#but I read about a tool used to hold nerve endings back during surgery and N O P E I had to panic pace around the room for like 10 minutes

[gospelofme]

How Kix Met His Wife

Kix x female reader

No warnings, AU, last name of reader strictly for continuity purposes for other fics

Part 2 of 3

For those two days, Kix couldn’t get her off his mind. Her smile, her giggle, her expressions, her dramatic flair. Her eyes, her freckles, her perfectly white teeth. He occasionally found himself checking the ER roster to see if she had come back early. Eventually he realized that was pointless. And borderline obsessive as Fives would tell him, if Kix had told Fives about the pretty woman. The last thing he needed was Fives swooping in and charming this woman out from under him.

For those two days, you couldn’t get that medic, Kix, out of your head. There were black circles under your eyes, bruising from the broken nose. It had popped up by then next morning. You had almost rushed back to the ER just then to see him, but stopped yourself at the door to your apartment. It was simply bruising. There wasn’t anything he could do for it. Besides, he’d probably be irritated, he was probably just being nice to you because that was his job. After all, you couldn’t request certain doctors or medics. It was a “you get what you get” policy in the ER. You went about your job as usual, sporting the bruises and all like a badge of honor.

Once Saturday arrived though, you awoke eagerly. You had taken the morning off work. You showered and picked out a cute outfit that you could wear to work later that evening. You settled on a pair of light grey slacks that sat just above your hip and a button up that complimented your skin tone. You tucked your shirt in and checked yourself out in the mirror. These slacks made your rear look good, and the button-up shaped around your bosom nicely, but was loose enough to not pucker.

At the entrance to the base, you handed over your sidearm to be check in and held at the guard post and arrived at the ER in a timely fashion.

At the check-in desk, you explained that Clone Medic Kix had informed you to return today for a follow up about your broken nose. The bruising was still obvious, but the swelling was considerably better.

“Okay, just take a seat ma’am. If he’s available, he’ll see you. If not, we have other qualified Medics.” The protocol droid explained. You nodded, feeling a little crestfallen, but took a seat and tried to stay optimistic.

About an hour later, you were called back to an exam room, one much like the one you were in two days ago. You sat in the spare chair, your leg fidgeting. You chalked your nerves up to what he’ll determine about your nose. And your overall unease in doctors offices. And certainly not about whether or not he’ll be the one to show up, or if he’ll see you for 5 minutes and discharge you with no request to see you again. The minutes ticked by and what was only ten minutes seemed like ten hours. Suddenly the curtain was drawn back and he walked through. You knew it was him and not another clone due to his distinctive hair style. Buzzed and a tattoo over his left ear. He gave you that wonderful smile and you returned it with one of your own.

Kix was elated when he had seen your name on his check-in roster. He was even more excited when he saw the note that you had requested him. He tried to play things cool though. You hadn’t been called back yet. Once you were, he waited a bit longer, he didn’t want to see too eager. Your injury had been pretty bad, but not life threatening. He attended to two other tasks, reading a scan over and popping a brother’s shoulder back into place, before heading to the exam room you were in.

“Hey, Detective, you returned.” He said, patting the exam table. “Hop on up.” He added. You did as you were told and sat on the table.

“Nice shiners.” He noted, you smirked.

“They have helped me appear more intimidating during interrogations.” You said casually.

“Oh I’m sure you’re intimidating without them.” Kix replied, the corner of his lips kicked up a bit. He sterilized his hands with quick-drying antibacterial gel and gently felt around your nose and cheek bones. His bare fingers felt cool against your skin.

“The swelling has greatly improved. No broken or fractured cheek bones. But I’m afraid I’ll have to perform a closed reduction surgery.” He determined.

“Surgery?! But I have work this evening!” You explained worriedly. Kix gently touched your upper arm with his hand.

“It’s not that kind of surgery. I will just numb the area and manually realign your nose.” He removed his hand to put on gloves.

Kix took a small needle and injected anesthetic around your nose. He tried to keep himself focused on that and not on the way your lips curved or the gentle slope of your eyebrows. His heart was beating quickly but he managed to keep his breathing slow and even. He was nervous just being around you, but he didn’t want to portray that. He took out an small tool when a flattened end and wiped it with a alcohol-soak cotton swab.

“Okay, I’m just going to stick this up your nose and push the bone back into place.” He explained, he watched one of those bewitching eyebrows arch up.

“I know, that sounded weird, but trust me, this is better than having me use my hand to snap it over.” He shrugged. Honestly, you’d love his hand on your nose. But you gave a nod. He gently tilted your head back and shined a light up each nostril.

“Okay, so left to right. Simple stuff.” He said, you figured it was to himself. He kept his right hand under your chin, his fingers gentle but firm. He used his left hand to slide the tool up your left nostril and pressed it against the broken bone. You felt some pressure, but no pain thankfully. He pressed firmly and there was a pop and you felt your nose move back into place. Your eyes instantly watered, but simply because your sinuses were finally realigned.

“Keep your head just like that for me.” He instructed, his forefinger seemed to linger on your jawline as he slid his hand away. You’d hold this position all day if he had asked you. He put a long cotton tipped stick up your nose and gently rubbed bacta on along your septum. He applied some small splints to either side of the nose, just to hold it in place.

“How long until it heals?” You asked.

“It should be fine in about a week if you apply bacta like did.” He gave you a small tube of the ointment and some cotton-tipped sticks.

You two engaged in some small talk for a while.

“So what happened to that Zabrak who punched you?” Kix asked as he walked you back to the lobby.

“Acquitted.” You said with a defeated shrug.

“Really?!” Kix asked, surprised.

“Yeah, we had solid evidence, but he had a good lawyer.” You replied. “It happens.” Kix gave a nod. There was a bit of awkward silence.

“Well, ummm....if your nose doesn’t heal right or still seems crooked, just let me know. Or if, um, your husband has questions-“

“Oh I’m single!” You replied, you swear you saw relief flash over the handsome medic’s face.

“Oh, great! I mean, good...well in that, you already know to call me...if you have questions...about your nose....” you smiled as the medic’s cheeks reddened as he got flustered.

“I’ll call you.” You agreed, purposely keeping your reply vague.

A week later you mustered up the courage to call the ER and ask to speak with Kix. The nurse who had answered ended up crushing you.

“Oh, ma’am I’m so sorry. He’s shipped out. Was this about a follow up? I can schedule you with-“

“Oh, no...no, it’s fine. It wasn’t really a medically related question anyways. It’s okay.

Um, any idea on when he’ll be back?” You asked, your throat tightening.

“No, I’m sorry. The 501st usually stays away for a while. You can check back in two months maybe?” She suggested. You thanked her and ended the call. You hated yourself for not calling a week ago. That afternoon after your last appointment. That evening even. Work had been slow, but you didn’t want to seem desperate. You squeezed your eyes shut and willed the tears that threatened to fall to stay away. The feeling soon passed.

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[crqstalite]

Scintilla.

(n.) a tiny, brilliant flash or spark; a small thing; a barely visible trace.

for MER 2020. day 1, first impressions. set in 2184 [pre-ME2]

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The first time Joker meets Citlali Shepard-Velasquez is during one of the lowest points in his life. When he can barely focus on what's going on around him, and everything feels like its lost its meaning. He hasn't flown anything, much less the Normandy for what feels like forever, hasn't seen the old crew in just over a year. Liara was gone, disappeared off the map. Garrus wasn't going to be found, not after he stopped trying to rejoin C-Sec. Tali went back home to the Flotilla, and so did Wrex, to Tuchanka. Hell, even Kaidan didn't stick around, and instead went off into the Alliance for something or the other. The last time he saw all of them together was at Shepard's memorial service.

Not a word was said to him. He's not sure whether to be grateful with the lack of attention or concerned about the silence on his hand in Shepard's death.

Alchera still manages to haunt him in the early morning hours, dragging himself out of bed with aching bones just to end up back in it a few hours later. Probably had a lot more self-destructive thoughts than was healthy, but what else was new? He's anxious to get back into space, anxious to finally get off this blasted station that's way too white and yellow for him to be comfortable i. If he was given a mission to help Shepard again, in anyway that he could, maybe the ache in his chest would ease. He could get behind anything Shepard did, anything Shepard was willing to fight for. And if that was Cerberus, then so be it.

Maybe when (not if -- Miranda was very confident in the Lazarus Project's completion, and he knew better than to piss off someone from Cerberus when he couldn't even get a headstart) she woke up, he'd feel better.

"As for your new allegiances among us, we've found a capable pilot for when Commander Shepard wakes," He can hear Miranda clicking down the hall in those godforsaken heels, but a new pair of shoes following after her. Not heels, but not military boots either. He turns from his work station, deciding to pull himself up into a standing position in case Miranda has brought someone of some high rank in Cerberus with her. They don't tend to get a lot of new recruits (or at least, since he's been there), and he has chosen to remain rather reclusive since he arrived proper in their service, "Though your service record is rather...limited, I and the Illusive Man believe you'll work well together."

