#but I hated his mom much more than him

[biblionerd07]

I actually had more sympathy for Jesse’s parents on this rewatch. Like overall they’re not some abusive monsters who never cared about him. They very obviously DO care about him. Their house felt safe enough to Jesse that he went there when the meth had him feeling paranoid and strung out. When Jesse calls his dad after being questioned by the DEA he mentions getting a job “in data entry, like we talked about”, and Jesse’s mom says “I can’t do this again”, and Jake says Jesse’s all they ever talk about, so they’re obviously in a cycle of trying to help Jesse and seeing him go back to drugs. It’s easy for us to kind of forget the ramifications, because of the scope of the show and because we love Jesse and are seeing his POV and definitely because Aaron Paul’s teeth and skin are nice lol, but Jesse is addicted to crystal meth. And he’s SELLING crystal meth! This is not just weed. It’s a pretty big fucking deal. And his parents talk about getting him help, and they let him come inside and sleep and eat a few meals and wash his clothes. Maybe you could consider that the bare minimum, but it is something. When Hank is talking to Jesse’s mom, she’s not dismissive of Jesse or uncaring. She’s obviously very sad about the state of Jesse’s life, and when she starts to clock that Hank’s investigating Jesse, she gets protective and makes Hank leave. They evicted Jesse from his aunt’s house, but to give them a bit of grace, his mom did find his literal meth lab in the basement lmao. Which they threatened to tell the DEA about but never actually did. They seem to be in that place with an addict where you’re trying to balance giving support without enabling; his dad even says they need to try tough love. (Personally I think it shows they don’t really know Jesse all that well because tough love is not the right method for him, but they probably feel like they’ve tried everything else.) When Jesse’s talking about that perfect box he made in shop, his initial lie is that he gave it to his mom, and when he tells the truth it’s clear he really regrets that he didn’t actually do that. In El Camino, I really think they want him to turn himself in because they think he’ll be safer and maybe they think he’ll get some leeway if he turns himself in rather than getting caught. It doesn’t seem like they call the cops when he calls and asks them to come get him; they rush out right away and all the police are in regular, unmarked cars.

But….

I can never give them grace or forgive them for that car decal that was Mom, Dad, and Jake but no Jesse. Like what the hell is that?? And it seems absolutely outrageous to me that his parents, with everything that happened between them and everything they’re seeing on the news, took the opportunity to talk to him and only said “turn yourself in.” No “I love you.” No “be safe.” His dad saying they hadn’t talked to him in a long time, since “way before all this” really rankled, too. They purposefully distanced themselves from him. They made sure to say on the news that they’re not involved in this because they’re not in his life. I really do think they cared and were scared for him. But at every turn it just seemed like they didn’t care enough to actually understand what he needed or how to get through to him.

#brba #jesse pinkman #el Camino #he really tries to keep Jake from following his path and oh my heart #I’ve always read Jesse as probably having undiagnosed or at least untreated ADHD #we know he’s so much smarter than anyone gives him credit for but he kept getting ‘apply yourself’ #he has to care about things to do them well #anyway my tragic baby boy #i love him with my whole heart #and I’ve always hated his parents but as I get older and rewatch I have more sympathy for them #I doubt he ever went to rehab before but they certainly couldn’t have afforded a place like he goes to ever Jane dies #plus he wouldn’t ever go before #he really only went after Jane bc he was so catatonic with drugs and grief that I imagine Walt literally just dropped him at the door #his dad sounds happy when he says ‘you look good’ when he sees Jesse after rehab but he’s still cautious #god I wish he would’ve just said yes Jesse come over for dinner tonight #I hope someday Jesse was able to find a way to get word to them that he’s okay #nothing they can trace to find him #but just to let them know #it always seemed like his mom cared more despite that slap #his dad wanted to be tough but I don’t think his mom did #and I’m not saying Jesse turning to drugs or any of this is their fault obviously #it’s just very sad

[abnormalpsychology]

