#but I’m still trynna involve her

[maxverstepponme]

I think the difference between carmen & George, and lily & Alex to the other couples like Kelly & max when it comes to social media is that they seem to be on the same page.

George posts Carmen just as much as she posts him, he’s made her clear as his girlfriend in interviews and fan events. They’re a very proper, trynna be that old money aesthetic couple, but it works and they seem very much in love and happy. And while it was shady that Carmen re opened her ig after the promotion to Mercedes, it’s clear she makes her own money and has yet to do anything problematic. I definitely see them marrying.

Alex and lily have been together for nearly 4 years (they starting dating in 2019) so it makes sense why she’s very involved and Alex includes her in that and in the Williams vids they do. It’s obviously his choice, since he’s going helmet promotion with her, talks about her in interviews and posts her loads. However, I do think they know that their relationship brings in good pr and utilise that to their own advantage, that’s fine as long as both agree and understand (which I think they do). And I know people are starting to get annoyed with them (or lily) but I do see them just been happy and in love wanting to share that.

Now this is where Kelly and max differ from the others, max doesn’t include Kelly on his own social media (if that’s his choice or his pr team, idk) but he used to post pics of his ex gf’s and even Kelly. Last year Kelly was on his profile about 4 times, Mother’s Day post, French gp video, a repost of her story in Japan and new years eve (they’re could be more I’ve missed). She’s kinda kept to being posted on the side page of verstappen.com, which has about 500k followers compared to maxs 10 mil. This could be a strategic move from his team cause of how problematic she is.

And while RB have included her in some videos, the Japan pre race one and the one of him winning the championship, but unlike when lily is in the Williams ones she’s kinda there and max doesn’t make a move to include her more. They also follow her but I do think that’s for them to kinda keep an eye on her.

In interviews, when he is asked about her he always keeps his answers short and somehow always makes her and their relationship look worse. Saying how he ‘hopes for the one’ 🤨 maxy baby you’d know if she were the one after 2 years. He also never brings her up spontaneously (unless talking about washing or why he’s not there, which was strange 🤨) he always has to be asked about her and that’s rare, I’m guessing she may be on a list of subjects that his pr team give interviewers to not ask about.

It’s obvious he was uncomfortable with how much she posted, he’s even said so in interviews. But she continued to do so. Also P showing up on his stream, the first couple of times yeah it was cute, but once you could see max get visibly annoyed and get his phone out every time, it raises eyebrows. Especially when she’s showing up during actual races. (Never P’s fault she’s a kid, but whoever’s looking after either Kelly or the nanny). Max said in an interview recently he wishes social media wasn’t created.

But one thing is clear is that max doesn’t want Kelly part of his professional image at all (rightly so), where the others mix that and don’t mind max has a clear line.

This was just a little ramble on the difference in couples and their social media use :)

That’s what I was talking about a few days ago. Yeah, they post her on Verstappencom to give her the “exposure”, but that account doesn’t have followers compared to Max’s real one. I think his PR team was really smart in that sense. Even if they are somehow posting her in something related to Max, she’s still not being posted by Max.

[dudeitiskarev]

So I just want to talk about my wips, which believe it or not, are only 2 yayyy

The first one is a Spencer fic *gasps*. It's titled Maybe Someday and it may be my first and only Spence fic I’ll ever write. It’s been in a google doc for over a year and a few days ago I opened the doc and fell in love with the story all over again and I really believe I’m gonna finish it soon 🥰

Here’s a little snippet:

(...)

"Are you sure about this Reid?” Derek asked, turning on the SUV blinkers. 

“I really wish you’d stop asking me that.” Spencer unbuckled his belt, ready to step out of the car. 

Derek sounded like a broken record by now. 

“Look, kid, I’m just trynna’ help.” He softened his voice. “Case is over. You can let it go now.”

The Riley Jenkins case was, in fact, over. Although letting it go is the last thing Spencer could do when last-minute Garcia filled him in about a person who wasn’t involved in the case but was connected to it to some extent: You. 

“We don’t even know if she’s gonna be here,” Morgan continued. “And for all we know, she could be dead by now.”

“Yeah, and being here might be the only way I could find out.” 

“May I ask why the sudden interest?" Derek was a bit concerned about his friend. He’d never seen him like this. Although it made sense.

"I don't know." Spencer lowered his tone.

All he knew was that there were foggy memories about a young girl he needed to make clearer. 

“Alright.” Derek raised his perfect profiled brows in defeat. “I'll stay here. Call me if you need anything." 

"I will.” He stepped out of the car, looked both ways, and crossed the street—determined to find you. 

(...)

I'm not sure when it'll be ready but it's all outlined and I've been working on it every day, mostly editing/rewriting what I already have but still 🥰

The other one is a Hotch x reader of course, and it's the Penelope-centered fic I've mentioned here once or twice. It's titled Accidentally in Love (for now) and here's a little snippet:

Penelope was born with a gift. She could see people’s hearts—like actually; bright red beating flesh inside people’s chest cavities. 

Most had a glow of their own that came with a special colored aura. She often felt them as her own, too, and though that might just be the deep empathy her mom also had, she embraced others’ heartbreaks like a treasure from day one. 

Her gift came with what could be considered a lethal weapon: an arc and endless arrows. It wasn’t supposed to be dangerous since she was the only one who could manipulate it and see it overall—and because the arrows were made out of clouds—but she’d never been very skilled at using it, so accidental love matches happened often. Although most happened when she was younger—when she’d just discovered her gift and would randomly use it at the supermarket or the movie rental with two random people. It was like introducing a Ken doll to a Barbie for the first time so it really was just a game. 

She started to take it seriously at the age of thirteen when one of her dearest friends was going through her first heartbreak ever. It hurt to see her friend’s heart break. Her aim wasn’t very good yet—it still isn’t, but it has improved—so accidental matches kept happening, just not as often. 

When her parents died, her gift froze along with her heart. It took her a while to let it warm up again, even when it was all she wanted; the only thing that’d truly make her feel something other than grief.

(...)

Yes, Penelope is a real-life cupid hehehe.

Anyways. I'm not sure which one I'll be able to finish first since they're like equally developed (?) and around the same word count (5k each, but I'm cutting off filter words and some unnecessary stuff so I hope they don't end up being that long 🤞)

Talking about wips make writers more motivated to write them so if anyone is interested in more 👀 my ask box is open ♥️

#aaron hotchner x reader #Spencer Reid x reader #wips #accidentally in love fic #maybe someday fic

[pink-pages]

Night of the Dragon

Ok, where do I even start? This book was a trip. Seriously, I honestly think more happened in this book than in the previous two books COMBINED. I must admit, though, that I started reading this book in February but then My Hero Academia happened and I spent far too much of my time and energy simping over Todoroki, Shinsou, and Amajiki. Oops. Anyways, when I did get around to reading all of the book, I wound up reading most of it in two days. It was SO GOOD and there was always something happening. I would really like to make this post spoiler free, but seeing as half the plot is spoilers…yeah, not gonna happen.

One of the things that I really loved about this book was that the events of the book happened over a course of 2 or 3 days. It meant that the book spent a lot of time on everything that happened in those days which is good because there are so many twists and turns that if it wasn’t that thorough, it would get very confusing.

Honestly, I absolutely loved reading about the night the gang spent at the Tsuki Palace. I’ve always loved reading the scenes where characters are preparing for a battle and the scenes in the Tsuki palace before the start of the battle were all about the main characters mentally preparing for the massive fight ahead. The characters were all more open about their emotions because that very well could be the last time they’d ever get to say what they wanted to say to their friends.

I think my favorite of those scenes was the one where Suki talks with Daisuke. I hated that Suki only wanted to help Daisuke while Daisuke thought she was there to make his life miserable. It made me want to scream “TELL HIM!!!” nearly every time Suki even so much as breathed (well, not-breathed, since she’s dead) in the same room as Daisuke (my autocorrect just tried to turn Daisuke into Aizaw, what the hell?)

The scene with Okame and Daisuke the night before the battle was just as flowery as expected. Naturally, I loved it. Although I do wonder if it’s some sort of running joke that Okame and Daisuke can never get any privacy. I mean first Yumeko invades Okame’s dream, then she walks in on them kissing, and now we’ve got Suki watching them be sappy.

Then the conversation between Yumeko and Kiyomi and the reveal of what happened to Yumeko was amazing. I was afraid that the separation would have formed some sort of unfixable break in their relationship but it doesn’t seem that way. Now, even though the monks are dead, Yumeko still has a family to come back to. If they don’t get killed in the battle, that is.

Then the scene with Yumeko and Tatsumi. Beautiful. I’m not used to ACTUAL real COMMUNICATION in relationships involving stoic bad boys. I guess it’s easier to say fuck it all and talk about your true feelings when you’re, like, 99.9% certain you‘ll be dead in 24 hours. Also, Yumeko using her fox illusion magic to create a forest landscape in her room. Chef’s kiss.

The battle scenes were really exciting though. I don’t know what it was about the writing but it FELT thrilling. Like, the only other time I have felt that enthralled in a battle scene was in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and considering Harry Potter is my favorite series of all time, that’s saying something. It honestly felt like I was there watching this whole thing play out.

All of the twists were crazy too. I knew it wasn’t going to be as simple as just stopping Genno, but good lord there was much more to the plot than I expected. I mean, I thought it’d be stopping Genno from getting his wish and then stopping Seigetsu from using the wish for himself but instead we get corrupted Kami, resurrected dragon spirits, and a crazed Kitsune trynna be a god.

Characters

Yumeko: Ok, since when has Yumeko been this powerful. I mean, she was always badass but this is on the next level. She really made illusions real. Also, can we take a minute to appreciate the fact that she’s so pure of heart she was able to call on the Kirin (without using the Kodoma as middlemen) and she ACTUALLY FUCKING TAMED A GENERAL OF JIGOKU?! I mean, hecking heckety heck, the sheer amount of power this girl holds.

Reika: I didn’t believe it when she died at first. Like, I read that she was hit and I was like “it’s ok, it’s not the real Reika. It’s just one of Yumeko’s illusions.” It was the real Reika. Fml. I don’t know what to think about her death scene. On the one hand, it was so heart-wrenching I literally had to take a break from reading to get through it. On the other hand, she gave a whole ass speech and there came a point where I was thinking “this is getting ridiculous, shouldn’t she be dead already?” I must say, I did love that she was true to her character even through death. She went out making sure the team knew they were idiots but that they were her idiots.

Okame: I hope this man is currently partying it up in Meido with Daisuke and his brother cause he deserves it. “Honorless Ronin Dog” my ass. The dude’s got honor and he‘s a much better person than he thinks he is. He’s also funny. Like, the characters are walking through a literal cave of despair and I’m laughing cause he made some sort of comment about potentially poisonous flowers in moaning caves.

Daisuke: I said in my last review that he reminds me of Jem Carstairs from The Infernal Devices. Well, I have found another similarity. Both Daisuke and Jem don’t just try to avoid death but go running into it head on. I mean we’ve got Jem who needs to take Yin Fen to survive so he throws some of the last of the Yin Fen supply in the fire and then we’ve got Daisuke who fucking VOLUNTEERS to fight a demon general of Jigoku which is pretty much a death sentence. And like, both of those characters spend the whole of their respective trilogies EXPECTING to die. I understand Jem because terminal illness and all that but Daisuke does not have some sort of certain death sentence hanging over him so could he at least TRY to survive? And the whole thing about meeting death completely peacefully as if everything’s ok, like, “oh yeah, I’m just dying. Nothing wrong here.” As if I’m not fucking FALLING APART reading it. I love this man, but I am angry.

Tatsumi: I read somewhere that it really says something about Tatsumi that the Kirin showed himself to Tatsumi even when he had a demon inhabiting his body and I definitely agree. As cold as he sometimes seems, Tatsumi is really a force of pure good. He was also not an emotionless wall in this book. Like, I said in an earlier review, Tatsumi isn’t one of my favorite characters, but his death was so sad. Also kind of makes me angry cause, really, was the only way to defeat the evil foxman to stab him THROUGH YOURSELF?! and why’d the book have to end before we actually see Tatsumi reincarnated and Yumeko ACTUALLY MEET?!

Suki: Man oh man. Ok, so I love this girl, but how did she not see that there was something off about Seigetsu? Like, he’s acting uncharacteristically mad and Taka is missing and you still don’t think something is off? That being said, Suki really is the MVP in this book. Like, Yumeko would be dead a thousand times over if it weren’t for Suki. Seriously, though, she’s also so relatable. I, too, would stick around as a ghost to help Daisuke.

Seigetsu: I CALLED IT!!! I knew there was something off about this man. I mean, no one ever does anything for nothing. Seigetsu had to have had a reason to pull all those strings. I can forgive him for trying to become a god, he’s a villain, that’s what he does. I cannot, however, forgive him for killing Taka.

