#but Im not ready to commit the time to see them growing up?

[reidsdaisies]

Heyyy!!!! Could you please write a blurb, drabble or headcanon about Spencer wanting to be a househusband or how would he be as such??!? I’ve been watching The way of the househusband anime lately and it sparked the idea. I love your writing and have a great day 💕💕💕

𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝!𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬!

༉‧´ˎ˗ pairing; househusband spencer reid x gn bau!reader

༉‧´ˎ˗ a/n; you literally read my mind!! I’ve been wanting to do something about househusband spencer ever since i did spencer x housewife reader! and i had way too much fun on pinterest looking for inspo pics 😭💞 here’s a board i lowk love, I think it’s just adorable if anyone wants to know what I’m picturing — ׂׂૢ

𝐂𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 || 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

— i know i said he’s a terrible cook before, but in this universe i think he would have spent a lot of time learning how to cook and bake so he could cook you homemade meals and delicious sweet treats to show his appreciation for how hard you work to put a roof over the two of your heads

— he wears cute ass girly or flowery aprons when cooking and adorable oven mitts, fight me

— he has an unhealthy attachment to his kitchen aid mixer, will talk about how much he loves that thing. you’re concerned.

— excellent and very precise with cleaning 👌 scrubs at the bathroom sink till you can practically see your reflection in it and dusts every damn crevice of your house

— very passionate about the projects he gets into. like if he decides he wants a garden, omg he will commit. he’d probably want a house with a big backyard with enough space to build one of those cute vegetable gardens in the back yard and grow you two’s own food. and he would plant big apple and pear trees, would take pride in how great the fruit is and when everything is finally ready to be picked, he’ll make you bring it to work for the team

— AND omg a greenhouse would be his dream to have. everyone knows about his big ass brain and he definitely has extensive knowledge on all different types of plants, exactly what conditions they need to thrive

— along with that, i know he’d be really into lawn-scaping, you two have the best lawn EVER, and im not exaggerating. the back and the front of the house— absolutely beautiful. he picks out the prettiest flowers and makes sure the soil is rich, and ofc trims the bushes to perfection. he’d look so cute with gardening gloves, these or these specifically, and his massive ass, muddy ass gardening boots that are a size too big but he’s oddly attached to them.

— other hobbies he’s picked up include scrapbooking, drawing, painting, and of course knitting & crocheting.

— in one episode, he told Penelope he spent weeks knitting a scarf for his cosplay, and so now I’ve been constantly thinking about the other things he’d knit & crochet for him and his partner. scarfs, mittens, winter hats, sweaters, pot holders, anything he can make, he will make even just to try it out once.

— the pot holders would have cute animals on them or flowers. floral everything. he loves all plants, specifically flowers.

— now that you two own a house together, there’s so much opportunity for him. he’s got his own office AND most importantly, it’s massive and doubles as his own personal library. it’s walls are lined with multiple of the tallest, most spacious bookcases you could find for him, still just barely being able to fit his ever growing book collection on their shelves.

— he’s a house husband, he probably doesn’t have time for the FBI. im not sure if he would be fully a stay at home husband because that would bore him and many people need the help of his big brain so I think he’d spend a lot of time in his office, researching and writing articles probably most having to do with finding a cure for schizophrenia.

— if he were to also be a professor while married to you, i don’t think that would happen unless you’re imaging later seasons reid, but personally I’m imagining seasons 6-11 (minus season 8 with the maeve story arc) for this.

— i could maybe see Penelope and him owning a buisness/website together for both their crafts, of course Penelope would run the website and handle all the technical things.

— you and spencer have Penelope over on weekends and off days to chit chat while knitting or painting mugs or canvases. sometimes you’ll invite JJ, Emily, and Derek over but Emily and Derek would drag you away to the kitchen to get wine-drunk and gossip while JJ would be decorating the frames of her kids pictures and copying silly mug designs she found on Pinterest for Will.

— whenever you’re not on a case, and you’re friends aren’t available or you two aren’t feeling ver social, that’s when you finally get to be the sweet, lovey-dovey married couple you two are at heart

— for fun, you guys always bake brownies, cookies, cupcakes, and what not together, that ofc, he insists you take into work to show off his beautiful decorating skills. they’re not that beautiful but you still like to tell him they are to boost his ego and make jokes about how he should work at a bakery. a bakery would never hire him.

— you’ve given him the nickname of ‘cuddle bug’. why? because he’s such a gosh darn cuddle bug. will curl up to your side for hours while you finish any necessary paperwork and you two talk about the most recent case you worked while he’s mindlessly drawing little butterflies and hearts on your back

— after particularly rough cases, he runs you two a bubble bath to just soak in and spend some much needed and well deserved alone time together

— mentioned this in my housewife head canons, but you two would take turns giving each other back, shoulder, foot, or really anywhere needed massages. he’s all fancy with it, bringing out coconut oil and shi but you just let him do his thing, you’re getting a free massage, no need to complain about that

༉‧´ˎ˗ bonus; you two have movie nights every friday where you lounge in the living room eating nachos and watching tv. surprise, he always weasels his way into getting to pick what you watch. even bigger ‘surprise’, it’s always Star Trek or some scientific documentary.

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anyways, that’s all i can think of for now, but if anyone has anything they want to add, please talk to me about house husband spencer through my inbox !! i will do anything to feminize this beautiful man

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DARK THEMES AHEAD!!!

How do you think that the CP fan favs

(Jeff, proxies, E.J. you can add if you want :D)

Would react to their S/O threatening to commit suicide (shooting themselves of stabbing) because they couldn't deal with them kidnapping and taking away their freedom or rights?

(Sorry for this depressing ask, im feeling angst-y and you're one of my fav writers on here. Cheers!)

No! I absolutely love asks like this and this is honestly some of my favorite stuff to write! Thank you so much for the ask and I hope you enjoy! 🖤

TRIGGER WARNING AHEAD

CREEPS REACTING TO THEIR S/O TRYING TO COMMIT SUICIDE

JEFF THE KILLER:

When you stole his knife from atop his dresser he almost felt fear. Well.. He did but he’ll never admit it.

The look of wild fear and confusion was splayed all over his face as you threatened to slit your wrists right there. Right in front of him.

“I hate you! I hate you so much!” You pointed and jabbed the knife at him through heavy sobs. “I didn’t want this! I don’t want you!”

He could barely find the words. Should he take it from you? The question really was could he take it from you.

When he finally came to a conclusion he muttered roughly, “Y/N. Give me the knife.”

A simple but hopefully effective sentence

When you didn’t listen and began to press the knife to your wrist, watching the blood slowly pool. He lunged. Ripping the knife from your hands by the blade.

He didn’t care that he’d cut his hands open, blood pouring onto the carpet and his hands burning from the deep cuts.

He just wanted you safe.

You could see him wince as he looked down at his bloody hands, trying hard to play it off with a crooked smile when he looked up at you.

“Come on sweets, let’s go see EJ. He’s good with this kinda thing.”

EYELESS JACK:

He came home to you frantically looking through his medicine cabinets

He stood in the doorway silently, watching you closely to truly get an idea of what you were up to

When you poured an obnoxious amount of hefty pills into your small hand he let out a low growl. A warning one. One you’ve heard many times before when you’d try to escape

He watched you turn around with tears in your eyes

“I can’t do this anymore… Find someone else.” You choked out as you brought your hand to your mouth, letting the pills fall in

It was in an instant he was on top of you, snarling wildly. He yanked your jaw down, immediately sticking his clawed fingers down your throat.

“Throw it up!!” He shouted. It was the loudest you’d heard him speak before…

The pressure from his fingers deep in your throat brought more tears to your eyes as you threw up.

He stroked your back and held your hair as the acid and pills burned your throat coming back up

After that day, all the cabinets had heavy padlocks on them and only Jack carried the keys

TIM/MASKY:

He decided to let you drive, just this once. Just because you begged and he loved you so much he couldn’t tell you no.

You followed the route he gave you, trying to make him think you two would actually be going to the mission site.

When you began speeding up obviously far over the posted speed limit, Tim began to grow suspicious

You’d never been this eager to go on a mission.

It was only when he saw tears falling down your cheeks that he knew what was happening.

“Y/N turn the car off. Pull over. Now.”

When you didn’t do as he instructed he harshly moved to get the car to a stop. Pulling the emergency break and throwing the car into park before ripping the keys out of the ignition

“What on earth do you think you’re doing?!” He shouted angrily.

When you turned to look at him there was rage in your eyes. “You ruined my life!! Now I don’t want one at all!”

He felt his heart sink when he listened to you. You didn’t want him… He thought things were going well between the two of you…

It was only then that he called off this mission, ready to take whatever punishment the Operator had for him

BRIAN/HOODIE:

You’d tried this sort of thing before… He knew you didn’t like it here but he needed you. He’d wanted you for so long he couldn’t just let you go

The first time you two were on a mission you’d tried to jump from a bridge, he was lucky he grabbed you in time. Thank god he was fast…

After that day he essentially baby proofed the house, not allowing you around the other creeps and certainly not on missions anymore

One day he got sloppy though. He was tired, it was mission after mission and all he wanted to do was come home and rest by your side.

He forgot to lock up his gun like he always does. Placing it on the nightstand instead and getting into bed with you in his arms

He’s a pretty light sleeper so it was odd that you could get out of his arms and grab the gun without him knowing

It was only when he heard the click of the safety and your soft sobs that he woke up. Sitting up straight and looking around the dark room.

You were on your knees on the floor facing way from the bed, gun placed to your temple as your body shook with sobs.

He was thankful you didn’t realize he was awake. Otherwise he knew he wouldn’t have been successful in his attempt to take the gun.

