#but I still be sad af

[apostatehamster]

Look, all I am saying is, that this carved shark looked way too good for that to have been Izzy's first carved figure. Just what if this guy was an artsy soul before he shaped himself into a tool to deliver fear and violence.

Also, both he and Stede share the same flair for dramatics. The way Iz pushed the door open like a diva owning the place, the way he idly waited in the captains' cabin just to deliver his dramatic line about the curse. These two bring big theatre kid energy to the table.

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #blackhands #izzy hands #I mean Ed and Stede are very whim-prone. Izzy is very much the guy to be in for the long-haul #i'm just saying whim-prone and long-haul might have clashed. but that thought makes me sad lol #i still remember the scenes in S1 where he waited for stede behind the curtain. this guy is dramatic af #and now he gets to rediscover who he was or could have been since he is not Blackbeard's sword anymore #i have a lot of thoughts about this character shh.

[soaricarus]

@pansear-doodles what if i. hi. an8n here. hope you dont mind the tag ggghfddf

i really liked the simple design so just. ghegeege

#rain world #rainworld #slugcat #rain world art #slugcat oc #an8n #maybe ill put it on af too.... #i have another rw oc i need to put there anyway #still cant see posts on dash </3 been happenin for a few days #sad. oh well

[death-of-the-endless]

“...It’s like uh gender isn’t something you can pick and choose uh far as Gods are concernced.” “Well, that’s something the Gods can take and stuff up their sacred recta. I know what I am.”

Wanda Mann in The Sandman: A Game of You (1993)

#the sandman #wanda mann #dc #the sandman spoilers #dc comics #death of the endless #barbie (the sandman) #opened up tumblr and had the terry pratchett post on my dashboard #(you know the one) #and thought i should do something for one of my absolute favorite minor characters in the sandman #wanda mann has my whole heart #her death truly gives the whole story a sense of tragedy because she's just this brave person trying to do her best and help others #her family thinks she's some kind of demon spawn just because she's trans and she's still so fucking kind to the end #was thinking if i wanted this to be about her death but you know what #i actually love wanda's ending #yes it is tragic and sad af #but the closure of the funeral scene with Barbie and then Death somehow gets more every time #because Wanda looks happy #transgender #queer #mine #terfs do not fucking interact

[stillgotme]

𝐢'𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞

#the sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 edit #simblr #aliya's sims #roxy #amongussy #theseus 08085 #she got an update~ #tweaked her face a lil #her hair's grown out #new skin #new presets #new eyebrows #new tattoos #still sad with the traumatic backstory but she workin through it #hello everyone here's a post #been busy af the past few weeks but i got something out finally

[beastking-golion]

FHR SPOILERS

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I avoided to Argent’s romance because I didn’t think I’d like it but I finally played it and I was so wrong I was so wrong, she is so girly pop murder fiend “I have morals but only sometimes” ass kicking nanovore-made cupcake eating god princess

#dex talks #I had fun with her romance lol #fhr spoilers #fallen hero retribution spoilers #fallen hero retribution #fhr #I love that she’s made of nanovores thats so epic I wish I had an option to call her badass in the hospital #also I got the highest relationship with her than I’ve had with literaly any of the other characters EVER #I think it was about 91? which I didn’t think was possible since I didnt booby trap her brain #Listen even in rebirth that felt too mean to do okay #I wonder if she can connect to out nanovores or if them being neutered ruined that #imagine you deploy nanovores on her and she just instantly intigrates them into her body lmao girl boss #I also like the idea of a sentient creature/ hive mind and am always won over by it so ahrhjfbgg #hive minds my loves my dearest loves #ortega is still my top and canon romance but argent is an easy second #sorry to danny but you’re my least favorite 😭 #chen’s just makes me painfully sad he finally falls in love again and its to the worst person possible #im so sorry chen #rambles #i wanna see a jake romance i hope i can get my puppet back cause flirting with him was fun af

[babybvg]

the older I get and the more I experience in life the kinder I want to be. there are way too many heavy things in life to walk around being mean spirited, and that just becomes clearer to me every day