Hakaimono: I was debating writing about him, mainly because I’m lazy and didn’t want to write that much, but I figured it was pretty important to write about him considering his obvious character development. I was pretty happy with the way his character developed, but I’m sure there are going to be some readers who are not sold on his character development because you never see any obvious signs of it until the end of the book. I wound up kind of loving his character when he was angrily helping Yumeko because “goddamnit, I’ve gone soft.” It was just kind of funny cause it was like, “I will kill you in the future“ *says while saving Yumeko’s life.*

#Night of the Dragon #julie kagawa #book review #bookworm

[fmhiphop]

Blueface and Chrisean Rock Split Again, 'she’s not reliable enough’

LA rapper Blueface has had a very public and hectic relationship with Chrisean Rock that might be over for good. Messy isn’t even the word for this controversial pair.  From family brawls to stolen cars, Blueface and Chrisean Rock have been through a lot. Fans noticed recently that things seemed to be on a downward spiral again when The 'Bleed It' rapper allegedly blocked/unfollowed Rock on Instagram. In an unusual move by the former athlete, Chrisean was spotted with Fivio Foreign at the club without her boyfriend present. It’s presumed this led to the following internet fallout. Blueface gets cold The 25-year-old hopped on his Instagram story this weekend to clarify his feelings on Chrisean. "I didn't block her. Me and Rock, we vibe. She's not reliable enough-| mean we had an agreement and she didn't hold up her end of the agreement, simple as that.” He explained. "That's all that is. It's not a breakup. We still vibing. We still connecting. We still ahh ahh ahh. She's just not reliable enough for me. That's it. That's all it is. t's important to have a person that you can depend on." He seemingly confirmed the couple isn’t broken up in a traditional sense, but he doesn’t see Rock as trustworthy. As far as the aforementioned “agreement” Blueface never detailed what it was exactly. In a later video posted to his story, Blueface gave more insight into why Chrisean is in the dog house. "Since y'all want to be so f**king nosey, I told Rock,” he began. “You can't be coming in and out of my house any time of day and any time of night. I got an HOA, I got neighbors. I got real responsibilities that I'm not always there to take care of."   View this post on Instagram   A post shared by HOLLYWOOD UNLOCKED (@hollywoodunlocked) All is fair in love and war Of course, the Baddies South star responded similarly. Chrisean posted on her story to tell her side and urge Blueface to be more honest. “U putting on a front to hurt me .. I really don't know what's the point to act like u don't really love me” she typed. "Whatever it is u doing it won't last long. Ima just keep going n keep getting busy n pray that the dark cloud go away fr.” The last big blowout involving  Rock and Blueface occurred last month. You may remember a video surfaced of Rock, Blueface's mother. and sister fighting outside the rappers LA home. The viral video drew heavy criticism from those who didn’t understand how a toxic relationship could come before family. In an attempt to explain the attack, Blueface asked Rock on his IG story why she got in the fight. According to the Baltimore artist, she had no choice. https://twitter.com/bestspovtv/status/1531399244346802179?s=21&t=VhB7Zt3fFVXHnWiaFgGpnA In February, Rock was arrested after attempting to steal her boyfriends G Wagon and drive it to her hometown of Baltimore, Maryland. According to arrest records, she had crack cocaine in her possession at the time. In a video posted to the 'Thotiana' rappers story, he calls Rock a “dumbass” and a “thief”. He also confirms reporting the vehicle as stolen, likely leading to Rock's arrest. Chrisean stays determined Clearly, this couple has gone through some tough trials. Still, this most recent bump in the road obviously has Chrisean hurt. She continued to address Blueface, “The fact u saying all dat stuff to look a certain way just shows ppl what immature guy you are never knew you being scared to show wassup is crazy to me. You acting like u not scared to lose me is funny ” In another post she accuses her ex of acting indifferent because he can’t handle someone attractive. “Blueface can't deal with the fact that he's dealing with someone everyone to” she claimed. Chrisean ended her rant with a declaration of love, despite the harsh words exchanged. In addition to the long message, Rock also posted a broken heart emoji and a reply to a tweet. The tweet from Blueface reads: “thought I had me one” with a caption from Chrisean just underneath. “Smh u did have one but u just trynna find reasons to break up w her for no reason weirdo” she responded. If social media is any indicator, it’s doubtful this is really the end for this duo. After all, they’ve certainly survived worse than some late-night doorbell rings. Also, Follow FM Hip Hop on Instagram and Facebook Dreema Carrington|IG: @dr3amgirl79 | Twitter: @notdreema Read the full article

[maaciube]

I’m getting bitchy again and I don’t want to bitch to the people in my life so I’ll do it on here: ahem*

#my future roomie and friend is not in the same province as me even tho we’re apartment hunting so it really falls on me to find a place/make #sure it’s right for us #but I’m still trynna involve her #making spreadsheets for her to see which apartment I’m visiting and when #but when I find a place and I’m like ‘before this disappears we must act now’ she’s like ‘but it’s a month early’ and not really ON it #and I’m like binch it might be fun n gamez but I will LITERALLY b homeless if I don’t get a fucking place!!! my lease is ending and I #told my landlord and he’s coming tomorrow to take pics of my place so I can find someone who transfer my lease to #and I know my frustration with her is coming from my frustration with this whole situation but rn I’m frustrated with everyone and everythin #and I just wish she could be like “’let’s get it here’s my info #bc it’s like I’m doing all the work to get the place and she’s not (completely understandable bc she’s not in this city) #and I know she wishes she could be here 2 help but I wish she could understand that the perfect scenario apartment isn’t going to come #we have to make do #if that means moving out a month early #or paying rent for a month but not moving in yet (I am going to have to do this #then PLS GOD DO IT bc I have got until JULY to find a place otherwise I am on da street

[athyathye]

Sweet and Psycho

Author’s note 📝: Toman with a Harley quinn! Reader? Damn. This is just a scenario by the way!

Warnings ⚠️: Curse words! A whole lot of violence! And a whole lot of Harley Quinn.

❥ “Are you the devil?” You asked the teenage boys who stormed into the place you were currently held captive in. Hands tied behind your back as your eyes glowed with hope.

❥ “....I guess?” Mikey replied to your remark, glancing at Draken who glanced back at him with an unreadable gaze. “You y/n?” “Look Mr. gang leader sir, I’m not trynna’ get into more trouble here-” “Draken, you carry her.” He deliberately ignored your comment after confirming your identity.

❥ “Rude. K*saki’s gonna come for you, ya know? You took away his guinea pig” You spoke from Draken’s back, the boy hauling you to his shoulder by his leader’s command.

❥ “You’re letting yourself get caged like this? Rumors told me you were reckless and sh*t...ah, guess they were just rumors then.” Mikey looked directly at you, grabbing your hair to make you look at him. “Aren’t ya gonna do the same anyways? Even worse? Use me as bait? You look like sh*t by the way” You chuckled lowly, his lifeless eyes giving you such a nostalgic feeling...you hated it.

❥ Trying to ignore the creepy feeling of you being spot on in your words, both of them said nothing else as they hauled you to their motorcycle. a familiar looking girl following them once they’ve gone out of the place where the ‘mastermind’ K*saki had hidden you.

❥ “Hey...you! Girly! I’m speakin’ to ya’!” You spoke from Draken’s hold, tight and cold you’d describe the sensation, he was holding onto you like how one would to a fragile vase. Though in this situation, you were nothing fragile. Your body was. “Hey, easy on the hair there, you know how hard it is to take care of it, right braid-face?”

❥ Hina, the girl you called out looked away from you. Her heart racing as fast as her mind made conclusions about the aftermath of the fight that was happening. Frankly, she was a good-natured girl, she didn’t want to entangle herself in this mess, but if her beloved Takemitchy was involved, perhaps she’d follow him to hell and back.

❥ “You don’t wanna talk to me? That it? Fine, then. Thought it was girls supporting girls.” You grumbled through the roaring motorcycle engines. Rolling your eyes at the way she tried so hard to ignore you.

❥  Both males said nothing at your chatty self, all of them seemed so...lost and confused. It was all too amusing to you ‘Vulnerable…’ You thought to yourself. Guess the night was about to become more interesting than you thought.

❥  You saw the way Mikey gazed at you. As if he was asking you to do something. “Hey, you got a lot on your mind there cupcake, wanna share? Don’t expect me to listen though-” “You...you look like you’ve given up on life.” He boldly stated.

❥  “Huh? Excuse you, I ain't’ the one with the empty lookin’ eyes here!” You exclaimed in disbelief. “But, you’re close aren’t ya? Lookin’ for peace? Maybe somethin’ to clear ya mind?” You tried to egg him, Hina and Draken clinging on every word that comes out of your mouths. “No..peace isn’t real. If I live in peace, that would only mean I would be ignoring everything that’s around me.”

❥  “Man you’re so depressing. Happiness would probably suit you better. But the price is too high am I right?”

❥ After a full illegal ride to where the fight was destined, they took no time in gathering themselves up, as well as you to make a grand entrance.

❥ “I DIDN’T LOSE! LEADER!” You heard the high and determined voice of a person you knew everybody was almost obsessed with. It was envious really, his will, his resolve, his patience. Everything you wished you had, he had them. A person worth admiring, but a person not worth being in your opinion.

❥ “Thank you...Takemitchy.” The breathless and dazed tone of the man in front  of you was heard. “Draken-kun!?” Again with their little reunion, you sighed from his back, still dangling on his shoulder even through the whole ride.

❥ “You...is that...Y...y/n?” You heard him ask to which you jovially raised your head to meet his from the back. “Y/N L/N! NICE TO MEET YA’” You smiled carelessly, even holding your hand up to his direction, ignoring the gasps of surprise.

❥ “No way…” Seems like you were famous in their world. Having been sent to juvie 3 times...and on the loose for the 3rd one.

❥ “K*saki you’re looking quite mighty today!” You poked fun at the man who stood speechless and utterly surprised at your appearance. “You don’t look happy to see me? Why is that?” Your tone was mixed with mischief, irritation and most of all….psychoticness.

❥ K*saki looked at you with a gaze that told you just how much he loathed you right now, paying no attention to the fight that was currently going on between the two brothers in front of him. “What’s wrong? You losing? Haha! That’s rich” “Y/n…” He spoke wearily.

❥ “You finally talk!? Gonna listen to me now? Huh? What?” Everyone else glanced at your direction, attention divided in the fight and the mental fight going on between two of the smartest people in criminal history.

❥ “Ah..look at you~” You cooed, ignoring the burning stare of everyone else on you. “I created you…” You spoke, barely a whisper, but because of the silence in the area it was still heard. The boys that were currently fighting even stopped to listen to your oncoming words.

❥ “The story of the man...who was caught up in the war...who infiltrated the enemy fleet, spreading his ideologies and whatnot to soldiers, and eventually made the whole fleet turn against their leader….your tactics, you heard it all from me! You got  it all from me!” you glanced fondly at the trembling man in front of you. Enjoying the way he cowered at your stare.

❥ “So what if I did!? What happens!? I still-” “You’re a failure of a student!” you shouted at him with a crazed smile, baskin in the way he stepped back as if afraid of you. “Remember the psychology lesson on day 4? I told you…” You smiled eerily at him. Everyone else paid close attention to your words, finding it hard to gulp or even breathe through the thick tension.

❥ “I gotta admit, you did well” You leaned forward, everybody taking a glimpse of your unhinged look, it made them shudder at how...crazy you looked.

❥ “You kept winning, no you thought you kept winning even though your plan was foiled. you thought you managed to manipulate everyone around you” you praised him, his efforts and his abilities. K*saki blinked owlishly, in the past few months, you had never even looked at him with a fond look. Even when he took you hostage, he never once heard your savoury words, not that he needed them...or did he?

❥ K*saki’s heart pumped faster than ever, causing him to breathe erratically. ‘What..what now- what does that mean’ he thought to himself, glancing around only to find everyone’s attention on him, on his form that was on the ground.

❥ “The Dunning–Kruger effect. People with low ability at a task overestimate their own ability, and people with high ability at a task underestimate their own ability. How stupid of you…” Your eyes that were twinged with mischief were replaced with repulsiveness. Even though you were kind of at the same level with him now, it looked as if you were looking down on him once more. K*saki hated that feeling more than anything.

❥ “Everything was going smoothly! I...I just went wrong in my analysis! I-it wasn’t me-” “You’re right it wasn’t you hehe~” You laughed loudly at his state, he looked like he was close to losing his sanity, he misunderstood your gaze to one of pride. Maybe it was because his image of you was already morphed, but oh how he longed to see that warm gaze of yours.

❥ He was close to tears before he finally saw your smile. Unbelievably wicked and absolutely twisted. “I thought you were smart?”  It was worse than his winning gaze in his opinion. That was when it hit him “You...you manipulated me...you manipulated my memories.”

❥ “kahaha...hahaha...HAHAHAHAHA! THAT LOOK! I LIKE IT!” Your loud voice made everyone flinch, a sweat forming on their head as they dared not to glance at your cackling figure. “That’s a whole lot of crazy in a whole lot of pretty” Hanma, the right hand man of your student commented, looking at you who trembled from laughing.

❥ That was when Mikey took the lead, focusing his attention to Izana who felt his stare. Both tried to land a kick on one another as everyone else gazed at the kneeling K*saki, a powerful individual in their opinion, who got dogged around by a woman they never thought they’d encounter.

❥ “Shut up...shut up..shut up! Stop messing with my head!” He exclaimed in helplessness. “You underestimate me...you underestimate the power of manipulation...you used it so carelessly now you got trapped in my palm k*saki” The way you spoke his name filled him with an emotion he couldn’t identify. It was much more powerful than his own feelings for Hinata Tachibana.

❥ “Your strength was gained through listening to me, and your downfall was also caused by listening to me!” The more and more you began to get inside his vulnerable mind, the more he looked extremely dangerous, as if he was just a pawn in the beginning, how fitting for the self proclaimed perriot.

❥ “Shut up…” Maybe now you had just broken his sanity. Maybe now you had managed to fully brainwash him. You smiled as you saw him raise the gun that was thrown back near him, looking up to you with eyes that told you how much of a parasite you were to him.

❥ *Bang!* a loud gun being shot filled the silent area. “You’re all a bunch of nuisances.” Followed with 3 more bullets prior to the statement “Kakucho...you’re in my way, you b*stard”. The bold and mentally unstable tanned male had everyone see how unstable he was at this moment.

❥ The terror-filled K*saki laid on the ground with a newfound desperation. You, who stood quiet once he had fired the bullets, observed the area around you. Seeing how somber the atmosphere turned, you could only guess just how much influence they had on the people around them.

❥ Not for long, the coward of a man K*saki had now escaped with his own companion. Leaving you and the others to stare in disbelief at how fast things progressed. The man of the hour, Mikey, then turned to you.

“What, you gonna kill me? But I haven't eaten anything yet? What did I do to you again?”

#tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers x you #tokyo revengers x y/n #tokyo revengers scenarios #tokyo revengers headcanons

[hollyjay]

 Hi! I’m not dead. I know I said I would have a chapter of something out in a month at LEAST 2 months ago but I uhh got a bit of a bad writer’s block and time melted

Trynna motivate myself back into writeability, meantime have an unfinished art page for Telephone from early november and excerpts from a fast bulleted concept list for telephone and key I made last night to get myself back into a writer mood. promise I use grammar while writing actual prose.

Telephone Telegram AU

In which quirks are a byproduct of the energy type they’re made of slowly increasing in ambience over the years, and human bodies adapting to compensate for it.

Humans aren’t the only things adapting room for quirk energy to inhabit.

(literally)

Sometimes it forms stuff on it’s mostly own, too!

There’s been some Issues, as of recent, with the structures of various buildings, labs, powerlines, warehouses, etc, previously approved as safe spontaneously collapsing. How weird! There’s absolutely no plausible explanation for it beyond lax inspectors, especially involving villains, I’m sure! /s

Not great for Uraraka’s family business :>

DFO

Inko is mayhaps not a normal human person!

Trying her best but objectively not a mother in the specific way her children happen to need

Not an abusive or neglectful Inko here we don’t like writing (or, for that matter, reading) abusive Inko, but not the ideal supporter for their specific circumstances

Probably would not have happened to have kids at the particular time she did if not for the friendship and recent pregnancy announcement of her friend Mitsuki To-Be-Bakugou-Someday reminding her that’s a thing she wanted to do

Children. Plural. Don't worry about it ;^)

Knowingly with AFO for a bit!

Izuku goes to UA as per canon.

Inko never took him to get tested for a lack of a quirk. Is technically quirkless, by definition of "quirkless" as a human or animal body adapted in a specific way to have a quirk factor.

By that definition so is she.

In practice, however,

(AfO did not give either of them quirks)

At story's start, almooost goes behind his mother’s back towards the Wide Welcoming Extremely Shady Arms Of A Personalized Prep Internship-Esque Training organized for Him, Specifically, by HPSC even after she correctly told him not to

Dropped the HPSC the moment he caught a whiff of All Might within the nearest 30 mile radius. Good for him!

OFA successor Izuku time

Feeling a lil bit guilty for Various Reasons!

Naomasa is Plot Relevant. Unfortunately for him.