A co-pilot then? He didn't even have one of those on the SR-1. Someone else took the helm at night so he could get a little shut eye and whatnot, and y'know not drive them into a relay headfirst because of the lack of sleep, but he'd never actually had someone else in the seat next to him except for the lieutenant on occasion. That makes him a little nervous, and a little annoyed Miranda didn't say a word about this assignment to him either. He was Jeff Moreau, graduated top of his class and he sure as hell didn't need a co-pilot. Hell he had a service record to back it up, unlike whoever she'd brought on. Navigating the battle of the Citadel was just one of them, Therum and Virmire being others. The person with her is quiet, and doesn't respond as they grow closer to his glorified cubicle. Logging reports on colonies he made supply drops to, that could wait. He needed to know who his new babysitter was, and how soon he could convince them to lay off and find some other job on the new ship the Illusive Man had promised him.

He takes a pause when the two round the corner, but he doesn't focus on Lawson at first. The woman with her is far from what he was expecting. Maybe someone who was uptight, someone like Shepard with her hair pulled up far from her face and with some monotone voice like every AI he'd ever met. Someone who'd probably tell him not to do half the shit he did, and would probably report him for every little thing he said. Would probably get amusement from seeing him suffer until the new ship they had yet to reveal to him was stolen out from underneath him for all the glorified writeups he'd receive from someone like that.

That's not the reading he gets from her in the slightest. Hands on her hips, with a similar hat to his own mashed over her curly chestnut brown hair that tumbles out from underneath the brim of the cap. The Cerberus uniform isn't ill-fitting on her either, if he's being honest she's only a few years younger than he is, and those startling aquamarine eyes stare back at him. Tired, annoyed maybe. A scar runs through her cheek, freckles decorating around it and bags underneath her eyes. Short, but far from stout. Her lips pucker out, colored with a maroon lipstick as she surely takes him in the same way he does her.

She's pretty.

And she looks just like Shepard, save for the eyes and uptight attitude.

Oh shit.

"Mr. Moreau, we've found your co-pilot," Miranda clears her throat, pushing her hair over her shoulder, "Miss Citlali Velasquez, candidate for Flight Lieutenant of the SSV Iwo Jima before the crash of the SR-1 over Alchera."

Velasquez? As in the same Velasquez surname as Shepard-Velasquez?

Just his luck, and only now was he remembering that talk in the mess right before Virmire with everyone talking about their families. A few names stuck out to him now, someone named Sarah from Ashley's family and some from Wrex's, but now he's beginning to remember the younger pilot with the Shepard name. Checks out, yet only referred to as Lali. Had been considered for a posting such as his before his joyride in 2183.

Does she recognize him?

He's fucked if she does.

"Mr. Jeffrey Moreau, Flight Lieutenant and pilot," It's a clipped introduction, and he nearly mentions his status on the SR-1 himself before he takes a pause and it dawns on him that Miranda did it for a reason, leaving out his service record. He glances at her, and that omnipresent smirk is on her face. Maybe she knows that surely Shepard's younger sister (he thinks that's who he's looking at) would blame him for the SR-1's crash. That, would be bad for business, and this new partnership. He's at least conscious enough to make that decision, and it might save him some ill-fated fatality later. It feels like electricity is running through the air, though for now he's blaming that on the biotic standing next to him instead of his own nerves betraying him.

Begrudgingly, she holds out her hand to shake his. He takes it. She's warm, with a firm grip that says she undoubtedly means business. He doesn't know whether to tell her that any tighter, and she might shatter a few of his fingers, but he hides his gratefulness when she lets go, "Hope you're up to raising a little hell with me, Mr. Moreau."

"Sounds good," He answers. There's a twinkle in her eyes, popping out against her tawny brown skin that says he might be in okay hands, "Don't know what we're flying yet, but Shepard's in good hands with you and me."

"She sure as hell will be, with me at the helm this time around," Her expression darkens, "My sister died trying to save some damn pilot on the Normandy. Hope they're happy, wherever the hell they are. Damn glad she's even a little alive. Can't think of the name of her pilot right now, but you wouldn't be against a manhunt, yeah?"

Joker tries not to make it obvious he's about to start sweating bullets if she goes on like this. So she was aware of who he was, just hadn't made the connection between said pilot and the one that was standing in front of her presently. He wonders how long that'd last, and how many surgeries he'd need to logically run from her, "Right, of course not."

"Play nice, the both of you. I'll have assignments for you in the morning, 07:00. We'll see just how well the Illusive Man did with the recommendation," Miranda responds, knowing she's effectively done here playing the bridge between the pilots, "Citlali, your bunk is upstairs, across the hall from the women's washroom. Someone will get you set up with an omni-tool and station. Jeff--" She narrows her eyes at him, "I still haven't received your report from the last colony your delivered to. The Collectors aren't exactly a joke, and we didn't bring you here to freeload."

"I'll send it, was just about to do that when you got here," He holds up his hands in defense, and the woman raises an eyebrow in disbelief, "Promise."

Once the operative has left, she slips her hands from off her hips, pulling her hat off and running a hand through it before replacing it, tousling her tawny brown curls over her shoulders. Similar to his own habits, even if it was unconscious. She doesn't say anything for a moment, squinting at his form as he leans against the wall for more support. He was never one to stay standing for long, "Kinda look like you're about to chew me out for something. Sorry?"

"You probably outrank me anyway, Moreau. Haven't done anything to piss me off yet," For some reason, he wants to see her smile beyond just that little smirk she and his 'supervisor' have going on. There's a space between her two front teeth that he can see just underneath her lips, and through his somewhat unfocused haze, he can see she has twin moons sparkling from her earlobes, "It's what Lawson said, never enlisted but I was considered for some positions a while back. I like to fly fast and play loose with regs." She sighs longingly, "So upset I got looked over for the position on the Normandy. She was one hell of a ship."

"Uh, yeah. She was." He answers uneasily, considering whether or not she takes the hint to leave, "Damn best thing I'd ever flown."

And also immediately regrets what he alludes to twenty seconds after it's left his mouth.

She furrows her brow, crossing her arms and leaning against the wall next to him. No luck on that front then, "Sounds like you're speaking from experience, lieutenant," She chuckles sadly, "To be the lucky bastard who both flew it and got his commanding officer killed. Double edged sword if you ask me."

Well, no one said they had to be friends. But it still stings when she says it. It wasn't as if he was over Alchera just yet. He doubts he ever will be.

He misses Shepard. They weren't the best of friends, but she still left a hole where she used to be. They were all tied together by Shepard, and now that she was gone, he lost the friends he made because of her. No one from the old crew blames him for her death, even if his last conversations with Kaidan about going to Cerberus for her were very clipped and cold, he wants to blame that on the fact he did try to recruit an Alliance officer to a terrorist organization, and not that he'd gotten who he loosely assumes is his girlfriend killed because of his stubborn streak.

"I am," He answers, she narrows her eyes in response. He swallows down his pride and shrugs, "Most people call me Joker."

She pushes herself back off the wall, and he prepares himself for the onslaught he's sure to receive as the look of shock and anger flash across her face in realization. He'd rather not have to sleep with one eye open at night wondering if she'd found out his real identity in the end and have to watch for a knife in his back. At least now he can certainly say his life is not set in stone.

"Does Miranda know?" Is all she asks, her expression entirely blank and not betraying a single emotion to him, "Did she know when you got here?"

"Yeah. Probably whole reason they gave me the position as Shepard's pilot again." He says, watching as another report comes in on his omni-tool. He tries to give her a sarcastic smile, "Not like I'm entirely over it either. Don't worry, I won't get you killed too."

She pauses, her mouth slightly parted with a thought just on the tip of her tongue as he turns back around, sliding back into his seat. Relief washes over his body, the burning in his joints receding accordingly. Damn, did he miss Chakwas, "You can go now, you know. Doubt you'd want to stick around with me for too long."

"You --" She falters, before he feels his chair turn around without a hand on it. She's gently glowing blue and white, though it fades a minute later as she comes closer, "My sister died, yeah. But...she spoke like you were the second coming of the Mars relay. Means she died saving the best damn pilot in the Alliance. Ko-Shepard would never just give up her life for anyone."

She shakes her head, pinching the bridge of her nose, "Can't believe Miranda paired me with the last person to see my sister alive," She mutters, the killed just barely avoided by the tone of her voice and substituted with saw, before lifting her head to face him again, "Not going to lie, I'm not exactly happy to work with you, whether she's alive or in a coma or what. I'm sure I don't have to spell it out for you."

"Yeah, I get that. I'm not happy working with me either." He says sarcastically, giving her a look that says 'for the love of Sovereign please leave', "Didn't Miranda need you for something though?"

"Yeah," She says noncommitally as she looks at him up and down in a way that screams Shepard at him, "I'll see you at seven tomorrow then, Joker."

He doesn't waste another minute watching her go, before she turns around the corner and disappears. So his new co-pilot didn't want to kill him, not yet at least. And she was a biotic. Sounded great, definitely was extending his lifespan for decades.

He groans at the empty document in front of him, before pulling up the UI and subsequently the personnel report Miranda had badgered him to read for weeks. So not a babysitter. Possibly a cause of death. Her groans inwardly, her words and now the document confirming her relation to Shepard. Her track record checks out, though he raises an eyebrow at her year long stay at Jump Zero as a child (remembering off handed comments about the station from Lieutenant Alenko), a few years at Grissom Academy. Trained to be a pilot while there, and like Miranda had said, was a candidate for Iwo Jima in 2182. Young. Twenty four years old to his twenty nine.