Someone pointed out that “it’s not my fault you didn’t get his approval. I have given you endless approval” could be interpreted as Tom thinking his love should be equivalent to Logan’s, which is just… it’s not! Of course it’s not!!!! No matter what he does, there’s always going to be a part of Shiv yearning for that. No amount of a good man’s love can cure not getting that original parental love. Something something “you’re not Logan and I’m not Gil. and that’s a good thing.” Like I don’t think I would wish being cheated on or being in a relationship w/ Shiv on anyone, but I also wouldn’t wish what happened to her on any child. Even if she’s “broken”, I don’t think his love could ever “fix” her, even if he wanted to believe that. What makes it a tragedy is I think that both Shiv and Tom did the best they could 💔

#something that’s always been so interesting to me is like . how willfully Tom seems ready to ignore the amount of abuse around them #shiv saying ‘your mom likes me more than she likes you’ was super interesting bc #1. it implies that tom also came from a fucked up bg with a lack of parental love #but also like #shiv firing that back was her trying to even the playing field #like ‘you think I’m fucked up? you think Logan didn’t love me? well YOUR MOM HATES YOU SO.’ #something something ‘you should be so lucky I was fucked up long before I met you’ convo last episode #something something Tom not knowing when is the right time for romance somethign something fucked up love is in his blood too #that line is so funny bc wHAT #was tom an ‘I can fix her’ bitch??????? #this show is driving me insane #how much of it is projection? how much of it is *real*? #tomshiv #succession #failmarriage #succession analysis #bbge.text #or maybe it’s not that deep idk #idk this all is prolly incoherent but what an interesting debate #what the fuck happened to tom to give him a fuckedup enough view on love that he was willing to join the Roy fam? tag your answers below!!!

[weirdbabs]

anyway something ive been thinking about the past week is do you think coach oop was avoiding his daughter bc he didnt want it to hurt more than it already would if he had to kill her as a ghost? do you think he was trying to make it easier for the both of them in that scenario (having your father try to kill you after helping you to the end vs having a father try to kill you after leaving when things got hard; both still suck but at least you had time to somewhat come to terms with it) and now has to deal with the fact that he most likely irreparably ruined their relationship? or do you think he was just doing death cult duties and meetings and chose his cult over his family?

#originally i was like man his cult is more important to him than his family and now hes coming to terms with how much hes missed BUT NOW #do you think this isnt the first person hes done this to?? do you think his mom or someone ended up in the hospital and he was just like 😬 #paranatural #coach oop not only have you presumably fucked up your relationship w your daughter but your son hates you now too #and if he ever learns what you do? lmao youd be 100% dead to him

[dazzelmethat]

I kinda like but dislike that Rumiko and Sunrise (and fans) have never even mentioned that miko (priestesses) are virgins. And that their shinto ability to tend holy places comes from being unmarried virgins. In modern day I guess it is not really required but I kind of wish more people analyzed Kikyo, the dark priestess, Kaede and Kagome in that light.

Personally I think that due to the era Kagome would not be allowed to remain a miko after getting married and having a child. She would still be one of course due to her spiritual ability, but I think she would no longer be allowed to remain in that societal role.

Kagome is so spunky though that I see her rebelling against it. I think Kagome's strength in being outspoken is another great contrast between her and Kikyo. While Kikyo was confined by society and was only freed from expectation when she became an impure monster. Kagome was outspoken and loud to where she didn't have much of a societal role and yet remained 'spiritually pure.'

There is a huge theme of 'societal expectation' in Kagome, Inuyasha, and Kikyo that I think being a miko is a part of.

Personally I'm torn on Kagome loudly choosing to get married and have a child VS remaining a Miko and Kagome choosing to attempt to do both.

More thematic headcannons in the tag below..

