like a truck with NO WARNING.

[frogcoded]

I thought replying with a very dry message and no follow up question for three times would be enough for him to get the hint but apparently I have to do that a fourth time 😭😭

#this is so hilarious especially because he’s the one who ghosted me in the first place 😭😭 #like sorry you changed your mind dude but I don’t vibe with people who are mean to me if you wanted to hit that again you should have been #just the bare minimum of well mannered you know #bare minimum really. just pretend you’re sorry after you ghost me #but noooo now I have to do this whole game of ignoring him which I don’t really want to do #but at the same time I’ve seen him like three times the situation is too chill for me to be like listen dude you were mean and I don’t like #that #anyway. I’ve got a fever. back to vibing in my bed feeling like a truck ran me over

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

some people think the disabled experience is just sitting in bed all day and sometimes it very much is that but sometimes it’s convincing yourself to eat and shower so that you *can* get into bed

#vaccines kick my ass #i feel like I’ve been hit by a truck #they’re so important and i will never stop getting them unless drs r like ‘heyyy maybe dont’ but for now vax me up baby #anyway i can work with raccoons now so it’s worth it #disability #my post