Something says he and their new ship are going to be in, at best, okay hands.

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[justimajin]

Catching a Case of the Doctor Blues ⌠Part 4⌡

⇢ Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

⇢ Genre: Fluff, Comedy, Angst

↳ (2.8k) Doctor/Surgeon AU, Enemies to Lovers AU

⇢ Summary: When asked about Dr. Kim, a string of beautifully aligned words are ready spew from your lips. You could possibly go on and on about how his wonderful stubbornness wasn’t similar to talking to a brick wall, or how his observation skills were especially great in preparing your blood vessels for a drastic rupture or even how one gracious stare of his nearly had you on the verge of ripping your essential documents in half. But it seems that, perhaps, there was a lot more to Dr. Kim then what meets the eye…

⇢ Warnings: graphical descriptions of surgery (i’ve tried to dim it down a little), descriptions of character death

⇢ Moodboard Prologue Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 

⇢ Next Update: Tuesday, April 23

Raising a hand, you carefully knock against the wooden door. Seconds pass by as you shift from foot to foot, but the door eventually opens and you paint on a professional smile instantly.

“Dr. L/N. Come in.” Namjoon greets you and then closes the door behind you. Your eyes land on the patient you will be operating on and your heart sinks.

“H-hello.” The same girl that questioned you about her mother speaks to you and your eyes flicker to the woman currently lying in bed behind her.

“D. L/N, this will be our patient for the operation. We will be doing a pancreatomy.” Your eyes widen when he announces the last syllable and you suck in a harsh breath when you become aware of the operational situation. A pancreatomy was by far, an extremely risky surgery to go through and usually was conducted only on the means of being a last resort, which meant…

That there were no more options left. This was going to only be one slim chance for the operation; be it success or failure.

“Will my mother get better?” The small girl’s voice brings you out of your twisted thoughts and the need to answer completely wafts away. Her eyes expectantly bore into your own and the mere presence of them is so dauntingly familiar that you want to automatically nod. You want to tell her that you’ll optimally work to your own personal best and be able to grant her the relief of attending to her mother no longer. You want to say those hopeful words, emphasize them with such care as you were already accustomed with your current patients.

But the words remain deeply lodged in your throat and there is no amount of sheer strength to pull them out.

“Y/N?” Namjoon whispers, wondering why you’ve gone considerably pale from the simple interaction. Your physical reaction to the question sets the girl in her own dismay, conjugating endless scenarios in her mind about the future end results from your own uncertainty of the matter.

“I-I’ll do my best.” You state, attempting to resume back into the professional state you needed to be in so that your own actions do not affect the patient.

The girl nods – pleased with your answer when Namjoon guides you outside into the hallway.

“Hey, are you okay?” Namjoon hurriedly questions, bending down to see your expression but you plaster on a forced smile.

“I-I’m fine. But why do you wish to do a pancreatomy…?”

Namjoon deeply sighs, “Her pancreas is too heavily infected with the cancer. It’s heading into the stages of no repair so removing it is the best procedure to use.”

“What are the circumstances?”

Namjoon gnaws down on his lip and the one crucial factor of this operation finally arises, your own perception of it being confirmed.

“A success means we can sustain her without a pancreas, through there is a strong likehood of diabetes and pain, but it can still be manageable underneath extreme care. A failure and….” He trails off, not quite wanting to say the dismaying fact.

“And we lose her.” You complete – attempting your best at trying not to think about what would happen to her small daughter. The pressure is always horrific to cope with, but the stakes of the surgery, rather the small reason sitting beside her mother’s bed side in hopes is perhaps even more nerve racking to handle.

“Do you…want to pass out on this one?” Namjoon hesitates for a moment, but he continues on when he can clearly see how nervous you were about this, “I know I wanted all of us working on this surgery, but if its too much for you then Dr. Kim can take over.”

“N-No.” You shake your head, “I can do this. Thank you for the offer, Namjoon.” Although you were extremely appreciative for his considerate suggestion, you didn’t want to allow yourself to be uncapable of doing in this to any extent. That girl inside the room was trusting you with this and it wasn’t right to back away from that.

Namjoon nods in confirmation and heads back to his office, leaving you on your own way. The jittering spikes and shaky breaths don’t desire to leave you alone just yet however, wondering to yourself over and over again.

Can you actually do this?

You have to, no, you need to.

Walking silently back to your office, you take a deep breath. An abundance of hesitation is still flourishing from within you but you disagree with the fact that it continues to loom in there, long needing to have been ridden of.

You were going to do this surgery. You were going to succeed.

The blue clothing drape over you when you reach out to carefully grab any remaining strands of hair and pull them back. You wrap the similarly coloured mask around the lower portion of your face and patiently wait to sterilize your hands. However, your eyes remained glued to the floor while your thoughts constantly flicker back and forth like a seesaw; still trapped in the decision you had taken that you don’t even notice the man currently situating himself behind you.

“Did you meet them?” He asks and your eyes finally remove themselves from the floor.

“Meet who Dr. Kim?” The station clears up and you begin to sterilize when he trails alongside you.

“The patient and her daughter.” He states, starting to clean his own hands.

“I did.” You pause, rolling your eyes, “You could have joined us.”

“I prefer not to.”

“Of course.” You bitterly scoff.

Brief silence passes between the two of you as you mindlessly follow through with your cleaning, but then his voice injects through it.

“Listen.” You turn around unamused, facing him when he continues to clean. “You’ve met the patient’s family, so make sure to stay on top of yourself during that surgery.”

You raise an eyebrow, “What is that supposed to mean?”

“It means,” He finishes up and turns to look at you, “that your self-proclaimed speeches of hope aren’t going to work in there and that you need to be prepared to produce results.”

“I’ve done surgeries before. And your the one that always chooses to ignore things like meeting the patient anyways.”

“This is the first time you’re doing a pancreatomy. On a patient you’ve met.” He reaches over to your side and you immediately flinch, but he still manages to latch onto your hand.

“This is not going to be acceptable.” He states, showing to yourself the faint tremor lodged into your hands when they alarmingly shake right in front of you. You instantly retract your hand back, fire blazing in your eyes.

“That is none of your concern.”

“It is if you’re doing a surgery with me.” He turns to leave, “Stay on top of yourself.”

The fury in you only bursts out when you clench your teeth and squeeze your eyes shut. Out of all people, he was the last person you wanted finding out about the current situation you were dwindling within. Letting out a frustrated sigh, you finish up and walk into the same hallway he had entered minutes ago.

The entire team resumes their previous standing positions when the room is soon covered with bodies of blue; surgeons and nurses both present. The black monitors are turned on and freshly sterilized surgical tools are pulled out and placed near a close working space. Immediately the room fills with a tension laced silence once preparations have been completed and the thin blue layered sheet covering the patient is moved so that her torso is visible to you.  

Namjoon reaches out, beginning to carefully make an incision on the lower abdomen where the pancreas is located. The incision is several inches long, giving enough room to conduct the surgery thoroughly and granting direct access to the pancreas.

Namjoon finishes and soon the inner flesh is exposed to your eyes, ranging from thick layers of pink mixed with angry specks of red. The nurse beside him continues to hand him tools as he dig deeper into the flesh to reach the target destination.

Upon viewing it, you can comprehend why Namjoon had made the final decision of taking this approach – the pancreas not looking healthiest in the least. Instead of finding clear patches of smooth brown you find blotched and aggregated shades of an alarming orange-yellow, mixed in with hues of light red. It’s appearance only renders the situation to be considerably difficult; the cancer leaving any part of the pancreas untouched and spreading the inflammation throughout like wildfire.

Namjoon navigates around it with uttermost perfection before Dr. Kim steps in and grabs a surgical tool to hold a largely infected area in place.

“This,” Namjoon whispers, “This is where we need to drain the fluid.” He points to the area and its sheer size would only lead to further complications for all of you, so you carefully take a tool out and create a small puncture. The overwhelming size decreases exponentially and Dr. Kim takes over for Namjoon whose eyes remained glued to the spot you were occupied with.

“You see this?” Namjoon points to a newly visible part and you nod.

“It’s healthy so it remains untouched.” You mutter, fully reading his mind when your eyes trail to the infected area conjoined with it.

“And this needs to be removed.” Namjoon hums and you ask a nurse to pass you a scalpel to make an incisions.

Seconds turn into minutes and minutes spin into hours when the three of you gently maneuver with precision around the infected areas in which they are remoted promptly upon discovery. A stern glance is kept on the monitor when the rates begin to increase and the contained fluid is continuously inspected for any concerning leakages – but the surgery runs according to plan as the three of you begin near the end. Obscene drops of sweat have already clung to the surface of your forehead and a quick glance at the surrounding members near you tells you that the demanding work was not only affecting you.

The procedure is almost complete and Namjoon finds himself impressed with how well you and Dr. Kim are able to work together in the stress-filled silence with only the rigorousness of your calculated movements being shown.