#i think due to translation issues miroku is a monk but not a priest #inuyasha #kagome #kikyo #Here I am analyzing way too much into a series that probably didn't think that much about this all #And yet.. I feel like there is meaning between Sota saying Kagome got married and Rumiko never drawing them kissing #i think cannonly kikyo and kagome are not the same person.. but i think kikyo would view that they are.. maybe #the strides against misogyny in shinto japan is very interesting to look at because it is so different from western misogyny #i saw that post going around talking about periods in the feudal era and im like.. bro women were ostracized in a hut outside the village #i didn't comment on the post but i did think about and analyze it #on how the dirtyness of being a woman is the same as the dirty blood of a hanyo or the dirty blood of the burakumin class #personally i think inu's class is similar to half japanese (the original hanyo written in gegege kitaro was confirmed to be based off of it #and rumiko could not have taken the coined term 'hanyo' without being aware of the influence #but i also don't think rumiko was thinking that much about the relation between the two #personally if it were me though i'd theme inu on the spiritual dirtiness of his blood rather than him being a half race #((((((related but i also headcannoned inuyasha as a bastard . a literal one #((and i also headcannon that hte name 'inuyasha' was not his birth name. it was a name given to him by the villiagers he stole from-- #-- as a child/teen and he decided to reclaim the insult because he was what means 'dog monster' much more than the name his mom gave him)) #i think it's strongly implied even that Inuyasha is a bastard.. i never see anyone analyze that. #to analyze that even if inuyasha was born a human he would still be hated for existing :''''DDD #my posts that i made

[mozart-the-meerkitten]

My parents and I watched the season 3 finale of Star Wars: Rebels tonight and I can't believe my mom was the one who was like "WHY ARE THEY* ALL DYING?!" and I was the one being all, "don't worry I'm sure it will be fine." this is the most role reversal we have ever done.

(*to clarify I mean the rebels in general, the main cast was fine)

#star wars #star wars rebels #star wars rebels spoilers #what's really funny is that this season ended pretty much like 'the last jedi' did it with hardly anyone making it out #and them all crowded on the main iconic ship #and I HATED the last jedi #but like it just felt so much more HOPEFUL in rebels Idk man #also yeah I did make this post as a way to shamelessly react post in the tags #Idk even where to start #the first part of the finale was crazy man their leader literally CUT AN IMPERIAL SHIP IN HALF by ramming his command ship into it #like if you're gonna die doing a kamikaze run let it be by CUTTING ANOTHER SHIP IN HALF #and what the FUDGE is bendu WHAT was his deal even #kanan showing up yelling at him like merry with treebeard in the LOTR movies #'but you're a part of this world! aren't you?' #my mom was so mad at bendu for refusing to help akjghljasgdhfdgjags I'm over there like 'wait until they ACTUALLY ATTACK HIS PLANET' #and haha I was right #okay this is so silly but I'm so happy they didn't kill off agent callus that dude has really grown on me #he was doing his best thrawn's just insane with strategy #also THRAWN aklghfjaskgdls okay I LOVED his reaction to bendu being “?!?!? shoot it?!?!” *windows error noise* #man was foiled by his own underlings and angry force rafiki #HERA CALLING KANAN 'MY LOVE' OH MY WORD JUST *MARRY* EACH OTHER ALREADY YOU BASICALLY ALREADY ARE #'looks like the family's back together' STOP #the yavin base name drop #me through the entire space battle: do you know what we need right now? the battlestar galactica #just looked it up and apparently a star destroyer is actually not much bigger than a battlestar which is. FASCINATING to me #they'd be like the same class of ship #which tracks yeah #anyway #they did have a few ships get away so they did actually have a better success rate than in TLJ #but of course they had MANDALORIANS to help them out here so

[arolesbianism]

Thinks oh so hard abt the spiraling upwards clan founders, especially the birchclan founders. Silly lil kitties who's pasts are drenched in blood with the primary regret of not drawing it sooner

