#but as wimmin yknow

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Here we go lesbians HERE WE GO 

Steph/Tony

#scribbles #stevetony #but as wimmin yknow

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(putting this in the queue or drafts idk yet)

i think one of the things that is so gender confusing for me as a trans masculine person is i still do relate very much to misogynistic experiences, and especially depictions of women fighting back or subverting that misogyny, despite my desire to be seen otherwise— and it’s not so much a desire to escape misogyny and leave it to those poor wimmin (as a t*rf will often dogwhistle about) but more a desire to occupy another role, and yknow dysphoria lol. one of my biggest fears is that role will have the power to oppress, an oppression which I KNOW about on a visceral existential level bc i’ve lived it and therefore don’t want to replicate it. and it’s not like i would have access to that power anyways, because society rrrreeeeaaalllyyy doesn’t view trans men as men, as soon as they reveal they’re trans, at least. like ppl act bc trans men can pass easier cuz of T that it’s like a free male privilege pass, when the entirety of that pass relies on no one knowing ur trans, pretty much ever. and that trans men don’t face the same issues of access to healthcare that women face? the same fear of someone scrutinizing your body? the same fear of violence from men if they think something you do is genderly wrong? i swear lol. ppl act like just bc femininity is policed and critiqued to a deafening level that it’s less inclusive than manhood is. you’ve seen other boys call each other pansies and fags and girls the moment they do something gender-nonconforming, right? have you seen how easy it is to be excluded from manhood, and the panic that comes after that? just bc one small group of assholes (terfs) are deciding who is and who isn’t a woman now doesn’t mean that the people they exclude, society will call men. and just because some bros are more “laid-back” and some women are more “clique-y” on an individual level doesn’t mean that when you introduce yourselves to these people, they'll give you male privilege if you don’t pass.  so anyways i won’t ever forget my experiences as a woman, nor do i want to! and i don’t really want membership to the boy’s club that told me i was shit all my life! and i don’t care if that makes me less trans! what would be the most ideal for me would be to be the most masculine in a society of women— obviously not to have power over them— but for quasi-spiritual gender reasons i can’t really articulate right now. i don’t think women would be so hateful and restrictive about my gender, either. i think the world of women. 

#im just for lack of better wording not a woman #but i still identify with womens experiences and i dont think thats wrong or makes my gender less 'valid' #i see a lot of trans men running from and ignoring their experiences as woman and that doesn't sit right with me #and i get it why would u stick with something that gives u dysphoria? #plus trans men have verrryyyyyyyyy different experiences with misogyny than cis women do but misogyny is the same