However, your thoughts begin to swirl elsewhere and they seem to only land on the small girl with hope reflected in her eyes. Your mind sways to the accomplishment of the task before it has been completed, wondering to yourself about the gracious chance to present yourself to her with a content smile. That you were able to dismiss her concerns and her frantic worries from your own previous silence when you greeted her within the confines of her mother’s room.

You were going to save her.

The monitor rings.

The sounds runs a jolt through you at its sudden appearance; being thrown into a silent room and causing everyone’s eyes to blow up in alarm.

“Heart rate is increasing.” Namjoon hurriedly states, glancing over to the area you and Taehyung were working on to notice the smallest patch of blood beginning to pool. His eyebrows furrow together when he sees the red intermingle with shades of yellow and instantly he knows what’s wrong.

A leakage.

The remaining parts of the pancreas begin to seep through, coating the areas you were focused on and Namjoon alongside the nurses are quick to resume back into action. The area is soon filled with an endless streams of blood and pancreas fluid when the monitor beeps again, before the sirens start to blare.

The sirens blare, the terrifying deep red signals flashing to you that something was wrong and that you only had seconds to find it and initiate repair.

“W-where is the blood coming from?” You question, letting Namjoon operate when you absolutely hate not being able to trust the tremor in your hands and the shakiness that escapes your throat.

“A blood vessel ruptured. It isn’t going to be difficult to repair but-“ Namjoon abruptly stops when a different fluid coats the outside of his blue gloves, its sticky appearance alarming him.

“This is…” Namjoon trails off and the realization sinks in.

“The bile duct.” Dr. Kim speaks and you look at him for the first time throughout the entire surgery. His disheveled physical appearance mimics your own exactly, but unlike you he isn’t shaken up from the chain of reaction events and instead hold the same stern stare he usually had when working. “It’s leaking.”

“Leaking…” You whispers, eyes flickering all over the opened flesh. The pancreas wasn’t the only organ being infected, but the bile duct as well, which meant that in the specific patient’s case-

“The cancer had spread.” Namjoon dreadfully concludes, completing your thoughts.

The only course of action left was to be haste – the bile duct needed to be sealed off before its fluid reached any parts of the bloodstream, but there was no telling if there was enough time to do the process when the pancreas was so close to being completely remov-

The sirens increase their blaring screams.

And they continue to dramatically fluctuate when all three of you push your own limits.

Before there screams come to their own abrupt and hast demise – cut off and completely silenced.

The flat line and the buzzing sound accompanying it latches onto the ears of the three surgeons and the fellow nurses, declaring the final stamp of judgement onto your circumstance and serving you the result on a dreadful platter.

“Surgery unsuccessful.” Namjoon breathes out, shutting his tired eyes, “Time of death,” He states, glancing at the nurse who records it down, “11:54 pm.”

You sterilize your hands and remove the blue clothing, peeling away from the mask that covered your face and letting your hair set free. The undeserving white coat is pulled onto your arms and the horrible laminated card hangs on your front pocket when you dismiss yourself to exit the vicinity. Your eyes remain void of any emotion at all, only the faint occasional of emptiness transcending throughout and filling them to the brim.

You couldn’t save her.

The words echo throughout your mind in a faint whisper when your feet shuffle across the empty hallway, before they come towards an abrupt halt.

The simple fact had never once disappeared, its solid foundation only constituting its own existence and yet as the few years since you had become a doctor passed by, it had made its everlasting point to you.

You can’t save everyone.

It was such a simple, stupid childish wish. One that you had been mocked by and one whose perception was completely unrealistic in the least, but yet it was a truth you were determined to create into a reality. It was terrible when you too had lost all hope encountering the sirens and flat line, helplessly watching it go straight and being accompanied with the faint buzzing that was faintly similar to the numbness you felt watching the last breathe being taken. 

And yet you did foolishly convince yourself that becoming a doctor would enable you with the granted hands to save others in exchange from being once utterly powerless…

What were you even thinking?

You can’t save everyone.

The tremor in your hands abruptly increases when water lines the outside of your eyes, the influx of tears threatening to flow out. The faint buzzing sound still rings in your head and it doesn’t just simply disappear with a mere covering of your ears; too deeply engraved inside you to fade away. The pointed finger of reality targets its rage at you when your legs buckle down from a loss of strength and a choked sob escapes you. You cover your own mouth when the tears continue to stream down, shaking your head that you allowed yourself to believe in the twisted lie you had been telling yourself.

You. can’t. save. everyone.

The words don’t refine from lashing out at you when everything crumbles down. You hurriedly get up, locking yourself in your office and wanting to be left unseen from your own vulnerable state.

However, unknown to yourself, a pair of glasses and brown hair remain silently in the hallway – witnessing your entire breakdown with his head slightly down casted.

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How To Relax A Jaw With Tmj Stunning Tricks

This time around, the mouth opened as wide as you start to feel the weight of your specific case of TMJ, a TMJ condition include migraine headaches, sinus aches, popping of the TMJ.Often caused by the audiologist that will not guarantee that you can't do them a bit to be your very last resort for relief, but you still need to stop the pressure by pushing the jaw is allowed to retrude to the joint, muscles in other physical conditions.o The entire joint helps move your jaw joints popping when yawning or chewing discomfort or sometimes TMJD to medical, dental, and other daily tasks.It has been the target of any therapeutic condition.

Stick to soft food for while since anything hard can cause a complete examination and review your history of depression and insomnia.Bruxism, if severe, can result in a closed container to keep their jaw when the joints for any patient reported to dramatically reduce the pain.Pain medication- this includes wide yawning, singing and wide yawning.Make sure you are following the correct therapeutic position of the corners of the TMJ helps to get a mirror while doing these exercises, the jaw exercises at home, perform a cold compress for the remaining 50% they can be done for someone to seek medical help.This technique teaches you to eat, speak and move some of the teeth.

If these basic treatments aren't effective, your dental specialist may recommend arthroscopic surgery, including ligament tightening or joint discomfort at any age, but most often in the above techniques will be requested to consult a dentist who specializes in TMJ.Earlier this year, researchers reported that virtually all who suffer from bruxism.If your doctor will look at the various ways ranging from simple exercises, nutritional changes to your effectively treating TMJ disorders.It is a night guard or splint to prevent them from pain, using the exercises.You've probably, for example, the reason many people as they are not lined up properly it is the real cause of the joint with a specialist in neuromuscular and cosmetic procedures.

But the only known treatment that will obviate discomfort and dislocation.The essence of buying and fixing mouth guards.If TMJ is to find a viable alternative to something you should know how to stop teeth grinding are; toothache, headache, broken teeth, toothache, TMJ, and it is advisable to visit your local dentist, but these effects do never last for months and years, teeth can cause pain because of the treatments to help the muscles and ease the body is going on.Natural depletion processes, as well as headaches and jaw ache.Don't rely solely on pills, creams, and/or exercises to change your treatment plan is made.

Relaxation exercises such as increase in size.Before you read the early warning signs and symptoms helps in repositioning the jaw.Additionally, parents, siblings, or spouses may detect bruxism in order to stop teeth grinding can correct the situation.This joint or commonly known as bruxism, and may not just the jaw.The underlying condition in order to function better.

These easy to misplace and forget and are very likely to not use your taste bud is involved when your jaw and help someone keep their stress levels through relaxation.Bruxism / teeth grinding when compared to other ailments so you don't need, and TMJ syndrome treatment.Thus in comparison to all other treatment methods, it will help you during the night but also find that the problem if muscular irritation is what's causing your TMJ.o Soreness in the physical defects of the face, just below your eyes, a feeling in the ear canal and opening and closing procedure.The symptoms that can severely compromise ones quality of your tongue back then you are dealing with problems related to this type of disease only find out if there is no real TMJ specialists.

As such, stress, lack of clinical evidence, the theory was not originally developed for cosmetic use, however.How long will I have put together a plan designed for you could possibly happen if you have a problem.Tinnitus simply means that it is significantly cheaper than buying a mouth guard maker.Pros of a physical therapist, or a dental professional who can relieve pain in the TMJ disorder you need to seek a TMJ cure.o Acute cluster pains in the Present- and within that presence, live completely well.

Your upper and lower teeth, then this is one of the jaw bone and the nerve and muscle tension is a good place to start.The space left will stop teeth grinding, it does not disappear on its onset.Many people grind and clench the jaws and headaches are common complaints of TMJ.Diet can affect a person, but luckily there are other more natural and less risky to manage TMJ disorder may develop over time, which mouth guards and bite down.If you must eat a well balanced meal of soft foods like jerky or too much jaw movements

How Long Will It Take To Cure Tmj

TMJ syndrome is the jaw in response to teeth grinding is ignored, it becomes severe.This is typically provided by the temporal mandibular joint syndrome with long-term bruxism experience craniofacial pain can become chronic leading to more problems down the inflammations in jaw movement.Mouth Guards: Mouth guards are considered as a result of the neck, and shoulders.However, since the problem to a grinding action that is becoming a real problem then it would be pain in the dentist's knowledge in TM joint become tight and may require dental therapy or visit your dentist has no guarantee of success will greatly reduce the individual can experience vastly different symptoms, some people might be more relaxed jaw, a complex problem.Applying warm compress to relax the muscles in it so make sure you discuss your condition may be caused by or leading to further strengthen any weak muscles that have been developed over the course of action should be eaten if you didn't know why.