Naomasa is All Might’s Good Friend

All Might really wants him to be, anyways

Naomasa is not a leak or traitor

Izuku's older brother is? was? Prototype Izuku.

Do worry about it actually.

Where is Yami when the fic starts? Aizawa wishes he knew lol

(In the background, Aizawa would be waddling knee deep in string and corkscrew murder mystery conspiracy, if not for the fear of someone seeing him doing it)

Katsuki's brother was Proto Katsuki.

Assume he's dead unless proven otherwise. Unlikely!

They... were? about Aizawa's age.

And Oboro’s friends, coincidentally! They went on fun TOOOOTALLY faked with no real information or stakes teenage detective adventures together when he wasn’t with his hero school team

The Bakugou family and Midoriya family ah. Don't talk anymore. Per Mistuki's threat.

Also both families had different surnames approx. 15 years ago! It's fun to change up your life occasionally. :^)

Tagged Major Character Death Warning

Originally way-back inspired by know what i've made by the marks on my hands by simkjrs, Leviathan by rest_in_rip, and Feral by moonpaw  - none are a great comparison currently, especially the last two, (which I don’t think I ever finished) but they’re still worth an appreciative nod!

Knave and Key AU

VERY DFO

Blatantly Anyone inspired, designed to appeal to people (person singular, me) who liked Anyone (me) and had “hahaha what conclusions could hero cast come up with given a different set of information” (me) thoughts and then “hahaha what if those conclusions were true” (me)

TBH probably not that similar to Anyone at all, especially considering it has no Anyone The Person or Anyone The Organization, which are pretty… important. I worked backwards from “correct potential wrong conclusions the heroes could make in Anyone” and replaced all the plot that wasn't extracted from those conclusions with different context

If you do see the insp shining through, however, that’s why!

Soulmates AU

Having a soulmate =/= having a quirk, everyone has one and it’s irrelevant to quirk status

given recent manga developments, Aoyama/Izuku Soulmates AU

Izuku is causing problems for everyone

In which Izuku actually DOES have a parasite-esque quirk.

Izuku will Physically Worm His Way Into Your Soul And Quirk, if so desired

Izuku is wanted by the government for crimes of being adorable and adoptable

Also crimes of criminal activity

Also kicking Chisaki hard enough to just about kill him, which is a crime but shouldn’t be

Izuku breaks into Chisaki’s house and kicks him to death, by the way.

There’s a woman who spent a bit of time in France (and thus has that as a bonding point with the Aoyamas) and is either gonna end up being a distant relative of Mina or Momo (depending on how I decide her quirk works in technical aspect, leaning towards Mina), possibly by marriage, who can get random bits of information about people’s soulmates by using her quirk on them

hmm :^)

Eraserhead fascinating, Aizawa kind of mean :/

Aoyama got his quirk as per canon

Eraserzawa causes Midoriya problems

Eraserzawa gets problems back

Shinsou takes it upon himself to fight Midoriya

NOooo haha he’s just a little guy doooon’t do that

Younger sister Eri who’s extremely plot relevant

Midoirya might be going to UA, I think

Most of his choices are motivated by his family

Sometimes this means plotting the assassination of members of his family!

#bnha au #telephone telegram au #knave and key au #midoriya inko #aizawa shouta #shirakumo oboro #all might #midoriya izuku #mikumo akatani

[pickyperkypenguin]

some reflections on dying hair with henna (lawsonia inermis)

i’ve had dyed my hair red with henna/lawsonia inermis (sometimes with added amla/emblica officinalis, and jatropha) for four years, since i was about sixteen year old ‘til i was about twenty. somewhere at the two or three year mark i roped up my mother into dying her hair with henna too. so, i’ve been dying my own and then my mother’s hair with herbs for the last ten years every month or two. i feel like i might have the right to talk about it just because i’ve done it so many times and got consistent results

it took me long enough to figure out my perfect recipe, but the amount of misinformation i see on the internet in regards to henna dying process is staggering. i thought, okay, maybe ten years ago it was relatively knew in the polish corner of the world wide web, but now? sure it should be more popular? and okay, i did manage to find some info faster than those years ago (boy, let me tell you it was some google-fu required to get into that information back then, and all was, like, crowd-sourced from experimentally-inclined hair bloggers - a sub-type of beauty bloggers - and wise, old and jaded women who knew henna as chna, because they’ve used it back in the socialist times, when it was still imported from the east, hence the different spelling). but still, it was not much, however, there were some more professional sources involved than cosmetics forums. i’ll check the anglophone side, i thought. sure it should be much better, yeah? no misinfo?

goddamn, was i wrong. like, on one hand it was much better, because you have those amazing sources from especially indian women, for whom it is very much a traditional thing so the technique was perfected for, like, millenia. they know what they’re doing. but - and here comes my surprise - there was much of the same simply wrong bullshit from other sources? and i was like, what the hell, why do you even do that, why do you spread information that is clearly wrong - and you’ve had the chance to cross-reference it with very good sources without learning a whole other language in the process? so, like, why? why do people do that? i do not understand.

*if you are curious and want some unsolicited advice from a person who is not an expert, then, here, have my completely unprofessional opinion that’s based solely on years of experience and observation of dying first never previously dyed hair, and then naturally grey hair, which was (is) also getting regularly permed, because my mother has never left the eighties:

the perfect recipe is this:

add sugar and lemon juice when using pure henna or when you combine it with amla and/or jatropha

don’t use acids when you add indigo/indigofera tinctoria, because it needs alkaline environment. you can add either some black tea or a bit of salt

but do not add that salt, to be honest, because it’s not good for your hair, it dries it out

i’m not sure if adding sugar would be bad when dying with indigo (idk about its acidity level - is this a thing in this case?), but sugar is generally a humectant, and really helps the dye to have a lot smoother consistency. 

also, sugar might moisturise your hair, but i’m not entirely sure about that - even if one moisturises hair with something, the hair cuticles (is that the word in english?) should be then closed/smoothed down with something else, oil or silicone, to keep the moisture in? otherwise you’re just preparing your hair to be frizzy as hell, because porosity and different level of humidity in the air is a thing

the consistency of the dye should be adjusted to your own preferences and the thickness of the hair, don’t feel like you have to get that arbitrary greek yogurt thickness. that literally doesn’t matter, it’ll work anyway as long as you cover it and keep it moist. don’t let the dye dry, you might get uneven patches of colour. keep it covered with plastic wrap and put a towel on, herbal dyes like warmth to develop properly

speaking of warmth - about 80 C for henna, no more than 40-50 for indigo, maybe even less, around 30 C. never want the dye to be boiled

what also matters is not adding oil to the mixture. it will hinder the dying process. so, no fatty yogurt, no coconut oil. you can do it after, at least a day or two (for indigo at least two, maybe even three) days after

honey will not 'clog’ anything, i have no idea where did it come from. it’s not a fat, it shouldn’t do anything except for the same thing that sugar does

idk, you may add honey instead of sugar if you’re feeling extra, but no, it will not make the shade any different (i’ve seen stuff like adding honey will give you that honey-blond lustre. it will not. cassia might, for grey and very fair blonde hair. but won’t change much when you’re using something much stronger, like henna). and if you think it will give you some health benefits? i mean, i do think honey is healthy for you, but i very much prefer to eat it, simply as that

i have no idea how does that work, if it builds into your hair, if there is some magic with herbal proteins and hair proteins, but herbal dyes, henna especially, thickens your hair. which is marvellous. i believe that ridiculous statement only because i happened to be gross that one time and lost a hairbrush before i managed to clean it, and it was just after my first two or three henna dyes. i found that brush four years later, after consistent dying every single month, and i compared my hair from the brush with the ones in my head - and the ones on my head, despite comparing the very ends - you know, easily reachable when you have hair reaching your butt - and the ends of hair that long are thinner and split in my case - were still thicker (almost twice as thick!) as those from the brush. it was fucking wild

it builds up and darkens overtime, so your ends might be darker than your roots, if you dye the whole thing, as i did

i never dyed with indigo, but relaying on second-hand experience - if you have hair on the lighter side, do the two-step process and pre-dye with henna first. if you don’t, the blue of the indigo and the yellow that your hair contains combine, and you might end up with something green-ish on your head 

although, you know, that’s basic colour theory, i don’t know what people expect when they do that and then act surprised - herbal dyes only cover what is already there, they don’t bleach or strip your natural colour before. that’s why henna ends up very bright on bleached or grey hair and yes, you should very much do the two-step thing, if you want your grey hair black not green

also, never understood what’s so wrong with green hair. go and be that nymph, live your true forest god life, eff society

a quick guide for colours:

henna - pure red

henna+jatropha - fox-red, as in warm, yellow-ish, brassy, beautiful for skin with warm and olive undertones

henna+amla - red but cooler, not exactly a cherry, but much different shade than pure henna or h+j, awesome for cooler and neutral skin tones

henna+amla+jatropha - idk what you’re trynna do, mate, but it’ll be somewhere in the red region, depends on proportions

henna+indigo - depending on proportions, anywhere from cooler brown to dark red-ish brown

indigo - black with blue-ish tinge, on lighter hair should be used on pre-dyed with henna hair

cassia - might give you warm, blonde-ish shade on grey or very fair hair, might do absolutely nothing, you can add it to henna mixes to ensure the warm tone

#henna #henna hair #henna treatement #whatever life #i tried to do the kristen stewart in underwater it did not work out #that's what sparked this whole rant anyway #first i dyed with theoretically platinum blonde chemical dye #which got my hair somewhere around ginger #then i decided to bleach it which got me the classic easter chick #then i thought of toning it but only had an old plum toner #which brought it to lilac #i was not happy because it got uneven - in some places more pink in some more blue #which - like - predictable - already had that experience #so i thought oh maybe i can bleach it the second time all those people who are dying white are doing this #yeah lady they do *before* the toner #and yeah it has got me - you guessed it - the famous green #not a very bad kind of green slightly blue-ish rather pastel #i guess some people probs dye it like this on purpose #but on me this shade looks horrible and i would keep it only if i had a turquoise toner on hand #i did not and so it came to henna #it's currently on my hair and i swear i have no idea what will happen when i take it off and if it will even work #if not well i have about a centimetre of hair on my head i can get it to zero or two milimetres

[utopiannamjoon]

Cheap choice - Jungkook

Words: ~ 1500

Genre: fluff, smut-ish (not full blown and to everyone’s shock, condoms are involved), enemies to lovers

Pairing: Jungkook x reader

Anon asked: for the prompt thing if you can “yeah? and where’d you get it, the dollar store?” + “i’m sensing you have a plan.” with jungkook or yoongi maybe? you can decide if fluff or smut (or both i guess) but if you include some enemies to lovers dynamics i’ll be happy 🌸 thank you

Masterlist can be found in my bio!

A/n: thanks for the anon for this request, hope you enjoy

Prompts: “Yeah? And where’d you get it, the dollar store?” and “I’m sensing you have a plan.”

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You look at the clock, focusing on the second visor and every move it made. You wanted to bolt out of class and get home. If you were to succeed you’d avoid Jungkook and have a relaxing day, if you weren’t he would make sure to annoy you until you wanted to poke pencils through his eyes.

For some reason your professor wouldn’t let you pick your partners on the project, she decided them on her own without taking suggestions. You’re sure this was a personal attack towards you for that one time you spoke up in class, so she put you with Jungkook.

He was a straight up clown and you didn’t get along with him that well. It boggled your mind that the man couldn’t act like a normal person. His overall personality annoyed you to the core. What irked you even more was that he bought the cheapest parts for the project, had he just listened to you it would’ve been ready.

The bell rang and you shoved your book into your backpack and nearly collided with a door when you rocketed your way out of the building.

Your hands were deep in your pockets trying to search for the key for your bike,

”I’m sensing you have a plan trying your best to get rid of me. You can’t avoid me, sorry to break it to you.” Jungkook leaned on the handlebars and cocked his head at you.

”That’s where you’re wrong. I can and I will.”

”Nope,” He snatched the keys from your hand, leaving you helplessly looking at your only form of escapement. ”Come with me. We gotta pick up few parts before we can continue the project.”

You sat in his car, refusing to make small talk. There wasn’t a reason to talk to him, he knew how you felt and he felt the same. The endless arguments were the prove of it. He just had to get things done his way or it wasn’t worth doing.

“What’s wrong with your radio?” You pointed out otherwise a silent ride.

“It broke.” Jungkook shrugged, “It worked for a day.”

“Yea? And where’d you get it, the dollar store?” You scoffed, “You’re such a cheapskate.”

“Not everything I buy is from there, just the few things that broke.”

The following silence was broken by the loud bang and shaking coming from the right side of the vehicle. that was the first time he made eye contact with you.

“Like that tire?” You dead panned.

Jungkook rolled his eyes and was forced to pull over.

You stood on the edge of the road looking at the flat tire. Jungkook rocked back and forth on his heels, hands in his pockets, “Well shit.”

“Yeah, tell me about it.” You said with a sigh and walked around the car. You opened the trunk and lifted up the cover, “Where’s your spare tire?” You looked around.

“I don’t have one.”

“You’re an absolute moron.” You tell him and scream inside your head. What are the chances that you get stuck with him in the middle of a silent road? Out of all people, not your best friend, or your father but HIM. You sat down in the car, letting your legs hang out.  You felt defeated, “Who doesn’t have a spare tire?”

”Oh shut up. You don’t even know where the clutch is. How would you know about spare tires?” He crossed his arms and lifted up his eyebrows, demanding for an answer.

“Because I’m not a moron.” You looked up at him and smiled like a brat.

“You are though. You’re no better than I am.”

”Yes, I am.”

“Say that again.” He sounded cold when got close to you. There was something in his eyes that shot a shiver down your spine. He has never been that close to you, you were able to see every little detail of his face and feel every breath he took.

“I’m better than you.” You tilted your head without breaking the contact.

Your back hit the trunk floor and he was hovering over you, your legs fell apart intinstincly.

“Do you want me to show you why you aren’t?” He asked in a deep voice, glancing at your lips. ”Do yah?”

You pulled his head closer to yours and caught his lips, you kissed him. You figured that would work as an answer.

It didn’t take until Jungkook deepened the kiss, his hand was by your jaw lifting your head at an angle. His tongue slipped into your mouth and you took it gladly.

All of the pent up rage you had gathered for him was releasing, you tangled your fingers in his hair and pulled him even closer, his chest touching yours. His firm muscles retracted under your touch everytime he moved.

You pulled off his hoodie and he ruffled his fluffy hair when his head popped out. You ogled his body shamelessly, he even flexed with a smirk growing onto his face.

”Who knew you had that underneath.” You grinned and followed your eyes from his snail trail, along his abs and pecs to his face.

”I can’t spend all of my time pissing you off, I gotta look good while doing it.” He winked and leaned in again.

His warm hand slithered under your shirt to your bra. He was careful to touch you at first but hearing your breathing change made him confident, he liked that change and wanted to hear more of it.