When he snatched it from your hands you got up, clawing at him to get it back.

He held you to his chest, subduing you from your attacks.

“Go back to bed sweetheart.” He whispered softly, locking his gun up and taking you back to bed in his arms

“TICCI” TOBY:

You heard him coming down the hallway, back from another mission. He wasn’t stealthy in the slightest when he was home.

You tried your hardest to make it quick as you were trying to make sure the rope was secure while stepping up on the chair

“Y/N?!” Toby ran to you, snatching you off the chair.

“No!! Let me go!!” You fought him like a damn bull, kicking and flailing and scratching.

His lack of physical feeling came in handy in the situation. He pressed you down on the bed, practically sitting on you to make sure you couldn’t go anywhere

Your sobs only slightly hurt his heart. He was more upset by the fact you wanted to leave him. How could you?? Did he not give you enough? Was he not good enough for you?

“How could you do this to me?? I thought I was what you wanted!” He shouted angrily, pressing down harder when you continued to fight.

“I want nothing to do with you! You’re a fucking monster!”

He felt something inside him snap. “You’ll never leave now. You’re mine Y/N.”

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[randomimaginesforrandompeople]

So wrong | Carlos Sainz imagine

a/n: so i couldn't sleep and randomly started writing this? just want to say that i obviously do not condone any form of cheating at all, i just felt inspired to write this for some reason? also gif is not mine and i hope you enjoy x

warnings: reader and carlos are both cheating, mentions of smut, angst? idk im not good at writing angst i think but i see this as practice lol, probably bad english.

you know you shouldn't have come. you should have gone straight home, back where he was. but instead you had driven here. you had zoned out when driving and you had driven here like it was muscle memory.

it shouldn't have been a surprise, you had driven up here countless of times before. however those times were justified, those were the times he was still yours. those were the times you were allowed to drive up there to see him. you should not be here. but you couldn't pull yourself to actually start the car and get out of the driveway.

a mishap, that's what you had called it the first time you had woken up next to carlos again. you had gotten very drunk at carmen's birthday party. your boyfriend hadn't been able to make it due to work and the alcohol clouded your judgement; or so you justified.

you and carlos had history, being near him felt safe again, familiar. it had been years ago, you had been young and foolish. the two of you not ready for a real relationship, not with the commitments you both had. so you broke up and it tore you apart. but over time the pain you felt made place for peace. you had met your boyfriend and you liked him, it was all good. you heard through mutual friends that carlos also had started dating again, and you thought you had gotten over it, you really did.

but when you saw carlos that night from across the room, white button up with the two top buttons unbuttoned, sleeves rolled up, drink in hand and gorgeous smile adorning his face as he talked to george and lando, you realised that you may still have some feelings bubbling under the surface.

although you swore you only had good intentions when you made your way over there to greet them. and you swore the lingering touches and held gazes were only friendly. until they weren't and he had you pressed against the bathroom sink with two of his big fingers stretching you out.

he had driven you home that night and he had made you come once already before you two had reached the bedroom, making you come like only he could. you had woken up feeling incredibly guilty, thoughts of your boyfriend flooding your mind. put when carlos had pulled you against his chest and rasped out how much he had missed this, those thoughts quickly evaporated.

you knew it was wrong. it was aching your stomach, you felt bad. your boyfriend didn't deserve this. you were well aware that you needed to end this, you were in a relationship and so was carlos. however every time you tried, you ended up between his sheets for another night.

I'm outside. you had texted him ten minutes ago but you couldn't bring yourself to get out of the car yet. you weren't ready for whatever was inside, you weren't ready to face those big brown eyes and tell carlos that this was really the last time you would see him. the porch lights went on, carlos had read your message. he was probably wondering why you didn't just come in.

the pit inside of your stomach grew heavier as you finally unbuckled your seatbelt. you let out a shaky breath that you didn't know you were holding and as you got out of the car you saw carlos waiting for you in the dooropening.

''what took you so long amor?'' you plastered on a smile "just replying to some messages." you quickly passed him, nerves growing with each step you set within the house. the tension was already thickening, you had never been good at hiding your feelings. it was actually something carlos laughed at, he thought it was cute how your face was worth more than a thousand words. when you were watching horror movies and you were looking at a particularly gory scene, you would always hear his bouldering laugh next to you and when you'd look at him, he'd kiss your scrunched up nose and tell you that you even looked cute when you were disgusted.

"I know why you're here." you tensed up. you were glad you weren't facing him, you don't think you could right now. you'd know just how he'd look, arms crossed over his chest, serious face and big eyes hard as stone. he always got stoïc when he got upset. you felt him shuffle behind you and you knew he was coming closer, your expectations proven to be right as you felt his hand softly grasp your arm, the touch sending cold shivers down your spine.

"y/n..." you turned around, you had to. it was inevitable. you had to tell him that this couldn't happen anymore. that you were staying with your boyfriend and remind him of his girlfriend. you were going to tell him, tell him how the sneaking around made you feel sick to your stomach and how it wasn't worth it. it shouldn't be worth it.

you looked up at his face and all the words you had died in your throat. you had expected him to be cold, stoïc, maybe even a little angry. but what you saw in front of you was nothing like you had thought you would see him.

he was visibly upset, his big brown eyes full of an emotion you couldn't decipher. it almost seemed like desperation? "please, I can't lose you just," he took both of your hands in his, he wasn't looking directly at you. "not again, y/n i can't lose you again." he nearly whispered.

you knew it was wrong, very wrong but how could you turn him down? not when he was vulnerable with you like this. you took a hand and gently cupped his face. "i'm not going anywhere." you saw a look of surprise flash across his face and then it turned into relieve. you felt it as he pressed his lips against you.

this wasn't just sex, maybe it never was. you could feel every ounce of feeling he poured into the kiss and you couldn't help but match it, letting yourself go to places you hadn't let yourself go before, you knew you were too far gone anyway. you weren't strong enough to end it, not now. you weren't sure if you ever would be, not when he told you he couldn't lose you and kissed you like this.

"thank you" he whispered against your lips. you knew that everything about what you were doing was wrong, but in that moment all you could focus on was the sound of his heart beating and the way he made you feel. you would deal with the rest later, now all you needed was to be with carlos.

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my reasons 2 why shayne n courtney marriage is fake (im gonna cry if its real, i got sm proof)

if they r married then congrats but i REFUSE to believe when its on april fools day n by smosh 

"ian said it was real" bitch, its ian. hes literally such a big troll dude, i dont trust things ian says that often (still love u tho ian)

smosh can commit to bits n lying. ex: ian n anthony walking for an hour straight when everyone thought it would be a cool skit, arasha's marvel lie, angela's lie, etc

they have kissed so many times for skits, same as ian n anthony, n other smosh members. like- its not crazy that they kissed in the photos, they've done it before and other members have kissed eachother too for skits!!! it's basically normal for smosh members to kiss eachother for bits!!!

they're friends can be on the prank!!! i wouldn't be suprised if they are!!!

i feel like damian would at least be at the wedding too!!! like hes been one of shaynes best friends since he was like 17, HES GONNA BE AT THE WEDDING BRO!!!!!!

but "oh theres photos from a few months ago of the proposal!!" ppl plan things in advance bro! they r a comedy channel, they might plan for april fools in advanced! ik i plan for halloween literally the second it's finished, its normal to plan for holidays early! its like who ppl get ready for christmas as soon as halloweens done too!!!

if ppl where able to get photos of ned from the try guys cheating on his wife then i feel like ppl would be able to get photos and/or see shayne n courtney on a date in public!!!!! unless they r super secretive or the paparazzi/die hard fans didn't care, i feel like it would be pretty hard for ppl not to have at least a photo or two of them together 

when damian n saige got together, courtney n keith called them out so quickly if i remember correctly. like i dont know if shayne n courtney would be able to keep the cast plus themselves quiet long enough for there relationship to grow to a wedding bro. someone would have accidentally let it slip (tho it could always be cut during edits so take this as a grain of salt, but it could also be posted on instagram by a member as a slip up like how pete wentz accidentally revealed brendon urie's wife's pregnancy)

plus remember that one time jake paul or whoever n that one girl faked a wedding down to the t, like its been done before i wouldnt be surprised if they did it.

lastly, my most important proof. THEY. ARE. ACTORS!!!! ITS THERE JOB!!!!!!!!!! they could have easily faked being in love or some sh*t, there job is to act, they should know how to act!!! like, i feel like this is pretty obvious at this point guys...

what it possibly could be idfk 

could be pulling a danny gonzalez where they prank there fans, ik dannys fans figure it out quickly but he also doesn't work for a big company or corporate or whatever the f*** smosh is!! like they have more money to afford this sh*t!!!

could always just be for some big skit, tho idk if they would go THIS out for a skit

maybe lets do this is back idk idk idk

or, its just a april fools prank.

idkidkidkidk i need irrefutable proof that its real before i believe it, i could be horribly wrong tho n spent like a while stacking this all up for it to, in fact, be real. i just think we need to take other shit into consideration before jumping head first into believing it ig. this is just my opinion tho, im not trying to be disrespectful or anything!!!!!

(sorry if anything is miss spelled, i was in a manic state while writing it guys- also if i got any information wrong with smosh history feel free to correct me!!)

#smosh #smoshblr #courtney miller #shayne topp #smosh games #smosh pit #smosh squad #shartney

[gettinshiggywithit]

!Dabi x Bakugou’s Sister!Reader!

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Scenario:- How Bakugou’s sister and dabi met!

