#but anxiety and bad lungs

[tittyinfinity]

ahhhh so it makes absolute sense as to why it's so hard to sleep the past couple of nights now (other than not taking my meds)

#was at the hospital on wednesday due to feeling like i couldn't get enough oxygen in my lungs and going numb & being unable to move #well i just woke up from a nap with an anxiety attack bc my allergies have been bad #and my nasal passages being swollen makes me feel like it could start happening again #.bdo

[tea-earl-grey]

every time I get an asthma attack from existing in an indoor public place because someone is smoking they should have to pay for the $75 of asthma meds I take every month.

(disclaimer – I fully support the decriminalization and legalization of marijuana. i just also support the right for people with respiratory disabilities and sensitivities to exist)

#personal #vent #im on a FUCKING TRAIN. while im WEARING A MASK #its so easy to NOT SMOKE ON A TRAIN #im fine but my lungs are just gonna be uncomfy for the next two and a half hours. #if its outside its fine i can just move even if im annoyed #but whyyyyyy do so many people think its okay to smoke inside all of a sudden???? #if you need to smoke weed for anxiety i get it bro. but there are options that dont involve putting people at actual medical risk #i had someone tell me it wasnt a big deal once and i got to pull the “i have medically recorded lung damage from covid” card #anyways if youre a smoker cool but please be nice to people with respiratory disabilities. having asthma attacks suck. #i like being in cities but ive learned with how bad my asthma is i just usually have to leave my mask on while im walking around #which is a good practice regardless #i just wish i didnt HAVE to just because of The Smoke and Smells #and btw YES weed smell and smoke can trigger asthma attacks just as much as cigarette smoke!!!!! if not more so for me #same with strong perfumes and stuff #my posts

[findstenicht]

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#hm. i have zero coping mechanisms for anxiety bc its (thankfully) usually not *that* bad #but tonight. hm. you know. tonight i could really use a coping mechanism ill be honest #theres like a million small things and then my grandma had to go to the hospital a couple hours ago #(i dont think she has anything terrible but its. not great) #hate when i can feel it in my chest as if my lungs work on 50% efficiency #i just. i dont know

[stinkrascal]

this trip to colorado has been so eye opening because it has taught me that i could literally never live here

#WOWWWW my stomach. my LUNGS. it is so hard to breathe here 😭😭😭 #the elevation and my life ruining anxiety have been in constant dispute since we got here #actually it wasnt so bad when me and bf were w our friends but when we met up w his family at the airbnb yea suffering began #love his family sm but these people are awful at planning stuff #they think the best way to have a relaxing vacation is by *checks notes* #only scheduling activities that are three hours away from our airbnb 10000 ft in the air on a huge mtn ! #because i just love being in a car for six hours every day praying the car doesnt crash over a massive cliff 😭😭😭 #yeah im suffering you really cant take the country out of the girl huh. I MISS MY SWAMP!!! #im still having fun btw but fuck mountains holy shit theyre so scary and i CANT BREATHE. canned air ily #going from louisiana which is the 2nd lowest elevated state to colorado which is the most elevated is ummm rough to say the least!! #k bye now i’ll see y’all in two days when im finally home rotting away in my bed xo #just needed 2 complain for a sec

[sri-rachaa]

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#Bad night. #So ive mentioned my hyperawareness a lot lately #which is formally called ‘Sensorimotor’ or ‘Somatic’ OCD #and basically it involves episodes where I become overly hyperaware of natural bodily sensations #and my primary focus is breathing #so for the last 4-5 weeks it’s felt like someone’s squeezing my lungs and chest #for the first 2 weeks I was hyper focused on manually breathing #and now it’s that horrible chest tightness and associated anxiety that’s killing me #it’s just #…it’s really shitty #And tonight especially has been horrible #….yeah! that’s all. rant over ;u;

[dredshirtroberts]

hey. hey universe. hey fucker universe.

no one said you could bring back the Wednesday Curse, bitch. fuck off with this shit i didn't need any of this first thing today.