He didn’t shy away from touching you and cupping your bra when your legs latched behind him to get him closer, to have him between your legs. You could feel his hard on press up against you and you thanked the lords that you didn’t pick jeans today, you felt him and every move his hips made as the kissed got more relentless.

Jungkook grinded on you and had his lips stop working against your neck when he bit his lip to take in all of the feelings going through him.

”Do you have uh, protection?” You took the chance to ask him and shut your eyes tight like it would help you ignore the anxiousness you felt in your chest.

”Really?” His voice shot high with excitement, he wasn’t expecting you to ask. ”I do.”

Jungkook reached for his backpack and rummaged through it, ”You’ve got no idea how long I’ve wanted to do this -”

”Didn’t you hate me few solid minutes ago?”

”How else can I get your attention other than teasing you?” He lifted his head from the bag and looked at you in the eyes.

”By asking me out.”

”I mean that would’ve worked too,” he pursed his lips and nodded before throwing his bag away. “Found it.”

Jungkook looked at you nervously, biting his lip and looking between your face and his groin. He shrugged his insecure thoughts away and just pulled his sweatpants and briefs down enough to let himself spring free. You wanted this, he wanted this, why would he feel nervous. He took his length in his hand and started moving his hand up and down.

Jungkook ripped the condom open with a one smooth move and froze.

He glanced between you and the condom, sly but disappointed smile growing on his lips, “Before you say anything, I didn’t buy this from the dollar store.”

“Huh? Did it break?” You asked with a cocked head meanwhile he was still sporting an amused smile.

”You’re unbelievable.” You sighed but couldn’t help your lips rising up as well, of course he would make a joke out of this.

”This is not gonna work since this was my last one.” He sighed and tucked himself in his pants again and sat down next to your legs, looking up in the sky.

“What’re you doing?” You hoisted yourself up by your elbows and poked him with your knee.

“I’m trynna think of something awful to will this thing down.” He laughed but then cut it off with a shake of his head, “I don’t wanna look at you yet, you’re too pretty. It’s making this more difficult.”

You felt the blush color your cheek simply from that comment alone. It’s a shame you couldn’t pull through on hooking up, maybe some other time and another place would be better than in a car next to a road - well to your credit no one would’ve bothered you on that since it’s rarely used.

“You wanna grab some dinner?” Jungkook finally asked and turned to you, “I’ll call for help from the restaurant a mile away.”

Jungkook got out of the car and opened up his hand for you, engulfing your palm into his. He slammed the trunk close and held your hand until the moment you sat down at the table and picked up a menu.

~

A/n: If you want to see more from me leave a like/reblog/comment

#bangtanarmynet #hyunglinenetwork #bts fanfiction #bts smut #bts angst #bts fluff #bts reaction #bts scenario #bts oneshot #jungkook smut #jungkook fluff #jungkook angst #jungkook scenario #jungkook reaction #jungkook x reader #bts x reader #taehyung #jimin #namjoon #hoseok #yoongi #seokjin #bts drabble #bts fake chat #bts fake texts

[missjanjie]

Branjie Fic | Hold Me Closer, Tiny Dancer (6/?)

Title: Hold Me Closer, Tiny Dancer Summary: Brooke Lynn is a graduate student anxiously embracing her new position as her favorite dance professors’ new TA. Vanessa is a sophomore dance major who just might make her way into being more than the teacher(assistant)’s pet. (lesbian/university AU) Word Count: ~2.6k (this chapter)/~16.1k (total) Relationship: Branjie (Vanessa ‘Vanjie’ Mateo/Brooke Lynn Hytes) Rating: E

Read on AO3 | Ch. 1 | Ch. 2 | Ch. 3 | Ch. 4 | Ch.5

Competition, almost by definition, creates a high-pressure situation for those involved. Competing against someone your girlfriend wants to murder, however, is a whole other echelon of stress. Vanessa did her best to ignore the anxiety and doubt it all brought, letting her determination conquer an propel her into the competition full force. She was a firecracker on the floor, she commanded the crowds’ attention and received it in abundance.

And as quickly as it began, it ended, that was the case for the contestants especially. Everyone on the floor and in the audience held their breath in anticipation. Third place was called, and a petite blonde beamed as she took her spot on the podium, holding up her trophy with glee. Tension only grew before the next place was announced.

“In second place, from right here at New York University, Vanessa Mateo!”

Vanessa was happy, of course she was. But second place almost felt worse than first, because she missed the winning title by that much. Still, she took her place and put on her most dazzling smile as she was handed her trophy, and in a day’s time she knew she would be able to appreciate the award for what it really was. She listened in anticipation for the winner to be announced – she was ready to size up whatever stand-out was in the contest, she wasn’t going to let herself be intimidated.

“And the first-place winner, from Julliard, Lily Byrne!”

Of course, she won, Vanessa thought. Out of everyone she could’ve lost to, it was the one person that was already stirring the pot between herself and Brooke Lynn. Without that outlying factor, she probably would not have minded losing to her – her performance was breathtaking, and, as much as she didn’t want to admit it, she deserved the win.

Besides, if Brooke’s reaction was to be anything like it was when they first met Lily, this might not be a loss at all. Ever since she had gotten a taste of what jealousy could do to her, she had been craving more, but nothing had quite gotten her to that point again, which Vanessa found frustrating in every sense of the word. And her friends were useless in their advice, “just tell her what you want” – they didn’t get it, it wouldn’t be the same. It was spur of the moment, unprompted, passionate – you can’t just plan it out by request.

But Brooke Lynn seemed damn cheerful when she approached Vanessa, she hugged her tight, picking her up and spinning her around. “You did so well, baby,” she set her down and kissed her cheek. “I know you’ll get the gold next time,” she cooed, her arms still snugly around her. When she looked up, she noticed two women around her age looking at them, and they were standing just close enough for her to eavesdrop.

“See? I told you she’s the one that, you know…” one of them said, making an obscene gesture with two fingers and her tongue. Both girls giggled, causing Brooke to blush fiercely and abruptly drop her grasp on Vanessa and shove her hands into the pockets of her jeans.

“Let’s get out of here, Vanj,” Brooke murmured, heading towards the exit with Vanessa, who looked resigned to the idea that she was definitely not getting any rough, celebratory or angry sex tonight. But they had only gotten halfway towards the exit when they faced another interruption.

Lily had just gotten away from the congratulatory crowd around her to make her way over to the couple, or to Vanessa anyway. She caught her in a bear hug until the shorter girl started to wriggle in discomfort – not from the tightness of the grip, but how Brooke’s expression was one of dejection than of fiery disdain, like she simply didn’t have the energy to deal with Lily’s blatant flirtation, perhaps due to the gossip only moments prior.

“You were so great out there, I totally thought you were gonna win,” Lily chirped. “You’re still coming to my party tomorrow, right?” as with last time, she was intentionally icing Brooke out to focus on Vanessa but holding herself in such a way that only the couple knew what was happening.

Vanessa hesitated, glancing towards Brooke for confirmation. When she got the silent affirmation, she turned back to Lily and nodded. “Yeah, we’ll be there. I don’t skip out on parties,” she said with a forced laugh, deciding it was best to lighten the mood and alleviate the tension, or try to, at least.

“Oh yay! By the way, it’s gonna be a Halloween theme, so wear a cute costume,” Lily hummed. “Though any costume would be cute on you,” she winked and trotted back off with her trophy in tow.

Brooke exhaled deeply, as if she was holding her breath through the whole exchange. “That girl is exhausting,” she murmured, pinching the bridge of her nose. “How does someone so bubbly suck the life out of me? She’s gotta be a wolf in sheep’s clothing.”

Vanessa’s brows knitted. “Explain the metaphor while we go costume shopping.”

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“You know I’m only doing this for you, right?” Vanessa remarked as she looked at herself in the mirror. “And because I look good as hell. I ain’t never thought of trynna rock orange hair,” she added, adjusting the wig she had on. It fit nicely but looked far from realistic. “Who are we again?”

Brooke sighed as she pulled her hair into pigtails. This was the fourth time she had received this question. “You’re Poison Ivy and I’m Harley Quinn,” she replied. While she wasn’t the one that suggested couple’s costumes, she had suggested the comic book pair – mostly because Vanessa had been insistent on being able to wear a ‘slutty’ costume because ‘it’s tradition’. “Grab a coat, you’ll freeze if you go outside like that,” she added.

Vanessa rolled her eyes but grabbed a coat – Brooke wasn’t wrong – her costume consisted of a green bustier and panty adorn with plastic leaves paired with tights and knee-high boots in the same color scheme. “Are you just gonna go out in that?” she asked and gestured to Brooke’s costume which, while covering her entire body, was skin-tight and not very thick.

“Of course not, let’s go,” she said, walking out the door as she buttoned up her coat.

Lily’s apartment was a ten-minute uber ride away, and the girls were in good spirits by the time they had gotten inside. There was a couple dozen guests, all dressed in various Halloween costumes and mingling throughout the festively decorated space. It was busy enough that it took almost ten minutes before the host had even spotted them.

Once she did, she made a beeline right towards them. “Vanessa! You came!” Lily’s costume wasn’t easily discernible to either of them – it seemed like something that could be worn to class. “You look so cute! See, I’m dressed as Cheryl Blossom from Riverdale, get it? Because of the hair?” the blank stares she received did not phase her, as if she hadn’t even noticed. “Come with me, you have to meet the other dancers,” Vanessa couldn’t object before she was dragged to the other side of the room.

This left Brooke alone, holding both of their coats. She swallowed thickly and took a deep breath, hanging up their coats in a nearby closet before pouring herself a drink. Everything is fine, you can’t control who flirts with her, her internal monologue rang out. She leaned against the counter, looking to see if she could spot Vanessa in the crowd while ignoring the guy trying to grill her on DC Comics trivia.

Even if it was an easy question, Brooke hadn’t even listened, “I don’t know, and I don’t care,” she said flatly, pushing past him as she went to search for her partner in crime. She scanned every person she walked past, nearly stopping a girl dressed as Poison Ivy before realizing she was too tall and too white to be her Poison Ivy.

Finally, Brooke heard Vanessa’s distinct laugh and was able to pinpoint her. Granted, she could probably pick Vanessa out of a crowd of hundreds from her laugh alone. She took a deep breath and counted backwards from ten, not wanting to come in hot and make a scene. In fact, she was trying to stay positive – it could be good for Vanessa to make friends with dancers at Julliard, it’s never too early to start networking, right?

But when Brooke got close enough to see what was going on, she realized Vanessa was fucking far from networking. No, instead she and Lily were dancing and giggling, dancing too close for far too long. Lily had an arm draped around her shoulder and playing with her wig as if it were her hair. Every now and then, her hand would wander and rest on her waist while she would grind up against her, all while Vanessa didn’t bother to keep her distance. In fact, she seemed to be inviting the attention.

“Hey Brooke Lynn,” Vanessa greeted with a clearly faux-innocent tone. She had stilled her dancing to a halt and took a few steps away from Lily.

Lily seemed a little too proud of herself for having gotten that far with the obviously taken girl. It was just another competition that she had won, and she looked from Vanessa to Brooke as if she were dangling another trophy in front of her face.

Brooke pressed her lips together, fighting the lump in her throat. Her heart was pounding, and her cheeks were red, and the only thing covering that was the black mask around her eyes. “Real classy, Vanjie,” she hissed, turning on her heel and heading straight for the door, stopping only to grab her coat on the way out.

Vanessa instantly pushed Lily off of her, realizing her plan to get Brooke riled up was blowing up horrendously. “Brooke! Brooke Lynn! Wait up!” she shouted, racing after her. She, too, had haphazardly yanked her coat off the hanger as she left, knocking down several others in the process. She ran as fast as her boots would allow, desperate to catch up with her. It wasn’t until they were outside of the building that she had finally managed to. “Brooke, hold on, please,” she pleaded breathlessly.

And she did, grinding to a halt and turning to face her with crossed arms and a narrowed gaze. A couple of tears had slipped out of her eyes, but they had been caught under her eye mask, the last thing she wanted was to be reduced to that much of a weak mess in front of her. The mask couldn’t hide all of the anger and hurt in her expression, however. “What the fuck was that, Vanessa?”

That caused Vanessa to freeze in her tracks. Brooke hadn’t used her real name once in the duration of their time together. From her first introduction, she was always Vanjie, if not a pet name – which she secretly liked even more. She felt like a child being scolded, meek and unnerved. “It wasn’t anything for real, I was just fucking around, I swear!”

“I know you were just ‘fucking around’,” Brooke spat. “You know how I feel about how she acts around you, and how hard it’s been to not let it get to me. So, you go let her feel up on you for what? To see how I’d react? To make me jealous? What sort of childish bullshit is that?”

Vanessa looked down, tail between her legs. “No…I mean yeah, I guess that was kinda it. But I didn’t want to upset you, I just…the day we met Lily, you got so intense and passionate and…fuck, gave me the best damn orgasm I’d ever had. I wasn’t gonna let it go anywhere, I didn’t kiss her or nothing.”

Brooke took a deep breath, closing her eyes tight. She exhaled and opened her eyes, though it was more like she was looking through Vanessa than at her. “So, this was about sex?” she clasped her hands behind her neck and stared up at the cloudy night’s sky. “Is this a game to you? Has this whole thing just been a fucking game?” she shook her head and laughed bitterly. “This is all my fault. I knew this was going to blow up in my face,” her voice was strained, and she was no longer even able to look her in the eye. It was all too much.

“Of course, this isn’t a fucking game!” Vanessa huffed. “But I thought you trusted me. You didn’t need to freak and storm out like that!”

“The only thing I didn’t need to do was fall in love with you!” Brooke shouted.

Then there was silence. She hadn’t admitted to anyone, not even herself, just how strong her feelings had grown. She was in way over her head, in a powder keg a second away from exploding. So, before Vanessa could respond, she ran off.

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“Let it out, honey. It’s going to be okay,” Nina soothed as Brooke cried with her head in her lap.

Nina was, undoubtedly, the one person Brooke felt safe enough to be completely vulnerable with. Normally she would have just gone home and drank herself to sleep, but the wounds were so fresh and cut so deep. And on top of that, she had just told Vanessa she’d fallen in love with her. Those were heavily weighted words.

“I don’t even know if I meant it, or if it was just the heat of the moment…but shit, I didn’t think I could feel so strongly for someone after two months. And to let her play me like that, it’s fucking humiliating,” Brooke sniffled, reaching out to grab a tissue and wipe her eyes. There were too many emotions, it felt like she was slipping into a pit of quicksand and Nina was the rope she had to grab onto to keep from drowning. She kept replaying that night over and over – the hurt she felt seeing Vanessa and Lily, the explosive anger she felt when she chewed her out in front of the apartment building – how was she supposed to go to class on Monday and act like everything was fine? That meant that, on top of everything else, she was going to have to end up telling Katya about what happened, too.

“I’m not sure if this makes it better or worse, but the things people say in moments of passion are often the most truthful. You know, like how they say drunken words are sober thoughts? Maybe ‘in love’ is a little strong, but you wouldn’t care so much if you didn’t love her at least a little,” Nina told her, gently stroking her hair. “It’s okay to open your heart, even when it starts to ache. Sometimes we need that to feel alive.”