Pairing:- dabi x Bakugou’s sister!reader

@izukuisbaby I HOPE U LIKE IT BESTIEEE PLS LMK WHAT U THINK??🥺

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Like before he joined the league kinda back

Because I honestly dont think he’d jump into a relationship.i think hed take his sweet time and honestly?good on him!

Im thinkin,dingy alley at night kinda setting.

He woulda been bummin a cig(I honestly hate this because BESTIE YOURE GONNA GET A CVD?????LIKE PUT THAT SHIT AWAY) and you sniff the air,pinch your nose closed and walk up to him

Now we know dabi hadnt committed and “flashy crimes” before joining the league so i dont think hed risk lightin you up then and there.especially if there’d be a way to to talk his way outta it

Cause as we know,this bitch can talk.hes smoother than a ferret in a piping system when he needs to/wants to be.

He’d be ready just in case he had to defend himself and all you’d do is snatch the cig from his lips and crush it under your heel

You’d give him a disapproving look up and down and just scoff before walking our of the alley and continuing on your way

Hed be STUNNED like

“Huh????”

Fuckin confusion incarnate this mfer

But like after five seconds he shaked himself ot of his trance and gets out of that alley.

He thinks about it tho. About you.not 24/7 or anything just you pop into his head every now and then.

Over the nexr few weeks you continue to bump into each other and you noticed him every time

He isn’t exactly forgettable

And finally about three weeks in you actually stop him

You pull on his raggedy little overshirt and he’s like ‘shit not her again’

You look him dead in the eye and pull him into a side street. And confront him

“Hey what gives???”

“....”

“Okay let me rephrase.why the hell are you following me??”

“Pfft im not following you.”

“Oh so you do speak,well then why the fuck have i been seeing you literally everywhere for the past three weeks?”

“I dont know what the fuck youre talking about.”

You stared into his eyes and you could tell he genuinely didnt do it on purpose...after growing up with katsuki you learned how to search for the truth in peoples eyes because,as you’d learned by observing bakugou, their eyes often betrayed what their voice and words tried to mask.

“Hmmph you really havent been following me...sorry um about that.... im y/n.” You said extending your hand and he just looked at it warily

When he didn’t respond you proded further

“And you are?????”

“Uh dabi...the name’s dabi”

“You slowly retracted your hand(he didnt shake it{THE LION THE WITCH AND THE AUDACITY OF THIS BITCH})

Just then you heard a rustling from the back of the alley

You both turned to see a group of thugs ready to ambush you

He ignited his palms and you yours.

You were no damsel in distress.youd trained with your brother since you were a little girl!

You both fought them off him Ofc deal more lethal blows than you.

And finally when all the bodies which had been attacking you were either burned to ash or incapacitated you looked at eachother and smiled just a little

“We make a pretty good team,staples”

“I guess we do”

“Soo how about dinner and a movie huh? My treat. You got most of em,left less for me”

He naturally looked skeptical.

But after a few minutes he nodded his head

“Yh sure”

What was the worst that could happen? Him falling for you?? Not a Goddam chance!(hehehehehe)

So you went on your date that Friday and the rest is history!

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feedback,likes,reblogs and comments are so very appreciated tbh :’)i hope you enjoyed and ill catch ya next time!

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[blacknight2221]

Loving you- Carl grimes x poc reader

So this is my first time writing a fanfic so bare with me :)- Jessie

Warnings: angst, self lothing, depression, running away, zombies, death, no happy ending, afab reader

'It was pouring rain the day that it happened. Curly hair sticking to my dark skin as I hold my knees. What do I feel? Why do I love him? Why can't I stop loving him? It was supposed to be a good day, but on our anniversary of all days, I caught him with her once again. Her hand touching his beautiful locks the way I do, his laugh, his smile, his hat? Why was she wearing his hat? She doesn't know about me. No one does. We decided to keep it secret. I decided to keep it secret. You wanted to tell the world I wasn't ready to commit to titles. Looking back at it now, it was idiotic hiding you. Hiding us. I felt like next to you I don't belong. I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, maybe. Maybe I should disappear. Would you even miss me, my love? If I were gone. Without a trace. I pondered that as I arrived home. Losing Glenn has left a toll on my home and he was like a brother to me. Now he's gone, Maggie is pregnant. I was never good with babies. I was terrible with Judith. I thought you were amazing at it. One day you will make a great father. Enid would be a great mother. I don't hate her. I don't hate you. Well, maybe I hate her. I saw how happy you were with her and it always got under my skin. I stand packing my bags now. I know if I speak to you, I will calm down. Carl, you will take me in your arms and kiss me, making it better. Is it wrong that is what I want? To have you kiss me and make it better. Make the way I feel go away. I didn't take everything. I left my brothers' varsity jacket. It kept me warm all these years. I can still see him wearing it, throwing that football around. God, I used to be so mad at him growing up. Now I just miss him... I figured it brought me comfort after he was gone from my hands, in which I had to give him mercy from the monsters in our world. It will give you comfort as I find mercy from the monsters in my head. Loving you was the one thing I did right. It was wild and insane and when you lost your eye, I nearly died. I spent all my time worrying, but now you're safe.... I am leaving safely to go out in the world. By now, I have probably kissed you on the lips and said good night....you had no clue I would be gone in the morning.... it's not your fault. I know you blame yourself for the world's problems. Do not, my love.  I wanted this.

Forever yours, Y/N'

Carl looked over the letter for the third time, a look of panic on his face. He knew his girlfriend was always quick to react without thinking things through. As he grabbed his gun and gathered Michonne, Daryl, and Rick, he ran in search of his lover, his light, his life. Carl lost so much but he never expected her, his y/n, his darling, his baby, the reason he still fought as Carl searched, he stopped as he stepped on something. A pool of blood. The male turned to see drag marks. The air caught in his throat as he walked closer to see the bones. Bones everywhere, blood, bones, her clothes, her hair, bloated zombies...3 of them so fat they could not move, blood all over them, all over the scene, her curly locks in their mouths with hunks of flesh and scalp still that they could not swallow. His y/n.....

"Loving you was the best thing I did. You are probably with my mother now. God I'm a mess...how can I live like this? I will never see your smile again? Your curls bounce as you run? The sun in your hair!? That chip in your tooth from when you tripped on your feet at the prison?! Big brown eyes staring at me so lovingly!? Come back! Please! I'm sorry! Im sorry!" The male screamed at the cross in front of him, tears running down his face "Please.... I'm never gonna stop loving you." He whispered as he sat over the grave knowing there was nothing in the dirt below.

I hope you liked it!!! It was my first time doing this kinda thing:)-Jessie

#carl grimes x you #the walking dead x reader #twd x reader #carl grimes x y/n #carl grimes #twd angst #carl x reader #first fanfic

[hallabongie]

forever and always

a/n: miya atsumu x reader fluff angst 

 !warning! involves newly pregnant reader and the two of them figuring out what to do next. not proofread all that well, some language.  i know this subject can be one that people arent comfortable with and im sure that my writing is not the best of it but i wanted to try. please know that i mean no offense by putting this piece out here

Your pasta dinner remained untouched, growing cold. The Spotify playlist of “Restaurant Jazz” was no longer playing softly in the background. Only the two voices could be heard in the shared apartment.

“Y/n, can we please just talk about this??!” Atsumu strained, now sitting by your side at the dinner table.

You shot him an incredulous look. “What is there to talk about tsumu? I’m pregnant, and we are in no place to be having a baby!” You tried to keep your voice level but to no avail from the sheer stress of the situation.

“The circumstances aren’t ideal but this is our child we’re talking about.”

“You don’t think I know that?! You don’t think that’s been racking my brain for the past two weeks?!? Atsumu we are not ready to be having a child….I’m not ready. Not ready for that commitment. ”

He visibly stilled at those words. But you had meant it. He could tell. “You say that like we’re not forever. You say that like you don’t see me being with you for the rest of our lives, like I wouldn’t ever be the father to your kids.” There was pain there. Nothing but hurt.

You couldn’t help but really look at his face now. You knew your words hit hard but it was the truth. You couldn’t hide that away from him. “ Miya Atsumu. I love you with my entire being. You are my whole world and you have my heart. I love you just as you love me, you know that. But this is a child, a living human being we’d be bringing into the world-“

“We’ve talked about having kids before” Atsumu counters.

“Yes we have! But not this soon tsumu! Fuck, don’t you see? We are no where near close to being ready to have a kid. We’re still fucking kids ourselves! We are 22 years old and you have your volley ball which takes up so much of your time. You’re seriously trying to tell me that you are ready to have a kid and that you might have to give some of that up??

“If it means having our children then yes I’d make it fucking work!” his voice now raising

“You are barely around now, how would you be around for the kid? Think about it, this is the first night you’ve had off in weeks! I haven’t been able to sit down with you for more than 15 minutes until now!”

“Y/n our child would take precedence over that. YOU take precedence over that? Don’t you know me well enough by now to realize I’d be there? That I’m always going to be there for you and our future?!?”

You couldn’t help the tears streaming down your face now as you roughly wiped at your cheeks to try and stop them. It had all been too much. The minute you took that test you knew, knew it in your gut that you were pregnant. It hadn’t really hit you until you were stuffing the evidence in the trash covering it with toilet paper. You didn’t know what this meant for you and Atsumu.

“Baby please, I understand that this is terrifying and that there’s no way I could fully know what you are feeling and that it is way sooner than we ever anticipated. But I promise, I will be there for this child. Every fucking step of the way. I’m going to be there for you. Please, just think about this some more with me. I love you, you are my everything, my future. I’ve always wanted a family with you and who says we can’t start now?”

you raise your head to meet his eyes with his again. You could feel your heart slowly breaking; whether from the gravity of the situation or how you had ever allowed atsumu to think you doubted him or just the pure want and utter love radiating from his words. “I never doubted that’d you be there for the child or for me tsumu. Never once did I think that. I just- I am just overwhelmed and so fucking terrified right now.”