#rat rambles #oc posting #warriors posting #spiraling upwards #long story short they had a shitty awful terrible leader who sucked absolutely ass and they tore him to shreds #I mean that literally they pinned him onto the mountain side and slashed and mauled the shit out of him so hard that his lives evaporated #and several of the cats involved in that scene are sill alive and major parts of the story and I love them #oh also the cat that pinned him through a stab through the throat was his own daughter btw everyone hated his ass so much #and for good reason get his ass #alas in the main story I dont rly get to go too deep into how he harmed everyone involved mostly just three main ones #aka bristlestar because shes murtlepaw's ghost mom dawncrackle because hes also haunting murtle and gullspot because shes bristle's kit #so basically all the flashbacks we get involve those three in some form or another #honeystar was also there and involved but Im not currently planning on having her rly talk abt that #most of her more modern angst is the fact that she was forced into leadership against her will #and shes been alive long enough that shes been leading birchclan far longer than she ever lived in her old clan #but she did go through a lot of shit before birchclan was founded and it definitely shaped her a lot #she used to be a very determined and high spirited lil kitty cat who tried to be optimistic #but her family began to slowly be picked off one by one by both the old leader and the one whod later get evicerated #some of the older cats around her hoped it make her back down from her revelutionary ideas but she noticed that and it backfired on them #instead of being worn down to submission she became absolutely Furious and began to lash out more and become more demanding #it got to the point that she really only had two friends in the entire clan and one of them was her aunt whod later also die after coming #out abt having witnessed the leader killing his own kits #that was the final fucking straw for her and she was fully on board when bristle and dawn started looking for cats to join their rebellion #she did get rly frustrated with them as they waited patiently for the right moment but her remaining bestie kept her from going apeshit #so once the big fight finally broke out she was more than eager to join the hoard of cats chasing the bastard upwards #now unlike some of the other cats involved this legitimately actually made her feel a lot better for a while #for the first time in ages she finally felt like she could be optimistic abt smth again and was excited abt the idea of leaving this place #she had lost so much in this damn place since she was an apprentice and just wanted to finally be able to rest easy #but once they got to their new territory and set up camp things went south real fast as a flood fucked everything up #and after losing the only cat she had left in her life and losing her tail and being made deputy on top of that she deteriorated quickly

[truckstoptigers]

when i was seven and our trailer burned down, i thought about leaving my father there, grabbing my brother, and getting us the hell out

i didn't. i ended up waking our father and we all ended up at the neighbors' house

but i should have

i fucking should have

because the minute he had a chance to be alone with me (after we got to my grandma's trailer) guess what he did! shortly after our fucking HOME burned down and the firefighters gave my brother and i teddy bears and wrapped blankets around us for shock!!!!!! fucking christ i hate our father more than anyone on this earth

#haha :) feeling normal abt this! #all i cared about was my brother being safe. thats all. i still remember holding his hand and walking him to the neighbours house #i couldnt see because i left my glasses in the trailer. they put on the little mermaid cartoon for us. i even remember what episode it was #but i genuinely considered leaving my father there and honestly that scares me #honestly i was afraid to wake him up bc i didnt want him to get mad at me. if he got mad at me i would always suffer for it later #milo murmurs #fun fact we lived w someone & his son and his son ended up becoming my cousin when his mom married my uncle #i am so so glad neither or them were home that night #he was so young. im several years older than him & he was so little that he doesnt even remember we lived together #csa vent #tw csa vent #csa tw #also feeling fucked up abt the fact that my father wld put his cigarettes out on me when he was pissed #sometimes i wonder if the fire started because he was smoking smth and passed out while doing it but my brother slept in his room #i feel like they wouldve been much more worse off if the fire started in their room #anyway im pretty sure that the fire was set intentionally bc he had some ties to the wrong ppl #and either they didnt know me & my brother were also there and were only going after our father or they didnt care we were there #to this day even bonfires make me nervous if i can only smell them & cant see them. i hate smelling smth burning & panicking #we live in the country now so its very common for ppl to burn leaves and wood and what have you. its still scary sometimes #i think abt this a lot actually bc any fire still makes me lowkey nervous. less so if i know where/what its coming from but still nervous

[hajidumps]

og!Deruth: I never raised you to be like this!

og!Cale: and you never raised me at all! So stop acting like you actually did something when you never did.

#trash of the count's family #incorrect tcf quotes #tcf incorrect quotes #cale henituse #deruth henituse #og!deruth henituse #i like to think that some night they had a confrontation #maybe after og!cale got beaten up by choi han and he was just laying in bed #deruth hate on my blog? more likely than u think #i dont hate him that much he just sucks n i project some shit on him lmao #but u gotta admit not reconciling with ur son n suddenly saying he has a new mom after his mom just died sucks

[gch1995]

Hi! Been thinking about Luke and Vader. How do you think Luke went from wanting to die to believing there was good in Vader? What caused that change/acceptance?