#I really feel like each day I’m becoming better #and it’s sad af to see people not realize this #i don’t understand how u can experience all the trials and tribulations of life & witness everything others go thru as well and still choose #to treat people poorly #the thought of someone maybe having a bad day and then saying something to them that could make it worse??? horrifying!!!!! #anyway just gonna keep being better and better but also without being a doormat lol

[dostarve]

Just got done watching the “Ashoka leaves the Jedi order arc” in Clone Wars. Don’t text ☹️

#I feel so bad for her #I also watched halfway through season 6 ep 1 #and im sad about that too #I already knew how it was gonna go from spoilers but im still sad af #SHE PLANNED ON COMING BACK 😭 #The *don’t text* is a joke btw pls do text #please #Im begging #star wars #the clone wars #ahsoka tano #clone wars #:( #star wars talk

[frogmascquerade]

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#soooooo ... no sword af season 2???? #smosh sword af... season 2? smosh... sword af... season 2? smosh sword... af season .... two..... #smoshswordafseason2? #i feel normal. #(i need it back. or at least to know that theyre still working on it and havent shelved it completely bc i will be so so so sad !) #ik damien has been busy but pls. i need to know if i should squash my hopes now or not

[mathcs]

staring at my long but unpolished jude and f. milla meta in the drafts because i'm not far enough my second x2 playthrough (but now in jp) yet to post it in confidence... but these jude scenes in particular :''') with rough translations

LEIA: i'm sure it'll be okay! (eng: i'm sure she's fine!) JUDE: yeah, of course. (eng: oh, i'm not worried.) context: jude silently worrying about milla m. and pretending not to/covering it up with a smile while leia knows that he's not ok, so she tries to cheer him up...

his shock when f. milla appears out of nowhere to help them, and his reaction when she leaves without a second thought after he calls out to her to wait.

when she suddenly appears again (he can't even finish saying her name), and after she walks right past him- he's shocked and hurt, and the obvious feeling of "that isn't her." hits him for the first time. meanwhile from f. milla's perspective, it's natural since she doesn't know any of them, including jude. and after this he's back to worrying about where milla m. is while being conflicted about f. milla while f. milla gets lied to by all of them, and her sister plus world gets destroyed

#ooc . #meta . #still wish that the game did way more with this/had more f. milla and jude scenes together afterwards since they're major charas here still #i wanted to see the awkward af/angst tension between them in detail #but the angst tone of these scenes and similar ones live on in aus... #in hindsight this made me realize that jude would feel awkward af/sad if he saw lots of fluffy ludger x f. milla moments skdjfjkl cute ship #but if it happens while milla m. is missing <- main ingredient for oh no. #jude unfortunately thinking “i know that's not her. but she looks like her- why does she have to look like her-” #on the outside he pretends it doesn't bother him as usual bc friends- and ofc he's guilty for feeling that way at all #more jude flaws coming out of the woodwork OOPS (it's really interesting ok)

[alo-piss-trancy]

Btw even if I don't check in here as often as I used to, I really do appreciate all of you who stick with this blog anyways c': Especially since I barely post anything 'kinky' myself anymore. So this is mostly just a gaming/media rant and personal blog now oops

In some ways I'm definitely better off than I was a few years ago, but I've also been dealing with a lot of chaos in my life and household and it doesn't look like it's gonna get fixed very soon. Mix of financial, physical health of me and family I've been heavily assisting, house things in desperate need of repair...

On top of that I've been starting to realize I might actually have developed some form of Agoraphobia from all that time I was housebound before... and other stuff, but I think that was probably the main contributor. I'm still looking into it but with how a lot of the other things I've tried to cope haven't helped, meds don't seem to touch it much, and it seems to be getting worse, it's looking more and more likely than I'd like to admit. Which sucks bc it's also going to be hard af to keep up with working to treat it with Exposure or smth if I'm buried in all the above stuff/have limited transport/places to even go. It's really freaking hard when I do rarely go out and the anxiety/illness makes it so much worse. There've been times I've had to give up and go back early after like, an hour bc I was vomiting/crippled with pain/on the verge of fainting... and that's been happening more often. Like 1 in every 3 times, and I may only get out 3 times a month at the worst points.