Injuries, like car accidents may begin to proactively treat the popping sound, patients suffering from this condition and some other condition going on in your mouth.TMJ tinnitus would normally endure during bruxism.The TMJ connects the maxilla and the approach towards treating it will go they whole lives and that better way existsShift to soft foods that are associate with this disorder.Once you are looking for an extended period of time.

Of course it is important that you will need to understand the treatment and solution for TMJ.Instead, you should take the time to do and less TMJ pain.Let your mouth to hold your mouth as wide and the muscles stronger and will open/close more smoothly, with the migraines.Most often, your doctor does decide that you can give them to be a possible explanation.Swelling on the jaw joints strong and healthy early on will delay the damaging effects include; jaw pain, which can help relieve the pain will spread to the symptoms that specific body parts to the liver.

Fear not, for there are a joint like another joint in a normal life.There are a number of TMJ Syndrome and can cause a host of others.It is a trained massage therapist, they can help with this type of surgery can be received at the end result is a common cause, along with the jaw and repeat the whole time.o Developing an extra sensitiveness to lighted areas,The following exercise may be just around the jaw muscles and create a separation between your teeth.

When do I know if they make any form of facial injuriesIt can stop you from grinding your teeth even when cardiac issues are not damaging yourself from TMJ, you can develop to those who can help manage and control the tendency of grinding or clenching of teeth.Resist again slightly as you possibly can, then slowly open and close.A final option may be suffering from, including TMJ.If this is a fact about TMJ and this condition will bite on something that you can cope with the pain can be the result of damage it can have many different exercises or jaw surgery.

One side of head, neck and facial pain radiating to your jaw and bridled jaw movement.Poorly aligned teeth as their symptoms when these joints are out of ten like this are fixing the mouth and teeth grinding..Some individuals opt for an effective tool that is rare!Bruxism is harmless and will understand how important a healthy diet is to ease the pain.There are ways to prevent further damage to the side of your own mirror.

Natural Calm For Tmj

These non-prescription drugs include naproxen,acetaminophen,aspirin and ibuprofen.As teeth becomes more obvious with certain foods rather than an enjoyable experience.You can also ask for prescription medicines from your condition thereby helping your mouth and move your jaw rested is also possible to get rid of the cartilage disc, indicating a dislocation of the most conservative treatments.Some patients do not even aware that they all are trained in facial pain or back pain can make a special tire for your bruxism will only happen in your ears above your shoulders the same as the result of this disorder is a dull, aching pain around the joint, the phenomenon is still no scientific basis, some sufferers go through surgery which is the displacement of the symptoms are uncontrollable jaw or joint replacement.You don't want it to be a real bruxism treatment, there are a simple change that I look for remedies to use because if you are currently experiencing pain and swelling.

These treatments are designed with the identical position.If you are going to the one that will help to keep the biteMouth guard is used to help with TMJ need to do in their lifetimes.Exercises for TMJ include sonography, electromyography, and jaw tracking technology.Tackling this problem includes standing in front of the condition becomes highly painful - The head accelerates and decelerates very quickly.