I have a lot of sympathy for Anakin/Darth Vader, and I don’t think it’s fair to place blame on just him for becoming such a deeply dysfunctional and horrifying human disaster as an adult, considering how deeply compromised his agency was his entire life under a series of abusive, hypocritical, and oppressive authority figures within a dystopian galaxy’s fucked up institutions. However, that doesn’t mean Luke wouldn’t have still had absolutely every right to hate his father for hurting him, his friends, and the many other people throughout the galaxy either.

Yet, ultimately Luke didn’t hate his father, even after Darth Vader reached out to him through the force by torturing his son’s friends, stalking him, abducting him, terrorizing him, threatening him, and cutting off his hand to try to coerce him to join the dark side in Empire Strikes Back.

Why?

I think the most obvious reason is that, with a little space and time to recover from the trauma that his father put him through in his efforts to find him and recruit him to the dark side, Luke ultimately sensed the good within Anakin beneath the darkness after he revealed that he was doing all this because Luke was his son, his family, who wanted freedom from Sidious and someone better to bond with than that sadistic asshole his current master was.

Also, in spite of how awful and dangerous it was for Anakin to terrorize Luke, cut off his hand, and threaten him like that on Bespin to try to recruit him to the dark side, he intentionally goes out of his way to avoid outright killing his son by going easy on him battle, giving him chances to escape, and trying to recruit him to the dark side to bond with his son and gain freedom, rather than bringing him to the Emperor.

Yes, he’s being awful, cowardly, and selfish in his methods, but Anakin is also trying to more easily avoid the possibility of one of them getting killed by Palpatine or one another by going after his son to try to recruit him to the dark side to overthrow the Emperor because he knows his master will do worse to Luke and/or himself if he finds out the truth about his son still being alive and a Jedi.

In Empire Strikes Back, Anakin also tells Luke “Don’t make me destroy you” when his son skitters away from him in terror. Though he went about looking for Luke pretty obsessively to try to recruit him for the dark side, once his son actually refuses to be swayed to the dark side by his father on Bespin after being abducted, terrorized, and amputated by him, Anakin notably doesn’t keep hunting down Luke to try to recruit him to the dark side or personally kill him for refusing after he runs away in terror in the movie. He’s upset about it, sure, but he really never wanted for Luke to be killed or hurt long term either.

Then, you also have to examine the fact that Luke didn’t really ever view Owen and Beru Lars as his parents. Though they loved Luke, and he loved them, Owen and Beru still never encouraged Luke to view them as his parents either. They were Aunt Beru and Uncle Owen to Luke, but never mom and dad to him. Luke really wanted someone to be able to identify as his parents. Anakin, flawed as he was, was the first person in Luke’s life to identify themselves as one his parents he had been missing his whole life, which is also why he was particularly desperate to bond with his father and inspire him to turn back to the light side.

If you guys want to chime in, you can!

@abla-soso

@fanfic-lover-girl

@fanfictasia

@komikbookgeek

@yoghurtconsumer

#fanfic-lover-girl #star wars asks #when and why did Luke go from fearing his father to believing in his goodness deep down? #I think it was a couple months to a year after Vader encountered him in empire strikes back. #because Luke realized that for as horrifying as Vader had been he still went out of his way to avoid killing him because he was his son #also for as much as luke loved beru and owen lars for raising him well he never identified with them as mom and dad #and for as much as Owen and beru loved Luke they never raised him as their son. they raised him as their nephew. #i love the horrifying and beautifully tragic father/son relationship between Luke and Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader #even if they sadly did only get like a few days together to really know each other and most of that time they were enemies #Anakin may have been far more dangerous and terrifying to luke than aunt beru and uncle Owen but he still identified himself as Luke’s DAD #I like to imagine Anakin and obi wan spent a lot of time apologizing and talking to Luke and Leia to try to bond and tell them their story #I really think that Luke would feel a lot of conflicting emotions after hearing his dad’s story #on the one hand I think he would feel a lot of sympathy for his biological parents #and feel some resentment towards the way the old Jedi order forbid attachments and operated like an extremist military cult #it’s why I loved it when Luke dragged the old Jedi Order for being hypocritical and self-righteous dicks who helped create Darth Vader #even if unintentionally #but Luke is also a good person at heart too so I know he would be horrified to learn that his father committed mass murder and hurt his mom #even though I hate the sequels and don’t like to consider them canon I loved the scene where Luke dragged the old Jedi Order to Rey #I do think it would take him some time to process how terrible his predecessors from the Jedi Order had become and forgive his father though #do I think he would be able to forgive Anakin even after learning his whole story? absolutely because he has a forgiving heart #and he’d also learn that his father was also a lifelong victim with compromised agency who ultimately regretted doing those horrible things #but it would take him a bit of time and space #return of the jedi #luke skywalker #anakin skywalker #darth vader #ot star wars #pt star wars #empire strikes back