Brooke slowly sat up, wiping her eyes and shifting to a cross-legged position. She had since traded her Harley Quinn bodysuit for an over-sized t-shirt and a makeup-free face. “It’s just…the worst thing about it is if I am in love with her, she couldn’t possibly love me back. You don’t just play with someone’s feelings if you love them…am I overreacting?”

“Maybe, but you’re hurting. Your feelings are valid. I think you need some time to recuperate, maybe call in sick on Monday. I’ll always be here to help you either way,” Nina promised.

Brooke was torn between accepting that her feelings were valid and suppressing them to move on. Part of her resented Vanessa for having such an impact on her, but maybe Nina was right. Despite all of the hurt, this was the most alive, and the most human she had felt in a long time.

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Losing Her

Losing the one person I've ever told "I love you"....her. (lets call her Guava, cause that was a nickname given to her cause she likes guava juice/soda) I've always been very closed, reserved, and if you would know me IRL, you would of never noticed me sad, depressed. You would just seen me as somewhere in between quiet and calm, but that is because I have always been great at hiding emotions. We broke up about 12 hours ago. She was my first. 16 years single until about a month ago for the very reason that I knew that I would get so attached and it would hurt the day they left. Scared of losing someone I love. It was an LDR which most people say really ever works out, and even knowing this, I still gave her a chance. We first met on discord, march/29/2019 a friday, and I would normally just pop in different channels and my typical lines were "oh yeah yeah" "oh no no" and "oh boi". She told me that she was in one of the channels were I joined and she repeated back what i was saying, and it went for a bit, until i went to another channel. Now its march 30, and I went around playing piano to others. There was this one guy who could sing and I started to voice record, me playing bich lasagna and him singing it. Then I went to another channel, were there she was again. It was a channel with 4 other people in it. I joined into her telling a FanFic about...Hitler and Jesus . Yep... and i'm not religious myself but I was (still am for about 2 more weeks) in a catholic class on Sundays, so yeah....oh boi. It was weird, but I was bored, so I stayed in the voice channel. We decided to just make a group chat just for us 5 people so she could finish the FanFic. She read it, we had our reactions and we just kept talking on that call. After some time, one by one they left the call until it was just me and her, we talked for a couple of min until I said that i'm just going to head back to the there server because it was a bit awkward now since I never had female friends, except for one who i met online( lets call her Mia), and neither have I been interested in being in a relationship so it just felt a bit weird. When I told her i was just about just head out and go back to the server, she told something along the lines of "oh, you just gona leave the call, i see how it is" and that very day, I had the choice to stay or to go. As I said, I would of always just left and not think about it, but I something something different this time. I chose to stay. We talked about my Dog named Max, cutest dog ever, yeah he isn't really well with other dogs, but he was my little max. At some point in life I did feel suicidal for other reasons that involved my parents, me, and my brothers. But thanks to max, whenever I used to start thinking about just ending the pain that went on for months, I would always look at max and start cuddling with him. Thanks to him and Mia, a friend that i trusted enough to talk about the situation i was in at the moment, i would always stop myself and feel a bit better. We talked about a few other things too, by this time its been around an hour or so that we have been talking and i receive a dm from one of the people that was in that group (lets call her Caitlin). Caitlin saw that we were still in the call and just typed "i ship it" and i was like uh, oh no no. and she told me, why not. I said that i wasn't here for that, and she told me, there is no harm in sliding in Guava dm's and getting to know her. So Caitlin now joins the call as well and asked her how old Guava was, and she said 16, she asked me and i said 16, then Caitlin sent me a dm saying to go for it, i just kinda ignored it. So I talked for a few more min to both of them, until i told them I was goin to the store real quick, so I just muted and left. When i came back I un-muted and said my usual phrase "oh yeah yeah, im back boi" and they was like oh, hi again. The three of us were talking about music and a few other things. Because this Sunday church class was close to where my mom and brothers lived, every Saturday my dad would drive me to my moms house in the afternoon and pick me up the next day. So I told them that I had to go, said bye and just left the call. About 3 min later as i'm getting my stuff ready to go, I receive a dm this time from Guava saying "where did you go ?:(" and i told her that my brothers came over and that i had to go to their place. Then she told me if i will send pictures of max, i told her, if I remember then yeah. Then her next text was " he’s sO cute(like me), you better remember" so I kinda avoided responding to her dm by talking about something else, a few the rest of the text were from her saying " it’s like almost 3pm over there right?" I said "Yep" then she said "it’s so sad, well can you do me a favor before you go >:0" i asked "Wut" she said "call real quick and say oh yea yea :’o" So obviously i already can tell she kinda into me. So I finish packing up my stuff and go back to my laptop to shut it down, but as im closing apps, i see that I left the voice recorder on, and im sitting there like, oops. and so I was hearing the audio so i can know when to edit out the rest that wasn't the guy that singed bich lasagna. I got a bit curious and remembered that they were talking when I left to the store earlier, and so I skipped to that part where I muted my self and left. Caitlin asked her what were we talking about and she said about max and a few other things and that I seemed cute. Caitlin told her to slide in my dm''s then, and Guava sounded unsure, so Caitlin told her that she should just said "fuk it" "just go for it". At this point I was surprised, I ended up saving that part of the recording but had to go now cause my dad was waiting for me in the car. So i'm at my mom's house and its around like 6pm for me, and she is in a different time zone, 6 hours ahead. So i decided to call her, forgetting that its 12pm for her, but she picked up. I showed her max for a while and then went back to just voice chat. We talked for a bit more and then they left the call again. i talked to guava for while again until like a half an hour later when I realized that she has fallen asleep on the call. so i'm like, 0of, her phones battery is gona be dead when she wake up. So I ended up get a call from the group chat shortly after. The rest of the group chat we talking and I told Caitlin that Guava fell asleep on the call, Caitlin just said, cute, I responded with "oh no no". So we stayed on the group call for about 2 more hours, Once in a while I checked on Guava to check if she still had the call open, and she did, I joined once in a while and said "Oh yeah yeah" I even texted her that im tying to wake her up cause her phone was gona die. At around 9, I started watching youtube and getting ready to sleep at around 11. Its Sunday morning and I wake up to a text from her saying " i-, my phone is always on battery save, so it can literally survive on 1% for an hour, I woke up alone still in the call at 8am with 3%, thanks tho, for trynna wake me up" I told her that I joined once in a while and said Oh yeah yeah, she said that was cute and she wish she would of woken up, but the way I say Oh yeah yeah is soothing, so of course she wouldn't wake up, I and so I say, wut... that's a first. To switch up the convo, I told her that Max has just woken up and she wanted to see him. The room was dark and i didn't want to turn on the light cause I didn't want to wake u my brother, so instead I sent her pictures of Max, and then we sent each other a bit of memes. That was that for the day, Monday comes, and i remember that she is 6 hours ahead, so at 12:42pm my time I sent her a text saying to wake up cause its time for school, and she said she still had time for a few more min of sleep and then asked me if I shouldn't be asleep. I told her thats its 12:42pm and she told me to not stay up to late. I told her why not, she stays up late too, and then she asked me if she can send the pic of me to Caitlin. Yesterday she asked for a pic of me, and was saying nah, im good. She kinda ended up pressuring me to send it, so I was like fine. I sent her a pic that I took about 3 months ago of me and max laying down. So she's asking if she could send it to Caitlin cause she wanted to know how I looked like too. It was time for her to go school by now so she just tells me goodnight. I went to sleep and then I left to school. Came back and then we were just texting for a while, then we just called for a while till she left to eat. About and hour and a half passed by now and decided to give her a call, she didn't pick up so I just went back to the other Server and talked to other random people. She texts me back like 30 min later saying sorry that she was busy playing minecraft, and so i tell her, nice, me and another friend from school were planning to play minecraft, but he never picked up. Then I tell her to go to sleep cause for her it was 2am, she just replied with "no u". We texted for a few more min, and then I remember that the day before, she wanted me to learn a song on the piano, so I told her before she goes to sleep, if I can call real quick if she wants to hear the bit that I learned, she said yeah. I called her and showed her the bit that I was practicing and then we just talked for a few more min. Then again, she fell asleep on the call, and of course I stayed on the call this time and said oh yeah yeah once in a while. After a few hours she just left the call with out saying anything, so im like...ok. Discord bot kicked me from the call after 5 min. I stay up till like 2am again and she text me saying, damn, that she didn't know she fell asleep on the call again. I told her that I did the same thing, saying oh yeah yeah once in a while. I went to sleep, and woke up to her text that said she felt tired cause she stays up late too, and I tell her "oh boi". I had to go to school but I wanted to keep talking to her, so I skipped my first period class and kept texting her. She told me she doesn't want to go to work, and she told the time she has work and then we were talking about other stuff too. I went to school late, we made cookies in class that day, and so when I came back, I told her what we did and so on. She ended up reading stories she found online and then would you rather. We ended up talking about, lets just say, "stuff" as well, and then I decided to show her the voice recording, and we talked. I told her that I have never been in a relationship and idk. After that, everyday we talked every time we could, and on April 3rd, I showed her the screenshots of Caitlin that she was telling me to go for it and stuff, she also showed me screenshots that Caitlin told her too. We talked every single day playing minecraft, watching movies by screen sharing my screen, anything that just had us on a call. On April 14 we even stayed on the call for 14 hours, and we had an idea, to see if we could even do a 24 hour call. This was also the day in which i opened up to her about the stuff I've been through in the past, which was hard, but I trusted her. She is a big fan of Marvel, mainly Spider-man, in particular Tom Holland. and we planned to see Endgame the same day it came out. Whenever we couldn't get on a call for reasons, I would still text her, and she told me, "why is time going so slow when I’m not talking with you" and I would say the same, but at the same time it when ever we were on a call, it also felt like forever, but it a good way, in which I enjoyed every single second of it. One of the other things we did was having my webcam facing the table and we both just draw. Fast forward to 26 of April, Another thing we did was that during her lunch periods at school, she would always call me, so we are talking, and then she says she has to go they got an announcement that told everyone to meet up. She texts me a bit later and tells me that there was something that happened at her school, they were all crying cause they had a teacher that just passed away in the building. This was also the same day we both we gona see Endgame. We keep talking like normal again. On the 28 of April is when I finally said yes to her. I started to get to school late and leave early often because I wanted to talk to her. I always use to soft talk her to sleep to now, it was our thing where we just keep the call on while we sleep too. A few of the times where she was sleeping, she mumbled "I love you". This was one of the many things I found adorable about her, like the way she giggled when I used to make her laugh, when on Saturdays it was me who woke up to her voice on the call, whenever I was feeling sick she used to just say in a soft voice "don't worry about it", we used to tell each other to imagine what a warm hug from us would feel, and we had our little nicknames for each other too, and another thing that we used to said was "I love you 3000". So now its May 5, and this day we were sent to a catholic retreat that was required to pass this church class. Like a week before this day, my mom called to let me know I had to go there, the first thing I did was that I told her that I had to go to this place for 3 days, cause that is what I was told. I told her that If I wasn't able to call, ill at least text her whenever I can. So the day comes and i'm letting her know that i'm in the car with the teacher and the other 2 people that was going too. So I made sure to let her know when I get on the car, and when we got there. So we get of the car and I have my backpack with cloths and stuff, thinking that we just gona walk in and see what this is all about, but before we left the car, the teacher told us that we had to leave our phones in the car for now. So i'm like, ok, maybe they just want to make sure we pay attention to where we were, what we gona do, ect. So before I left my phone, I texted her that our teacher told us to leave the phones in the car. We left them and went in. We went to a place that was like a hotel, they had our names already, took our bags, and told us to go to a bigger room. Here is where there was like 50 other people too. So i'm like wow. We just standing there wondering what is we going to do now. They explain the schedule and said we were goin to have a room with a roomate, so im like, dope. So after like an hour of talking and getting to know one another a bit, they tell us we can now go to our rooms and rest. So im like, yess, im feeling tired and I already miss my baby nugget, that was one of our little nicknames. So as people were heading to their rooms, I start to look for our teacher to ask him for my phone now, he ends up saying that we aren't getting them back till this is over, because he wants us to fully live this experience we were going to get. So at this point, in the inside I start to feel sad and mad because I promised Guava that I would have communication with her. I felt like I was going to let her down. I head to my room and see my roomate, I say whats up to him and then we just start to talk for a bit, he 19 and was very chill and nice to talk too. By this time its late and I was bored, and then I remembered that I had a notebook in my bag, so I take that out and a pencil, then I start writing exactly the way I would text her, It started with like 2 sentences and I thought by the time we leave this place, I would have like possibly 2 whole pages written down, but nope, I ended up writing 15 pages, top to bottom, and I even drew a rose for her one of those days. They had the windows covered with stuff and there wasn't any clocks, so we didn't really have a concept of time, those 3-4 days actually felt like 1-2 weeks, but I kept writing about what we did, the people I met, the food, but mainly how much I missed her. As I said before, i'm not religious my self but the stuff that was said there, really did make us change the way we saw stuff. We promised to not say what was spoken over there, cause what was said there, stays there. But Ill briefly talk about what changed with me. Growing up I never treated my brother, like an actual brother, and thinking back at it, he has always been there for me, but I can't say the same for him. There was times where he has taken the blame and punishments that I was responsible for, treated him a bit like shit, always distanced my self from my family members, I never gave him that trust with him. He is about a year and a half younger than me, and I regretted so much how I never acted like his older brother, someone he can can talk to if stuff was bothering him, someone he could trust. So what I ended up picking up there myself was to be grateful for having him there for me, even though I haven't before to him. I ended up promising to myself that I would trust him and I want to be there for him as well. Since I always been reserved, nobody in my family knew I was dating Guava. So I promised myself that once I go back, I will tell my brother everything, how the situation with our parent affected me, how I knew that he used go to sleep crying cause he hated seeing my parents like that and I never said or did anything. I also wanted to tell him about me and Guava. So the day finally comes, May 5th, the day we get to go back, when I saw the teacher I rushed to him as he was getting out his car and I didn't say hi or anything, I wanted my phone so badly so I can text to my baby nugget, cause it felt like almost 2 weeks with out her. So i'm turning on my phone expecting texts from her saying she missed me too. I open discord and I see " i already miss your voice in the morning", "i missed your voice at work", "and rn laying in my bed", " i cant sleep:( ", " i miss my baby nugget", " i need your voice to help me sleep" on May 3rd. Then on May 4th "weekend..", "and again, I miss you", " this is weird", "I really miss you and it hurts", "it randomly just happens and I go “aw I miss my baby nugget” and almost cry ". And this is when it really hurt, in the afternoon that day, she started saying " honestly fuk you for making me fall for you ", " I bet you haven’t even thought about me these 2-3 days ", " and im over here missing you like crazy ", " its stupid ", " i guess you’re gonna be back tomorrow right? ", " I told you it was probably gonna end it:( ", " ew I just realised I’ve been spamming you with “updates” ", " goodbye baby nugget ", " i mean eduardo " (thats my real name btw), " welp i can’t sleep ", " i mean you said 3 days, today is basically the 3rd, i guess you’ll be home tomorrow then ", " i wonder if something happened ", " i hope you’re having fun ". May 5th, earlier in the day when I still didn't have my phone, " i have 4 theories ", " 1. you aren’t back yet, so you’re still at the camp ", " 2. I was right and it ends here ", " 3. you lost your phone and your dad didn’t give your laptop back ", " 4. something (bad) happened to you ", " number 4 is bad and im hoping that’s not it, please rather number 2 than 4 ", " i have my first exam tomorrow, I’d hoped you’d be back in time to wish me good luck ". I got my phone back later in the day and responded with "I LOVE YOU" and then told her that they took my phone for those days, and that of course I was thinking of her all the time. I told her that I missed her so much and also wished her luck on her test. My battery was at 2% by this time since its just been in a car or wherever he kept them for those days. She ends up responding with " fuck you " and I responded with " No, baby why ??? 