“I know baby I know”

You continue “I’ve always seen you as forever. I’ve always seen us starting a family...i just thought we would have had a couple more years.” Atsumu is holding is breath, waiting for what words will leave your mouth next. 

You pause and take a deep breath. “But that doesn’t change the fact that I have wanted children with you since we started dating, so if you think we’re ready to have this child then I believe you. If you think we’re ready for this part of our journey, I believe you.”

“I do. I really do.”

“Okay”

“Okay” he whispers. He moves closer and rests his forehead against yours. 

You stayed there for a moment. You heard his breath hitch and hesitate for a bit before asking “so, are we going to do this?”

You moved back out of his reach so you could see his face. The same face you fell in love with during your first year of high school. The one you wanted to be there by your side for the rest of your life. The one who you wanted this child to grow up knowing that they were unconditionally loved for by their father. “Yeah, I guess we are”

Atsumu let out that breath he was holding for what felt like years. The line around his mouth creasing as that still growing boyish smile spread across his face; nothing but adoration in his eyes.

“But you better for a ring on this finger before we have this baby.” You joked, wagging your ring finger in front of his face.

Atsumu started to lightly shake his head and laugh before his eyes left yours moving down to your untouched plate of pasta on the dinner table you two were meant to eat hours earlier.

“This can act as a place holder until then” he said before sliding a tube of marinara coated pasta on your ring finger.

“I can’t believe you just put a noodle on my finger calling it a ring you dope. Why I ever thought to consider you a romantic…”

“What? It should still count as a ring before I propose?!?!“ he laughs while watching your face break out into a fit of giggles. And that smile that he would never want to live without. Never what his child to know a world where it didn’t exist.

He embraced you once more placing a warm kiss to your temple, “the noodle will have to cut it for now babe. But I’ll get you that ring and make it official that this is my forever. That you and this baby are my forever. My forever and always.”

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[rozestears]

CRACKING MY KNUCKLES TO PREP THIS UP all thats been on my mind lately is wataru and leo and like thats all. and im sad. on the wataru part. leo is good. and i must stop making wataru requests this will be the 5th one i have a problem. ANYWAYS!

i was very hyped to see more yan content..... AND lately ive been thinking about this scenario with a gn reader and yan wataru who has been crushing hardly on wataru but is also extremely ...dumb (?) and cant realize he has very extremely strong feelings towards them as well despite all his remarks and all his eccentric ways of showing his emotions towards the reader. they're also kind of too dumbfounded to realize maybe his actions are sort of not good most of the time. but theyre just so in love with him yknow! you can also do this scenario with leo if you also will be nice enough to save me from my actual horrible wataru rot im not even kidding. maybe i would prefer it with leo but i already typed all of this out. help. and i think leo would be more interesting to write as a yandere if you would go w him for this idea. he also wouldnt really think much of his actions i guess、rather just... he thinks its normal?? and arashis just there like ohhh youre so whipped leo san ^^ no girl hes ready to commit several murder crimes. okay ill stop talking THANK YOU IN ADVANCE IF YOULL DO THIS AND HOPE ITS NOT TOO HARD TO FOLLOW 🙏🙏🙏

TAINTED ROSES OF MY LOVE.

—SUMMARY; Why can't you just see it, are you blind?! It's right infront of you, you love them! Now if you don't realize that, you can cause great destruction of both your worlds. But you wouldn't care if it were to only affect you, now wouldn't you? Because you love them too much to even bother.

—CONTENT WARNINGS; Manipulation (say your prayers)

Hibiki Wataru x Gn!Reader . 784 Words

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. BY CLICKING ON KEEP READING YOU ARE AGREEING TO ANY POSSIBLE DARK CONTENT.

Wataru skips through the halls of the ES building holding a lovely red rose in his hand, thinking of giving it to the one he "loves", or rather, you! He thinks you're the most amazing person to ever exist! He adores you, he needs you so much! But, he keeps telling himself you might not accept the gifts he gives you, if they keep coming, but it's okay.

He makes his way into your room and once he burst through the door, he sent doves flying out and rose petals fell gracefully everywhere. Wataru has one of his favorite masks on, and he took that off before walking over to you and giving you a little kiss on the cheek. "Here you go! Lovely isn't it? I grew this rose along with it's bush by myself, so practically I put my blood, sweat and tears into it!"

He said with a blush on his face, you accepted the rose and put it in your hair. Not knowing he actually did put all of that and all his effort for this gift. But how? Well, earlier when the roses haven't bloomed yet and it was much of just a shrub before, Wataru saw you over with a note, assumingly a love letter. It had many hearts on it, and when you left it alone he read it and it was.

He admits you were absolutely gorgeous, but you were only his. He saw that person near the roses he was currently growing back then, and he fought him. Even maybe accidentally sending him to the hospital. Wataru didn't mean to do that you know, but it was the other person's fault. They should've known not to do that, besides Wataru was always with you and held your hand aswell.

He really loves being with you! But he just can't see how much he does love you, he cares about your well-being more than his own, he would break his ribs if he had to just see you be at your happiest! And he snapped back to reality to walk outside, with you! He opened the door gently for you and you smiled at him, which made his heart melt! He feels so overjoyed with you.

You were going to a little meeting with a few new staff, and Wataru thinks you might like them more than him; why? Because you'll get to see them more than him. After that meeting, a few hours have passed and he didn't get anything at all from you, no news or whatever. He worried for you and went to look out. And there he stood in shock. In the main office you were talking to one of them, laughing along with the compliments you've received from them.

But that wasn't what hurt him the most. His rose that he gave you was on the floor, petals were missing it looks like it has been stepped on. He moved aside to an area where he was more visible and signaled you to come with him, for a bit. As soon as you two weren't in any sight of others, he pulled you to a darker corner and pinned you to the wall harshly.

He tried to explain calmly that he wouldn't like to see you hanging out with them being all sappy and shit, but you simply said to him that it was all just friendly chatting. "It's not what you think! Sooner or later, they'll get to you first, rather than me..." he shot back at you, tightening up his grip on your arms. You saw him, he was pleading it to you, begging even.

You just nodded and stuttered out a yes. He let go of your hands and said a sorry real quick. He kissed your forehead and held your waists and pulled you closer to himself, and continued to embrace you in his arms. After awhile, you two went back to the lighted up halls of the building. And before Wataru left, his hair gave you another rose, this time it looked unique.

It wasn't all just red, but white and it looked like it has "paint splatters" or a nice vermilion color. You thanked Wataru and promised to take better care of this one, you'll try your best at it. He smiled and went off, but as you thought that he left, he peeked back into the door leaning sideways; "I will be watching over you! Until I die, I will dedicate my life to you!" You were a bit confused by the watching over part, but you shrugged it off thinking nothing of it.

You can't tell if doing that was right or wrong.

#NONNIE HELP LMFAOOAO 😭 #I'll make you somethin' somethin' for Leo.. Soon... #just wait #ensemble stars x reader #enstars x reader #hibiki wataru #wataru hibiki

[louisisalarrie]

hey hey, hope you're well and those nasty hate anons're leaving you alone!

i've been thinking about the harry coming out as bi theory from back in 2015 with xander (i saw a post on tumblr a few days ago lol) and there is a lot of talk about how louis wouldn't come out without harry but like, would harry really come out without louis?

it seems so... unbalanced? one sacrificing ones own freedom for someone who would be willing to come out with someone else? idk if i'm reading something wrong or misunderstand something and maybe i'm projecting my own issues onto this situation (i've been in this same situation before and it ended badly for me so)

anyway, if or when L&H (together ir separately) come out, i personally only see it happening with a big bang and tell all. with all the shit going on the past 14 years, all the influential people involved,, like i guess what i'm getting here is, do you (with your knowledge) think theres another way? one that could be happening relatively soon (like next 5 years) or is it gonna be a retirement thing? meaning when they've retired theyre just like "yo btw"

another question: do you think they want to come out?

Heya anon!

First off, and most importantly, i am so so sorry to hear you had a negative experience like that. I hope you know you’re wonderful and loved and deserve the very best 🧡

And secondly, welcome to the show!

That post that you’re referencing, i do strongly believe that theory. It makes perfect sense as to the shift in Harry’s behaviour, and confidence, and i think it fits really well into watching him grow over the years, and how mgmt we’re gonna seed it. And then… it all just stopped. Anyway, it’s a great post if you haven’t read it!

So, let’s discuss this from the info we have, and the knowledge we have of Louis and Harry as people, and their sticky situation. Coming out is different for everyone, and everyone has their own time when they’re ready, and i am in no way invalidating anyone’s personal experiences with coming out with this post. I’m not going to assume exactly what they think and want, but i will put my two cents in and base it off what i think is best for them in a career sense, and their relationship to be strong after the official come out.

Okie dokie, with that in mind, let’s get right to it!

Louis did wear a big chunk of their relationship being closeted through Simon. I am in no way saying Harry had it easier, but Louis was older, and Simon saw that Harry would hang off Louis’ every word and action. He saw the dynamic, we all did, and if you were in Simon’s situation, you’d get Louis to sort it out, right? At the nip of the bud, you choose the 18 year old to get the 16 year old to do what you want them to do, because he looks up to Louis. Louis can guide him by being older and wiser and more of a dominant personality. The obvious choice was Louis, and starting there. And Simon did.