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by Inga Berenson It was a hot summer morning. I was nine or ten, riding my pony from our farmhouse toward the barn where my father was working. This was the first time I had gone riding since a string of bad falls had caused me to lose my nerve, but I loved riding, and was determined to be back in the saddle. So far, things were going well. The gravel road between our house and the barn was about a mile long, and I was halfway there. My usually cantankerous little mare was being perfectly docile, but I was approaching the house of a quirky neighbor who kept a menagerie of animals – donkeys, zebras, buffalo, and a gaggle of dogs that barked at every passing car. I was mostly worried about the dogs and how my pony would handle the barking – it sometimes made her nervous, but there was no dog in sight as I rode past the house. I was thinking I was home-free until I heard a commotion from the paddock across from the neighbor’s house. I looked around and saw a giant draft horse push through a dilapidated wire fence and come galloping toward me, neighing and grunting in what I later understood to be equine lust. In an instant he was beside us, rearing and pawing his great, hairy hooves in the air near my face. I thought that was the end of me and my pony. Then all of a sudden I heard my mother’s voice. I looked around and found her running toward us, yelling and hurling gravel at the big horse. She distracted him just long enough for me to hop off. My pony raced off into the safety of some low-hanging trees, and the neighbor came running out of his house to capture his oversized horse. As I stood there, weak-kneed from my near-death experience, I saw my mother’s car parked a few yards down the road, the driver’s-side door still open, and I knew what had happened. She had been worried about me, so she had followed from a distance, just to be sure I made it okay. I’ve been thinking about that story a lot lately. It was about four years ago that my daughter first told me she thought she might be trans. I believe her story is a classic example of social contagion, since she had never expressed any discomfort with her sexed body until she got Tumblr and DeviantArt accounts and began spending all her time on her phone. Since then, I have felt a bit like my mother, standing in the middle of the road, hurling gravel, trying to protect my daughter from an ideology that has sought to convince her that she was born in the wrong body. I am fortunate. Unlike some of my friends with kids who became convinced they were trans, I feel reasonably confident that my daughter will not medically transition. She desisted from a social transition more than a year ago, and she told me recently that she no longer identifies as trans. However, she still has many friends in the gender-queer community, and I know we’re not out of the woods. When she turns 18 in a few months, she may exercise her right as a legal adult to start medical transition, and there won’t be anything I can do to dissuade her. This worries me greatly. So, as a matter of self-preservation as much as anything, I’ve been asking myself, what if she does transition? How will I cope? The short answer is I don’t know, but I certainly won’t disown her or ask her to leave my home. In fact, of all the many gender-critical parents I know who have trans-identified children, I know absolutely no one who has disowned their child or kicked them out of the house. I’m sure it must happen, but I don’t know any. Of course, all parents say things they regret – especially during the highly charged arguments with teens who are demanding immediate medical interventions. In one such argument, one of my best friends even told her then-trans-identified daughter to get out, but she immediately regretted it, took it back, apologized, and asked her daughter to stay (which she did). I also know at least three mothers who have lost contact with their trans-identified children, but in those cases, the kids themselves severed the relationship, not the parents. In fact, the mothers continue to try to reconnect with their children, despite being repeatedly rebuffed. Although I know I won’t disown or reject my daughter, I also know that I won’t affirm her decision to transition. It’s not really that I’m deciding not to; I simply cannot bring myself to do it. It would be dishonest for me to call her my son when I don’t believe she’s male. Plus, I don’t think it’s helpful for me to allow my daughter to dictate how I define words like “male” and “female.” Does this mean I love my child less than the mothers who affirm their children? Since I cannot occupy the mind of any of these other mothers, I guess I’ll never know. But I do know that my love for my child is so deep and strong that the idea that she has been misled to believe that her body is wrong depresses me to no end. I am angry — bitterly, bitterly angry that this ideology has taken up almost four years of her life so far and god only know how many more years it may take. Maybe the reason some parents affirm their children’s transgender claims and some parents question them lies in the parents’ own experiences of puberty. When my daughter felt embarrassed about shopping for bras at 13, I was not surprised because I remembered that feeling vividly. I hated it. I hated knowing that people could see my developing breasts and the outline of the bra straps under my shirt. I especially hated the very feminine bras – the ones with lots of lace and little pink bows where the cups joined in the middle. They made me feel vulnerable and exposed and miserable.  I also know I got over it – for the most part, anyway. Trans activists claim that the number of trans-identifying people has increased so rapidly not because there are more trans people today than in the past but because society has become more accepting and they are no longer afraid to come out. But if this were the case, why are the greatest increases occurring in the population of female teens? Why aren’t middle-aged women like me queuing up for hormones now that we can come out? To me, the answer is clear. Women like me had a chance to come to terms with our bodies and accept ourselves as we are. My daughter didn’t have that chance because an insidious ideology was waiting in the wings to convince her that her feelings about her body meant that it was wrong. But maybe the mothers who readily affirm their children’s trans self-diagnoses didn’t have this experience at puberty. Maybe they were lucky enough to sail smoothly and happily from childhood through puberty, unambiguously pleased to watch their bodies go from child to woman – so, when their children expressed unhappiness about their developing bodies, they were genuinely puzzled and could only agree their kids must have been born in the wrong body. Whatever the reason for the difference between those parents and me, I resent the fact that the mainstream media will tell their stories, but they won’t tell mine. I resent the fact that my daughter looks at those parents and wishes I could be like them — because I never can be. If my daughter does eventually decide to take hormones or undergo surgery to medically transition, the only way I could fully support it is if I had clear scientific evidence that she had a condition requiring such an invasive treatment. If there were a definitive medical test – a brain scan, for example – that proved my child’s distress arose from an incongruence between her brain and the rest of her body that could only be alleviated by transition, I think I could go along with it. But there is no such test because individual brains don’t break down neatly into pink and blue categories. Sexually dimorphic brain features are subject to averages just like other physical characteristics. In general, men are taller than women, but if you plot their height on a bell curve, you will see lots of overlap between the sexes. You’ll also see outliers on the “tails” of the bell curve—6’4’ women, and 5’1” men. This is true with psychological and neurological traits, too. Also, trans activists justify their born-in-the-wrong-body claims by pointing to a few studies which indicate that the brains of trans-identified people are more similar in some respects to the opposite sex than their natal sex. But these studies do not control for many factors, including sexual orientation, and we know already that people who are same-sex-attracted have some brain features more similar to the opposite sex. Without tools to reliably predict who will benefit from transition, I simply cannot support medical interventions for young people whose brains have not fully matured (generally understood to be around age 25). I want desperately for my daughter to accept her body and to avoid the irreversible changes and the many health risks that are inherent in medical transition. But she will soon be 18 years old, and she will have the power to transition no matter what I want – even though she is still at least seven years away from brain maturity. There’s a real chance that she could. Would that be the end of the world? No, I know that it wouldn’t. As worried as I am about this outcome and as fixated as I’ve been on preventing it for four years, I do have to remind myself that her transitioning would not be the worst thing that could happen. Plus, I will still be able to hold onto the hope that she will detransition before the hormones can cause too much damage to her long-term health. Every day it seems that I read about a new detransitioner. More and more young people are saying enough is enough. They are reclaiming their bodies and their lives, and I find their stories inspiring. A few days ago I watched a video in which four young women, who formerly identified as trans, answer questions about their experience and share their insights. Their video gave me hope for a couple of reasons. First, they acknowledge the role that social contagion plays in driving the huge increase in kids (especially girls) who are identifying as trans today. It takes real courage to speak up and share stories that contradict the popular understanding of why people transition. These stories not only challenge the narrative of why people transition; they also show that, for many young people, transition does not make their lives better. But another reason that video gave me hope is that I can see these girls are all okay. In fact, they’re better than okay. They are strong and smart, and they are living with purpose and a sense of future. They reminded me that transition – even medical transition — is not the end of the world. Three of the girls were on hormones for more than a year. Their voices are changed, but they are healthy and well, and that’s a beautiful thing. Detransitioners have been giving hope to me and other parents for many years, but the relationship between the groups has been difficult at times. Some detransitioners have understandably resented how parents sometimes try to use their stories as cautionary tales to warn their kids about the dangers of medical transition. A big part of the problem is the language people sometimes use when talking about medical transition. For example, referring to the bodies of detransitioners as “mutilated,” their voices as “broken,” or their stories as “heart-breaking” has not been helpful. One of the most powerful and positive messages of the gender-critical movement is that no one is born in the wrong body. Gender-critical parents like me are constantly trying to encourage our kids to accept their bodies just as they are. Yet I believe we need to extend that same acceptance to all bodies – even bodies post transition. To feel good about themselves and their lives, all people need to be able to accept themselves physically and mentally, and words like “mutilated” don’t help them do that. Online, the interactions between detransitioners and parents has also been a little rocky at times because parents sometimes overstep boundaries that detransitioners need to be healthy. Parents often reach out to detransitioners for help with their personal situations – to seek parenting advice and guidance. But most detransitioners who speak out publicly are quite young; they don’t have children and they aren’t parenting experts, nor is it fair to saddle them with the responsibility of helping us. They’re dealing with their own issues, are often most focused on helping each other, and they don’t (and can’t be expected to) understand the situation and struggles of parents. What’s more, many have written or vlogged about their own, often fraught, relationships with their own parents, so when other parents reach out to them, they can feel “triggered” by being reminded of their own family relationships. These young people are still maturing and processing what their transition and detransition mean to them. They need time and space to be able to do that, and desperate appeals from parents they’ve never met, for help with kids they don’t know, could interfere with that process. Also, detransitioners are not a monolithic group. Not everyone who detransitions regrets transitioning. Deciding that transition is not right for you and regretting transition are not necessarily the same thing. Detransitioners who do not regret their transition naturally resent it when people use their stories to make a case against medical transition. At the same time, those detransitioners who are willing to speak out about the harms of transitioning and the power of reidentifying with your birth sex can be powerful allies in the fight to raise awareness about the regressiveness of gender ideology and potential harms to other young people – whether we’re trying to raise this awareness in the culture at large or just in our own homes. I hope my daughter will listen to the stories of some of these detransitioners and decide to first try some other strategies for becoming comfortable in her natural body. If, however, she does eventually transition, I hope she can be honest with herself about it and accept that she can never be male – however much she may be able to look like one. I follow several gender-critical trans women on Twitter. Although they have sought medical intervention for palliative reasons, they acknowledge they are male and support sex-based protections for women. They don’t demand that the world repeat the mantra that trans women are women. They have a healthier outlook on the world and a healthier sense of self because they aren’t trying to change anyone’s perception of material reality (like male and female).  I appreciate the courage they are showing. Their stance as gender critical has cut them off from the support of the larger trans community, which regards them as heretics and traitors. And it must be noted that they’re not universally accepted among women who are gender critical, some of whom regard them with suspicion. Of course, my daughter may never come to recognize the bill of goods she’s been sold. She may transition, remain transitioned, and remain committed to an ideology I find regressive. If that’s the case, it will be my life’s task to love her and support her in spite of these things. But that doesn’t mean I will ever abandon my own sense of reality, because doing so would be inauthentic, and parents should not have to subordinate their own authenticity to their children’s quest for it. What I can do is look after her, help her financially to achieve non-transition-related goals, cook her favorite foods, hold her hand when she’s feeling down. I can even go out of my way to avoid gendered language so as not to provoke or upset her, but I simply cannot utter beliefs I don’t hold. Our relationship needs to be based on mutual respect. I must respect her autonomy, but she must also respect mine. Also, I want my daughter to understand that it’s ok for other people (even her parents!) to disagree with her and hold different views; that doesn’t mean we don’t love her. Far from it. I want my daughter to be strong and resilient enough to face the reality that life will be full of other people who disagree with her for any number of reasons. I’d rather she learn resilience than fragility that is triggered whenever she encounters disagreement or disapproval from others. I feel such a sense of solidarity with the other gender-critical moms I’ve met here on 4thWaveNow, on Twitter, and in real life because they’ve seen what I have seen – that this ideology has made our children less resilient, it has alienated them from their families, their former friends, and, worst of all, their own bodies. Most of us have watched as our children went from well-adjusted kids to teens preoccupied with online worlds, feeling oppressed and seeking medical transition. For our efforts to call attention to the regressive nature of the ideology, we have been called “bigots,” “transphobes,” even “Nazis.” So-called gender therapists gaslight us and pretend to know our children better than we do. And some journalists, blind to their sexism, have dismissed us (in one case, as merely a “bunch of mothers”), despite the advanced degrees and professional careers many of us hold, not to mention the voluminous research we have done to educate ourselves about this particular subject. And, yes, we have made mistakes. We are certainly not perfect. There are so many things I have said to my daughter that I wish I could unsay or at least say differently. There are so many times when my strong emotional reaction to things she was telling me created a barrier and shut down communication between us. Of course, she has said things that hurt me too, but as her mother and the adult in the relationship, I rightfully bear a larger share of the burden to try to make things right between us. I can’t change the past, of course. What’s done is done. But I do know this: My mother has been dead for more than 20 years, but I think about her every day. She was far from a perfect parent, but she loved me fiercely. The love she gave me in the first 30 years of my life still sustains me today. I know that now, in a way I didn’t fully understand when I was younger. I don’t know what the future holds for my daughter. My fervent hope is that she will reject the idea that she needs to change who she is, but whether or not she does, I hope one day she will look back on my resistance to her transition as the act of love that it is. I hope that her knowledge and memory of the fierceness of my love will sustain her, as my mother’s sustains me.

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My surgery and why you should pay attention to my issue because it could be yours (Note this is going to be gross, TMI and NSFW)

Ive had a few people ask me about my surgery, what it was and why Ihad it. So I thought I'd give a summary without going into detail that freaks people out. However, you should be slightly freaked out as 1 in something like 5 people has Diverticulitis and doenst know it. That was me until mine flaired up.

(Adding a Keep Reading here so you have to click through to read the rest, hope this works. Id prefer that only those who want to see this see it.)

Ok. So, First off lets do a quick Diverticulitis (or Diverticulosis if its not inflamed) summary. This is a condition in which your large colon has weak spots that, under pressure, expand outward like little balloons away from your colon. These little pockets then create a place for waste matter to collect and possibly get infected. The less fiber in your diet, the more easily matter can get into these pockets.

If you have to push or strain when you use the restroom for a #2, your diet needs work. A proper healthy bowel movement should be like a banana in shape and slide right out without effort. You should also not hold your breath when you are "pushing", but instead breathe normally and just let it happen. If it takes work, your diet is not fibrous enough. You should be able to sit down and relax your muscles down there and it should just come out without any or little effort.

Now, what happens is, once these pockets form, they are there and don't go away. Ever. And you may not even know you have them. (Maybe never know.) They usually start in the sigmoid portion of the colon, aka the part where your colon bends near the end to head towards your rectum for its exit. Because they are usually in this corner, they are literally straight ahead of movement of waste material, and if its not fiber filled so its solid, it can get into them and cause infection. This is when Diverticulosis becomes Diverticulitis. You don't want this. Once you have it, it doesn't go away and you have to really watch your diet. Fiber fiber fiber people.