[silverselfshippingchaos]

he <3

#big bro <3 he's cool! but is he as cool as best boy t.orgal? hmmm thats up for debate #ash feeds him treats and gives him lots of pets!!! pat pat pat pat pat #ash rambles 💚 #i've been doing nothing but study so brain is mushy #but c.live! brother! and t.orgal! friend! #f.f16 and m.ass e.ffect are keeping me goinf ajdhqjdh i love them #my first fucking post about c.live hasnt popped up so screw it! i'll make another! #also fellas i think my crush on g.arrus v.akarian is much more than that- may or may not have two fankiddos #ahskjqkdjq i've been seriously going through it as of late with school and shit but at least theres hot aliens 😳😳 #but yeah. ash isnt actually blood related to c.live! thank fucking god- i freaking hate his mom LMAAOO #she's just a close friend who he starts to see as a sibling type #especially since shes the same age as his actual little brother #theres about 5 yrs between them so ash is around 28ish! a wee bit younger than her gf v.ivian #big bro is cool :D #... i still like his dog better- #(that was a joke. mostly.) #so much studying.. so tired... but we must persist #once the horrors pass i shall finish m.ass e.ffect 3! muahahaha! #a while back my friends and i decided to go out this weekend. and me being busy as shit is not gonna stop me from dancing it up LMAO #so we're on the study grind 😎 #also on the freaking brainrot grind oh my god- m.atthew has been on my mind all day!! and ofc g.arrus and the two fankiddos i'm working on #also an old crush AJDJAJJSJQ i need to finish h.aikyuu since a.kiteru has my whole heart #okay yeah thats all #everyone look at t.orgal and how cute he is :D! and ig c.live too #my screenshots too! me and f.f16 photo mode are besties :D (i have spent an embarrassing amount of time zooming up on my gf v.ivian)

[13eyond13]

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#been thinking about genetics and nature vs nurture and all this sort of stuff a lot lately #and just contemplating why people are the way they are and how much is sort of hardwired vs learned etc. #anyway I'm definitely wayyyy more like my dad than my mom and i think i have actually learned to become sort of the ideal companion #for people like my mom #because my mom is the harder to please and stronger personality in the household who is way more obviously emotional and sensitive #and i empathized with her automatically in a sort of female solidarity way as the household is all boys otherwise #but anyway i know im just naturally like my dad in disposition and humour and looks and everything else but i also know i probably studied #how he handles my mom and her outbursts and insecurities and learned to react to it similarly to him as well #she's a very odd mix of one of the most empathetic kindest people you'll ever meet and also incredibly critical and sensitive to criticism #and she barely ever will tell you you did a good job at anything and will point out mostly only the bad stuff or flaws in whatever you do #yet also HATES that her own mom is exactly the same way and was traumatized by that growing up herself #i honestly 100% believe her mom (my grandma) is undiagnosed autistic and simply doesnt even realize how she comes off but it really #affected my mom growing up and now she is constantly on alert for anything that could possibly be a critique of her and will throw you #under the bus instead if you ever say something even remotely close to negative about her or arent extremely thoughtful about showing up #to the multiple events she hosts every single week #anyway the way my dad usually reacts is just being extremely quiet and steady and dry humoured in reaction to this and when she starts #critiquing him and bringing up all his past failures as a way of making herself feel better about her own bad self esteem he kind of just #takes it and doesnt take it personally because he knows shes doing it for low self esteem reasons #even though its not really fair to him and she would absolutely hate anybody doing the same to her #when i think of my dad's gentle quietness and humour and how much he hates being aggressive or critical i think of when we played a #board game called qwelf once and in the game he was made to act like a drill sergeant and scold and yell at all of us as we moved #our pieces around the board and the best he could do was to mutter stuff like 'get your buns in gear there soldier!' #it makes me lol to remember it my god he simply can't it's the most unnatural thing for him in the world #anyway i always wonder how much of my similarities to him are just genes and how much are learning from him #by watching and admiring and mimicking #because having nieces shows me that kids are absolutely little sponges who try to do everything they see you doing without even knowing #if it's a good thing to be mimicking or not and that can be a bit of a terrifying responsibility as the adult #i am glad i learned good coping mechanisms from dad and how to handle unfair criticism and lack of praise in stride as well but #something i had to teach myself as an adult was how to have healthy boundaries and be assertive when i feel like im being treated poorly #because my parents are both huge people pleasers who struggle with it themselves