That day after the wonderful gay club show, Louis was flown out directly to Simon’s place in LA or whatever mansion he was in at the time, and chastised the fuck out of him. Hes said that before. Harry and Louis were all over each other that night, and they were so damn happy. But Simon doesn’t fly them both out to settle this, he just flies louis out. He puts Louis in a position where he’s telling Harry what to do, rather than chastising them as a team (which im sure he did at other times, but anyway, this is the stem).

So, sweet little Harry as he lives and breathes, is trying to be all in for Louis, and Louis is making sure he doesn’t overstep the boundaries. We’ve seen it a heap of times, and that’s really important to note. Louis did the denials, Louis had the long term gf, and Louis dealt directly with Simon, more so than Harry, i imagine. Harry had to have the womaniser image so he was always busy with that, and Louis had to have the commitment so they were never single at the same time (until all of the members were coincidentally single at the same time which was amazing hahaha).

So, we can already see the imbalance there, with proof. Anyway, as Harry grows into a more flamboyant person and starts wearing gucci and louder colours etc., people are already questioning his sexuality. He’s this sexy, charming man, with an image of already having a lot of partners, so it was easier to believe if he came out and was “experimenting”, rather than being in a long term het relationship. You get what im saying?

So, out of the two of them, it seems more likely that Harry comes out. He gets a lot of press, larries are getting excited, but also, Larry gets mentioned a few times in the media around 2015, during this Xander and H thing. And while Harry is the “frontman”, gets all the attention and we can already see how much of a superstar he is and mgmt/the Azoffs can see a very successful solo career for him, he’s allowed to be a bit ambiguous. Bring up the ratings, keep things fun and sexy and exciting. Even during One Direction, Louis just wasn’t as popular to the GP. so, it’s an easy choice. Harry.

(Also Harry is louis’ baby and he’d want to protect him at all costs and let him be free over his own happiness)

My bet is mgmt wouldn’t let them come out together at the same time bc that’s too much of a scandal, but also it exposes them. It’s a compromise. But, it doesn’t end up following through and Louis’ stuck with a stunt until the time is right and Harry is continued to be seen with every leggy gal who needs a bit of promo. The narrative was changing, and the seeding for Harry back then has even worked now. He’s so much more free. So, yeah. He’s a lot more free to do what he wants, and he also doesn’t have a kid tied to him. Unfair? Yes. But i believe Louis did do this whole thing for the sake of Harry, and mgmt wanted it to be Harry.

Now, about how they’ll come out… i mean… a tell all would be great, but they’ll be sued by a million folks who still hold a great deal of money and power over them. I truly don’t think a tell all will happen for a long time. It doesn’t seem plausible to me right now. And the thing is… if mgmt hadn’t have dealt them any stunts, and let them be single the whole time, they could’ve come out way sooner and been like “yeah we’re dating and we didn’t want to make it public” and get away without the whole forcible closeting thing. It would’ve been a smart move. But it’s all in the name of PR, and relationships and sightings of the boys with girls make money.

Anyway, who knows. They might break and just say fuck it and do it. But with budding careers, they need to be smart about this. Harry is at the height of his career (i think his absence from everything right now is very smart btw), and Louis is on the rise. They have to end the bbg thing (I’ve talked about my theories on this before and how best to end it, and i think i should probably send it to mgmt to save their asses), because I don’t think Louis would wanna be tied to that for the rest of his life.

However, Harry and Louis are enemies to the GP right now. So they’re gonna have to seed a friendship, then a relationship, and it’s gonna be a much longer process than a big bang. Depends on how savvy both their marketing teams are. But also, Harry is kinda.. halfway out? People don’t really believe he’s straight. Hes not yet given himself an official title to the public (he doesn’t have to), but he’s got one foot out of the closet. Louis is still stuck in fucking Narnia at the moment.

So if Harry wants to wait until louis can come out and they do it together, that’s great, but absolutely nothing about louis’ sexuality has been seeded. I think even at this point in his career it’s not gonna get much attention from the public, and bbg is still hanging over his head. So it’s kinda like… Harry is halfway out with a hell of a lot more freedom but hasn’t officially come out, who knows? Maybe he is waiting for Louis? Or he’s just enjoying the ambiguous nature of it all. He doesn’t have to announce anything and he’s on top of the world. Most people are seeing him for who he is.

Louis is just so focused on his career right now that I don’t think he’s pushing for the same amount of freedom. He’s trying to make a name for himself and a solo career that separates him from the idea that he’s “riding Harry’s coattails” or whatever tf people will say if they came out as dating. So I think he’s super focused on doing what he loves, and yeah. He’s not as fussed right now. And he’s still in a sticky situation with bbg, so he’s doing what he can to hint at us that he’s still there and thinking about it and it’ll happen, but not right now.

I truly think they both do wanna come out, even if it doesn’t seem like a priority for Louis rn, and Harry is kinda halfway there. It’s a weird little awkward timing for them I think. And don’t get me wrong, I want them to do whatever makes them happy and what’s right for their careers, but until we get some serious seeding and not just stuff larries pick up, it won’t happen.

Unless yeah, a big drop of everything and they expose everyone. Stranger things have happened. But it jeopardises their careers and networks big time.

Anyway, this turned way longer than I thought, and I probably repeated myself a bunch bc im exhausted from work, but if you have any specific questions about what I said, you’re more than welcome to send through! These big topics are always hard to grasp anything. Damn, im still rambling. Sorry, and thank you anon! Big love to you x

#anon #answered #bbg #stunts

[nachorong]

howdy! erin here🤠 with na chorong. i know i know, i have a plethora of ims to respond to, sorry about that! i’m putting jinri on a brief hold as i’m tweaking some stuff, but have my muse in the meantime. more about chorong below the cut. yk the usual: feel free to dm me @ myjinri for plots/like this post for me to come to you. discord is available upon request! (patience will be needed with me </3 i should still be out at the time of acceptance, but will get back to everything when i get home )

i’m going to keep the background brief until i fully type out her backstory bc i really don’t wanna have to read whatever i write again to make edits

it always seemed as if na chorong had it easy in life. an extremely supportive family backing her dreams, along with getting scouted to a big agency and meeting quick success with her tv and film debut. it all seemed like the easiest path was handed to her

the fact that she came from a struggling family and faced the numerous rejections before she struck gold with adagio often forgotten. or the unexplained break she took in acting

 growing up, she always loved performing skits in front of her family. she was often the center of attention with whatever production she had ready. this led to her joining drama clubs and participating in local plays put on around her.

scouted by adagio at a school play. auditioned and got in, trained for a while before she made a public appearance in a music video. her official television debut was a year after that, and her film debut was the following year after the tv debut.

she was rising in popularity but a sudden personal issue arose! and she couldn’t accept any scripts as she couldn’t fully commit to the long scheduling that came with filming anything.

still did work during that time, usually in things that required less time, such as appearing in magazines, walking the runway, or even just making an appearance at a fashion show.

finally made her return to acting and it was almost like she never left. quickly got back into the swing of things and started steadily building up her popularity again. now including more modeling gigs in her schedule, but acting was something she prioritized over anything else.

2021-2022 was the busiest timeframe in her life, filming projects back to back. thinks she’s done enough to not have to film for another two years at least. hasn’t filmed anything or picked up a new script since the glory because she needed a break badly.

so here she is now, in 2023 enjoying as much of her break as she can because who knows when the company will come knocking at her door with another project for her to look at.

 currently

loves her career but the recent string of projects she starred in back to back left her begging adagio for a hiatus. was not granted, but was met in the middle with another “unofficial hiatus” from acting. ( l o l let’s see if this lasts long )

focused on her brand deals and promoting them in the meantime. really? doesn’t consider herself to be an actual? model? feels more like a fraud if you ask her, but yes she has walked in shows and appeared in magazines. most of those opportunities came because of her status as an actress, anyway.

searching for a new avenue to explore. she needs something different to spice her life up! something to give her a real challenge since she’s been doing this stuff for years.

deep down she wishes one of her projects would flop so the projects can shift to someone else, but her pride doesn’t let her half-ass anything. she’s always all-in.

personality

dont let the public image fool u, chorong is not as uptight and “serious” as she makes herself appear. typically the mood maker on set / seen goofing around with costars. the act is just to suit the adagio rep.

she still has a level of professionalism to her though. formalities until she considers you close enough to be a friend.

think she’s pretty approachable?? but may be a little bit intimidating  bc of her seniority? dont worry she doesn’t bite.

always up for new experiences and open to trying out new things. can be spontaneous and act on impulses.

ambitious, that’s how she got to this point in her career. wants to do everything to the best of her ability.

a little irritable, but has mastered controlling that feeling. for the most part. can be a bit snarky and argumentative once irritated though.

quick plot ideas since my plots page likely isn’t finished lmfao

are you looking to take acting more seriously / just wants some advice? well it’s your lucky day, chorong, a well known name in the industry, is coincidentally right there.

industry friends <3 long spanning career, i envision she may have more friends around her age/older but she’d also extend herself out to younger people as well, it just might be a little harder for her to do so? 

random friends bc she loves meeting new people. good luck on trying to get close to her though.

close knit circle of friends that’s not really publicized.

someone who dislikes chorong for whatever reason. maybe they think her quick rise to success or the way she manages to skirt her way out of any rumors / potential scandals suspicious.

or vice versa chorong dislike your muse for whatever reason. maybe it’s a bad first impression or the reputation that follows them? 

++ potentially having chorong star in ur music video ( girlie hasn’t done that in over 10 years, but she found her 1 experience fun and wouldn’t be opposed to doing it again )

past relationships / flings. she’s a very passionate and intense partner, and busy schedules often do not bode well for her. we can come up for numerous reasons for a separation.

her current flavor of the week. or maybe the month? really, any potential current / more recent love interests. longevity varies depending on how she feels about the other.