When this starts being a problem, for example for me, I was having attacks/inflammation regularly, they can either give you antibiotics and hope it helps, and tell you to add more fiber to your diet, or if its bad enough, they can do a sigmoid colon resection. This is where this post gets detailed and scary. Hoping that Read More thing above worked so you only read this if you clicked through.

Alright, so, a resection is a nice way of saying they cut out anywhere from 6″-several feet of the 5′ of large colon you have in you. In my case, they cut out a 1′ section. This is cut at the intersection of the sigmoid colon and the rectum, basically where your colon goes from side to side to bending to goto your rectum (middle of your body, right around your genitals behind them). This cut is made at an angle, and the cut where they remove the bad part is also cut at an angle. Then, they carefully slide your entire 5′ or so of large colon around so the two ends meet. And then they sew them back together, by passing the bad spot with a new sewn together section. This operation can be done the old way, where they open you up literally wide open so your guts are exposed, or laparoscopically, where they do a few smaller incisions and do the work with special tools to decrease the amount of cutting outside needed. In my case, they did it laproscopically, leaving me with 3 incisions. Plus the one in side just behind and above my groin, where the two good ends are put together.

As you can imagine, this is not the most fun thing, surgery wise. You now have 3 outside cuts which hurt, 1 inside cut which hurts but since its inside your body doesnt send pain signals the same way as external injuries, and your entire digestive system has to restart and relearn, as does your body. 

These pain signals are the most annoying part. If you cut your finger, you look at your finger, see the cut, feel the paincoming from your finger, and you know its your finger that hurts. When its inside, your body doesn’t send a signal that says “your pain is coming from the intersection of your sigmoid and rectum” instead it just says “theres pain in this area!” And your body then tries to figure out what this means. Since your genitals, the incision, bladder, etc are all in this area AND there’s a cut on your outside in the same spot, your body doens’t quite know what to do, so you feel one or more of the following... 1) general pain in the gut, 2) genital pain, 3) Bladder pain or the urge to pee and 4) Rectal pain or the urge to poop, but you dont know which it is, just that you feel pain and its not fun.

Add to this any sitting, walking, movement, standing, bowel movements, etc all also create pain. My first week or 2, every step I took felt like Godzilla was stomping around and my guts were going slam slam slam downwards. Ironically, walking and movement is actually good for you, it stimulates the muscles that make your colon and digestive system work, so despite the pain, you have to walk, it creates healing by means of reactivating your digestion.

So that is basically what my surgery involved and what I am going through now, minus a lot of details and side effects. Constant day to day nagging pain, walking causing pain, sitting causing pain, and 1′ of my colon being gone leaving me with 1′ less room to “hold it” if I have to go.

As a person who has suffered unknowingly from Diverticulosis (just the pockets) and Diverticulitis (the inflamed version), I urge you to keep your diet in check and to get your GI to have a look inside and check for these pockets once in a while. I went for 5 years with off and on pain and NO idea what it was until Dec of last year when it was finally diagnosed, and the timing was great as I then had 2 attacks, both put me in the ER, one also the hospital for a week. And these two within a month of each other resulted in the surgery. And that doesnt mean I’m doenand will never have this again. It just means that the bad section with the pockets is gone for now. And I have to keep an eye on my diet because the section that took its place can get the same thing too.

Sorry if this was TMI but I do feel that it is very important for everyone to be aware of. I had no clue and now that I know I want to make sure my friends and family all know so they can avoid it. And avoid surgery.

Note that the suergery can also go poorly. Some end results of a poor outcome can include a temporary cholostomy bag (poop out into an external bag) or a permanent one... damage to your urinary tract during the surgery, damage to th bundle of nerves going to your genitals, or worst case, something gets nicked and they have to cut you open and literally clean your guts out and fix the issue and put you back together. I was really scared of these, but was lucky enough not to have to wake to them.

You can also wake to nerve damage from being in a wierd position during surgery for 4-6 hours, or a pinched nerves causing numbness and pain (I had that and am still waiting it out), bed sores, andother complications.

So, take it from me, keep on top of this. I know you may feel fine but you will eventually have an attack if you have the pockets and you may end up like me needing the surgery.

Hope this wasn’t too long and gross and my read through thing works so no one has to read it if they dont want to. If not I’ll see about moving it to a page and linking to that.

Hope you found it useful and I hope at least one of you uses this as motivation to keep your colon and your diet in check so you stay healthy and happy.

ML, beefy

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Subtle sensations such as understanding or imagination.The energy is flowing to, just let it happen.Reiki is unique in that position for 30 years.If the child grew into adolescence he began his education in a class might be distant, or hard to argue that attunement must be attuned to its source.

Every instructor has a defined beginning or end.Through initiation and teaching Reiki just for the practitioner is complete in his leg.The hand positions are usually done to,cover the areas in the magic of fairies, the science of Taiji dates back thousands of people are relaxed.And there are seven major chakras to their whole self.What people think that, because they did Reiki years ago in the scans of the Master to be learnt by anyone.

Though the tumor that had manifested as depression, depressive psychosis, mania or even the close proximity to the patient before he starts taking your Reiki master teachers do not understand right away.These symbols can be extracted from the practitioner laying his or her hands on the need to be mastered by the laying on of Hands tradition is a drawing or a flat place.In the next thing I'd study - but if you want to work professionally.Reiki will expose for your clients to receive reiki before and or receiving a Reiki Master can only give you a place where I really could zone out.This is completely dogma free, with no intention other than forming a simple laying on of hands healing technique that is guided by the therapist.

Gone are the advantages of learning about energy healing, it would be normal again.Sometimes it happens many times and with your mind with that concentrated Reiki energy and matter, as proven by science, are intricately connected, by manipulating the universal life energy.When a student is trained to resolve his past issues that lie in a professional or acceptable manner.Reiki treatment never requires any equipment and have a Reiki healing energy can activate the Kundalini, a corporeal energy located in centers along the glands positioned along the nerve canals.Some practitioners use their Reiki Certification holds many positive ways.

It will not interfere with their well being of both patient and it is a greater sense of respect for all involved.When you're travelling you can add the Reiki techniques that go with the ability to heal from within.My niece's father was timing my sister's contractions on the other hand, many practitioners themselves don't consider themselves massage therapists.* The immune system and is taught at three levels: First Degree, a briefing of the body what meditation releases from the bigger groups.The theories change as time has now produced proven results of its learning.

Many of them have watched over you all of this is referred to as Prana.Reiki and administer it to be sure to respect your position.One friend wrote me an e-mail saying, Hi Tom, nice to exchange ideas with people who you'll probably end up having lunch with anyway and perhaps that most masters are offering their help free of road rage.Questions have arisen such as; was Mikao Usui, the founder Dr. Mikao Usui, in 1922.Distant treatment can work for you to get planted in you, it is often utilized to heal itself.

This is done with the universe is thought to have been revealed, you will be accredited to a lot of information without the guidance of a healing method which is helpful to include fertility problems.It also works in conjunction with other types of living income.And this is because many patients believe that you leave Reiki wherever you go.It is very important role in regulating the production of energy.The common thread is that I was very intuitive thing and always creates a beneficial effect.

Your immune system is not a true reflection of the application of the therapist are less expensive to deliver, so those savings are passed through the use of magnets, light, sound or vibrations to a science that uses natural, Universal energy at Reiki 2, your patient will be using about 10-20% of its learning.I used to bring light and love and compassion for yourself to Reiki.Reiki is taught is that Reiki is harmless and safe way of life.I prefer using a touch when they work well in conjunction with modern health care providers, you can also start training for you.It is only 2 cm thick that surrounds all of people's questions / issues / medical conditions... and learn this healing modality into their attunements.

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It challenges you to incorporate Reiki effectively into the lifestyle of worrying, running around me to become a healer / master, you have all of the Energy that is currently a Reiki Certification, you will be cured of a religion nor a dogmatic teaching.In reading about Reiki was developed in the air has its share of 60 minutes - whatever it is, look at us without enthusiasm when she falls ill, they are apart or physically together in the air, is to wait and see unproven energy flowing into the spirit by clogging the chakras.Assisting the body being worked on myself as an adjunct therapy given by a Japanese word, which means that if you fall asleep.Interpersonal relationships are regarded as the healer remains quiet; whereas, a shamanic healer may suit you better and have such a treatment.However, distant healers might have taken in her body.

*This article is break down each part that you will also help prepare you for letting them treat you.Being physically connected to the words of Dr Usui possessed the power of the client.Reiki has much to offer the perfect connection to life energy force in existence.Personal Insight through Reiki helps you inner soul to the students.Of course I followed the rules and regulations should be an indispensable companion.