#the Wednesday Curse is related to a span of about... almost 10 years of every single wednesday having something major go wrong #''major'' is a strong word but it would always feel big and afterwards would be when i would notice it was wednesday #it was a lot and i got very tired of it very quickly but it eventually stopped and i stopped noticing wednesdays #because they stopped being bad every single week #i would wake up on a wednesday bracing for whatever terrible news i would learn or whatever horrible thing would happen inevitably #and i stopped having to do that #my dreams lately have been absolutely horrific and last nights/this mornings was.... worse than usual in a way i wasn't anticipating that's #made me very very worried about a dear friend i can't easily reach out to and i'm doing my best at waiting patiently for a response #but it's hard and then the tire on the car exploded *again* so we're scrambling to figure out how to fix that and we've got a plan #and at least 3 butches on the job and it's going to be okay in the end but i have extreme car anxiety and tires going out is one of the mai #triggers for that and i'm just #i'm also still dealing with the tail end (hopefully) of an upper respiratory infection which makes all the crying i keep doing difficult #because i keep needing to hack my lungs out because breathing sucks rn even though i've had all my meds for it #and i'm just... it's just... anyway #i'm having a rough morning #but i am surrounded by people who are very lovely and care a lot and are willing and able to help with whatever they can #and that's helped a lot and it's just... i know i gotta wait patiently for resolution on things and i'm gonna do my best #to calm myself down and try to be less anxious but i'm only able to do that because of the love that surrounds me and it's a lot #it's all a lot and idk man #the spectre of my dad is doing his best to ruin it but he doesn't exist here in this space it's just a bad memory and no one is at fault

[caterpillarinacave]

*violently shaking brain* fucking WORK

#Gonna scream. Would cry but dehaydration. #You know I can deal with the consistent pain the soul crushing loneliness and the constant anxiety gripping my lungs #But I need my brain to at least TRY #Even if it’s bad I don’t give a shit i just need to write an essay #Actuallyautistic #Other peoples voices are making me want to rip my eyes out

[winterwyrd]

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#can someone PLEASE tell my brain we are not dying of carbon monoxide poisoning #a conclusion it has come to because my wife is exhausted all the time and i (with bad lungs and health anxiety) feel like i can't breathe #when im wondering whether we're being poisoned #we have a CO alarm we tested it about a month ago i know logically i am fine #my wife is a teacher its the end of term they're tired #and YET

[wetchickenbreast]

i can’t fucking breathe

#god at least when i smoked i couldn’t breath cuz my resin coated lungs now it’s just anxiety #and probably the bad quality air in jersey from the fires #chicken scratch

[iamthepulta]

feeling romantic. fuck the AU and being productive I'm going to go write a bunch of westlijah

I have karoke in thirty minutes though. Today is just liveblog day so who knows. But tomorrow will be for Westlijah.

#westlijah #Hang on I'm going to talk about them for a second though they are so cute and adorable and dumb. #So E made Elijah's character ridiculous tragic. Everyone around him dies and Elijah travels on the Pyrrhus with the #expectation that everyone there will die too; and the whole fucking rpg he played him terrified until the very end and his character arc #was realizing that sometimes people even your friends make decisions that you can't stop and some people are willing to sacrifice everythin #and there's nothing you can do about that #and it's DEVASTATING at the end because canonically Westlie will not stop flying/working around Albion #even though she literally killed Queen Vicky and could retire and chill; she can't because she's a dumbass workaholic with anxiety. #And Elijah has to live with her traveling and coming home; and they are married in spirit although it probably took fucking forever for the #to fess up after the rpg ended; E and I were just bad about shoehorning their relationship in; and stereotypically #E and I are demisexual as fuck about it so we were like (or I was like) 'oh this will be deeply funny to happen to our characters #and then by the time we actually finished the rpg we were dating #did any of that make sense? does it matter? idk I'm leaving to go sing Our Lady of the Underground at the top of my lungs and play ddr

[freckleslikestars]

Y’know what phrase doctors say that really stresses me out? ‘If it gets worse, come back’

Because like, it’s not got worse, it just hasn’t gotten any better either and like…do I go back for that? Do I wait for the three month review? Cause like…my lungs are still crap. I’m supposed to be performing in a month and I haven’t yet been able to get through the routine without dying of a coughing fit half way through. So. Y’know. That’s fun.