#thefourintro #yea i'll add more to this when i'm not half awake #i really should be on soon!! that's if im timing things correctly #by soon maybe like another hour or two #when i say brief hold i mean it should be over by the end of the weekend

[nix-rose]

growing up

sorta rant, i just dont know who else to tell.

tw: de@th, being alone, dating, stuff like that

Its always happening but in the last few years its really caught up to me. Im an adult, no longer in highschool i have this huge fear of my younger siblings forgetting how we have so much fun together, of someday my grandparents and parents are going to leave, to an amazing place but I'll still be here. And what if something horrible were to happen and the last thing i said to someone was something mean or uncaring. I end every phone conversation or text to a family member or close friend with an i love you because of that fear.

Im currently on a vacation with my siblings and parents and were staying with our grandparents. My grandma doesnt approve of our lifestyle and how my mom chose to homeschool my sibling and i so i feel like i have to always be happy because otherwise my grandma will say something like "oh, you poor thing." and guilt my mom about how she still kinda tells me what to do.

I have an amazing relationship with both of my parents and I love them so much, so when my mom asks me to do stuff I have no problem helping out. she raised me and my siblings all these years, its the least i can do. but my grandmother doesnt see it that way and always brings up how "You're an adult, you dont have to listen to what she says-" which pisses me off to no end, she doesnt understand how much i enjoy helping of course there are times that i dont feel like doing something but if i say anything about it my gma will start going on about how im an adult and i shouldnt have to listen to my mom still. it feels like an endkess cycle and i feel like i cant cry in front of anyone anymore because otherwise its "you poor thing" and i dont want fucking pity i just miss people i can talk to with out feeling judged.

now onto a different subject, dating. Im not going to lie, Ive never had a first kiss, never had a boyfriend, im very very social but I havent clicked with anyone. I get so worried that I'm not going to find a guy whos sweet and caring and likes me. I feel like I'm ready to commit but these guys I've met either ghost me or just straight up ignore my texts for days at a time. I see so many people getting in to relationships and i just wish i could have that.

Anyways, if anyone does read this hi, welcome to my mess of life and enjoy your stay.

#nix-rose speaks #personal rant #vent #its a mess #i think i need help #who knows not me

[cassthecringe]

OC! TIME!!

<3 thank u to everyone who has encouraged me now u get oc lore tonight rather than tomorrow

so, here's a collection of notes re characters and worldbuilding. some of this is stuff i already had in my head but im ready to share publicly now, and some of this is stuff that is genuinely as new to me as it'll be for yall but im set on it so. here we go

character updates

so i've mentioned arha is a solider*. the truth is arha is originally a soldier for the opposing country to ai/william/adalia's. in fact she and ai et al meet because arha is captured after a battle. arha is snapping at people and fully prepared to be either tortured or killed or sent to an absolutely abysmal prison and she is not looking forward to it so she's hoping for the best of the options (dying) by provoking them. shes honestly exhausting to deal with so she gets relegated to a tent as a makeshift jail for a while LOL. eventually ai comes in as part of her duties and is like "are you ready to be a normal person and go get dinner" and arha is like "what" and ai is like "it's dinner time. i was sent to fetch you. or did you want to see the doctor first." "arent you going to kill me" "why the fuck would we kill you when you surrendered already" oh arha mad af about that line she doesnt like being reminded of surrendering she's so prideful but she's also confused af. she grew up being told that if the enemy caught her she was for sure going to fucking die and be miserable while she did but here therye offering medical attention?? arha does not like being left in the dark so she just complies. to a point. basically she jsut follows ai around and makes her explain things and ai is like so fucking annoyed but arha wont leave her alone no matter how snippy she is or how much she ignores her so she figures answering her questions will get her to leave her alone (at least until they finish this campaign and return to the capital and arha in theory goes to actual jail. of course arha grows on her and vice versa. cause . im weak. theyre gonna be endgame whatever that means)

adalia kills a man revealed: the man is her country's fucking general. th set up: upon return to the capital after aforementioned campaign, another drafting occurs, and since this is common place seeing as they have been at war for 100 years now, no one is really surprised and it doesnt raise super big alarms however the rules have changed while ai adalia and william's troop were out; age of enlistment has been lowered. zoinks! so context for it: when they make it back to the capital, ai and arha return to ai's mother's house. ai's mom is really uspet over arha being there and she and ai get into a big argument about it. ai's mom is like "i just dont understand why you care, her country killed your father and brother" and ai is like "no YOU did when you refused to LOOK FOR THEM" and she storms out. arha of course follows but before she does ai's mom asks her to please look out for ai cause "she obviously chose you. you need to choose her too. you need to. i will never forgive you if you don't." arha is troubled by this but agrees and ai's mom lets them go. they go to adalia's house to spend the night but uh oh Adalia Has Killed A Man. while arha and ai clean her up as her family is gathering supplies for travel packs, adalia manages to shakily explain: when adalia came home, she found the general there and he was drafting her two siblings (twins, aged 12). adalia could not let that happen so in her panic, and in line with her training, she jsut swung a sword at her problems. this kills the man. uh oh! and now adalia has to flee cause like. she can't stay she has committed utmost treason. and the general is Going to be found and if her family tries to hide it they are going to Die and adalia is not gonna let that happen. so she will run. arha and ai go with her of course. and on their way out of the city william finds them cause already, when the general never appeared at the next house he was supposed to draft from, military personnel had been deployed over the city to investigate. william decides to go with them too cause he's just too soft and frankly he doesnt wanna participate in a military that engages use of child soldiers it's not what he signed up for. wow it's almost like both countries have their skeletons and both were employing fucked up tactics against their citizens...anyway. the silver lining is that adalia killing the general did in fact save her siblings form being drafted (for now) cause the houses were chosen at complete random it's kinda like a fucked up lottery thing. since adalia wont let her family cover up her crime and in fact makes them turn her in (just yknow once she's out of the house; theyre gonna be all "oh we woke up in the night and found the general dead and adalia gone") so that officials wont punish them by sending in the twins anyway cause like, as far as the law is concerned they had nothing to do with adalia turning rogue. but this wont keep them from being named in other drafts...but we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

ther's gonna be an underwater arc and ai is . well. ai. (: m'beware the light. n'lol

qiu, due to being raised by dragons ie some of the most blunt species on the planet, just fucking sucks at human social etiquette. he is very forthcoming and his speaking tone is very flat and he does not Do minor facial expressions his face shifts from its resting state only to full-on smile or full-on frown etc. he is very honest in this way but he reads as very blunt and honestly? kinda mean. but he's literally not trying to be he's just standing there. if you know anything about deaf culture he's very similar to that. just no filter or what human hearing etiquette calls a filter. he also gestures in weird ways cause dragons do most of their gestures with wings cause theyre tetrapods and qiu obviously is bipedal. he's got constantly chicken wings going on also t-rex hands

im going to be candid btw arha and ai are based on my read on noritaro. so sorry. it's the only way i could get myself to think about these guys again after three years forgive me

william is 44. when ai's village was raided when he had just officially become a soldier, so he was called in to help reclaim the town and drive off the enemy soldiers. he and ai never actually meet during this because ai and her mom were long gone by the time reinforcements arrived, but he saw firsthand how fucking ravanged the village was and how indescriminate the killing was so when he finds out ai is from there and was a child during that, he just can't help but feel bad honestly. like he's nice in general but that's the reason he gives ai so much leeway. he kinda pities her. she hates him for it a little but eventually it evolves past pity and as such she stops hating him

worldbuilding:

the reason ai at el and arha's countries are at war is cause, okay. country a (ai et al's country) and country b (arha's country) are both world superpowers. there are others beside them but theyre big players in the game so to speak. both are very influential etc. however they're very different: country a is a xenophobic ethnostate that hates magic for religious reasons, and country b is based on a huge metropolis of many intersecting races and such, such as orcs, humans, dwarves, elves, etc. im still adding stuff. and theyre very big on magic. one day 100 years ago kingdom b accuses kingdom a of stealing a very important magical artifact in order to get an edge on them in terms of world superpowerism. kingdom a is very offended that they've been accused of wanting fucking anything to do with magic let alone dealing with kingdom b or lands that have people not of the same ethnicity and they accuse kingdom b right back of making shit up, esp cause kingdom b won't actually describe the artifact or what it does, just so they can use it as a bartering tool for their land (there has been a few land disputes over resources lately). so war breaks out cause neither side is happy and there's already a lot of judgement and irritation going in. so. yikes

magic! speaking of! let's discuss. it's something anyone can learn in this world but some people are more naturally inclined to it. it's a lot like being ambidextrous: some people just know intuitively how to do it and others have to be taught but either way both can do it and both can be very good at it. witches are magic users that had to be taught and wizards are magic users that had a natural affinity for it. witches tend to use wands/staffs as conduits for magic; helps to get from point a to point b. wizards tend to use staffs/wands as well but just to make their spells more powerful. everyone has a sort of magical energy just by being alive in this world. however the amount of magical energy you have in you is finite like ur body isn't just gonna keep making more on its own just like normal energy, and if you drain yourself of your own juice by using too much magical energy you will die! so to replenish the supply (think of it like a health bar) you can do various things that all amount to just, using other lifeforms' magical energy. like, you know how energy from the sun is traced along the food chain. it's like that here. you can like take something's magical energy by eating it, by rubbing it on yourself like sunscreen and absorbing things that way, or inhaling things, etc. just any way you can think of how you get a vitamin, it's similar for how you can take magical energy from things. what your magic is and what it does depends on what you take magical energy from

um yes i believe that's all. i didnt proofread this so sorry. if you actually read all of this i think youre a fuckin saint

#cass cries #ocs

[mellowwangxianenthusiast]

UshiSakuAtsu Hurt/Comfort

Ushijima heard Atsumus voice drifting from their bedroom when he got home from practice. He pressed a kiss to the top of Sakusas head, taking a deep breath as he smelled what Sakusa was cooking. "Is that dinner tonight or are you meal prepping?"