Idk. I'm trying. I'm keeping up with the bare minimum rn and that's all I can really say lol

Also the only problem that's actually relevant to kink blog: my drive is still at 0 or even the negatives bc I can't get my medication sorted out bc my appointments got pushed back AGAIN ☠️ So yeah. That's why there has been no writing or hc posts and will not probably be for a WHILE. On God, it's about as appealing to me as eating dry cardboard 😔 Trying to write or draw anything fun is like pulling teeth and if I won't enjoy the end result then I'm not gonna bother RIP. When I get that sorted out maybe I can finally touch my poor WIP pile again 😭

Uh yeah so. That's why I've been so absent for like... forever. I do miss checking in here but I also get in my own head sometimes about posting when I'm not 'providing' anything this blog was intended for. Which I realise is dumb bc it's MY blog and if I want to rant about video games only for like a year straight then I'm allowed to. But brains are Fun like that 🥲

For what it's worth I'm not in like, a fullblown mental crisis so please don't worry about that! I'm not in any immediate danger or smth! I do have some other hobbies I've been keeping up with and socialising in other spaces. And I've been reading. So I promise I'm not in a complete isolated depression pit 💛 Life could definitely be better and I def have some rough days, but I have been trying to take some baby steps to either fix things or keep myself sane at least lol

Idk I just felt like I should explain why I've been mostly gone for ages off and on. I do lurk here sometimes to peek at things even if I don't have the energy to show myself. But I do really appreciate anyone who sends asks or comments on my ao3 or just reads my ramblings lol 💛 Even when I can't respond immediately I still treasure the gesture and it makes me happy to see some of the same names around in my notifs/dash c': So thank you~

#bear txt #not omo #i know this is a lot and maybe tmi but i just need to get it off my chest #as bad as it is and sounds tho this is still leagues better than when I was sick af and in my worst depression #i'll take this over that hell. i would not have wished those years on my worst enemy #so yea i can get thru this i think i just need to figure shit out... hopefully #ironically i read a book as a kid with a character who struggled with agoraphobia and it was the most horrifying fate to me #and i was like wow that's so sad i hope i never end up like that #now here i am decades later like... haha. fuck. i might actually be in the throes of it

[grandvampiress]

feeling kinda sad about my current inability to draw consistently anymore i wish i still had the unbridled drive and inspiration of high school me when it comes to art : /

#ixora rambles #nonsims #i still have so many ideas for art and shit #but once im staring at a blank canvas i literally want to do something else #it makes me genuinely immensely guilty and sad and i feel stupid af #bc this is what ive been doing for like half my life and now it just doesnt feel the same anymore? #i dont even know what i am outside being an artist and its making feel dumb as hell lol #<- whatever boohoo sad times #it is what it is tho

[b3tteroffdying]

“Sometimes I feel like I'm not solid. I'm hollow. There's nothing behind my eyes. I'm a negative of a person. All I want is blackness, blackness and silence.”

— Sylvia Plath

#tumblr is finally seeing my face #the face of depression #selfie #lol #myself #quotes #sylvia plath #blackness #silence #depression #lonely af #sad but happy #emo girl #sometimes i wonder why im still living eww #dark #black #dark aesthetic #goth aesthetic

[pharawee]

I've been thinking about it for a while but I decided that I probably won't gif or even watch Only Friends. No special reason. The show is fine. The trailer looks good. But I need a break (from gmmtv shows especially).

I'll still watch and gif other shows but cutting out the biggest/most hyped show of the bunch seems like a good opportunity to get some rest.

Plus, I need all my energy to gif every frame of I Feel You Linger in the Air. 🤡

#jane watches stuff #sorry to everyone waiting for gifs etc #i'm just #so dangerously close to burn-out when it comes to making gifs #it's becoming such a chore and I don't want that #even with only friends it's more about the fomo than the show itself and that's sad #i haven't played a game in months (except for my job) because there's so many shows i'd like to gif ugh #but therein lies madness #and i don't want to lose gif-making as a happy place #there might still be a chance that i get hyped af once the show airs #but that'd actually be a good thing because rn i'm actually so relieved to be able to take a break #isn't it so ridiculous that this is entirely due to pressure i put on myself? #not exactly very mindful lmao

[anxton]

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#im finally working for a company and a job I've wanted for quite a while #but im still sad af #why am i like this