[mejomonster]

My biggest complaint about red white and blue is the cover ToT

(Don't take me too seriously dhdhf)

#red white and royal blue #lb #by this i mean: the novel? AMAZING. excellent superb. i am enjoying it phenomenally #the cover however reminds me more of the 200 page or less romance comedies that are very lighthearted with very little #depth of stress. which is fine. thats also a good kind of book. #but rwrb has like... alex being the biggest bitch in it. a workaholic out of touch emotionally (but very Emotionally acting) man #prince henry and the Actual Horrificly Fucked reality of life in the spotlight. political Weight and stress of calling out poljticial issues #By Name and risking alienating the reader audience by REQUIRING them to learn to sympathize with alex who may be unlike them #and who Feels unlike those in power and who Feels half his heritage hes being estranged from with his moms situation #and then Also asking you the reader to empathize with henry in a way you have provably never had to do in real life with Anyone like him #because in real life we simply never meet someone in henrys situation #its not the polish of prince charming. its the heartwrenching pain and fear and tragedy of Being #The Symbolic Prince Charming. it is a much HEAVIER novel than its cover implies #and i like the cover and think the Pop Bright Cover made romcom readers give it a chance and likely #expanded the readership and got readers to try a novel the would not otherwise have given a chance. so marketing wise its Excellent. #but i feel like... the core Reader who would go out specifically looking for a novel Like rwrb would #see this cover and assumr the story isnt as heavy as they were looking for. #likewise i saw caseys other book cover and i hate it lol ToT i would actively avoid reading it #but becausr its Casey writing? i bet it IS as heavy and complex emotionally and Specific as i want a novel to be #its just the cover of bright pop orange and pink was not designed for Me. it was designed to appeal to a broad audience

[milo-is-rambling]

Going to eat a brown sugar cinnamon pop tart for the first time since my dad died. I’m craving it. It will make me cry. Going to hot box the bathroom while I take a bath and then cry and eat a pop tart in the bath. I’m bringing pocket joe for companionship

#I took a dab and then went oh shit a bath would be fantastic rn. and then I said. wait. I’m hungry. I want a pop tart. I also want to cry in #the bath. this feels like a win win then when my high wears off and I stop feeling my emotions I can smoke the joint and it will fix me #life hack. #also pop tarts make me sad bc my dad ate pop tarts like every fucking morning with his coffee and it was like his thing and he always joked #about pop tarts being programmer food #ughhhhh I want to cry I miss my dad I’m pmsing I just got fired I feel like a total failure my mom likes my brother more than me my dad #understood being the fuck up kid who’s traumatized and struggling like oh my god now that I’ve experienced losing someone that close I want #to go back in time to when he was alive and talk about losing his sister and how hard that was on him I mean he was my age when his older #sister died and it fucked him up and his death fucked me up around the same age I feel like I’m destined to become my father and I hated him #so much growing up but now that I feel like it’s gonna happen no matter what I can’t help but just wish he was here to talk to #my mom is far too good at being a normal person and so is my brother and my dad was the fuck up and he understood how I felt and now I have #no one who was the fuck uo and grew up anyways like ughhhhhhhh I hate everything I wish my dad was alive