#long story short I’ve had this fucking cough since august and like…none of my inhalers are working and I’m just kinda like #I’m tired of people giving me the ew covid look because it’s not fucking covid and it’s not contagious because nobody around me has it #it’s just my lungs self destructing #also mildly worried it’s something really bad like lung cancer or something. it’s probably not but there’s still that anxiety there

[six-of-ravens]

okay so, if I sit down I just cannot get up I feel so tired and awful, but if I get up and start doing stuff I feel better.

*shakes body* are you sick or not????

#part of it is stiffness from sore muscles that gets better when im up and about #but im starting to wonder if ive been having a very long anxiety attack and thats why my lungs feel bad #meh anyway im gonna make this pasta recipe for lunches next week

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#... all this god damn anxiety and idk everything else ive been losing my mind over lately has led to me smoking so god damn much #without realizing. i keep not understand where the packs of cigarettes are going its actually kinda scary #i bought like 3 yesterday?? yesterday?? (not that it feels at all like yesterday my sense of time is fucked) and they were gone by half #through today #.... and its kept happening. or id buy 2 packs at midday and by next midday id be like?? where the fuck are my cigs #...... my lungs hurt #i really really need to lay off or just quit. #the genetic disorder makes my skin/tissues/etc more easily damaged. and it takes longer to heal #...... so all the smoking has already led to. uhhh. wounds in my mouth and tongue. and my gums are hurting again because of it #not to mention my throath which is fucked..... and all of these were already in bad shape from the bulimia rip #im gonna consider it a miracle if i dont get cancer but also i should reallt stop literally playing with fire and literally burning my body #from the inside out #its a constant discomfort snd pain ive grown used to among all the others but this is too far #..... no idea how im not just gonna start cutting again the moment i quit tho #but tbh. maybe that'd be better???? literally does no long lasting damage. im already covered in scars and i dont mind them. and it wouldnt #give me fucking cancer

[oh-katsuki]

i have like... a really tight muscle or a pinch nerve in my shoulder and it hurts to breathe. 

#it's insane bc like... every time i inhale i feel it #in my shoulder behind my lung #and when it's really bad it goes through my neck and collarbone as well #i've had really tight shoulders since i was young bc my anxiety tends to make my whole body and ESPECIALLY #my shoulder areas tense #(if you poke them... it's like poking bone no matter where you touch) #but i think it is finally catching up w me bc i legit cannot breathe without feeling pain #maybe ill go to urgent care abt it #tho i feel like they're just gonna tell me to roll it out and take ibuprofen #so #yk whatever #personal #anyway it sucks bad

[morganpdf]

OUGH i feel so.............. icky today and idk what the cause even is so idk how to address it

#my eyes feel swollen/have for ages but that on top of weird fuzzy brain & lung hurt im 😵‍ #morgan.pdf #its not covid its probably related to valley fever but OUGH its making my anxiety spike so bad today i feel Very ????

[abluescarfonwaston]

Me coughing hard enough to wake me up and keep me awake for an hour: ... But in an hour I'll be fine enough to work.

Me an hour later getting ready for work and coughing up a headache: ... I should probably not go in and kill my 68 year old coworker huh

#American work til you physically cant 'its not that bad' upbringing #vs knowing a cold would probably kill a man with 100 year old smoker lungs #fuck #also anxiety: your boss isnt going to believe you juat didnt want to get up since uou only messaged him an hour before work #despite only calling out once and coming back with literal burst eye vessels from voming so hard in 10 months #I just dont want to eat my pto before top surgery!!!! damnit peter if you had a cold why didnt you mask up at least?!