"Dinner. Made Atsu's favorite, he had a bad day today so I thought I'd make something to cheer him up." Sakusa gave Ushijima a kiss when he turned his head, smiling when it was reciprocated. "Atsumu had a bad day? What happened?"

"Yeah Im not sure what it was, he didn't want to talk about it yet. I think he's on the phone with Osamu so he probably wanted to talk to him about it first." Neither were offended whenever Atsumu sought out comfort from his twin first, they knew he would come to them eventually

"I see. Do you want any help?" They fell into a comfortable silence in the kitchen, music was softly playing from their Alexa. "I just, I dont get why Rin won't commit to moving in with me yet. I even said I'd open a new store in Shizuoka but that just didn't seem to be what he wanted." Atsumu hummed as he listened before he adjusted how he was sitting on the bed, his chin resting on his knee. "Maybe Rins just not ready for the commitment yet of moving in. Ya know he loves you but I think Rin just wants to take things slower. Have you asked what he wants right now?" "....no, I kind of just thrust the idea onto him. Ah fuck, you're probably right Tsumu. What did you wanna talk about again?" Atsumu let out a breath of relief, he had called Osamu an hour ago, and immediately his twin started talking about his relationship problems, ones he's heard before and had given advice already. "Foster wants to start putting in the other

Setter in practice matches and I'm just worried that he's gonna replace me. Just something was off and I'm just worried" "Oh I see. I doubt that's what's happening. Oh Rins calling I got to go, love ya Tsumu." Atsumu barely had time to say bye when Osamu hung up. Tossing his

Phone aside, he ran a hand through his hair, feeling his frustration and hurt grow more. He hadn't wanted to talk to Sakusa and Ushijima about it yet, he needed someone outside of Volleyball to talk to it about and Osamu was just out of the sphere enough to understand his fear

Deep down Atsumu knew he wasn't going to get replaced as starting setter, but the voice in his head wouldn't stop whispering 'Nobody likes you' 'You're easily replacable' And when the voice was feeling particularly evil? 'Ushi and Omi don't need you.' 'They don't want you'

'They'd be better off without you. They'd be happier if you were gone' Atsumu had never opened that door for them to see inside of it. He couldn't let them see his darkest insecurities. He couldn't risk losing them. When Sakusa had knocked on their door, Atsumu had already begun to spiral down that dark hole, barely registering what had been said. He's quiet through dinner, quiet when they clean up, and he doesn't try and cuddle with them as the sit on the couch to watch movies

By the time they were about to get into bed, Sakusa and Ushijima were watching him like hawks. Atsumu normally slept in the middle of the two, he liked being held by both of them, but that night he just stared at the bed before shaking his head to himself and he left the room. They found him sitting in the guestroom, staring at the window with a vacant look in his eyes. "Atsu, talk to us. Let us help you" "Tsumu, tell us what's wrong so we can fix it" They sat on either side of him, Ushijimas hand on his shoulder, Sakusas on his thigh. "Nothins wrong. The room was too hot for me, you guys go sleep in there, I'll be fine in here" "Were staying wherever you are, you shouldn't be alone right now, I can see the wheels in your head turning and I just want to say, and I think Omi would agree, whatever your brain is

Telling you is wrong." Atsumus eyes widened a fraction and they knew they had hit the correct assumption. "Atsu?" The kiss to his temple made him shudder, as if his whole body was thawing in an instant and his eyes started watering. "No one cares about me, not really. No one

Wants to listen to my problems because I don't matter to anyone. I'm just a placeholder, and the moment something better comes along I'm going to be thrown away. I'm only- I'm only wanted when people need to vent about their problems but- but if I /ever/ try to talk about mine?"

Atsumu took a deep breath, pausing and Ushijima and Sakusa shared a look, knowing if they interrupted him, they'd prove hum right. "If I ever talk about mine, im selfish. I'm stupid. I'm self centered. Osamu was right when we were younger, nobody really likes /me/. I'm just so

Tired of being the one everyone comes to because the moment I try and go to someone I'm punished." By the time he finished talking, the tears pooling in his eyes had started to fall and Ushijima pulled him into his arms while Sakusa wipes his face. "Tsumu I'm sorry people make you feel this way. I'm sorry Osamu ever said that to you, and I'm extremely sorry if either of us have ever made you feel like you're just a temporary thing" Atsumu cried into Ushijimas chest as the taller man talked. Then it was Sakusas turn to talk

"Atsu, you aren't a burden on us, and you aren't something we ever want to throw away. You can always come to us about whatever it is you're feeling, you won't scare us away by being honest and you won't lose us either. We're here to stay for as long as you'll let us be with you"

Atsumu grabbed at Sakusas hand on his thigh, bringing it up to his chest so he could hold onto it. It took awhile for Atsumu to stop crying and when he did, he was ready to talk. He told them everything including, after a bit of gentle coaxing, his fears of them leaving him. They didn't mock or laugh at him once, and there was not a single sign of disgust or boredom as he spoke. Sakusa was the first one to speak up when Atsumu finished, and he was stroking Atsumus hair as he talked "Atsu, we will never leave you. You are the sun in our life. You

Bring laughter and light everywhere you go and we would be absolute fools to abandon that. We will be here until you don't want us here anymore. I meant that earlier, I mean that now, and I'll mean it forever. I love you." He leaned forward and kissed Atsumu when he turned to

Look at him. Ushijima waited until Sakusa was finished before he spoke. "You know I'm not as good with words as Kiyo but I agree with everything hes said. Your presence feels like home and it feels like where I belong. You complete Sakusa and I."

Ushijima pressed a kiss to the top of Atsumus head. The blonde looked at the two with wide eyes, almost feeling like he was in a dream and was waiting for reality to kick in. When it didnt come, a small smile appear on his face and he nodded, and despite the redness of his eyes

And the tear stains on his cheeks, that smile was the most beautiful smile they had ever seen. "You both make me feel complete too..you make me truly feel like I'm wanted" And he was, Miya Atsumu was wanted. They would be having a talk with Osamu, but that would be another day

But tonight, they were focused on rebuilding Atsumu up, one kiss at a time.

#UshiSakuAtsu #ushijima wakatoshi #sakusa kiyoomi #miya atsumu #Atsumu needs a hug #miya osamu #miya twin angst #atsumu is loved #osamu is stupid sometimes #haikyuu #haikyuu!! #moving from twitter #sorry for the format

[carmenthabaddie]

3 day juice fast 🥤

I am doing a 3 day juice fast. I’m gone drink green apple, ginger and celery for 3 days. And drink plenty of water. I’m doing this for health reasons. I lingering cough that will not go away. I tried everything. Tuesday going to my primary doctor and getting a referral to the lung doctor. I just want to be healthy and strong immune system. My immune system so fucked up.

I am doing this juice fast to eat better and lose weight and 2024 more juicing and more fruits and vegetables. Green leafy greens and vitamin C foods. I get weighed at my monthly mental health appointment and I went up to 229 from 222. I been in the 220s for a few years. I been maintaining my weight but I’m ready to lose more weight. Took my resistance bands out where I can see them and do workouts with them watching YouTube resistance bands workout videos and also my 5 pound kettlebells. But I’m mostly doing cardio.

I want get peloton but the seats be uncomfortable since I’m plus size. I want and need stop avoiding and making excuses on why I can’t go to the gym. I scheduled workouts in my digital planner and none of the days I scheduled I didn’t go. I don’t know how to drive and my family is older and by time my step dad gets off it’s late or raining and I try to be considerate since they doing me a favor. So im not gone stress about going to the gym until I can drive and take myself.

So I should start planning and scheduling my resistance bands, kettlebells, treadmill, and maybe Pilates and want get mini stepper and do mini stepper workouts. And schedule in my digital planner and hold myself accountable and my friend who have similar goals. Do this until I can drive.

I want to practice driving more. My step dad be too busy. I’m gone ask if we can practice before he works in the morning. Or wait for my grandma permanently move down here in South Carolina with us. It will happen. Patience is a virtue and I’m learning that some shit takes time. The more I do and consistent the faster shit manifest for me. I’m doing good. Proud of my growth and me taking control and creating my dream life. I’m the creator of my life. And people especially black women should know that we are creators of our lives.

I am gone start being strict and actually save money. And stop blowing my money. I need to be more responsible with my money. My family live above they means. February im paying my bills and saving $100 and don’t touch it. Save up for a IPad. I need a new tripod. Or save up Final Cut Pro to edit my YouTube videos. And plan my content , film , take photos, edit and post and have schedule and make hella content and not post it all in one day. And use my vlogging camera and give good advice for other black women growing, leveling up and on they glow up journey.

Created a budget, investment list, and my plans for 2024. I need to stick to my goals and hold myself accountable and put in work. Do what I say I am doing. Not depending on motivation but depending on determination, consistency, commitment, dedication , discipline. I am not perfect but I’m doing better and holding myself more accountable. I’m going hard all 2024. Praying this cough go away. Had this cough for months. Been dependent on sleeping pills and think it’s making me cough. I find it hard to stop getting high off sleeping pills. I take prayer cause this cough just won’t go away.