1% btw ", " I LOVE YOU ". She texted back " I hate you ". Since I've never been in a relationship before or been close to anyone like that, I haven't ever felt this kind of pain before. But I was in a larger van with more people heading back home, all I wanted was to cry and hug her as I tell her that i'm sorry for not being able to to talk to her those days, it felt like I loss her. I wanted to cry so badly but there was others around so I held it in, and for those who hold in pain like that, you know how that tight feeling around your throat and that intense pressure around your head. I tried to go to sleep until we got back home, but I couldn't when we finally got back to our church, we went to the basement and there was most of our family members waiting for us. We sat at some tables in the front while they were were all in chairs facing us. Our Aux's (that is what the people that took us through everything, like teachers, but they also went through stuff like we did) they were standing on the side giving mini speeches on how going over there helped us each with different things. We also talked about how our experience was and the new friends that we got close to. But I was kinda shaking while I was talking, not because I was nervous, but because I remembered what Guava told me. Its now like 9pm and I charged my phone while I took a shower. I went back to my phone and texted her again that I love her and that i'm sorry for not having my phone those days. I went to the kitchen and started to take pictures of each page of that notebook and sent them to her. I told her that it wasn't even my fault that they took our phones and how I was feeling when I saw those texts. Next morning, May 6 Monday, she responds saying that she didn't mean it, and she read most of the pages, and she had to go take the exam. She also has religious parents and in their religion, she was starting Fasting that day too, which she told me that they were going to eat at 9:30pm and 3:15am their time. She also says " we need to talk.. ", " I thought a lot while you were away ". I come back from school and text her that i'm home, she doesn't respond, a couple min later I decide to call her, she doesn't pick up. I text her that ill be watching youtube till she calls back. Around an hour goes by and I decide to call again, no answer. Like 5 min later I text her by her real name, and then she responds with "what". Instantly I knew what was going on, but I acted like I didn't know, so I just told her that ill be on my laptop in a bit. She tells me again that she still wants to talk about something, I called her and she picked up this time. She ended up telling me that those days gave her time to think, and she said we were moving to fast, and she wanted to take it slow and take it back to before we were a thing. I didn't know what to say. I try to not sound upset, I just said, it was her decision if if she wanted to take things to before we were a thing, then fine. I left the call and went to take a shower. She texted me again at around 1am the next day telling me that she has her math exam and she is stressed. I tell her good luck on her test, and she replies with " thanks baby nugget " and then tells me to go to sleep. At this point i'm confused now, cause she made me feel "that way" the day before, saying she wanted to take it back before we were a thing. After she told me to go to sleep, I just say, Fine. About 10 min pass and she texts me back saying she forgot something at home, and I just say Oof. She says its a good thing that she lives 5 min away from her school, and I just start answering the same way I would text other "friends". She tells me that she ran and got it, I just say, great. Now she starts to ask "baby nugget, are you okay?" And i'm just so confused/stressed, but I tell her yeah, i'm good. Later on in the day, she asks me if I want to call. I was about to say no, but I ended up saying yeah. We talked again for a few hours and ended up agreeing on taking it slow, so I went back to being more reserved from her, act like there wasn't anything but an online friendship. Wednesday May 8th, instead of texting her, I decide to go to the server and talk to some random people again. Half an hour later I see that she is also joining channels, so I try to avoid her so its not awkward. Sometime later, she texted me that she sees me going around the server and that I haven't text her. I just tell her that someone was playing guitar and I was bored. We text just a little bit, and she ends up saying " we barely talk, it’s sad ", so i'm still confused and simply just asked her if she wants to call or not, she says maybe, so I say " im not gona rush anything u dont want, i talked to someone for help, and they told me to not rush u, but just wait". The person that I asked for help was that online friend named Mia. Guava ends up saying " just call me already " and so I did. She told me that even though she wants to take it slow, she doesn't want me going back to being reserved. We talked for a while until she fell asleep again. She woke up a few hours later, as I was about to go to sleep. I asked her if she knew that the new season for Lucifer finally came out, she said yeah, she knows, we both like watching that show. After like 10 min of talking, I told her that she should just go back to sleep because its 3am for her and she tells me, " baby nugget nO ". To be honest, at this point I kinda started to just feel frustrated because I felt like she was just playing around, saying she wants to take it slow, but then calling me, baby nugget constantly. After she told be that in a hour it will be 4am for her, and if she stays up for an hour, she would of still gotten enough sleep, again, I told her to just go back to sleep, and she says " can’t I just stay up and talk with you:(". I was like, I don't even know, does she want to get back or not. We talked for like 20 min, then I told her I was getting sleepy, so I was gona go sleep now. Next day, May 9, its a thursday, she texts me like at her time 7am to wake up, but im still sleeping so she just says " goodnight/good morning ", " bby nugget", " ttyl". We talked a bit more again when she came back from school, she told me that fuck taking it slow, that she loves me and was just sad that she felt that I left her for those days. And after some talking , I told her that I love her too, I made made myself distant because I wanted to respect her decision and if she wanted to leave, it wouldn't hurt as much because I would of already accepted the fact that we are no longer together. We watched Lucifer for a while, and then I had to go to a parent teacher conference with my dad. I left the call on my phone, I was happier, because we were together again, after I came back, I heard that she was sleeping, so I just texted her, good morning to whenever she sees this text. She woke up like half an hour later saying she fell asleep, I told yeah, "i know, keep sleeping bby nugget" and she said, " im tired, but I want you ". So we started to talking again just like before. Every time we called, if I felt sick or something, just hearing her voice made my day. May 11, she ended up confessing why she got distant the days after I came back, it was because she was mad at herself because of something she did while i was gone, she started to take to other people and one of those people she talked to, she got a bit close too. I told her that i'm not even mad, disappointed....a bit, but I was glad that she told me the truth, I wanted her to be honest with me. She started to cry a bit on the call, but I told her that I understand why she would of felt like that when I left her for those days cause I didn't have my phone. Like I said, when she stopped replying to my texts, I felt like I loss her too and it was only like 2 days that she wasn't responding like she used to, and for her, I left for 4 days with no texts at all during those days. While she was crying, she asked me why was I being so understanding, I said...Cause I love you 3000. I ended up telling up telling Guava who was the one helping me to try and get guava back when she was being distant. I didn't want to tell her earlier because she felt a bit jealous, but I made it clear to her that she is only a friend that helped me when I was younger. We promised to not keep secrets from one another, and at that point I think I felt the closest to her. On May 12, that is when we completed the 24 hour call we said we were gona do. These days she wasn't feeling well because of the fasting thing that she is doing, so going so long without eating made her feel sick. I kept telling to eat something because I didn't like when she felt sick, but she said she can't cause of fasting. I tried to make her feel better by telling her " I'm so lucky because... I have you, someone who acually cares about me and makes me happy. I'm smiling while I'm typing this. Even if it's only been about 2 months, Thank You for being there for me". I waited for her to wake up the next day and talk, she taught me how to say, "I love you" in danish, " jeg elsker dig". Meeting her made me feel the happiest I ever been in years. Whenever she woke up at 3:15am her time to eat, I used to help her wake up by quietly saying her name or just talking about the way she always made me feel, after she ate and came back, I always asked her what is it that she had to eat and then soft talk her to sleep again. I used to love it whenever she used to sometimes soft talk me to sleep, the ways she used to tell she wanted to cuddle with me and max. The type of food she wanted to teach me how to cook. On Wednesday 15, when we were on a call during her lunch period, she told me that they got a printer in their class now, so I gave her the idea that she should print out memes, and put them around the classroom, and she did, it was a spider-man meme, she ended up printing 5 of these and started to putt them up around her class. One of the things that she helped me with a bit was in school, cause I started to do some work while I was on a call with her in the mornings. She gave me a reason to wake up early everyday and since I was always in a good mood while being on a call with her, I decided to multi task a bit. So I thanked for that. Thursday comes and I just picked up some bluetooth earbuds that I ordered mainly because of I wanted to to talk to her when I wasn't at home with a good mic, my phone's aux input is a bit messed up and makes a static noise whenever wired earbuds moved, so I bought those bluetooth ones. That day I called her twice and she didn't pick up, but she was on the server talking to others so was like fine, she talking to some friends or something. She ended up calling me at 3am her time, so I asked her what happened because she didn't call or barley texted me that day. She said that she just didn't feel like it. I felt a bit sad but told my self, its fine, she was just busy and forgot. The next day we got on a call again, she didn't have school this friday, so we stayed on the call till I went to school, but she mainly just watched youtube instead of talking. I went to school and when I came back at 12am, told her I was back, gave her a little text once in a while cause she didn't respond till about 2 hours later, saying she was busy. Again...kinda felt sad cause I started to feel her being distant again, and I really didn't want to lose her. I started to feel sick, like really light headed and stomach ache, I told her how I felt sick, she asked if I was okay, I said not really. She called me for like 2 min and told me to drink some water, and call my dad if I kept feeling sick. Then she left the call again. She called back at around 5pm my time. Again i'm feeling her being distant because her time it was already 11pm, and we really didn't talk that day, just enough for her to tell me to soft talk her to sleep. I did soft talk her to sleep, but when I knew she was asleep for sure, I talked about how I was really feeling, that I was scared of losing her, the one person I have ever told them "I Love You. I texted her at my time She wakes up at like 8:20pm my time, she talks for a few min until she goes eat. She didn't call back or even let me know what she ate, like we always used too. So at like 3:40am my time, I sent her a text. She calls me back at around 4am my time, and says she had to go like around 6am my time, and again all she really just do was just watch youtube. Now im really worried if I did something that she doesn't want to text or talk to me for these last few days. She ends up coming back and we get on a call at 11am my time. Again she didn't want to watch Lucifer or talk like before, she just used to watch youtube videos and tell me to mute my self once in a while, cause she wanted to watch her ASMR videos. At around 2pm, I decided to take a nap because I didn't feel well again. She didn't even want to soft talk me to sleep. So I just slept. Woke up an hour later and my dad was going to take me to the clinic because I wasn't feeling well. I told her before that we were going to travel to mexico to see family members in particular my grandpa, since he may not be around next year due to age. So at 5pm, I let her know as soon I knew, the dates we were going to travel, but this time I was going to have my phone for sure. She said ok, and then went to sleep at like at 5:30pm my time. Since it was a Saturday, we were heading to my moms place. Later that day we talked again like around 7pm for a while, since max and my little cousin we playing together I had the camera on. This is when she actually talked to me in a while, instead of just watching youtube. She ended up sleeping on the call and woke up at 10:30pm, she fell asleep again and she woke up at 2am my time, over there it was already 8am. This time I fell asleep to her voice, I wake up at 6am and see her text that says " my baby it’s so cute I can hear you breathing in your sleep ", " I just wanna hug you and cuddle you " I replied with "Aw", " I love you 3000", " That wut u said earlier was so adorable, I was awake when u was laughing, and was smiling. You just warm me up with the smallest things you do, I love you 3000!" by text cause my mom was sleeping still. It kinda made me forget how she was being distant that last few days. We texted for a bit when I got out of church class at 1:30pm . I called her when it was like 3pm, I saw that she was talking to others again, so I just let her know that i'm with Max. She responded at 3:50pm saying she had dessert, I asked if she wanted to call, she said in a bit, she didn't call, she responded with a text at 8:30pm. Again i'm noticing that she just doesn't want to talk, and I guess I already knew that she has/is losing interest. At 9pm my time she tells me if I wana call? And I already had a feeling that I knew it was time she was going to say what I've feared from the start. For the past week that I felt her changing, I always asked her, what wrong? Did I do something? If there is something she wanted to talk about, just say it, she would just keep saying that nothing is wrong, and I alked her, why is she talking to me less, she said, its normal don't worry about it. By this time, for the past two days, I asked for help about this to 3 other people, one of them was Mia. She told me that obviously it was't normal, maybe she was having other issues which she couldn't rely on my help for, she told me to just give her some time. Guava kept saying nothing is wrong, but before she went to sleep, one of the last things she said was, there is something she wants to talk about. I knew it was time...but she said that she was going to tell me the next day instead. I woke up at 12 like usual to tell her good morning, instead of her texting at least for a bit, she just said go back to sleep. At this point i'm just sad because I know there a 90% I already loss her. But still had that little bit of hope that it wasn't what I was thinking. Hoping it was something else...I could even sleep that day and stayed up waiting till 5am, for our usual call during her lunch break...she didn't text or call at all. There was no text no nothing till when she called me at 4:28pm. She told me exactly what I was scared of, she said that she wanted someone who she can actually cuddle with rn, someone who wasn't in a different time zone, someone who isn't on the other side of the earth. All this time that we have been talking and said that distance/time zones matters close to nothing when that someone means everything. I just had one question, "Did you ever mean it when you said "I love you"....She said "probably" I left the call. She later asked me an hour later if I was okay only cause Mia was talking to her because she was trying to help and she asked Guava if I was okay. I texted her 2 hours later " dont worry about it". Deep down I wanted to tell her nO! im not okay, my eyes feel like they burn every time I blinked cause of all the tears, that I felt like my chest was being crushed and I couldn't breath, it feels like I have been dumped in boiling water of how hot I started feeling, how my whole body feels numb, that I was sorry for anything I did that lead her to this choice, and most importantly that I love her, I don't want to leave me. She taught me how it feels to be loved and also how love can hurt as well. Its currently Tuesday 21st, 10:24pm and I haven't talked to her since yesterday at 8:32, my last message being, "Don't worry about it". She has told me before that if this just didn't work out for some reason, that we could still be friends. I said sure, but now looking back at this all, I gave all of my trust to her, and she started to talk to someone else, I forgave her for what she did when I was gone for a few days, saying I didn't want to just argue and just leave, that I wanted to fix whatever issue that would come. I....I trusted her again and she gave me false hopes. Fuked up how she wanted to be back together after I forgave her for what she did, just so she can tell me that she wasn't even sure she meant it when she used to tell me "I love you", and this wasn't even a month later, this was just 9 days after she said she didn't want to take it slow anymore, that she "loved me". Currently its now 10:41pm. I started to type this hoping it would help, seeing it from a third person view. Now I can see that our relationship wasn't really working out, I was putting her over everything else, school, my heath, my time, and even potentially moving back with my mom because of the fact that I chose to live with my dad, but since I've been skipping school, and failing classes because I wouldn't even show up since I was at home, talking to Guava. I changed my whole sleeping schedule so I could give her the most time I could. If I was accused of lying about something during our relationship, I would say, yeah I lied to Guava about something, the fact that I used to tell her not to worry about my sleeping schedule, I use to tell her that I was sleeping great to not worry, but nope, I would get about only 4 hours of sleep for the past month and a half, and that some of the days I was home from school earlier was because of tests, and we got to leave early. I changed so much, not "because of her", but "for her," but looking back at it, there wasn't much she did to try and make it work for my time zone. If you do ever read this, i'm NOT trying to say that I changed my life for the worse because of you, I just want to show you how much I cared about you, what you made me feel for you those first days we met was something real and after time, I really wanted you to be "the one"

I remember that when I first started typing this yesterday, I was feeling depressed, sad, confused. But surprisingly It has made me feel better. If she does ever want to be to be together again but this time, seriously , I wouldn't say no right away, because I would be lying if I said that I don't start felling sad at random times and that I don't miss her even though its only been a bit over 27 hours, but I would tell her to first to earn my trust again and just be friends while we are online for now, Once we are sure that we meet IRL then I will gladly move to the next step.