[pepprs]

ppl are being so fucking mean in the notes of this one wc post abt the new excerpt like. don’t get me wrong i think redacted is a deeply flawed character and i share everyone’s anger and frustration in his storyline being so badly written and lazily thought out and a perfect example of the misogyny in wc like that’s part of why i stopped reading the books bc they kind of fucking suck. but ppl in the notes are saying he’s a loser and should die over… resenting that he is the last person picked for the team? like is that not a universal experience. have we not all been through that. idk. like i know that’s not the most important aspect of this conversation and at the end of the day it’s a fictional character but also it’s like… lol

#purrs #ppl saying he should die over resenting his mom too when like. idk. i get it and i know talking abt these aspects is like unhelpfully #detracting from what the conversation is actually about but like. i think even if his reasons to hate his mom and feel distanced from her #are immature and selfish and he’s needlessly cruel (not to mention the personalities of well established (FEMALE!) characters are literally #being bent into unrecognition narratively to prove him right which i fucking hate) and i think it’s dumb that they didn’t go w his mom for t #this storyline when it was the obvious choice. but also like. the mom stuff is so real. the scene with him and his mom and sister (sorry im #vaguing bc i don’t want this in the search lol) just like wrenched my guts bc that’s what it’s like w me and my mom and my sister. i don’t c #care about the character i don’t even really like him that much and i skim his parts but i think the mom drama storyline is important and #the whole warped view of the world bc of your mom drama storyline is also important and i just don’t like seeing ppl bash him for those #aspects bc… a lot of people out there do that and have that and it doesn’t make them bad people. idk maybe im just defensive and butthurt or #whatever bc it’s making me think abt how maybe how i treat my mom / react to her emotionally neglecting me (and even PERCEIVE it as neglect) #is unfair and flawed and whatever but like. idk. i just think it’s unfair to want him to die for struggling w that and i think that aspect #of it is written in a very real way that i appreciate a lot in a vacuum / detached from the context of the character. and i wish ppl were #focusing their anger towards the erins for choosing him and warping the storyline more than they are taking issue with the actual like. #conflict and emotion in it because yeah i do think that redacted is justified in feeling how he feels in some ways. idk #it’s been pissing me off all night. like ppl are allowed to say die and kys and explode etc i do it all the time but also.. for that #specific thing it doesn’t feel fair. and it’s embarrassing to say that but im saying it. lol #delete later #like the reason he hates his mom isn’t because he hates women it’s because she abandoned him and couldn’t be a mother to him (for extremely #justifiable reasons but still) and even though it’s justifiable that is also like.. real. and it impacts you for life. lol! 🤸🏻‍♀️

[uraniumglassgirl]

theres this thing i don’t understand abt the binding of isaac. the story is isaac confronting his own religious trauma and familial abuse in the form of a story he can understand as he suffocates to death. right? like the plot itself is fairly simple all the gameplay is just to serve as metaphors for his abuse and sort of analyze him as a character.

but theres this between floor transition scene where it shows the lost speaking to his mom from the attic and i assume hes acting as the god we hear in the opening cutscene right? why is that there. we know the “your son has become corrupt!” thing is not literally happening its just a story isaac has made up but why would he include his own dead soul commanding his mother to kill him in his story? maybe its just kids being creative and strange

#maybe its like. #layer 1 is isaac believes that god hates him and wants him dead #but layer 2 is actually god doesnt hate him. god loves him. any nonsense about him having sinned is his internal baggage #represented in the form of his spirit? idk #i assumed all the storybook drawing segments were directly written by isaac and were thus a little crude and devoid of like. direct nuance #also while im here the beast is a disappointing final boss #better than delirium mechanically by a mile #but conceptually soooo much more boring #delirium introduced this idea that the reason why the game gets so much morr #abstract as we progress. is because isaac is suffocating and his thoughts are losing coherence #which i like #the beast? hes. um. a demon #like we go from dogma an EASY 1 boss concept to. um. the beast i guess #idk #it feels like a step backwards #like . maybe my religious shame is not because im a bad person? maybe its propaganda. and though my mom perpetuates it. shes a victim too #to like. oh yea then god gave me wings and i fought a demon