I’m gone start listening and reading more self help books and applying the information and sharing what I learned with other black women leveling up and glowing up knowledge is power. It’s my time to shine. Put myself first and others last. I deserve to have it all. I love who the fuck who I am. Spirit and my beautiful black ancestors all I need. My sp David will message me and follow on social media and stalk my post and be obsessed about me since I’m the definition of what a bad bitch all day everyday period.

I am doing good. I’m going so hard. I always get my way. Spirit and black ancestors in me and giving me hella spiritual abilities to help me rich and famous and love and be myself. I love who the fuck I am. I am gone practice singing more and start showing my singing as soon as I figure out how do it without copyright taking sound down. I’m blessed with singing abilities and dance abilities and beautiful face and body. My weight gone melt off and the number on the scale doesn’t trigger me. The number has nothing to do with my self worth. The old story is me extreme dieting. New story is me being happy and taking my time and not making me miserable on my weight loss journey. More juice fasting.

And gone learn more about Fin Dom and onlyfans and making X rated content. And men worshipping and praising and pleasing me and paying me. I’m going hard. And it’s me vs me. I am a icon and trendsetter. I’m bad bitch goals.

#black femininity #black hypergamy #hypergamy #spoiled girlfriend #black beauty #black girl moodboard #black woman aesthetic #black women in luxury #i wanna lose weight #black girl manifest

[ducknotinarow]

[87 Rasey] “It looks worse than it is. I’m sure it’ll be gone in a couple of days…”

| Muse interaction

Raphael wasn't all to sure what to think when he got to Casey's place only to find no Casey. Curious enough he actually used the key Casey gave him over going through the back window to make his way inside. Just to be on the safe side as he wonder around it wasn't too big so it was easy after about a couple minute to see that Casey just wasn't home. After peeking into the few other rooms like the kitchen, bed room and bathroom. Just making sure Casey wasn't having one of those moments either. Raphael just hummed to himself as he idly looked around the place. He was over plenty of times so not like there was anything he wouldn't notice being out of place. The framed photo of his mother was still in the usual spot. Raphael just smiled looking at it a moment.

Casey really seem to take after her in looks, was the usual thought he had when he did look at the photo. Before sighing out dramatically and making his way to the couch where he decided to sit down and wait. Laying back against it head resting to the arm of it as he stared at the ceiling. "hmm must be running late from work" he muses to himself debating if he should turn on the TV to pass the time or, feed the curious need and start rummaging through Casey things because the temptation was growing stronger as he stay in the apartment by himself. It's not like Raphael was going to steal or anything from Casey. He just wanted to go through Casey's things mostly to see if he could find anything interesting.

And maybe to get Casey to give him that one face, the one that says 'i'm annoyed with you but im a push over for you too' Because when it came to Casey? Raphael pretty much could get away with murder.

Before Raphael could go and commit any crimes though the front door opened and Raph sprung to stand up on the couch and look over the back of it smile wide and tail, happily, hidden behind his back as it wag. Raphael seeing Casey basically fill the frame of the door ready to greet them, and maybe admit he did actually use the key for once but all words died in his beak once he got a good look at Casey's face. It wasn't truly as bad as it looked but in the turtles eyes it was as if he was witnessing Casey walking in after being maimed! Quick to hop over the back of the couch and run over to him. Raphael was grabbing on to Casey's arm and tugging them down more on his level for a better look.

"What happened?!" He demanded right away as he looked over Casey's face it didn't seem to bad compared to the rest of him thanks to the fact he always wore a mask when he was out on his vigilantly nights.

“It looks worse than it is. I’m sure it’ll be gone in a couple of days…”

"It looks like you got into a fight with a cheese grader, gonna have to call you Casein now instead!" even in his moment of worry and panic that need to crack a joke and make light of things couldn't help but come through meaning Casey's little smile showed on his face. Either from the fact he got Raphael's pun just then, or he liked the worry and attention he was getting. Or he was just assumed by Raphael’s reaction as the turtle tugged him into the apartment and shut the door behind them.

"Jeez are ya still trying to pick fights with Shredder after the whole copy right infringement stuff?" Grilling his boyfriend because he knows Casey is well Casey and that means he'll pick any fight thrown for him to take. Casey wasn't one to back down after all. But that wasn't exactly a comfortable thought when you were a but if a worry wort like Raphael could be.

"Sit down, young man!" He snaps as he points out towards the couch for Casey. "What would your mother think if she saw you as such a mess." He wasn't serious, of course. The scolding tone was serious, but he was still slipping into his more humorous habit of his as he fixed Casey with a stern glare. "Stop with the smile." He slightly smiles himself now "you better have at least won. Or else it's gonna be real embarrassing for me to be see walking around with someone who got thier ass whooped."

Raphael mocks them a little as he looks Casey over closer easier todo Wilhelm his gains of a man wasn't standing up. It really wasn't as bad as it looked bruises would likely heal over soon enough the cuts where already scaring and healing Raphael letting a slight breath of reilfe escape from his beak in that moment. "You weren't found out or nothing right?" Now for the serious questions.

Knowing about Casey's connection to the purple Dragons why they were so fixed on keeping themself as hidden as possible. Knowing how close they have already gotten to Casey with the attack on his moms bakery even. Well often left Raphael's mind to wonder and worry that Casey would be figured out. That they would jump or something he been trying to bust up his father's plans with his gang after all. Even if Casey won the right to leave. Raphael wasn't sure how much honor a group of thugs turely had among them. Casey in his limited vocabulary did at least settle that worry away and once more Raphael was able to breath again.

"Good." He simply answers before letting go to make his way to Casey's bathroom for the first aid kit. "Lucky you showed up when ya did I was getting noted waiting around you." Hurmor returned now that worry could be soothed away. "I wanted to snoop around ya things again see what other embrassing secrets ya holding out on me. I mean the tying up stuff prettt kinky Case. Ya wear a mask and all bond to have some more freaky stuff stashed away ya ain't telling me about." He dosent even need to be looking at them to know the expression he's going to see when he comes back out with the kit in hand.

"Or maybe I find all your sercet love notes for me that profess all your undying love for me at last." A joke he often like to make ar Casey expenses. Poking his head out from the bathroom as he smiles at them "clearly you beat up someone who said they got a thing for me because how dare anyone try and take me from you." He knows that's not ture but Casey hadn't given him the full story yet after all. As he return to join them back at the couch and see about what he could do for Casey current state. "Hey I gotta fill in tje narrative besides my version of the story sounds better already."

#muse| hamato raphael #madamkezzie #aflockoffeathers #[ if you jumped of a bridge its only cause i did first -aflockoffeathers] #muse interaction #ic reply #stay queued #tw: injury mentioned #tw: puns uwu

[dumbbitchfrommars]

okay.

im purging the past. thats whats happening. scorpio season has come through guns blazing, bringing reminders of my distant past that ive struggled to let go of despite all my adamance that it doesnt matter anymore. it always mattered. it mattered so much it kept me from living my life, from meeting new people, from realising that i was worth so much better.

maybe i wasnt worth better. but now i am. it took time, i grew up, i changed. i found out who i am. what i value. what matters to me, how i could embody that and how i could attract that into my life with that outlook.

and now... the tests begin. days in a row of reminders from the past. murray was the worst of it, or maybe he was the least of it? he was the beginning. and jacinta was the end. alan was the end. im better than all of it. even sexy, beautiful, pretty photography boy murray. hes just another version of luke and adam. there are few people who are worthy of me now, and honestly, i am still not ready for a man in my life. but when i am i will see the signs. my era is friendships. finding the fulfilling, heart expanding, easy, connected friendships with women that i always dreamed and desired for. when i was a little girl. when i grew up. its always been about finding my forever tribe. and im beginning to find the foundations of that...

and even if theyre not forever, theyre right now, and i know my worth and i know how to protect my energy if things go awry. the most important thing is that i feel loved, and i feel surrounded by love, and i feel the freedom of being able to share all the love and kindness i hold in my heart, without being afraid of it being taken for granted or sucked away with nothing given in return. i am so blessed and lucky to have reached this turning point in my life.

and it only took until 22.

i came on here to write about all the reminders from the past... to go into detail about the signs and symbols and synchronicities... but they werent the forefront. well - they were. they happened and they triggered the memories to come back up. but the fact is... ive spent so much time on them already. i dont need to re analyse people ive spent hours drawing in my mind. the signs were there for a reason and i like to think i appreciate that divine reason. God sends me challenges only because she knows I can handle them. because she knows i will adapt to them, grow from them, and see the message she wanted me to hear... to see the subtext in that message. the subtext!

not to mention me seeing 11:11 while breaking down in tears about all my boy troubles. the truth is, they were all unworthy of me in the same exact ways. i wont gain anything from having them in my life in the same way i havent lost anything by removing them from it. they served a purpose, yes. they helped me. they taught me so much. but they were never meant to last. and now im stronger for it. everything happens for a reason. ive never felt stronger than i do right now. i rejected a guy that the old me wouldnt have felt worthy of even flirting with. it was so simple and quick too. i did that. i was strong enough to protect my own energy. and thats because i am so in love with and committed to myself. and that is how i strengthen my relationship with myself.

and that is how i made all my desires a reality, because once upon a time i was so heartbroken because i kept letting myself down. because i felt responsible for all the mistakes made by the ones who hurt me. but i get to choose who hurts me.

im making space for people who will love me unconditionally the way i love myself. that appreciate my voice, my thoughts, my creativity, my light. that see me and hear me and want to shower me with love.

ive literally shifted my life into a new fucking timeline. ive changed my whole reality.

while my heart breaks for the ones i once loved. i send out a prayer for them, for their healing, and for their happiness. but my own wellbeing is my priority now. the way it should always be, the way it will always be now. I AM MY PRIORITY. my happiness. im sorry (no, im really not), but i come first. and so it is....