I love you 3000 baby nugget

#off my chest

[hunchoquaff]

1.

Quavo

“Where you going, and we’ve been together a legit fucking couple and you have yet to invite me to spend the night at your house”

I smacked my teeth and shrugged my shoulders. I ain’t worried about shit Lori talking about. We have been together for 1 year but I got shit I got shit to handle to on my end.

“I just... I’m trynna get the crib together-”

“1 year! Stop trying to fucking play me like I’m stupid. You got a bitch or something?”

I laughed, putting my shirt over my head.

“A bitch at the crib but media know we together. Trip and shit. You fucking stupid. I’m out”

I did have my own shit going on, but that comment right there pissed me off. I ain’t trynna argue, I got shit to deal with already. So ima just let her sit in her stupidity.

Walking out her crib, I hopped in the whip and shot a text to Kiyanna. 

Not getting a response, I called her up and waited for her to answer.

Kiyanna: Wassup?

Quavo: What you mean wassup? I text you nigga

She laughed causing me to smile and shake my head. She love to get a small rise up out of me. Kianna was my ex. She’s a private hair stylist. Everybody know her name, her work is like that. I don’t know the logistics of that shit but yeah she nice. That’s actually how I met her, she retwisted my shit. We was together for a good 4 years. Broke up, then I met Lori.

We defiantly fucked around on the side at first but it’s been just strictly friends. Well to be honest, I can’t even say friends. Me and Kiyanna have a daughter together. A 11 month old. She’ll be 1 this weekend.

Quavo: Koko! Where you at mommy?

I spoke through the Bluetooth of the car. Yeah, my baby girl. Kapri Lee Marshall. Fully involved in my baby life. Only thing is, don’t a soul know about her. Other than my family, Kiyanna’s family and close friends. Lori doesn’t even know. And reason being, because I was fucking with Kiyanna when we first started talking.

Kiyanna: She ain’t in here foo. What you want? Calling me up in the middle of client work and shit

Quavo: I’m on my way, coming to get her

Kiyanna: Oh good, cause I gotta talk to you

I exhaled. She easy for the most part but when she get beside herself, yeah, she give me the blues.

Quavo: About?

Kiyanna: Bye, see you in a few

And with that, her rude ass hung up.

Kiyanna

“Iight girl.. ya look good sis”

I spoke as I flipped Jayda’s hair around before smiling at her in the mirror. Checking the time, I watched as Josie stepping off the elevator with Kapri in her arms. I kissed her cheeks and lips a few times before talking to her as I cleaned up.

“You sleep good baby? Go eat, I love you mommy”

Kissing her cheek once more, Josie walked off with her and in xe4x4x4ddto the kitchen.

I did not do hair out of my house, but for Jayda or Ari defiantly. They are my closest homegirls, more like sisters. If you missed it, I’m a A-List hair stylist. My job might as well have been done by God. 

My prices for hair are as such:

Leave out’s are $340, Frontal Sew Ins are $380, Closure Sew Ins are $340, Bob leave outs are $250, $460 Frontal Sew Ins are $200, High and Low ponytails are $200, Sweep ponytails with tracks is $220, and so and and so forth. I also make wigs which can goo for $400-$600. And if I install it, it’s $180 extra. Plus my classes which are $1300. Sounds like a lot put bitches go crazy for my styles, wigs, and classes. I make at least $6,000 a day. And that’s on a slow day. It’s a blessing to be in the position I’m in, I’ve done celebrities head as well, I say local, but I’m well know and travel for certain clients like Ari Fletcher, Toya Carter, Tiny Harris, Nicki Minaj, the list goes on.

“Who was that, Qua? Ya’ll fucking again?”

I laughed smacking my teeth. 

“Bitch no... we haven’t fucked since... shit.... Kapri was like 2 months”

We stopped fucking when his relationship became serious. I can’t even do a female out like that. We just handle our duties as parents and go on about our day.

“Ya’ll need to just get back up. Ya’ll chemistry is unmatched”

“As are you and Baby”

I responded. She shook her head and waived me off.

“Yeah but Quavo and no serial cheater. That nigga was all about you... I can’t wait till ya’ll announce Kapri. Be gone to that bitch Lori”

It was never a choice to hide my child, Qua wanted to. And I understand that, but shit. My baby about to be 1, I’m over it now. She’s beautiful, she’s perfect. I wanna be able to share the journey of her growth with the world. Of course allowing some form of privacy, but still.

“Anyway, you gonna meet us in Miami?”

“You already know. Me and Loyal will be there”

[fmhiphop]

Blueface and Chrisean Rock Split Again, 'she’s not reliable enough’

LA rapper Blueface has had a very public and hectic relationship with Chrisean Rock that might be over for good. Messy isn’t even the word for this controversial pair.  From family brawls to stolen cars, Blueface and Chrisean Rock have been through a lot. Fans noticed recently that things seemed to be on a downward spiral again when The 'Bleed It' rapper allegedly blocked/unfollowed Rock on Instagram. In an unusual move by the former athlete, Chrisean was spotted with Fivio Foreign at the club without her boyfriend present. It’s presumed this led to the following internet fallout. Blueface gets cold The 25-year-old hopped on his Instagram story this weekend to clarify his feelings on Chrisean. "I didn't block her. Me and Rock, we vibe. She's not reliable enough-| mean we had an agreement and she didn't hold up her end of the agreement, simple as that.” He explained. "That's all that is. It's not a breakup. We still vibing. We still connecting. We still ahh ahh ahh. She's just not reliable enough for me. That's it. That's all it is. t's important to have a person that you can depend on." He seemingly confirmed the couple isn’t broken up in a traditional sense, but he doesn’t see Rock as trustworthy. As far as the aforementioned “agreement” Blueface never detailed what it was exactly. In a later video posted to his story, Blueface gave more insight into why Chrisean is in the dog house. "Since y'all want to be so f**king nosey, I told Rock,” he began. “You can't be coming in and out of my house any time of day and any time of night. I got an HOA, I got neighbors. I got real responsibilities that I'm not always there to take care of."   View this post on Instagram   A post shared by HOLLYWOOD UNLOCKED (@hollywoodunlocked) All is fair in love and war Of course, the Baddies South star responded similarly. Chrisean posted on her story to tell her side and urge Blueface to be more honest. “U putting on a front to hurt me .. I really don't know what's the point to act like u don't really love me” she typed. "Whatever it is u doing it won't last long. Ima just keep going n keep getting busy n pray that the dark cloud go away fr.” The last big blowout involving  Rock and Blueface occurred last month. You may remember a video surfaced of Rock, Blueface's mother. and sister fighting outside the rappers LA home. The viral video drew heavy criticism from those who didn’t understand how a toxic relationship could come before family. In an attempt to explain the attack, Blueface asked Rock on his IG story why she got in the fight. According to the Baltimore artist, she had no choice. https://twitter.com/bestspovtv/status/1531399244346802179?s=21&t=VhB7Zt3fFVXHnWiaFgGpnA In February, Rock was arrested after attempting to steal her boyfriends G Wagon and drive it to her hometown of Baltimore, Maryland. According to arrest records, she had crack cocaine in her possession at the time. In a video posted to the 'Thotiana' rappers story, he calls Rock a “dumbass” and a “thief”. He also confirms reporting the vehicle as stolen, likely leading to Rock's arrest. Chrisean stays determined Clearly, this couple has gone through some tough trials. Still, this most recent bump in the road obviously has Chrisean hurt. She continued to address Blueface, “The fact u saying all dat stuff to look a certain way just shows ppl what immature guy you are never knew you being scared to show wassup is crazy to me. You acting like u not scared to lose me is funny ” In another post she accuses her ex of acting indifferent because he can’t handle someone attractive. “Blueface can't deal with the fact that he's dealing with someone everyone to” she claimed. Chrisean ended her rant with a declaration of love, despite the harsh words exchanged. In addition to the long message, Rock also posted a broken heart emoji and a reply to a tweet. The tweet from Blueface reads: “thought I had me one” with a caption from Chrisean just underneath. “Smh u did have one but u just trynna find reasons to break up w her for no reason weirdo” she responded. If social media is any indicator, it’s doubtful this is really the end for this duo. After all, they’ve certainly survived worse than some late-night doorbell rings. Also, Follow FM Hip Hop on Instagram and Facebook Dreema Carrington|IG: @dr3amgirl79 | Twitter: @notdreema Read the full article

[riskeith]

hi <3

tbh best hp is fic hp fuck jkr <3 if you do check it out just be prepared that it’s super filthy sjdkdhdk. i’m gonna check out running on air and to hurt and to heal, absolutely! both sound super angsty which is yummy imo.

you don’t read fics of the parings/fandoms you like? may i ask why not? also yeah i’d love some kagehina/iwaoi fics, whatever you have is fine <3

omg where should we take razor.... i feel like he’s enjoy mountain views and all the animals in liyue so maybe jueyun karst 🥺 that area is so pretty..

i do know some couples hehe, some didn’t stick but my friend started dating her husband when she was twelve and they’re married now. i think it’s super adorable i’m a sucker for the childhood friends to lovers trope. do you like it? also what’s your favorite “to friends” trope if you had to rank them?

omg... yeah thankfully they’re still updating the game i mean we only have two of the seven worlds unlocked right? the anemo and geo worlds? i imagine the updates will keep on coming for a long, long time. also i’ve been meaning to ask you: have you finished the main story yet? i’ve been curious about when it finishes and if it ever does.

more than 8... so you’re telling me there’s so much cluna content out there that i’m not experiencing? feeling distraught. feeling like an unfinished puzzle piece.

fairy floss sounds so adorable.... 🥺 why is aus the best place ever? and it’s a bit too sweet but i can’t get over the nostalgia so i do kind of like it? it makes me feel like a child eating it hehe. omg bleaching it? do you plan on going blonde? 😳

iwaoi has ^ those childhood friends to lovers except it’s angsty vibes that just hit different. i’m just a sucker for mutual angsty pining dude it’s crazy. have you heard the song driver’s license? i really wanna write something iwaoi based on that song bc i feel like it fits them so well.... with a happy ending ofc i can’t leave my babies feeling sad. thank you, i hope you find the motivation to start working on something soon too!! you never know when motivation strikes babe.. in the meanwhile i’m just gonna be https://archiveofourown.org/users/czqy shsjshsjdj. dude it’s because it’s oikawa and he wants the best for himself. it was probably him that possessed you if we’re being honest. 👑

YOU DO? i can’t come up with anything so it’s gonna be a surprise for me. and tbh i don’t wanna figure it out either so it can be a cute surprise. now this will definitely motivate me to rise up the ranks asap. also i need to spin for the boy as well... hopefully i’ll get him haha. thinking about me before falling asleep, are you? 😏

hope your weekend has been going great for far, you deserve the world babe. ♥️

hi hi!!

FUCK JKR!!!!!!!!!! 🗣🗣🗣 fhsksd note taken! omggg pls lmk what you think when you do!! they’re my top 2 fave drarry fics <33333

honestly i wish i could tell you 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i think it’s bc im so involved in it that i just.... don’t have any desire to read anything? like “i could just write x pairing/fandom, why should i go seek out content” but idkkkkk my friend has a theory that it’s bc i have a clear cut idea of who these characters are and what they’re like so it’s weird to read someone else’s interpretation? it’s something im trynna work on tho... lmao

okieee kagehina:  where the night goes // well, maybe i’m a crook // room to grow (not really angst but the vibes are so mellow and nice) // hum (not a lot of angst but this is one of my faves. also esselle is the kagehina/hq queen!!! all her stuff is so so so good.)

iwaoi: things that change, things that stay the same // In April //  the yellow room

also if i could offer your this oikage fic....  the more things change (i cry reading this every time....) 

i don’t bookmark fics so it’s hard for me to find stuff again fhskdjfshd but hopefully those are alright!!

yesss let’s take him to liyue <3333 omg do you think he would like to play in the water 😩😩

omgggggggg they started dating when they were TWELVE?? that’s so cute 😭😭 i wish them all the happiness!! im only in touch with like 1 person i’ve known since i was 12 AHAHAH. i love childhood friends to lovers!! there’s just so much history there you know? such like a strong iron-clad bond... and to you mean “to lovers” trope? either way, hm. i think i might like enemies to lovers the most? (are we surprised) like that tension... coming together when no one expects it, not even them.... but yet their love is so strong.. .FSDJFHKSDF is childhood friends to lovers your fave?

yep!! only 2 ikr like how long am i gonna have to continue playing this game how many new characters will we get FHDKFSHDFS. people think inazuma (electro) is next!! it’s based on japan which is exciting.. omg wait what if it’s kinda like cyberpunk futuristic vibes.. ahaha. and i have finished all the main story quests that are out rn! i think the last one happens ~AR 35? 

fhsdkfhsdfs HAHAHA nah dw all my blogs are now inactive so you’re not missing anything 🤪 you got all my focus and attention here bb

oooo yes the nostalgia... wow now that we’re talking about it i haven’t had fairy floss in so long jfhsdjksd. and yes i want to go blonde so bad 😭😭😭😭 i wanted to do kenma hair but i shaved my head last year and i want to shave it again and dye it blonde........ 😩

yeah actually i feel like so many people interpret iwaoi childhood friends to lovers angsty for some reason? like i’ve never really seen any that was just them happily and naturally going into a relationship there’s always like miscommunication and pain fhdskfskjfsd. not that i’m complaining! lol. and i actually heard driver’s licence for the first time a few days ago!! i remember it clearly bc i thought the title was funny FHDSKJFHSKDFSD. but omg the angst....... whose POV would you have it be from? oikawa’s? i feel like people make him Hurt a lot... which is big mood hfsdfkjs. (semi related... do you have your licence? LMAO) also do you know memo by years & years? i have an iwaoi wip based on that song!! 

wait what does “in the meanwhile i’m just gonna be https://archiveofourown.org/users/czqy shsjshsjdj.” mean sorry i dont get it 😭😭 (also it took me a moment to register that url went to me AHHAHA i was like 😳)

I FREAKING HOPE OIKAWA POSSESSED ME!!! FEEL FREE TO COME BACK ANYTIME SIR 🙇‍♀️🙏

hehhe trust me it’s like THE best possible spot <33333 im extremely excited to take you there 😉😏 xingqiu come home for m.a. again!!! and what can i say, i’m looking forward to the date ;p

thank u! it’s made better by you 😍💘 hope your day is going well!! xx

#marriage anon #wowclunaanswers #long post

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Homestuck Amusement Park Headcanons

Suggested by: @asnailinthighhighs

John: warily eyes the pastry booths bc he still has a deep mistrust for baked goods thanks to the Betty Crocker incident aka literally the apocalypse. Plays a (rigged) wack-a-mole game and gets frustrated when he keeps losing. Terezi makes fun of him so he whips out the hammer of zillyhoo and ah, crushes the game, so to speak. His prize is a giant bunny. He puts it back in the box.