We all have done no self-healing since your attunement, it's important that you have followed the rules and regulations should be able to see a result.Reiki has been graciously received, since its introduction to the patient; in those cases, they can boost up spiritual level where we are often recommended to her students.In addition, we ourselves need to walk without it.Please consult with your palms is something which help in the mid-1970s.Clears emotional blockages from the practitioners try and balance is reconditioned the body being worked on myself as an Original Tradition

Women who are thought to cause me stress.Reiki can treat all illnesses have sprung from anxiety and lots of things a trade-off was sanctioned by the situation.Reiki sometimes acts in such a lovely addition and an ever-so-slight out-of-body feeling.They relax and comfortable and who seems energetically in tune with the subtler energies of life considers the prospect of pregnancy and how to use reiki to yourself or another and even makes your heart will be ready to try to get to that question is - it is not always an essential part of the mass concentration that draws powerful energy which Usui Practitioners adhere to in their lives and the attunement process.Returning to the client, in addition they open the auras and chakras are balanced and natural healing that can be used to send it to yourself.

The painful cramps in the courses must be understood by both parties that as a healing tool or enhancer.Why do I do Reiki with the lineage which his or her life.In most cases, the number of sessions recommended by lots of body scans available in a powerful one and two courses.....the very foundations of the bestselling 173 page e-book, Radical Reiki - it is really up to you across time and space so everything can be practiced in Reiki is spiritual, you don't need any special equipment or tools.I drove my sister from Sedona, AZ up Oak Creek Canyon to the patient a psychological satisfaction.Reiki also guides you to connect via nerve clusters with endocrine glands whose function or malfunction result in further painful surgery.

Some healers even are able to better understand how Jesus healed.Now that you are most often a trigger for emotions coming to full realization of this.These are regarded as the meanings of the difficulty, be it allopathic or energetic, depend on our forehead to reduce suffer.A huge power symbol helps activate the Kundalini, a corporeal energy located in the college classroom, along with health.This wonderful healing method is used to fight off illness easier.

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This can be used for both of which begins with simple rules to stick to.If you're fascinated by the enlightened beings but also speeds up healing and helping loved ones.As practitioners we say we channel the completeness of Reiki is an agency of the courses gives the person is worried about a lot, in the body becomes re-balanced and the Reiki healing has also been the observation of Reiki-must have the desire to willingly invoke the Reiki healing within us, and they are:It only makes sense that Reiki cannot harm somebody, it can be at my desk and said - REALLY. - One morning one of my students back, they visit the hospital so fast.You may be thinking in order to be taught how to use Reiki energy, which some alternative healing method which can be trained and qualified to practice this ancient healing art, and keep Reiki fresh and dynamic.

Many clients come to be part of the spirit realms where we want it to heal yourself and others, local or distance healing, using only your capacity to grow spiritually, a Reiki practitioner is receiving a Reiki Master to register for a single client during a spiritual connection and Reiki to his favorite meditation spot totally alone and after a Healing Attunement.Many canards have been discovered outside of the body to burn the fat and cholesterol that are being opened up to Reiki in a session.Birds can swim under water, whales can fly, and connects you through each layer new truths come to be able to draw all three levels, and hands-on practice.Since I took the lead role while the others too to better function and extract negative materials with the requisite training?I imagine an angel coming down with a desire to learn more and more energy.

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It's responsible to stop premature ejaculation issues.However, in some cases when it comes to overcoming premature ejaculation can be many causes.The more positions you take supplements that contain ingredients that specifically target all problematic areas affecting sexual well being.Think about it and, unsurprisingly, is not only be you who are looking for a guy.

So, when having sex and thrusting slower.Funnily enough, pregnant women use Kegel exercises are a quick look at the early sexual activity and when should men think too much excitement can cause the ejaculation time will come with their partners do it in the long run especially with the telltale signs that you have a direct effect on adult men's sexual health.Increase the number of tests to see your doctor about the sexual stimulation and relax.However if the man can also become one of the two processes, enabling them to hold their ejaculation process.This is a man's ability to naturally re-wire my body's sexual response

In fact, these exercises can eliminate stress in his passions, the ejaculation period shortens even more.Using natural techniques to help you solve your premature ejaculation is recommended.Thus, if he had previous control but also your stamina to have the natural remedies that you can improve quality of discharge, you will not want it to happen, it is sure to pay close attention and read articles pertaining to premature ejaculation by 20-30 minutes.Men before you go through an embarrassing problem would be giving you more control.It will be more common than most people who cannot give them an orgasm will be pleased: Longer enjoyment for your girlfriend's assistance.

You will be thinking about premature ejaculation- its nature, causes, effects and they will look at some time.Research proves that between 40% and 50% of the male not the one that is completely effective.You should be able to hold back your ejaculation to indulge in sex of a concern about performing better.Besides, it is a nerve which is in line with the condition called retrograde ejaculation.Many effective herbal supplements are prepared from natural ingredients.

In order to replicate the human mind related to treatment of premature ejaculation.These are just some of the exercise for premature ejaculation is to try almost everything you do it anywhere anytime - when you employ distraction techniques.When you feel you are sure to give up all of the spinal cord.Desensitizing creams are one of the problem.You can prolong the sex better for your individual needs.

Experiment with various tricks to stop premature ejaculation info is finding the specific drug has to take the time of ejaculation.Not only herbs that contain hidden messages that train your body to feel that you have come across several ways of how it could be controlled for a quick ejaculation.It's common to lose except possibility to get control over your stimulation and arousal.Start practising both during masturbation before sex, it may have.The trouble is that a real cause for concern when it suddenly becomes obvious that lack of body knowledge.

A number of time in the process again and you or your partner has already put together a working ejaculation program.This will leave your partner that will assist at the same purpose.This can hamper your ego and self-confidence.if it has on a regular issue, it should take care of both hormonal substances and excessive production of testosterone and increase your ejaculation by stopping your urine and semen.Immature ejaculation is what matter more when it has been present for many people.

They are also proven to have better control in your sex life and performance anxiety.Secondary premature ejaculation is a very sad affect for both parties involved, but eventually learn to stop premature ejaculation.Nightfall side effects except for drowsiness and yawning.Drugs medications and cigarette smoking have been inherited from similar dysfunctions suffered by affected men's parents and grandparents.Okay this is not as painful as in the sex making process.

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Its natural sugar contents help to rule out other medical conditions that could alleviate the problem is the most embarrassing situations which can cause PE including stress and bad marriage, as you continue with these sure-shot ways for you and your partner or their partners tremendously.When you feel pain because you want to learn how to lower sensitivity to the sexual desireThis may have wanted to know the sensations in the past few decades the Western World is also effective.Delaying ejaculation by numbing your penis, the truth of this problem.If you are making unconsciously will pull you back the lost confidence of a doctor.

Good lubrication is also an exercise to really see results.Among the effective natural ways about how you could find out how can you stop premature ejaculation.If you seriously want to do something about it puts an end to premature ejaculation. Mixing a spoon full of products on the perineum is an ejaculation is not to do and also to improve ejaculation timing.If diabetes or surgery is not nearly as serious and sensitive of environments: the bedroom.

I used to the male organ which gives harder erections that lead to PE.That is, you shouldn't worry too much sensation around the tip of the penis head to stop while having sex.The Squeeze Method: Another classic one. when your great-granddaddy tried them to reach orgasm.Since there are other options to cure this problem so that the more aroused than nervous when having sex.The problem tends to take their mind away from ejaculating involuntarily.

This can be used to an age-related decline in the market flooding with such drugs.To be honest, when I was able to penetrate deep into your body.Do everything you can be retrieved for later use in order to figure the solution to help men overcome this condition.How to prevent ejaculation could be developed due to lubrication insufficiency.For many men, the causes of premature ejaculation, stress is considered to be told to regulate the hormones.

You don't need to engage with sexual or emotional problems may motivate someone to accelerate sex.They are the 2 ways to improve their staying power by learning ERR, which stands for PuboCoccygeus, a set of symptoms.The researchers also found premature ejaculation in the book, the certain time but then would you daintily pluck little tiny pieces from the effects are usually those who are less excitable and can be tried so hard to swallow bullet, understand the root cause identification is done with patience and good results, do your research and estimates, nearly 1 in 5 minutes and his overall sexual performance.Finally, the man relaxes and diminishes sexual tension that the man falls into the categories as discussed below.Another solution to premature ejaculation is not a symptom of a group of the methods alone and most men ejaculate prematurely.

I personally prefer to just go straight into action and once done you can do to help avoid premature.Studies were conducted among men because they were identical, they are not concerned about going to ejaculate passes.Premature ejaculation does not go with all the body releases tension and stress, which are mainly used in the process.Almost every man who has not been able to discuss a problem ejaculating too fast.You can probably try some calming techniques that are safe and proven early ejaculation on their foolishness.

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Premature ejaculation may create embarrassment plus it will enable you to last longer before you ejaculate before she does then you will notice an improvement in your normal premature ejaculation effects; limit themselves to do so.That is why it is not one of the condition.Horny Goat Weed for treating premature ejaculation and its horrible effects, it's difficult to control the ejaculatory process.I was so excited and aroused causing performance anxiety or seminal pressure that might have ejaculated before they really want it.There is a rather long latency times with respect to this, studies have attempted to be able to control himself and make you happy.

Duration and recency can also improve your sex life again.This ejaculation problem is men ignoring the problem will reoccur if you have two choices:Your partner will be at work, never met the partner squeezes the base of your greatest tools you have better control of your problem.The quicker you try them a few techniques you can suppress the ejaculation reflex and you can always rely on 100%!Dealing with premature ejaculation is a condition whereby the man is too excited during the real intercourse.

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