Jade: sees one of those rodeo electronic bull things and goes oh that looks fun! Everyone is like uhhh Jade that can get pretty wild are u sure?? Karkat bets Jade that she won’t last 5 mins, oh really Karkat? 5 minutes? She sits on that bucking bronco for an entire hour making uncomfortable and spite fueled eye contact with Karkat the entire time. She only gets off because there’s a line.

Dave: wants to go on all the big rides and drags Karkat along despite Karkat complaining very loudly the entire time. Sorry Karkles, you scared of heights? You a scaredy Kat? A scaredy Karkat? Fuck you Dave, I’m fine! Dave drags him on the biggest rollercoaster in the entire park, they get off and Karkat says wow that was actually pretty fun! Dave’s hair is a mess, he looks inches from perma-death, that was horrible oh god. Not a word, Rose, he says. She and Kanaya are definitely not snickering behind their hands.

Rose: makes a goddamn beeline with Kanaya in tow to the haunted house ride because fuck yes she wants to see some creepy ass shit. If y'all have ever been in an amusement park haunted house, you know how vastly disappointed she was by the lame jump-scares and cheap monsters. Kanaya made it up to her by taking her to the Tunnel O’ Love™ and Rose was significantly cheered up.

Kanaya: isn’t a huge fan of non-blood food but v intrigued by all the fried stuff. Why Is It Fried? Does It Add Flavor? Not really, Rose tells her, it’s mostly just another way humanity likes to push itself closer and closer to its own imminent demise. Only now they’ve roped the trolls and carapacians into it. Oh, Kanaya says. She tries a fried Twinkie and sucks the filling out w her sick rainbow drinker/ vampire skills. Delicious. A single tear trails down Rose’s cheek. I have never been more in love w you.

Terezi: that scene with Toph and the scam artists in ATLA? Basically picture that. It’s one of those rubber duck games where they���re all floating in the pool and at the bottom of them is a different color and that’s how big a prize you get, thing is, Terezi can smell what’s on the bottom. She wins Vriska all the prizes and the dude running the booth is sweating and has to write her an IOU that John won’t let Terezi cash in on because that’s cheating and that’s wrong!

Jane: goes around with Jade and Roxy and Callie critiquing the food booths on their baking skills. She absolutely loathes that everything is fried bc it’s a cheap tactic to make weak bakers stronger! She tries a funnel cake and immediately changes her mind. CrockerCorp releases its own line of fried food that fall. Roxy calls her a sellout but eats it all anyways bc it’s just That Good.

Jake: finds one of those carnival shooter games and one of the big stuffed animal prizes is a gigantic rainbow dash my little pony and,,,he sees Dirk eyeing it. He doesn’t say anything, but Jake Knows. He tells Dirk he has to run off to the “little lads” room for a second, but he goes back to the shooting game, crushes the fuck out of those targets with the wimpy water gun, and presents Dirk with this oversized goddamn pony. It is touching and romantic for everyone involved.

Dirk: tries to show off to Jake by doing that strength test where u slam the hammer down and try to ring the bell at the top, he makes it about half the way up and he’s like fuck yeah that’s pretty fuckin’ good. Jake goes wow golly that’s impressive! Mind if I give it the old college try? Dirk is like pffft go for it, still flexin his muscles trynna show off and shit. Jake casually slams it down and rings the goddamn bell so hard it almost flies off the top. Dirk just stands there with his eyes v wide behind his shades while Jake is like gosh! Must have been buggered, huh?

Roxy: goes on every single ride she is living for today y'all, Callie is too short for most of the rides but Roxy promises to dab at the top of every coaster so Callie can spot her from where she’s watching down below. They share an ice cream sundae and Roxy gives Callie the cherry on top bc it’s “a cherry for a cherub!”

Sollux: idk about amusement parks near y'all but I live right by cedar point and there’s a coaster called Gemini so uhhh he and Aradia just do that. All day. Sollux rides this rollercoaster 53 times, turns to Aradia, says “what if bees had yaoi hands would that be fucked up or what” then passes out for a week.

#homestuck #john egbert #jade harley #rose lalonde #dave strider #jake english #jane crocker #roxy lalonde #dirk strider #davekat #kanrose #rosemary #dirkjake #johnrezi #solradia #sollux captor #karkat vantas #kanaya maryam #terezi pyrope #vriska serket #vrisrezi #aradia megido #calliope #callieroxy #janeroxy

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SU Wanted Reaction (¡¡¡¡Spoilers!!!!)

I’m sorry in advance for my thoughts that will literally be all over the place 😂😂😂

🔸The Trial •Steven, stop lying. You know you’re not ready 😂

•Moonstone!!!!!! …Zir…con? Hm, my thoughts when out the window. I feel like that would’ve been a good opportunity

•She’s such a nervous lawyer and I love it. She kind of reminds of a Peanuts character like the Yellow and Blue Pearl

•Steven, honey, context clues. When she says “preparing your case” that should clue you in to what’s happening (I’m going to hard on him, I’m sorry)

•Oh, crap, another Zircon. I’m guessing for the Plaintiff side (She’s shattered obvs)

•You smug little…

•Oh… no White D? I figured since the white triangle lit up in the back, she’d be there… especially for something like this… hm

•I always marvel at their size

•Yellow, chill, don’t shatter yet. Thanks, Blue… woah, you chill, too

•Lol, Lars and his rambling. Nows not the time

•YZ (Yellow Zircon…Green?… GZ) called humans hideous and I don’t disagree with her at all

•Fury? Where?

•Yellow D looks bored af

•EYEBALL!!! She’s pissed!!!

•Where’s the others?

•Lol, BZ was all “Oh, she’s good”, but she literally had no defense and no proof of the actual crime that was committed (a witness testimony isn’t always good proof)

•Lol, I like how YP has actual info on her screen and BP has pictures. That’s so cute

•Yellow D keeps trying to rush Steven’s death and that’s super suspicious

•Yeah, talk some sense, Blue

•…Geez, Yellow D

•Steven, no. Don’t do this. On another note, I love how he stays willing to anything to keep his family and friends safe, the whole world for that matter. However, it does suck that he’s had to have this weight on his shoulders and that he sees no other way out. Like, I’m sure he could’ve come up with another way

•Oooh, Blue D doesn’t believe him at all

•Damn, especially not after he said he used Breaking Point. She corrected tf out of him

•I won’t lie, though, I think it’s interesting how Blue D can influence the emotions of every gem in room (namely to feel sadness) and it makes me wonder is Yellow D can make everyone feel angry or something or if Blue can influence a wider range emotions. Probs not, but just a thought

•Hm, BZ said their gems were on the line. Does that mean that Zircons are shattered if they don’t win trials?

•What, BZ?

•She’s asking the real questions that I’ve wanted answered. Blue said Rose shattered Pink with a sword, but Bismuth told us that the sword was really good for poofing. Breaking Point would no doubt shatter and I don’t think she had it at the time. The most Rose could do was poof Pink (if Diamonds can poof at all). So how could she shatter Pink with a sword?

•WOAH! THAT’S A REALLY GOOD POINT! HOW DID ROSE EVEN GET THAT CLOSE TO SHATTER HER????

•Oh, shit. The second she asked where her pearl was YP and BP looked shook af

•Yellow D seems to know way too much about this situation and she’s getting way too defensive

•ANOTHER GOOD POINT: these gems claim to have seen Rose do it, but if that were so, why did you let her get so close? How? What were you doing that you couldn’t see an obvious stand out get close to your superior? I think they should all be brought into question, too, especially Eyeball, because they need to be held accountable for missing such a huge detail.

•YP and BP see what’s wrong with this, too. You can see it on their face. They know something isn’t right here

•BZ, don’t do it. Don’t do it

•SHE CALLED YELLOW TF OUT!!!!! And before anyone goes “She was talking about all of them”. There’s no way she’s talking about Blue, too. Blue is the one who wants answers. If Blue did it, she wouldn’t want a trial. Yellow has been on defense since the start and I really think it was her so it explains why she wants the trial over, to cover her tracks. That’s why she wanted Blue to stop mourning and move on at the Zoo. She was probably crying because of guilt over killing Pink.

•SHE SHUT HER UP REAL QUICK, TOO! Yellow is guilty and she knows it

•On another note: maybe it could’ve been White? And that’s why she’s not at the trial and Yellow was in on it, so maybe Yellow is covering for White shattering Pink, but I without a doubt know that Yellow was involved in some way

•I don’t think Blue trusts Yellow anymore after what BZ said

•HW is so beautifully drawn and I love it

🔸Off Colors •They’re moving pretty well for people with broken bones

•Lars’ logic 😂 seasoning dirt 😂 standing still 😂 don’t ever change, my child

•Those detectors are a little… wonky…? You didn’t see them turn left?

•I truly love watching normally guarded characters with a front open up and I know that’s probably cliche and played out, but I cannot get enough of it and that’s probably why I like Lars, Ames, and Lapis so much

•Who’s that?

•They’re so cute! (They are twins. There are two. They are a they. If they were separated, both would be a she until either indicated otherwise)

•I think they might be a forced fusion that was semi successful, but because they weren’t perfect, they were banished

•Damn, that’s a lot of holes

•A FUSION! AND SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE GARNET FROM THE ANSWER. SHE’S SO CUTE! (Rhodonite)

•I had to stop to look it up: she is a padparadscha sapphire (a mouthful) the twins are maybe rutile quartz (that is most likely wrong and I think I searched the wrong thing…)

•Aw, her future vision is off. That’s too adorable. She’s my official cinnamon bun. Protect her at all costs

•Holy shit, she’s huge

•Steven, it’s that outlook, the idea that we don’t need to judge people by appearance that gives me hope and if more people understood that, people would be a bit nicer to one another

•Fluorite: Six gems!!!! I think she talks so slow because she’s a fusion of so many gems and they’re all talking or trying to take control at once

•Aw… Rutile Twins…

•I love that Lars is quickly making a connection to them. They can’t show who they really are and Lars feels the same way (though, it’s two different extremes)

•YAS Lars!!!!! He threw himself under the bus!!!

•Baby Padpa ❤❤❤❤

•Maybe this isn’t the redemption arc that others wanted, but I think this is perfect for Lars. He’s still not fully confident in who he truly is, that will take a lot of time. He’s still weirded out and scared, but he’s done being a useless coward and he’s taking steps to fight back. Props to you, Laramie

•Lars, you just started. You’re not at that heroic level yet, chill

•Oh, no. No. No no no no no no no no no no. This cannot be happening

•My heart is broken. Are you fucking kidding me?

•HE DOES HAVE HEALING TEARS! LARS IS BACK!!!! Okay, so maybe the spit is for healing and the tears are bringing others back? I don’t know

•God, I’m so jumbled. Now, we know how Lion was created. Cross that off of the list of 19090 questions

•So, I made a post previously about Steven finding out how to uncorrupt gems and I fully admit that my theory for how he figures this out is wrong, but I stand by what I said about Jasper. We know for a fact that his spit works to a certain degree, what if his tears are what bring it full circle? I’m sorry, I’d really just like them to have closure

•Does… Lars have a portal now? Can he teleport and stuff, too? Lol, what will his parents and Sadie think when he gets home?

🔸Lars Head •Fun fact that I honestly did not know: cartoons are not allow to say the word “die”. The more you know

•Lol, Steven, these questions 😂😂😂

•Padpa, I love you

•Lars, that’s not important 😂😂 I love this lighthearted moment we get to see. It’s a nice break to absorb all of this new info

•Hair portal!!! Lars, it is now mandatory to grow your hair out to make going in your head easier

•Rho Rho is too adorable

•WOAH! So each new being brought back gets their own tree and they’re all connected. That’s so cool

•Holy crap, he’s back home!!! If he plans on using this as a mode of travel during this war, he’s going to have to clearly indicate which trees belongs to who if there are more

•Food and water break. Steven has his priorities straight

•So… They might have to poof everyone and take them to earth so they aren’t caught by HW

•"Steven’s back!“

•Lars will have to learn how to teleport if he even can…

•I love how he’s still kind of a jerk, but he’s doing what he thinks is best for his new friends by staying there so they can be free

•Rho Rho was trynna to scoop outta there real quick 😂😂😂

•So, if they’re gonna show Lars around and find another off HW… they might have to unfuse, but then that leaves Rutile… how’s that gonna work?

•Tell him, Lars!!!!!!

•The effect that Steven has on people is too amazing for words

•They hugged! Lars normally rejects Steven touching him, too 😂

•"Who knows what they’re doing to Steven? Hi, Steven” -Pearl 2k17

This was really awesome. I still have a million questions, but I’m more invested in the possibilities for what’s to come than the answers to them. I won’t lie, I did really want to see White Diamond, a Pink and Rose flashback, and maybe even Stars, but what we got was absolutely amazing and I was too shook. The mystery is slowly unfolding and I cannot wait to see what’s going to happen next. I’m genuinely curious as to what everyone else thought. I kind of want to get a convo going so message me with stuff or use the little comment chat thingie on my post. What was your favorite part? Who’s your favorite off color? What do you think about Pink’s shattering? Anyone for uncorruption? I really want to know what faniverse thinks (Get it? Am I cool yet?) Have a great rest of your week!!!

#steven universe #steven universe wanted #the trial #yellow diamond #blue diamond #pink diamond #rose quartz #lars #zircon #pearl #homeworld gems #su homeworld #rebecca sugar #su wanted #su #su theory #steven universe theory #called tf out #off colors #padparascha sapphire #rutile #rutilatedquartz #fluorite #rhodonite #new gems #lion steven universe #finally an answer #death #corrupted gems #lars head